CheputChan19 Posted October 16, 2014 Author Posted October 16, 2014 Kenji shake his head slowly and walk toward the ghost and hugged him tight. "no, I was the one who wrong.. I'll die for you he that make you better.." he still scared about die but seeing his lover like this, he willing do anything to that ghost. "it's okay, don't talk about that if you can't talk about it.." he keep hugged the ghost like there's no day again to do that.
Kotorichan Posted October 16, 2014 Posted October 16, 2014 Evan bit his lip and shook his head. "No... I can't do that to you Kenji... I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking straight..." He slowly returned the hug. "I-I'm just scared... But I can't let you die because of my selfishness..."
CheputChan19 Posted October 16, 2014 Author Posted October 16, 2014 Kenji just still silent and shake his head then his body start to tremble again. "it's okay.. I'm just scared that you will leave me.." he mumbling within his hug, his legs felt swolen so sudden. "I-I love you, Evan.. Please don't do any reckless again.."
Kotorichan Posted October 16, 2014 Posted October 16, 2014 "I'm sorry... I'll do my best... Sometimes I just feel really upset and I can't control myself... Please just don't let the things I say when I'm like that hurt you..." Evan pulled back, the red fading from his eyes. "I really love you Kenji, I want to make you happy"
CheputChan19 Posted October 16, 2014 Author Posted October 16, 2014 "are you always like this before, Evan? I mean if this happen again I could do something to stop you..." Kenji look up at the ghost then shake his head with a soft smile. "I'm not mad with you, b-but actually you're really scared me before.." he paused and added. "I know it, Evan.." he said with soft voice and pressed his lips against the ghost's.
Kotorichan Posted October 16, 2014 Posted October 16, 2014 Evan pulled away. "I... I don't know... Sometimes these things just happen and I don't know how to stop it... A couple tears ago one of the people that bullied me a lot graduated, he mentioned me in his speech as his 'lost friend who he wished was there with him' I just got so angry and that same thing happened..." the ghost looked away sadly. "I pushed him off the stage and he got hurt really badly..."
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 Kenji breathed heavily and look at the ghost when he pulled away. " It's not your fault, that bastard just trigger your button... It's okay I won't make you like that again, never.." he smiled softly to Evan then notice the class already start but he was too lazy to went there.
Kotorichan Posted October 17, 2014 Posted October 17, 2014 Evan leaned in to give his boyfriend a light kiss. "if it ever happens again then promise me you won't blame yourself... and you won't let me convince you to do anything stupid... I love you so much Kenji and I could never forgive myself if I hurt you"
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 Kenji blushed when the ghost give him a light kiss and nodded slowly. "umm, yeah..though It's hard you know, moreover when you said that you will vanish from me because I didn't want to die for you.. but I'll try to forget it.." he mumbled at the end of his sentence then look down at the ground, there's still afraid feeling on his chest when he remember that.
Kotorichan Posted October 17, 2014 Posted October 17, 2014 "I won't really vanish..." Evan cupped Kenji's face in his hands "I promise, I won't ever leave you alone... I love you far too much to do anything like that to you" he kissed the boy's forehead gently. "please believe me..."
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 "o-okay I believe in you, Evan..." Kenji said with a soft sob then immediately wipe his tears with his sleeve. "I love you too, more than I love myself.." he bring his arm around the ghost and hugged him again.
Kotorichan Posted October 17, 2014 Posted October 17, 2014 Evan frowned and hugged him tightly. "Please don't say that... I want you to love yourself Kenji, I just want you to be happy..." He blinked back tears and pressed his face into the other's neck.
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 Kenji chuckled and pull back a little, look at the ghost. "don't make a face like that, Evan... If I love you more, you can love me back more... It's simple thing..." he chuckle again and wipe the ghost's tears with his thumb, His feeling already better now.
Kotorichan Posted October 17, 2014 Posted October 17, 2014 Evan leaned into his touch with a shy smile. "I love you more than anyone or anything in the world..." he leaned in and gave him a soft kiss before standing up. "you should probably go to class, I don't want you to get in trouble"
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 Kenji blushed while Evan kissed his lips though he had always do this with that ghost and his face turn more darker as hear that he was valuable for Evan. "I guess I'm already late to go back to my class... " he chuckled lightly, scratch his cheek a little.
Kotorichan Posted October 17, 2014 Posted October 17, 2014 "so should we just skip it completely?" Evan snuggled up to the man, nuzzling his face into Kenji's neck lovingly. "We could just cuddle out here... It might sound creepy, but I love how warm your body is..." he laughed softly.
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 Kenji look at the ghost then laughed too. "yeah, I don't mind, Evan.. I'm a little bit lazy to follow the lesson anyway..." he grunt a little as ghost nuzzled on his neck, felt something that awaken him a little. "it's okay.. Just cuddled as you like Evan.." he smiled softly and bring his arm around the ghost.
Kotorichan Posted October 17, 2014 Posted October 17, 2014 Evan pushed Kenji down on the ground and snuggled up on top of him, closing his eyes. "I think that if you hadn't found me... I probably would have lost my mind..." he said quietly. "sometimes I felt like my body was drifting apart... but since I met you I haven't felt like that anymore"
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 Kenji let out a soft gaps as Evan pushed him down and grunt again as the ghost snuggled on top of him. "drifting apart? I-Is that your desired to having intimate with someone?" he asked bluntly, still try to compose his mind because the closeness between him and the ghost make his mind clouded.
Kotorichan Posted October 17, 2014 Posted October 17, 2014 "I think that I just felt like there was no point to existing... I had just started to give up completely..." Even closed his eyes and rested his face on Kenji's chest, listening to his heart beat.
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 "no, don't think about that again.. You're valuable for me now.. That's mean you deserve to existing in this world.." Kenji look at his lover with a slight pout on his lips. He enjoy the cold skin of Evan touched his, close his eyes slowly.
Kotorichan Posted October 17, 2014 Posted October 17, 2014 "I know, that's why I haven't been floating away anymore...." He opened his eyes to look up at Kenji lovingly "you've given me the will to keep going... You're the reason I'm still here... Thank you"
CheputChan19 Posted October 17, 2014 Author Posted October 17, 2014 "no problem, Evan... That's not a big thing at all.." Kenji blushed softly and scratch his cheek slowly. He look at the ghost's face firmly but with a soft smile surely. He was tired especially after had too much event with his lover and without he realize he already fall asleep a minutes later.
Kotorichan Posted October 18, 2014 Posted October 18, 2014 Evan quietly lay on the boy, enjoying his body heat. After just a couple minutes he too fell into a light happy sleep, gently gripping the front of Kenji's shirt for comfort.
CheputChan19 Posted October 18, 2014 Author Posted October 18, 2014 Kenji was really enjoying his nap until then he wake up because the weather around him turn out to cold. He open his eyes slowly and found his beloved ghost fall asleep too on his chest, make him form a small smile.
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