♢My Master♢ {Yukonwolfspirit~M-jow (18+}

[Yukonwolfspirit]

“Ah, a true deep weakness of mine…food.” Yukie said with a deep sigh as if he was fighting himself internally over keeping Julius here or eating chicken. Snuggling Julius for a moment longer he let his mate go having decided on food as he couldn’t ignore his hunger pains. Moving out of the nest and he sneakily hid behind the pillows from whoever was going to deliver food. 

He would just have to pounce when Julius came back to the bed.

Yukie would win two prizes in his hunting efforts, his mate and some tasty chicken.

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Taking the medicine Haruhi sipped his drink and poked at the pancake the topic at hand still irritating him.

”…I don’t want your wolf…to see me as some weak ass mate. I am just as capable of holding my own. I did it before you.” Haruhi stated rather bluntly as he ripped up the pancake eating a few bites here and there. “I saved myself…don’t forget…I am strong.” Haruhi added as he looked at Yumro thinking back to how he had to escape back then and take Haru.

”I know you mean well. I adore that you love and care for me so well…it’s just. I want to stand by your side as an equal. Not as something beneath you that needs extra care and isn’t able to handle the harder things. I already had a husband like that.” Haruhi explained as he looked down at the ripped pancake the conversation bitter in his mouth. He hated it. Hated the way he felt. There was still so much pain from before, he was healing but some things….they were hard to understand and accept. He knew that Yumro was being a great mate, he cared so much and as much at Haruhi craved this he also feared it.

 “Sometimes….it gets all strange and off…inside my head, it’s like all of the things I feel are twisted and confusing. You’re nothing like him…but I can’t help feeling like I’m still back there sometimes…like I’m just some pretty thing to look at or….desire….I feel this same way when Yukies being to demanding…sometimes….things just get foggy….things….are to off..” Haruhi whispered trying to understand his own feelings on the sudden realization of all the change around him all while trying to process pent up trauma, doing this while explaining them to Yumro had become a bit overwhelming. It was unknowingly making Haruhi just more upset and emotional as he felt the lump in his throat catch and felt burning tears falling down his cheeks something that shocked him as he didn’t know fully why he was crying.

”I-I’m not angry with you…I’m…” Haruhi tried to explain only to break out in a hiccup as he stared down at the mess of a pancake before him torn into little bite sized pieces.