Angry letter to myself

[InuCassy]

Dear Myself,

What have you gotten yourself into?

You gave away a piece of your heart you should have held onto.

Now you're all torn up inside.

Too many tears have been shed.

What are you looking for in you?

Don't you feel dumb?

Or are you just numb?

Can't you see why you hide from the word called LOVE?

Can't be angry.

Hell, you can't even be sad.

It was something you weren't suppose to have.

So maybe disappearing is all you have left.

Run away from the world.

Go and hide form the light.

Take that bottle of pills.

Then go to sleep at night.

No one will bother to even find you.

Your name will be erased.

Only the blurry memories of your face will remain.

Then they will fade with the wind.

Nothing left of you existence.

It will be as if you were never here.

Name forgotten forever.

No even worth mentioning.

More space for a new soul that can smile.

Wasted space for a nobody.

Do it stupid girl.

Take away all your pain.

Maybe a deep enough cut.

Watch the blood slowly drain.

Feel the cold come into you.

Let your warmth evaporate.

Bite your lip hard.

Maybe say one last prayer.

Sit in the corner and hang your head.

Don't even think of regret.

Shedding a tear will be pointless.

This is what you've been wanting.

Perfect time to just do it.

Scared is nothing.

Just another excuse.

So step into the dark side and let's just get this through.