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Love of the Egoist “I wanted to play with you… punish you. But now, I want to ruin your world and turn it pitch black. Isolate you so you don’t have anything left except me. And remember, it’s your own fault.” * * * Isolation. Loneliness. Endless silence stretching into eternity. This is the personal living hell of police detective, Kuon Leiris. His punishment for ruining the Black Duke’s deal. But when nights come, it gets worse… Cruelty. Care. Brutality. Affection. Constant mind games where he can do nothing, but give in. Yugo pours his every corrupt desire into his prey, testing the limits of their twisted relationship. Do you dare enter a dark world where safe-words don’t exist? WARNING WARNING WARNING: THIS BOOK CONTAINS STRAIGHT OUT SEXUAL ABUSE AKA RAPE. GOOD OLD STOCKHOLM SYNDROME, KIDNAPPING, POSSIBLE MAIN CHARACTER DEATH AT THE ENDING WHO KNOWS ITS SO AMBIGUOUS, DARK DARKNESS JUST FUN TIMES. My Goodreads review: "Holy fucking shit this was GOOD. Oh my God??? I have no words. Ignoring the few grammatical errors, the long fight scenes where, if you’re not a native English speaker, like me, it gets a little bit hard to understand after a while, since they are explained up to the last detail and for some reason my brain couldn’t translate and picture it at the same time, and the god damn CLIFFHANGER at the end. God I hate cliffhangers. I will die before the sequel comes out, probably. GIVE ME MORE, AUTHOR." 5 stars ***** Goodreads rating: 4.44 stars I ignored everything else when I started reading this so I documented my entire journey with it on Goodreads as follow: "Just starting this and I am SO READY to dive into darkness and some psychological dark shit. Mmmm...talk dirty to me. I have high expectations for this, please don’t let me down." "kfkflskfd if you’re not a native English speaker, like me, the fight scenes will be hard to understand, like is happening to me right now. They are loooong and convoluted." "“You are getting aroused by your rapist’s touch, and you dare to call me a pervert?” omfg this is daaark." "The only thing that I don't like is the author referring to semen/sperm/cum, as “Juice”. That is so mid 2000’s fanfiction. Also there are some grammatical errors." "“He didn’t see two fighting studs anymore. He saw one stud wooing his bitch.” LOL omg. Possessive much?" Listen, this was a wild ride. I feel like I should plaster warning lights everywhere on this review because this will DEFINITELY trigger some people. Don't say I dint warn you. We have the main characters Kuon & Yugo. Kuon is a detective who was investigating Yugo, who is more or less a mobster. Kuon interferes with some negotiation Yugo was making and fucks it up costing Yugo money, time, men and a little bit of his reputation...which is when he kidnaps Kuon. He isolates him in darkness 24/7, in horrible condition for a while just to make Kuon crave his touch and his presence when he goes down to the basement. There he decides to toy with the detective, make him his toy, his slave, his to do as he pleases. Of course, not everything is as "erotic" (???) as it sounds. Yugo forces himself on Kuon multiple times, he beats him up and then tends to his wounds, he rapes him forcefully and then with gentle touches and kisses WHICH OF COURSE fucks up Kuon's brain even to the point that he stopped trying to escape after a while. I am so not going to spoil the ending because oh my god what a plot twist BUT it ends in a fucking CLIFFHANGER, in an ambiguous ending. Is it a happy or a sad ending? God fucking knows. It depends on who you ask. Supposedly there is going to be a 2nd book "early next year" which sounds way too fucking far, if you ask me. The point is that....this was hella good. It was dark, it was twisted, it was psychological...I mean, it wasn't the best damn book I have ever read but it kept me interested and it was dark enough to satisfy my darkness quota of the day. Although I have read darker novels (pray for me). “"Damn you!" unzipping his jeans, he took out his cock in his hand and bit his lip "Bastard..." he cursed. But his hand din't stop moving. Yugo, watching his monitor, licked his lips. "Bastard..." the speakers spoke in Kuon's voice. The curse stretched his lips in a satisfied smile. "You better be dreaming only about one bastard-me!" he whispered to the monitor. The man on the screen shuddered as a sweet and faint moan left his lips. A hot wave washed down Yugo's spine as he clenched his fists.“ PS: This book can't be uploaded here for legal boring reasons but if you want it, I can message it to you or something idk. Go down the dark, sinful rabbit hole with me. I like dark shit. Sue me.