hama71 Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 My first love die long time ago... But, time to time I just miss him and want to see him so much that I can't control my tear... But, I can't give up this life of mine... I don't think he want me to give up my life and follow him... I believe he want me to live life he couldn't have... So even it is hard for me to live this life some time... I try to keep up... so I want to see him later with smile... and say... "I keep the live you give me!" But, still I really miss him! 10 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
cherryyuri Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 oh hama! how sad!! ut yes, you're right. dont give up. live whatbhe couldnt. he will be very happy, im sure!! be strong!! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
현애 Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 imu... i sad T.T i know how you felt .. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Last_sky16 Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 Hama san i feel like i wanna give u a very tight hug... gosh...u r such a strong person...very strong... i know a song which has the same meaning with wat u've been through... gosh...how sad it is...T^T well...life gotta move on right??..Hama san be strong yeah...fighting!!!! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 9, 2011 Author Share Posted September 9, 2011 oh hama! how sad!! ut yes, you're right. dont give up. live whatbhe couldnt. he will be very happy, im sure!! be strong!! Thank you! I been faceing this for so long... I will keep trying as I said in poem... I am weak but he will give me strength to go on... ^^ imu... i sad T.T i know how you felt .. It's O.K. I wish you don't feel same thing in you life... I want you to have better love then I do... ^^ Hama san i feel like i wanna give u a very tight hug... gosh...u r such a strong person...very strong... i know a song which has the same meaning with wat u've been through... gosh...how sad it is...T^T well...life gotta move on right??..Hama san be strong yeah...fighting!!!! Thank you! I been live with this for so long.. I will keep on trying to be strong not only for me for him too... I believe he want to live the life he couldn't have... I don't know I could love some one again... I did met some people but never been love like much as I did to him... Well, it was my first love any way... But, still I will try to live my other day... try to smile... ^^ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Last_sky16 Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 well hama nee-chan...seriously after reading yours and yojichan's poem.. i feel so touched on how 1st love means to both of u... i honestly says i dun even hve 1st love eventhough im 16 now...but i could feel how precious 1st love is to people... i totally adore ur love towards ur 1st love...u became stronger becoz u love him so much which makes me feel proud of u... well maybe later i will feel it but not now i guess... i dun even hve time for myself...hehe 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 9, 2011 Author Share Posted September 9, 2011 well hama nee-chan...seriously after reading yours and yojichan's poem.. i feel so touched on how 1st love means to both of u... i honestly says i dun even hve 1st love eventhough im 16 now...but i could feel how precious 1st love is to people... i totally adore ur love towards ur 1st love...u became stronger becoz u love him so much which makes me feel proud of u... well maybe later i will feel it but not now i guess... i dun even hve time for myself...hehe Well my first love was die that is what is more motional and precious to me... Oh... I was younger then you when I had my first love... ^^;;; So my first love isn't any physical love at all it more pure love... If he didn't die we just stay as first love and move on with the life... Because he die that I still can't let go of him... May be I have to live this life for him kind of feeling... I don't think he want that... I know he want me to live life for myself... and move on... But, still I just can't do that... May be someday who know I might finally move on with my life... But, I still don't have that someone so... I am still thinking of my first love... May be that is reason why I don't have that someone... ^^;;; I wish you will have more lovely first love... Don't have to explence I had... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nena21 Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 Hama, I absolutely love your poem! So sensitive and sad, so full of feelings! I can really feel your pain and sadness while reading it, which means you have done a great job! leaf4 You really need to think positively and live your life as best as you can, I'm sure that he's not happy seeing you crying and he'd love seeing your smile each day! So, be strong, for him and for you! *hugs* foxy3 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 9, 2011 Author Share Posted September 9, 2011 Hama, I absolutely love your poem! So sensitive and sad, so full of feelings! I can really feel your pain and sadness while reading it, which means you have done a great job! leaf4 You really need to think positively and live your life as best as you can, I'm sure that he's not happy seeing you crying and he'd love seeing your smile each day! So, be strong, for him and for you! *hugs* foxy3 Thank you! I am try... It's just happen once in while I can't control long for him... It's been so long but still I can't let him go... It's not good for him or me... But, I just miss him so much... I can't even remember is face or his voice... But, I still can feel him... Any way I am fine.. I think... ^^ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yojichan Posted September 9, 2011 Share Posted September 9, 2011 hama-san, after what you've told me, i can really sense the strong heartbreak of this poem. and i'm just only knowing right now that you had your first love at such a young age...much younger than june-chan. that's pretty intense. i can see that had things been different perhaps it would have been easier to move on but the fact that he died can be devastating for someone so young. was he older than you or the same age? were you friends? what did he die from? i'm sorry i am asking too much questions. i understand if you don't feel like answering any of it since it might bring up those painful feelings again. i'm really sorry. *hugs* i hope you do find another love in your life. not as a replacement but someone totally worthy of you. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 9, 2011 Author Share Posted September 9, 2011 hama-san, after what you've told me, i can really sense the strong heartbreak of this poem. and i'm just only knowing right now that you had your first love at such a young age...much younger than june-chan. that's pretty intense. i can see that had things been different perhaps it would have been easier to move on but the fact that he died can be devastating for someone so young. was he older than you or the same age? were you friends? what did he die from? i'm sorry i am asking too much questions. i understand if you don't feel like answering any of it since it might bring up those painful feelings again. i'm really sorry. *hugs* i hope you do find another love in your life. not as a replacement but someone totally worthy of you. Well it's just I was young and he was so good to me... I can't help fall in love him and can't forget him... No, it's o.k. Well he was much older (may be that was why I always like older man... ^^;;; ), who was my mom's cousin... So if he is still a live we can't be together ether... But, still my pain will be little less... who know... ^^;;; It was accident... I can't remember what kind of accident was that... Only think I remember I had bad feeling when my mom go a call that he had died... I didn't want to believe and I keep try to ignore the truth about death for quit long time... When I start to accept the truth I already hurting myself to much... So I still stay in single... I don't know who could love me... the person who could not let go of first love... May be because of that I do build a quit strong wall in heart... or as other poem said may be I just don't have heart for love... ^^;;; Any way... I am fine... Just once in a while I have this strong long for him and wanting for him... I just can't control... Just few cry and letting my feeling out help... That was why I wrote that poem... ^^ Any way thank you! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Macys Posted September 11, 2011 Share Posted September 11, 2011 The poem is so sad, so well written! I started to cry... rabbit0 Be strong dear, I can imagine it was hard for you, but I hope, as Yojichan said, that you'll find a new love, a person who'll know how to love you as much as you deserve and who will ease the pain *hugs* foxy3 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 11, 2011 Author Share Posted September 11, 2011 The poem is so sad, so well written! I started to cry... rabbit0 Be strong dear, I can imagine it was hard for you, but I hope, as Yojichan said, that you'll find a new love, a person who'll know how to love you as much as you deserve and who will ease the pain *hugs* foxy3 Thank you! Well I am fine.... ^^ Just as I said to other... it's just once in while thing... I don't know about new love... I am happy as who I am... that is most important I think... ^^ Any way thank you again for your kind word! ^^ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
panda16 Posted September 14, 2011 Share Posted September 14, 2011 I like very much this poem, I like sad poems! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 14, 2011 Author Share Posted September 14, 2011 I like very much this poem, I like sad poems! Well I did wrote few more... But, not all sad... ^^;;; I like little more happy one... But, somehow some sad part in the poem... ^^;;; Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
memorex Posted September 15, 2011 Share Posted September 15, 2011 Oh...hama.. I like your poem.. You touched my heart :leaf9: Don't worry dear. There will be someone who is meant for you, it just that that someone hasn't show up yet Be strong, cause life is full of miseries and sadness but it is also full of happiness and joy with a little mixture of tears. So I still stay in single... I don't know who could love me... the person who could not let go of first love... You know, when you said these words, I'm sure they will love you. You are you. Someone who cannot understand you is not meant for you. To me, a relationship is about understanding. And of course, you will love them back. It just that, this will take some time. When you keep on living, don't make this as a sad memory for you. Make it as the sweetest memory ever! Thank him for that he had taught you the meaning of love Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 15, 2011 Author Share Posted September 15, 2011 Oh...hama.. I like your poem.. You touched my heart :leaf9: Don't worry dear. There will be someone who is meant for you, it just that that someone hasn't show up yet Be strong, cause life is full of miseries and sadness but it is also full of happiness and joy with a little mixture of tears. You know, when you said these words, I'm sure they will love you. You are you. Someone who cannot understand you is not meant for you. To me, a relationship is about understanding. And of course, you will love them back. It just that, this will take some time. When you keep on living, don't make this as a sad memory for you. Make it as the sweetest memory ever! Thank him for that he had taught you the meaning of love Thank you! Well it's just once in life time feeling I guess... ^^ He taught me... just leave me to soon... --;;; Any way... I just want to stay as who I am... Not trying to be some other... I still feel sick... so I can't write too long... Any way thank you for all your good words... ^^ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
memorex Posted September 15, 2011 Share Posted September 15, 2011 Thank you! I still feel sick... so I can't write too long... Any way thank you for all your good words... ^^ Your welcome Oh, and I hope you get well soon ^^ 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 15, 2011 Author Share Posted September 15, 2011 Your welcome Oh, and I hope you get well soon ^^ I hope so too... But, this will take some time... If it's just little cold... one or two day will be get better... This time I got with my stomach problem together... --;; So I will need few more day to get better... Sorry to make you guys worry... T T Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
memorex Posted September 15, 2011 Share Posted September 15, 2011 So I will need few more day to get better... Sorry to make you guys worry... T T That's what friends are for! You need to make them worry! Haha, I'm being ridiculous here. ^^ 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 19, 2011 Author Share Posted September 19, 2011 That's what friends are for! You need to make them worry! Haha, I'm being ridiculous here. ^^ Well, I don't know... I don't like to make people worry... --;;; But, somehow I alway do make other worry about me... Any way... this time everything is up and down so much... I just lost what to do... Seem getting better one day and got worry next... I just give up... I know I shouldn't... --;;; Any way... I want to do some work on some poem and mix pictures... But, I just can't get anything done... --;;; Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
memorex Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 Well, I don't know... I don't like to make people worry... --;;; But, somehow I alway do make other worry about me... Any way... this time everything is up and down so much... I just lost what to do... Seem getting better one day and got worry next... I just give up... I know I shouldn't... --;;; Any way... I want to do some work on some poem and mix pictures... But, I just can't get anything done... --;;; Hey, want to know something? People worry because they care for you Don't give up on everything you do! Be strong! Oh, and..try to work little by little, eventually the work will done ^^ 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 19, 2011 Author Share Posted September 19, 2011 Hey, want to know something? People worry because they care for you Don't give up on everything you do! Be strong! Oh, and..try to work little by little, eventually the work will done ^^ Well, even I know what you say... but, still I don't want to make people worry about it... --;; Even I said that... I don't give up that easy... that is one of my good and bad point... I just found out today it will be rain... That is why my body is totally off... --;;; Oh, working little by little... It's not work on me... If I am in it... I totally into it... So there is no stop... that alway make thing worse when you are sick... --;;; So that was reason I said I will take time off... But, I may have to start did this little by little thing... I feel totally off for too long... --;;; I need to get going little by little now... or I might not get back at all for too long... --;;; Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
memorex Posted September 19, 2011 Share Posted September 19, 2011 But, I may have to start did this little by little thing... I feel totally off for too long... --;;; I need to get going little by little now... or I might not get back at all for too long... --;;; Yes, you should ^^ Hope you getting better 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hama71 Posted September 19, 2011 Author Share Posted September 19, 2011 Yes, you should ^^ Hope you getting better People say about this under the weather... I am in that right now... Well not in motion... may be little... more in my body... I with this weather go away soon... --;;; Thank you! I hope so too... this time taking too long to get better... Just problem ofter problem... --;;; But, I will try... ^^ 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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