Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 Ryan nodded, although he wasn't actually very hungry. He just felt scared that someone might realize that Mathis was a killer... He was so scared that the police would show up at any moment.
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis hummed a song and reached for Ryan's hand. He noticed how Mathis seemed tensed. He chuckled, softly. "why so tense? I should be the one to feel paranoid."
Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 "Because... What if you get caught? Maybe we should just order take out... I mean, I should at least talk to the police before we go out, just to make sure they aren't getting ready to arrest you..." Ryan glanced at Mathis nervously.
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis shrugged and continued humming. "can't say. If i get caught, it's my fault. If i don't, awesome. Either way, I'm prepared. Don't be afraid.Just enjoy the time we have together." He said with a grin.
Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 "it's not fair..." Ryan looked away, squeezing his hand tightly. "y-you can't get caught... It isn't fair, you made me love you like this... You're turning me into a nervous mess Mathis, you c-can't just get caught and leave me alone"
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis felt his chest tightened. He felt guilt for the first time in a long time. "Ryan, I manipulated you into falling for me. It was a cold-blooded scheme to get close to you and then kill you. You don't deserve a monster like me. I'm a sociopath. Just end this now and move on with your life. You deserve someone better." Â - - - Updated - - - Â Mathis felt his chest tightened. He felt guilt for the first time in a long time. "Ryan, I manipulated you into falling for me. It was a cold-blooded scheme to get close to you and then kill you. You don't deserve a monster like me. I'm a sociopath. Just end this now and move on with your life. You deserve someone better."
Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 Ryan stared at the ground, trying to hold back his tears. "I can't... Don't you think I wanted to? I was so fucking scared wen I found out... But I've been pulled in too deep, I can't just end this..." He brushed tears away with the back of his hand.
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis wanted to comfort Ryan, but he didn't dare to. He needed to end this relationship. Whether he wanted to put not. "I know... I still don't understand why you fell for me. The person you fell for was a persona. I've shown you my true self and you fear him." He said without a hint of warmth.
Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 Ryan covered his face with his hands and let out a soft sob. "I don't know... I don't understand it... Fuck, why don't you just kill me? that's what you wanted right?"
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis sighed and looked away. Afraid to show Ryan his fear and pain. "you don't deserve death." He said softly. He let go of Ryan's hand. Trying not to cry alongside him. "it would be easier if you just hate me."
Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 Ryan sobbed softly and shook his head. "I can't! I just fucking can't! If I could then I would have called the police or run away already..." He dug his nails into the skin of his face. "I don't know what to do... this is all your fault..."
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis sighed and turned to look at Ryan. A sad smile gracing his face. "it is...but I'll help you hate me."
Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 "why?" Ryan pulled his hands away and looked at the man with tear filled eyes. "Do you really h-hate me that much?"
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis chuckled and looked away trying to hide hispainand nodded. "of course, i only stuck around so long out of pity, bit now ice grown tired of you."
Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 Ryan's breath stopped in his throat. "w-what? but..." a pained sob finally torn through his body and his face completely crumpled in despair." Y-you- you're a fucking monster!" He screamed, feeling like he had just fallen apart completely. "G-get out! If you hate me so much then just leave!" he grabbed Mathis's shoulders and weakly pushed him towards the door.
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis began to laugh and turned towards the door. "as you wish. Hope to see you never." He said. He went towards the door and closed it. Once outside, he began to cry softly and smiled.
Kotorichan Posted September 28, 2014 Author Posted September 28, 2014 Ryan finally collapsed on his floor, a complete mess of tears and sobs. He couldn't believe that he was so stupid... of course Mathis didn't love him...
pandamonium Posted September 28, 2014 Posted September 28, 2014 Mathis made his way home. It was beginning to get dark. He continued to cry and laugh. "I'm sorry, Ryan. But you deserved better." He murmured to himself.
Kotorichan Posted September 29, 2014 Author Posted September 29, 2014 Ryan just curled up on the floor and cried, he didn't know what to do with himself anymore. Things seemed to have completely fallen apart by this point... He just wanted everything to stop being so painful.
pandamonium Posted September 29, 2014 Posted September 29, 2014 Mathis arrived to his apartment and locked the door. He walked towards his room and turned on his stereo. He plopped down on his bed and laid down. He stared at the ceiling and smiled. "I'm terribly sorry Ryan...but you shouldn't be nest me any longer."
Kotorichan Posted September 29, 2014 Author Posted September 29, 2014 Ryan pulled out his phone and stared at it through his tears. Without thinking he called Mathis' number not even sure what he was going to say.
pandamonium Posted September 29, 2014 Posted September 29, 2014 Mathis felt his phone vibrate from his pants. He pulled it out and saw Ryan's phone number. He was tempted to answer, but decided to not answer. "guess it's time." He murmured. He sat up with a groan and crouched next to his bed. He pulled something from underneath his bed.
Kotorichan Posted September 29, 2014 Author Posted September 29, 2014 Ryan sobbed harder when his call went to voice mail. "M-Mathis, please don't hate me... I don't know what to do without you, please..." he knew that it was pointless to leave a message like this. "I don't know what t-to do with myself..." he finally hung up and immediately dialed the number again.
pandamonium Posted September 29, 2014 Posted September 29, 2014 He sat staying at the box on the bed, when he heard his phone vibrate again. He saw Ryan's number again and decided to answer. He took a deep breathe and exhaling, before answering. "hello?"
Kotorichan Posted September 29, 2014 Author Posted September 29, 2014 Ryan was a complete mess when Mathis answered, it was almost impossible to understand him through his panicked sobs. "M-Mathis p-p-please don't hate me, I-I can b-be a b-better boyfriend! I-I dunno what to d-do without you a-anymore please don't- don't leave me"
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