help a nervous fujo out

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sorry i dont know how to make a post on here or whatever. anyways is anyone shy when it comes to watching gay porn..?

i dont like them movies/tv shows / dramas cause theyre not sexy enough for me and im not too big on blcds cause i'm not hear for the plot.

im fine with mangas, doujinshis and blvns but the thought of seeing two real sexy guys fuck makes me so nervous!! i spend 30mins staring at the play button and then i close the tab! i think it might be shame too... porn is uploaded for anyone to watch so why do i feel so disgusting and shy...

im a proud fujoshi. im not ashamed of it. so i'm really confused here... can anyone relate? or are fujos not really into gay porn...