Entanglement { Sosuke0549 & Yukonwolfspirt }

[Sosuke0549]

Kai watched as Yukie searched the storage locker, pulling out two helmets. When he asked how long the drive would be, he was surpised to hear it would be four hours long. If taking a train was faster, then why were they taking the long way? 

 

[ " It’s a ridiculous commute, but it’s who we all go see when we need more than just a simple checkup.” ]

 

He nodded, listening as Yukie explained to him that his boss, Miskha, paid a doctor under the table to take care of Yukie and other clients. Someone who doesn't call the cops and looks the other way when it comes to injuries, someone who didnt ask questions. It made sense...Yukie wouldn't be able to go to a normal hospital...they would ask too many questions. 

 

When he asked for a little clarification as to why Yukie asked him to come along, he was honestly suprised by the answer. Yukie...wanted to include him more in his life.

 

Really? Was the answer that simple...and pure?

 

Then Yukie back peddled, saying taking him was maybe...better than taking his boss or a co-worker. 

 

[ ”Maybe…just maybe I wanted to go with someone who made me feel comfortable…someone safe.”]

 

 

Kai's grip on Yukie loosened and he felt a tightness in his chest. He was starting to forget why he even liked Yukie...but just now...he was quickly reminded. He pulled away from him, quickly adding that a doctor's appointment was something simple, that this wasn't a big deal...and yet it was kind of intimate because if Yukie got uncomfortable, Kai would be there to comfort him. 

 

The walls he built around himself were high...but Kai just got a glimpse over them...and he wanted to see more. 

 

How could someone so cute...be so strong too?

 

"Okay..." he said softly. He was content with his response, even tho Yukie now appeared more irritated with this conversation...Kai needed it. He had been waiting for months to be something more to Yukie...so now that it was happening...it just...made him uneasy, however he wasn't going to let this opportunity slip through his fingers. 

 

[ ”Anything else you need to know?” ]

 

Kai averted his gaze, as he awkwardly rubbed the back of his neck. 

 

He thought about asking another question...

 

( Do you like me?.... Would it be weird if we...dated?)

 

But...he held his tongue. Shaking his head. 

 

"No..."

 

For a few minutes they were silent, and Kai waited as Yukie prepared his bike...but as more time passed he couldn't help but look down at Yukie who seemed to be struggling with something... so much so that he had to get a tool box. 

 

Kai couldn't help but feel a little tug on the corner of his lips. Yukie was stubborn...that was something Kai really liked about him. There he was fiddling with his bike refusing to ask for help...even tho he was standing next to a mechanic. 

 

He sighed and joined Yukie, taking a knee and immediately seeing what the problem was. Without saying anything, he reached out and fixed the issue, adjusting a part and tighting a screw so it was more secure. 

 

Ok... Yukie may have a motorcycle... but if he struggled to fix something like this, it was a miracle the bike was even functional. 

 

" Let's go..." he said softly, ruffling up Yukies hair as he stood. He quickly grabbed a helmet and spilled it on. 

 

When they were finally ready to go, Kai, hopped on the back of Yukie's bike, sitting behind him and quickly wrapping his arms around his waist. He got close, his body pressing up against him, his grip firm but gentle. "Ready?" 

[Yukonwolfspirit]

Yukie watched in silence as Kai fixed the bike the man huffing as he watched trying not to be to interested in how Kai was fixing it but…well how could he not be. Yukie would never admit it, let alone show it but he was often fascinated by Kai’s work and how skilled he was at it.

———-backstory————

Yukie had gotten this bike as a gift from his boss a sort of apology to keep him around. Yukie had been given many gifts from Miskha ranging from jewelry to clothes to even fancy cars.

The only thing Yukie had ever kept from Miskha was this bike.

Yukie, when he first signed on as an escort was in a bad place years of shitty living, drinking, and general overall non care for his life had left him on deaths doorstep. Yukie had nothing and nowhere to go leaving him to fend for his life when he was thrown out on the streets once he aged out of the orphanage. A year after being kicked out he only lasted another year being on the streets. It was the middle of winter he had no choices in life left for him, during this time he was in the darkest place in his life headed for total self destruction.

Miskha found him on the streets, staring off of a bridge…facing the end. Next thing he knew he was forced to get in a car and was suddenly in a makeshift sex house.

Yukie lived with Miskha turning twenty a week after being taken off the streets.It had then been a year later of pestering and care from Miskha, he had foolishly fallen for the kind man who saved him who wanted all of him and to have Yukie living by his side 24/7. Yukie being so new to this part of the world had given in to Miskha’s, see it as love and In a way because of this he had with Miskha’s help gotten back to a better state of mind and health.

The bike…It had been a gift for Yukie after he turned 21, he had gotten it after the first time Miskha had beaten him mercilessly. Yukie had pushed back to much, he had questioned and refused a simple act. Miskha had shown his displeasure by hospitalizing him, he showed his apology by showering him with lavish gifts and anything Yukie wanted to keep him from running.

Miskha knowing now how to keep Yukie in check…knowing he now had his precious Bunny as a flight risk he started to plot on what to do leaving Yukie to stay with one of his men until he was good enough to come home. 

Two weeks later Yukie was taken back to Miskha’s home, Miskha was waiting at the door and took him around back and showed Yukie his birthday present waiting for him and showed Yukie he had gotten him a bike and filled out the paperwork for Yukie to legally drive it giving him a (false) sense of freedom. 

After that Yukie was given more time away to ride the bike more clients he could drive to and work that took him places away from Miskha, but still he was smothered and tracked by Miskha 24/7 and as time went on Yukie ended up storing the bike away. Using it for more lengthy trips alone.

As his relationship continued with Miskha Yukies 22bd birthday rolled around and it was more toxic than ever. Yukie had by this point had for the first time started to realize he would never be free of Miskha he was trapped. It wasn’t soon after he met Kai, it had been a night of staying out looking for a place to crash. Yukie brought some beer and ran into Kai. Next thing he knew he had somehow made what a normal person would call a friend and this “friendship” continued from there.

—————backstory—————

“yeah yeah I’ll get to driving.” Yukie replied as he turned away hiding his blush by putting his helmet on. Walking over he locked the storage shed and was grateful for his face being so well hidden as it was burning from embarrassment. Getting on the bike Yukie started it up with ease and let it warm up a bit before kicking the kickstand up. Turning around with a surprising amount of flexibility, Yukie checked Kai’s helmet making sure it was on nice and secure before fiddling with the side of it turning on a secure radio. He then flipped his own on the small connecting beep echoing between the two for a second. Turning back around Yukie shivered slightly at feeling Kai’s arms around him, as he tried not to internally melt at how close and tightly Kai was holding him.

”We can talk easily with the radio.” Yukie stated his voice a touch shy as he was showing just a little bit where some of his money was sunk into (helmets) from all the years of working. Taking off slowly Yukie easily pulled out on the highways and then picked up speed being able to drive the bike with much more ease and grace than one would expect. After a few hours of driving and the beautiful scenery passing Yukie stopped at a small diner needing a break to stretch and well they could stop for lunch.

[Sosuke0549]

Kai was impressed by Yukies driving as well as his taste in music...they didnt talk much. Kai found himself staring at the scenery that passed them by, mintues turned to hours, and when they finally stopped at a small dinner to eat and stretch their legs he groaned immediately cracking his back. "Ah--- " It wasnt easy being hunched over like that for hours, especially when your tall. He took a moment to really stretch, pulling his arms above his head and touching his toes. His back and body stiff. When he took off the helmet, his brown hair was a mess but he didnt have the desire to fix it, and honestly the messy look suited him. " Let's eat." He said softly, heading inside.

The restaurant was definitely a hole in the wall ma and pa place, it felt oddly homie with the smell of coffee and greasy food. Kai sat in a booth and grabbed a laminated menu, scanning it over until he made a decision. He glanced up at Yukie...and found himself staring at the marks around his neck and the bruises on his face. How long would it take for them to heal?
If he could take Yukies pain away...he would...

He quickly cleared his throat when Yukie suddenly made eye contact with him, catching him staring. He averted his gaze and smiled, "Order whatever you want...its on me..."

A few minutes went by before they were greeted by a young waitress, no doubt a highschool.
"Welcome~ what can I get you?"

" I'll take a water and Double burger, medium rare with fries."

She smiled, taking both there orders before gathering the menus.

"Alright~ My names Jinnie, let me know if you need anything else, I'll bring you your drinks."

He nodded and watched her leave before turning his attention back to Yukie. Jennie did her best to pretend she didnt see the marks and bruises on Yukies face...but her expressions were....well...noticeable to say the least.

It was hard not to notice Yukies bruises...

" Are you..ok?" He asked softly.

[Yukonwolfspirit]

Yukie groaned as he got off the bike and stretched his body a bit jello feeling as he stretched and put the helmets away in a bag that was equipped with a lock. Watching Kai stretch Yukie couldn’t help but snicker at the man’s stiffness issue of being bent over him so long. Walking with Kai to the diner Yukie took Kai’s hand leading him to a booth by the window and sat opposite of Kai as they waited for a waitress.

Once she arrived Yukie paid her no mind the reminder he was suppose to be laying low on his trip like a bitter taste in his mouth as he sat staring at the menus only to look away feeling eyes on him. Looking at Kai who cleared his throat caught in the act of starting Yukie could only fight back an amused smile.

11 hours ago, Sosuke0549 said:

"Order whatever you want...its on me..."

“Fine by me so long as I pay for the next outing.” Yukie replied stating his intentions to not let Kai pay for much on this trip. Watching Kai Yukie smiled a little at how kind Kai was on this trip. Of course Kai was always kind…it was what drew Yukie to him in the beginning like a moth to flame. This simple kindness was what was tethering him to Kai at times keeping him from turning and walking away.

Yukie wouldn’t admit it but he craved all of the gentleness Kai smothered him with.

Yukie relaxing alongside Kai mulled over the menu taking his time before giving the woman his order. It was a simple order a cheese burger well done with fries and a coke. It would be a lie to say Yukie didn’t see all the judgement and questions that came from Jinnie’s face. He looked away no emotion at showing he knew about the judgment running through her mind, he acted flawlessly, in the sense that he act as if didn’t even notice her facial expressions wanting to spare the poor girl any embarrassment.

Looking out the window again Yukie stared off a little, his eyes watching the scenery outside the window. Hearing Kai speaking to him Yukie broke away from his busybody task and fully looked at Kai.

“Mmh, oh yeah I’m fine. Not the first time I’ve gone in public places looking like shit. Won’t be the last. She’s polite enough not to ask questions, though I might get asked if I need help or slipped notes asking if I’m okay.” Yukie admitted as he dryly chuckled having dealt with this all before as he sat and  fidgeted with his keys not use to such public outings in the daytime.

”what about you? It’s got to be uncomfortable having so many stares because of this.” Yukie asked mentioning to his face as he stared at Kai not wanting to cause him discomfort as Yukie for the first time looked a slight bit nervous being in public with Kai around.

Edited Wednesday at 06:11 AM by Yukonwolfspirit

[Sosuke0549]

Kai couldn't help but frown hearing how nonchalant Yukie was.

[ " Not the first time I’ve gone in public places looking like shit. Won’t be the last. "]

Hearing that made Kai feel slightly uncomfortable. He wanted it to be his last. Yukie explained to him that he was trapped in the escort business....or at least.. thats what it sounded like to him. Did Yukie not know he was stuck in a cage? That he deserved better? That Kai.. could treat him...so much better.

When Yukie mentioned how people might slip him notes or ask if he was ok...he was alittle suprised by his chuckle and how he changed the direction of the conversation to him.

[ ”what about you? It’s got to be uncomfortable having so many stares because of this.”]

Kai blinked. The thought never occurred to him that people would see them, and might assume he was the aggressor. That he might be seen as an abusive partner or friend.

"Oh...." he smiled.

" I'm not worried... you wanted me to come...so here I am..."

He shrugged.

"Besides... I've never cared about what people thought of me...I find cars easier to deal with then people..." He leaned forward, resting his arm on the table. " Of course...you're an exception..."

He stared at Yukie, his eyes scanning over the marks and bruises on his face. His voice was softer now...less playful.

" Yue... I'm sure...you have your reasons.. for doing what you do...I'd be lying if I said I didn't care about it....But you know how I feel about you... it hasn't changed...even when i found out what you do...and...what i feel is not going to change anytime soon...Id perfer you without bruises, but your past doesn't matter to me...or how many people you've slept with..... my goal is to be last one.... that's all I care about."

He suddenly pulled away as their waitress returned with their drinks. Kai quickly smiled and thanked her before she left. The brown haired male removed the paper from his plastic straw, placing it in his drink before fiddling with the paper/trash.  He began flattening the small piece of paper, intricately folding and twisting it, as he continued to speak.

" When your ready....I'll be here.... by next year....I'll be done with school...and hopefully have my own shop... its not gonna be easy. But at least I'll be doing something I love and I'll have something that belongs to me..."

He paused, finishing his paper project. Kai had taken the straws paper and turned it to a paper ring with a tiny flower on top. He smiled, taking Yukies hand, and slipping the paper ring onto Yues  ring finger.

" Maybe you'll be one of those things too..."

He said this with a straight face, letting go of Yukies hand and laughing softly.

" It looks good on you. Perfect fit. I haven't made one of those in years..."

[Yukonwolfspirit]

16 hours ago, Sosuke0549 said:

" Yue... I'm sure...you have your reasons.. for doing what you do...I'd be lying if I said I didn't care about it....But you know how I feel about you... it hasn't changed...even when i found out what you do...and...what i feel is not going to change anytime soon...Id perfer you without bruises, but your past doesn't matter to me...or how many people you've slept with..... my goal is to be last one.... that's all I care about."

Yukie sat in silence as Kai’s words sunk in. They were heavy, so much more heavier than he ever expected to come from him. The sudden realization that…Kai, he wanted to be the last one Yukie was with the thought alone…was breathtaking. Yukie hadn’t really believed in his feelings but hearing Kai say such a devoted thing in such a public place…it made Yukie feel a rush of warmth through his chest, his heart was pounding as the idea, the dream of being wanted by Kai was something real. 

Sure, Yukie could easily stop fucking clients, Yukie had already signed a new contract getting him away from that life because of his feeling for Kai. Despite Miskha’s anger at him pulling away Yukie had realized being with Kai lately, he was tiered of sleeping around…tiered of being beaten and used.

All these feelings, these desires he had been feeling about Kai had pushed him to change his contract to push on going on this trip. Yukie knew that if it failed he could always go back but..he wanted so desperately to try. He had more motives to this trip than just a checkup.  Yukie wanted to be checked for anything medical disease wise he could hurt Kai with. While Yukie had always been careful and gotten tested often as required by Miskha and more so himself…the idea of Kai getting hurt because of him. Well…the thought of it was to painful to deal with, he wouldn’t ever be able to look Kai in the eyes again.

As the waitress returned with their drinks Yukie looked away and out the window gently taking his drink as he sipped it until she left leaving them once again alone. Looking back over at Kai Yukie watched as his hands worked the small wrapper the man only looking up at Kai’s face as his spoke.

16 hours ago, Sosuke0549 said:

" When your ready....I'll be here.... by next year....I'll be done with school...and hopefully have my own shop... its not gonna be easy. But at least I'll be doing something I love and I'll have something that belongs to me..."

“Your own shop?” Yukie asked curiously as if confirming Kai’s desire. Looking up at Kai a deep sea of awe and happiness shined deep in Yukies eyes at Kai’s plan of owning his own shop, something Yukie knew Kai deserved so deeply. Watching Kai continue to fold the paper ever so delicately, Yukie looked at the finished product a little confused. 

Looking at the paper ring adorned with a small flower on top Yukie sat amazed at how Kai was able to make such a thing and before he could ask how or why a ring, he felt Kai gently take his hand. Looking down in confusion he looked up at Kai only to feel the paper ring slid over his ring finger. 

16 hours ago, Sosuke0549 said:

" Maybe you'll be one of those things too..."

Yukie just blushed bright red as he felt Kai let his hand go, the feeling of the paper ring feeling so heavy now on his hand.

Kai wanted him. He said he really wanted Yukie to belong to him.

Swallowing a little as Kai chatted on about it fitting right and it being awhile since he made one Yukie was a little absent minded. 

Yukie he could only feel his heart pounding like a drum in his chest, the soft warm glow from earlier was now burning deeper inside something he had never felt before. Gently touching the ring Yukie was treating it like it was glass the touch being more delicate than normal. Looking down at his hand and the ring Yukie was in a sort of state of shock, as he sat there he didn’t even notice the hot tears stinging his eyes as he was almost crying.

Getting up Yukie muttered about needing the bathroom and excused himself as he fought to hold back tears. Once away and out of sight he couldn’t help the rush of tears as he hid in the stall clutching the ring so close to his body.

God he wanted all of this. To be with Kai forever to…to dream of a wedding and a long life with him. How could he though…how could…he. The thought of leaving his old life was so terrifying…the feeling of being abandoned if he let Kai in was almost to much to bare.

Curling up a little into himself Yukie tried to calm the panic in his mind his breathing a little fast as he stared at the ring his hand shaking. The only thing he could think was how Miskha had been right about every man Yukie had been with how they had all thrown him away once they got bored…(paid to unknowingly by Yukie) each and every time they left him crawling back to his boss in agony. Standing there, full on in a panic attack Yukie backed himself into a stall corner as he tried to breathe his body shaking only to be suddenly stopped by the ringing on his phone.

Looking down at the phone Yukie shakily unlocked it the wall of texts asking him if Kai had bailed yet or if he had changed his mind. Looking at the wall of text that ranged from threats of anger to promises of love Yukie could only exit out his hand still shaking as he moved and opened Kai’s.

“….Kai. He’s…not like that.” Yukie whispered to himself as he took a deep breath trying to steady himself as he started to ground himself the man having learned how to deal with panic attacks from early on in his line of business. Scrolling through the messages Yukie started to calm down. The text full of kindness and acceptance spanning for months. Kai never had to take him in…he offered, he texted him so often even when Yukie ignored him. 

He was there.

Kai wanted to be there.

Calming down more as he put his phone away Yukie gently took the ring off tucking it safely into his phone case before mentally dusting himself off. Getting up he walked out of the stall and looked at the mirror his eyes red and puffy as he took some cold water from the sink and washed his face and dried it making sure he was presentable and calm before fully leaving the bathroom.

Once back at the table he slid into his seat noticing the food had been placed making him feel guilty for how long he had been gone.

”Sorry, I just needed a minute.” Yukie explained as he poked at his food. “…I…don’t want to talk about it here. To many people.” Yukie admitted as he ate his food and sat in silence the rest of the time only making painful small talk until they were done. Once Kai paid and they were back outside Yukie handed Kai his helmet and put his own on before turning and gently made sure Kai’s was on properly. Getting on Yukie waited till Kai was snuggled against him again before starting the hug making him feel rather comfortable and secure. 

The next two hours was Yukie point out places he had visited and interesting things to see and do. Between that and some basic light talk he eventually quieted down as they got closer the hospital appearing as Yukie pulled into the back for parking and parked off to the side. Sitting still for a moment Yukie took his helmet off watching as Kai took off his before he put them away and stood awkwardly to the side. 

Yukie had wanted to smooth things out, he wanted to explain his absence and how he looked coming back. He wanted to explain his silence and his over tourist explanations that forced away any chance to speak. Looking away Yukie just stood before pulling out a cigarette and lighting it up.

”…I…didn’t feel comfortable crying, it was about what you said…back there at the table. So I left to cry, but…I…got worse on some things…I didn’t want you to see me going into in a panic attack. So I hid until I was better and grounded.” Yukie explained as walked a bit farther away from Kai giving them a good bit of space between them. 

“…My life…it’s changing a lot…I get scared of all the changing sometimes. The thought of us…of there being an us……is terrifying for me at times.” Yukie explained his voice shaking yet very gentle as he spoke. Taking a deep breath to calm his voice and himself Yukie let the smoke burn through him a bit longer in an almost ritualistic calming way as he finally exhaled.

”I.….I don’t want to get hurt. I don’t want to fall in love with you only to be thrown away when you get sick of me.” Yukie said as his voice trembled the man feeling  so exposed in his brutal honesty as he dropped the cigarette and crushed it out with his foot before looking up, finally meeting Kai’s eyes.