HELP~!!! trying to find my favourtie yaoi manga :S

[yaoifreak17]

Hi there, I'm trying to find my favourite Yaoi manga (again :'( ) and I cannot for the life of me remember the name, maybe someone else knows it?

Its a German with an American i think :S either american or british and they are remembering how they met and such. throught the manga person 1 was a guard and saved this rich kids life and now he has grown up asks him to sleep with him even though he is in a wheel chair. and then person 2 marries a woman/friend of the 3 coz he thought he couldnt be with person 1. then person one's brother drugs him shoves a mirror up and 'checks' him coz he knows person 1 loves person 2. then the 3 of them get captured and person 1 takes all of the rapings instead of person 2.

If anyone knows the name please tell me I have been killing myself trying to find it again