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:hamtaro-005 (44): (cloudy's another soft bl poem) ANTIDOTE A forest, but wasn't Dark suits, aren't? Flying papers, black or white? Fireball, dim or bright? Such shadows, so blur Those droplets, what for? Soft murmurs, prayers? I need to be closer Surroundings, un-mellifluous Made me so confuse White stones, everywhere Something must under there Dark hole, underworld? Glass case, too bold Familiar face, underlies A face of me, twice? This chest, I felt Came narrow, can't breathe Inhale within, mouth widen Heart dribbles, then lighten Eyes woke, and see Still blur, somewhat clear Mind is set That place, I can't let I came to felt Warm palm, finger candles Large, soft, and gentle Touches this hand, mingle Finger candles, wiggles Teary eyes, so subtle Rosy lips, starts to whisper Soft words, longin' to hear His face towards mine Tightly embrace, then sigh In a jiffy, he cry And kiss me without lie Standing in front of me A man, gentle and free ANTIDOTE of this dying sea Now, I could live for eternity (opinions and comments, honestly, i love reading them, speak your feelings guys, toward this )

Reita of The GazettE by ~brohne on deviantART this one is my favorite so far. Reita is just so cool and funny. ^^

Kai of the GazettE by ~brohne on deviantART

Some GazettE fan art I've been working on. I hope you enjoy it. Ruki of the GazettE by ~brohne on deviantART

Saint Beast Anime Title: Saint Beast Season 1; Saint Beast - Seijuu Kourin Hen Genre: Fantasy, Angels Themes: bishounen, shounen-ai, yaoi Source:ANN and Anime-planet Size: 160 - 175 MB/Ep Year: 2003 Duration: 25 Minutes Episodes: 6 Summary:In the ancient past, the Highest level of angels, the Six Saintly Beasts reigned supreme as the beast kings. Two of the Saint Beasts disobeyed Gods order and was sealed away in a Hellish place. Now after thousands of days and nights, the barrier has weakend and they escape. So the remaining four must go to Earth and stop them from causing trouble. Download Saint Beast Season 1: Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3 Ep 4 Ep 5 Ep 6 Title: Saint Beast OVAs; Saint Beast: Ikusen no Hiru to Yoru Hen Genre: Action, adventure, angels, fantasy, romance Themes: Bishounen, shounen-ai, yaoi Source: ANN and Anime-planet Size: 377.5 MB Year: 2005 Duration: 56 Minutes Episodes: 2 OVA Summary: Long ago there was a war in Heaven which resulted in Judas and Luca – two of the six specially-chosen, talented and strong Saint Beasts – being cast out and imprisoned in Hell for leading the rebellion. But before that Heaven had been a peaceful place where the angels happily lived their lives. In this time, Judas, Luca, Goh, Shin, Rey and Gai are adolescent angels in Heaven who, on the day of Benediction, are made into adults by the supreme god Zeus. With each of the six having their own special abilities and new adult bodies to get used to, opportunities to meet each other arise and new friendships are formed. Download Saint Beast OVAs 1 & 2: OVA 1 OVA 2 Title: Saint Beast Season 2; Saint Beast: Kouin Jojishi Tenshitan Genre: Angels, fantasy Themes: bishounen, shounen-ai, yaoi Source: ANN and Anime-Planet Size: 170-180 MB/Ep Year: 2007 Duration: 25 minutes/ Ep Episodes: 13 Summary: Six Angels are chosen by Zeus to be the Saint Beasts who travel to earth and stop disasters on earth. But the disasters may not be the result of demons and animals but from someone else. At the same time the once peaceful heaven starts to change with only a few noticing the evil lurking in the shadows. Download Saint Beast Season 2: Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3 Ep 4 Ep 5 Ep 6 Ep 7 Ep 8 Ep 9 Ep 10 Ep 11 Ep 12 Ep 13 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

ok so basically while i was reading brohne's story savior(which i was totally swept away with) i though that i would write a poem about it,as i quite like to do that. so this poem reflects on the first 7 chapters of savior from Ryuu's point of view (http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/823-Savior-Chapter-1-Fantasy) and took me all evening to write and get right lol so hope u enjoy n give me your honest opinions thanks guys I wanna hold you, kiss you, touch you! I wanna hear you, love you, be near you! Music is my life and life is my music..... I need you and you need me..... We glance at each other as we pass by and I just wonder if you’re really shy. You are there for me to help me through this nightmare of a life we knew. I take a chance to kiss you full; you look concerned but follow through. My heads a blur and I hear you say “let's get you to bed, your too drunk today” The morning comes and light filters in, I smile, take a breath then walk right in. I feel your heat beneath the water as it pours, down our bodies as we yearn for more. A kiss here and a touch there, feelings I always wanted to share. I feel so happy and you are too, our friends notice how much and it’s because of you. I start to miss you but know it won’t be long before I can see your face and hear your voice ‘Oh what a song’ I smile, run and jump to you “NO DON’T” but it’s too late I end up grounded and shocked! What is this...HATE?! The tears they won’t stop flowing and I’m not even sure why, I don’t understand this feeling how can you make me cry! As time slowly passed and I realise what went wrong, “I’m sorry! I’m sorry!” I didn’t mean to cause pain this long. It seems ages since I saw you and I don’t know where to start, my voice really took a beating along with my heart. I started slipping away bit by bit and day by day, until I heard your voice again I knew I just had to pray. I opened my eyes and you were sleeping beside me, the warmth I felt inside my heart was nearly too much too see. Next time was different your face and your sound, something had happened while I wasn’t around! Confusion took over.... I didn’t understand!! Why are you hurt?!...why is he mad?!

. .i made 2 new poems couple of hours ago, one is bl and the other is not (i don't know if you could guys see this as a bl poem, but still here it is) BARENAKED In this midst, I walk So dark, I'm soak Yet, I need to move On this nowhere road Don't know the goal Why and what for? Guess, must find a piece From these scattered debris If i find, I shout If i didn't, out of sorts Still carry this vigor To route for more Then it rains Body now in stains Colorless but spur Inside me roars Cold and freezing Chilly and shaking I can't take it But need to bear it As I look, I see Those ravish eyes, I fear Wish I vanish And rush to my dear Wall starts to break Dangerous hands, rake Stripping this cover Can't stand this anymore "Where are you? Please help me, I need you!" I cried and moan "Please stop it! I beg you, It's my dear's own" But within, it reaches It's too late, I guess This last breath, must make BARENAKED feeling, to you, I confess

. and here's the other not bl one EMPTY From dust to clay Molded and lay From his looks Oh, it's cooked! Bright stones were embedded In a circle, oh, it's head Stick with two holes Air to passes Dug a hole Words to install Red thing so licky Oh, for tasty But deaf is still Sounds must steal Dug another hole Left and right for more Lighted the coals Burn to colors Anyway it goes It still has roles Red stone embedded In clay must knitted Inside this case Is a life to amaze Then, laid on floor Opened the door Magic words, blew It livens, oh, it's true Delivers to earth Actions must oath A world to own Precious thing to owe Suddenly, it felt A missing piece left "What is this? Tell me, please!" 'Cause in this case Where red stone lays So cold and steady Is a feeling of EMPTY

Manga title: Shitsuji wa Oose no Mama ni, 執事は仰せのままに Devoted Butler Obou-chama no Yarutoori Young Master's Upbringing Original run: 2009 Plot: One day, Tokoha, the son of the wealthy Katsuragi family was ordered by his father to undergo some arranged-marriage plans. Hoping to able to escape from his father’s continuous proposals, Tokoha told his father that he likes men, and thus his father should give up on planning an arranged marriage for him. To convince his father, he asked the butler Asou to pretend to be his lover. At first Tokoha slept with Asou only to deceive his father. But as time passed, he felt pleasure from their relationship. How will the fake love between the cool butler and the young master continue? Manga-type: Manga Mangaka: FUJIKAWA Ruri Group(s) Scanlating: Fantasyshrine Status: Completed Genres: Yaoi, Comedy Categories: Vampires, Teacher - Student, Incest, Doubutsu-gata Main Characters: Tohoka x Asou x Katsuragi Adaptations available: x Recommendations: Boku no Goshujinsama; Zurui Otoko Read Shitsuji wa Oose no Mama Ni Online: Shitsuji wa Oose no Mama Ni Download Shitsuji wa Oose no Mama Ni Manga Download link removed upon scanlator's request

Title: Hanagumi Ninkyouden, Yakuza In Love, 花組仁侠伝 Original run: 1996 Description: Volume 1: 1-4) Yakuza In Love With his gambler grandfather dead, Ichimura Aoi decides to join the yakuza with the letter of recommendation left behind by his grandfather. After saving the Don's life, Ichimura gets on the fast track of success. Now he has been given a very important job to fulfil, to be the apprentice of the infamous under-boss Sakiya Yuji. Will he survive his posting even though he has managed to get by with just his intimidating looks till now? 5) Flower Gang Party Short extra. Mostly character profiles. 6) Hanagumi Memories Authour discusses Takarazuka Troupe, the famous all women musical group in Japan. Volume 2: 1-2) Yakuza In Love Ichimura learns that his grandfather was quite the tattooist in his day from the gang's doctor. Sakiya doubts the loyalty of Ichimura after finding out that the Don has been sending expensive gifts to the latter. 3) Liar Ozawa Junki is recuperating in Karasuma Chihiro's place after being stabbed by his lover's wife. 4) Saved Kohei is worried about Misaki his object of desire. She seems lonely and lost despite acting out and fraternising with various older partners. Volume 3: 1-2) Yakuza In Love Karasuma is desperate to get Ozawa back after learning that he has been captured by Azuma and the Don's gang. 3) Boys Game Alternate ending of the scene where Karasuma saves Ozawa. 4) The Animal's Banquet Short extra that took place just before Iwaki Issei's visit to Sakiya's place. 5) Let's Go Get A Blood Test Karasuma and Ozawa decide to get a blood test before his release from the hospital. 6) Pride Ichimura finally gets his own tattoo, yakuza style. Sakiya is against it but Ichimura's insistence to show his love and loyalty won him over. (This was also published as chapter 4 of volume 3 of Deki no Ii Kiss, Warui Kiss) 7) Merry Christmas Ozawa gets his little Christmas gift and realises something important. Manga-type: Manga Written by: Kano Shiuko Drawn by: Kano Shiuko Published by: Deux Press Group(s) Scanlating: - Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama Yaoi Categories: Drama, Yakuza, Rape Main Characters: Ichimura Aoi , Sakiya Yuji Adaptation based on available: N/A Recommendations: Haito Diamond, Kizuna Download Yakuza In Love Manga: Volume 1 Volume 2 Volume 3 For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: 世界の終わりが降る夜に Manga ALT. names: Sekai no Owari ga Furu Yoru ni On the Night of the End of the World Original run: 1996 Description: Yuri is a 20-year-old male prostitute. Half of the money he makes goes to paying the huge debt that his father left when he died. His one goal in life is to find his younger brother Nagi, who disappeared after the same car accident that killed Yuri's father and mother. Suddenly a boy turns up, claiming to be the lost Nagi. Can Yuri's long search be at an end? Does Nagi have anything to do with one of Yuri's former clients being murdered? Manga-type: Manga Written by: GOKURAKUIN Sakurako Group(s) Scanlating: Desperate Love Status: Completed Read Sekai no Owari ga Furu Yoru ni online: Sekai no Owari ga Furu Yoru ni Download: Mega Sendspace Share.Urbangen Hope you'll like it! For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Mafuyu no Secret (from Akatsuki ni naku Kaze ni naku Choral) Mangaka: NASU Yukie Genre: BL, humor, drama Year of publication: 2001 Status: complete oneshot scanlation Summary: Police officer Ahane is exasperated when he is assigned to guard Prince Laronne, a young exiled prince who has no regard for his own safety. However, his frustration turns to horror when he discovers the infatuated prince is more interested in using him as a personal escort! Download Mafuyu no Secret Manga: Mafuyu no Secret For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Invisible I look at you as you stare at her You never seem to see Why can’t you just for one last look Turn and glance at me. I wonder if you’ve ever cared Or if you’ve ever thought About the boy that never speaks The one that’s never caught I feel so lonely standing here You would never know The pain of being different The pain that I don’t show But now it has become too late And I can’t take no more I place it just upon my wrist I think I’ll count to four....

Thank you so much for the responses, it's really pleasant to read your opinions and reactions! :Red_fox7: I've put the previous ones with a little more quality and I'm going to post some hugging, stripping and smexing now. Hope you like it~ -- Should I post more? :cuteonion46:

Title: Crimson Spell Drama CD Summary: In order to protect his people from attacking demons, Prince Val uses a demonic sword and curses himself in the process. He leaves his kingdom to find a cure, and his search leads him to Hallwil, the person rumored to be the only one who knows how to break the curse. Hall wil agrees to help Val. .. for a price. Download Crimson Spell Drama CD: Click Here To download For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Tsuki to Yabanjin Type : Manga Author : Sera Artist : Sera Status : Complete (1 Volume) Scanslation Status : Completed by Blissful Sin Other Title(s) : 月と野蛮人, Moon and Savage Genre(s) :Yaoi, Drama, Romance, Historical Summary : Ever since he was a child, Prince Uriel has always dreamed of searching for the lost city of Rowadis rumored to be buried somewhere deep in the desert. One day, he manages to sneak out of his country to join an excavation party in the hopes of learning more about his beloved Rowadis. However, the barren land turns out to be a dangerous place for the prince and he is captured by the savage Seldira clan. Follow the adventures of the young prince as he gets tangled up with the handsome leader of the Seldira and unlocks the mysteries of the desert. Read Tsuki to Yabanjin Online: Tsuki to Yabanjin Download Tsuki to Yabanjin: New Download Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Flower of Destiny Manga ALT. names: 연화 / Flower of Fate Written by: Yusa Drawn by: Yusa Original run: 2009 Description: When King Hasana hears of the prophecy that he will die by someone from the Sui Tribe, in order to thwart the prophecy, he seeks out the potential killer, only to find that his "murderer" was only a child. Instead of killing him, Hasana takes the child back as a slave. As the child, Dakasin, and King Hasana begin feeling sympathetic towards each other... Destiny threatens to tear them apart.... Manga-type: Manhwa Group(s) Scanlating: NOIR Status: Incomplete Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: No Genres: Drama, Fantasy, Historical, Shounen Ai, Tragedy Categories: Heir; Manhwa; Age-gap; Master-Slave; Drama,Shounen Ai (Softcore) Main Characters: Hasana, Dakasin Recommendations: Hanakisou Download Flowers of Destiny Manga Flower of Destiny Ch 1 Flower of Destiny Ch 2 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Mizu No Kioku - Water Memories Author/artist: Sakuragi Yaya Genre: Comedy, School life, Shounen-ai Groups scanlating: Hochuuami Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Year: 2003 Read Mizu No Kioku Online: Mizu No Kioku Download Mizu No Kioku Manga New download Link More manga series by Sakuragi Yaya For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

TITLE: Antique Cake Store アンティーク ～西洋骨董洋菓子店～ Antique COUNTRY: Japan EPISODES: 11 episodes; 44-57 min/ep SYNOPSIS: This is a confectionary with a "flavor" not like most. Located in the middle of an ordinary residential area, "Antique" stays open until 2 a.m. Every single thing in the shop is antique, in fact even the sherry glasses that water comes in look like they would cost 50,000 yen. On top of this, all the sweets that are sold are unbelievably delicious. The thing that is most peculiar about "Antique" though is that all 4 of the men that work here are very handsome, and each has an interesting past. The series follows the romance, family life, and most importantly friendship that these 4 men from different generations experience. Download Antique Cake Store BL Movie Ep 01 Ep 02 Ep 03 Ep 04 Ep 05 Ep 06 Ep 07 Ep 08 Ep 09 Ep 10 Ep 11 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

It's so amazing that I love you It's funny that way but you know I do The way you look into my eyes and then look away Just like that you've made me feel what you had to say I love how your fingers reach out for mine The way you close your eyes under a sunshine The quiet walks in the park we share Listening to me talk a mile as you stare I love the smell of the fresh cologne on your skin The way you say my name fills me within This kind of love you don't want defined This kind of love from others we can never find. Author notes: :hamtaro-005 (6): Haha! This is my very first Takumi-kun series inspired poetry. I had Misu's face in my head as I channeled my inner Shingyouji. This is my take on their relationship since they're not as lovey dovey as Takumi and Gii. These two have a different take on their relationship, it's theirs alone. I like the selfishness in that. It's almost sweet and endearing at the same time. I hope you enjoyed!

In your deep cavernous warm entrance I discover a pleasure to your pain As you writhe in bouts of havoc and rapture while i flick the bits of moisture of clammy droplets on your skin We are blinded to the world that peeks in the windows around us We are deaf to the sounds of reality but our own I am drowning between tidal waves of overwhelming euphoric torture as i viciously take you with me in my arms Your appetite knows no bounds just a bottomless pit of wanton and madness I can feel your mind screaming for me to dissolve this and yet you linger desperately for my strength to take you to places your mind fears to thread in your waking hours I know not how much deeper i can bury you in this tangled mess of sheets and twisted materials of warmth and wetness Your eyes are half closing to the silky words coming out of my mouth as i pour them endlessly to your ears Your hot breath on my ears driving me to the brink of madness and drunkenness A blinding white hot searing light we see together as we desperately capture the embrace of completion Sated, drunk, weakness, blissful sleep overcome us finally. Your lips move making a sound I could barely read. I reach for your hand as you clasp your fingers to mine We are one.

i wrote this May 27,2009 (so i was 11) here goes....... Can't get what I truly desire... The look in his eyes... as if longing for nothing, but the touch if his lover it hurts...my chest hurts will I get what I truly desire? I love him can he hear me? My voice is so loud, does he even notice me? Its hard... why can't I ease this pain? But I love him!! will I get what I truly desire? We're together... But it doesn't feel real, I'm happy...I really am But... What if I'm trapped in my own fantasy I AM ... LOST, FORGOTTEN, TRAPPED.

Summary: Fujino Misato, the cute young florist and landlord, is being bullied by debt collectors. Enters Sakanoue, a silver accessories designer. Sakanoue intervenes in a dispute between a perverted debt collector and Fujino. Upon rescuing Fujino, Sakanoue gets fussed out by the seemingly ungrateful Fujino. A short time later, Sakanoue’s manager, Kaoruko gets an apartment for Sakanoue that is located in Fujino’s building. Sakanoue disguises himself in front of Fujino and moves into Fujino’s apartment building. Fujino treated the disguised Sakanoue rather cordially but when Sakanoue’s true face is revealed Fujino’s personality does a 180. Thus start the quirky cat-dog relationship between Fujino and Sakanoue. Fujino’s prejudices and Sakanoue’s hidden identity causes great strains in both of their lives. Can these two stop their constant bickering long enough to establish a loving relationship? Genre: Drama,Romance,Yaoi Author: Asahi Shima Nenene..it's cool

It doesn't really have a title yet because I just wrote it not too long ago. Let me know what you think EDIT: misakixusagi gave me a title idea ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "First Chance" He looked at me closely With his dirty little grin Creeping closer and closer To finding his way in He grabbed me roughly And threw me on the bed I was screaming for help Because I'd rather be dead He covered my mouth As he ripped off my pants He smiled at me sweetly And said give him a chance I tried to relax While he played his game But then a sudden thrust Put me into pain I let out a scream While he pulled on my hair This pain was too much For my body to bare But soon after that My screams became moans And pleasure took over From deep in my bones Gasping for breath And yelling for more I was about to explode But someone opened the door...

@ EmiZea -- Just finished this one. It's for Reita

I totally agree with JenovaVII! A very very good poem Cloudy!

The «finger candles» concept was interesting. Unexpectedly cute, even. In the end, what really got to me was the last strophe. So heart wrenching *.* «ANTIDOTE of this dying sea» is going to be my favorite expression for a long time as of now, I'll be remembering it a lot, I just know it. I think I'm getting an idea for an illustration based on it~ Thank you for yet another exquisite piece. Your writing style is just right, the words you utilize and the way you use them to form the sentences is captivating. More, please.

So . . . I rarely write poetry but I have written some song lyrics to go along with Savior. This one isn't really done yet, but I don't know what else to do with it. ^^ Wrapped up in your eyes Black and blue from the breath of you All of these subtle lies You thought to hide. Deceitful dreamer so devout, Did you think you could hide your naked heart? I will kiss you so that even a sigh cannot slip out. Wrapped up in your voice Black and blue from the hate of you Do I have any choice? All of this tenderness is untrue. Deceitful dreamer so devout, Did you think you could slip away unseen? I will kiss you so that even a sigh cannot slip out. Wrapped up in your love Black and blue from the want of you All of these schemes I am sick of. Deceitful dreamer so devout, Did you think you could tame me? I will kiss you so that even a sigh cannot slip out. Wrapped up in this shroud Black and blue from the sight of you All of this is not something I vowed. Deceitful dreamer so devout. Did you think you could hinder me? I will kiss you so that even a sigh cannot slip out.

I want to complain about my mother, who loves to me treated badly by me. I like my masochists unwilling, otherwise it's only half the fun and kind of a drag. Maa, who am I kidding, I love to tease her, regardless. :msn_red_fox 9 Like it was mentioned previously, I also want to complain about my involuntary selective memory. On one side I like it, because I automatically forget things unnecessary to me, but I also easily toss away memories I will need. And then that is indeed a problem. Seriously, I am talking one second and the next I don't know the last thing I said. Mind break, much~ I want to complain about my chest. I HATE breasts. No, seriously. I wish I was a board. It's not like mine are big or anything, they are pretty average, to the smaller side even. But I hate them anyway. It's a pain. Literally. I already have back and neck problem, hurts all the time, and them I still have to carry this unnecessary weigh..!! Ahh, pisses me off~ I also can't take people who want to have surgery to have a bigger chest, my thoughts are: "ARE THEY CRAZY?! WHAT FOR?!". If I could I'm chop mine off. For real. I want to complain about my friends who call me all the time, knowing perfectly well I hate talking on the phone and messaging. So I turn off my cell. ...And then they call my home number and my mother yells at me until I answer. Mukatsuku~ :Red_fox5: -- Ahh, spouting all that rubbish felt damn good, I'm satisfied~ *humming with a grin*

Title: Haru wo Daiteita Drama CD Summary : Iwaki and Katou had always been at loggerheads, starting from the first day they met. 30-Something Iwaki had always felt insecure about his age. Being in the adult entertainment industry always meant that the younger you were, the hotter you were. 20-Something Katou was no different. Katou – filled with arrogance, good-looks and charm had never been Iwaki’s favorite. However, with his age as his downside, can Iwaki still continue to be in the adult entertainment industry or can he deviate to something more…glamorous, perhaps? Download Haru wo Daiteita Drama CD Haru Wo Rar 1 Haru Wo Rar 2 Haru Wo Rar 3 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Download Links: Ze Fanbook - Ch 1 Ze Fanbook - Ch 2 Ze Fanbook - Ch 8 Password for all files: yaoiotaku For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Double Face Manga ALT. names: ダブルフェイス Original run: 2001 Description: When illegimate offspring Yoshiaki encounters his half-brother, the family heir, sitting at the curbside, drenched in the rain, he takes him in and sleeps with him... but what hidden motivations do both parties have? Manga-type: Manga Written by: Yamane Ayano Drawn by: Yamane Ayano Published by: Core Magazine Group(s) Scanlating: Secret Haven Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama, Yaoi Categories: Drama; Incest; Rape; Heir; Hidden Feelings Main Characters: Yoshiaki Read Double Face Online Double Face Download Double Face Manga Double Face Password: moonlight Mirror Link - 4Shared (thanks to sarah3161) More manga series by Yamane Ayano For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Kyou Hana no Gotoshi (Spirit of the Roses) Author: Akira Norikazu Year: 2005 Genre: Drama, Yakuza, Yaoi Group: Dangerous Pleasure Status: Complete Summary: Prodigal son Reiji Naruse returns home to inherit the family business of Naruse Corporation (aka The Naruse Yakuza Group). Along with the assets, he also inherits the company's skillful, seductive, and fiercely loyal negotiator, Kikuchi. Kikuchi has pledged his life to the Naruse family, but where will that loyalty lead when it concerns Reiji's personal life? Read Kyou Hana no Gotoshi Online Kyou Hana no Gotoshi Download Kyou Hana no Gotoshi Manga Download Kyou Hana no Gotoshi Manga More manga series by Akira Norikazu For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Concrete Garden Manga ALT. names: コンクリート・ガーデン, Clock Down Original run: 2002 Description: 1st story - Concrete Garden Angels exist and Kashii Kiyoharu, grandson of the man who "created" the angel, has been hired to befriend him. His name is Toki. Kashii soon finds out why the scientists need him around. Toki is lonely, but no one wants to get near him unless it's necessary since he eats human flesh. What has Kashii gotten himself into? 2nd story - Clock Down Everyone expects Tokiwo to go to a good university. However Tokiwo doesn't want to in order to "play it safe". One night there was suddenly an earthquake. The stone he was looking at started to glow and out of his floor comes someone who looks exactly like his childhood friend Jiu. Well there is a difference. This "Jiu" is dressed for combat and has a very large weapon. Just what does the stone have to do with "Jiu" and who gave Tokiwo the stone? Manga-type: Manga Written by: KOTOBUKI Tarako Drawn by: KOTOBUKI Tarako Published by: Biblos Group(s) Scanlating: Obsession Status: 1 Volumes (Complete) Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama Categories: Bestiality; Boys look like Girls; Drama Main Characters: Kashii Kiyoharu, Tokiwo Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: - Warnings: Cannibalism, Male Pregnancy Download Concrete Garden (Kotobuki Tarako) Manga: •°New link°• Concrete Garden Mirror link -- Title: Garden Author: Kotobuki Tarako Artist: Kotobuki Tarako Genre:Drama, Fantasy, Romance, Sci-fi, Shounen-ai Groups scanlating: Nakama Status: 1 Volumes (Complete) Year: 2008 Download link -- Title: Dogla+Magla Author: Kotobuki Tarako; Yumeno Kyusaku (Dogla+Magla Novel) Artist: Kotobuki Tarako Genre: Action, Drama, Sci-fi, Shounen-ai Groups scanlating: Nakama Scanlation status: 1 Volume (Complete) Year: 2003 Download link For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Summary: Shun (Fukuda Saki), who has tattoos and piercings all over her body, is the third generation descendant of a Japanese orphan left behind in China during World War II. Takeru (Matsushita Yuya) is a lonely and reckless hooligan whose family was murdered when he was a child. Shun, Takeru and Kasumi (Watanabe Natsuna) with an equally troubled past and background, become collaborators after being hired by Kuchinawa (Kamikawa Tamaya) in police undercover operations in the city of 'Midori', a neighbourhood for illegal residents. They infiltrate a criminal gang to investigate, and find illicit human drug experiments and slave treatment staring them in the face. They grow to trust one another and mature through this experience. Genre : Action Cast: Fukuda Saki,Kamikawa Tamaya,Matsushima Yuya,Watanabe Natsuna I watch this drama omgee so sugoi..awesome..i recommended you should watch this too!

(though this is still not a bl drawing) (i apologize, for it's kinda dirty, it's because of the charcoal, can't help it, lol)

Is tokyopop closing worldwide? Because I can still buy the german ones, and I didn't hear anything about it O.O

Ryuu I lay on my bed my face buried into my pillow. It was still wet with tears but I’d managed to stop crying. Though every time I thought about what I’d said to Kenta, new tears would well up. Why was I so stupid? Now everyone was mad at me, Kenta, Sora, Reiko would be too when she found out how late I’d kept everyone up tonight. I was just so worried. Worried and upset, but that didn’t mean I had to take it out on everyone else. I felt the bed move and heard Kenta sigh. “Ryuu . . .you need to call Sora and at least say you are sorry.” I turned my head so that I was facing away from Kenta. How could I look at him right now? Why was he even bothering to talk to me? I didn’t deserve to have him in my life. Didn’t deserve to have any of this. I bit my lip to keep the sob in as a warm hand stroked my hair. Jerking away I sat up moving to the other side of the bed. “Stop it. Just stop. Why are you so nice to me?” Silence. “I found the article, Ryuu.” I sucked in a startled breath and turned to face him almost scared of what I would see. He held up the magazine before tossing it on the bed. It was open to the page and I flinched looking away. The photo of me was from earlier this year when I’d went to visit my mother in Europe for a week. “I thought I’d thrown it away.” “It was laying on your desk. Is this why you are acting so fucking weird today?” I hung my head, not able to answer him. “Ryuu!” He sighed and I could hear the exasperation in his voice. “You let this kind of shit get to you? Come on! You are smarter than that!” “Did you read it?” Another sigh and I heard the crinkle of pages as he picked the tabloid up. “Ito Ryuunosuke is known for many things, being socially responsible is not one of them. The heir to the Ito fortune was seen out with his bodyguard in Shinnomiya earlier this week. As usual he spent money like there was no tomorrow only stopping at the most expensive shops the area has to offer. No you didn’t, stupid fuckers. Besides we weren’t in Shinnomiya. Can’t even get that right. Fucking idiots.” He paused for a moment. “This is the part I don’t get . . . Ito’s band Bloody Agony has risen quite well in the charts for being a visual kei style band. There are rumors that the band’s popularity has nothing to do with the actual music and more to do with Ito’s antics and playboy status. Another rumor states that Ito has paid certain industry leaders to achieve their current ranking. Is that why you’ve been pushing the practices so hard? You don’t really think people believe this shit do you? Ryuu?” I shrugged not turning to look at him. What if it was true? What if that was the only reason people came to the concerts and bought the CDs? I worked so hard on the music and had even taken composition and music theory classes to improve and still people said shit like this. Though the part about me paying bribes really pissed me off. Where the hell did they get that idea anyway? True I used my parents money to help the band, but only when it came to buying equipment or outfits. I would never use my money or influence to try to make things easier or get us ahead. “Ryuu . . . these people obviously have never heard your music. I know how much time and effort you put into the songs. That is the reason you guys are even on the charts. This is all just bull shit. Fucking bull shit.” I sighed. “I know Kenta . . . but it still bothers me. I’ve had to fight people thinking I’m nothing but a stupid stuck up selfish brat for so long, I’m just tired of it. Why can’t they just judge the band on our music, why does it have to be about me?” “Sorry Ryuu. But honestly today you acted just like a selfish brat and treated your friends like shit.” I lowered my head. It was suddenly hard to breath, a hot ache in my chest. I could barely get the words out. “I know. I know . . .” “Fuck. Don’t start crying Ryuu.” “I’m sorry!” I wiped furiously at the tears that were falling. “I just want this weekend to go well. There are going to be reporters there from several big music magazines and I’m terrified we’ll get a bad review.” I gasped holding my cheek, the sting from the slap shocking me. I stared up at Kenta only to see him glaring at me. “You should be more worried about your friends. You are so concerned about the band but seem to forget that the band is made up of your friends.” I was shaking unable to tear my eyes away from him. He was right. Oh shit, why was I so stupid? I’d completely let that inane article get to me and I’d hurt the very people I should have turned to for support instead. I couldn’t stop the tears any longer, the sobs wracking my body. The next thing I knew I was being gathered up into strong arms. “Ryuu . . . come on . . . this is not like you. Why did that article upset you so much?” Kenta I felt like shit. I shouldn’t have hit him. He was too fragile right now and I’d only made things worse instead of getting my point across. Fuck. He was sobbing so hard I was afraid he was going to pass out from not getting enough air. I rubbed his back trying to get him calmed down. The sobs slowly quieted down until they were just random hiccups. I knew the article was harsh but it wasn’t as bad as some other’s I’d seen that bashed certain celebrities. He finally loosened his grip on my shirt. “It wasn’t just that article. There are lots more like it. The tabloids in Europe are even worse.” He leaned away from me grabbing a tissue and wiping his face. “They call the band a fake and say that I probably lip synch to someone else’s singing. They’ve attacked all the members of the band at various points. Father is suing one of the papers because what they said was so slanderous.” What the hell? No wonder he was so upset. “Well then how do they explain when you screw up? Or what happened that time you almost passed out because you were sick and too stubborn to cancel. That stuff can’t be faked.” “I know, but it’s hard not to be hurt by it.” I kissed his temple. “You are just too thin skinned Ryuu. You’ll never survive in this business if you don’t toughen up a bit.” “I know. Mother said the same. She said she had to deal with all kinds of tabloid rumors when she was a top model. People can be very unkind.” “They can be worse than that. Come on you are exhausted. Let’s go to bed.” “Actually . . . I think I’ll call Sora first.” I nodded and let him up. I had been hoping he was going to say that. While he was on the phone I went to go check on the boys. Akira had apparently fallen off the couch and Hasu had rolled under the coffee table. Sighing I picked up Akira first since I knew he wouldn’t wake up. Damn but the boy was light. I put him in the spare bedroom and went back for Hasu. I finally just picked up the coffee table and moved it. He was a bit heavier than Akira even though they were the same height. “Hey! What are you doing? Put me down.” “Shh! I’m just taking you to bed.” “I can walk you know.” “We are already here.” I set him on the bed and tousled the dark hair. “Get some sleep.” He was already burrowing under the covers next to Akira. Looking at the two of them for a moment I frowned. I knew Ryuu wasn’t intentionally doing it, but he was being too hard on them. Akira’s fingers were raw and Hasu had blisters in his hands. Neither of them had complained though. “Hey Kenta?” I turned back to look at Hasu. He was sitting up in the bed looking at me. The light from the hallway was glowing in his eyes, making them seem even larger than normal. He looked like such a little kid even if he was almost seventeen. “Is Ryuu still mad at us?” “What?” “It’s just . . . he’s been so short with everyone today and I know I’m having a hard time with Cry, but he’s never been this frustrated before.” “It doesn’t have anything to do with you, Hasu.” Walking back over to the bed I tucked the covers around him and then Akira. “Just go to sleep. I’ll get you guys up in time for school.” “Thanks Kenta . . . you’re really nice no matter what anyone says.” I chuckled at the sleepy voice and patted his head. “You’ll learn better.” Turning out the hallway light I went to find Ryuu. He was curled up in the office chair, the phone laying open on the desk. Going over, I shut it and touched his shoulder. He slowly raised his head to look at me a small, pained smile on his lips. “I talked to Sora.” “And.” “He’s still mad at me, but . . . he said he’d be over in the morning.” “It is morning.” “Well . . . around noon anyway.” I shook my head letting out a slow breath. Reaching down I pulled him to his feet. There was no resistance, in fact he was limp and for a second I wondered if I was going to end up carrying everyone to bed. He suddenly threw his arms around me, nuzzling his face against my neck. “I’m really sorry about today Kenta. I didn’t mean to say that stuff.” “It’s done and over Ryuu, just forget about it. Next time shit like this comes up, just say something instead of driving everyone crazy.” “I will. I’m sorry. Umm . . . I think I’m going to cancel the concert tomorrow night.” Grabbing his shoulders I pulled him back so I could look at him. “No, you aren’t. You will talk to your friends first and see what they want to do. It’s their band too Ryuu. Not just yours.” “I just thought that-“ “No. Hasu already thinks you are mad at him. If you cancel now it will look like you don’t have any confidence in their skill. No. You will not cancel the concert.” He looked at me for a moment, the soft grey eyes seeming to pull me deeper and deeper in. “This is why I love you so much Kenta.” He leaned in and kissed me, a soft sweet kiss that left me with a warm tingling sensation. “Let’s go to bed. We’ve got a lot to do in the morning.” “We? What we?”

Well thank you cloudy-chan! I'm glad I could help inspire you to write such beautiful poems :3onion15:

AHHH!! Soooo hot outside!!! 90 degrees F (about 32 degrees C I believe) *sits in front of fan*

I cant wait t get home to try it lol it dsnt wrk on my fne

Don't you also have firefox? Cause it can install the plugin very easily and then you can enter the chat using Opera

erm...where the chatroom?..i can't find it?

I can't pick one, so I pick top 2. Tatsuya Fujiwara on the left and Ken'ichi Matsuyama on the right. Light and L from Death Note, the live action movies.

Kenta Why the hell do I listen to the jerk? “You fucking poke me one more fucking time and I’m going to-“ “Kenta.” I closed my eyes at Ryuu’s warning tone and clenched my fists as the doctor continued to poke and prod on every fucking sore spot he could find. “Well, I think we better take some x-ray’s. You seem to have reinjured the ribs that were damaged last time.” Opening my eyes I looked over at Ryuu. “I already knew that. I don’t need-“ I stopped seeing Ryuu hold up his phone. Jiro’s number was already on the display and I had bite back what I’d been going to say. I was careful not to take too deep a breath as I glared at Ryuu. “Fine, do the fucking x-rays.” I wished later I’d told Ryuu to fuck off. No one told me I was going to have to lay in the most painful way possible to even do the x-ray. I was ready to punch the nurse helping me by the time we got done. I was shaking, the pain making me catch my breath. “All that for them to tell me what I already fucking know.” Ryuu handed me a coke and a couple of pills once I got out of the room. I mumbled a thank you as I took them. “Um, don’t thank me yet.” I jerked my head up to look at him. “What did you do?” He looked away, “I scheduled you for a complete physical.” “Ryuu!” I stared at him. Did he not understand how much pain I was in? “Why the fucking hell-“ “I want you to be healthy, that’s all. It’s not painful or anything. Well . . . they will have to draw blood, but you should be fine. The worst part is over.” “Yeah, thanks a whole fucking lot.” He looked back at me, that evil little smile on his lips. “Don’t worry I’ll make it up to you later.” He was going to have a whole hell of a lot to make up for. I’d never been so humiliated in my life. I swore they’d checked over every inch of me and then some. Getting my blood drawn was the least of my worries. “Ryuu . . . I’m going to kill you.” Maybe later. Right now I could barely lift my head off the seat of the limo. He giggled and patted my leg. “Sure. Maybe after dinner if your pain meds don’t knock you out. They gave you some pretty potent stuff. But I’m happy. Your tests all came back good and even though you do have a broken rib, we’ve got plenty of medication for you.” I looked over at him, wondering what was really going through that blond head. It had to have cost quite a bit for all those tests. I just couldn’t understand him spending that kind of money on me. I knew he spent all kinds of money on Akira, but . . . that was Akira. Akira was vital to the band. Me . . . even if I didn’t want to admit it, I was easily replaced. Almost had been too. I was ready to smack Ryuu by the time dinner arrived. He wouldn’t quit fussing over me, constantly checking on me or getting me stuff he thought I wanted or just hovering around. “Damn it Ryuu will you just sit down. I can’t handle you doing that.” I also couldn’t move. The muscle relaxers in addition to the pain medication were making me feel a bit loopy. He had me sitting on the couch in the living room so we could eat dinner. “I will, just a sec. I’m getting your dinner ready. Have you ever had Italian before?” “Huh?” “I’ll take that as a no.” He was grinning at me as he walked over carrying the tray. I had to admit the food smelled pretty good. “No, lay still. I’ll feed you.” “Like hell Ry-“ He stuffed something round and squishy in my mouth. I almost spat it back out. It tasted very strongly of tomato but the other flavors weren’t bad, just different. I could tell from the look on his face that he was enjoying this entirely too much. I finished that bite and turned my head away as he went to feed me the next one. “Okay Ryuu, I can feed myself.” “No you can’t. You don’t know how to use a fork.” “A what?” “Exactly. So I am going to feed you. Besides, it took me forever to get the blood out of the fabric and tomato sauce is just as bad.” I glared at him as he smiled sweetly at me, waiting for me to take the next bite. “You planned this.” “And people say you are stupid.” He was fucking laughing at me. Jerk. “Fuck you.” “We’ll get to that later.” I accidentally inhaled the next bite and Ryuu nearly freaked out on me. Coughing with broken ribs fucking hurts like a fucking son of a bitch even as doped up as I was. Once dinner was over with Ryuu helped me into the bed room. “My legs are fine Ryuu, I can walk.” “No, you should see yourself. Your eyes keep crossing. I think you are tired.” “Not really, but I do feel a bit weird.” “And that is why I’m helping you to bed silly.” “Oh, okay.” Somewhere in my head I knew I wasn’t making a lot of sense. Maybe it was a good thing that Ryuu was there to help me. I sat down on the edge of the bed and watched as Ryuu found me a pair of sweats. He normally didn’t wear anything to bed, but he’d said he would at least wear his boxers. Stupid silk boxers. I realized I was still staring at them as Ryuu walked up to me. He leaned down reaching for me and I tried to lean back. “What are you doing?” “I’m getting you undressed. You aren’t wearing that to bed.” I shoved at his hands. “I can get myself undressed you weirdo.” I was surprised when he easily moved my hands away. What the fuck? There was no way I was taking any more of those muscle relaxers if this was what happened. He was already undoing the buttons on my shirt and taking his damn time about it too. “Ryuu just let me-“ The next thing I knew I was laying back on the bed. Ryuu was hovering over me, the only thing touching me were his lips. Holy fuck, why was he such a good kisser? Muscle relaxers apparently have no affect on keeping you from getting a hard on when a fucking hot guy kisses you. He pulled back slightly so we could look at each other. “Let you what?” “Do it myself.” “Oh?” His fingers were hot as they ran over my stomach and continued to my pants. “We’ll see what you get to do yourself.” He took his goddamn time undoing my pants. He had to know what he was doing to me. Looking up into those eyes I could tell he knew exactly what he was doing. I probably wouldn’t have stopped him even if I could have. I kept thinking about the shower and that amazing mouth, though part of me didn’t want to be just laying back doing nothing either. Didn’t have much choice right now, as frustrating as that was. Just like with dinner, he wasn’t letting me do anything. “Just lay still. You are going to hurt yourself.” “Already hurt.” “Hurt yourself worse then, stop moving.” He smacked my leg as he tried to get my jeans down past my knees. “Ryuu . . . what are you doing?” He just grinned at me and tossed the pants to the side. Crawling back up on the bed he knelt over me. “Whatever I want just like I always do.” “You are such a brat.” He giggled and leaned down to kiss me again. “I know. But you love me anyway. You look so cute, all relaxed and cross eyed.” I blinked a few times. “I am not cross eyed.” “Maybe I should call the doctor and see if that is a side effect or something. Though it sure is cute, especially when I do this.” He leaned in close his nose touching mine. “Now you are cross eyed too.” I couldn’t help but smile at him as he sat back laughing. How many people would kill to be where I was right then? I didn’t want to think about it. Honestly, I couldn’t imagine being anywhere else. I bit my lip as those warm fingers slid across my skin again. What was he . . . oh . . . that was what he was doing. I shivered, tingles racing over my skin as he wrapped his fingers around me and gave one slow stroke after another. “Ry-Ryuu . . . “ He leaned back over me, concern in the light colored eyes. “You aren’t hurting are you? I’ll stop if you are.” I shook my head. I wasn’t even sure what I’d been going to say. All of my muscles seemed to be tensing up the longer he stroked me. I tried to force myself to relax but that didn’t work for very long. He was looking down at me with those soft grey eyes, a small smile on those beautiful lips. I wanted to kiss him damn it. I wanted to do a whole fucking lot more than just kiss him too. I managed to grab his arm and pull him down toward me. He got the hint pretty quick.

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:Red_fox11:I bet you'll nevvverr guess the boy I think is cutest. :Red_fox11: lol Yanagishita Tomo (of course!) Fuuuu, I love raiding the Tomo picture blogs~ He is too cute, I just want to fly to Japan, capture him, fly back to Texas, and hide him in my closet. Where he should be! (gay joke reference) And only let him out to find a cute American boy~ Ahh, the simple dreams of a fangirl. XD

Ryuu I woke up to the sound of running water and the realization that it had to be Kenta sent my pulse racing. I hadn’t expected him to stay. Not really. I’d been a lot more buzzed last night than I’d realized and hoped he wasn’t upset with me. Only one way to find out, I grinned to myself as I slid out of the bed. He hadn’t totally pushed me away last night and he’d seemed less drunk than I was. Opening the door to the bathroom I shivered thinking about the feel of his lips and the way he’d tasted. I would have done anything to have kept him from leaving last night, and waking up knowing he was there gave me a secure content feeling I hadn’t had in a very long time. I wanted to show my appreciation and more importantly I wanted to get my hands on him again. The surprised look on his face was entirely worth it and I grinned at him. His hair looked even darker when it was wet and I would have given anything to have a picture of his face right then. The dark eyes were wide, generous lips parted in surprise as he stared at me. He blinked a couple of times as if not sure of what he was seeing. It was amusing to see him confused and unsure when he was usually so hard to read. “What the hell are you doing Ryuu?” He growled turning back around. It was nearly impossible to resist the urge to lean down and kiss his neck and shoulder. Whipcord muscle under pale smooth skin didn’t hide the sharp angles and lines of his shoulder and hips. Without his clothes he seemed smaller, less imposing but even more beautiful than I’d imagined. “Taking a shower.” He mumbled something I couldn’t hear as I reached for the soap and a bath sponge. I really wanted to run my fingers along the broad shoulders and down the muscular back. Stepping forward I ran the sponge down his spine watching the trail the soap bubbles made. “Ryuu.” There was a slight warning tone to his voice and I paused suddenly unsure. “What?” I tried to sound innocent and unconcerned. “Go out.” I sighed. I’d expected him to say that. “It’s my shower.” I could practically hear him roll his eyes. “You really are a fucking handful you know that.” I smirked and stepping closer slid my arms around his waist letting my fingers slip over the water slicked skin of his stomach. “Well, I know you probably are a handful too.” I gasped suddenly finding myself pinned to the side of the shower, Kenta’s hands tight around my wrists as he held them to either side of my head. I struggled to catch my breath, my heart feeling like it was going to explode out of my chest. Dark, unreadable eyes bored into me so intently I finally had to look away. Was he mad? Maybe I was being too forward. “Don’t be such a fucking tease, Ryuu.” I raised my head to look at him. All I could see was dripping wet strands of ebony hair. His voice was soft, his fingers tightening for just a moment. “Just don’t.” “Kenta . . .” When he wouldn’t look at me, finally letting me go, I reached forward taking his face in my hands. Forcing him to look at me I smiled. “I’m not teasing.” Leaning forward I kissed him, letting my fingers slide up into the dark locks. He went rigid for a moment and I thought he was going to shove me back. He wasn’t really responding to the kiss, just standing there, but it was more than I’d hoped for. He hadn’t really kissed me back last night either. I slowly pulled back after a moment and looked down into those gorgeous dark eyes. It bothered me to see the almost pained look in them. Was he bothered that much by my kissing him? True not everyone liked it when I kissed them. Akira tended to hit me. But for him to look hurt that I’d done it made me pause, I knew I could sometimes be too forward. “I’m not teasing you Kenta. I wasn’t last night and I’m not now either. I like you a lot more than you seem to think.” I let him go as he pulled back. Frustration and hurt welled up in me as he turned away. Reiko must be right. Now I’d probably alienated him. He obviously didn’t like me kissing or even touching him. Why did I have to be so stupid? Why couldn’t I be happy just being friends with him? “I . . . I’m sorry. I’ll let you finish your shower.” I started to get out and looked back, feeling those strong fingers grasp my wrist. “You really are a fucking tease you know that.” His voice was a low growl that sent a shiver down my spine. I was bewildered and a little nervous as he suddenly grabbed me around the waist, pulling me back into the shower. Was he going to hit me? I gasped as he shoved me against the wall of the shower, his lips suddenly attacking mine. I couldn’t form a coherent thought. Nothing was making sense. I’d thought he was upset with me, but the way he was kissing me was simply, utterly amazing. He was aggressive yet hesitant, almost as if he was unsure of what he was doing. It was making my whole body feel like it was on fire, the water suddenly seeming cold where it was hitting me. I couldn’t stop the moan building in my chest. It had been so long since anyone had kissed me, really kissed me with a fervor that I could feel all the way to my toes. Running my hands down the muscular stomach to his hips, I pulled him closer so that he was pressed against me, shuddering as soft skin caressed mine. There was a hot ache in my chest, completely separate from the other heat that was spreading. Did he really want me? Did I dare hope . . . “Kenta-“ I couldn’t keep the emotion out of my voice as he finally pulled back so we could both catch our breath. He gave me one of those heartbreaking beautiful smiles that seemed to melt my insides quicker than anything. I blinked, and let my head drop feeling tears already on my cheeks. “I thought-“ “Shh.” Warm slightly rough fingers wiped at the tears as he tilted my head back up. “Am I that bad a kisser?” I choked out a laugh. “No! No that’s not it all. I just . . . thought you were mad at me.” He shook his head the smile still there, “You are one silly idiot. I wasn’t ever mad. Just confused as hell.” “Oh . . . why?” He sighed and pulled me into a hug kissing my neck and shoulder. “You have no idea do you? Not a fucking clue.” “Umm . . . no.” I would do anything I could to stay like this as long as possible. To feel his arms wrapped around me, his pulse against my skin, that silken voice in my ear. He chuckled, the sound vibrating through me and I couldn’t stop the small whine as he started sucking on my neck. I was shaking, but I couldn’t help it, the rush of sensations overwhelming. “Fuck.” The expletive was softly breathed against my neck. “You drive me fucking crazy, Ryuu. Why do you have to be so goddamn fucking sexy?” “Umm . . . sorry?” I stumbled as he shoved me back. “This is all fucked up.” “No! Wait! Kenta, please. What’s wrong?” I looked at him desperate for an explanation. He couldn’t kiss me like that and say those things only to shove me away the next moment.

"Patience Pays Off" Been thinking since last night About what you mean to me I finally have the answer I've kept so secretly You're always in my thoughts No matter what I do I can't seem to stop thinking About how much I love you You're different from the rest The ones who never cared You help me open up Whenever I feel scared I wanna be with you Forever and a day So I can look into your eyes And say I'm here to stay (Note: This poem was written after my other poem "Patience" ) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Dreaming" Dreaming on the stars up high And looking for their secret signs I'm hoping I will find a clue That will lead me straight to you My face is kissed by the cold wind This journey needs to now begin I know that it's you I'll find I don't believe this love is blind I will search until the Earth's end A thousand letters I will send I cannot sleep, I cannot eat A sorrow feeling I must defeat The day that I can meet your smile We'll fall in love and have a child Forever you'll hold me oh so tight And I'll never want to leave your sight I'll keep searching until the day I die To find my love beyond the sky All my dreams say I'll be too late But I'll keep dreaming that you'll wait ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Poison" Time goes by so fast Whenever I'm with you Just hold me in your arms And say our love is true There's nothing I'd love more Than to see your loving face When day turns into night And we're in our special place I'm craving for your lips Because they taste so sweet I just need to think of you And faster my heart beats I need you to survive And everybody's wrong They say we'll never last But it's with you that I belong I love the way you touch me As graceful as can be I hope we stay together For all eternity ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ That's all for now. I'll post more soon!!