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I though I'd share a few of my drawings with everyone. I am ultra lazy and it's a pain so I just took some stuff I've done in the last couple of days that were scattered on the desk, took fast (aka bad) shots with my cellphone (because the scanner is an eyesore) and BAM! -- It's done. When I actually have the patience I'll do it well and scan my stuff properly. Maybe. Probably. Okay, actually don't expect it to happen in this life... These are merely some sketches I did in seconds and/or minutes in the spur of the moment so, yeah~ You know, like when some idea pops into your mind and you just have to scribble it down? Yup, it's that. Mediocre stuff, really :msn_red_fox 14 By the way there's going to be some H illustrations so minors are not allowed. (Yeah, right...) I'd appreciate some feedback. Constructive criticism is always the way to perfect one's work. Hope you enjoy (:

Now it's yaoi time, because the truth is, that is reason we are all here :msn_red_fox 9 For now it's all You're My Love Prize In Viewfinder fanart. Asami ♥ Takaba, obviously. I think there's gonna pop one of Yoh somewhere along the way. It's a pity, because it is was supposed to be Asami but something went wrong... and it turned out Yoh instead. So yeah... But Yoh is cool and hot so it's all good. He's my favorite VF character after Asami and Takaba, after all (: -- I'll wait for some reaction before posting more because if you guys don't enjoy it there is no point, ne? :2yoyo6:

It doesn't really have a title yet because I just wrote it not too long ago. Let me know what you think EDIT: misakixusagi gave me a title idea ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "First Chance" He looked at me closely With his dirty little grin Creeping closer and closer To finding his way in He grabbed me roughly And threw me on the bed I was screaming for help Because I'd rather be dead He covered my mouth As he ripped off my pants He smiled at me sweetly And said give him a chance I tried to relax While he played his game But then a sudden thrust Put me into pain I let out a scream While he pulled on my hair This pain was too much For my body to bare But soon after that My screams became moans And pleasure took over From deep in my bones Gasping for breath And yelling for more I was about to explode But someone opened the door...

(first of all, i would like to thank amander-sama for inspiring me to work with poetry again) . .i don't know if this is good, but i still wanted to post this, 'cause it's my first try (it's been a long time since i write stuff like this) :cuteonion53: . .okay here it goes BULLETS Three shots strickens Neither resist Nor to hold it As it dug deeply These eyes, still glare On a shadow standing there Neither even a blink Can't even share First bullet, in the chest Hard to breathe Reaches the life source Still pumps at its best Second bullet, in the head Freeze, but blazes Numb, but senses Aches, but painless Third bullet, in the lips Thirsty and dry Now, why? It even still smile Thus, it moves to his Can't control it It wanders and bliss Reaches and fits Warmth and tender Tasteless but sweet Fragile and rare This place, I swear I LOVE YOU bullets I'll kept within These keen pieces Deeply and for eternity (I wrote this for almost an hour, i can't focus that much because of some situation here, phew!) . .any suggestions, comments and criticisms are important (yojichan, i'll be glad reading your opinions, if you may) . .thanks everyone

Title: Haru wo Daiteita Drama CD Summary : Iwaki and Katou had always been at loggerheads, starting from the first day they met. 30-Something Iwaki had always felt insecure about his age. Being in the adult entertainment industry always meant that the younger you were, the hotter you were. 20-Something Katou was no different. Katou – filled with arrogance, good-looks and charm had never been Iwaki’s favorite. However, with his age as his downside, can Iwaki still continue to be in the adult entertainment industry or can he deviate to something more…glamorous, perhaps? Download Haru wo Daiteita Drama CD Haru Wo Rar 1 Haru Wo Rar 2 Haru Wo Rar 3 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Flower of Destiny Manga ALT. names: 연화 / Flower of Fate Written by: Yusa Drawn by: Yusa Original run: 2009 Description: When King Hasana hears of the prophecy that he will die by someone from the Sui Tribe, in order to thwart the prophecy, he seeks out the potential killer, only to find that his "murderer" was only a child. Instead of killing him, Hasana takes the child back as a slave. As the child, Dakasin, and King Hasana begin feeling sympathetic towards each other... Destiny threatens to tear them apart.... Manga-type: Manhwa Group(s) Scanlating: NOIR Status: Incomplete Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: No Genres: Drama, Fantasy, Historical, Shounen Ai, Tragedy Categories: Heir; Manhwa; Age-gap; Master-Slave; Drama,Shounen Ai (Softcore) Main Characters: Hasana, Dakasin Recommendations: Hanakisou Download Flowers of Destiny Manga Flower of Destiny Ch 1 Flower of Destiny Ch 2 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Thank you so much for the responses, it's really pleasant to read your opinions and reactions! :Red_fox7: I've put the previous ones with a little more quality and I'm going to post some hugging, stripping and smexing now. Hope you like it~ -- Should I post more? :cuteonion46:

Ryuu I’d almost turned my head to look at them, but Kenta’s statement shocked me. Was that why? Was that the real reason he’d turned me down, because he was worried how it would make me look in the media if our relationship was discovered? Didn’t he realize the media already painted me as nothing more than a silly playboy frittering his parent’s wealth away. No one was really shocked by anything I did. He’d never mentioned to me anything about a criminal record and it didn’t really surprise me. That was when it hit me. That was the most I’d ever heard Kenta talk without a single cuss word coming out of his mouth. Actually, that was probably the most I’d ever heard him talk all at once ever. “Are you really that stupid? Maybe Isao is right about you.” I heard Sora sigh. “He’s happiest when you are around Kenta. Even if he knew about all of that, I’m sure he wouldn’t care. He’s not that shallow Kenta.” “I know he’s not. He’s also a whole fucking lot smarter than people give him credit for.” I almost smiled at that. I was going to have to get up. I was beginning to need the bathroom rather urgently. That and for the first time in three days I was starving. I shifted around trying to get the covers off and heard both of them exclaim. “Ryuu!” “You’re awake?” There was a note of panic in Kenta’s voice and I knew he probably wouldn’t have divulged that much if he’d known I was awake. I was glad I had been. It made so much more sense now, why he’d been trying to keep me at bay. It wasn’t that he wasn’t interested; he just didn’t want me hurt. It made me want to pull him close and kiss him till he shoved me away. I grinned at them and sat up, glad when Sora reached down to help me. “Yeah. “ I turned to look at Kenta and gasped. “Kenta! What happened! Your face!” He shifted back out of my reach and I could tell the movement hurt him. I looked to Sora, but he wouldn’t meet my eyes. I glared at each of them. “Someone is going to tell me what happened.” Sora glanced down at Kenta who shook his head. “That would be my fault Ryuu.” Kenta jerked his head up to glare at Sora, but Sora ignored him. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach as I watched them. The two of them had got into a fight? Sora looked fine . . . Kenta looked horrible and I knew he was an excellent fighter. That meant . . . “Your fault how, Sora?” I was afraid of the answer. The look on Sora’s face was the only answer I needed. “Fuck you Sora! Why the hell-forget it I don’t care what reason you thought you had.” Flinging back the covers, I started to get up only to have both of them stop me. “Let go! You want me to piss all over myself?” Sora was the one who helped me up. I shook him off. I wasn’t as dizzy today. The fever was gone and I felt better than I had in weeks. Physically and emotionally. It hurt that Sora and Kenta had fought and that Kenta had been the one to get hurt, but I now knew things I wished I’d known two weeks ago. “Sora will you get me a change of clothes, please. I’m going to take a bath.” Sora nodded and headed for my closet. I laid my hand on Kenta’s shoulder. “I want you to join me. No, hush. It will help.” I lightly touched the side of his face. He was going to have a black eye. “The tub is plenty big enough for the both of us, and besides it’s not like I haven’t seen you naked before.” I thought he was going to come unglued then, his face turning bright red as he sputtered. I just laughed and walked into the bathroom to get the tub started. I really wanted the chance to talk to him, really talk about why he was so scared of this . . . of us. I was already in the tub and was beginning to wonder if he’d blown me off when the door slowly opened. He looked so hesitant and shy. It was almost comical. I’d never seen that look on his face and decided I would love to see it more often. He came and stood beside the tub, not looking at me. Reaching out I brushed my fingers across his. “What are you waiting for? Get in.” He nodded slowly and started getting undressed. I laid my head on the side of the tub watching him. The way the smooth lean muscles flexed as he moved never ceased to amaze me. He was so beautifully built. I sighed as the shirt finally came off, then blinked. Too many bruises. It made my heart hurt to see them. I wondered if his ribs were bothering him again the way he was moving so slowly. It was almost torture watching him. I was already rock hard and he hadn’t even taken his pants off yet. Even bruised and beaten to hell I couldn’t help but want to touch him. Knowing now why he’d said no actually made me want him even more. I wanted to claim this amazing man as mine. Even if I couldn’t do it publically, I wanted to know I could come home and know he was there. Finally! The pants were coming off. Well shit, did he have bruises literally every where? I couldn’t play around like I wanted to with him in such obvious pain. He tried to act like there was nothing wrong, but I could tell he was really hurting from the tightening around his eyes and the way his lips firmed as he eased himself into the tub. I was going to have to have a talk with Sora. It had been a long time since Sora had lost his temper bad enough to hit someone. I wasn’t going to think about the last time. Sora did not hit without good reason and he must have thought he had a good reason to hit Kenta. It still upset me though. Slowly, I moved over to Kenta. He had his head back on the side of the tub, his eyes closed. I glanced up as Sora walked in; he had a bundle of clothes in one hand and an ice pack in the other. He handed me the ice pack and set the clothes on the counter. I shifted closer to Kenta, the water lapping around our chests. I was so happy my parents had bought the huge tub. Lightly touching Kenta’s arm to get his attention I carefully laid the icepack on his eye. I heard him sigh. “Thanks Ryuu.” “Does it still hurt?” “Fuck yeah.” “I want you to stay here tonight.” There was a short silence. “Okay.”

Kenta “Get up. “ The deep rumble startled me awake but it was the fist in my hair that had me on my feet. Oh fuck! Fuck! When had Jiro got here? I had a quick glance at Ryuu asleep on the bed before I was hauled out of the room. I stumbled trying to keep my feet, my hair getting yanked in the process. “Fuck! Let go Jiro!” He didn’t say anything and didn’t let go either. Shit. My stomach suddenly felt like it was trying to crawl out my throat. A pissed off Jiro was the last thing I needed right now. There was a sharp stabbing pain in my side to match the searing pain in my head. He threw me down in the living room and I narrowly missed bashing my head into the coffee table. Scrambling around I got to my feet only to have him backhand me hard enough to send me right back to the floor. I stayed there. There was no rage in his eyes, just a dead calm. I was in some seriously deep shit if that was the case. I looked over realizing Hayate was standing by the front door. He had a busted lip and was trying to stop his nose from bleeding. He glanced at me then looked away. My attention snapped back to Jiro as he spoke. “I am very disappointed in the two of you. Nakamara wants you fired Kenta. Fired and demoted.” I flinched. It was the least I deserved. “I should. I should demote you back down to the most junior rank and let you work your way back up. I really thought better of you Kenta. I didn’t think you would shirk your responsibilities like this. What would have happened if someone had recognized Ryuu? He could have been kidnapped . . . or killed. His parents pay us the protection money for a reason. He’s not just some ditzy singer; he’s the son of Ito Yoshiru and Kaori. The Ito name alone is worth billions of yen. He’s a target for extortionists and paparazzi. What happened last night would have made national news if he’d been recognized. You just better thank whatever god happened to be watching out for him last night that didn’t happen.” I shrank down as he came to stand over me. I knew all this, why was he telling me again? I knew who Ryuu was. Though it was easy to forget when I was with him all the time. “Jiro I-“ “Did I give you permission to speak?” I yelped as the fist slammed into the side of my head knocking me flat. Shit but he hit hard. My ears were ringing. I couldn’t remember Jiro ever being this mad at me. He’d never hit me before. I knew it happened occasionally when the other guys fucked up, but I’d never planned on being one of them. It was getting harder to breathe, the pain radiating around from my side. I’d probably fucked up my ribs again carrying Ryuu last night. Getting hit didn’t help either. “Hayate go get the car, we are leaving. I’ve already got Teito headed over to keep an eye on Ryuu.” The pain was forgotten as I looked up at Jiro. I struggled to get up, using the coffee table as support. “No, I’ll stay. He . . . he needs me.” “He needed you yesterday. No, it’s too late Kenta. You lost your chance. Get up, we are leaving.” He didn’t give me a choice, roughly hauling me to my feet. I swayed for a second, dizzy. The side of my face was numb and throbbing, my ribs aching, but it was the sick hollow feeling eating away at me that was causing the most pain. Jiro was right. I’d lost my chance. Ryuu had been the best thing to ever happen to me and I’d treated him like shit. I’d lied to myself, to him, thinking that it would be best for both of us. Why was I so fucking stupid? Then it hit me. I was scared. Fucking scared shitless. Why would someone like Ryuu want anything to do with someone like me? But even more than that, I was scared of what would happen if it was found out. The media would rip him to shreds for dating an ex con yakuza member, never mind another guy. I couldn’t let that happen. He meant too much to me. “No. I am staying here.” “I don’t want you here.” I turned to see Sora standing in the hall. “I want you to leave. You’ve done enough damage.” I shook my head, wincing. “No, I am staying. I’ll find a way to-“ “I said no.” It only took Sora two long strides to reach me and the next thing I knew I was on the floor by the couch. Holy fuck! I did not need this right now. “Wait! Sora stop!” Hayate was trying to stop him as I used the couch to try and get back up. Maybe I should just stay on the floor. “You don’t understand.” Hayate almost landed on me as Sora shoved him out of the way. “I understand perfectly fine. He’s happy to use Ryuu to get what he wants, just like all those posers and fakes who only want to be his friend because of who he is. I told you if you hurt him, I’d make you regret it.” I was too slow to get out of the way as Sora reached down and yanked me up. He didn’t understand. I already regretted it. “No that’s not-fuck!” I tried to block him but I was in too much pain. He hit as hard as or harder than Jiro and he wasn’t stopping. Hayate finally managed to pry him off me. I ended up half laying on the couch. The only thing I could think was that Ryuu was going to be upset that I was getting blood on the pretty white fabric. I didn’t blame Sora for being mad at me. I was mad at myself, but there wasn’t anything I could do about it now. With a shaking hand I wiped the blood off my chin. I went to push myself up and felt something in my chest give. My vision went dark for a moment as agony ripped through me. I wasn’t sure if I could get up. “Fuck! Kenta are you alright? Sora! You didn’t have to go that far!” Hayate was yelling. “He’s the one that went too far! Making Ryuu think he was interested in him. Leading him on-“ “Enough.” Jiro voice cut through the yelling and I felt a firm hand on my upper arm. It took all myself control not to sob with pain as he pulled me up. “I think your point has been made Sora. You won’t have to worry about Kenta. He won’t be back.” “No, Jiro, no you can’t have someone else watch him.” I tried to shake off Jiro’s hand. I was almost sick with pain, but I couldn’t let them. No one knew Ryuu like I did. Could handle his tantrums, could calm him down when he’d get upset. “Teito doesn’t understand him.” “Oh and you do?” I looked over at Sora and realized my right eye must be swelling shut. I couldn’t really see him. “Yes. I do. I know I fucked up, but just give me another chance.” I tilted my head so I could look up at Jiro. “Please. Please let me stay.” *** Sora glared at me every time he walked into the room. Ryuu had been sleeping for the last couple of hours and it was nearing nine in the evening. Sora was still upset with me. He’d barely let me help when Ryuu had woke earlier to eat and use the bathroom. Not that I was a whole lot of help. I’d wrapped my ribs back up and taken some pain meds, but the dull ache was still there. “Why did you even bother staying?” I didn’t lift my head from where it was resting on my arm. What was I supposed to fucking say? Keeping my eyes on the sleeping man only a few inches from me I knew why I’d stayed. I’d sit here all night watching him again if I had to. “Sora . . . haven’t you considered what would happen if-if the media found out. About me, I mean. If we . . . were together I know it would always have to be a secret. Not just because we are both guys, but . . . I have a criminal record and not just something silly like shoplifting. I went to juvie for assault and battery when I was fourteen. I’m yakuza now. How would that look to the media. I want him to be happy, Sora and I just don’t think he would really be happy with me.”

At the suggestion of a forum member (thanks again for the suggestion dear), I have decided to implement a new system to help new users to better integrate in the community. We have to choose between these 2 systems: Kazoku or Sempai/Kouhai Kazoku System Kazoku system is a family system. We will create small groups (of 5-10 members) that will become a "family" and we will assign them a family name (eg: Ryuiichi kazoku, Senji kazoku etc.) In each 'kazoku' we will have a kazoku leader, who will maintain the family relationships and will create contests or games among the family members. Inside of the kazoku, the members can discuss anything (problems/hobbies etc.). To sort newbie into a kazoku, we will open a thread in the introduction section. On that thread, newbies can register themselves and share their hobbies/gender/language etc in order to help us sort them into a kazoku. We can choose his/her kazoku bases on his/her hobbies or anything else that fits in a kazoku. After a certain period we can make an award for the kazoku (eg: most active kazoku/ innovative kazoku) Senpai/Kouhai System In this system, we will choose a group of Senpai from the veteran users. We will open a thread in the introduction section in which new users (kouhai) can register themselves and where they will tell us a few things about themselves (hobbies/gender/language etc) in order to help us suggest them a Senpai. We will then choose a senpai to a kouhai based on their hobbies similarities. The senpai must be warm and friendly with the kouhai, taking care of kouhai, and even become a guidance/mentor to the kouhai.... Further Details (Thanks to Angel0fS!n) Sempai-Kouhai system --> What is it? it is a system to let YaoiOtaku forumer to be more interact with each other. --> How does it works? 1) We need a sempai(Veteran YO forumers) and also a kouhai(newbie). 2) A newbie (kouhai) register himself/herself on a "sempai/kouhai thread" Of course those who wanna be a sempai can also apply to be sempai in this thread: We need sempai (link is not available until further notice) 3) On that thread, he/she has to tell us, anything about him/herself, then, Sempai/Kouhai System's admin will pick a Sempai for him/her. 4) Sempai then can greet his/her kouhai via PM/VM/chat. 5) Both of them are allow to use any language they want, while on their conversation, as long as both of them understand that language. 6) kouhai/sempai can ask anything from his/her sempai/kouhai regarding forum function or Yaoi-related things (eg: manga, anime, opinion, suggestion or whatever it is as long it doesnt' break forums main rules) and even learning his/her sempai's mother tongue. 7) Both of them are allowd to use PM/VM/chat as a medium to chat. 8) After a few months a kouhai can also apply to become a sempai to his/her new kouhai. ================================================== ================ Here are additional info regarding those systems... Kazoku system --> what is it? same as sempai-kouhai system: to let YaoiOtaku forumer to be more interact with each other. -->How does it works? 1) 3-6 groups called 'Kazoku' 2) Anyone who wanna join must register first in order to sort him/her into a Kazoku. 3) A random family member is selected to be leaders of Kazoku.. after a few months an election will be made among family members to select their new family leaders. 4) Head of family will be a moderator of each kazoku. he/she will do anthing to let his family members having fun, by creating games/contest/riddle for the family members. 5) Each month, a competition/contest will be held for the Kazoku to compete with other.

Me and my boyfriend just got into a fight just now and I wrote this poem about 5 minutes ago... :msn_red_fox 18 "Untitled" A stab through my heart And a bullet through my brain You're acting so different And things just aren't the same... Why must you hurt me Whenever you get the chance I think we need to end This torturous love dance... I'm crying every night And tears run down my face I want this hate to end Because I know this is my place... I'm torn between emotions I don't know what to do You walk away in silence Although I still love you... My thoughts are being ravaged By visions of black and red Please come back to me baby Before I end up dead...

me also absent minded, but that what my friends complaint about, i can turn around and forget what i doing look like we all got bad neighbors around us, maybe we should live together and that will be a peaceful neighborhood:msn_red_fox 3

.it also goes to me ichikun, gosh it's so hard, there were instances like, my pen, i don't know where i'd put it, search for it all over the house, places where i used to placed it, then in the end i'll just saw it hung on my shirt, lol :leaf10: . .i think i should start drinking a MEMORY BOOSTER, lol :leaf5:

Kenta I flipped open my phone, trying to juggle it and the box of paperwork Isao had given me to archive. Crazy ass pencil pusher needed to get an assistant and quit asking me to do this shit. “Hey-“ “Kenta? It’s Sora. Have you heard from Ryuu?” Letting the box down I straightened, frowning. “No, not for a few days. Why?” “He’s not answering his phone and I just tried to go check on him and he wasn’t at the apartment.” “When did you see him last?” “Yesterday afternoon. The doorman said he left sometime last night . . . Kenta he never came home.” I nearly dropped the phone. “Wh-what? Ryuu doesn’t just go out, not like that. Fuck.” “Yeah I know. It’s got me really worried. He was acting strange yesterday and honestly I think he was getting sick.” “Ryuu is never sick.” “Yeah I know, so he probably didn’t even realize it. Kenta, you need to find him.” “Yeah.” I felt like someone had taken my guts and twisted them inside out. “Yeah, I’ll uh . . . I’ll call you.” “Thanks Kenta.” I hung up and leaned against the wall behind me. Shaking myself, I took a breath. Where would Ryuu go if he wasn’t feeling good? Shoving off the wall I headed to the front of the office. Isao was at the computer tapping away at that infernal keyboard. “Iesada, I got a problem.” He looked at me over the rim of his glasses. “You are a problem Arakaki. What’s wrong this time?” “Ryuu is missing.” “Oh shit, that is a problem. Aren’t you supposed to be his bodyguard?” “Don’t fucking rub it in! You’ve had me here doing shit for the past two weeks.” “You could have said something.” “Like you’d fucking listen.” He sighed. “You are right. I try my level best to ignore your idiocy at all times. You need help finding him?” “Yeah.” I felt like punching the mouthy shithead but Hayate would kill me. “Give me thirty minutes.” “Okay.” It took fifteen. “One of the guys spotted him about three hours ago at a net café over on the lower south side. He’s not come out yet. Here is the address.” “Awesome!” I snatched up the paper, thanking him on my way out. He might be a mouthy son of a bitch, but he got stuff done. *** The net café was a nice one. All the cubicles looked full. Going to the little food bar I asked the girl making drinks if she’d seen Ryuu. “Oh, how could I forget a hottie like that? Yeah. He’s in A3, but you aren’t supposed to bother-“ I turned and walked off. I had the information I needed. The door was shut, but there was no sound coming from the other side. I went to knock on it and paused suddenly feeling nervous. I hadn’t talked to him in days and hadn’t seen him for even longer. Things had been fucking awkward ever since the day at Jiro’s. He hadn’t even been calling as often as he normally did. I just figured he was pissed at me. Who wouldn’t be? I fucking thrown him across a room then turned him down when he’d asked me out. So now, I wasn’t really sure what to expect. Sliding the door open I scrambled to catch him as he fell backward. “Fuck! Ryuu!” Kneeling down I tried to prop him up. He was sweating like crazy, his shirt soaked and he felt entirely too hot to the touch. Glazed eyes slowly focused on me as he struggled weakly to get up. “Oh hi.” “Ryuu . . . fuck. You are sick. Why the hell aren’t you at home?” “It’s lonely.” It couldn’t possibly have hurt worse if he’d taken a dull knife and stabbed it right through me. If I’d been doing what I was supposed to, doing my fucking job, he wouldn’t be here like this, wouldn’t have been wandering around sick all night. I’d put him in danger by not being there. I was a fucking failure. Not anymore. Not fucking again. Shifting around, I scooped him up. He was lighter. Why the fuck was he lighter? “Excuse me sir?” I looked up to see the lady from earlier looking worried. “Is there something I can help you with.” “Yeah, call me a cab.” She nodded, her eyes never leaving Ryuu. “Right away sir.” I held him against me, feeling him shake every so often. Fuck. I had to get him to a clinic. Nakamara was going to have my balls. Worse than that, he was going to fire me. Setting Ryuu down, I took my jacket off and wrapped it around him before picking him up again. I gasped as there was a sudden sharp pain in my side. Shaking it off, I walked toward the front keeping a tight hold on Ryuu. The cab was just pulling up. I nodded to the girl as she held the door open for me. Ryuu was saying something, but with his face buried against my neck I couldn’t make out what it was. I was starting to sweat just from carrying him he was so hot to the touch. It was scaring me. If his fever was too high it could get dangerous. The ride to the clinic was tense. I played with my phone, dialing Nakamara then shutting it. I finally decided to call Sora. Someone needed to know I’d found him. Sora picked up on the second ring and I could hear a video game going in the background. “Kenta? Turn that down will you, Hasu? Did you find him? Is he alright? Where was he?” “Um. He was at a net café. We are on our way to a clinic. He’s um-he’s really sick.” “Which clinic?” I told him wondering how soon I’d know if I’d lost my job or not. I hadn’t told Nakamara about having Hayate do my job. I’d just thought that giving Ryuu some space would be better. I was lying to myself. I knew I was. Fucking lying. I just couldn’t handle being around him every day. When I was around him all I could think about was . . . things I shouldn’t be thinking about. His safety was my priority. Nothing else. Reaching over I smoothed the sweat soaked hair back from his face. “I’m sorry Ryuu.” Ryuu Light woke me. It was too bright to sleep any longer. I slowly opened my eyes almost dreading what I would see. I had heard voices several times when I’d wake just enough to have someone give me some water. After the second time that had happened, I’d realized I was very sick. It was scary. My body wouldn’t move and for a while I’d nearly panicked trying to get up. Nothing had made sense at that point. The only thing that came through clearly was Kenta’s voice. Knowing that he was there meant I didn’t have to worry. I’d actually slept after that. I wondered if it was morning. The clock said it was two, must be afternoon. Turning my head the other way I blinked seeing Kenta half laying on the bed, one arm stretched out toward me. My heart sped up. How long had he been there? Why was he here? I slowly reached over, running my fingers through the dark strands. Now that I was awake I could remember hearing his voice the whole time since he’d first found me at the net café. I wasn’t really sure how I’d gotten there, that part was kind of a blur. I’d just known that something didn’t feel right. I’d thought that maybe going out would help. Apparently not. He stirred slightly under my fingers and I froze. Would he be mad at me for touching him? I just didn’t know what to do anymore. He was so confusing. Taking my hand out of his hair I laid my head back turning to look out the window again. I should just give up. I wasn’t willing to lose his friendship over this. I could deal with not being closer. I would deal with it. Closing my eyes, I bit down on the urge to cry. I wasn’t going to. He’d just get on to me for it anyway. I nearly jumped feeling warm fingers suddenly surrounding mine. I turned my head, only to smile weakly seeing Sora standing next to the bed. Kenta was still sound asleep. “Hey.” “Hey.” “You look like shit.” “You look like a walking mop, a dirty one.” Sora just chuckled and shook his head, keeping his voice down. “You gave us quite a scare yesterday, Ito.” “Sorry. I knew something didn’t feel right and thought going out would help.” “Why didn’t you call me?” “Because I always call you. It’s not fair to you Sora.” “Bullshit. You could have called this idiot.” Sora glanced down at Kenta. I shook my head. “No, he . . . just no.” “He stayed up all night with you last night. He must have passed out just a few minutes ago. I was just in here thirty minutes ago and he was still awake.” I shifted around to sit up, leaning against the headboard. “Well, it’s his job isn’t it?” Even I heard the bite in my voice and I suddenly felt bad. “Yeah . . . about that. I think Nakamara is going to fire him.” I jerked around to face Sora. “What! No! No, he can’t! I won’t allow it! I-it was my fault. I . . . was too pushy.” A dry laugh escaped me and I dropped my head, plucking at the covers. “If anything he could sue me for sexual harassment.” “I don’t think he would do that Ryuu.” At Sora’s gentle tone I looked up. “He really does like you Ryuu. We . . . talked for a bit last night at the clinic. He’s terrified of getting fired, but he’s more scared of messing things up for you.” I stared at Sora trying to process that information. Kenta and scared didn’t go in the same sentence. I looked back down at the dark head. It was just like Kenta to think of someone else before himself. I just wished he would let me back in. I’d been shoved back outside that barrier and it seemed higher than ever. “I don’t know Sora.” “Just . . . don’t give up Ryuu. If you can’t win, where will I be?” “Jacking off to those photos you sneak when he’s not looking.” Sora’s eyes narrowed dangerously. “If you weren’t sick I’d . . . sometimes I don’t even know why I bother.” “Cause you love me!” I grinned at him as I shifted back down under the covers and rolled over onto my side. I was feeling sleepy again. I curled up around Kenta laying a hand on his. “Besides, it’s what I do. So I know you’d do it too.” “Oh my god, Ryuu . . . you are just . . . never mind. Go back to sleep for a bit. I’ll bring you something to eat here after while.” “Sora.” I waited till he’d turned back around. “Thanks and . . . I will keep trying.”

Kenta “Wh-what? Ryuu you can’t . . . you can’t be serious.” Why the fucking hell would he want me after what I’d done? I’d promised myself years ago that if I was ever lucky enough to find someone I would never treat them the way I’d seen my family treated. Yet, Ryuu and I were only hours into . . . whatever this was and I’d already hurt him. “I am serious. Very serious.” His eyes were shimmering as he looked at me. How could anyone look that good after crying? His cheeks were flushed, his hair a mess, his eyes holding too much emotion in them. I was losing myself. Totally and completely. “Ryuu, I-“ He kissed me again and I was shocked at the need in it. I could taste his tears, the slight saltiness mixing with the almost sweet flavor of him. How could something so simple make me feel like I was falling? A lost breathless sensation, it reminded me of when I rode my motorcycle hard and fast, leaving me high and shivering. This was so much better. So fucking much better. Before I knew it I had reached out, one hand in his hair, the other on his hip. I could care less that my ribs were screaming at me. I didn’t want to let him go. He pulled back just enough so that we could breathe, our lips still touching. The feather light touch making my lips tingle even more. Holy hell he was a good kisser. I slid my hand through his hair, my eyes locked on his wishing desperately I knew what to do. “Is that really what you want? You want me . . .” “I’ve wanted you since the first moment I saw you.” His low husky voice sent a chill down my spine. I let out a slow breath, not sure what to say. I’d never dated anyone. I’d messed around with a few girls, but Ryuu was so-so different from any relationship I’d ever had. The thought of being able to call him my boyfriend, my lover, was something that caused a weird fluttering sensation in my stomach. I played with a stand of the silky hair, not quite able to meet his eyes. This was going to kill me. “Really? Cause I seem to remember being laid up in the hospital the first time I met you. Had to look like shit.” “It wasn’t your looks that made me want you Kenta, though you were incredibly hot in that hospital gown. But that’s not the point. You’d risked your life for Reiko. All I saw was someone who was brave and willing to do anything for their friends. I saw the person who was willing to help someone even if they got hurt in the process, someone who was trustworthy and kind.” I nearly snorted at that, but looking at him I could see he believed every word of it. It made me feel sick to know I was going to prove him wrong. “I just helped her cause I was scared she’d hurt herself otherwise.” He smiled at me. “See. You are exactly like I said.” I tugged on the piece of hair. “Shut it. Are you trying to embarrass me or something?” He giggled at that and reaching up took my hand out of his hair. Holding it he brought it to his lips and kissed each of my bruised knuckles, the soft touches sending tingles racing up my arm. Why was he like this with me? It was confusing as hell. He should be fucking pissed as hell at me and yelling at me, not treating me like I mattered. “Ryuu . . .” “I never get tired of hearing you say my name.” He leaned back up until our lips were almost touching his breath warm. “I just love listening to you talk.” I leaned back giving him a look that I hope let him know how fucking confused I was. “You really are weird. That doesn’t say a fucking lot about me though.” He busted out laughing and sat back patting my leg. “I guess not. Come on. We are taking you to a clinic. You can give me your answer later.” “Um, no you aren’t. All they are going to do is tell me to wrap up, take some meds and not move around a lot. Besides I already know my answer.” The look in his eyes nearly broke me right there. Fuck. “Ryuu I can’t.” Ryuu Even as much as I’d tried to prepare myself for it, it still hurt like hell. I’d asked on a whim, but it was too much too soon. I could tell. Taking a deep breath I swallowed, forcing down the searing pain in my chest. I smiled and got to my feet. “Can’t go to the clinic? Don’t be silly. I’ll pay for it.” “Ryuu, that isn’t what I meant.” I looked down into those deep unfathomable eyes and slowly nodded feeling the smile failing. “I understand. Got to keep work and . . . pleasure separate.” I nodded turning away before he could say anything. “You are still going to the clinic, don’t make me get Jiro.” “You wouldn’t.” “Don’t push me.” I glanced back at him and could see the hesitancy in his eyes. I wondered if it was about going to the clinic or something else. Opening the door I headed back down the hall. I felt heavy and listless, but did my best to put on a happy, cheerful face. At least he wasn’t mad at me. Yet. He’d probably be mad once we got to the clinic. “Jiro-” “I’m fucking coming!” I smiled at that even though it felt strained. I could see Sora out of the corner of my eye, watching me. “We are going to the clinic.” Slipping my shoes on, I didn’t look up. I would probably just go home after making sure Kenta was alright. I didn’t really want to be around anyone right now. My back was starting to hurt from getting tossed on the floor earlier and a soak in the tub sounded nice. Would have been even nicer if Kenta would join me, but I’d ruined that by being to needy. Ruined everything. *** “Ryuu, you are in the wrong key.” Akira’s voice snapped me out of the daze I’d been in. I looked down at the sheet music and realized he was right. “Oh, sorry. Um . . . care if we take a break?” “No, we haven’t had one in a while.” I sat on my stool staring at the music, the subtle sounds of everyone leaving the studio not even really registering. Two weeks. It had been two weeks already. It felt like years. I’d seen Kenta three times since that day at Akira’s apartment. Apparently he was busy with work. Hayate had come with me on a couple of press conferences and a signing giving some excuse for Kenta each time. It felt like he was avoiding me. I felt lost without his quiet somber presence around, his gruff no nonsense demeanor. Was I really that used to having him around? “Are you getting sick Ryuu?” Sora was standing over me. I hadn’t even noticed him. “Oh. No. I’m fine.” “You don’t look good. You’ve got dark circles under your eyes and you are a lot paler than usual.” “Gee thanks.” “I’m serious Ryuu, even your singing is off. We haven’t been able to lay a decent track in days. Maybe you should go to the doctor.” I shook my head. “No, I think I’m just tired. I’ve not been sleeping well.” “Nightmares again? You know you can always call me or even just come over.” “No, that’s not it. I just . . . I don’t know.” I shrugged. “Alright, just take care of yourself Ryuu. If you need anything you just call me. I think we need to stop for today anyway.” They all left not too long after that. I wandered around the empty apartment. There wasn’t anything I wanted to watch on TV and trying to compose right now would be useless. I finally ended up lying on my bed staring out at the slowly darkening sky.

I guess I should complain about my neighbors too.. lol Okay so I live in an apartment and there are two neighbors that annoy the hell out of me. The ones next door, and the ones above me. There this girl that lives next door and omg EVERY MORNING at like 6:00am she has her music on soooo loud! I hear every word perfectly through the wall! (she's f***ing doing it right now as I type this!!!) And it's not even good music either! And just because she has to wake up at 6am doesn't mean that she has to make everybody else wake up that early too! Now for the people above me... all they do is get drunk like every night and yell and scream. I swear, they have so many fights! It drives me insane during the middle of the night when people are suppose to be sleeping! And also one of the guys smoke cigarettes... I like to keep my window open when it is nice weather and this guy always get smoke coming into my room! I am not a smoker so I really hate the smell the cigarette smoke! It makes my room smell bad! When I notice them smoking I usually close my window and make it really loud when I do so they know that I am pissed off lol

Original name: みちづれポリシー Manga ALT. names: Drang der Herzen, Michidure Policy, The Path to Love, Traveling Companion's Policy, Uten Kekkou Rule Original run: 2008 Description: Shinohara, who liked to take care of others like a mother, and Nishioka, who loved sweet things just like a kid (with big build), were good friends. Shinohara loved Nishioka, but was totally a coward when it comes to love. He always thought that “this love is impossible” and continued to be Nishioka’s good friend when he blurted out his feelings unintentionally. To Shinohara’s surprise, Nishioka accepted him and they started to go out. But Shinohara was having doubts and wouldn’t want to believe in Nishioka. What should Nishioka do? Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: Kitakami Ren Drawn by: Kitakami Ren Published by: Libre Shuppan Group(s) Scanlating: Attractive Fascinante Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Romance, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: Co-workers; Love at First Sight; Hidden Feelings Main Characters: Shinohara, Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Kissing, Kakko Warukute Kakkoii Kimi, Happy Days, Koi ni Tsuite, Gerbera Read Michizure Policy Online Michizure Policy Download Michizure Policy Manga Download link removed by scanlator's request

Title: Cruel Restraint Author/artist: Inose Circle: HariganeColse Fandom: Togainu No Chi Pairing: Shiki x Akira Genre: Yaoi Rating: R-18 Warnings: BDSM, Non-con, Violence Groups scanlating: Blissful Sin Year: 2007 Download link For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

LOVELESS I had a dream that was endless, You were standing there breathless and staring as I was friendless and afraid, We looked at each other as we realised we were nameless but didn’t know why, I tried to cry but I was tearless, You cried while skinless and wished that life was painless, We both knew that we were becoming bondless and slowly we were trust less, It was at that point when we became loveless while slightly being memory less, I started to think the world was warless, but woke startled, I was now sleepless and it was then I knew what zero was.

It's lyrical. It's good. I'm curious as to what triggered this poem to come about? What is the significance of the bullets? Some people will tell you that there's the right way and the wrong way to compose poetry but i'm telling you, don't listen to them. break the rules. follow your heart and be true to what you wanna express. keep on writing. be inspired.

. .geee . .the humorous part made me so LOL, (it made the poem UNIQUE) :banhbao21: . .from what i expected from my idol amander, nice nice (no bluffing here, it's true) :cuteonion57: . .i think through your works you made me inspired to go back working again to stuff like this :hamtaro-005 (44): . .GOOD JOB amander-sama

Power rages from within I hold my breath no air coming in Sticky, wet, taste so sweet This rage from me, it's hard to beat it crawls on my skin his fingers inside me hurts me worse than these pins this pain is torture but feels so good tomorrow night I won't let this fight It will come again and again He will see my grin :7yoyo10:

Well...I wanna complain about school...it starts way too early:leaf16: and I can't enjoy my last day of holiday as my main teacher told me to do an unexpected project. And she told me only today! argh...

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ok this is a greatopportunity for me to complain/ gossip about my neighbours. Huhhh... i really hate them; so rude and selfish.... A few nights ago, they came back around 11.30pm. They arrived and switched on the tv loudly!!! F**k*n sh*t!! I really hate them, didn't they think that the neighbourhood already slept on that time? Some of us need a lot of rest, but we can't sleep well because of the noise they made(from tv). Oh yeah, everyday that damn child (my neighbour's) is really annoying!! You know what, he used yo scream like a crazy woman who begging to die early when he want something or angry or anything he dont want.... Screaming like hell makes me sick of it. i wish he could go to HXXL early, so we can live peacefully here!!

WTH? How bad are your neighbors! I luckily have really good and polite neighbors, except sometimes we have small conflict, but it would eventually be dealed. I wanna complain about my ability to remember things! I am absent minded one .... this morning i hide my key in somewhere and now i can't find it :leaf9: I always feel afraid of learning sth by heart ...for the exam. It sucks cause I will totally forget everything when I am in front of teacher :leaf9:

Sensitive Pornograph (uncensored) Anime Title: Sensitive Pornograph Written by: Ashika Sakura Genre: yaoi Number of Episodes: 1 - have 2 part Year : 2004 Plot: Part 1 : The story begins with Seiji Yamada (Voiced by: Kenichi Suzumura), a young shonen manga artist, who develops an affair with a fellow mangaka, who writes hentai, named Sono Hanasaki, who is also his favorite artist. The plot-line develops from Yamada mistaking Sono for a girl. After having discovered him to be a boy, Seiji still falls in love with him, and they have an intimate affair. Seiji becomes distraught when he learns of Sono's past tendencies of sleeping around, and for a time the two become separated. However, they eventually reconcile after Seiji learns of the emotional damage Sono has suffered as a result of being abandoned and used only for sex. Part 2 : The second part begins with Ueno, a student in college, who works part-time as a pet sitter, receiving an assignment to take care of a rabbit. Upon arriving at the specified address, looking for a rabbit named Aki-chan, he finds that there is no rabbit. Instead he discovers a young man bound, naked, in a closet, apparently a sex slave to the man who hired Ueno. Aki-chan is chagrined to realize that his lover/master has created a twist on a sexual thrill situation for himself - he has sent strangers to Aki-chan for sex before, but tricking someone into the apartment is a new twist. Aki-chan knows his master wants to watch from a distance while Aki-chan has sex with the duped Ueno. Explaining that his master will get mad if things don't go his way, and may even hurt Ueno, Aki-chan persuades him to have sex to ..... Download Sensitive Pornograph OVA: Download Watch Sensitive Pornograph Online (HD Quality): Sensitive Pornograph Online For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Alternative Names: みらくるのーとん Company: Tennenouji Release Date: 26.12.06 Platform: PC Genre: 18+ BL, romance, PWP Summary: PWP very effectively sums this up. How to write the summary when there ain’t even a substantial plot or anything? *sigh* Well from the dredges of what little story there is in this game, the synopsis would go like this: Protagonist Ogata Akira finds a magical living notebook that can grant any wish he writes in it. But there’s a catch: only horny wishes work. Download Links (DepositFiles): Part 1 Part 2 Patch *Uploaded by request For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai - Become My Lover Author/artist: Isaka Juugorou Genre: Comedy, School life,Yaoi Groups scanlating: Bliss Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Year: 2009 Read Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai Online: Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai Download Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai New Download Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Usotsuki na Kimi no Toriko; Manga Associated Names: The Lies a Liar Likes to Tell; 嘘つきなキミの虜 Genre: Yaoi Author: MINASE Masara Year: 2008 Plot: When his sempai breaks a leg, Serizawa agrees to sub for him at the design firm. He doesn't expect to see Ikuta, a face from his past. Though Ikuta seems as gentle and kind as ever, he doesn't remember Serizawa. But outside of work Ikuta's personality is strikingly different. Is it really the same person, or did Serizawa never know the real Ikuta? Read Usotsuki na Kimi no Toriko Online: Usotsuki na Kimi no Toriko Download (Uploading.com links): Volume 1 Volume 2 Mirror link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Just Friends? (친구 사이?) CHINGU SAI? Country: South Korea Synopsis: Min-soo is on leave from the military and visits his boyfriend Seok-yi. While having fun out on the town, they run into Min-soo mother! When the Min-soo's mother asks about their relationship, Min-soo replies "... just friends." Watch Just Friends? BL Movie Online: Just Friends? Download Just Friends? BL Movie: Megaupload (Raw) Mediafire Links (English Subbed, flv format, but the quality is quite good) Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

'L's Difficult Successors' is a short Death Note doujin mini game made by Akane Warnings: R-15 / Shota Pairings: Mello x Near (main). Bits of LMN. Plot: The player controls L. The goal is to convince Mello and Near to be intimate with each other before Watari comes back to the room. Their level of intimacy will be displayed in the shape of empty hearts (initially), that will be eventually filled as their attraction for each other raises. The more you manage to make Mello and Near attracted to each other, the further they will accept to go. Download: Mediafire Mirror Link: ShareUrban For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Alternative Titles: Bokura no Ai no Kanade, 僕らの愛の奏で Director: Kusano Yoka Year of Release: 2008 Country: Japan Subs: xSayaPinkyx Duration: 70 min Genre: Drama Synopsis: Maki is a young gay music student who's completely smitten with his classmate Ruiku, who plays piano with incredible passion but is cold and distant to everyone. Maki decides to do whatever it takes to get Ruiku to return his feelings. Watch Bokura no Ai no Kanade BL Movie Online: Bokura no Ai no Kanade Download Bokura no Ai no Kanade BL Movie: Link For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Koi to wa Yobenai Associated Names: You Can't Call it Love, 恋とは呼べない, Koi towa Yobenai, Koi toha Yobenai Author: Eda Yuuri Artist: Machiya Hatoko Genre: Yaoi Release Year: 2010 Volume(s): 1 Volume (ongoing) Mediafire Koi to wa Yobenai Manga Ch 1 Ch 2-3 Ch 4-5 Ch 6 + Extras For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Amai Jouken Manga ALT. names: 甘い条件 甜蜜的承諾 甜蜜的條件 Sweet Promise (HYUUGA Seiryou) Original run: 2009 Description: A sexy and cool French restaurant boss, Sonobe Munekazu, suddenly appeared in front of Hisaya and took him home after saving Hisaya from his violent ex-lover. Hisaya started working in the restaurant later while staying together with boss. Love sparks flew and jealousy arose when the boss’s friend, Nagamori Kyou, appeared. Hisaya began to doubt himself and the boss. Was there a real reason for the boss to pick up a total stranger? Manga-type: Manga Written by: Hyuuga Seiryou Group(s) Scanlating: Attractive Fascinante Status: Complete Genres: Drama Romance Yaoi Categories: Heir Main Characters: Sonobe Munekazu, Hisaya Recommendations: Tenshi no Agent Download Amai Jouken Manga: Link removed because the scanlation group doesn't allow their projects to be shared on any site. Read Amai Jouken Online Amai Jouken

I know it's just recently out (4/22) ... but if anyone is kind enough to share, this game looks awesome! :33 All the characters are gorgeous... Frankly, the main protagonist is the hottest imo! (XDD I wish more otome games had hot guys like this....) :banhbao8: Opening: Game website: http://omega.karin-e.jp/index_02.htm

This is beautiful!

Your drawings are very good

I have season 2 with eng subs + DVD Special: MediaFire: Episode 01 Episode 02 Episode 03 Episode 04 Episode 05 Episode 06 Episode 07 Episode 08 Episode 09 Episode 10 Episode 11 Episode 12 DVD Special Wupload: Episode 01 Episode 02 Episode 03 Episode 04 Episode 05 Episode 06 Episode 07 Episode 08 Episode 09 Episode 10 Episode 11 Episode 12 DvD Special

M - Misaki Takahashi

@Aoi: agree with u and...Aoi is thanked 108 times

. .he's soooooooooooooooo . .we should kick his ass and dump him in the garabage site, or rather bury him alive, hahaha :cuteonion9: (just kidding )

I love the one with Moriya and Ryuusei a lot! Very nice!

WTH . .lol . .drawing in just a few minutes is amazing . .btw, it maybe H scenes, but i looked at it as a way of your ART, . .i'd to say, it's COOL, . .to your yaoi drawings, they're FRANK and FEARLESS (yeah!) :hamtaro-005 (6):

im choose Kozoku too..because it's more like family

I don't know... I like both ideas very very much. However, since I can only choose one of them, oh, so hard! I will vote for senpai/kouhai I think...

I agree with Amander. I am also pleased with both ideas so I'll vote for the Kazoku System just for the simple reason that there is more dynamic in a group than with a pair. I'll be happy with whichever system is chosen, though. Great idea, indeed (:

Wow! So cool!!! It's getting hotter! Can't wait to read the next chapter!!!! :leaf15:

Wow your poem is so beautiful! You have inspired me so much that I want to try to write a BL poem too

If we're talking about shounen-ai here... I like Gensomaden Saiyuki