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Title: Secret Moon Author(s): Gou Siira Artist(s): TOMOE Sato Language: English Genre : Yaoi , Novel Summary : While enjoying the cool Yokohoma night air, Viscount Akihiro Sanders Tomoe met a wild man, whose eyes burned like fire. Intrigued, he invited the young man back to his home. Nearly a hundred years ago, a spurned lover ended Tomoe's life. Madame had given him new life, but this gift was not without its limitations. Living again in Japan after an extended time abroad, Tomoe was on the prowl for a new lover. But he may have gotten more than he hoped for in young Taichi Yamagami. A young man with abnormal strength and eyes like fire, he awakened sensations within Tome that he had never felt before. But this young man was hiding a secret of his own. Influenced by the ebb and flow of the moon, he could be a sweet, naive intellectual, or a rough, demanding lover. Tomoe has never had a lover quite like this... what kind of man is Taichi? Download Secret Moon BL Novels: Mediafire For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Oh gosh, it's been years since I did any graphics (other than sig images and avatars). I used to make a lot of these "back in the day", but I just got so busy with real life stuff that I fell behind with my computer graphics. I never had Photoshop (still don't) so these probably aren't as great as most things, but they make me happy and I guess that's what counts! I just stumbled upon some of my older ones, so I might periodically post them as I find them. I just find images and blend them together, then add effects and/or text. At the time, these were just "blends" and there used to be a lot of competitions, etc. with different themes or required images. I'm not sure I have any of my competition ones anymore (that was at least two computers ago haha!) but I'll see what I can find. The first one I'm listing is one I made recently. Anywho, this is mostly just a fun thing I do every now and then. ^-^ p.s- I hope these look ok on other computers/browsers. *___* Most are .png for color/texture effects to show up as close to the original versions as possible, so I apologize if they take awhile to show up. Also, most of the textures were not made by me. I found them at graphics resource sites, so credit for those and/or brushes go to those sites. Stock images were also found by searching Google and the like, including stock photography (unless stated that the photo or scan was by me).

Do you know that I have a fic written? Havent finish but Roberta have read it. Normal sensei... Grammars and tenses. xD But I write it for you and GONNA POLISH IT AS FAR AS I COULD! One day... I will post it to you BUNNY NEE-CHAN! Yoji my dear your bunny sister has done a good job. The first part is extremly hot. Baby June is not a baby anymore. And for sure you must publish it June. The story is amazing. For Dai@Mao fans: MaoDai @ BACS Boys Awards Collection Shows Link : http://www.mediafire.com/?oc65gyho6h135xc

Original name: Aibiki Novel ALT. names: - Original run: 2005 Description: Takechi Shigeto needs medicine for one of his patients, but can't afford it. a childhood friend sees his problem and pays for it for him. However, the medicine must be paid back at a cost.. Written by: ASATO Eiri Drawn by: ASATO Eiri Published by: Kaiousha Group(s) Scanlating: Hochuuami Status: complete Completely Scanlated: yes Completely Translated: yes Genres: Yaoi Categories: Yaoi Main Characters: Takechi and Seichirou Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Shinpu wa Yoru no Hanayome Support the author by buying this novel

Title: Pawprints (Pawprints #1) Author: Anne Cain Genre: MM Romance, Novel, Paranormal, Shapeshifters Year: 2007 Plot: Veterinary student Adrian Ferrer can't find the right man for a lasting relationship, let alone to share his life with. Between classes, his part-time job at an animal hospital and volunteering at a no-kill shelter, he's not making time to try either. Just as he's ready to leave love for the birds, Adrian comes across a new guest at the shelter who turns out to be much more than the cute, black & white cat he first appears to be. The cat shifts form, becoming a gorgeous, naked man named Lal, and the sexual attraction between the two men is pure animal magnetism. Before Adrian knows it, he's falling for Lal faster than he can catch his breath. Never mind that his apartment doesn't allow pets, Lal is one cat he's not letting go of. But Adrian's new love is on the run from a former life that's about to catch up with them both. Download Pawprints BL Novel: HERE>>> http://www.mirrorcreator.com/files/1IJQE5UG/01-_Pawprints.pdf_links EnjoY!!! :hamtaro-005 (12): For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Author: Jet Mykles HEAVEN (Heaven Sent #1) The Weiss Strande Hotel is in trouble. Business just isn't what it used to be when Tyler’s father ran the family-owned hotel. On top of business being down, dad's sick with cancer and bills have skyrocketed. Desperate to save his family interest, Tyler and his best friend sink their hopes and what's left of their money into a new venture: a nightclub at the hotel. It's imperative that the White Room is a success, or else the hotel will go under. Lady Luck seems to be with them, however, because they manage to sign the mega-popular rock group Heaven Sent to play the grand opening. Already a huge fan of the group, Tyler couldn't be more excited to welcome them to his hotel. He's not at all prepared for the bomb of lust that hits him when he's finally face-to-face with the painfully gorgeous lead singer, Johnnie Heaven. No, it couldn't be lust. Yes, Johnnie's probably the most beautiful person he's ever seen, but Tyler is straight. It must be a misguided form of hero worship that he's feeling. Tyler finds out that he and Johnnie share an obsession: video games. When Johnnie invites Tyler to his room to play, Tyler jumps at the chance. Who wouldn't snap up the opportunity to spend time with their idol? He and Johnnie have a great time with the games, but Tyler soon discovers that Johnnie's got more in mind. The rock star aims to introduce Tyler to a whole new level of game play. Download Heaven Sent 1 Novel: https://www.sendspace.com/file/rvxz23 PURGATORY (Heaven Sent #2) Luc defines everything Reese has ever found beautiful. It's no wonder the famous bass player stars in many a teenager's dreams. Once, Luc rejected Reese. Now he says he wants him. Why should Reese believe him? Download Heaven Sent 2 Novel: https://www.sendspace.com/file/9bsj28 HELL (Heaven Sent #2) Heaven Sent gets a hell of new keyboardist with a name to match. Hell Witting is an amazing musician and proves to be the answer to a sound that the band was missing. With lavender hair and big violet eyes, he captivates Brent Rose from the start, and not just with his music. When Hell makes his interest in Brent all too obvious, Brent is unprepared and unable to stay away. So, fine, if they just keep it at sex, everything will be all right... Download Heaven Sent 3 Novel: https://www.sendspace.com/file/0ktuhb :_red_fox 2yoyo4rabbit1 [Publisher's Note: This book contains explicit sexual content, graphic language, and situations that some readers may find objectionable: homoerotic sex practices.] For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

@~Mitsukuni~ Hey thank you! I really hesitated to post any of these, because I wasn't sure, but thank you for your comment/support :3 Here are a few that aren't anime/manga related. These are fairly old... just found them last night. Oh, and another anime/manga one (I find I can't help but blend Kazuya Minekura images... they're just so gorgeous and lend themselves so well to textures and colorizing effects *____*)

@YOJICHAN OH OH! Good thing I didnt give out spoilers accidently like I ALWAYS do. :5yoyo32: Welllllll I thought Kubota didn't have so much restraint in his role in Gachinko and seemed a lot more natural, given natural circumstances. Hitmen movies like Assassin tends to have less of a character depth. YOU BET! I know, I know. These titles given are kind of weird. And I'm weird. But that's how FO evolved. Tehehe KYAAAA, you are so right. These are the kinds that turn me on. HAHAHA! Oh dear, I've said too much but you know... White Teeth, enough said. But as for Baba-chan, I love all of his characters in the movies!! Then in contrast in real life, he's CRAZY! I think I'm in love with his characters more but because he is SOOOOO TALENTED! Damn! Off-screen, I just love how I have to work hard to figure out our guys... only to make me think more...Baba-chan can be very wild but I feel there are so MUCH MORE about him. He's hiding all the goodies! Like a treasure! I like how Kubota gives me a sense of security yet exert the right amount of uhh... emotions/offense for his own measures. LOL I can't even explain it!! But it's like he knows his limits. I like guys who knows the right amount of self-control, I guess! hahhaa. They go ahead in the game without losing their cool, so to speak. Well... pillow fights are definitely what we should do with our anger. Tekekeke. Like Baba-chan with Taiki, he has self-control around him SOMEHOW! [i remember that discussion!] both on and off screen... and Aweeeeee so cute!! The White Teeth on the other hand... well forget that screamer scene where he 'lost control', he definitely is SHY both screen and off-screen but there aren't much he'd like to show. Again, I like mysterious guys, even though he can sometimes be mistaken as innocent. BWAHAAHAAH!! :2yoyo6: I guess they want the villains to have somewhat a mysterious aura, which I think you have. If they make me or you a villain, I wouldn't be complaining. :D Everyone loves the villains, hahahaha. Oh! Oh! It's hard to keep up sometimes. I'll re-watch it tonight and make a response. Never hurt to dream more !♥

yummy yaoi pic..? then..

I found a couple more... I think these were early examples but I can't remember for sure ;-;

wow! really someone wrote it? which page did you post, June? i'm assuming you posted it here in TKFC, ne? it's interesting someone wrote that kind of angle. i don't think i am strong enough to write that though...hahahahaha!!! OBVIOUSLY! would you mind reposting it here or sending me a VM/PM to the link? I've missed everyone too. Yeah, we had such crazy fun here. we were so RABID!! I would like to say that we're just all chilling here since there have been no official announcements made on a sixth movie. And my goodness, WHAT IF the 6th movie DID re-showcase BabaTaiki as MisuShin...? Most likely TKFC will be on fire again for sure CLOSEST PERSON IN HIS LIFE? THAT LEVEL? Kubota achieved that. WOW...ALL THOSE SECRETS THEY CAN SHARE! WAAAH! LOL...playing love tricks...haahah! i like that. I am soooooooooooooooooooo impressed with you describing his eyes as a pool of LAVA. HOTNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS...YESSSSSSSS *sizzle~sizzle* if he will stare at me like that...i mean like right at me...like he really intends for those gaze towards me alone...I WILL EXPLODE! LOL or maybe I will just melt and pasted on the floor....you will need a spatula to scrape me off. LOL because when I see him onscreen gazing like that...of course, he's doing it for the camera or whoever lucky person he is staring at...and i already FLAIL! REALLY? Awwww~~~ I don't feel envious though. Okay, maybe a little bit. Maybe it's because I don't want to have Kubota as an aniki. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Like he's so hot right there sitting down...I'd be like...WHAT THE HELL? STOP LOOKING LIKE THAT! *throws pillows* We won't be able to complete a DECENT conversation. bwahahahahahhahaha!!! I don't think I have read that yet. Wow. I am impressed. Just take your time when you work on it. I understand you are quite busy so whenever you have the time...just let me know. I have something to show you too. ahahahaha!!! You know in the Takumi-kun universe...ANYTHING AND ANYBODY is possible. That's what I learned out of reading stories and imagining things and watching the movies and all that interconnection the guys have with each other and other guys. YEAH...anything is possible. It's not nonsense at all. It's all about how the writer is able to pull it off. Of course! How can I forget? That picture is enough to give anyone wild imaginations and possibilities. LOVE YOU TOO, BUNNY SIS! Ehehehe...the baby is now a LADY. I am very proud of her. She has shown amazing resilience with a lot of stuff going on with her life. It has been a great pleasure to have been able to co-write with her and she has great imagination and talent. @Sloan Hey there! Oh I suck...I still haven't had the chance to watch the movie. I MUST! I MUST! I MUST! I'm curioous why you prefer Kubota in Gachinko than An Assasin. Watching the movie is the ONLY way for me to find out. heheheheh! I SEE, RIGHT? YOU GOT TWO WHITE TEETHS!! WEEEEEEEEEE!!! Yeah there has only been one for THE WIFE. LOL...are we gonna keep calling him that like forever? *giggles* As for me I am waiting patienttly for my Baba-chan to reappear so he can be side by side with the Kubota honey. No it's not just you...I THINK KUBOTA IS A NATURAL TOO. He does seem like a shy guy aura about him in interviews but looking at those eyes, you know there's a whole lot more in there. I also noticed that actors who are able to pull off such a convincing bad guy onscreen are usually very gentle, soft spoken, or shy off camera. If we met this particular person in real life, we'd be amazed at the stark difference they are able to portray in front of an audience. To give you a small example, if you meet me in real life...you'd immediatly think I am quite reserved. But you know I was never cast as a lead character in a radio drama or for TV dub? The director/producer would automatically cast me as a villain. What's up with that? So in my own way, I am trying to relate with Kubota. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! Uhmm....the video posted by Lynn is what I am referring to. It already has English sub in it. I am only basing my opinion on what has been said thus far by Baba-chan and Taki. They didn't actually say there would be a sixth film, it's just the way they go back and forth about saying "in the next film" which got me really hyped. But I don't speak Japanese fluently and what Japanese I know which is painfully few is nothing compared to the wealth of stuff they said. So I could be wrong in so many ways with my suspicions of a sixth movie. But we can always dream, can't we?

a compilation of Gin's weirdest works. E N J O Y . . . ________________________ sorry for making another thread...

Original name: No Color Manga ALT. names: 纯净无色, No Colour Original run: 2005 Description: Sakamoto is a serious and introverted law student. Iida works construction and is always making too much noise. The lives of these two drastically different neighbors are about to collide. Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: Natsume Isaku Drawn by: Natsume Isaku Published by: Shinshokan Group(s) Scanlating: Forgotten Gem Box Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: Megane Main Characters: Sakamoto, Iida Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Negative-kun to Positive-kun, No Color, Ameiro Paradox, Soshite Boku ni Futatabi Ai o, Koi Uta, Sunao ja nai Kedo Read No Color Online No Color Download No Color Manga: UrbanGen 4Shared For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Treasured Prince Author: Yamila Abraham Genre: Yaoi, Romance, Novel, Paranormal Year: 2012 ***Explicit Adult Content*** Plot: When an evil force threatens the kingdom prince Alatore is forced to ask for help from Vartan: a powerful and domineering demon who has a crush on him. As the third-born prince Alatore is obligated to become a soldier. This is the last thing the intellectual and romantic prince wants, but when his mother is killed his father makes him swear he’ll devote himself to protecting the kingdom. Alatore heads off to a neighboring kingdom for training. On the way there a wraith swoops him off his horse and into the arms of Lord Vartan: a demon who collects beautiful things. Alatore is indignant about becoming Vartan’s latest conquest, but then becomes mesmerized by the demon’s vast collection of treasures. He gets so excited over the artifacts he completely forgets why he’s been kidnapped—until Vartan’s tour comes to an abrupt end at a massive bed. Even if he gets away the first time what’s the prince to do when trouble strikes his kingdom and Vartan’s the only one who can save them? Download Treasured Prince BL Novel EDIT: Link removed on the author's request.

Original name: Mujihi na Otoko Manga Alternative Names: Original run: 2009 Description: Nanao Shirahane is notorious for being a male siren, able to lure in and 'slay' any man simply upon his will. And while these rumors hold no truth, Kuon Aikawa, a fellow student attending the same university, still can’t help believing them and despising Nanao along with it. Note: Sakuraga-sensei added extra H-pages to chapter 6, in the tankoubon release. The tankoubon also includes 2 extra chapters. Manga-type: Manga Author/ Artist: Sakuraga Mei Status: Complete Genres: Romance, Yaoi Categories: Drama, School Life, Megane, Unrequited Love, Love Triangle Main Characters: Shirahane Nanao, Aikawa Kuon Related Series: Mujihi na Anata - Sequel Read Mujihi na Otoko Manga Online Mujihi na Otoko Download Mujihi na Otoko Manga Right Here Mirror Link 4Shared ||Here is the CD drama|| For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title Koishite Daddy Original name 恋してダディ Manga ALT. names 恋爱吧♡爹地 Daddy, Please Fall in Love Koi Shite Daddy Original run 2011 Description Satou is a salaryman who is raising Rintarou, a toddler, by himself. After an event, he gets closer to his neighbour, Takahashi, a gay university student. Satou begins to get attracted to Takahashi who is fond of children and helps Satou a lot, but he held himself back thinking it would be too imprudent for him since he only got divorced just recently. Yet Rintarou starts throwing tantrums wanting to go to Takahashi's house all the time, and Satou is confused... What is going to happen? Here's a cute and sweet family story! Manga-type: Manga series Written by: KITAZAWA Kyou Drawn by: KITAZAWA Kyou Published by: Frontier Works Group(s) Scanlating: Echochi Scans Status in Country of Origin: 1 Volume (Complete) Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genre: Comedy, Drama, Romance, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: Drama, Romance, Slice of Life Main Characters: Satou, Rintarou & Takahashi Related Series: Love Kids!! (Sequel) Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Ohana Holoholo, Papa wa Tsurai yo, Cutie Read Koishite Daddy Online Koishite Daddy Download Koishite Daddy Manga Chapter 1 Mediafire | 4Shared Chapter 2 Mediafire | 4Shared Chapter 3 Mediafire | 4Shared Chapter 4 Mediafire | 4Shared Chapter 5 Mediafire | 4Shared Chapter 6 Mediafire | 4Shared (End) One of cutest manga i've ever read ＾ω＾ enjoy. For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Yakuza Pride Author: H.J. Brues Genre: M/M Romance, Mystery, Novel, Romance, Suspense Year: 2011 Plot: When yakuza underboss Shigure Matsunaga meets Kenneth Harris at a boring social event, he’s surprised to find himself attracted to the blond gaijin with the mismatched eyes. Shigure is even more pleased when he discovers Ken not only speaks Japanese fluently, but is fluent in Japan's ways, even the more violent of the martial arts. Ken’s expertise at kendo is not his most striking quality—it’s the passion beneath his quiet, almost fragile exterior that ignites Shigure's lust, and the two come together as explosively as they spar. Shigure is a dangerous man in a dangerous position. He’s been trying to keep the peace with the Daito-kai—his hated rivals—but the danger on the streets is escalating, threatening those Shigure most wants to protect. He may claim to love his gaijin, but before he can keep Ken safe, Shigure will have to overcome hostility from his people, a hidden enemy, and, the most insidious opponent of all, his own hard-won pride. Download Yakuza Pride BL Novel: Yakuza Pride For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Mujihi na Karada Manga ALT. names: 無情的身體 無慈悲なカラダ Ruthless Body Original run: 2012 Description: The story of Nanao Shirahane and Kuon Aikawa from Mujihi na Anata continues. Manga-type: Manga Written by: Sakuraga Mei Genres: Comedy, Drama, Romance, Slice of Life, Yaoi Related Series: Mujihi na Otoko (Prequel 1), Mujihi na Anata (Prequel 2) Recommendations: Itoshii Akuma, Mujihi na Anata Read Mujihi na Karada Online Mujihi na Karada Download English Ch 1 UrbanGen 4shared Ch 2 UrbanGen 4shared Ch 3 Mega Ch 4 Sendspace Ch 5 SendSpace Ch 6 (end) SendSpace Extra Sendspace Extra 2 Sendspace Chn 4shared UrbanGen For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Note: If running the game along with opening google and youtube, it takes me 1.40 minutes instead. It's not a very good guide as it's lacking, I know. :cuteonion53: ITH

Name: Heavy Fucker (lol) Author: Omega 2-D I don't much like the art, but the story is very funny XD It's sort of HarryxDraco and RemusxSirius(xSeverus), but not really.... Download from SendSpace (Updated link) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Another Story ( side story to Rules) BL Novel Author: Miyamoto Kano Description: To Atori's shock, Tooru decides it's time Atori had his first sexual experience on the bottom. Will Tooru be able to persuade Atori to let him have his way? Group(s) Scanlating: Liquid Passion Status: complete Completely Scanlated: yes Completely Translated: yes Genres: Yaoi Categories: Yaoi Main Characters: Atori and Tooru Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Kiss , Kiss after Support the author by buying this novel

Good day to all! Just wanted to share my works. Most of them are shounen-ai since i'm too shy to draw hardcore stuff. XD Comments and critiques are welcomed, really trying to improve my style! If you're interested my DA is http://tealory.deviantart.com/ The characters were from: No. 6 Project K Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Try checking these anime out, No. 6 has a really nice story, Project K got awesome graphics and is pretty new, and SH is kinda known already. :3

Ok , so...I'll put here my drawings and I'll hope you will criticize my work , 'cause I want to improve my technique. I hope you will like it !

First post is not related to yaoi whatsoever. Irony~ Louis Not really a doodle And yeah. I might post more stupid doodles since I have nothing to do this summer.

I missed it! I'll go back and find the link, but I haven't been posting in here much, cause of my love for Kim Nam Gil. I was posting links if I found anything I thought should be shared, but that is about it. I have tried talking to a few ppl in this fan club and found my efforts ignored. Those ppl I no longer pay attention to their posts. With you June, It was honestly just missed. Netflix has two different TV series Kim Nam was it, and they have good English subs with no misspellings. They are long long series, so that is where I've been.

@BobCrazy Hahahaha what a coincidence! rabbit6

Why didnt you tell me about this fanfiction? I like the character Yoshino! *__*

Come on... @robertita

1.... Woooo~~~!!!! @tuti Love you, babe

without.directive - 4AM without.directive - schema-f (first symbiosis) :banhbao35: else, no stars and pros, not perfect stuff... but i recently discovered some quite good stuff from just some dudes, under dubstep, in the 'sound' part of the flash platform newgrounds - http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/browse/genre/dubstep ~ you just have to pick out the gems apart from the .. ehh.. less god stuff ^^

Your card is: Choice Today is a day to remain firmly grounded. Will you support your allies at the cost of own well-being or sacrifice others for your own benefit ??

me too XD Pandora - Kara Fire and ice - Within Temptation Lost - Within Temptation Try - Pink =w=

Vol 1 - Vol 2 : Mediafire

[video=youtube_share;HYtaeP9MYsQ] I've seen these guys live, and... Tyson Ritter... *makes grabby hands*

Call me weird but I think this is touching~!

haaa ^^ it brings back memories XD

Your card is: Black Wizard Today everyththing comes together.. Your touch will bring the mighty down, but not right away. Use it, but don't get drained waiting.

Right now it's the cover version of "Vieni via con me" sung by vaanfluff

Your card is: Mutant Today the old must give way to the new You are not an aberration, you are the future of your kind.

:hamtaro-005 (22): @miyahara_sama Yes, it's true..... hahaha

Your card is: Antimatter Everything changes today... ...BOOM...

Your card is: Chimera Today is a Big day. Combine all your wild sides and become the most feared creature

Your card is: Bone Pillar Today is the foundation of something significant The world is on the edge, find a way to take advantage of its fall.

@Dark Sky - It's very good! I admire anyone that can do color. You do very well! :3 Here is my crap-attempt at color on one of my works. (This one is from back when I graduated from highschool. LMAO Over 10 years ago! Haha..)

Seventh Hour Hiro I just wanna get home, take off this damn suit and take a long bath… I just want the water to wash these damn thoughts out off my head. I keep going around and around what he said and I still can’t figure out what the hell was that all about. How come that guy sleeps with me, and it was his first time at that, ignores me the next morning, and just tell me to forget all that?! AHHHHHH, damn! I don’t get it… I really don’t… (triiiim…..triiiim….triiiim) “Hello?! Hey, Mei… What’s up?! Hum… drinking… tonight?! I don’t know Mei… I’m kinda tired today so… What?! No it doesn’t have anything to do with what happened yesterday, so don’t worry about it… (Well it kinda has something to do with yesterday but not of what happened with you… some other bothersome thing is taking all the space left in my head, and I can’t think of anything else actually…) Ok, then… So don’t you worry, I’ll come for a bit… but only a bit ok, now that I think about it a drink would be nice… The interview? I failed… yeah, I kinda sucked. Ahahha, yeah, I mostly screwed up everything they told me to do so, no hope there. Yeah… better luck next time I guess… Ok, see you guys later then… ok, bye.” Guess I have no way out, right? She’ll worry that I might be down because she refused me yesterday… Now that I think about it, why the fuck ain’t I down cause of that? Why is that guy, the only thing I can think about?! Yui The way home seems to take forever… For some reason these streets are taking longer than usual and I just want to get home. I can’t believe that I became what I always wished I would never become… I was horrible to someone, who’s not at fault at all for me being a freak. That’s right… I am a freak. I am unnatural. A monster… *sigh* Home finally… Guess I better take a shower… Oh my god, what is all this?! These… these marks…? Did this happen yesterday? I remember… I’m remembering… what he did to me. The way he touched me, the way he kissed me… It was so hot at the time… The more pain I felt the hotter it got… The touch of his hand all over my body. The caresses… They were so sweet… *cries…* Why am I like this…? Why couldn’t I just tell him that it was special what happened between us. That he was special… I just pushed him away, because I am so scared anyone finds out about me. But he didn’t know… He’s not at fault. He gave me such a precious memory, and i… *cries…* (bzzzzzzzzzz…..bzzzzzzzzzzzz…bzzzzzzzzz) My cell… it’s buzzing… “Hello?! Sachou? Yes, I’m already home. Yes, yes… Thank you for your concern, I am alright. I’m just a bit tired, I’ll rest for today and I’m sure I’ll be alright tomorrow… About the interviews…? Hum, I still don’t know. Yes, that’s right. I wasn’t paying much attention. Call them all again? NO! No… I mean, I don’t think it’s necessary. I’ll go thru their résumés again tomorrow and I’ll make a decision… The young guy? What young guy? Hiro… (His name makes weird things to me… He told me his true name… I deceived him. He’ll never look at my face again…) WHAT?! I didn’t agree with such thing… I did not say he was perfec… Sachou you told me i was going to be… Do not do anything until I get there. Of course I’m heading there immediately… You’re doing weird things again without my consent. I’ll be there in 20 minutes.” That damn Boss… Hiro and friends drinking gathering “Hey guys… what’s up?” “Hey you missing in combat person… What’s been happening to you, you disappeared these days… we missed you, right Mei?” “Yeah.” “Awww you guys love me so much…” “The hell man, that’s gross… Stop trying to kiss me… Kiss Mei instead…” “Nah, Mei’s a good friend, you guys are the ones I enjoy bullying… ahahha” “You bastard, bullying huh, wait and see what you’re gonna get for that…” “Yeah, yeah… then let’s go. Have you choose a joint…? I need a cold, big beer…” “Yeah, Yamazaki’s already has a table set for us. Today we drink and eat to our hearts content!” “You’re such a drunkard… Jesus…” “Hum… Hiro, mind if I talk to you for a bit?!” “… Sure Mei, what is it…?” “Oooooh, we’ll go… we’ll go, let the lovebirds talk…” “Shut up you loser’s… Come here Mei. What is it?” “Hum, say… I was really worried about you yesterday. So I kind of gathered everyone to come drinking to cheer you up… Not only because of what happened between us, but also because of that job interview… Since you failed you must be quite down, right?” “Nah… well, yeah a bit. But I’ll live! Besides is not like I won’t find something else…” “But that company… It was the one you really wanted right?” “Yeah… Those guys are huge, and they have a grow rate above any other company in the same field. Their accountant is a freaking genius…” (Why did I think of him?! Shit… this is not good) “I see is really too bad you didn’t get it… Did they refuse you right on the spot?” “No… They haven’t chosen anyone on the day, at least that I know off, but I don’t hold any hope actually, so it’s ok…” “That’s too bad…” “Say Mei… I know you’re doing this out of concern but don’t worry ok. I am alright. Really am. I guess I’m not as down as one could think when you’re in this kind of situation because, I think I was seeking a easy way out in you. Like, I imagined a perfect life, you know… Girlfriend, a good job, then marrying, kids… you know the normal kind of crap… But, truth is that, if I really, really loved you I would be way depressed than I am. My reason for being down is different, so don’t worry, ok?” “Am I being mean when I say that I’m relieved by hearing that?” “Ahahah, not mean at all. I actually kind of get you… A good friend proposes, you have to say no, you don’t wish to stop being friends with him, and you don’t know what to do, right…?” “Geez, you actually can also read my mind…ahahah. Hiro… the reason I was so afraid of all this is because I really do see you has a good friend and almost like a brother to me. It would hurt a lot if you wished not to see me or talk to me anymore, so yeah… I’m really relieved.” “Damn, I’m sure the best pal in the world… I didn’t even made it hard for you… Forgave you right off! You’re special Mei, you’re always gonna be so don’t worry…” “Hum… ok.” “Say… now that we’re on the subject is there a special, more than myself of course, in your heart?” *blush* “Hey!!!! What’s with that face?! You’re read as a tomato…” “There is… But he’s an idiot. He can’t see a damn thing ahead of him…” “Oh god… the way you’re talking… It’s that airhead Rihito, right?!” “Don’t say anything to him Hiro… He’s…” “He’s stupid, he ain’t ever gonna get there if you don’t tell him…” “Ahahah, I know… but I’m still preparing my heart in case he refuses me. It’s gonna hurt…” “Well yeah, but… What’s life without some hurting, right?!” “Pfff, you’re not much of a philosopher but yeah… makes sense.” “Course it does… I’m a genius…” “Ahahahha…” Yui Sachou should just stop fooling around and worry about important matters… What’s got into him to just accept Hiro’s interview without my consent?! He’s going to get it, when I get there I’ll be sure to give him an earful… Besides, it’s not the best option to let someone I did so much harm, to just come and work for us… Especially when he’ll be working right beside me. He’ll hate that. Having to see my disgusting face all the time. Having to talk to me, about work… Crazy thing is I don’t hate the idea. I’m scared… But I would be happy… To see him… Oh my god, what the hell am I thinking. I told him to forget everything and now I’m willing to take all that back…?! This isn’t good… I’m wishing I could speak to him again… *stops* Hiro? He’s with a woman… And he seems… happy. What is this…? Does he have a girlfriend? He said… he said… I can’t remember… But… it could just be a friend. No, no… they look so happy together… It’s hurting… It’s getting harder to breathe… Am I going to be left alone again? *sigh* what am I saying… I’m already alone… I’ve always been alone… I don’t want to see this… I don’t want to look… “Hey, you’re finally here… So how can I convince you to just accept the guy…” “Sachou… give me his phone number.” “Huh?! What…” “Please.” “Are you going to dismiss him, if so I’m not…” “No. I’m not. I’m going to offer him the job.” “Oh! That’s great. Oh then, here you go…” “Thank you. Can I tell him to start tomorrow?” “Already? Well, it’s fine with me but… isn’t that a little rushed? Yui, are you ok?” “I’m fine. If that’s so then I’ll leave it to him if wants to come tomorrow or not, but I’ll say the initiation starts tomorrow. It’ll be up to him to take it or leave it.” “Man, you’re all fired up… Ok, then. Call him up.” “Atsushi, mind leaving for a bit?” “Calling me by my first name? I wonder what’s got into you, not even when I beg you to, you won’t do it… I’ll leave then… Can’t wait to see what’s going to happen…” “Thank you…” Yes… I told him to forget everything. I told him to just forget about me and last night. But I can’t forget anymore… You have a girlfriend… But I don’t want you to… I want you for myself… I want you to be here… “Hello?!” “Hiro...” ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hello guys Long time no see, right?! Yeah this story was being neglected.. sorry about that I managed to write a little something, something... hope you guys like it A big *Hug**, and thank you for reading :**

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