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ATTENTION DAISUKE, MAO, BABA FANS I don't know if you guys already downloaded the VISUALBOY VOL. 4 BRUSH backstage shooting. Here are the links anyway. To save your space, see if you already seen them - Preview: 1. Mao 2. Daisuke X Baba ?????????????? Did you guys see these? I never did. Hmmmmm, Dai x Baba!! auhuAAGIUJLIFUEhfAKADKJ ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE THEM!

@Bridget - very nice I have to say that I now must to move to Brazil, here are just a few of my reasons why... David Jensen Arthur Sales Renato Ferreira Francisco Lachowski Bernardo Velasco Marlon Teixeira Reinaldo Berthoti

Top cosplay porno purveyors TMA have released a “BL” cosplay parody AV (i.e. a title featuring only men having sex with other men) for the fujoshi demographic – although whether this notoriously discriminating demographic will accept mere 3D men sodomising each other is another matter. the promotional link: http://www.mediafire.com/?widitpiq3mhrxc1

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How the fuck are we suppose to know If I'm a monster the way you refuse to die How the fuck are we suppose to know If where in love or If we're in pain... Im a tightrope walker Can't find my circus Now I'm damaged beyond repair And your just a coffin of the someone I once knew No I'm buried with you You never said I'll end uplike this Or so.. You never said I'll end up like this No.. Sometims I dream Im an exerinating angel An executioner from hell Sent to give you give the sweetest death I know Call the grave and make our reseevations You neversaid I'll end up like this..

Take care of you my dear yoji. More Morita and Suzuki. I'm in heaven right now.

hello everyone! sorry i've been a no-show in the club. i'm really busy with my assignments. looks like i have PAGES again to go through to be able to catch up with what's happening around here. i miss you all. special mention to seren for sharing the Morita x Suzuki fanvid btw.. but here i would like to share this beautiful Morita x Suzuki fanvid specifically made by a dear friend Yuuchan (yunake) for me and dedicated it as well. i was the one who picked the song but she made everything else happen. i hope you enjoy. this is one of the inspirations for my story "Of Love and Loss" http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/5468-Of-Love-and-Loss Watch Suzuki x Morita fanvid by Yunakel in Entertainment | View More Free Videos Online at Veoh.com

Nacho del Valle.. he's beautiful, cute... Gonzalo Colubi Matti Steiwieser Rodrigo Girao -sighs-

Evning....:Red_fox6:.... ......let me be a Santa for today.....:leaf12: to all my bunnies sisters on holidays from thread!!!.............. Taiki BabaxTaiki - LOVE YOU ONLY Pure slideshow :leaf3:

WTF DID I DOUBLE POSTED MY LAST POST *hide my face in the pillow* @Seren I think that is why there're japanese fans are making MisuShin fanvid now. They r showing their love. *maybe* Haiz~~i think if the director is still the same then there wont be any changes regarding the actors. But the biggest question now is whther the actors still want to continue their role. Im afraid that they refuse to continue bcoz of their rising popularity. I hope the actors are being loyal to us. *sigh* @SloanAkira I WANNA BE THE PRODUCER IS U'RE THE DIRECTOR!!! I put my trust on you!!!!! MAKE SURE ITZ HOT. I want to place them in the same room and i'll demand that BabaTaiki MUST ACT LIKE A LOVER infront or OFF the camera. Make sure of that Director-sama!!!! xDDD

JUNJOU ROMANTICA OST 1 Download JUNJOU ROMANTICA OST 2 Download

Sensitive Pornograph (uncensored) Anime Title: Sensitive Pornograph Written by: Ashika Sakura Genre: yaoi Number of Episodes: 1 - have 2 part Year : 2004 Plot: Part 1 : The story begins with Seiji Yamada (Voiced by: Kenichi Suzumura), a young shonen manga artist, who develops an affair with a fellow mangaka, who writes hentai, named Sono Hanasaki, who is also his favorite artist. The plot-line develops from Yamada mistaking Sono for a girl. After having discovered him to be a boy, Seiji still falls in love with him, and they have an intimate affair. Seiji becomes distraught when he learns of Sono's past tendencies of sleeping around, and for a time the two become separated. However, they eventually reconcile after Seiji learns of the emotional damage Sono has suffered as a result of being abandoned and used only for sex. Part 2 : The second part begins with Ueno, a student in college, who works part-time as a pet sitter, receiving an assignment to take care of a rabbit. Upon arriving at the specified address, looking for a rabbit named Aki-chan, he finds that there is no rabbit. Instead he discovers a young man bound, naked, in a closet, apparently a sex slave to the man who hired Ueno. Aki-chan is chagrined to realize that his lover/master has created a twist on a sexual thrill situation for himself - he has sent strangers to Aki-chan for sex before, but tricking someone into the apartment is a new twist. Aki-chan knows his master wants to watch from a distance while Aki-chan has sex with the duped Ueno. Explaining that his master will get mad if things don't go his way, and may even hurt Ueno, Aki-chan persuades him to have sex to ..... Download Sensitive Pornograph OVA: Download Watch Sensitive Pornograph Online (HD Quality): Sensitive Pornograph Online For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Love Impact (Yami No Matsuei doujin game) Rating: 16+ Compatibility: Windows Story: In this game, you play Tsuzuki-san and you must spend a day in Hisoka-kun's house. Everything you do and everything you say is important to get the good ending. Download Link: #SendSpace ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Title: Yami no Romance (Yami No Matsuei doujin game) Rating: 16+ Compatibility: Windows Story: In the game the player is Tsuzuki-san. You go to an amusement park with Tatsumi, Watari and Hisoka. Your objective is to get the romantic ending with the character you like, but you must take care of the things you say to them. If you want to get the good ending, you must choose the correct answer each moment. Download link: #SendSpace ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IMPORTANT NOTE: Both games require that you install the RTP (Run Time Package) file first: ||UPDATED|| #SendSpace (Maker 2000) #SendSpace (Maker 2003) (Both these games are really cute and had me smiling the entire time ) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

I don't know if there's already a thread about this, I didn't find one, so I made one. So, let's talk about No. 6 I love this anime! It's got great characters, plot twists, gut wrenching action, the two main boys are obviously in love with each other... It's intersting because it's shounen ai, but I don't think it's officially in the shounen ai/yaoi category. Anyway... AMV time! (SPOILERS) http://vimeo.com/38416055

Original name: Concrete Garden Manga ALT. names: コンクリート・ガーデン, Clock Down Original run: 2002 Description: 1st story - Concrete Garden Angels exist and Kashii Kiyoharu, grandson of the man who "created" the angel, has been hired to befriend him. His name is Toki. Kashii soon finds out why the scientists need him around. Toki is lonely, but no one wants to get near him unless it's necessary since he eats human flesh. What has Kashii gotten himself into? 2nd story - Clock Down Everyone expects Tokiwo to go to a good university. However Tokiwo doesn't want to in order to "play it safe". One night there was suddenly an earthquake. The stone he was looking at started to glow and out of his floor comes someone who looks exactly like his childhood friend Jiu. Well there is a difference. This "Jiu" is dressed for combat and has a very large weapon. Just what does the stone have to do with "Jiu" and who gave Tokiwo the stone? Manga-type: Manga Written by: KOTOBUKI Tarako Drawn by: KOTOBUKI Tarako Published by: Biblos Group(s) Scanlating: Obsession Status: 1 Volumes (Complete) Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama Categories: Bestiality; Boys look like Girls; Drama Main Characters: Kashii Kiyoharu, Tokiwo Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: - Warnings: Cannibalism, Male Pregnancy Download Concrete Garden (Kotobuki Tarako) Manga: •°New link°• Concrete Garden Mirror link -- Title: Garden Author: Kotobuki Tarako Artist: Kotobuki Tarako Genre:Drama, Fantasy, Romance, Sci-fi, Shounen-ai Groups scanlating: Nakama Status: 1 Volumes (Complete) Year: 2008 Download link -- Title: Dogla+Magla Author: Kotobuki Tarako; Yumeno Kyusaku (Dogla+Magla Novel) Artist: Kotobuki Tarako Genre: Action, Drama, Sci-fi, Shounen-ai Groups scanlating: Nakama Scanlation status: 1 Volume (Complete) Year: 2003 Download link For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Himitsu no Kemonotachi Manga ALT. names: ひみつのケモノたち, Himitsu no Kemono tachi, Himitu no Kemonotachi, Secret Beasts, We are the secret beasts Written by: SAKURA Ashika Drawn by: SAKURA Ashika Original run: 1999 Description: 1) Gentle Beasts Shizuka gains older twin brothers via his mom's remarriage and finds himself hopelessly smitten with both of them. Can he manage to date both of them at the same time? 2) Secret Beasts The grown-ups go on holiday and entrust Shizuka to the care of his twin brothers. 3) Something faster than Love Clever and curious middle-schooler Yuki is determined to try out what he's learned from his sister's yaoi mags on his friend, Akito. 4) Lovely Lovely Witch-sensei Nanami is a middle-school teacher born with a curse. The only way to remove it is by having sex 1000 times with his true love. Things get complicated when his true love turns out to be Aki - one of the boys in his class. 5) Naughty Witch-sensei Aki goes away on a school trip that Nanami isn't involved in. Nanami is so lonely he has to take matters into his own hands. 6) At the end of your World Mana and his brother have lived alone ever since their mother died. When Kinezaki-san, his brother's friend, comes to stay, he finds the brothers' activities to be a bit unusual. 7) About Brother and Brother Shizuka and the twins return. Manga-type: Manga Published by: Kasakura Shuppansha Group(s) Scanlating: Liquid Passion Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Smut, Yaoi Categories: Shota, BDSM, Incest, Older Uke Younger Seme, Teacher-Student, Love Triangle Main Characters: Shizuka, Yuki, Akito Recommendations: Dorei Kyoushi!!, Koi ni Oboreru Houkago, Goshujinsama to Wanko Download Himitsu no Kemonotachi Manga Himitsu no Kemonotachi For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Upload by request Here is Junjou Romantica Koi no Dokidoki Daisakusen CG Pack: Download: SendSpace [updated 27/08/2013] For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

It's all about the bishies, yes? Asian men got their own thread but that's too limiting. There are sooo many tasty morsels out there. So I wanted to give them all a chance to be seen. I will start off with five I found today... Adam Wallace [/center] Eugeniy Sauchanka David Chiang Ian Mellancamp Travis Cannata oh and he's a twin -BONUS- with his brother Troy... I showed you mine now its time to show me yours

Reading right now "I want to be naughty" by Sakuraga Mei and "Fine Play" by Kano Shiuko Possibly gonna re read Junjou...

Hugs, hugs and more hugs!!!!!

To yojichan!!!!! YOU MADE MY DAY! Thanks for the special gift of your words!!! That's all I can say!

I chose for red eyes but well XD

Your Hidden Power Is Fire You have a strong and courageou soul. You show no fear when it comes to protecting the ones you love. You know when choosing between right and wrong. You also are quite the rebel. Gem Stone:Ruby, Eye Color:Red,Hair Color:Red with Blonde streaks that is just below your arm pits pulled back into a pony tail. Quote:If you're lost I'll keep you warm and if your low just hold on..cause I will be your safety.....don't leave home..... Fire, fire this is me.

Then vote! You never know, they might go to your country during their next tour Go to their official site, the voting already started.

thanx for the info laruku is the first j-rock band i like and Haido-sama is so kireiiii especially his voice loved it! but it so sad coz when they come to my country i can watch them :cuteonion24:

There's a lot of manga like that but the most famous one is haru wo daiteita Hope this is the one you're looking for if it's not let me know I'll find another.

butt with wasabi :leaf10: UFO or Baba

This story takes us back on a much deeper understanding of the love between Suzuki Takeshi and Morita Toru from Takumi-kun: The Rainbow-Colored Glass. This is a story of love, friendship and the the ties that bind even from beyond. This story have gone through several revisions, formats and had taken several months to accomplish. I am finally pleased with the results and I hope I have given them justice. Hope you enjoy this experience. Special thanks to BLFreakgirl who made a personalized wallpaper image of this couple for me back in March. and Yuuchan (yunake) who made a fanvid of them for me. To everyone who continue to inspire me and encourage me, my heartfelt gratitude to you all. "The time between meeting and finally leaving is sometimes called falling in love." - Lisa Loeb Suzuki Takeshi Morita Toru OF LOVE AND LOSS “So what do you think?” Gii eyed Suzuki curiously. “About what?” Suzuki replied not breaking his gaze on the chess board. “Oh come on! You know exactly what I'm talking about.” Gii looked at him amused. “No, I don't know what you're talking about. If this is your way of breaking my concentration, forget it.” Suzuki shook his head and moved his chess piece and batted the timer. “Kazuki Takahashi. The sophomore I introduced to you the other day. What do you think of him?” “He's okay, I guess.” Suzuki shrugged. “Okay? That's it? That's all you can say about him? Didn't you guys hit it off right away?” Gii looked surprised. “No, we didn't. I wasted 10 minutes of my time having to listen to someone ramble on and on what an amazing person Saki Giichi is. If you're trying to show off your fan boys to me in this school, it's not working.” Suzuki replied nonchalantly. “What the hell? I swear I thought he totally liked you. That weasel! He's gonna hear it from me.” Gii sounded very annoyed. After procuring such a potential guy for Suzuki and that person blew it. Damn it! “Nah! Forget about it. Seriously, dude..why you even bother introducing me to anyone. I already told you I'm not interested. You've already introduced 15 guys to me since last year. And I didn't even ask you to.” Suzuki smirked at him while he scratched his eyebrow with his thumb. “Well, I didn't want you to be lonely, that's all.” Gii smiled but his eyes looked at his old friend with genuine concern. “I'm not lonely. I'm fine.” Suzuki looks at him assuredly. He knew Gii was being worried about him again. Gii is one of the closest people in his life who is privy to his health condition. “Are you sure? 'Cause you look like you really need some company.” Gii obviously didn't look like he was giving up. “I swear Gii if you were not born to inherit your father's company, you would definitely have a promising future being a pimp for a club or a bar.” Suzuki chuckled. “Now that's just mean.” Gii sat back and frowned at his friend who obviously didn't look like he was taking it back. Gii narrowed his eyes studied him for two seconds and leaned over and said, “You really think so? I could be a great pimp?” He grinned. “Hai.” Suzuki nodded assuredly. “Good to know.” Gii nodded and smiled and moved a chess piece and batted the timer. The door opens and a tired-looking Akaike Shozo walks inside the room. “Tadaima.” “Okaeri.” Gii and Suzuki chorused. “How was your day in the office, darling?” Gii gives him a naughty smile while batting his eyelashes in rapid succession. “Not so bad. What are you two girlfriends talking about while I was gone?” Akaike took off his blue jacket, put it on a hanger and deposited it into the closet. “Fuck buddies.” Gii shrugged. “Dorm sex slaves.” Suzuki yawned. “Right.” Akaike snerked as he began untying his necktie. He wasn't the least bit surprised anymore with the choice of language those two shared when there were only the three of them together. Had they stopped talking like that then that would be just plain weird. He took off his white uniform and put on a fresh blue shirt. He decided he'd take his pants off later. He stretches himself on his bed and relaxes his head over his forearms. “So which of you two losers are winning?” He looks at them. “Me of course as usual.” Suzuki raised an eyebrow with genuine pride. “Not even close, nerd.” Gii frowned. “Checkmate in two, pretty boy.” Suzuki smirked. “Liar!” Gii huffed but his eyes roamed wildly at the chessboard wondering where those two moves were going to come from. Suzuki grinned, made his move and just like that, he won. “What the hell?” Gii looked at the chessboard aghast. “See? I told you, I'd get you in two moves.” Suzuki laughed triumphantly. “Whatever.” Gii turned away to face Akaike who was now leisurely browsing a sports magazine. “So how was your day like? Let me guess, the rich little brats have been picking a fight with the other rich little brats in class?” Gii raised an eyebrow obviously amused. “Well, yeah, there's that. They were about to stab each other with pencils. PENCILS! Stupid jerks.” Akaike shook his head in irritation as he flipped a page of the magazine he is reading. “I'm glad I don't work for the discipline committee.” Gii laughed. “Yeah but you got a trail of fan boys who follow you around like ducklings every single day.” Suzuki rolls his eyes as he put the chess board and chess pieces away before moving to sit on the edge of the bed because Gii is now lying on his stomach and has already occupied most of the entire bed space. “Oh yeah. That. Damn it.” Gii buried his face on the pillow and groaned. “Anyway, there was someone interesting today. Transferee. Freshman. Morita something. I forgot. Anyway, he arrived this morning to school accompanied by his mother. Quiet kid. Kinda shy but has inquisitive eyes. Matsumoto-sensei assigned me to tour him around the school on Monday since it'll be his first day.” Akaike yawned, laid the magazine on his bedside table and stretched his arms. “Transferee, huh? We don't get those types much in this school, do we?” Gii asked. “Nope. Not much at all. Quite a rarity actually. But the kid passed the requirements of this school so he's gonna be studying here for sure.” Akaike now stands up and starts to pull out a fresh pair of white pajamas from the cabinet. “Gii, come on, man. It's late. I'm sleepy. Go back to your room. Now.” Suzuki punches Gii's leg and tries to push him off the bed. “Don't wanna. I still wanna play with you, guys.” Gii whined and frowned but reluctantly moved away from the bed. “If you don't leave, we're gonna tell Hayama about this American greeting kiss thing and that you just made it all up.” Akaike grinned. “Alright, alright, fine. I get it. Goodnight, ladies. I'll see you both tomorrow.” Gii grudgingly heads towards the door. But only a few seconds after he has closed the door behind him, he opens the door again, sticks his head out and gives the biggest pout he could muster. “You're not gonna tell him, I just made that up, would you? I'd never get an excuse to kiss him in the open anymore. You know how I love it when he looks so flustered and cute when I do that.” “GOOD NIGHT, YOU SADIST! “ Suzuki and Akaike yells at him and throws a pillow which hits Gii right in the face and they all laugh.

Akh..btw, may I ask about the director of Takumi 1, is it the same as the others or different. I watched making of Takumi 1, looks like it's different director.. :Red_fox3: Agreeeee...I want engage whole cast from Takumi 4 and 5..I don't want another changing on the whole cast.. rabbit4 Sometimes I am wondering..if there're Takumi-kun series with the whole character become a college students.. :hamtaro-005 (22): I really hope they're making another one and one and one of Takumi series.. These Takumi series someday will makes all of our fantasy kill us, I guess... I just started reading your fics...and I just finished "Love Scene", I love how you write down those beautiful love scene with into novel.. :leaf15: Gyaaaaaaaa... a GV of DaiMao and BabaTaiki... :7yoyo10:

arigatou nitta-san yoroshiku:hamtaro-005 (10):

My top 5 Funniest Yaoi Manga with their best quotes, in order are: Darling Miura-Kun, "[if your not gay] Why despite that your a guy do you have such beautiful nipples?... Just as I thought. You're really pi$$ing me off." Rio's thoughts, **A-Again... As he thought?...** "U-m... hey... what do you mean by "as I thought"... Whaa!!!" Miura-kun takes off Rio's undies. Abiru Junjo Goutou Sensei, "Listen up. When you become a man like me... And you feel good, semen comes out of your nose." Maniakku ni Aishite Vol 2, chp 6, pgs 60 and 61. Moritas Sakura Otaku monologue. Too long to quote. Will you become my wife (After walking in on her son, uke, and his "wife", seme, getting it on) Mother-in-law, "AH.... Aoi! You monster! What is this? (motherly confusion) I've never seen a wife doing this kind of thing to the husband!" Tokyo Shinjuu (Akina made a deal with himself that if Chiba reaches -100 points, Akina will stop liking him) Akina, "Minus 30 points!", thinks **No, 40 points. Even 50 points!** Chiba, "Starting today, I'll be taking you to school." **30 points?** Akina, "What?! I'm not a kid! I'm Leaving! Idiot! Minus 10 points!" Chiba, "What's up with the minus thing?"

ATM ITS HIM AHAHAHAHA: AHAHAHAHAH XD becoz, srsly he totally makes me go WTF???? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT FACE DUDE????? AHAHAHAAH XD Im a alien's butts stalker atm, right!!!! EHEHEHEH XD What would you like to do right now??? mmm?

jackie chan

Hahahahah i know right?? he even lift up his skirt like that!!! xDxD Hahahaha him wearing yukata really makes me think like a pervert. I wanna strip down his yukata !!!!! *drools* He looks so beautiful in it.. > Hahahaha ur boss is driving u crazy?? Well my teachers as well..Im a very slow learner and they keep yelling at me to try harder..== I think it's very soon for them to comeback!!! ^^

Goodness this thread is too hot! More than what I can handle *O* Here's some Jared Leto

Keep it dripping Keep it slipping Pull the triggercontinue gripping. Once,twce make it nice this amount of blood will suffice. Guilt and shame, its all the same. Ozing red,clicking......dead White sheets stained,someone blamed somewhat hated,love retained. Let it go and end this Game. Just keep dreaming,this is life keep the screaming

I Love all the pics of JAPAN,,,

Hahahaha you are all having so much fun.. I dunno what to reply.. so..jaaaaa~~ I'm backing off and just gonna watch *holding popcorns* @yojichan Hohohooh sensei thatz what happened when I listened to death metal while writing. Nevermind..I'm gonna delete it or i'll be haunted by it.. Right now I'm gonna read Dakenai Jikan becoz the uke loves to BITE..LOL Wooohoo..papai!!! ^^

Human by The Killers I did my best to notice When the call came down the line Up to the platform of surrender I was brought but I was kind And sometimes I get nervous When I see an open door Close your eyes, clear your heart Cut the cord Are we human or are we dancer? My sign is vital, my hands are cold And I'm on my knees looking for the answer Are we human or are we dancer? Pay my respects to grace and virtue Send my condolences to good Hear my regards to soul and romance They always did the best they could And so long to devotion You taught me everything I know Wave goodbye, wish me well You've gotta let me go Are we human or are we dancer? My sign is vital, my hands are cold And I'm on my knees looking for the answer Are we human or are we dancer? Will your system be alright When you dream of home tonight There is no message we're receiving Let me know, is your heart still beating? Are we human or are we dancer? My sign is vital, my hands are cold And I'm on my knees looking for the answer Are we human or are we dancer? You've gotta let me know Are we human or are we dancer? My sign is vital, my hands are cold And I'm on my knees looking for the answer Are we human or are we dancer?

My vote is for Tom Hiddleston: To me, he is absolutely beautiful. x3

You like the metalhead and androgynous types of guys? COOL. I love Frost or Michael Tituniuc for example. Long black hair is sexy! I am probably alone in this one but I think blond guys are absolutely stunning like paintings. Beautiful paintings. Exotic and different. I love me Nineties Blondies♥

Personally, I like handsome more than pretty men.

The sun was about to set. A sombre mood seemed to have enveloped the entire Shidou Academy since the student Suzuki Takeshi succumbed to his long-time battle with his rare bone disease. The funeral was held at his residence. Shidou High Academy officials announced a special day for some of the school staff as well as its students show their respects. The entire science club organized to purchase a large bouquet of Magnolias since it was a favorite of Takeshi. His best buddies also attended the entire funeral ceremony. Gii acted in behalf of the family as an older brother since Takeshi was an only child and had very few relatives who could take the role. He made sure that the funeral arrangements were made to the point. His family also gave the largest funeral gift contribution having been made aware of the large expenses that has incurred from his friend's hospitalization bills. Gii wanted to put the grieving parents at any kind of ease after losing their only son. He could only imagine the pain they are going through having to live with a son whose days on this Earth have already been numbered from the time he was a young child when the tragic diagnosis was made. It was a blessing that Akaike Shozo had also been doing his part to help him. As friends, together they tried to put up a strong stance amidst the outpour of emotions that was heavily felt around them. Takumi who was also one of the attendees did not stay too long during the wake. Funerals always made him uncomfortable. The death of his brother would make disturbing flashbacks in his mind. But during a private gathering of Shidou students that was held in the school in honor of Takeshi two days after the funeral, he volunteered to play the violin for everyone. A piece he knew too well was the science club president's favorite. Thoughts leading back to that fated phone call made to Takeshi's mother were painfully returning to Morita's mind. It was supposed to be just another routine early morning call to greet Suzuki a cheery ohayo before he started another day in Shidou. He loved listening to his lover's voice on the phone even if it was just for a few minutes. And then they would talk a little bit more in the evening after supper time. They were both looking forward to the weekend that they would meet again. This was not meant to be. Before that day could come, Morita had frantically abandoned all manner of school decorum and rushed to the hospital that very minute. All he had was his wallet and the two pieces of film in his pocket, a special gift from his beloved. The promise he made to him about not attending the funeral actually also extended to not making an appearance on his deathbed. It was Suzuki's way of shielding him from ever seeing him in that manner. He only wanted to leave a strong memory of him being alive in his mind. The only way Morita could convey his loving presence for the last time was through the films and flashing the rainbow-colored hues in Suzuki's room. Not even the cloudy skies would deter the freshman's determination to send his message and when it finally did, an overwhelming sense of relief and sadness came over him. Despite such noble intentions, his compulsive act violated Shidou High Academy's strict school guidelines regarding runaway students. His deep embarrassment and regret upon his mother's sudden appearance and having to make such a trip all the way from Australia to Shidou. Unexpectedly, it was his mother's comfort and understanding that still kept his sanity intact despite hanging on a thin thread. The loss of his first love was killing him slowly and deeply. To his mother, there was nothing to forgive her son for. She understood the connection between them as Morita shared stories of Takeshi during their conversations on the phone. And just like her son, she did not care having to lose time away from her work and come so far for the sake of love and this was her love for her only son, Morita Toru. The only living remembrance she holds precious from her late husband. Morita Toru was given an in-school suspension that was to last for two weeks. An expulsion was initially considered but weighing the reasons for his disappearance and strong testimonies taken from concerned students of high academic standing namely Gii, Akaike and Takabayashi, the two-week suspension was put into effect. He was granted a few days with his mother who requested to spend some time with him before she headed back to Australia. Their already close relationship has grown closer from the recent loss. They both bade goodbye at the airport with tears and smiles in their faces. Mother and son have always been affectionate with each other. The parting was bittersweet but Morita had been assured a plane ticket bound for Australia where he can spend his summer vacation soon. He was looking forward to it very much with the sincere hope he could rid of the heartache he is experiencing. His suspension status did not make him an outcast in school. In fact the science club members expressed their sympathy and have started to befriend him. They even invited him to become a member after he serves his sentence. He was still not sure whether to accept their offer or not. Everything was still too much to handle to make a decision. He felt the slight chilly air as he watched the sun slowly setting in the horizon. His eyes slightly puffy from the previous night he spent in tears. Sleep have become elusive to him. He wound up sitting in bed praying for sleep to come to him before daylight. Sometimes he had dreams of Suzuki when sleep managed to reach him. He pursed his lips and breathed the air around him. He closed his eyes and slowly opened them again. His mind imagining that the windows high above the building facing his direction would reflect the rainbow-colored hues telling him that Suzuki-san was busy working with a science project. But there would be no more light coming through those glass windows. No rainbow-colored hues. It remained dark and quiet as it had been since the funeral service. “Morita-kun?” The freshman was jolted out of his reverie from the sudden presence before him. One he had not expected at all. “Gii-senpai...” He was about to stand up but Gii quickly gestured for him to remain on the wooden bench. The sophomore took his seat beside him. Morita could see the fatigue in the man's eyes. His handsome features marred by his sullen mood. It was clear that Gii has been deeply affected losing one of his closest friends. “How are you holding up, Morita-kun?” Gii looked at him with concern. “I'm okay. I would like to express my deep gratitude to you for speaking on my behalf at the disciplinary meeting. This goes to Akaike-senpai and Takabayashi-senpai as well. Thank you so much.” He gave a slight bow. “Don't mention it. We understand why you did it. I actually commend you for it. You're very brave. You did not hold back and just took off like that despite the consequences. I wished I had done the same.” Gii sadly looked away. “Suzuki-san would mention about you during our conversations. He had nothing but great things to say. He said one of the best things that's happened to him in Shidou was being friends with you and Akaike-senpai.” Morita's attempt at trying to comfort his weary companion only seemed to make him sadder. Gii's nose flared and his jaw tightly clenched as he tried to keep his emotions in check. His voice coming off a bit shaky. “I miss him. He was such a cool guy. Takeshi was always his own person and a great friend. They don't make people like that anymore.” Gii sniffed yet there was now a slight tone of happiness in his voice. “Other than Shozo, I was the one he confided his illness. We would talk about lots of other things but he sure did a fine job keeping you to himself.” “Really?” Morita was clearly surprised with Gii's confession. “Yeah. Though I did suspect that he seemed to like you when we all met at the cafeteria back then. But I had no idea how serious he was about you until after the Halloween party. To me I thought it was going to be a good time to hang out and chat. But when I saw the way he looked at you that time, it became clear as day to me.” Now a smile showed in Gii's handsome face as he reflected thoughtfully. “I'll never meet anyone quite like him again.” Morita mused. “We can be grateful that we have been given the chance to have been part of his life as he was to ours.” Gii added. Morita only nodded in reply. He closed his eyes again as he savored the comfort of those words. Many years may come but he knows in his heart he will never ever love this way again. No one can ever come close to the man who has touched his heart in ways he had never known possible. He could say that his first love was most special and requited. The happiness of being loved by someone you love. Nothing came close to that feeling. The sense of completion it gave would remain in his mind and heart for as long as he lived. Gii watched the sweet expression on Morita's face and he smiled. His fingers reached deep into his pants pocket and took out a piece of a neatly folded paper. He handed it to Morita. “Takeshi's mom was hoping to see you at the funeral but since you didn't show up, she entrusted this to me to hand it to you.” Morita gazed at the folded paper. His fingers showed a slight tremor as he held onto it. “I'm so sorry I was not there at the funeral. Suzuki-san made me promise not to go. Even that day I ran away. He didn't want me to be around his deathbed either. I was so close to breaking my promise to him. I wanted to open the door to his room and just rush in. He insisted that the only memories I will have of him is being alive. It was killing me not to see him one last time but how could I deny him his last request?” Gii watched as fresh tears began to flow in Morita's eyes. He moved closer and wrapped his arm around his shoulder to give him a strong squeeze. The younger man covered his face with his hand. To Gii as he listened patiently to the sobbing Morita, he felt a sense of peace in his heart. The realization that even without his efforts, Takeshi and Morita would have found each other in this lifetime. Knowing how much they loved each other till the very end eased his pain. “There is no need for you to apologize. Thank you for loving him that much. For making him happy beyond words. You gave him something that no one could. I'm glad you came into his life. We all do. You take care, Morita-kun. I'll see you around.” Gii slowly eased his grip and stood up to leave the wooden bench. But just as he was about to walk away, Morita quickly stood up from behind him and called him out making him turn his face. “Thank you very much, Gii-senpai.” Morita bowed to him. Gii gave him a respectful nod in reply and then walked away. Now alone again only this time with the letter in his hand, Morita carefully unfolded the piece of paper. He could feel his heart racing. He breathed in deeply to try to calm down. He wanted to make sure he fully understood the contents of the letter instead of turning into a weepy mess all over again. His lips curved into a smile as his eyes gazed into the first words of the letter. My Morita, Fate can be so tricky Once you thought you'll never have it then it's there It came to me at a time I never imagined would come And look what I have become. For the first time I see but a lifetime I knew But never what I've conjured up to be Words have been spoken and shared but never close It's actually what's beyond words that mattered the most It's unbelievable to think that such events happened at such short notice Thinking you could've done more but that's just is Maybe it was meant to happen all at once But never cease to everyday leave you in a trance For now all we have are memories of those short but magical moments Those quiet endearing moments Having turned them into reality, I am now fulfilled and complete I am what I have become because of whom my heart has beat. Your Suzuki OWARI ================= Author notes: OH GOD! OH GOD! KYAAAAAAA!!! FINALLY IT'S DONE! This story was conceptualized long before I fangurled the MisuShin pair. It's gone through several major revisions, formatting, editing and have been put aside many times. I declare no claim to the original Takumi-kun characters except the ones that I have created like Morita's mom, roommate and the boys Gii "pimped" for Suzuki as well as the letter you see here. This is a poem originally titled April Love which I wrote years ago put here since it was apt for the story.

Suzuki was feeling the stress of using only his left hand while he worked on his tasks in the science club room. So many thoughts came to mind as he looked outside the window. He needed to make his current light refraction experiment work. He intended to make this his legacy to the Science club. He examined his right hand and tried to move his fingers, seeing that they did not respond and only hurt, he stopped. Gii had told him about what happened to his consultation with specialists in the States. He could not bear to watch the deep regret in Gii's eyes that time. He has never seen his friend so afraid and unsure for as long as he's known him. Gii felt like he had deeply failed his friend and himself. The prognosis was grim. He tried to forget how his parents sounded on the phone during his last conversation with them the other evening. He was going to delay the inevitable as long as he can. Gii and Shozo were very aware of the non-mobility of his hand. He had been advised by his doctor to report the slightest symptoms but he made his two friends swore not to tell anyone. He was determined to see this through. He still had one good hand. He could still do many things while he still can. He was not going to give up too easily. He looked at the references he had on his table and noticed he was missing a book he needed to complete his experiment. --------------------------------- Morita had again declined another club invitation from his classmate. Ever since he arrived Shidou, the students have been very enthusiastic to invite him to club activities. If there was a mystery book club or a library club invitation, he would have said yes in a heartbeat. But there were no such clubs in existence in Shidou much to his dismay. The library had been his source of peace and here with the wealth of mystery books it provided, he felt right with the world again. He found his book and settled on the long oak table and turned to a page that he bookmarked earlier. Time seemed to have passed and Morita was deeply immersed in his book when he felt a sudden presence that made him look up. And there stood Suzuki on a stool reaching for a book on the shelf. A smile came to Morita's face. Another chance of seeing him again, he thought happily. He thanked again whatever gods that made him decide to stay in the library at this very moment to catch a sight of the young man. He noticed that he was browsing the bookshelves with his left hand while the other hand remained in his pocket. He didn't know what was the deal with that but he thought it best not to pry too deeply. What made him mad with curiosity was what kind of book did Suzuki borrow from the library. He made a mental note to find out about it later. Truth be told Morita was actually anxious to talk to him. But for the life of him he was tongue-tied whenever the other boy appeared. To calm his anxiety, he did his own research to find out certain details about Suzuki Takeshi and it made him even more curious than ever. He wanted to know more. To him, he was like a mystery but he was not sure yet if he wanted to solve or continue being fascinated with. He found out he kept company with one of the most respected and most popular students of Shidou namely Saki Giichi, Akaike Shozo, Hayama Takumi and Takabayashi Izumi. What would it take to be part of such a tight group if only to get close to Suzuki? But he realized it was going to be hurdle since he was still a freshman and a transferee at that. It seemed Suzuki was taking his sweet time browsing at the book shelves. He already found the book he needed. He recalled that feeling of utter surprise finding Morita in the library as he entered. Perhaps saying a few words to him would be nice but seeing how immersed he was in his book, he doubted if the other boy even noticed his presence. It would have been rude of him to disturb his reading. Yet a sense of warmth enveloped him having seen Morita again. That was all the mattered for now. He really should be able to talk to him next time but he had a task waiting for him in the science club room that needed his attention. He reluctantly stepped down the stool and walked away to find the librarian. The book he held in his hand was Fractale. ------------------- Morita inhaled the crisp breezy air as he relaxed by the bench calmly watching the window across him. Suzuki was like clockwork and it didn't take much effort for Morita to find out the time he would be at the science club room. He chuckled at the thought of him being some kind of stalker but he knew he was far from it. He did sense there were some students who were quite helpful with him whenever he made some inquiries about the sophomore. When he found out Suzuki was the science club president, he could not quell the excitement in his heart. Now here he was several meters away enjoying the quiet surrounding while adjusting his vision as rays of colored light shone reflected across the windows. He gently ran his fingers over the red book on his lap. Fractale. Speaking of helpful students, Hayama-senpai had been one of them. If it wasn't for him, he would not have been able to find this book. Yet he felt rather curious at his senpai's seemingly odd behavior these past few days. There had been several times he had been approached by Hayama-senpai and at each time he looked like he was going to tell him something only to stop himself. He wondered if he had said something to offend him but their earlier exchange ended abruptly when he admitted he felt a bit envious that he got to be friends with such great people. But he did mean it. How he wished he could see Suzuki as casually as they could.

“Is everything going well for you there? Are you alright?” He rolled his eyes for what seemed like the umpteenth time in a row. He didn't realize that his mother's worry for him could manage to reach a certain level of annoyance for him How many more times would he have to convince her that he's fine and that there was nothing to worry about? “I told you I'm alright. There's nothing to worry about, okay? I'm fine. If anything comes up, you're the first to know. I promise. How many times do we have to go through this?” “Well, don't sound so annoyed. I'm your mother for God's sake. I have every right to worry, you know. You're so far away. “ “I know...I know.” He leaned his head to the wall and closed his eyes. “Well, I just wanted to make sure you're alright. Remember to call me if anything happens. I don't care what time it will be. Don't you dare hesitate.” “Hai. Goodbye, Ma.” “Goodbye. You take care of yourself, you hear?” “I hear you.” Suzuki Takeshi let out a deep sigh after putting the phone down. Why did it always have to be this way on the phone with his mother? It's not like he was fragile for God's sake. Okay, he admitted he had a serious bone condition but he was determined to live a meaningful life in Shidou. He's gone a year without any major incident and he damn will do his best to see it through this as much as he could. He didn't really blame his mother's ever-growing concern. His parents and doctors were staunchly against his decision to go to high school. Opting that he would be home schooled instead. But the thought of being cooped at home was murder for him. In the end, he managed to convince his parents of his decision to enter Shidou High Academy. Despite much reluctance on their part, his parents eventually agreed provided he followed some ground rules, one of them being able to update them regularly of his condition. They could not deny him in the end. He was their only son after all. They would have moved mountains for him and he knew it. I should get back to the science club, he thought. ------------------------------- “How are you enjoying the tour so far, Morita-kun?” Akaike Shozo patted him on the shoulder which earned a self-conscious smile from the freshman. “Very much, Akaike-senpai. My mother and I only saw a bit of Shidou last time we were here before she left for Australia. And now having seen more places, I am very happy to be here.” “Well, you know the drill. Keep your grades up. Your manners checked. I'm sure you'll get along with a lot of people here.” Akaike smiled at him and patted his shoulder. “I look forward to that very much., Akaike-senpai.” He nodded. “Hmmmm....lemme check my list here. I hope I'm not skipping anything else. Aha...so we've been to the cafeteria, the dorms, the classrooms, the gymnasium...hmmm...what else?” Akaike studied his folder while Morita looked around savoring the atmosphere around him. He felt excited. He felt good. I'm so glad to be here. He made a mental note to tour his mother around the school grounds when she came to visit. Shidou felt like another world to him. A kind of world he has never been before. None of the schools they visited ever gave him this much high. He must have been overwhelmed and it felt good. He decided that this is where he can belong and make the best memories as he could. “Oh yeah...I think you'll like our next stop. One of Shidou's finest...the library.” He smiled. At the very word “library”, Morita's eyes widened and his ears perked up at the sound of it. He loved it. He did see a preview of the library from one of the school's brochures and he knew there was a whole lot more to it. The Shidou High Academy Library earned the ranking of one of Japan's best libraries. The anticipation to see it and hang out there as much as he can in the future was making his heart skip. “Alright, library it is! Follow me.” Akaike tucked the folder underneath his arm and walked ahead of Morita who was trying to contain all his excitement as best as he could.

Lyle Lovett - Simple Song (from the Album "Pontiac") It's a simple song for simple feeling You see the moon and watch it rise Across the continent the night bird sings And somewhere someone hears its cry So disillusioned Keep your head down If you do they'll never know You'll have no answers to their questions And they will have to let you go And disenfranchised Revolution They'll take away by right what's yours And make you martyrs of your own cause When they don't know what cause it's for And all deserted Stand alerted They'll love you when you're all alone But you find a red rose in the morning light You wait the night and find it gone So hear my words with faith and passion For what I say to you is true And when you find the one you might become Remember part of me is you * This song gives me goosebumps *

Lovestruck by Duffy: Suddenly it hit me like, like in between the eyes, It's a physical... andwe got it like I'm in paradise, They say I'm crazy, but I know where I belong, Any love... you got me sleepless all night long. And nobody, like it lonely, ... your body, next to hold me, It's not too much for me, They say it's too much for me. [Chorus:] Suddenly it hit me like, like in between the eyes It's a really good feeling, we got it like I'm in paradise, They say I'm crazy but I know where I belong, Any love... you got me sleepless all night long. I'm lovestruck, lovestruck, ohh you, I'm lovestruck, lovestruck, ohh you. Ain't nobody, like rejection, ... to dreamin', Oh, so such sweet affection, It feels so good to me, It feels so, so, so, so good for me. [Chorus:] Suddenly it hit me like, like in between the eyes It's a really good feeling, we got it like I'm in paradise, They say I'm crazy but I know where I belong, Any love... you got me sleepless all night long. I'm lovestruck, lovestruck, ohh you, I'm lovestruck, lovestruck, ohh you. You see I'm lovestruck, lovestruck, ohhh you, I'm lovestruck, lovestruck, ohh you Huuuu, ohh you Lovestruck, ohhh you, ohhh you.

well i love gackt but i think my fav lyrics at the moment would have to be the love from a dead orchestra by versailles. i love all their songs and it's hard to pick which i like most. here's the english translation. The black sea traces the howling of the wind in these intervals The memories, changed into roses, started to follow the present Inside the picture, the beasts hurt each other And they hand the memories over to the darkneww Why do these days refuse to stop like this And turn people into something ugly? This melody will turn into a blue tranquility They should disappear I'm alienated from the connection From fascination to expectation I can't divide the phrases The historical facts are drawn Those fingertips will turn into a blue tranquility People pierce their hearst with loneliness Whil I'm staring at the roses, the melody of death flows Ah...it should fall down Disappear Burn The ugly me No matter how often I kill it, my body returns from the dead If these thoughts reach I'll get rid of everything I just want to bloom like the flawless roses Dissapear Burn The ugly me I just want to bloom like the flawless roses

http://www.paramore.net/album/riot/ When It Rains VERSE ONE: When it rains on this side of town it touches Everything Say it again and mean it We don't miss a thing PRE: You made yourself a bed at the bottom of the blackest hole Convinced yourself that it's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore. CHORUS: Oh oh how could you do it? Oh I - I never saw it coming Oh oh I need an ending So why can’t you stay long enough to explain VERSE TWO: And when it rains You always find an escape Just running away from all of the ones who love you From everything You made yourself a bed at the bottom of the blackest hole You'll sleep till May and you'll say that you don't wanna see the sun anymore. CHORUS: Oh oh how could you do it? Oh I - I never saw it coming Oh oh I need an ending So why can’t you stay long enough to explain BRIDGE: Explain yourself Take my time Take these chances to turn it around Yeah take these chances and make it somehow Take these chances to turn it around Just turn it around CHORUS: Oh oh - how could you do it? Oh I - I never saw it coming Oh oh I need an ending So why can’t you stay long enough to explain OUT: You could take your time And take my time. . .i inserted a link, if you guys want to hear it . .one of paramore songs that made me comfy