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Part Fifteen “Mom...is that you...?” “Shouji.... What happened to you my child?!” “What do ya mean, why you askin’?” “Shouji, why aren’t you happy sweetie?” “Happy?!Shit mom... ya know i’ll never be happy since... since you...” “Shouji... Life itself it’s already something to be happy about, you know? I wish i could be alive to be there for you but i can’t, but you have to try harder, you’re letting yourself drown in sorrow, and that won’t lead you to good places.... Don’t you think so my child?” “Mom... i can’t... I’ve been thru so much since you’ve been gone... i can’t be happy anymore... Why d’ya have to leave me all alone with that guy... He beats me up and steals my money, i worked my ass off so bad to get... Why d’ya have t’a leave me behind... i rather y’a take me with ya mom... I donn ‘wanna be left alone again... Let me go with y’a now ok...?” “You can’t sweetie... You can’t come where i am... You’ll have to wait to meet me again... You still have so much to do, you’re still so young...” “I can’t mom.... i can’t.... Even that bastard, i thought he liked me... Even if just a little... But he hurt me mom, he hurt me so fucking bad i got stuck in a hospital cause of him... I don’t know what to do about that guy... I don’t know if i like him or if i hate him... I mean, he was the first person after you who had been nice to me, but he did that... what am i suppose to think?” “Shouji, why don’t you give him a chance...” “Mom... just let me go with ya...please... It’s so peaceful here, ne... No more worries, no more...” “You can’t sweetie... You can’t come here... But i’ll always be waiting for you, until your time comes... I’ll be right here...” “MOM!!! Wait... NO!!! MOM!!!” “Who the hell is your mom?!” Shouji woke up from his sleep, still shaken by the intensity of his dream to find the “bastard” sitting across the room looking at him with confused eyes... “So... how are you feeling?” “........Fine...” “Fine...Fine... that’s not an answer... Do you need me to call the nurse or something?” “No... I said i’m fine... What’ya doin’ here anyway?!” “What the hell!!! I came to see you and you start with that fucking temper already...” “Why?” “What do you mean, why?” “Why did ya came here to see me? Aren’t ya busy...? There’s always a bunch of people goin’ in and out of this place, looks like a fucking war just broke out while i’m stuck on this damn bed... So why’re ya here?” “Well... yeah... some shit turned sour the other day and we had to take care of it, but it’s solved now... “ “Speaking like a yakuza no doubt...” “Ahhaha well i am one...” “Yeah... i guess...” “Hum... look, i had a little chat with Mimori-chan and it’s all good ok...?” “All good?! What’s all good...?” “You know our agreement, that you go back and you do the shit to help Mimori-chan, and it’s fine... I told her you would help her out around the house, she just doesn’t want you to get on her way... Other than that it’s fine... She also said it would be nice if you finish high school, like doing the proficient test or... something like that, so you can become a proper adult and shit... ” “In think i’ll be pushin’ my luck goin’ there... She just doesn’t like me. And what’s that shit about school anyway? I’m not good in studies....” “Well for starters that old hag doesn’t like anyone... She won’t give you a hard time, we already agreed... You just have to do what she asks of you... As for the school stuff... I do think is a good idea... For you to get a good job, you know...” “And what if i wanna stick around’ya...?” That was a killer phrase... Kai didn’t know what to answer, and Shouji didn’t know what the fuck did he meant by it... For a minute there the room fell silent, and only then, thinking about what the yakuza had told him, Shouji managed to sense something was different than before.... “Now that i think about it, what the fuck happen’ to ya, you talkin’ all weird and shit?” “I’m not talking weird, just shut the fuck up... Well... the old hag made me ok... It’s one of her stupid weird demands... I got to talk and behave right otherwise she’ll be pissed beyond my patience limits...” “Shit that’s just... Why go so far just for helpin’me out... What else do ya what from me?” “Like i said... This time i’ll do the right shit to help you, no more than that...” “I see...” “Yeah...” “Then do ya at least know when th’a fuck can i get the hell away from here? Am sick of this place... It’s making me worse...” “When Hisaki tells you too...” “Well for me he can pack his stuff and go home tomorrow...” Dr. Hisaki came in the room a bunch of papers under his arm... “Like i said... He may already go tomorrow if he wishes so, his recovery was really good... He’s not supposed to overwork himself since he still recovering but i think it’ll be just fine. I can see you decided to finally show up here... The kid was starting to think you had abandoned him.” “The hell, doc... I don’t care if he comes or not... I don’t give a shit...” At that moment Shouji realized his temperature raised a few degrees by the embarrassment the doctor made him go thru... Even if he really felt that way, that wasn’t something to say out loud, and expose his weaknesses like that... Whatever the hell it was Shouji felt for Kai, it wasn’t meant to be disclosed. Quite the contrary... It was supposed to be enclosed behind a thousand locks inside himself. A feeling not allowed to see the sun light. Ever... The second Shouji looked at Kai, just making sure nothing weird had passed thru, he found the yakuza looking at him with a sorrowful expression... Was it the remorse of having hurt him, or something not even related to him at all he couldn’t tell... However, Shouji’s trace of thoughts were broken by Dr. Hisaki sudden talk... “Ok so... Brat, you’re not supposed to go running out and about, nor can you do stressful activities at least for another week... Then to you sir, since you’re the grown up. Make sure he eats properly, he was quite malnourished when i first saw him, then, and this is my most important advice... Tell him about Sayuri... All there is to know. If you wish to keep him around you, he has the right to know, and most importantly, to be aware of all this situation, do you understand?” “Yeah... I know, and i will, don’t worry...” “Oh and by the way, i have to thank Mimori-chan for giving you a hard time about your manners... It’s surely a great improvement for the guy who’s supposed to be the major company leader to at least behave properly and not like the brat he still think he is.” “Shut up Hisaki... I’ve been thru enough of that shit with the old hag... I promised her to be on my best, if she helps the kid out... I’m going to do so...” “Oh... See Shouji, he looks all cool and collected, but he has a thing for you, and he’s all upset otherwise he wouldn’t even go thru this kind of trouble, ahahhaha....” “THE HELL HISAKI....JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!” Not just Kai getting all flustered but Shouji himself thought the doctor had been quite bold, really bold to pick on the yakuza like that... But Shouji could see, Kai trusted and liked the doctor quite a lot... “I can see the cursing continues but, oh well, it wouldn’t be you if you didn’t...” “Shut up, everybody curses and it’s my only way to vent my frustrations, cut me some slack...” “Well, then i’m leaving you two alone to talk about important things.... bye bye...” Dr. Hisaki left the room with a damn weird smile on his face, Shouji was beginning to think it wasn’t a good idea to be left alone with Kai, but he had shit to ask him, and everything had to be water clear before going to his house again. He wasn’t going to go thru the same shit again, and he was specially, most interested in what Kai was about to talk to him. The “kimono guy” was still mostly a mystery to Shouji, but whatever Kai intended to tell him, was letting him feel worried, that such a heavy subject was being brought on.... Kai’s pained expression was really showing how hard it was to talk about it. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That's all for now, hope you guys liked it Thanks for reading

****************************************** The sea of insanity commanded the wind, To blew my pirate soul, With pride, i won't recoil I do not worry, where waves take me Nor do I frightened, by souls haunting me, For I, was Jack Sparrow, The Pirates' insane pirate! Nor do I read maps, Map is nothing but lines, Instinct! Instinct is my compass And the sea, the heart and soul of the sea Is engage with my insanity, It's heart belongs to me! With this ship, might a meager, And sink into the shadow, But i still stood, Til the ground buries my foot I drown myself in zeal, Treasures are my daily meal, I'm a vagrant of the sea! That's what my of being pirate means The day continuous to fall, And mist starts to crawl, From afar, sea-creatures howl, Of the mystic ghost ship, silently growls Time is ticking! In a jiffy, a battle might begin, For a treasure, I can't compare, To the eminent Philosopher's stone, Nor of Harry's Sorcerer's stone, The Dead Man's Chest, is the only one! ****************************************** JOHNNY DEPP's DEBT was the first title, i thought the main purpose was to create a little funny poem, since the character, Jack Sparrow, is a silly and humorous pirate but . . . my brain speaks it own mind and DISAGREE with the idea . . . but . . . i SUPAH want to do it, . . in the end . . . . HE won over me, and I'm again . . . . a PUPPET of HIS! . . . . honestly, i don't know how should i entitle this, so, i just think of JACK SPARROW, itself. . . . . . anyway, thanks for giving a little of your time READING THIS!

Have you ever had the feeling that there are words behind your lips that are longing to be said? The feeling that those few, simple words, when uttered, would determine your fate? You feel scared that when these silent voices escape your tongue, you may not like what fate has in store for you. You feel afraid that when they remain unsaid, you will have to do with what you have, live a lie, and die with a secret. Is that what you want?... to live a lie and die with a secret?... I know... It's hard, isn't it? It has already happened to me as you may have already foretold. An instant in my life when i couldn't stop the unheard whispers playing under my tongue to speak out: I revealed them slowly to a friend... "i love you"... A sudden cold, chilling sensation enveloped me. Confused, i felt, in the awkward moment of silence that seemed to have lasted forever when it only did for a few seconds. I couldn't breathe properly. My heartbeat was getting louder and louder until it was all i can hear. It felt as if i was going to die. This is when i know that the words i spilled that night was not right. NO! It was not a lie! I really do love him. Yet, it was wrong because i know... FELT... that he does not accept my love. It was hard for him... but it was even harder for me, to have finally said the words i longed to say and realize that they have only gone to waste. it hurts more than you can imagine. It tore the soul out of me. *sigh*... Days turned into weeks and weeks to months... Still, no word from him. Time was slowly turning me into as fragile article. I was already about to break when the God-given day came... we have finally talked to each other. Up to now we still do. We're friends again, actually. The sad part? We NEVER talk about the words i chose to reveal to him. I guess we'll never will. No one can really tell what happens next after the words are finally told. Unless you let them out, the world will remain a blur with a shadow of an UNSURE YOU living in it. Although it still stings... i can say that i did not regret what I've told him that night.

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I just saw this for the first time and... sh.. sho... show... show... SHOWER!!! *faints* ... ... From now on i won't see my baths with the same eyes... leaf2 enjoy ladies!! ^^

Title: Mukuchi na Koi no Tsutaekata Altenative name: Liebe braucht keine Worte (GERMAN) Author: Yamato Nase Summary: The calm, composed and shrewd restaurant owner, Hatakeyama, is in love with Yamasaki, the cool, beautiful chef from a rival restaurant. In the past, Hatakeyama tried to embrace him and Yamasaki hates him for it. Despite this, Hatakeyama refuses to give up and aims to start again as friends. Although Hatakeyama often asks him out to eat, Yamasaki still doesn't show any interest in him... but what happens when a cool, good-looking fellow chef appears? Groups Scanlating: Dangerous Pleasure Genre: Drama Romance Shounen Ai Yaoi Related Series: Dekiru Otoko no Sodatekata (Adapted From) Read Mukuchi na Koi no Tsutaekata Online Mukuchi na Koi no Tsutaekata Download Mukuchi na Koi no Tsutaekata Manga Volume1 + Extras - Mediafire / Urbangen Volume2 + Extras - Mediafire / Urbangen For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

@ Bridge....couldn't be more right, ne?! XD And a few more presents....

OMG BEL... I JUST RECALLED THIS COMERCIAL... ROFL......

Ehehehh cherry XD They even looked cute in the pic.... And Bridge...........To me it looked like a great guy... O_o Why cause if you're in a relationship with him, a guy who KNOWS you and HELPS you it's like.......... HE FREAKING ROCKS!!! Not boring sweetie... you guys would make your sweet hot'n sexy smex all night long cause he's so awsome XD

Well, they are still visible for me. Otherwise google her name for pics.

Another nice tomboy ! not popular one thought P.S : pics from aggisuperstar

I like tomboys and boyish girls in general *___* Paul thx for the pics, I'd also have thought as Kaoru, that at least the last one was a guy

What's your opinion about tomboys? I think they can be pretty hot...

@Kaoru ..yeah yeah all for fan service Here we go again !!! Aoi... damn nasty guy you are !!!

All this guys are so hot! If I'd have to choose just one, maybe it would be Ruki or Reita But speaking of them... this video is funny: (especially at 1:48)

Title: Artbook Gakuen Haven Artist: You Higuri Size: 12.87 MB MF: [updated 26/08/2013] Artbook Gakuen Haven For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Download Links: Ze Fanbook - Ch 1 Ze Fanbook - Ch 2 Ze Fanbook - Ch 8 Password for all files: yaoiotaku For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Sekaiichi Hatsukoi OVA Title: Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Genre: Yaoi Year Published: 2011 Type: OVA No. of Episodes: ?1? Duration: 21 min / ep Plot: This Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi OVA is bundled with limited editions of the 5th volume from Shungiku Nakamura' boys-love manga series. The story follows the tension between a newly recruited manga editor and his tyrannical editor-in-chief - who happen to share a common past. Nakamura also inserted some characters from Junjo Romantica (one of her previous yaoi manga) into Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi. (based on ANN synopsis) FORMAT: AVI Download Sekaiichi Hatsukoi OVA: Ova 1 (Eng Subs) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: I'm not sure of the title I'm afraid, so if anyone know, please do tell, thank you Artist: Taishi Zaou Size: 5.41 MB Taishi Zaou Artbook Download: Mediafire Sendspace For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Mhhh well think so i'm the first guy who is joining to girls just have heard the party soo soooo even dunno if you girls will welcome me but anyhow just wanted say "i'm stalkin you girls !!" ahaha

*comes to see Bel's* OMFG GOD... OH HOLY SHIT... OH MY GOD.... my my my...nose!!!! *faints* hahahah Bel... you think I'd cook having him??? hahaha not at all dear.. let's the restaurant have benefits while we do "other things" but thanks......

Ahahahahaha .........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And if they are smart also ( i mean tomboys ) !! then i will fall in love with 'em

Are you sure this is a tomboy? I thought it's a guy, really I like tomboys, they look hot in my opinion

G-Defend by Morimoto Shuu

oh!!!! So that's how it is Thanks XD I didn't know that until now. I always upload the images in photobucket and get its image code THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I would fangirl scream so much, and then I'd make sure I made a point to find a hiding spot and watch. o.o

i'll do the same thing.. :leaf5:

I love both, YAOI & Shonen-ai.. But I usually say YAOI coz it's short.. :leaf4: I rarely say BL..

@Shiro... sorry dear... but...not that word.... never worried me... @Bloody... sweetie... I miss you.... how are you doing... write to me from time to time.....

Merry Yaoi Christmas...

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I really, really like your hair. And when I looked at the photo I immediately thought of Kaworu, from Neon Genesis Evangelion. I don't even know if you know what I'm talking about... anyway, I like his character a lot so I liked the photo twice as much. (:

...I is post one...^///^ This is my favorite picture of me at my desk with my turtle (her name is Lollipop) One of my best friends/dorm mate took it...

Well I think all the new users should post a pic I'll post a bad one of me to make you feel better, ne? here is a pic of me in whitby. it was so so so fuckin cold! and raining. and windy. I look terrible, but the veiw is nice

welcome

I like Amano Tsukiko very well. And I ♥ the song "Broken Wings" by Tomoko Tane.

Hi hi Just finished part 13 Enjoy Shouji “I woke up, donn’ ask after how long cause i donn’remember shit… Hearing a fucking bip, bip it was startin’ to make my head hurt like hell, and keepin’ my eyes shut wasn’t helping at all. I guess waking up and call the bastard now would be bad, right? And he’s probably still pissed as hell with me too... I mean.... Fucking bastard!! What did i do to deserve that? I wish i could kick his ass so badly right now... Doin’ that shit to me, like some kinda punishment for somethin’ i can’t even understand... What the fuck happen’? Why was he so pissed when i just got lost in that fucking huge place and that weird guy helped me out... I just don’t get it… It’s pointless to try figuring out what’s goin’ on in that bastard’s head... He’s even weirder than the kimono guy... That place it’s a fucking maniac house... And just what is he plannin’ to do with me now...? I mean... He got what he wanted right? Now what?! Am i gonna be around to serve his fucking “highness”, or am i goin’ to go back to the streets... What the fuck....MORE importantly... If i stay here, am i gonna be done like this every time? I’m gonna die soon the way things are goin’... And.... Do i really want this? Shouldn’t i just scrap? I mean, two days and i already got screwed, i got pain all over my fucking body... I feel like i’m more dead than alive right now... Fuck... Now that i think about it... Am i alive?! I mean... I remember i pass out... cause it was hurting a fucking lot... an then... Nothin’…. Shit... i’m dead? Well, guess that was it for me... Shit i didn’t live long... I mean... i guess i was like, expecting it, right? Junk like me don’t last much...” ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- For some reason, Shouji who gave up being sentimental a long time ago, couldn’t manage the feeling of wanting to cry his eyes out to stop... There was too much shit making him like that, more than he could handle, right now... Trusting the yakuza, and kind of expecting something from him, but that something was the total opposite of all this... Those were the main catalysts... It was hard, the kid always had it rough, but who knows maybe he could have it a little easier if he could manage to do a good job for the yakuza. Having had a miserable life not even worth mentioning, a bastard for a father, the death of his mother... All together, was quite a fucking heavy baggage to keep dragging... So why not think, that if he was really dead, it was for the best? I mean, no more sadness, hard-ships... No more getting beaten, starving, smelling... To sum it up... No more pain... Wouldn’t it really be better like this? ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- “Shut th’a fuck up... You ain’t dead! At least not yet...” If the kid wasn’t dead at the time he certainly could have died from a heart attack, after Kai spoke. Standing up against a wall, looking at the door with a cold stare, he spoke again… “How ar’ya feelin’?” Still looking at the door while speaking at Shouji, he wasn’t showing a remorseful, not even concerned expression... More like an “i don’t give a shit” one... That pained Shouji. The kid looked around and realized he was at some sort of hospital room... White stuff everywhere, a bunch of machines, the guilty ones of making that fucking sound that woke him up, and the yakuza, standing at the wall facing Shouji’s bed. He was looking at the door like if nothing important was lying there, right in front of him. Shouji felt the urge to get up and break each and single one of his bones but only the slight attempt to move made his entire body scream... “Fuck...” “Don’t move. Ya have a bunch of stitches and the doc says it’s not good for ya to move around.” “Oh really... And don’tya have anythin’ to say to me?!” “Me...? No.” “Really? Ya really don’t have shit to tell me? Ouch…” “Ya shouldn’t talk, it’ll hurt more.” “Who’s fucking fault is it... So stop pretending like ya give a shit.” “Fair enough... Listen kid, i won’t admit i’m wrong, cause you were fuckin’ askin’ for it... But i better just let ya go, right... Some shit like this might happen’ again and I’ll end up killin’ ya next time, and ya just not worth th’a trouble...” Shouji was already waiting for this... But still made him so freaking miserable, like he was expecting something he could never ever have, but still wished he could. He wanted to lavish out to the yakuza, for fucking promising him shit he wasn’t going to keep... But what right did he have to do so? He was a thing that, after used can be thrown away... A mere possession that could be turn to ash if he wished so... Shouji grabbed the pure white sheet, with a blazing rage growing inside of him, but all he could do, was to do nothing at all. In order not to let his true feelings show he played the game he was suppose to be playing, and sighed... He thought, at least it wasn’t for long… If it did, it might have been worse… So this, truly is, all for the best… “Yeah.. You’re right. As soon as i can fucking move, i ain’t gonna show my ugly mug to’ya anymore, so no worries...” “Yeah... I guess it’s better...” “Yeah… Hum, can you just step out for a bit i mean... I’m tired, i wanna sleep a bit more...” “Can’tya do that with me here, i mean you managed to do so till now...” “Please, just get out... And thanks for everything again... Ya wann’ed to give me a chance and it just didn’t work out right... Just… thanks anyway...” “........” “............” It became silent, the yakuza didn’t left the room, and the air became heavier than ever before... For the first time since Shouji woke up, he finally looked at him, eyes cold, somehow seemingly angry… That wasn’t fair. Even after all that shit, looking at the eyes of that guy still managed to make Shouji feel weak, and it was starting to break Shouji’s resolve of just letting go. He knew it was going to be like this. He was expecting nothing less, so why was it so hard to just let go? It surely wasn’t because of the nice treatment he was receiving from the guy… He almost killed him. Trying to find the answers to troublesome things, was becoming a pain in the ass habit, and if before Shouji didn’t have to think a lot to deal with his usual shit , right now his brain was, like is body, screaming in pain for being overworked… “Do ya really wanna go? What if I promise I’ll never touch’ya again? What if I hire ya as a maid or something? “A maid, ar’ya fucking joking with me or somethin’, do I look like a chick?!” “I didn’t mean it like that… I was talkin’ about ya do the shit around th’a house, helpin’ Mimori-chan with the stuff, ya know… Cleaning and cooking and stuff…” That was a double surprise for Shouji. The first was, fuck… No screaming, no shouting, no calling names… Now that’s really a first… The second was no less, giving the trash a job?! Where the hell was this coming from, was he again, promising shit he couldn’t keep…? Only one way to found out… But first, let’s giving it a little rough… “Cleaning…and cooking?! Are you trying to fool me again so that in no time you jump on my ass again…?” “Like I said… Cleaning and cooking, so sex, or anything alike involved…” “Really?!” “Really…” “Does Mimori-chan agrees with it? She doesn’t like me much ya know… Even though I clean and cook nicely enough, I don’ think she’s gonna say yes…” “Forget about that shit, I’m the Boss, and I’m th’a one who tell her what to do… Got it?” “First talk to her… Then… I’ll think about it…” “Have it your way then…” Kai left the room, and somehow with a strangely relived look on his face… Whatever his intentions were, Shouji decided to give him a chance, besides it meant, a warm bed and food everyday… If he could skip the hanky-pantsy it should be ok… So why not.?! Leaving Shouji to rest a bit more, Kai left the room with a lighter attitude than before as soon as he got out the door, Dr. Hisaki was expecting him… “So… How did it go?!” “He said he’ll think about goin’ home if the old hag say’s it’s ok…” “And you… What do you think about doing now?” “Like I know shit… I’ll just do what I told him I’ll do… no touching and shit… He’ll be just a maid or something…” “Pervert like I know you are that idea couldn’t please you more, but if you wish to gain his trust again, don’t do anything like last time, he was really lucky, he got away with a few stitches… Kai, if you, in someway have any kind of feelings for that kid, show them in some other way for now, ok…?” “Shut up doc… I know…” ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Hope you guys liked it Big kiss, thanks for reading :**

choosing is had but japanese : kanon wakishema as for korean : sooyoung from SNSD

as for a korean singer I've come to really like Gummy.her voice is amazing especially live

@nicicia You are so beautiful! I agree with you and Rei, I'm also amazed of how many beautiful people we have here on YO! @Saga It seems we chose you the right nick

hmm.. well gonna try and post some of my pics here too.. though I'm not really that photogenic or something.. And this.. from a Cosplay Event.. Just want to post this!!!

I'm just on the mood to post another picture of mine... Taken last October 14th during our graduation pictorial on my creative shot outfit... I really feel like that character in my fanfic... Hahaha... This is actually COCOAOTOKO.-inspired one... ^_^"

hmm new pics...ok i will try...i not like it (short hair) but that is the newest what i have... i miss my hair :leaf7:

Me in Venice last year

I'm a fan of Katekyo! (moegi yuu), so of course I want to interview Kaede and Rintarou! I'll ask : Kaede - "You are you and Rintarou loves you for who you are. So, do you love Rintarou for himself and not purely on your experiments?" Rintarou - "I know you love Kaede and sometimes you are too shy to admit and sometimes are honest with your feeling. So, please do me a favour and do it in front of me. Could you please tell Kaede that you love him and kiss him?" I love these two!! :leaf15:

this is quite a good post to read and to write actually lol umm i wouldnt know where to start lol- like a lot of u i used to make out with my cousin(girl) at her place when i was younger and then with a friend(girl) when we were like 11 and another girl when i was prob bout 13. im really shy and push people away alot so the first time i kissed a guy was when i was 19 and i met him in a random chatroom then said 'lets meet' but was only once as i got afraid n ignored him ! .. only been on a couple of dates with a friend since then but nothing came of it, again i pushed him away and only 2 people know this who i talk to online that i self harm, i have fazes where ill do it then nothing for months, depends on moods, i have a small craft knife i keep with me incase but anything works . only got 1 small visable scar to me, but dnt think any1 eles notices it on the top of my wrist. im careful to not make them 2 visable...although its sumtimes hard..n i do quite like pain lol phew that was hard !