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Hello everyone! I know that some of you have been patiently anticipating another chapter in Pureness. It has been awhile since I posted my third story 'Lies and Truth'. I would also like to thank everyone who has made Pureness reach up to almost 5000 views making it the MOST visited thread in the Library of Romance. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. You all inspire me. I am eternally grateful. I now bring you to the 4th story of the Pureness series that focuses deeply on the romance between Misu and Shingyouji. This is going to be short and sweet and yes, I'm going to veer away from the heavy drama for the mean time. I hope you enjoy. Thank you. I'm still working on another Pureness fic after this. IGNITION The story so far: How Shingyouji finally discovered Misu's first name. But before we begin with the story, let's reflect on this image and you'll see why I chose this image to visualize this story. “Hey Shingyouji-kun...great moves! We really should spar next time, okay?” the senior student Masato waved at the freshman who was hurriedly leaving the dojo. Shingyouji could only manage a slight bow and ran off towards the school building. Ah damn it...I hope I make it in time when he leaves the classroom. Please, please, please still be there. Shingyouji didn't even want to look at his watch anymore. Even while he was in the dojo, though he was physically present, his mind wandered off to his ultimate goal for the day. Tsk..not just for the day but has always been since he began his first day in Shidou. Yes, finally he made it! But it had been a week of failed attempts at trying to get to the one man he most desperately wanted to meet again. The one man that he believed will change his life in more ways than one. Misu was not an easy man to reach as he had imagined. He wiped off the sweat from his brow and his neck with his blue face towel and gasped for air. He looked at his watch. He leaned back heavily on the wall and breathed in deep for air. Yosh...just in time. Misu's class was going to be over in five minutes. He had memorized what he planned to say when he meets him again. The anticipation was eating at him but no way he was going to mess it up. He was determined to meet him today no matter what happens. The grandfather clock marked the end of the class which was in sync with Shingyouji's watch. He could hear his heart beat loudly and it hurt his head a bit. His eyes were like a hawk as he scanned the face of each student that walked out of the door until finally....there he was. He paced himself as he made a bee line from the students who were walking across the hall and walked towards Misu who was having a conversation with the professor. He saw the professor leave Misu alone shortly afterwards. Now..this is my chance. As soon as he came upon Misu face to face, he suddenly felt all the words that he had worked on these past few weeks drifting away from his mind. The way Misu gazed at him was enough to freeze fire, Shingyouji thought. “Ah, Shingyouji Kanemitsu, right?” Misu smirked. “Yes.” Crap say something more, you idiot! Shingyouji yelled at himself for being so dumbstruck in front of Misu. “So what brings you here?” Misu examined the boy standing in front of him. It was obvious that he was nervous. But the eyes that stared back at him had a determination that was undeniable. Those same eyes that struck him when they were at the cafeteria. Shingyouji inhaled deeply and composed himself. “I came to see you about that promise you made.” “What promise?” Misu frowned. Wow...he's determined indeed. “You said that if I made it here to Shidou that you would tell me your first name.” Oh God...oh god...Shingyouji could hear his heart beating loudly. “Are you telling me, you came all the way here just to ask me that? You could have asked it from someone else and that be the end of it.” Misu shrugged. But he felt a bit intrigued upon seeing the frown on the boy's face. “I know I could have but I don't want to know it from someone else or anyone else here. I want to know your first name from you.” Shingyouji was not breaking his gaze at the taller man who stood before him. Was that a smile in his eyes I see? Shingyouji wondered if his eyes were playing tricks on him. Or was the man going to play a trick on him again like last time threatening that he would expose him for cheating at the entrance exam even though he did not cheat. He would have but he couldn't. What was Misu thinking right now? Misu sighed. “Fine. Follow me.” They walked together across the hallway and climbed the stairs. Shingyouji walking closely behind him. He could not help himself but admire how Misu's back looked and his broad shoulders. How he walked with a quiet confident air around him. Like he had it all figured out. He wished he could walk like that. He remembered his grandmother telling him one too many times, he sometimes walked like a scruffy little kid. Maybe he should try walking like Misu one of these days. It could do wonders for his posture. He smiled at the thought of that. Misu dug into his pocket and took out a key then opened the door. Shingyouji read “Executive Room” at the door and wondered what in the world was in store for him inside but before he could make a coherent thought process, he felt Misu's hand around his wrist and pulled him inside. The door shutting behind them. All he could feel right now was being pinned on the wall and seeing Misu's smug face so close to his. He felt his heart pounding loudly in his head again. Misu's firm grip on his wrist remained. “So you came all the way here for a promise you think I made that time. Did it even occur to you that I was just messing with you so you could leave me alone?” Misu's voice was dripping heavily with sarcasm. “No. I always believed that you were the type of person who never backed out on his word.” Shingyouji's lips began to quiver yet it wasn't fear of Misu that was gripping him at this moment. It was anticipation and the fact seeing the man so close to his. “Very well. But then you should know I'm also the type of person who won't do anything for anyone unless something really good was going to come out of it.” The tips of their noses were now touching. Misu could see Shingyouji's eyes were glazing. He could barely keep his eyes open anymore. He could feel his wrist weakening from his firm grip. And then it happened. Misu's lips descended upon Shingyouji's lips in one swift move. There was something about the freshman that ignited Misu's possessive streak to unexpectedly surface. He originally only intended to pull a little prank on him but what made him want to take this boy under his control was wreaking havoc in his mind. His tongue demanding swift entrance and Shingyouji granting him full access. The kiss was hard, demanding, and deep. It bothered Misu a bit that Shingyouji seemed a bit too eager and enthusiastic with the kiss. Damn it, this is not his first kiss. And with that infuriating thought, the kiss only became even more impatient and rough. He could feel Shingyouji clutching tightly onto his arm with no hint of a struggle. His defenses have weakened a long time ago. Misu's hand deeply pressed onto Shingyouji's cheek, his ear, his neck. He could feel the soft hair in between his fingers. He could hear the soft moan coming out of him. It drove Misu mad with lust. Right there he decided he was not going to allow anyone come this close to his pet or they would suffer the consequences of his wrath. “You still want to know my name?” Misu nipped at his ear making Shingyouji's knees buckle. “Yes,..please..” Shingyouji could only gasp in response. He felt a bit impatient with the momentary pause from their kiss. He felt like he could drown in the kiss alone. He didn't want to stop. He wanted to keep going. What in the world possessed him to cling onto him so much and so readily at that? A deep sense of wanting to be possessed by Misu was overwhelming him beyond belief. He has never ever felt this way before. Never been kissed this way before. Whatever admiration he must have felt from the moment their eyes met the very first time was now engulfed with emotions much deeper than that. Misu's hand began to snake down Shingyoji's nape making the other boy arch his neck granting him even more access. He could feel butterfly kisses run down his neck and towards his collarbone. His fingers quickly unfastening the top button of his white shirt thus exposing his skin to Misu's mercy. Their breathing were fast and furious. Each one anticipating the other one's move during the entire seductive process. “Oh god..” Shingyouji gasped as he felt Misu suck in deeply into his shoulder. He felt his body shaking from the mesmerizing sensation. He bit his lower lip as he squeezed his eyes shut only to open them again as once again he found himself gazing deeply into Misu's eyes. And there it was Misu's lips began to form the word that he had been dying to know all this time. The one word that has been one of the causes of his sleepless nights. “Arata.” Misu whispered huskily into his ear. To Shingyouji it sounded like an endearment. A secret only the two of them could ever know. Misu gently lifted his chin and outlined Shingyouji's lower lip with his thumb neither of them breaking their gaze upon each other. “Arata-san...” Shingyouji smiled.

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I'm glad you like it Belita and Destiny.Fate Yeah, pretty much 2 days of customization

Key's working hard for us Thank you, i loved it

Your eyes have pierced my very soul Your lips have made me yours. You touch has made me lose control It’s reached into my core Your voice has made me fall again Into a world unknown I know I’m always near you then Yet I still feel alone Your kiss I feel it on my skin Its better than a dream Could this be yet another sin Or more than what it seems. Your hands have found my very heart To reach it has been tough But as I feel the caressing start I cannot get enough. You’re song has reached into my ears The harmony so sweet I wash away my doubts and fears We were destined to meet

It was ssssooooooooooooo good! I almost died??? Hehhe...

OH MY GOOOOOOOODDDDDD!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D Husband is watching me screaming like crazy and probably thinking something really really good might have happend.... And it did......!!!! You guys did.... Oh god, sometimes life sucks so bad you just wanna curse and be angry with everything and everyone... However these little things make it so god damn worth every piece of bad time i might be having..... Guys you managed to put the biggest, happiest smile out there in a very very sour face these days, and all i have to say to you guys is my biggest thank you... Thank you thank you thank you... I loved my birthday present, late or not... it's not even the point Thank you so so so so much for this... Really thank you! I loved it.... From start to finish....loved ALL of it.... (by the way, i'm stealling it, and keeping it among my beloved things) MAN....so HAPPY!!! You guys just...ROCK!!!!! There isn't a name in this world to mesure the HUG and the KISS i'm sending you.... :leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3:

Here are my dedications First of all, for Key and the YO stuff, thank you for creating this great site and maintainig this peaceful community : For Phicheripunky, my best friend here For JYJ+TVXQ=Awesome my friend who like TVXQ like me and shared with me lots of cool backgrounds. For FibiXu, thank you for the card. For Phong Y, one of my first friends here!

Title: Omerta ~Chinmoku no Okite~; オメルタ Omerta ～沈黙の掟～ Release Date: 22 April 2011 Omerta ~Chinmoku no Okite~ オメルタ～沈黙の掟～ is the latest Boys Love game by Karin Entertainment. Plot: Omerta is defined as a code of silence practiced by the Mafia; a refusal to give evidence to the police about criminal activities. Set in future Japan. Film-noir theme. Modern Tokyo is now a dystopian immigrant city ruled by crime syndicates. Stirring passions between hot-blooded men entangled in hatred, love, betrayal and loyalty. They classified it under: Love and Revenge Hard BL Game (PILP) System Requirements: OS： Windows2000/XP/Vista/7 CPU： PentiumIII 600Mhz minimum （PentiumIII 1Ghz recommended） RAM： 256MB min （512MB recommended） HDD： 3．0GB min （4.5GB recommended） DirectX： DirectX 9.0 Download Links:Part 1 contains a .rar file with the patch on it. Join with HJSplit or 7zip Download Omerta ~Chinmoku no Okite~: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 After installing, copy paste the alsignup patch to the game install directory and just click the .exe icon. Note: Extract the files with winrar. Mount the iso with DaemonTools and install the game. Extract the patch (alsignup_100723b.exe) in the folder with the omerta.exe. Then double click on alsignup_100723b.exe *For a picture guide on how to install it, check this post (by ayachan94) *For Omerta's walkthrough (made by sarah3161) click here For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

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Title : Hatsu-koi, First Love Year: 2007 Country : Japan Language : Japanese Subtitle(s) : English Genre : Drama | Romance | Crime | Gay Themed Plot/Synopsis: Tadashi has fallen in love with his classmate, Kota, and doesn't dare to tell anyone. This destroys all hope he ever had of getting together with Kota. Thoroughly depressed, Tadashi meets a gay couple on the train. Hiroki and Shinji are fascinating... In Hatsu-Koi, director Imaizumi Koichi tells a story about coming of age, coming out and a gay marriage that is sprinkled with both love and comedy, at the centre of which is a teenager who doesn't yet know what he wants. Watch Hatsu-koi BL Movie Online: Hatsu-koi BL Movie Download Hatsu-koi BL Movie: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Join the files with HJSplit For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Name: Togainu no Chi Platform: Windows98SE/Me/2000/XP Minimum System Requirements: CPU: Pentium II 300Mhz (recommended 450Mhz) RAM: 64MB (recommended 128MB) HDD: 300MB free space (recommended 650MB) Video: 800x600 resolution or higher Download Togainu no Chi BL Game: http://www.mediafire.com/download/zsdmz07t87u9tto/Togainu+no+Chi+-English-.rar drag togainu.icm.ecm file to the unecm.exe file. mount the togainu.cue image with Daemon Tools and install the game. FULL GUIDE TO INSTALLATION; [English Patch BETA] (instructions on how to install are in the zipped folder) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Himitsu nanda kedo Manga ALT. names: 秘密なんだけど Original run: 2009 Description: - Manga-type: Manga Written by: TAKAOKA Motonari Drawn by: TAKAOKA Motonari Published by: Houbunsha Group(s) Scanlating: Takai Tenshi Scanlations Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: No Genres: Yaoi Categories: Megane Main Characters: - Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Harry Potter dj - Sweet Berry Kiss, Lucky Star (KOOHARA Shiomi) Download Himitsu nanda kedo Manga: •°New link°• MediaFire (thanks to maripuchi) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

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This was a poem of love that could never been truly be, how sad and tragic yeah? Makes you want to shed a tear for them. Good work.

I stand here on your street My heart like ice, my love for you frozen These crystal tears fall at my feet I never wanted to hurt you Never meant to desert you I came to apologize knowing it's too late As I stand here among the snowflakes I am so tired of this fate This cold heart of mine is breaking Slowly shattering into slivers of red It is your memory that I am desecrating I don't belong here, never did But my love for you won't let me leave As I stand here trying to keep my heart hid I never wanted to hurt you Never meant to desert you These softly falling flakes Are cold little reminders that I am alone Alone because of my mistakes I tried for so long And even if it's not meant to be I will never give in even if I am wrong I cannot let go of these shattered pieces Even as they start to melt and slip away My love for you never decreases I never meant to hurt you Never meant to desert you This gentle winter breeze Is a subtle reminder of your touch And the way it made me fall by degrees These tears won't fade away They are frozen drops of my misery At being unable to stop this slow decay Did I need to try so hard To keep this heart whole When you broke through catching me off guard I never meant to hurt you Never meant to desert you This winter soul craves The love only you can give The love that saves This coldness takes my breath Makes me tremble in fear This could end in my death I would gladly welcome it If it meant I was able to be close to you To feel your warmth even for a bit. I never meant to hurt you Never meant to desert you. All I wanted was to hold you close Yet this frozen heart of mine Never let me disclose The flakes of snow surround me Cloaking me in a cold embrace This love was never meant to be Is this what I wanted To be alone in this white To always be shunted I never meant to hurt you Never meant to desert you Don't be concerned over me These cold tears will fall and be lost So pay no heed to my plea I will say it once only And for all time it will echo These words will forever be lonely This hope undreamed of Is to tell this to you It is you I love

Copy Paste Copy Paste Copy Paste Copy Paste Copy Paste Copy Paste I'm getting like this--------> :1onion52: Damn *_*

sad =[ chat is not working for me.... and i cant acess twitter or fb ormyspace like some told me to, cause im still at work.. and it doesnt work here... :cuteonion53:

I'm happy. Today was a good day.

Thanks very much for your hard work :leaf3: I like it

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Miyavi - Senor Senora Senorita

Eating sweet and sour chicken with noodles. Gazinging longingly at the chocolate thats just out of reach...

wuaaahhh!!!!!!! *im afraid of heights but still enjoying it* lool u brought a fresh site of MisuShin in this one shot...^^ i still cant believe u got this idea last nite...while doing ur DISHES...I LOVE DISH STORY!!!! lool yeah..no wonder Misu became that possessive towards that cutie pie...shingyouji has his guts too... and i love the part when Misu knew itz not shingyouji's first time?? remember the things i told u bout Taiki's school life?? i suddenly thought something bout that...XD well i am so sure my friends will LOVE~LOVE this... they r as crazy as all of us MisuShin fans here... Ame reactions is the best!!!!!! lool well i almost got a heart attack when yojichan PM me too... yojichan is trying to kill us!!! OMG!!! XDXD

1. 'the' denial thingy~~~ yes, I know a lot of you had saying this and I totally agree with you! Just admit you are in love with each other, why deny it? 2. I can't say I hate shota, but its more like I'm afraid to see....*weird huh* 3. And yes! 'That' invisible penis! I'm a pervert *yes, I admit it. hehe*, so I want more!

Yea! Short sweet and to the point. I can actually see that happening! Makes you wonder what really happened between the backflash and the present scenes in 'Pure'. No worries it was a little short you know what they say 'the best things come in small packages'. Arigatou for putting this up and I patiently look forward to your next installment. Take your time

LxLight MattxMello

L x Matt

Chapter 09 "YJ? Finally? You remember him now?" "Yes, I remembered, everything is my fault, Where’s YJ?" "Too late, he has resigned." "What?!" Resigned. . . To avoid me? No. . . I would not let you go this way! "Not only did he resign, I heard that he was also preparing to leave Taiwan. Go to his house before it’s too late!" Nothing matters more now. Justin rushed out of the mall, towards YJ’s house. You want to leave Taiwan?! I am not allowing that! I am absolutely not allowing that! === === === === === === === === === === === === === === This is the last time. WYJ turned and looked back at his house before leaving. Justin, I’m leaving now. I hope you can be happy… Enough with the reminiscing, WYJ flagged a cab towards the airport. Not long after the cab left, Justin arrived on his bike. He hurriedly rushed to WYJ’s house. "Ding-dong--- ding-dong ding-dong---" No matter how many time Justin rang the doorbell, there was no response from the house. "YJ! YJ! I’m Justin! Would you please open up! YJ! YJ..." Has he left? Is he gone? YJ… YJ... Have I really… Have I really lost you… Justin went home dis-heartedly. When his mum saw how depressed he was, she asked what happened. "Mom, never did I have someone whom I cherish so much. But why, I wanted to treasure him so much, why will I even forget him?! I should not have forgotten him! Now, just because I forgot him, I lost him. Mom, what should I do... What should I do... " Justin’s mother became anxious when she realizes Justin just kept on saying things she did not understand, and so, she called up Valeria. "Auntie, Justin would be fine, don’t worry. I’ll talk to him." Valeria arrived thirty minutes later. "Justin, what’s wrong? What happened?" "Valeria, He's gone... YJ’s gone…" "You... Have you regained your memories?! YJ... Is he really gone? Are you sure?!" "I lost the person whom I care most about... What should I do... What should I do... " Justin leaned helplessly on Valeria’s shoulder. "It’s alright it’s alright... We’ll find a solution... There must be a way..." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === The next day morning, Justin was laying on his bed, wide awake, thinking back everything that has happened. I regret it, I really regret it now… I didn’t meant it… YJ… Scumbag? I have hurt him deeply with that didn’t I? YJ… "Ring Ring----" "Hello." "Justin! Something bad has happened to YJ!" Justin shot up from the bed immediately after hearing it. "Where is he now?!" === === === === === === === === === === === === === === Standing outside the ward, for the first time, Justin deeply felt the pain of not able to reach the person whom seems to be so close to him. In the Intensive-Care Unit, the man lying on the bed with oxygen mask and gauze tied to his head, is that really YJ? This is a punishment isn’t it? The punishment of me forgetting you, that’s why you are ignoring me now? YJ… YJ… "Are you the patient's family?" A doctor came out from the intensive care unit asked when they saw Justin. "I am! How is he?!" "Let’s have a word in my office." "Su... Sure..." In the doctor's office, he began to explain WYJ’s condition. "The patient was sent in after he met with a car accident at noon yesterday...." Yesterday at noon… Isn’t that the time that I went to his house looking for him? "The cab that the patient was travelling with collided with a car, causing him a serious concussion. Hence, we do not rule out the possibility of amnesia, but the most important thing was, his waist was also injured during the accident, so he might temporarily lose the ability to walk." "You mean… Do you mean paralyzed?" "Yes." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === When WYJ passed the critical stage, he was transferred into the general ward. Justin refused to leave him and waited by his side. "Justin." A voice came through the door. It belongs to Valeria. "You’re here?" "How is he?" "He might have loss his memory, he might be paralyzed." "Oh dear!" "Ha..." Justin laughed self-deprecatingly. "This is the retribution, right? He might suffer from amnesia, he might forget me!" "Justin... I’ll stay here to take care of him. So why don’t you..." "Valeria, I am grateful to you taking care of me during the period of my amnesia, but the person I love, is always YJ. And I would like to be here alone with him. I'm sorry." "I understand, I knew all along... So don’t give up alright! And please take good care of yourself too, okay?" "Yea." Although he was talking with Valeria, Justin’s attention has never once been diverted from WYJ. Justin guarded WYJ for three days and finally, he woke up. "YJ! You awake?!" "…" WYJ just looked at him expressionless. He then tried to sit up but realized that he could not control his legs. "YJ, please listen to me calmly. The doctor said that you would only be temporarily losing the ability to walk, as long as you go for physiotherapy, you would be able to recover." WYJ listen calmly to Justin, and then stop struggling. "YJ, do you... Do you know who I am?" WYJ didn’t look at Justin, didn’t speak. He just looked out of the window quietly. "So you do not remember huh… It does not matter. After all, I was first to forget you." WYJ heard the tone of self-blaming in Justin’s words and looked at him. When Justin realize WYJ’s glance, he gave him a strong – pretended – smile. "No matter if you remember me or not, YJ, I will stay by your side, and never ever let you go." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === YJ hasn’t spoke a single word since he woke up. The doctor mentioned that this was not an aftermath of the accident but his own choice. He does not have any idea why, but he just didn’t like to see Justin. Regardless of what Justin did, he ignores it. When Justin wants to offer him help, he decline. Justin goes for physiotherapy diligently every day, hoping that he could regain his mobility as soon as possible. This day, WYJ went to his physiotherapy in the absence of Justin. "Hey YJ, you’ve made good progress today! Let’s try if you can go on your own, okay?" "Well... Sure." His effort has been paid off. God knows how much sleepless night did he spend on doing physiotherapy alone in his ward. This is an important task towards WYJ. It would definitely be a huge blow for him if he is still unable to walk. "Come on, from here, slowly, move step by step towards me." The therapist stood at the other end of the physio-equipment, encouraging WYJ. And WYJ also tried his very best to move toward his therapist. Gradually, WYJ’s steps began to stabilize. "YJ, congratulations! You should be able to walk very soon." "Ha... Thank you... Haha!" WYJ smile brightly. "You finally smile. This is the first time I’ve seen you smile ever since your first day here. By the way, didn’t your friend accompany you today? He would be very pleased if he know that you should be able to walk very soon." At the mention of Justin, WYJ's smile disappeared. "Can I return to my ward for a rest now?" "Uh… Sure…" To be Continued...

One LOTR quote that always makes me go awww - Come on, Mr. Frodo. I can't carry it for you... but I can carry you!

Ohohoh, I know the best dialogue ever... okay, it's almost a monologue looool, but still. (And yes, I wrote it without looking it up) LOTR - Tale of the Two Towers Frodo: I can't do this Sam! Sam: I know, Mr Frodo, it's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr Frodo, the ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end, because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it were when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines it'll shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That mattered, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think Mr Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances to turn back, only they didn't. Because they were holding onto something. Frodo: What are we holding onto Sam?! Sam: That there's something good in this world, and it's worth fighting for!

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XIV I carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) i fear No fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want No world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant And whatever a sun will always sing is you Here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud And the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart I carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) E. E. Cummings – American Poet Paul was holding my hands so strong that they started to get purple. I knew that I would get bruises for the following weeks. I tried to persuade him. - Paul, if you release me, I promise we would go back home together. It’s already spring break, so I can go pack a couple of things and we will take the next bus, right? - You think I’m that stupid? You think I don’t know what you are trying? Forget it!- He said biting my lower lip. I reacted to the pain turning my face. I could feel the little drops of blood running down my left side. He grabbed my face and kissed me furiously again. I felt his tongue inside my mouth, trailing every inch with the tip of his tongue. I felt his arousal against my body and how his hand started to unbutton my jeans. Everything happened so fast that the next thing I remember is my head knocking the ground. Paul’s and Thomas’ screams reached my ears as if they were miles away. I could see how they fought and how Paul fell on his back. I could hear Thomas’ hard breath. - Bagger off, bastard. How can you treat him like that ! - Who are you to talk in the first place, you don’t know nothing about us! - I don’t know nothing? The only thing I know is that you has done nothing but hurt him. I know that you have scared him. I know that you made him feel like a scum bag. - Don’t meddle, fucking rich boy, he’s mine! - You have to kill me before I handle him to you! I tried to stand up, I felt dizzy and the taste of blood was filling my mouth, something warm was also running down my face, I realized it was blood when a drop fell on my hand. - Will you stop, please! I screamed – This is a non-sense. I don’t know how we have ended this way, but this must stop now. They looked at me as if they just realized I was there. I saw anger in Paul’s face and horror in Thomas. They were breathing hardly, their clothes dirtied by the dust. Thomas’ hair was disheveled and his shirt was out of his trousers. Paul had a small cut on his lip and a kind of dusty aura was surrounding him. Thomas made his way to me, his eyes full of sorrow and relief. - Paul – I said – go home. I promise we will talk when I’m back but for now I need you to go home. Don’t make this harder than it is right now. If you truly love me, please, go home. For the first time in my life, I saw Paul’s eyes full of sadness. He cleaned the dust of his clothes and looking at me with the saddest smile said - All right- and he left. Thomas reached me, caressed my face and took me his home to heal my wounds. He cleaned the wounds and put some band aids on the forehead. Looking at me, he licked my lower lip where the small cut lied, cleaning the small drops of blood. He kissed me gently, he threw his head back waiting for a negative reaction but I only could look at him. I wanted to get lost in his arms, those arms where I was always welcomed. He kissed me again, this time more passionately and I kissed him back, grabbing his waist and getting him closer to me. He gently took my shirt off, unbuttoning it slowly, kissing every inch of my skin. He trailed each of my aching ribs with his fingers while kissing my neck, my collar bone and my nipples. I felt how slowly I was getting aroused and I wanted him to feel the same. I pulled his shirt off, caressed his face and kissed him. I couldn’t believe he had such a beautiful body. I caressed his shoulders down to his waist. I unfastened his belt & unbuttoned his trousers slipping my hand inside his pants. Before I could breath, he was taking my jeans off and he was licking the inner side of my thighs up to my member. For the first time since we met, we were making love. There were no hurries, we took our time to enjoy each other’s bodies, to caress every inch of our unknown bodies. He filled me with every thrust, following my pace he made me reach the overwhelming pleasure provided by the movement of his waist. He made me cum a couple of times kissing me with a little grin on his face. We lay down embraced for the whole night. His warm breath on my neck, his warm arms surrounding me. I felt how I was drowsing but I still could hear Thomas’ sweet voice. - Thomas, I love you. - I know it. I knew since the very first moment I saw you lost in that aisle. I fell asleep. For the first time in my life, I felt warm, happy and loved and the person who made all that possible was a handsome young man with emerald eyes. "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." Corinthians 13:1-13

His eyes flared up with my last words, the pressure on my chest became harder. He shoved the paper cups on my hands and pined me down. - You wanna make me remind you what it means being touched by me? You belong to me Patrick, no matter how far you run, no matter who you fuck with, you belong to me. - Paul, please, leave, now that nothing has happened, now that we still can be friends. Please. - You’re not listening, Patrick. I’m not gonna leave you, I’m not gonna allow anyone to come near you again. Your mind, your heart and your body are mine, Patrick and that little gentleman of yours isn’t coming to rescue you. How could I forget him! Thomas would be looking for me all over the place, I was late and he was going to start worrying. I needed to go, I didn’t want him to get worried, I wanted to see him. I needed to see his face, feel safe with him. - Paul, release me. I have to go, Thomas is waiting for me. Please, please. At that moment my phone started to ring. I knew it was him. I knew he was at the front yard waiting and I was late. Paul picked the phone up. ( The one in bold is Thomas speaking) - Who is it? - Patrick? Who are you? - That’s what I’m asking, who the hell are you? - I’m looking for Patrick, tell him to pick the phone. - He’s busy with me at the moment, wanna leave a message? - Are you Paul? Tell Patrick to pick the phone, please. I need to talk to him. - Sorry, but you’re not gonna see him again. - Thomas! Thomas! Behind the main build…. – I started to scream but it was too late. Paul had hanged the phone before I could tell Thomas. - Poor you, my little Patrick, you love him that much? He said sarcastically.

Final chapters arrived. Before posting them, I'd like to thank all those who have spent their time reading this little story. I really appreciate it. I'm not a talented writer, just a talented reader, but this little story has helped me personally. So thank you very much to all of you. XIII The heart will break, but broken live on. Lord Byron- English poet I still don’t know how Thomas became an absolute presence in my life. Every time I blinked; every time I breathed; every time I opened my eyes, he was there always looking at me, with that dazzling smile of his, with his bright eyes and his warm touch. Always there, without saying nothing but knowing all the time what I needed. Without realizing, Spring came with warmer days, timid sun rays appearing among the gray clouds bringing new life and hopes. Those early sun rays reflected on the big mirror windows of the University main building, increasing the light in the front yard where I always waited for Thomas. He has started to demand things from me, silly, childish things like eating together or going to the museums. Things I couldn’t deny him. So just following his wishes, every morning I waited for him to have the first coffee. On my way to University I always bought an extra-sugared macchiato for him and a double black tea for me. That morning the yard was full with puddles of the last night rains. It became difficult to find a spot where to wait for Thomas. Lost in my thoughts, looking at my reflection on the cloudy water, I suddenly recognized a familiar silhouette. In that very moment I felt a pinch on my chest, a fear ran through my whole body making it shiver. I turned round and there were those iced blue eyes looking at me, waiting for my reaction. (The one in italics is Patrick speaking) - Hello Patrick, how have you been? To hear his voice again made my heart beat stop and my body got stiffen and my hands started trembling. - Paul? Paul, what are you doing here? - Well, I didn’t know anything about you since Christmas, you don’t answer my mails, phone calls or texts, so I thought that maybe there was something wrong with you. At your residence, they told me you were here. - How did you come? Is your mom with you? Why did you come? I don’t know why did you have to come. - You’re never gonna change, Pat, never. Always thinking of you first, right? Have you thought how I have been feeling? Have you considered me in all these past months? His expression was hardening little by little and I started to wish Thomas were here. Paul’s voice got louder and some people started to look in our direction - Are you waiting for someone Patrick? Are you waiting for that fag to come? How sweet of you to wait for him! - Paul please, lower your voice. There are other people here and they don’t need to hear us. Suddenly he grabbed me by one elbow & pulled toward him, so strong that it hurt and we got so closed that I could smell his breath. Caught by his blue eyes I stared at them trying to read his intentions, but the next moment he was directing me to the back of the building. He threw me toward the wall, my back hit the cold, wet bricks making me loose the balance while I tried to avoid the coffee and tea not to be spilt. - You have been a fucking egoist all your life. Always thinking about what you need without thinking about people around you. You decided to go to University leaving me behind, you decided to fuck with the first guy you found but what about me?? Pat, what about me!!! - I don’t know what you’re trying to tell me, Paul and you’re starting to scare me. - Of course not, you can’t see what it’s in front of you! Have you ever thought how miserable I felt when you decided to move. How my heart ached, how lonely I felt? He was leaning with his left forehand on the wall, while his right hand was pressing my chest. I could feel his heat where his hand was touching me, making hard to breath. - Paul, I beg you release me and we can talk calmer, please. - You think I can keep calm when I’ve spent months imagining what that bastard was doing to you. Can you imagine how revolting was for me to think that another person was touching you? - Paul, I don’t understand. I can’t think clearly and I’m starting to feel cramps in my arms. - You still don’t get it, I’m telling you that I love you, fucking bastard. How long are you going to make me beg? He said getting his face closer to me and kissing me in a furious way. - Love me?? You love me??? – I yelled at him – You don’t know what love is, Paul, never have and never will. You call me selfish? Who is the selfish one? You’ve played with all the fucking girls you’ve found in your way. You’ve played with me, even knowing how I felt for you. Don’t make me laugh, Paul.

it's cold and it rains all the time =.= it's that kind of time that makes you depressed xD

Title: Sarou no Ryoshuu Author: SAKURA Ryou Plot: 1) Prisoner of the Desert Businessman lackey Hibiki thought his one night stand with Prince Zyad in Japan would be the last time he would see the handsome sheik. But when he visits Zyad's country and is falsely imprisoned as a spy, there's only one man he can turn to. 2) Embraced by Guiltiness When there's a press leak at the ministry, everyone falls under suspicion. When ladies man Yura discovers Shirase's lover is a man and a member of the press he decides to use the information to get Shirase into bed. But Shirase still has a much more damaging secret... 3) The Long Night Policeman Kayano is investigating the spy in the ministry. His no. one suspect: ex-college friend and current lover Takashina. Can there be a relationship without trust? What is Takashina hiding? 4) Escort With frequent violent attacks on his person, analyst Asami Shinobu is assigned a 24 hour bodyguard to keep him safe. Unfortunatly his bodyguard is a former one night stand named Saeki Yuuji. With Saeki in his personal space at all times, Asami's feelings are getting more tangled up. 5) Suite Love Hotel attendant Kuga is assigned to serve Japanese-American businessman Touno. But this isn't the first time they've met, they have a past together as college students in America that Touno isn't about to let Kuga forget about. 6) The Morning Scene Each couple is observed at 6 a.m. from Kayano and Takashina in Tokyo, to Kuga and Touno in Los Angeles. Genre: Drama Romance Yaoi Year: 2007 1 Volume (Complete) Read Sarou no Ryoshuu Online: Sarou no Ryoshuu Download Sarou no Ryoshuu Manga: Link removed due to scanlator's request.

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Hey there Here's part two, hope you like it. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- As they stepped out of the black car, Shouji couldn’t help and stare... Everything was big. Big car, big house, big trees, even big fucking body-guards. “Hey Boss, this is y’o house?” “This’s where i live yeah, why?” “What th’a fuck!! Ya live with a fucking army or something?!” The line of people standing at the entrance of the house was in many ways overwhelming and scary as hell. He was shaking all over... The guy had been friendly, but you always have to be aware of a yakuza. You never turn your back to them... You may be dead the second you do. “Hey Boss, ar’ya sure that’s ok me being here?” “Wh’ya asking?” “Cause these fuckers keep giving th’a fucking look, that’s why!” “Ahahah, never mind them. Besides it’s their job to be suspicious of anything different... I would take care of them up if they didn’t!” “Th’a fuck!! You would kill y’ar own people?! You yakuza are freaking insane, i tell’ya...” “It’s m’a fucking job punk!Don’t forget that!” “Sure... Ain’t forgetting!” The inside of the house was even scarier than the outside... Shouji kept looking around wondering how in the world people could manage to own so many stuff, and still not being happy about it. “This look like a fucking museum...” “Ahahah, it’s just a bunch of old stuff kid. But don’t ya dare lay y’o fucking paws in anything, am i clear?!” “Yeah Boss, who th’a fuck wants old stuff anyway!” “Yeah, ya better...” Walking around the house, Shouji kept looking like a lost kid to everything around him, but what called his attention were the pictures hanged in every single wall of the house. Old pictures, modern ones, he felt like he was learning the clan history just from looking at the vivid contrast between the withered and the new photographs. “Hey Boss, is this y’oself?” “Yeah... i look like shit though, ahahahha” “Eheheh, ya do... a little.But you sure look like... handsome, with th’yo hair combed like this, don’t even seem look th’a same person...” Shouji felt his face warm up, when he looked attentively to the man’s face… He never called anyone handsome, nor did ever say a girl or a woman was pretty. His harsh life, didn’t allowed him to have that kind of thoughts. All men were perverts and women unreachable, because to him, no one would want to have so much for love a piece of shit like himself. So why wasting time in shit he couldn’t change. He liked a girl thru his years in high-school. He never confessed. He didn’t like her face, nor her body. She was nice to him. She would greet him when at school, and would talk to him about unimportant things. He felt happy when she did. Shouji’s mother died when he was a first year in high-school. Until then, Shouji was what you could call a normal kid, his parents were poor, but they managed. His father, was still the biggest piece of crap alive, he wouldn’t work, he wouldn’t do anything, but he never bugged Shouji. The only thing that hurt him was seeing his mother go thru all the shit with a smile on her face. How could she?! Shouji asked himself that question many times. He tried once to ask her, why wouldn’t she leave the asshole, but the answer she gave only made him more furious… “I love him Shouji.” That son of a bitch didn’t deserve her love, he didn’t deserve her, he didn’t deserve anything she would do for him… But he had to understand that she was happy like that. He had to let it go. Shouji’s view on love, was that it was waste of anyone’s time. Something you shouldn’t give much though… and even something you should forget. Calling a man handsome shouldn’t be much of a big deal, so why would he feel disturbed… He decided to drop the thought. “Shut up.... I was forced to take th’a damn thing, dress this stupid thing and comb m’a hair... If i didn’t dad would kill me...” “Y’o dad?! Is he the head of th’a family?!” “No punk i am... Dad got shot two years ago... I had to take over...” “Sorry Boss, i...” “Never mind that. Let’s go, gonna ask Mimori-chan to lay a futon f’o ya...” “Mimori-chan?!” “Kind of like th’a house keeper. Wha… think i was the one cleaning this gigantic fucking house?! Ahahhaha!” “Course not Boss! I knew ya had like people to do that kind of shit f’o ya... I ain’t stupid...” “Ehehhe, messing with ya kid... “ “Welcome home Kai-sama... “ “Oi Mimori-chan... Eheheh” “Kai-sama, even if you’re my master i won’t allow you to treat your elder like your best friend... Behave boy, i’m still able to spank you enough to put some sense into you.” “Always so harsh Mimori-cha...” “Kai-sama...” “Ok ok, never mind y’o my favourite obaasan, so sorry if i want to spoil ya a bit...” “Watch your language; you look like you were raised on a dog pound...” “Ahahhaha, weren’t i?!” “KAI-SAMA...” “Sorry Mimori-SAN, just having a bit of fun...” “So what’s this... another stray dog you brought home?” Pointing at Shouji who didn’t really like to be called a dog, the truth was he looked like shit. Clothes all dirty and bloody, not to mention he looked like he got hit by a fucking train… He gave a quick glance at the man before him, at the screaming difference between them made him blush again… He looked like a dirty rag, and this guy looked like an elite. He felt bad, so bad he couldn’t hold the words bursting from his chest… “What th’a fuck do you want obaa-san…?! I ain’t no fucking dog, ya ear me…” “Wah… Is that a way to talk to an elder… You’re really a stray dog and the worst kind there is.” “Hey, hey… drop it! Mimori-san, please arrange a futon for the lost dog here, and prepare a bath… If he’s sleeping here I wanna get rid of the smell first, ahahah.” “Bos…” “As you wish, Kai-sama…” As soon as the old lady went on her way Shouji kept his eyes on Kai. He looked a bit dazzled, but a bit confused as well… “What is it punk?!” “Nothing…” “Nothing huh…” Truth was Shouji’s was hiding his embarrassment. He was feeling too self conscious, and the fact that for his 19 years he looked like he was 15. He stooped growing at some point, and he hated that, he was very skinny because he couldn’t have proper meal, and that made him hate his father even more. It was all his fault, all the evil in the world was his father fault. “What’s wrong kid, what’s with that face?” “I said it was nothing, just drop it… And don’t call me kid, I’m almost 20.” He didn’t know why he told him his age. The desire to tell him, unconsciously made him blurt that shit out. He wasn’t boasting, but for some reason, he wanted him to know. “Oh… so you’re almost 20… I see. Then how many do you really have…?” “Ain’t telling…” “Punk I told ya my age! Spill it!” “Why should i?!” The man came closer… Shouji noticed he was really big, compared to him he was a giant. He had a big body too, he must be muscular… But what made Shouji gasp were his eyes… Boss was wearing sunglasses at night, Shouji could never guess what were behind those lenses, and the photographs were black and white… The water coloured eyes the man had made Shouji step back, and turn his head away… It was just too much… He wasn’t expecting it. It was just a guy… Just another fucking guy… So what the fuck was wrong with him?! “Are ya spilling it or not…?!” Shouji had his pride, but not to the point of keeping refusing a yakuza… “I’m fucking 19! Now back off!” He may sound tough, but he couldn’t stop shaking… Was because of fear, or those eyes that felt like seeing thru him…? “Oh… 19! Good age… But why should I back off?! Are ya scared of me?!” The man said the line with a snicker hidden behind the words, but Shouji felt shaken by them. As soon as he tried to face the man standing before him, his body froze. He never felt that way. He felt disgust, he felt powerless… And he hated it… “Well, 19, almost legal age, that’s cools right?!” Somehow the guy backed off on his own, and in some fucking weird way was somehow giving the feeling he was disturbed by something. Shouji felt relieved, but not safe yet. There was something strange there, he couldn’t bring himself to name what the fuck was. The air between them became heavy, and looking to the broad back the man showed Shouji decided to let himself find out just what the fuck was going on. “Yeah, almost fucking legal… Not that it will change any shit though.” “Why don’t ya change your fucking life kid? Get a job…” “I have a fucking job!” “Oh yeah, doing what?!” “I work at a restaurant, I’m sort of a all kinds of job guy… I do what people need, I clean, I help waiter, I close the shop, I buy shit… ya know… restaurant shit!” “Ahahah, I see… That’s a good job kid!” “Stop calling kid, fuck…” “Well ya look like one… I would bet my fucking head saying you didn’t have more than 15 ahahahha.” “Don’t laugh! I know I’m short, and I know i look like this, but I ain’t getting any of this shit…” “Hey, c’mon slow down punk… Just messing with ya… Ya really look like a kid ya know that, then ya gotta understand why people messes with ya…” “I ain’t got to understand shit…” The man came closer again, Shouji felt endangered… “Look, let’s put this way then…” He put his hand on Shouji’s shoulder and the younger man felt like something being stolen from him… Was it his strength?! Were did it go? He felt numb. The man’s hand was big, heavy, but warm… “What…?!” “I’ll call ya…. What’s y’or name really?!” “Shouji!” “Well Shouji, I’m Kai, nice to meet ya.” For a moment there, all Shouji could see were green sparkling lights, hovering him… He saw nothing else… He forgot to answer… He was lost in the deep green colour of Kai’s eyes. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That's it for now... Thank you for reading Big Kiss :*

Title: Kawaita Yoru no Machi wo Oyogu Author: SAKURAGAWA Sonoko Plot: 1-2) Swimming in the Dry Street at Night Once nobility, Morinomiya Kikyou was sold to a brothel owned by his previous servant’s son, Terumasa. Kikyou was hurt by his first client and it was brought to Terumasa’s attention. Upon seeing his beloved Kikyou, what will Terumasa do? 3-4) The Lavishing Chaos. The Enchanting Banquet The youngest prince, Miya, met Lieutenant Tachibana when he was young. It was love at first sight for Miya. Will the frivolous Tachibana remember him? 5) Charisma Love A cute story about dog handlers: Mamiya Souichirou, a top dog handler, is deeply admired by all dog show fans for his unparalleled techniques. Despite that, Mikoto Moriyama - who knows next to nothing about dog shows - only sees Mamiya's 'skill' as walking a dog on a leash, which is nothing special. Mamiya challenges Mikoto to show him how easy it is. Discovering just the opposite, Mikoto vows that he will visit Mamiya until he learns his secrets - a relationship that soon grows day by day. 6) Hana's Illness Comes from the Heart Another story involving Miya and Lieutenant Tachibana. Miya has come down with a terrible flu and worries that he may not be able to make it to the Harvest Festival, which the Lieutenant is overseeing. Miya must focus on getting better... until an unwelcomed midnight visitor slithers into his room. Genre: Comedy Historical Romance Supernatural Yaoi Year: 2007 Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Read Kawaita Yoru no Machi wo Oyogu Online: Kawaita Yoru no Machi wo Oyogu Download Kawaita Yoru no Machi wo Oyogu: Download link removed by scanlator's request

Title: Boy Princess / Kiss me Princess Author : Kim Se young Genre : Drama,fantasy,gender Bender,Romance,Shoujo,Shoujo Ai, Yaoi Manhwa Synopsis : A pulse-quickening tale of swords and sorcery, far-away kingdoms, and the fairest princess in all the land... with a twist. When a prince's soon-to-be-bride (Elena) elopes two days before their wedding, her desperate family dresses up their youngest son (Nicole) and sends him to get married in her place (with prince Jed). With his beautiful blue eyes, flowing blond hair, and strategically placed apples, nobody bats an eye at the pretty pubescent standing before them. But how long can he keep up the charade? Despite the odds against them, the two princes share adventures and intimacies in this mesmeric romance. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Download link removed by scanlator's request Read Boy Princess Online Boy Princess

Kentaro took another drag of his cigarette. His other hand poking at the can of iced coffee. His moment of silent contemplation was interrupted when he noticed someone sat beside him on the wooden bench. He took a quick glance at the corner of his eye and recognized who it was. “I still think you're a bastard.” Kentaro took a sip of his iced coffee. “I know. Me too.” Misu replied but not looking at Kentaro. Both men just stared forward at the students that were walking around the university grounds. “I had to go to a fucking dentist to get my tooth saved.” Kentaro tapped the excess ash off his cigarette on the ground. “Yeah.” Misu replied. “How is Shingyouji-kun?” Kentaro put the cigarette back to his lips. “He's good.” Misu smiled thoughtfully. Kentaro nodded. He really liked the guy. Misu would be an idiot to lose someone that special. He'd happily take him if that ever happened. But he also knew it was nothing but a hopeless dream. “This is what happens when you don't open up to your best friend, you jerk.” “You're right about what you said that night.” Misu lowered his eyes sadly. Kentaro finally looked at him. He could see the regret in Misu's eyes and for him that was all he needed to see for himself. He knew he can never have a chance with Shingyouji. Not in this lifetime. Maybe he will have to find someone like him or perhaps someone totally unlike him. His tastes in men and women can be so damn messed up sometimes. He fell for Misu from the moment he saw him and instantly felt the same way with Shingyouji, perhaps a bit more. But he would have to settle for friendship in the end. “It's gonna be tough sometimes. But you have to realize that not everyone is gonna judge your relationship. Some people will always talk and then there will be others who don't give a shit. Just take it easy. And stop fucking hiding from people who actually give a damn especially ME!” Misu chuckled at that. “Then why the hell did you tell Shingyouji your name was Taro Yoshi?” Kentaro looked at him and stammered a response. “Eh...anou....well, you know, it's my thing. Since when did I give people my real name? Besides it's not too far off from my real name anyway. Kentaro Yoshida.” “Because of that, you won't ever hear a fucking apology from me.” Misu's smile was smug. Kentaro frowned at him and they both laughed. Owari?! AUTHOR NOTES: OMG! OMG!! OMG!!! 36 pages in total yo! I was like a person possessed when I started typing. I couldn't stop. The ideas kept flowing through my brain and before I realized it, I've already typed THIS much. I outdid myself. *CRIES* Thank you so much for seeing me through the end. My heart couldn't stop beating so fast. I couldn't sleep well last night because of my heart. I just finally finished this story today. Hot and fresh! Rightful claim goes to the mangaka for Misu and Shingyouji characters. I can only lay rightful claim to my original characters Miyagi-san and Kentaro Yoshida. I hope you like them guys.

Getting to their apartment unit was proving to be quite a strain for both of them as Misu would pull Shingyouji for a kiss and him kissing back in like manner. They kissed hard in the elevator. As soon as Misu unlocked the door to their unit, he pulled Shingyouji's hand and pushed him inside their apartment. They kicked off their shoes and slippers. Shirts flung to to the wall. Pants dropping on the floor and kicked aside. Neither of them releasing from their kissing frenzy. They bumped into one of Misu's books on the floor and he kicked them to the side. Misu laid Shingyouji on their bed. He straddled him. He could see the lust and love burning in Shingyouji's eyes. Oh god, I could have really taken him senseless right there out in the street. All of Shingyouji was his. Only his. He was never going to find another love like this. He knew no one could ever affect him so deeply the way Shingyouji did. No one can ever make him desire a person this badly the way he did. Misu lowered his head to possess those lips again and Shingyouji's legs wrapped around his waist, urging him to go further. Giving him more access to every crevice of his body. Their fingers intertwined. Misu's strong grip on his thigh. So aroused. So deep. So close. The heat was driving them over the edge repeatedly. Shingyouji was gasping at every breath. Every thrust Misu made was sending his body into a convulsion of crazy passion and desperation. He clung to his arms. He was in tears. Pain, happiness, satisfaction, complete surrender, you name it...he was feeling everything all at once. Until finally they reached the pinnacle of their heated intimacy. The release was so great it overpowered their senses. Misu collapsed heavily on Shingouji's chest. His breath ragged and hot. Shingyouji smiled weakly and kissed the curve of Misu's neck. “I love you...Arata-san...” Shingyouji gasped. Misu rolled over to Shingyouji's side and pulled the younger man over his chest. His palms gently raking on Shingyouji's messy hair. Misu's eyes softened at the words of love uttered. He smiled and possessed those soft swollen lips again. “I'm so happy you're mine.” Misu murmured to Shingyouji's lips.

The apartment felt like a tomb. Misu and Shingyouji has not uttered a single word to each other since coming out of Shiki Bar. The air between them was stale with awkwardness, confusion and Misu's coldness. Misu washed off a bit of the blood on his knuckles in the kitchen sink. Shingyouji watched him move from the kitchen to the closet to get a fresh shirt and pajamas, enter the bathroom and coming out changed and laid down on their bed. “Would you mind telling me what the hell was that all about?” Shingyouji did not mask the annoyance in his tone. What started out as a nice evening turned into a fist fight leaving him still confused, a bloody Kentaro and Misu not saying a damn word. Misu sat up on the bed and looked at Shingyouji who was standing before him. What the hell was he going to say? He tried to keep it cool the whole time and one stupid move from Kentaro and he lost it. Damn you, Kentaro! This wasn't supposed to happen. Shit. Now he had to settle damange control with Shingyouji. What the hell. “He is your classmate. Your close friend. You didn't tell me a single thing about how he felt for me. You could have given me some warning. I have to hear it from him. And then you punch him like that out of nowhere?” “Oh great. Now you blame me for punching him like that? You should realize by now why I did all that. He was begging for it. I warned him already that you're not going to his place.” “BUT YOU COULD HAVE WARNED ME!” “HOW THE FUCK COULD I WARN YOU ABOUT HIM? HE DIDN'T TELL ME ABOUT YOU EITHER! HE WAS KEEPING IT A SECRET FROM ME!” Shingyouji looked away. Tears of frustration were threatening to flow but he sucked in his breath sharply. This was far from over. “You think I'm stupid. You always think I'm some kind of idiot who cannot defend himself. You think punching him like that make you so great? All this time, I agree with what YOU like how our relationship should be going. Keep it discreet. Keep it secret. KEEP IT! KEEP IT! FUCKING KEEP IT! I get paranoid already. But I can't. I'm not strong like you are. I can't fucking pretend like you and I have nothing between us when we're outside. My own boss saw right through me and I didn't deny it. I just couldn't. I'd rather risk rearranging my life just so I can be with you always. And now this...damn it!” “THAT FUCKING BASTARD HAD HIS ARMS AROUND YOU! Whispering into your ear the whole time! And you kept laughing and smiling at him! I'm not sorry that I punched him. He fucking deserved it! HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU SAW ANOTHER MAN SO CLOSE TO YOUR LOVER LIKE THAT?” As soon as Misu said it, his eyes went wide in realization. He immediately regretted it. It was like a bucket of cold water splashed onto him. All he could see now was the deep hurt etched in Shingyouji's eyes. “I KNOW EXACTLY HOW THAT FEELS, YOU SELFISH JERK!” Shingyouji very quickly stormed out of the apartment before Misu could stand up to stop him. Fuck! What have I done? ---------------------------------- The only thing Misu grabbed before heading out the door was his keys. He didn't care he was only in his pajamas and house slippers. All he could think was the sooner he got out of the apartment, the higher the likelihood he could catch up with Shingyouji. He didn't want a repeat of last time. He didn't like the idea of having to wait in the apartment without a damn clue where he ran off to. A lot of memoreies were crashing in his head one by one and he didn't like it. Not one bit. A part of him still did not regret punching Kentaro earlier but that did not drown out his regret when he yelled at Shingyouji. He was acting out his frustrations on him. It was not fair. He knew it. But he could not help it. He was supposed to be the cool one, right? He was the one who was supposed to have all the answers. He was the one who was supposed to be in control of the situation. Things could have been handled much differently with Kentaro but right now he managed to screw up the one person he valued the most. Shingyouji, where the hell are you? He was grateful for the stillness of the night. Their apartment bulding was situated in a quiet neighborhood. It was already after midnight. They had spent a great deal of time at the bar together. This was not how he wanted to spend the rest of the time. He still had classes later in the day. But right now he didn't care if he had to skip his classes altogether. He couldn't get Shingyouji out of his mind. Not like this. How could he be so cruel? As he walked into the quiet street, he noticed someone turn right to the first two blocks away from the building. He recognized that shirt. That distinct walk. It was Shingyouji. He was relieved that he didn't get very far yet and he was just walking. He would have gone nuts if he ran. He had always been aware how fast Shingyouji could run like the wind if he had to. Misu walked hurriedly to catch up with Shingyouji. “SHINGYOUJI!”

“Arata-san, tadaima!” Shingyouji wrapped his arms around Misu's neck and kissed the top of his head. Misu's hair was a bit damp from a shower. “Okaeri.” Misu replied and gave a light tap on Shingyouji's arms around his neck. They were both seated on the floor with his books and notes. He was reviewing for his anatomy exam. Shingyouji slowly released his arms and proceeded to sit close to Misu and leaned his head on his shoulder. He had been holding onto the good news the whole time he was at work and still managed to survive his classes afterwards. Now that he was finally home with Misu he could barely contain himself anymore. “Arata-san...I have something really good to share with you.” Shingyouji's eyes were bright. “What is it?” “Well first things first...” Shingyouji pulled Misu's face to his and planted a soft kiss on his lips. “I wanted to say thank you for coming to see me at the store today. I'm really happy when you do that.” He whispered just as their lips parted. Misu shrugged. “I needed a few things so I thought I'd drop by.” Shingyouji grinned and nudged Misu's shoulder with his elbow. “Arata-san!” He knew Misu was still being a little stubborn making it seem like it was not a big deal but he could see that the smirk he was sporting now didn't reach the gentleness of his eyes. This is one of the reasons why I love you so much, Arata-san. “Well, if it was just a simple shopping trip. You can text me and send me a list of items you want. I get employee discount, you know.” Shingyouji pouted. “Hmp! Maybe I should do that then. That way I won't have to walk ten blocks just to get a few things.” Misu frowned. What the hell? I make an effort in dropping by to visit him every week and he spouts nonsense like this. Make a list he says. Damn it. Why I even bother? As Misu was about to stand up, he felt two strong arms around his chest pulling him and Shingyouji's cheek pressed closely to his back. Now what? “Arata-san...gomen ne...I was kidding. Please forgive me. Please don't stop visiting me at work. I'm just being a brat. I'm a little hyper right now and I start randoming stupid things. Please forget what I said. Please come visit me at the store like you do. I'm so sorry, Arata-san...” Shingyouji's voice was small and regretful like a child who had been chastised by an elder. Misu smiled, looked to his side and gripped Shingouji's hand on his chest. The arms around him grew tighter. “So what's the good news you wanted to tell me?” Shingyouji moved from behind him and sat right across him. Misu could see the twinkle in his eyes. The bunny teeth sticking out of those pink lips. “My boss thinks I like you and that I should do something about it.” “SAY WHAT?” Misu's eyes rounded in utter surprise. He did not expect this at all. Shit..was it because he started showing up at the store? Was he that freaking obvious? He tried his best to look as nonchalant as possible. Great...just what he needed. Unnecessary attention drawn to him. This is exactly what he hated so much. Now Shingyouji's boss has noticed something. How the hell was he going to show in that damn store again next time? Shingyouji noticed the way Misu was clenching his jaw. The frown on his forehead. He had been waiting for a happy response from him but all he got was an uncomfortable silence. He realized Misu was not taking the news very well. But it was good news, right? He couldn't have been wrong. Miyagi-san was very clear that he was absolutely okay with it. If he didn't then what was that whole tragic story about his cousin in the first place? Several minutes elapsed and not a word was said between them. It was getting to be more uncomfortable than ever. Misu stood up and walked towards the bed and sat down. Shingyouji followed and sat beside him. “Arata-san...say something. It is good news. Really it is. My boss totally understands. It's okay.” Shingyouji lays his hand over Misu's lap waiting for a reply. He did not expect this sort of reaction from his lover. He thought Misu was going to be ecstatic like he was. No more hiding. No more holding back. He can talk to Misu freely. He didn't have to pretend anymore whenever he visited the store. They can both relax. But by the look at Misu's face, a sense of insecurity was taking over him. He was the only one happy about this news after all. Arata-san did not share his views. Shingyouji retracted his hand from Misu's lap and covered his face instead. “I'm so sorry, Arata-san...I wasn't thinking..” Shingyouji could not talk further. His words muffled by his hands on his face. He suddenly felt embarassed for acting all happy earlier. But it still was good news. It had to be. But what difference did it make if the one you shared it with did not receive it as happily as you did? Misu sighed deeply. He was trying to make sense of what the news meant for the both of them. He wasn't mad at all. He certainly was not mad at Shingyouji. He was still very much in a state of shock. Even during their time in Shidou, they have somehow managed to keep their relationship discreet from everyone. Those who did sense that there was something between him and Shingyouji only knew the surface. No one knew how deep their relationship was. He had wanted to keep it that way for two reasons. One, to keep Shingyouji close to him and two, no one would interefere with their personal affair. It was enough people thought that Shingyouji was just behaving like a devoted pet following him around. People found it amusing and simply dismissed it as a phase Shingyouji would overcome eventually as soon as Misu graduated from high school. But containing the truest nature of their relationship may have been easier in Shidou, it's a whole lot different in the real world as adults. When you're young you can afford to be reckless at some point. But when you get older, it becomes a luxury not many people can afford. Now that Shingyouji's boss has noticed something and seemed understanding, that takes a load off the worries in his mind for now. Misu didn't think he was ready to just behave lovey-dovey in the open just because a few people didn't seem to care. He was fine with their lives now. Living together like this. Spending time together whenever they could. But they still had separate goals to achieve. He had responsibilities towards his family too. He had been groomed to take over a key position in the hospital. He was never against it. He actually liked that certain goals are already prepared for him to strive for. He always loved a good challenge. But to have an open relationship with Shingyouji is proving to be another challenge he's still struggling to deal with. Misu gently pried Shingyouji's fingers off his face to reveal a dejected face. His eyes were reddening from trying to hold back the tears. “Shingyouji...I was just surprised, that's all.” “You're not mad?” “No.” “Then it's okay then? Besides you didn't do anything that made my boss suspect. It was all me. My boss is a very perceptive guy. He read me like a book. He said I was a little too friendly whenever you showed up. I didn't mean to. I really thought I was being myself and discreet but I couldn't help it whenever I see you...I just...” Misu ruffled Shingyouji's hair and smirked. “That's true. You were really being yourself. Brat.” Shingyouji looked at him and pouted. “Meanie! And here I was so worried that you're mad at me.” He playfully smacked Misu's back with a pillow. “I'm not mad. Get over it already.” Misu stood up and walked towards the kitchen to get a glass of cold water. Shingyouji took off his work clothes and threw them in the hamper. He put on a fresh shirt and cargo shorts. He opened his bag and pulled out a plastic bag. “I have another surprise for you, Arata-san.” He smiled. “What is it?” Misu was rinsing the glass he just used. “This one.” Shingyouji took a pack of chocolate candies from the plastic bag he held and laid it on the table. The same brand of chocolate candies Misu liked when they were still in Shidou. Shingyouji thought he would go insane when he found out that Sakura Grocery was stocking the item in the shelves. He knew he just had to get one for Misu at all costs. “Ah.” Misu smiled. “I was thinking we could enjoy them later after supper.” At the word 'supper' Shingyouji suddenly realized he forgot to buy supper from the family restaurant across Sakura Grocery. He had been planning to do that as soon as he left for work but was too excited to get home and announce the good news to Misu and completely forgot about it. “Oh no...I'm so sorry. I was supposed to get our supper tonight. I'll go out and come up with something. Will you be able to wait awhile?” Shingyouji was about to put on his sandals when he felt a strong tug at his shirt. “Eh?” “No need. I already ordered pizza for us. It was supposed to be here 10 minutes ago. I guess it's gonna be free of charge now.” At the word 'pizza' Shingyouji's eyes went glassy. He felt his stomach rumble on cue. He loved pizza. But having Misu naturally ordering it without him expecting it was a wonderful surprise. He can wait. Pizza was coming and he was sharing it with Misu. It's going to be a wonderful evening for both of them. Misu was now sitting on the chair and Shingyouji moved towards him and sat on his lap. “I love pizza.” Shingyouji purred. “I know.” Just as they were about to kiss, the doorbell rang.

After the phone call, Shingyouji felt numb with fear and trepidation. He remained quiet while Matsumoto-sensei was talking to him in the conference room. The teacher was very concerned about him and though he appreciated it, he wanted so badly to get out of the room. There was only one person he had in mind that he believed strongly would calm him down. Just one person was all he needed desperately to see. If he saw him, everything would be fine. He'll face anything. He needed to be assured. He wanted so badly to see him. His first instinct was to proceed to Hayama's room and wait for him there. They should have been back by now, he thought. But the sudden vision of Hayama's worried face didn't sit well with him. It wasn't his face that he wanted to see right now. He wanted Misu. He only wanted him alone. And by sheer luck, he sees Misu who was walking along the hallway to the dorm building and all he could do was chase after him before he could enter the door. “Arata-san! Arata-san! Wait up!” Misu pretended not to hear and just kept walking towards the door. He was tired and he was in no mood to entertain the younger man. He felt a strong tug at his arm which irritated him but as he turned to look at the known offender, he was surprised at Shingyouji's flushed face. “Arata-san...we need to talk. Please. I don't know what to do.” Shingyouji was still gasping for air after the sprint he just did. “You could try letting my arm go because I am tired and whatever it is, I'm sure it can wait. I really need some sleep.” “But...” “I said let go, Shingyouji!” But Shingyouji shook his head. All the protests that screamed in his head fell flat in his tongue. No words came out. That's not what he wanted to hear right now from Misu. He wanted him to listen even for awhile. But he sensed Misu's rising irritation in his eyes. He did look weary from travel. Yes, he needed sleep. Whatever it is, I'm sure it can wait. Shingyouji slowly released his hold on Misu's arm. “I'm sorry to bother you. You should go. You're right, this can wait.” Shingyouji bowed his head slightly and sat by the stairs. Misu studied him for a moment but his fatigue was getting the better of him. He'll be fine, he assured himself. I'm no use talking to anyone if I'm tired anyway. But as Misu climbed the stairs and entered his room. Hayama was nowhere in sight. Probably visited Saki's room no doubt, he thought. He realized that perhaps it wasn't too bad if he had stayed for a bit to talk to Shingyouji earlier. He looked like he was very disturbed about something. He was afraid of something. He looked desperate for some reason. But then he quickly dismissed those thoughts and laid on his bed. I'll just talk to him tomorrow at lunch time. Shingyouji remained in the stairs. He was grateful that the sun was about to set in the horizon. He was grateful that there weren't any students around to see him like this. The tears that he was trying to hide the whole time began to run down his cheeks. He felt so weak. Shingyouji buried his face in his hands and wiped the tears. He dreaded what awaits for him when he gets home. But he did miss his grandmother. He suddenly felt an overwhelming need to see her. To comfort her. She had been the only one who stood by his side. The only person he could go to when his parents fought. The only person who didn't mind his tears. The only person who could understand what he's going through. Oh God, I'm so scared. But he had no choice left. He headed to his room and started to pack his things and shoved them in his large backpack. His room mate was not in the room. It was better that way so he didn't arouse any suspicion. Shingyouji was in no mood to explain himself. The one person he wanted to be with right now didn't have the time for him. It was better this way. Leave the school quietly. Matsumoto-sensei has already called a cab for him since it would be too late for Shingyouji to catch a bus. “Matsumoto-sensei...arigatou..” Shingyouji bowed to his teacher who patted him on the shoulder. “Don't worry. This will be only be between me and your family. Your grandmother was very insistent to keep this matter private which I totally understand. I do hope you'll come back to Shidou soon. You take care of yourself, Shingyouji-kun.” As the cab drove past the school, Shingyouji leaned his head by the window and watched the row of lush pine trees that lined the long road. Memories started flooding back to him. His coming to Shidou for the first time. Meeting Misu for the first time. How much his life has changed since then. He vowed he would be stronger. He tried so hard. But in the end, he was all alone after all. I need you, Arata-san. I don't know what's going to happen to me when I go home. Will I ever come back to Shidou? Will I ever see you again? I just want to stay here by your side. Oh God..what am I saying? This is exactly what Arata-san hates. I'm such a crybaby. I'm still a brat. Damn it. So stupid to think I'm someone he could love. Maybe leaving Shidou isn't such a bad idea after all. Maybe he'll be relieved I'm gone. All I do is annoy him. It's all my fault these things are happening to me. He squeezed his eyes shut. He had a deep sense of foreboding of what's to come when he arrives home. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Three weeks have passed and still no word came from Shingyouji. Misu has reverted back to his old habits of skipping meals and overworking himself. Hayama watched his roommate collapse on the bed still wearing his uniform. It has become a typical scenario. He tried to encourage Misu to somehow watch his health at least but Misu only gave him a glare and told him to stay out of his business. It wasn't just Misu's bad habits that bothered Hayama...his attitude was getting worse as well. He was snappy. He was curt. He was cold. He was more distant. It worried him and it also scared him. Hayama had shared such matters with Gii but his lover simply warned him to stay out of it. He might have been lucky last time to get involved in Misu's way at Tanabata Day but he wasn't so confident now. Gii and Misu may not get along that well but Gii also knew that he didn't want that civility they shared would turn to hate just because Hayama was too sensitive of the affair between Misu and Shingyouji. He wished so badly that there was something more he could do. Shingyouji was a good friend of his and he worried for his friend. But they were all left at a standstill when he left. No one knew the true reason for it. So many speculations and rumors proliferated in Shidou, some plausible and some were just downright impossible. Gii and Misu who had very little to zero patience with rumors and wild speculations have tried in their own way to seek the truth but nothing came up with their search. Not even teachers would say anything. The one teacher they had hoped to help them was Matsumoto-sensei but even he could not be pressured to divulge anything. It was bad enough that Shingyouji didn't own a cell phone since his parents did not see the point in giving him one since he would be living in the school anyway. They did manage to acquire Shingyouji's home address but the number they called was already disconnected which made them suspect that the home address is no longer reliable either. Perhaps they have already moved. The possibility only made Misu worse than ever. He had been keeping much to himself and poured most of his time to school work and his duties at the Student Council. When he did have some free time, he was either at the library or sleeping. Consultations with him were now referred to Gii and Shouzo. Shouzo at one point confronted Misu regarding his workaholic state and distant behavior but Misu told him that since his academic standing was in no way suffering then the school had nothing to complain about him and neither should anyone. It was best that they just leave him be. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _