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Hello everyone! I know that some of you have been patiently anticipating another chapter in Pureness. It has been awhile since I posted my third story 'Lies and Truth'. I would also like to thank everyone who has made Pureness reach up to almost 5000 views making it the MOST visited thread in the Library of Romance. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. You all inspire me. I am eternally grateful. I now bring you to the 4th story of the Pureness series that focuses deeply on the romance between Misu and Shingyouji. This is going to be short and sweet and yes, I'm going to veer away from the heavy drama for the mean time. I hope you enjoy. Thank you. I'm still working on another Pureness fic after this. IGNITION The story so far: How Shingyouji finally discovered Misu's first name. But before we begin with the story, let's reflect on this image and you'll see why I chose this image to visualize this story. “Hey Shingyouji-kun...great moves! We really should spar next time, okay?” the senior student Masato waved at the freshman who was hurriedly leaving the dojo. Shingyouji could only manage a slight bow and ran off towards the school building. Ah damn it...I hope I make it in time when he leaves the classroom. Please, please, please still be there. Shingyouji didn't even want to look at his watch anymore. Even while he was in the dojo, though he was physically present, his mind wandered off to his ultimate goal for the day. Tsk..not just for the day but has always been since he began his first day in Shidou. Yes, finally he made it! But it had been a week of failed attempts at trying to get to the one man he most desperately wanted to meet again. The one man that he believed will change his life in more ways than one. Misu was not an easy man to reach as he had imagined. He wiped off the sweat from his brow and his neck with his blue face towel and gasped for air. He looked at his watch. He leaned back heavily on the wall and breathed in deep for air. Yosh...just in time. Misu's class was going to be over in five minutes. He had memorized what he planned to say when he meets him again. The anticipation was eating at him but no way he was going to mess it up. He was determined to meet him today no matter what happens. The grandfather clock marked the end of the class which was in sync with Shingyouji's watch. He could hear his heart beat loudly and it hurt his head a bit. His eyes were like a hawk as he scanned the face of each student that walked out of the door until finally....there he was. He paced himself as he made a bee line from the students who were walking across the hall and walked towards Misu who was having a conversation with the professor. He saw the professor leave Misu alone shortly afterwards. Now..this is my chance. As soon as he came upon Misu face to face, he suddenly felt all the words that he had worked on these past few weeks drifting away from his mind. The way Misu gazed at him was enough to freeze fire, Shingyouji thought. “Ah, Shingyouji Kanemitsu, right?” Misu smirked. “Yes.” Crap say something more, you idiot! Shingyouji yelled at himself for being so dumbstruck in front of Misu. “So what brings you here?” Misu examined the boy standing in front of him. It was obvious that he was nervous. But the eyes that stared back at him had a determination that was undeniable. Those same eyes that struck him when they were at the cafeteria. Shingyouji inhaled deeply and composed himself. “I came to see you about that promise you made.” “What promise?” Misu frowned. Wow...he's determined indeed. “You said that if I made it here to Shidou that you would tell me your first name.” Oh God...oh god...Shingyouji could hear his heart beating loudly. “Are you telling me, you came all the way here just to ask me that? You could have asked it from someone else and that be the end of it.” Misu shrugged. But he felt a bit intrigued upon seeing the frown on the boy's face. “I know I could have but I don't want to know it from someone else or anyone else here. I want to know your first name from you.” Shingyouji was not breaking his gaze at the taller man who stood before him. Was that a smile in his eyes I see? Shingyouji wondered if his eyes were playing tricks on him. Or was the man going to play a trick on him again like last time threatening that he would expose him for cheating at the entrance exam even though he did not cheat. He would have but he couldn't. What was Misu thinking right now? Misu sighed. “Fine. Follow me.” They walked together across the hallway and climbed the stairs. Shingyouji walking closely behind him. He could not help himself but admire how Misu's back looked and his broad shoulders. How he walked with a quiet confident air around him. Like he had it all figured out. He wished he could walk like that. He remembered his grandmother telling him one too many times, he sometimes walked like a scruffy little kid. Maybe he should try walking like Misu one of these days. It could do wonders for his posture. He smiled at the thought of that. Misu dug into his pocket and took out a key then opened the door. Shingyouji read “Executive Room” at the door and wondered what in the world was in store for him inside but before he could make a coherent thought process, he felt Misu's hand around his wrist and pulled him inside. The door shutting behind them. All he could feel right now was being pinned on the wall and seeing Misu's smug face so close to his. He felt his heart pounding loudly in his head again. Misu's firm grip on his wrist remained. “So you came all the way here for a promise you think I made that time. Did it even occur to you that I was just messing with you so you could leave me alone?” Misu's voice was dripping heavily with sarcasm. “No. I always believed that you were the type of person who never backed out on his word.” Shingyouji's lips began to quiver yet it wasn't fear of Misu that was gripping him at this moment. It was anticipation and the fact seeing the man so close to his. “Very well. But then you should know I'm also the type of person who won't do anything for anyone unless something really good was going to come out of it.” The tips of their noses were now touching. Misu could see Shingyouji's eyes were glazing. He could barely keep his eyes open anymore. He could feel his wrist weakening from his firm grip. And then it happened. Misu's lips descended upon Shingyouji's lips in one swift move. There was something about the freshman that ignited Misu's possessive streak to unexpectedly surface. He originally only intended to pull a little prank on him but what made him want to take this boy under his control was wreaking havoc in his mind. His tongue demanding swift entrance and Shingyouji granting him full access. The kiss was hard, demanding, and deep. It bothered Misu a bit that Shingyouji seemed a bit too eager and enthusiastic with the kiss. Damn it, this is not his first kiss. And with that infuriating thought, the kiss only became even more impatient and rough. He could feel Shingyouji clutching tightly onto his arm with no hint of a struggle. His defenses have weakened a long time ago. Misu's hand deeply pressed onto Shingyouji's cheek, his ear, his neck. He could feel the soft hair in between his fingers. He could hear the soft moan coming out of him. It drove Misu mad with lust. Right there he decided he was not going to allow anyone come this close to his pet or they would suffer the consequences of his wrath. “You still want to know my name?” Misu nipped at his ear making Shingyouji's knees buckle. “Yes,..please..” Shingyouji could only gasp in response. He felt a bit impatient with the momentary pause from their kiss. He felt like he could drown in the kiss alone. He didn't want to stop. He wanted to keep going. What in the world possessed him to cling onto him so much and so readily at that? A deep sense of wanting to be possessed by Misu was overwhelming him beyond belief. He has never ever felt this way before. Never been kissed this way before. Whatever admiration he must have felt from the moment their eyes met the very first time was now engulfed with emotions much deeper than that. Misu's hand began to snake down Shingyoji's nape making the other boy arch his neck granting him even more access. He could feel butterfly kisses run down his neck and towards his collarbone. His fingers quickly unfastening the top button of his white shirt thus exposing his skin to Misu's mercy. Their breathing were fast and furious. Each one anticipating the other one's move during the entire seductive process. “Oh god..” Shingyouji gasped as he felt Misu suck in deeply into his shoulder. He felt his body shaking from the mesmerizing sensation. He bit his lower lip as he squeezed his eyes shut only to open them again as once again he found himself gazing deeply into Misu's eyes. And there it was Misu's lips began to form the word that he had been dying to know all this time. The one word that has been one of the causes of his sleepless nights. “Arata.” Misu whispered huskily into his ear. To Shingyouji it sounded like an endearment. A secret only the two of them could ever know. Misu gently lifted his chin and outlined Shingyouji's lower lip with his thumb neither of them breaking their gaze upon each other. “Arata-san...” Shingyouji smiled.

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Your eyes have pierced my very soul Your lips have made me yours. You touch has made me lose control It’s reached into my core Your voice has made me fall again Into a world unknown I know I’m always near you then Yet I still feel alone Your kiss I feel it on my skin Its better than a dream Could this be yet another sin Or more than what it seems. Your hands have found my very heart To reach it has been tough But as I feel the caressing start I cannot get enough. You’re song has reached into my ears The harmony so sweet I wash away my doubts and fears We were destined to meet

It was ssssooooooooooooo good! I almost died??? Hehhe...

OH MY GOOOOOOOODDDDDD!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D Husband is watching me screaming like crazy and probably thinking something really really good might have happend.... And it did......!!!! You guys did.... Oh god, sometimes life sucks so bad you just wanna curse and be angry with everything and everyone... However these little things make it so god damn worth every piece of bad time i might be having..... Guys you managed to put the biggest, happiest smile out there in a very very sour face these days, and all i have to say to you guys is my biggest thank you... Thank you thank you thank you... I loved my birthday present, late or not... it's not even the point Thank you so so so so much for this... Really thank you! I loved it.... From start to finish....loved ALL of it.... (by the way, i'm stealling it, and keeping it among my beloved things) MAN....so HAPPY!!! You guys just...ROCK!!!!! There isn't a name in this world to mesure the HUG and the KISS i'm sending you.... :leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3:

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The Ultimate Orgasm (3D Animation) Summary: The Ultimate Orgasm is a 3D gay animation about super heroes who has sexual relationships with villains in order to find a villain who kidnapped a scientist that invented ultimate orgasminator... Warning: hard stuff Watch The Ultimate Orgasm Online (HD Quality): The Ultimate Orgasm (3D Animation) Online Download The Ultimate Orgasm (3D Animation): The Ultimate Orgasm For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Gakuen Heaven Anime Alternative title: Gakuen Heaven: Boy's Love Scramble Heaven Academy Райская школа (Russian) 学園ヘヴン (Japanese) Genres: comedy, romance, slice of life Themes: bishounen, high school, male harem, shounen-ai Running time: half hour per episode Number of episodes: 13 Opening Theme: "school boys" by YAMOTO Ending Theme: "Panorama" by Masaaki Fujioka Type: TV Series Format: AVI File Size: 171-179 MB Plot Summary: It all started when Keita Ito received a letter sealed with the initial BL Academy. The most sophisticated all boys, on campus, Academy in the country. Now that Keita Ito is accepted in the school with an average GBA, as well as average skills in sports and writing, he doesn’t think that he belong in there. But with the help from the other students, will he be able to make it in BLA. Watch Gakuen Heaven Anime Online (HD Quality): Gakuen Heaven Anime Online Download Gakuen Heaven Anime: Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3 Ep4 Ep 5 Ep 6 Ep 7 Ep 8 Ep 9 Ep 10 Ep 11 Ep 12 Ep 13 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Tsumaranai Otoko Manga Associated Names: A Boring Man; つまらない男; 就是愛悶騷男 Author: Yamamoto Kotetsuko Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Year: 2007 Genre: Drama, Yaoi Description: 1) A Boring Man 2) Sweet Room 3-4) Let’s Tie Hands Firmly When Atsushi quits his job in the city and returns to his hometown, he finds his childhood friend Satoru all grown up and a little distant. 5) Always Hand in Hand 6) A Troubled Man Read Tsumaranai Otoko Online Tsumaranai Otoko Download Links (Uploading.com): Tsumaranai Otoko ch 01 Tsumaranai Otoko ch 02 Tsumaranai Otoko ch 03 Tsumaranai Otoko ch 04 Tsumaranai Otoko ch 05 Tsumaranai Otoko ch 06 For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Kondo Koso Honki Summary: 1) Natsume often goes to see his childhood friend Hisataka, but Hisataka's always mean to him. Being eight years younger, Natsume has always looked up to Hisataka, but those feelings have changed into something more serious. Will Hisataka ever see him as anything but a kid? 2) Kazama is a clumsy but energetic office worker who's secretly in love with his boss Sudou. Knowing he'll never catch the super elite beauty, Kazama is content to watch from the sidelines. But then he accidentally witnesses an unprofessional side to Sudou. Does it mean Kazama has a chance, or is his case more hopeless than ever? 3) Sweet Funny Fighter Kouna's not sure when he fell in love with Seto, but he can't stop visiting the convienence store clerk and trying to get a reaction out of the expressionless kid. When he mistakenly sees Seto in a fight, Kouna becomes his confidant. But it would be so easy to take advantage of the lonely boy... 4) I Can't Be Gentle Maki's younger lover Junya has time for everyone except Maki. Tired of being left alone, Maki tries to satisfy his desires with toys, but craves a lover's touch. Will Junya come to his senses before Maki finds someone else? 5-6-extra) Takei and Nishina are business partners, and though they're both gay, they never considered each other because they both "top". When Takei's teasing goes too far, he finds himself being pushed down by Nishina! Trying to get back on top is rapidly becoming Takei's ultimate goal. Author: TOYAMA Mako Groups Scanlating: Dangerous Pleasure Genre: Adult, Comedy, Drama, Smut, Yaoi Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Read Kondo Koso Honki! Online Kondo Koso Honki! Download Kondo Koso Honki! Manga http://www.mediafire.com/?mrkx4iqjyiz For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Mumyoutou _Duo Brand_ Original name: 月刺 Manga ALT. names: Mumyoutou, Unsigned Blade Original run: 2007 Description: Saku, an assassin, believes his life is meant to be lived by the sword. After a night of brutal killing however, he is left wounded and helpless in the hands of Shakou, a mysterious doctor, and the only witness to his crimes. Fate seems to have ordained this encounter as secrets are broken and emotions run wild... Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: Duo Brand Drawn by: Duo Brand Published by: Movic Group(s) Scanlating: Forever More Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama, Historical, Yaoi Categories: Yakuza; Angst; Rape; Doctors; Love at First Sight Main Characters: Saku, Shakou Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Kono Yoru no Subete, Hard Triangle, Last Client, Yellow Read Mumyoutou Online: Mumyoutou Download Mumyoutou Manga: Megaupload // Mediafire For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Matsu Takeshi is a gay mangaka who wites yaoi for other gay men. So the style is a bit (okay a lot) different to the usual yaoi manga. Think muscle men and no plot to think of. I'll post this first, and if anyone likes it, I'll post all of his translated work. Sooo.... (4shared link) Between Delusions and Reality Hard Yaoi.

Name: 藤崎こう [Fujisaki Kou] Birthday: May 17 Gender: F || Works || Happy Yarou Wedding Utsukushiki Kemonotachi Virgin Love Toriko ni Natta...Kemono Junai no Seinen Kemono wa Ai de, Iyasareru Playboy Amour Romance no Kaori Oboreru Kemono no Koibito Men's Love Aikata Aishi no Sweet Voice Sexy Cool Voice Dakenai Jikan Junai ni Torawarete King & Prince King & Prince + Kaiser Newaza Ippon Konna Hazu Ja Nakatta no ni

Summary:I never thought of writing anything again, but since i was sick in bed for more days than i thought i could manage, this came out somewhat, naturally... I have to say this, because i wish to be the most honest possible in this kind of situation. The story will be about yakuza, and has a lot(really really really a lot) of faul language and violence. It is not a sweet story. Don't expect(please) the same as Spell... or anything alike. I just wish you like reading it... Well, if you end up really reading it... Well enjoy Status: Dropped[/color] Warning: This fiction is rated +18! It contains strong language and explicit sex scenes. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- How would you describe your life….?! Good? Not bad? Great…? Awesome…? For Shouji, his life is probably, your worse view of life, your worse nightmare… Even so he goes on living, one day after the other like the river that no matter the obstacles, still flows into the sea… His story is like so many other stories of struggle, pain, loss and love… Love… He never really knew how he yearned for it… Does love truly change anything…? Isn’t love just an illusion, a shadow, smoke that floats between your fingers never getting thick enough for you to grab a hold of it? Shouji had a miserable life, indeed… He could however, and against all odds, find the smallest amount of happiness, in what people nowadays, despised, or better, didn’t pay attention to anymore… A 19 year old guy that works for his food, get’s beaten up, as soon as he get’s home… Money snatched away, days starving, sleeping in the streets, bleeding, always bleeding, inside and out… This is one of those daily times when, as soon as he steps inside his broken down home, his somewhat father beats the hell out of him, asking for all the money he battled for during a hard passing day… Money that, every time he try’s to say he doesn’t have, he get’s smashed against the floors and walls, until he gives up… “Shit, that mother fucker got m’a face again…Fuck!” These were his days and his nights… Telling his story doesn’t mean that you have a lesson to learn or that this is meant to show you the inner strength of someone, who all his life had nothing, but each day struggled for survival… The sort of thing he has to go thru, the situations he manages to escape, getting beat and beating the people he despised the most, were his reality. When reasoning wasn’t enough, his fists would work on bringing people to an understanding… “Hi there kid… Wanna win some cash… It’s easy money, wanna come?” “Ya old fart get your stinking hands the hell away f’ram me, ya sick fuck… If ya want someone to suck your dick go to a fucking whore house. Damn bastard…” The pick up lines were always the same, he knew them by heart… It would be so easy to win a warm bed, and some cash to eat the day after… But he never gave in, no mater how hard it was… “What the fuck… Am i that fucking good-looking or something… Shit, bastard, mother fucker… gotta find another place to crash now…” After rejecting a guy’s advances he always had to find somewhere else to sleep… Even if it was the street, the places he could lay his head in peace were not many. He kept looking up to the sky… The emptiness of the large space, made him wonder many times if his heart wasn’t in a similar state… Cold and empty… Usually by now his eye lids would start to become heavy, and he would fall asleep… Today however, something deep in his mind wasn’t allowing him to have the usual peaceful break. He never felt sorry for himself. He tried the best he could, he would battle the hardest his body allowed him to, it just wasn’t easy. The young boy, had strong health but faint feelings… All was sadness and pain. He prayed for the joy to come, at least for a bit, each and every night. If not joy, at least the emptiness… Felling nothing was better than to feel too much. The tears were not from the pain of his bruised and damaged face, no, these tears recalled long ago pleads, pleads he never got an answer or seen fulfilled. This pain was an old one, the times he remembered his mother were always the worse. Remembering the woman who died protecting his life, and left him alone to face the harsh world of guilt and blame surrounding him. He never asked for it, never asked to be saved, however, he was, and is now, living the twisting, painful despair. How many times did his father blame him? How many times did he get hit for that same reason? How much guilt and cruelty can a child bear within his heart…? He heard a car stop… “Shit another fucking lunatic… This one I ain’t gonna forgive, I’m gonna kick his balls so damn hard he’s going to forget about getting laid in no time…” “Hey kid, do you have a light?” “What th’a fuck do ya want you sick freak…?” “Wow wow, calm down boy, I’m just asking for a fucking light.” “You fucks all say the same damn fucking thing…” “Wah… Ahahhah, ya think I’m a pervert, oh damn I didn’t laugh this hard in quite some time… Shit kid, ya really funny.” “Funny my ass you asshole… I’m outta here…” “Hey kid wait, wait… What are ya doing here at this time…? If ya hate those fucking perverts bastards this is not the place f’o ya kid.” “What the hell. Do ya wanna get your face smashed?” “Y’are a feisty one…eheheh… C’mere kid, I ain’t a pervert, just come…” “What th’a fuck do ya want…?” “Talk. Just sit there… Are ya hungry?” “Fuck do ya care?” “Well I don’t, just asking…” “I’m fucking starved, if y’a have some with ya give me… pretend I’m a homeless or something…” “Well, aren’t you fucking homeless…? If not what th’a hell ya doing in a place like this in the middle of the fucking night?” “Ain’t your fucking business…?”

The club manager, Kagami, saved a pretty guy, Ran, in a middle of a rainy night. Kagami couldn’t stop himself from devouring the beautiful Ran after taking him back. Ran accepted Kagami and also learned whatever Kagami taught him. But where does Ran come from and how is he related to Kagami? Author:SAKURAGAWA Sonoko Year:2007 Genre:Fantasy Yaoi Read Oresama Tengoku Online: Oresama Tengoku! EDIT: Link removed because the scanlation group doesn't allow their projects to be shared of any site

Title: Suki ni Naccha Ikenai Hito Author: CJ Michalski Plot: 1) The Person I Shouldn't Fall For When Asato meets his sister's fiance he gets a shock: It's the man he had a one-night stand with six months ago! 2) Dreamy Mountain Man Yoshino is sent to rthe Yamakaim Mountains to convince the Mountain Man to sell the mountain to his company. Yoshino runs into a mountain man. However, he has hurt his ankle and spends more time with him? Exactly who is this mountain man? Will Yoshino be able to complete his task of apprehending the mountain? 3) Mapless Island 4) Paradise For Two 5) Little * Boys Essay 6) The Person I Shouldn't Fall For ~ Afterward Asato's sister tells him that she is planning to move in with her boyfriend. She tells him that he should do the samething. Will Asato move in with Ariga? Groups Scanlating: Hochuuami Year: 2002 Read Suki ni Naccha Ikenai Hito Manga Online: Suki ni Naccha Ikenai Hito Download Suki ni Naccha Ikenai Hito Manga: http://www.4shared.com/file/FKymTuKk/CJ_Michalski_-_Suki_ni_Naccha_.html For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

very cool, feels like we r going up in the world lol ^_^ we r the best site ever anyway lol well be invinsible soon.... ^_^

Yay! So awesome! I love it! Thank you Key!!!

ahaha we hve so many similarities isnt we??? i guess during that time our mind will become so relaxed and so many ideas could come... well Misu is a pro in kisses...thatz why...lool but i also luv how shingyouji deosnt even try to escape..he is completely surrender under Misu's touch...ahaha i really think u did a great job in balancing the timeline...u r a great writer so itz really hard to get disappointed by u...^^ u really surprising but in the same time amusing...lol im was too happy when i read that PM maybe thatz why my heart is pumping hard...>.

Sad it's over But well it did turn out the way i wanted Hurray for Thomas Thank you so much for having written this and showing it to us sweetie. I know it was hard for you since it was, in some ways, a very close thing to you, but... We loved it! So thank you Big big kiss :**

Favourite part...by far...... *_* So very very good yojichan!!!! Makes it worth everyday the wait Can't wait to read more

Hey wolfiechan! Nice to meet you and welcome to this yaoi paradise! :hamtaro-005 (12):

Hi wolfiechan! Welcome to YaoiOtaku! onion3 I'm sure you'll have lots of fun here with all the yaoi fans in here!

I already post few at skillful hobby post... I do make a lot... This is bag I made out of old jean... This one keep the shape of jean much as I can... This is made for shopping bag... It's simple but big... ^^;;; And jewellery I made... I made last year used glass beads and chan... This was done during this summer... It's fake turquoise(Dyed Howlite stone) heart with rose color aluminum wire... The crystal is Swarovski elements and use silver on this... There are too many... I just can't put all the thing here... --;;;

Chapter 10 [FINALE] On this day, while WYJ was asleep, Justin still stayed with him. Looking at WYJ with guilt in his eyes, Justin gently stroke his hair. "What should I do for you to speak to me, for you to accept my help? I know, that during my period of amnesia, I did things that are unforgivable, but those were not from the bottom of my heart! Do you know how hard it is for me when I regain my memory and realized that I’ve lost you. Forgive me please…The truth is, you are really too important to me and I can’t bear losing you... "Justin clasped on to WYJ’s hand, forgetting the fact that WY sleeping. "If they are really that important to you, no matter what happens, you will not forget." WYJ was woken up by the clasped of Justin. "YJ! You... You are finally speaking!" Justin was ecstatic."You... You don’t have amnesia, do you?" "If they are people you really care about, they should be engraved in your heart and inerasable!" "YJ... You really didn’t have amnesia... I understand... I understand that I have hurt you deeply then, but..." "Although I remember you, I totally could not remember what happened back then. I don’t talk to you, I don’t accept your help, and it’s all based on my feelings. To me, you are just someone without a name in my memory. Someone whom I just don’t wish to talk to and do not want to accept your help, I don’t have a single clue of who you might be at all. "Just... Someone without a name in your memory? Didn’t you say it just now? If we really care about that something, it would not be so easily forgotten. So this shows how much YOU care about ME too." "… Maybe..." Justin. You owe me too much. The answer that I had expected you to say is not this… "YJ, are we really not appreciating each other enough? I should go; you have a good rest tonight." After he finishes his sentence, Justin went out of the ward, leaving WYJ alone in the room. === === === === === === === === === === === === === === It has been a few days since Justin visited WYJ. And this day, while WYJ was in his ward, the door opened slightly. Unconsciously, his heart accelerated, could it be… Justin? Until the owner of the footsteps comes into his sight, he realized, it was Valeria. "YJ! Uh... You... Do you recognize me?" "I didn’t lose my memory." "You didn’t! That’s great! What about Justin... Does he know it? He must be very delighted now! Have you guys patch up yet? But wait, where’s he? Not here?" "Valeria, we broke up." "What?!" === === === === === === === === === === === === === === What?! Broke up?! Since when did we break up!? Justin was furious after he heard what WYJ said! When did he ever agree to break up with him?! Angrily, he rode on him bike to the hospital immediately. But when he reached the hospital, he had once again missed WYJ. "What?! Discharged? How could you allow his discharged even though he has not fully recovered?!" "Oh? You didn’t know? He is able to walk now and does not require anymore therapy session." YJ could walk? That is really great… Wait a minute! So he is now... "Do you know where he went to?" "Uhm… I heard that he was going to the airport. It seems that the issue with the plane tickets has been settled." "Oh right, I heard that he was on his way to the airport when he met with the car accident, and later heard that he had spoken to the airline to reschedule the ticker… HEY! Mister,I haven’t finish my sentence yet! He is going to cancel his ticket today!" Even before the nurse could finish, Justin rushed out of the hospital and sped all the way to the airport. YJ! I will not let you go! Since you did not lose your memory, I will definitely get you back! === === === === === === === === === === === === === === In the airport, Justin looks just like clueless lost kid, running around the place, only to find WYJ’s figure. Finally, he caught a sight of him in front of the Maldives checking in counter. He hurriedly rushed forward, grabbed on his shoulder and force WYJ to face him. And with that, Justin draw WYJ close by arms and then, with the presence of all other passengers who are queueing for the check-in, he kissed WYJ passionately. "I will not let you go! Absolutely not letting you go, not letting you disappears from my life!" "Uh... Sorry Sir..." The lady at the airline counter interrupted them awkwardly. "Your flight has been cancelled, but we cannot return the principal amount to you and hope you will understand. And uh... If possible, could you allow the next passengers to come over for their check-ins? There is still a lot of people waiting to board the plane. "Ticket… Cancelled... ?" Justin is now completely confused with the situation. He’s not here to board the plane? He was here to cancel his tickets? WYJ did not do any explanation; he just grabbed on to Justin’s hands and ran out of the airport. Oh my god. That was embarrassing! So embarrassing!! When they were outside the airport, WYJ stood beside Justin’s bike and said, “I don’t have any money. Send me home.” "Uh... You're not... You are not planning to leave?" "Didn’t you just hear? I cancelled the ticket!" "What do you mean is..." "Didn’t you disallow me to go anywhere? What’s wrong? Now you want to chase me away? Sure! I’ll leave!" WYJ then turned to go back to the airport when Justin hugged him from his back... "So you are not leaving anymore right? You forgave me, right? You are willing to come back to me once again, right?" "Do you want to send me home or not?!" "Of course! Of course I do!" Said Justin as he happily supported WYJ onto his bike. "Hold on tight!" Unlike from before, instead of holding on to just Justin’s coat, WYJ now boldly grabbed his waist and hugged him tightly. "Don’t you dare forget me again! My heart cannot afford a second blow!" "Even if I die! I will certainly put you in mind even when I reincarnate!" "Oh yes, what did you wish for at the wishing fountain?" "What about you?" "Are you idiot? Why did you wish for that! You should make a wish like mine! Since we know that it would come true, you should have wished for something more practical!" "Yea right, so what did you wish for?" Just then, they have arrived at WYJ’s place. Justin hence got down the bike and took both their helmets off. "I said, I want WYJ to stay by my side forever..." Then, Justin slowly bends down and seals the lips of WYJ who is seated on the bike. "The fountain was activated, my wish came true, so now you too, would have to help me fulfill my wish!" They have their foreheads together, and smile brightly. ==================================================

Chapter 08 On this day, Justin accompanied Valeria to Sky Mall to select a gift. When they were at level one, he came across a shop which also sells ‘that’ watch. "Hi sir, would you like to take a look at this watch? You have a very good taste. This is a limited edition watch from the manufacturer. We only brought in two for our store and we just sold one last month. This is the only one left. " "Hey! Which one did you picked? Wow! Looks good! Very beautiful! How much is this?" "It’s USD$2999." "Wow! Justin! That’s too expensive! Do you want to see me to go bankrupt?!" This watch… It’s too expensive. "Excuse me, you mentioned that you have already sold one piece right? Could I ask if the buyer was a guy or a girl?" "Huh? Oh... It’s a guy. In fact, he’s just working upstairs." "Hmmm? Justin, why did you ask?" "Is that person working in [iT Place]?" "Oh, yes sir. So he turned out to be your friend, that’s coincidence!" "What?! Hold on, Justin. Are you saying that YJ bought one as well? This means…" No way! Who is he to me really?! Spending three thousand dollars just for a watch?! Why would anyone get me something like this?! After learning that YJ could be the one who bought the watch for him, Justin decided that he should take the initiative to look for him and have all his doubts cleared once and for all. === === === === === === === === === === === === === === WYJ had wanted to reject the invitation. Never did he think that Justin would invite him out again. Eventually, WYJ still agreed. When he reaches Cloud 9, Justin is already waiting for him. "Sorry, I’m late." "Nope, I reached earlier." "You... What did you need to talk about?" "Us… What is our relationship?" "Wh... What do you mean?" WYJ was taken aback and was unable to response to it. It was totally out of his expectation that such question was posted. "That watch, it’s very expensive. Why did you give it to me?" "Watch? What have you remembered?!" WYJ suddenly become very excited. He remembered? Did he?! "Nothing. I just happened to find out." "Oh... It’s nothing. It was a congratulation gift for your promotion." "But there isn’t a need to give a watch THAT expensive! You better make it clear! Our relationship can’t be so simple!" Justin seemed to have drunk a lot and appears to be a little tipsy. "Everyone is telling me how I should never forget you and everyone starts saying how good our relationship once were! Everyone just keeps on saying that I will definitely regret if I ever loses you! You… Who in the world… Who in the world are you?!" Then, Justin’s head fell to the table. "I'm sorry Justin, I can’t say... I can’t... If I say it, you wouldn’t be able to get the happiness that you deserve." WYJ nod to the bartender as he held Justin up, signaling he would be sending him home and left the bar. When they were out of the bar, WYJ then discovered that he didn’t know much about Justin – didn’t know where he lives. He wanted to look for his identification card but realize he doesn’t have them. He tried calling Valeria but she did not answer the phone. Ran out of choices, WYJ had no choice but to bring him to a hotel. In the hotel, WYJ thought that he could leave him alone. However, he can’t. Never once did he express how he felt towards Justin, not until today, that he finally understand how much he likes him. It was painful, when Justin forgets him. He wants to let go, but could not bear to do it. "Are you someone important in my life... Everyone says so… Are you... Important..." Justin mumbled the words as he slept… "Can I say it? I am someone important to you! I am the most important one to you!" Then, with tears in the eye, WYJ kissed Justin on the lips. That night, WYJ never took a step out of that room. === === === === === === === === === === === === === === "Argh..." The next day morning, Justin woke up because of the unbearable headache. He was shocked at the sight when he woke up. "You... We..." "You were drunk last night; I didn’t know where you stay, so I brought you here." "But why... Why are we..." "Sleeping together? I’m sorry. Last night, I think we were both drunk." "Bang!" Justin’s fist flew over the moment WYJ completes his sentence. "You scumbag! Are you trying to make use of this to threaten me?! What do you want exactly?! Let me tell you this, you can never ever get what you want! Even if the whole world knows that I slept with a guy, I will not let you achieve your objectives! Now get out! Get the hell out of my sight immediately!" WYJ didn’t say anything more, but quietly dressed, and then left the room. This is perhaps the perfect ending. I guess, it’s really over between us. I… It’s time for me to go… The next day, WYJ tendered his resignation to his boss. He did not give the boss a month's notice, so he is willing to have forfeiture of his salary for the month. Resignation has been accepted, and a flight to the Maldives has been booked. He intended to go back to his parents who were having some business there and also to have his life restarted. "Ring Ring----" "Hello?" "YJ! Were you looking for me yesterday?” Valeria called. “What happened, why are you looking for me at that hours?" "Let’s meet up. I have something to say to you." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === "What?! Why? Why are you leaving?!" "We’ve come to a conclusion… Justin and I… We spoke last night..." "…" "We both feel that we are not the right person for each other, so we broke up." "When are you leaving?" "That’s not important. Justin... I’ll pass him on to you now... I gotta go; there are still a lot of things that I need to handle." "YJ! Wait a minute!" WYJ stopped his pace upon hearing. "You... Will you be back?" "... I don’t think so. But if it is your wedding, maybe I’ll be here..." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === Recalling the incident two days ago, things still haunt Justin. He can’t remember a single thing despite something like THAT happened?! Who is that guy to me exactly?! What was our relationship?! "Knock knock---" Someone knocked on Justin’s door. "Come in." "Here’s your phone, Justin. It seems like it wasn’t badly damage so they just did some simple repair on it. All the information should still be intact. Access it to see if you could remember anything from before, but first, you’ll have to remember the passwords to you phone’s security lock." Phone? Switching on the phone, it really prompted for a personal password. And miraculously, Justin enters a bunch of numbers subconsciously. And the lock was dismissed. Justin was stunned when the phone was unlocked. The wallpaper of the phone is a photo of him and WYJ! Browsing through the phone’s folder for photographs, images, and videos, all he has was the memories of the two of them. And bit by bit, everything is coming back. The first encounter between them… The first conversation between the two of them… YJ visiting his work place for the first time … YJ got jealous because of Valeria… The watch YJ gave him… The confession he made in the bar to YJ… The clarification he made with Valeria to clear the misunderstanding of YJ… The movie that they watched together and slept… The wishing fountain… Their Neoprints… In the car crash, Justin realizes that the watch from WYJ was thrown out of the wrist, he struggled to get the watch back, and when he did, he went unconscious. God! What have I done?! I’m sorry YJ, I’m really regretting it! YJ, wait for me, you have to forgive me! Justin couldn’t bear for anymore delays. He held his phone in his hand tightly, ran out of his room, rushing over to YJ’s work place. To be Continued...

Ah I'll continue... This is just pure epicness from Bunraku and it's not really... well... meningful, but it's an epic scene. Eddie: Yoshi, Yoshi, Yoshi. You're good but you won't beat me with a stick. *Yoshi throws the stick through the window* Yoshi: I'm giving you. One. Last. Chance. *Eddie runs against Yoshi with sword held high* *Yoshi kicks him down* Another LOTR quote: Frodo: You're late. Gandalf: A wizard is never late, Frodo Baggins. Nor is he early. He arrives precisely when he means to.

the last few days were so cold, it was always raining. Thank god, now the weather is sunny! great day to go shopping!

itz cold and very nice...^^

I think Lotusflower wants to know what was the first yaoi book ppl bought and when ( meaning what age) ppl bought it... I guess So, here I go. I live in a small town, it's a very hard work to buy any yaoi here. Recently Amazon has started to deliver here in Spain so next month will be my first time buying any yaoi, which one? Seven days. Btw I'm 22....

Hi, Wolfie! Nice meeting you! Welcome and I'm sure you will love this place!

Sebastian/Ciel

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Name: 池玲文 [Ike Reibun] Birthday: Unknown Gender: F || Works || ≠ - Not Equal Ani no Hanashi Bi no Isu Bi no Kyouji [RAW] Choroize Jigoku Ginkaku Hakase to Marmot Hide and Seek Hinyari Rouka, Mangekyou Kanga na Spoon Kobi no Kyoujin Koiyami Archive Libre X Animate [anthology] No.99: Ningen Omocha Okutsukimura no Yukaisou Ore no Shita de Agake [antholoy] Tatsu no Otoshigo [RAW] Tsuki ni Ichido no Omeshi Agari Read online manga series by Ike Reibun

“Oi punk that’s where ya wrong, cause ya see, this is my territory and no fucking homeless shit get’s to cross it unless I say so, ya feeling me…” “What the fuck, are you freaking Yakuza or some shit like that…?” “Yeah… ya can say so…” “Gramps I don’t want trouble… I just wanna get some place to crash.” “Well if your fucking language didn’t change all of the sudden…” “Th’a hell, then don’t say your freaking yakuza gramps cause that shit scares anyone off… So are ya?” “Am what, punk?” “Yakuza?!” “Why th’a fuck you wanna know? Ya didn’t tell me what the hell is wrong with ya for sleeping in the middle on the fucking street, and ya asking shit to me?! Ain’t answering brat!” “Ain’t no brat…” “Oh really…” “Fucking really, yeah…” “You got spunk kid I give ya that…” “Ain’t no fucking kid either gramps…” “Toshiro, go to convenience store in the back an get this punk some shit for him to eat… He’s gonna starve.” “Sure Boss.” “So y’are the Boss hu… This is serious shit! Are ya gonna kill me…?” “Fuck! If I’m gonna waist any bullets on a piece of shit like ya, no way…” “Ain’t gonna say that I’m not relieved…” “Here Boss…” “Give it him not to me, asshole!” “Sorry Boss! Right away!” “Hey gramps… Thanks!” “Yer…what d’a ya know… You know how to say thanks…” “Why th’a fuck shouldn’t i?! Ya gave me food, I’m fucking happy… Unless is poisoned…” “Ahahaha, like I would spend any fucking time in wiping ya off… Eat kid!” The bread was great, and the juice, which he much rather he bought beer, was turning just fine every time he drank it. “So, ya better now?” “Sure am gramps…” “Ar’ya gonna stop calling me fucking gramps, I ain’t that fucking old…” “Oh really, how old ar’ya then?!” “I’m in my best years kid, you’ll know when ya get there…” “Stop stalling gramps, what’s y’ar age?” “I’m fucking 34, I ain’t old stop calling me gramps punk!” “Shit” Y’are old… Ahahaha.” “What the fuck, talking to a yakuza like that you punk…” “Sorry gramps, didn’t mean t’a hurt y’ar feelings…” “Shut up… Eheheh…” “And that’s my line… I gotta find a place to crash gramps. Thanks a lot f’o th’a food.” “Hey kid, ya gonna sleep in here, really?! Aren’t ya going home?” “I ain’t welcomed there, besides, I got my face beat the fucking enough for one night, don’t ya think?!” “Your old man did that?” “Well, sure wasn’t mom since she lives in fucking cemetery…” “Fuck… Sorry kid.” “No prob gramps, I’m used to this kind of shit any way so…” “Say kid… Wanna crash at my place tonight?!” “The fuck gramps, ya said you weren’t a fucking perv…” “I ain’t that shit punk, I got pussy and ass dropping on my fucking feet if I wanna, why tha fuck would I want a skinny, beat up prick like ya’rself? Get a grip, just wanna be nice to ya…” “Ya for real? Ain’t gonna have to pay and shit?!” “Pay with what punk?!… Y’ar feet is half way in to a fucking grave. Just fucking come, and be appreciated that someone is willing t’a help yo freaking ass!” “Ya gonna turn me in a yakuza or some…” “Kid, never in this life would’ya be a fucking yakuza… Y’are to fucking skinny. Ahahahha.” “The hell, I beat the crap of anyone who messes with me, I’m tough. I’m telling y’a I’m strong…” “Yeah, yeah… Just come punk… I’ll lay a futon f’o ya once we get there.” “Ok, but I’ll be sleeping with an eye fucking open all night…” “Ahahh, that’s the spirit kid… Never let them get’ya…Ahahahha.” As it was said before Shouji, had a difficult life… As up today, he’ll face the battle of his life. Being in love… He yearned for it, but does love truly bring happiness…?! And, as the life paths are crossing, new things will be brought to light, right from the darkness of Shouji’s heart. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Okei this is it for now... Hope you liked it

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But Shingyouji kept walking not bothering to stop or look behind him. Misu walked even faster to reach for his arm. Only then did he get Shingyouji to finally face him. The anger that was in his eyes have faded only to be replaced now by hurt. And to Misu, it made him feel much worse. This was not what he had intended. This was not how it was supposed to be like. All he wanted was to keep this man close to him at all costs. It's not like he wanted to keep their relationship a secret forever. But his possessiveness got the better of him and it was because of it that he struggled the most and he lost it. With just one punch that landed on Kentaro, he lost it all. As he saw a tear fall on Shingyouji's eye, he sighed and pulled the younger man close to his chest. His other arm tightly secured around Shingyouji's waist while the other cradled his head. His eyes squeezed shut. His nose buried between his shoulder and neck. He could smell the faint scent of cologne Shingyouji had on his shirt. “Arata-san...?” Shingyouji could not bring his arms to wrap around Misu in return. He was still too emotionally affected by what transpired at the apartment earlier. “Gods...I'm so sorry.” Misu's voice broken and muffled to Shingyouji's ears. Slowly Shingyouji's arms embraced Misu. “I'm so sorry for yelling at you. I shouldn't have...” Shingyouji muttered but was quickly interrupted by Misu. “No! You didn't do anything wrong. This was all mine. Don't blame yourself. I deserved this. It was bound to happen sooner or later.” Misu released Shingyouji so he could face him. “It really didn't occur to me that he liked me that way. I thought he was just being a nice guy.” “He really is a good friend. I can't believe I couldn't blame him for liking you that way. I just really lost it back there.” “Well, you still should have said something. But you looked so mad. I didn't understand why. I was so worried to reveal to him about our relationship so I tried my best to relax around him.” Misu sighed, “I wasn't mad at you. I was mad at him but mostly mad at myself because none of this would have happened if I just....had been more open about us at least to him. I remembered how happy you were when you told me about your boss being okay about something like this. I wasn't thinking. All I could see was Kentaro's arms around you.” Shingyouji looked at him soulfully, “Arata-san....I do understand your reasons for keeping our relationship discreet. I really do. But like Miyagi-san said, not everyone will judge us. I'm scared too but I'm more scared of losing you because you can't handle it anymore. I really love you.” Tears slowly began to fall on Misu's cheeks. He held Shingyouji's face close to his. “Shingyouji...” And sealed his lips with a deep kiss. The younger man tried to pull away. “Arata-san...people might see us..” “I don't care. I just wanna kiss you right here, right now.” Misu's voice replied huskily. And Misu dived in for another passionate kiss that was sucking the breath out of Shingyouji. He pinned the other man on the brick wall and began to tease Shingyouji's tongue. His hands were snaking underneath his shirt. All Shingyouji could do was put his arms around Misu's neck which only encouraged Misu to go further with his kissing. He could feel Misu sucking the curve of his neck and Shinggyouji felt his knees growing very weak by the second. His eyes were now half closed. His hands on Misu's shoulders getting tighter as he felt Misu's thumb reaching for his nipple while his other hand firm on his waist. It sent shivers all over Shingyouji's body. If this goes on any further, he's gonna take me senseless right here in the street. Oh god...oh god...They were both getting very aroused now. Misu reluctantly pulled away from Shingyouji's lips. Their foreheads still touching. Their breath hot and heavy. “Let's go home.” He whispered in Shingyouji's ear before kissing him again. They started to run. Misu's arm is firmly around Shingyouji's waist possissively. The other man leaning closely to him. His arm also wrapped around Misu's waist.

The three of them walked out together of the bar. Misu felt rather uneasy watching Kentaro easily put his arm around Shingyoujii's shoulder and talking so close to his ear. He could not do that with Shingyouji in public. The younger man still walked behind him most of the time. The same way he used to back in their days in Shidou. They have made an understanding that they were to keep their relationship as discreet as possible in the public eye. But watching Kentaro leaning closely to Shingyouji and turning on all the charms in full force like that was not the kind of thing he liked to see. He was seething. It only made it worse with Shingyouji still looking happy and smiling back at him as well. “I don't live very far from here. If you liked we could continue at my place. What do you think, Shingyouji-kun?” Kentaro leaned closer to his ear. “Eh...etto...” Shingyouji found himself unable to answer. He stole a quick glance at Misu's daggered look. Oh crap. Now what? If looks could kill, I'd be dead by now. Why the hell does he looks so mad? “He's not going.” Misu suddenly replied to the surprise of both Kentaro and Shingyouji. He couldn't take it anymore. Kentaro can be rather persistent and convincing. He hated the fact that Shingyouji hesitated to give a straight answer. Was the little idiot actually considering about spending the rest of the evening at Kentaro's place? Like hell, I'm gonna let that happen! “Ah...wait here, Shingyouji-kun. I'm gonna have a little chat with my catty friend here.” Kentaro smiled apologetically and quickly grabbed Misu away from hearing distance of Shingyouji. “What the hell are you trying to do here, man? He's not going? What are you? His freaking guardian? I'm trying to set a mood here and you're gonna ruin it for me? I thought you're with me on this? He could be the one for me, haven't you even thought of that?” Kentaro's voice was hushed but very annoyed. No one has ever embarassed him like this. Not anyone and certainly he did not expect it coming from Misu either. But Misu was not listening. All he could hear was buzzing in his ears. He had been trying to muster all his self-control not to beat up Kentaro this very second and drag Shingyouji back to their apartment. Doing that would risk everything he's worked to keep their relationship as private as possible. “I am only going to repeat this once. Shingyouji is not going.” Misu's tone was firm. His eyes were sharp and menacing which pierced Kentaro. And he took one look at Shingyouji's worried face and back to Misu's death glare and then it suddenly dawned to him. The daggered look Misu sported at the bar. His cold silence. The short replies. Misu disappearing from their table from time to time. Misu barely talking and not finishing his food. He did try to ignore all that because of Shingyouji's smiling presence. Oh shit. Kentaro slowly released his grip on Misu and walked up to Shingyouji. “Is Misu your boyfriend?” He scanned Shingyouji's downcast face. That fear in his eyes as he took a quick glance at Misu's face and then looks away. He knew. Kentaro was now torn between taking Shingyouji in his arms right away. To hell with what Misu thinks. This was all Misu's idea after all. ALL OF IT. Yet at the same time, he also knew by doing that would only make him look like a bastard towards Shingyouji. He was surprised how much he cared enough not to hurt him like that. Fuck. An uncomfortable silence remained for the three of them. The streets were quiet. Thankfully, there was no one around to witness this awkward situation they got themselves in. None of them moved from where they stood. Each one in deep thought. Misu was still fuming. Kentaro was pissed. Shingyouji looked scared. Kentaro sighed deeply and squeezed Shingyouji's shoulder. Fuck it. He didn't care what Misu has to say. To hell with him! And he took Shingyouji in his arms and held him close. “It's not your fault. I really like you.” He whispered harshly into his ears until he felt a strong pull from behind at his collar and a fist quickly landing onto his face. He tasted the blood in his lips. Misu's eyes read bloody murder. His fist tightly clenched to his side ready to land another punch at any second. A visibly shocked Shingyouji looking at an angry Misu and Kentaro kneeling on the ground. Kentaro slowly stood up and wiped the dripping blood from his lips. Shingyouji tried to help him up but he gently waved his hand away. He eyed Misu fiercely. “Your lies have finally caught up with you. Bastard.” And then Kentaro walked away from them.

“You look happy.” Misu looked at Kentaro as he sipped his espresso.. They were having a cup of coffee in their favorite cafe at the university grounds. He had been noticing his friend's seemingly odd behavior for the past few weeks. Though he still was very much himself but lately he had been declining offers of going out for dates on the weekends. He was legendary for never declining invitations whether it was an all-night karaoke, blind dates, bar hopping and the occasional one-night stands. “So do you.” Kentaro smirked and took another sip of his Tiramisu coffee blend. “What do you mean by that?” Misu frowned a bit. “Oh you're practically glowing. Had fun last night?” Kentaro winked at him. “Shut up. None of your business.” Misu resumed typing his notes on his laptop. Well, of course he did have some fun last night with Shingyouji but that was no one else's business other than his own and Shingyouji. “Alright..alright if you say so.” Kentaro LOVED to tease Misu. Anything to get those cheeks to blush would make his day. It was really obvious enough to him that Misu had someone special in his life. He just wished that he'd open up about it. With Misu it was hard to tell whether it was a man or a woman. He's been very open minded whenever he'd talk about his past relationships with both men and women as Kentaro prided himself for being bisexual. Yet Misu would never divulge a single iota of who he was involved with. It felt rather unfair but he respected that privacy. He had hoped that by teasing him would make him slip but so far that attempt has always proven in vain. But that did not stop him from teasing his friend. “Anyway...I met someone. I dunno, man. There was something about him that was just...I dunno how to describe it. He looks so incredibly cute. There's something about him that makes you wanna wrestle him to the floor or just hug him and keep him all to yourself.” Kentaro was gazing thoughtfully at the glass window. “Him? It's a guy this time, huh. Well...good for you. Maybe you found the right person to reign in that playboy life of yours.” Misu continued typing. He did sense a seriousness in Kentaro's voice. He was usually goofy in conversations especially when talking about past and present conquests but not this time. He sounded determined and hopeful. “Yeah, it's a guy. But I don't wanna scare him off or anything by just taking him out on a date all of a sudden. I can make it look casual though. We could hang out. I just...I dunno....I want to see him again. There was something about his smile that just got me. No one has ever smiled like that to me before, you know. I mean...sure he was just doing his job that time...but damn....that smile. I can't get it out of my head.” “Well, for all you know he doesn't have a problem with dating a guy. Get to know him more. The sooner you get together, the sooner you can get your answers. Who knows...things will work out from there.” “You know that's what I love about you, Misu. You are not fazed by any of this. I feel like I can really talk to you about anything. Yeah, you're right. I'm gonna take your advice. I intend to see him again later on my way home. Hmmm...maybe I'll take him to dinner tonight. What do you think?” “Good luck with that.” Misu shrugged and still continued typing his notes. Once Kentaro was on to somebody, there was no stopping him. He was a pro at what he did. He could get anyone's number at a first meeting and he's done it so many times. His success rate go all the way back in middle school and in the university, he had built a stable reputation for himself in the dating world. He glanced to catch Kentaro smiling as dialed his cell phone and excused himself to make his phone call. ---------------------- “Moshi..moshi..?” Shingyouji was having his lunch break. “Hey...it's me.” Kentaro couldn't help but smile at the sound of Shingyouji's voice. He was visualizing that smile in his head again. “Ah, Yoshi-san. Nice of you to call. Is there anything I can help you with?” “Oh no..no...not this time. I called 'cause I was wondering perhaps you would like to hang out with me tonight. I dunno...maybe have a few drinks and some dinner. My treat, of course.” “Eh? I'm surprised, Yoshi-san. I dunno what to say. Just the two of us?” Shingyouji sounded unsure than surprised which made Kentaro chuckle. “Just say yes. I just wanted to hang out with you since you're such a nice guy, that's all. We can meet at the Shiki Bar not far from where you work. I'll see you at 7:30, okay?” “Yeah...I know Shiki Bar. Uhm...sure we can meet there instead.” “Awesome. Alright, I can ask a friend of mine to join us if that's okay with you. It'll be fun.” Kentaro tapped the table to get Misu's attention. Misu looked at him and nodded in agreement. “Alright, that's better. Ja ne!” Shingyouji felt more at ease this time. It was better hanging out with more people than just one person. “Ja ne!” Kentaro pressed the End Call button. “I'm psyched, man. Thanks for coming with me. I owe you one.” Kentaro could not hide the excitement in his voice. “Sure. No problem. I'm also curious who this guy is anyway. You've been super secret squirrel with his identity for weeks.” Misu chuckled. “Hah! You think you're the only one who can keep secrets, hmmmm? I'm sure you're gonna approve of this one. I think he's amazing. I just know it. I'll be able to close this deal tonight. I'm sure of it.” Kentaro was congratulating himself already. His friendly approach towards Shingyouji was paying off. He's finally going to spend time with him that is not within the confines of Sakura Grocery. He made sure to do all his shopping needs at the store at least twice a week. Whether it was a two-week supply of grocery or simply a few snack items. He didn't keep a specific schedule when he dropped by. He tried to appear as casual as possible. He only made sure that in every visit he made, Shingyouji was on duty and he would always strike up a conversation with him. “Yeah..we'll see..” Misu smiled at Kentaro's determined look. An hour later, he felt his phone vibrate in his pocket. He checked to see it was from Shingyouji messaging him that he won't be home for dinner and was going to meet with a couple of friends after work. Misu responded it was fine since he was going out for some drinks with a friend as well.

Today marks the 25thanniversary of Kentaro's adoptive parents and to celebrate this momentous occasion, his mother texts him to buy a specific brand of candies that his parents enjoyed when they were children. He didn't think it would be much of a challenge since he was certain that any supermaket was carrying that brand. Wrong. He had been to three supermakets and none of them carried the item saying since it was no longer popular and offered other brands instead which he tried to negotiate with his mother who cried on the phone emphasizing how important those candies were. Why couldn't they just have a big strawberry shortcake instead? Heck! I'd buy it for them myself but no, it has to be those candies and not just any candy...it has to be THAT brand. Ugh! If I didn't love them so much, I wouldn't be spending my day off like this. I could call Hama-senpai and go to the beach or the movies or something. His mother suggested that he check out old stores in the vicinity. It was possible that they could still be carrying the brand she wanted. Kentaro looked at the sign that read Sakura Grocery and one look at the establishment, yeah this is an old store, alright. It has that distinct homey feel to it which was uncommon in the big supermakets where he usually shops. As soon as he walked in, he is greeted by an old store clerk who was busily arranging watermelons by the door. The store was rather impressive. He was expecting that it would make him feel like an old man in a store but it didn't feel that way at all. It did have a distinct vintage feel to it. It felt like going back in time. It had a nice balance of modern and a bit of retro. He began to walk around the aisles and started his search. They did carry curious brands of snack items that most supermakets no longer carried. He even saw the brand of the chocolate candy Misu gave him. That was tasty. He put a bag in his shopping basket. However, the brand of candies his mother wanted remained elusive. He had been carefully scanning the snack display but it was not there at all. This is nuts. Okaa-chan has to accept the reality that this brand does not exist anymore. As Kentaro moved to another aisle, he notices another store clerk seated on the stool and arranging boxes of curry mixes. “Anou....sumimasen...I was wondering if you could help me with something here.” The store clerk stopped arranging the boxes of curry mixes and stood up to face him. The young man smiled and the only word that came to Kentaro's mind was, wow. He couldn't help himself but naturally smile back at him. “Wow. Does everyone who work here looks like you?” Kentaro grinned. “Eh?” Shingyouji looked at him confused. “Ah..iyya! It was suggested to me that your store might carry this brand of candies. It's an old brand actually. I've tried the supermakets out there but they didn't have it. I was wondering perhaps you could help me here. The name is Amai Okashi. I would like two packages if you have it.” “Ah chotto matte ne...let me check our stockroom.” Kentaro watched him walk towards another aisle and making a left turn to a door. Wow. I can't believe someone who looks like that is working in an old timey store like this as a store clerk. He ought to be an actor or a product endorser or something. That smile alone can either make your heart leap or break it. Shingyouji returned after a few minutes and handed him two packages of the candy brand. “Here you go. We haven't put them on display yet because they were just delivered. We have customers requesting this brand so we made sure we have them available.” Kentaro watched him put the candy packages in his shopping basket. “Is there anything else you need me to help you with?” Shingyouji smiled. Kentaro smiled back and clearly fascinated. “I wish I can make up one more but this should be good for now. You really helped me. Thanks.” He couldn't help turning on the charm at a time like this especially being face to face with the most refreshing smile he's ever come across in his life. “No problem, sir. We're here to help.” Shingyouji bowed slightly and returned to his task of arranging the boxes of curry mixes. Kentaro thought there was no way he was just going to leave it at that. There was something about the young man that teased his curiosity and that need to get his attention a little bit more. I want you to remember me. “Anou...may I know your name since you've saved me here.” Kentaro grinned. “Shingyouji Kanemitsu desu. If I could be of any further assistance, just let me know.” “Shingyouji. I'll remember that. I think I might as well do the rest of my shopping here instead.” He winked. “Very good, sir.” Shingyouji nodded and then returned to his task of arranging boxes of curry mixes. Kentaro walked towards the end of the aisle and picked a large box of seaweed crackers and pretended to read the label while facing Shingyouji who was busy with his task and unaware of him. He chuckled at his own behavior. I'm acting like some giddy school age girl with a crush. But he found himself liking what he saw. It made him feel oddly happy. He was not expecting anything like this to happen to him today. What was supposed to be just a simple shopping errand turned into something so curiously fascinating for him. He was no stranger to instant attraction. That was his thing. Be it man or woman, if the person before him leaves a mesmerizing first impression, he'd be damned if he won't pursue that person. This Shingyouji person would be a triumph. He decided this won't be the first and the last time he's ever setting foot in this store. He smirked at the thought. Oh this is going to be good.

“I've seen that look before. I've been observing the way you look at him these past several weeks. Every time he walked into the door, your eyes light up. You follow him around and you've been very accommodating. I know..I know...we're supposed to give all our customers that warm friendly feeling but from what I'm seeing, you're giving this guy a little bit extra.” Shingyouji's head remained low. He looked like he was being reprimanded. There was no way he was getting out of this. It was futile to deny anything. He couldn't deny it but he couldn't bring himself to admit to anything either. He decided it was better to keep his mouth shut than risk sprouting words that he would regret later. Miyagi-san could feel the tenseness in the air between them and decided he needed to put the young man at ease. “I have a cousin. His name is Yuuji. We went to the same high school together. It was an all-boys school. I've been told back then that a lot of weird things can happen there. So far I have not experienced any of that in all my years there. But my cousin however did. He was not in the same situation as you are though. But I've seen that same look you had from the other boys towards Yuuji. Some of those kids confessed to him and he ignored them all. He did come out to me when we were in third year. I didn't care what his orientation was. He was family. It was no big deal. But it was still rather surprising to actually find out about it. I was the only relative he ever told about. As far as I knew, he never told his parents. He was an only child and we were close like brothers so he confided it to me. He left home after high school and settled in the city. We still kept in touch. But he has changed since then. He was always worried about it. It affected his life. His work. His relationships with people. He always assumed the worst possible thing that could happen. I told him perhaps he should just come out clean and be honest about himself. But he refused. All that time trying desperately to hide it from the very people who cared about him. That fear consumed him. It's like he built an invisible wall around him.” Miyagi-san sighed deeply and pushed his cup to the side. Shingyouji now raised his head to look at him. “What happened to him?” “He hanged himself. I got a call from the police asking me to identify the body as I was listed as person to contact in case of emergency. He was only 26. I'll never forget that day. It was a mess. I couldn't bear to look at his wailing mother. His father was very angry. But there was nothing he could do. I wished I had but he made me swear not to tell anyone. I was the only one he trusted with his secret. I thought I was doing the right thing by keeping it.” “I'm so sorry, Miyagi-san.” Shingyouji looked at his boss sadly. Miyagi-san looked at him and smiled ruefully. “It's been ten years since then. All I'm saying is that don't try to hide it from people who care about you. I'm sharing all this because you have to understand that not everybody will judge you. Don't always assume the worst possible thing that could happen. I loved my cousin. He was a good person. He was always the smart one but he was consumed by fear.” “Miyagi-san..thank you for telling me all this.” Shingyouji smiled. “You're a good kid. I don't want you ending up like my cousin did just because you like another guy. Perhaps you should do something about it.” Miyagi-san patted him on the shoulder. “Eh?” Shingyouji's eyes rounded in surprise. Okay, it was surprising enough that his boss confided to him about his cousin's life but suggesting that he do something about Misu was rather radical for his expectation. “Anyway, lunch will be over in 15 minutes. You better finish that sandwich of yours. I'm expecting a delivery truck to arrive soon. I want you and Yamada-kun carry the boxes to the stockroom and handle inventory.” Miyagi-san carried his cup to the sink and rinsed it then walked out of the pantry room. “Hai!” Shingyouji smiled happily. A wave of relief washed over him. He looked forward to the rest of the day. He felt energized and a boost of confidence in him. His worst fears were gone. He didn't have to look into the job ads or update his resume anymore. He can contine schooling without a hitch. He was excited to go home and share the good news to Misu. He shoved the rest of the teriyaki sandwich in his mouth. His cheeks puffed up making him look like a chubby bunny.

AUTHOR NOTES: As promised, here is a 3rd offering to my Pureness arc that is solely devoted to the romance of Misu Arata and Shingyouji Kanemitsu. This new story is quite longer than the previous ones. I hope you will see me through the end of this romantic journey filled with love, drama and surprises along the way. I lovingly dedicate this to June-chan whose enthusiastic support and our hardcore love for the pairing has brought us closer to each other. To Yuu-chan (yunakel) who has dedicated me with a fanvid which no one has ever done for me in all my life just because I've inspired her with my works. I love you both very much. And to all the Takumi-kun fans of this forum and beyond. We are one! Thank you so much for all your wonderful thoughts and reading my works. You inspire me so much. Before we begin allow me to share these images to set the mood. This is how I visualized how they would look like in the timeline of this story. LIES AND TRUTH The story so far: Misu and Shingyouji have made a pact to keep their relationship as discreet as possible but when someone gets in the way of it, how much longer can they keep up with their secret? “Thank you for shopping with us!” Miyagi-san smiled as he watched Shingyouji waved at the customer. He liked the young man. He was courteous, honest, a diligent worker and quite friendly. Ever since he hired him, he had shown lots of promise. He had been seriously considering about hiring him full time and give him a raise but he had yet to know whether his employee was up for that or had other plans after college. Sakura Grocery is a family-owned business that goes way back from his great-grandfather. He had practically grown up observing different kinds of people that has walked in and out of the store. Even as a young boy, he had always been the perceptive kind and he could pretty much tell which of the customers were just passing through from those who were really shopping. This behavior had been always been nurtured and encouraged by his family. A tall and lean young man walked into the store and Miyagi-san immediately observed that he was going to shop but was also here for something else. Whatever that was, he had been trying to find out for the past several weeks. This tall fellow only came by once a week yet every time he showed up, something a bit unusual would happen to Shingyouji. He noticed how the young man would be a bit more friendly than necessary. He followed him around as he could. A little bit too helpful. A little bit more smiley than his usual friendly demeanor. A little bit too accommodating towards the tall man. Interestingly the tall man didn't seem to give Shingyouji much of any overt interest other than a passing glance and exchanged a few polite words about a few stock items on display. He didn't look annoyed at Shingyouji but rather simply tolerated him. Miyagi-san could tell that that the man was of a well-to-do family. He had a quiet confident air around him that was usually typical amongst people who came from old rich families. But this man also seemed the type who did not want to draw attention to himself. He did look like he appreciated the good things in life with the way he carried himself. He could have been shopping in one of the more expensive big supermakets in the city yet here he was shopping in a humble family-owned grocery store. “Would that be all, sir?” Miyagi-san smiled courteously at the man before him as he scanned the items from the shopping basket. A box of toothpaste, a toothbrush, a loaf of bread, a jar of cream cheese spread, a razor, a six-pack of beer, two bags of potato chips, a can of shaving cream and a car magazine. Bachelor no doubt, Miyagi-san thought. The man nodded and handed him the cash for his purchase and quietly left the store. And almost on cue, the happy smile was still written clearly over Shingyouji's face. Running a family-owned grocery store has always been different compared to company-owned establishments. Miyagi-san's family were known to be good employers and have always treated their employees with respect and made them feel like family. Such traits were valued very highly by both customers and employees and their loyalty and patronage had kept the business thriving for many years. He always liked Shingyouji and did make him feel like he was family. He had learned enough from him including the divorce his family have gone through and had even been introduced to his grandmother once. A sweet little old lady but a strong woman nonetheless. “Shingyouji-kun!” “Hai?” “Have you had lunch yet?” Shingyouji looked at his watch then looked back at him and shook his head. “Go have lunch then...Nobu-san, could you mind the register here for a while?” Nobu-san, one of their senior employees nodded and took over register while he and Shingyouji walked towards the pantry room. “Shingyouji-kun...?” “Miyagi-san...?” “I've been noticing something about you these past few weeks.” Miyagi-san was stirring at his cup of tea as he looked at him. “Eh?” Shingyouji looked at him and smiled just as he was about to take another bite off his teriyaki sandwich. “You've been rather a little too friendly with that tall fellow. I have never seen him before but he's been coming here every week for the past several weeks now.” Miyagi-san took a sip of his tea but his eyes still observing Shingyouji's face. Shingyouji was now torn between biting into the sandwich or putting it down and pretend he has a stomach ache. What the hell? Was I THAT obvious? Damn it. He was cursing himself inwardly. What to do? What to do? “Anou...didn't you say that here at Sakura Grocery we give our customers service with a smile? I was just trying to do my job.” Oh crap...oh crap...Shingyouji swallowed. He was trying to keep his smile but his eyes were visibly worried. “Oh so you're telling me now...how I should run my business? Is that what you're implying Shingyouji-kun?” Miyagi-san raised an eyebrow at him. “Ah?! No! Not at all. That's not what I was implying!” “Relax.” Miyagi-san smiled, amused at Shinggyouji's face. Shinggyouji reminded him of a deer caught in headlights. He looked very animated with him waving with his hand to his face like that. Shinggyouji looked at his half-eaten sandwich. A part of him felt a sense of relief but still a large part of him remained worried about the conversation they were having. What did Miyagi-san notice about him? Was he so obvious? It's not like he could help it whenever Misu visited the store. He couldn't help but feel very happy when he was there. He looked forward to every week when he would drop by. It was very special for him. It meant a lot. “I've seen how you look at that fellow. The way you behave whenever he showed up at this store. Of course, you're friendly to our customers but you seem to give this particular guy special attention.” “I'm not sure what you mean, Miyagi-san.” Kami-sama...I am so dead. “You like that guy, don't you?” Miyagi-san didn't pull any punches. He was known for being frank with people. “Eh?” Shingyouji looked at him shocked. His face growing pale. His heartbeat ringing loud in his ears. How was he going to explain this? Will he deny that he didn't like Misu. That would be a big lie. Of course, he liked him. Gods, he is in love with him! They live together for crying out loud! But of course he couldn't cry out loud with such a confession. Not to just anyone and certainly not to his own boss. He felt himself go weak. He thought he was being careful. He hated the fact that he can be so easy to read. What would happen to Misu if he found out? He would get mad at him for sure. He didn't want an argument with him. He hated quarrels. Miyagi-san could see the conflict in the young man's eyes. He was just staring at his half-eaten sandwich on the plate. He barely even touched his water bottle. He remained quiet like he was waiting for a verdict to arrive. Ah..so that's what it is then. “What do you think am I going to do with you?” “Fire me.” Shingyouji replied defeatedly, his eyes fixated on his plate. His mind was racing as to what to do next. He had to look for another job and where was he going to get another job that was as flexible as this one? Where he could balance his studies and work? He liked working at Sakura Grocery. He didn't have to juggle two to three part-time jobs. Miyagi-san paid his employees quite well enough already. He has made good friends with the people he worked with. Even the customers liked him. What would Arata-san have to say to all this? He had been warned to be careful about revealing their relationship so as not to invite unnecessary troubles between them and what happens? His own boss reads him like a book. Shingyouji wished the ground would just swallow him right now. Miyagi-san smiled and took another sip of his tea. The fact that Shingyouji's reply assuming the worst simply meant he wasn't denying that he did like the tall fellow who came by the store. “You kids these days are so jumpy. You panic way too easily. Why would I want to lose one of my best workers and risk hiring a moron? That's not good for business. Don't you agree?” Shingyouji only nodded in reply. He still wasn't sure where this conversation was going. It did feel like he could relax now but he still felt like he was not in the clear. Was he going to walk on egg shells from now on?

AUTHOR NOTES: As promised, here is another continuation of the Pureness arc. My fanfic lovingly and solely devoted to the romance of Misu Arata and Shingyouji Kanemitsu. This is dedicated to my dear friend June (last_sky16) whose uber enthusiastic love for the pairing has further inspired me to write this fic. And to each and every Takumi-kun fan in this forum and those who have read my previous works, my heart is filled with immense joy of your support and love. Thank you so much for staying with me. I have cried a lot writing this story and it was quite challenging. This has been an emotional ride for me as well. I hope you enjoy reading and leave me your comments and questions, I would greatly appreciate them. To set the mood, allow me to share these wonderful images To Be Near You The story so far: This story takes us back to Misu and Shingyouji in Shidou. A life-changing event is about to take place that will put our heroes in a situation they have never encountered before. Math hasn't always been Shingyouji's favorite subject. If things were up to him, he would have preferred kendo more than anything. If Math was in a dojo with him, he would have easily smacked its sorry ass to kingdom come and that would be the end of it. But then he remembered how Arata-san would pour his time at the executive room doing all those innumerable calculations. If I could only be as dedicated as Arata-san then perhaps even this way I can reach his level and be closer to him somehow. Shingyouji smiled at the thought and adjusted himself on his seat and straightened his back to help him focus more towards the teacher. Class was momentarily interrupted when the PA system announced: SHINGYOUJI KANEMITSU, YOU HAVE A PHONE CALL. As he walked towards the hallway, he couldn't help but wonder who would call him in class at this very hour. Maybe Arata-san wanted to check up on me. He almost laughed out loud at the very thought of the senior student wanting to call him. Misu along with the rest Student Council members along with Saki Giichi and Akaike Shozo were on their way back to Shidou from a three-day academic retreat. “Shingyouji desu. Moshi moshi?” He chirped. “Shingyouji-chan...?” Came the filtered reply. “Aaah! Obaa-chan! (grandma) How nice of you to call. I wasn't expecting this at all. How are you doing? Everything all right with you I hope. I miss you, you know.” Shingyouji clearly adored his grandmother. She was the kindest and most loving person in his family. He was always especially close to her since he was a young kid. She was always very proud of her beloved grandson. “Shingyouji-chan...I'm so sorry to call you at such a time. Now I need you to listen to me very carefully, okay?” “Hai.” A long pause. A sniffle. “Obaa-chan...what's going on? Are you alright?” Now Shingyouji was worried. It was surprising enough that of all people who would call him in school was his grandmother and the long pause and the sniffle only aggravated his worry. “Shingyouji-chan...” His grandmother sounded like she had been crying for days. Her voice was a bit hoarse. “Your mother and father....I'm so sorry, my love.” “Eh? What happened to my parents?” Shingyouji's eyes rounded. Panic was setting in but he fought to remain as calm as possible and braced himself for her reply. “The divorce has been finalized. You have to come home as soon as possible.” Her voice broke. Shingyouji felt like the entire room was spinning. His lips began to quiver. He could barely focus his eyes. But his hands held onto the phone very tightly. “Shingyouji-chan...are you still there?” It took several seconds before Shingyouji was snapped back into reality. “I'm still here. Alright...I'll pack my bags and take the bus.” He replied slowly. “I need you to stay calm, my darling. Now which of your teacher should I talk to regarding this matter?” “Anou...I think I'll be the one to talk to them.” “No. I will handle the talking. You just go and pack your things. I am not sure for how long you will need to be away from school. For all we know it could only be a few days or perhaps a little more...what's important is that you come home as soon as you can.” “I understand.” “Shingyouji-chan...I am so sorry to have been the bearer of this news. No matter what happens, your obaa-chan loves you. Be safe on your way home. Now tell me which of your teachers should I be talking to?” _ _ _ _ _ _ Misu Arata felt a sense of relief as the mini van they were riding entered the gates of Shidou Academy. Their debate team won but it did wore them out. Saki has been massaging his forehead all throughout the trip. Shozo was nodding off to sleep. The other members of the team in the van looked restless and fatigued. They couldn't wait to jump out of the van and get into the dorms. The image of a certain sophomore greeting him with a wide toothy bunny smile suddenly popped in his mind. He can imagine him pestering him endlessly with questions and probably even ask for a present. What an idiot. Misu's eyes softened and a small smile escaped his lips. But what he really craved now was to lay on his bed and try to get much needed rest. He can always talk to Shingyouji tomorrow and give him his present. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ “Misu? I could stay around with you if you like.” A hopeful Ooji asked him. There were only the two of them and much to his relief the noisy Shingyouji has not been making his habitual visits to the Excecutive Room for a week since they arrived from the trip. Misu frowned at the paperwork in his hands. For the life of him he was struggling to concentrate at the task at hand. He had made several mistakes with the calculations of the expenses during the three-day trip. The added frustration of not hearing a single word from Shingyouji was getting the better of him and it annoyed him even more. All he was ever told by Matsumoto-sensei that Shingyouji received a sudden call from home and had to leave within the day. He pressed for further details but that was just about the only information he was given. Apprently, some of the students who caught a glimpse of Shingyouji reported that he looked very shaken and distraught. But he barely spoke a word to anyone and some have seen him carrying a large backpack as he left the school that night. “Misu?” Ooji looked at him with concern. “What is it?” Misu snapped realizing he wasn't alone in his thoughts. Every time the door opened, he found himself frowning more to look up and see who it was. But Shingyouji never came. He didn't expect that he would actually look forward to the enthusiastic greeting of the younger boy. “I can stay with you if you like. As long as you need me to.” Ooji replied gently. Misu gave him a quick glance and returned to his paperwork. “No. I'm fine. You can go now. I'll handle the rest of this paperwork.” “But...” Ooji began to protest. Misu looked straight at him and handed him three folders. “These will need to go to Shimada-sensei. I'll be leaving soon anyway. There's no need for you to stick around with me.” Ooji looked dejectedly at the folders in his hand but he had no choice but to follow Misu's instructions and quietly left the Executive Room. It always seemed to be this way. Misu looked fatigued and he had been rather in a foul mood and sometimes distracted. But he was willing to overlook that. He tried to stay attached to Misu as much as possible during the academic retreat but he felt like he was trying too hard. Misu only talked to him on a need to know basis. He fervently hoped it was his chance to get to know Misu a whole lot more but the three-day event ended and still Misu treated him nothing more than just a classmate. It must be that damn Shingyouji again. Damn noisy brat. He was seething. What did that guy know? Always so clingy to Misu. Always following him around. Not giving him peace. Always so annoying. Doesn't he realize that Misu does not like him around? That he's only tolerating his presence. Whenever he shows up, I get to be kicked out of the room. And that brat isn't here, why am I still being kicked out of the room? I hate this! Misu popped a headache pill and an iron tablet and downed it with the cold water bottle. He irritatedly moved the rest of the paperwork aside and rested his face on the cold oak table. Damn it! IT'S BEEN A WEEK ALREADY! And I haven't heard anything from that idiot. Not even a damn call. Nothing. Misu wondered whose neck was he going to break so they would tell him exactly what happened to Shingyouji who decided to take off just like that. But the memory of that day was creeping into his brain again. I could have done something that time. He sighed deeply. He hadn't been able to get any proper rest that fateful evening reflecting on Shingyouji's face. He skipped breakfast the very next morning and dropped by Shingyouji's room only to be greeted by his bleary-eyed roommate Nowaki who was absolutely clueless as to where Shingyouji was. Looking at Shingyouji's empty bed and empty side table, Misu felt a sickening feeling rising up in his chest. Shingyouji was really gone and he didn't even say goodbye. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

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