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Hello everyone! I know that some of you have been patiently anticipating another chapter in Pureness. It has been awhile since I posted my third story 'Lies and Truth'. I would also like to thank everyone who has made Pureness reach up to almost 5000 views making it the MOST visited thread in the Library of Romance. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. You all inspire me. I am eternally grateful. I now bring you to the 4th story of the Pureness series that focuses deeply on the romance between Misu and Shingyouji. This is going to be short and sweet and yes, I'm going to veer away from the heavy drama for the mean time. I hope you enjoy. Thank you. I'm still working on another Pureness fic after this. IGNITION The story so far: How Shingyouji finally discovered Misu's first name. But before we begin with the story, let's reflect on this image and you'll see why I chose this image to visualize this story. “Hey Shingyouji-kun...great moves! We really should spar next time, okay?” the senior student Masato waved at the freshman who was hurriedly leaving the dojo. Shingyouji could only manage a slight bow and ran off towards the school building. Ah damn it...I hope I make it in time when he leaves the classroom. Please, please, please still be there. Shingyouji didn't even want to look at his watch anymore. Even while he was in the dojo, though he was physically present, his mind wandered off to his ultimate goal for the day. Tsk..not just for the day but has always been since he began his first day in Shidou. Yes, finally he made it! But it had been a week of failed attempts at trying to get to the one man he most desperately wanted to meet again. The one man that he believed will change his life in more ways than one. Misu was not an easy man to reach as he had imagined. He wiped off the sweat from his brow and his neck with his blue face towel and gasped for air. He looked at his watch. He leaned back heavily on the wall and breathed in deep for air. Yosh...just in time. Misu's class was going to be over in five minutes. He had memorized what he planned to say when he meets him again. The anticipation was eating at him but no way he was going to mess it up. He was determined to meet him today no matter what happens. The grandfather clock marked the end of the class which was in sync with Shingyouji's watch. He could hear his heart beat loudly and it hurt his head a bit. His eyes were like a hawk as he scanned the face of each student that walked out of the door until finally....there he was. He paced himself as he made a bee line from the students who were walking across the hall and walked towards Misu who was having a conversation with the professor. He saw the professor leave Misu alone shortly afterwards. Now..this is my chance. As soon as he came upon Misu face to face, he suddenly felt all the words that he had worked on these past few weeks drifting away from his mind. The way Misu gazed at him was enough to freeze fire, Shingyouji thought. “Ah, Shingyouji Kanemitsu, right?” Misu smirked. “Yes.” Crap say something more, you idiot! Shingyouji yelled at himself for being so dumbstruck in front of Misu. “So what brings you here?” Misu examined the boy standing in front of him. It was obvious that he was nervous. But the eyes that stared back at him had a determination that was undeniable. Those same eyes that struck him when they were at the cafeteria. Shingyouji inhaled deeply and composed himself. “I came to see you about that promise you made.” “What promise?” Misu frowned. Wow...he's determined indeed. “You said that if I made it here to Shidou that you would tell me your first name.” Oh God...oh god...Shingyouji could hear his heart beating loudly. “Are you telling me, you came all the way here just to ask me that? You could have asked it from someone else and that be the end of it.” Misu shrugged. But he felt a bit intrigued upon seeing the frown on the boy's face. “I know I could have but I don't want to know it from someone else or anyone else here. I want to know your first name from you.” Shingyouji was not breaking his gaze at the taller man who stood before him. Was that a smile in his eyes I see? Shingyouji wondered if his eyes were playing tricks on him. Or was the man going to play a trick on him again like last time threatening that he would expose him for cheating at the entrance exam even though he did not cheat. He would have but he couldn't. What was Misu thinking right now? Misu sighed. “Fine. Follow me.” They walked together across the hallway and climbed the stairs. Shingyouji walking closely behind him. He could not help himself but admire how Misu's back looked and his broad shoulders. How he walked with a quiet confident air around him. Like he had it all figured out. He wished he could walk like that. He remembered his grandmother telling him one too many times, he sometimes walked like a scruffy little kid. Maybe he should try walking like Misu one of these days. It could do wonders for his posture. He smiled at the thought of that. Misu dug into his pocket and took out a key then opened the door. Shingyouji read “Executive Room” at the door and wondered what in the world was in store for him inside but before he could make a coherent thought process, he felt Misu's hand around his wrist and pulled him inside. The door shutting behind them. All he could feel right now was being pinned on the wall and seeing Misu's smug face so close to his. He felt his heart pounding loudly in his head again. Misu's firm grip on his wrist remained. “So you came all the way here for a promise you think I made that time. Did it even occur to you that I was just messing with you so you could leave me alone?” Misu's voice was dripping heavily with sarcasm. “No. I always believed that you were the type of person who never backed out on his word.” Shingyouji's lips began to quiver yet it wasn't fear of Misu that was gripping him at this moment. It was anticipation and the fact seeing the man so close to his. “Very well. But then you should know I'm also the type of person who won't do anything for anyone unless something really good was going to come out of it.” The tips of their noses were now touching. Misu could see Shingyouji's eyes were glazing. He could barely keep his eyes open anymore. He could feel his wrist weakening from his firm grip. And then it happened. Misu's lips descended upon Shingyouji's lips in one swift move. There was something about the freshman that ignited Misu's possessive streak to unexpectedly surface. He originally only intended to pull a little prank on him but what made him want to take this boy under his control was wreaking havoc in his mind. His tongue demanding swift entrance and Shingyouji granting him full access. The kiss was hard, demanding, and deep. It bothered Misu a bit that Shingyouji seemed a bit too eager and enthusiastic with the kiss. Damn it, this is not his first kiss. And with that infuriating thought, the kiss only became even more impatient and rough. He could feel Shingyouji clutching tightly onto his arm with no hint of a struggle. His defenses have weakened a long time ago. Misu's hand deeply pressed onto Shingyouji's cheek, his ear, his neck. He could feel the soft hair in between his fingers. He could hear the soft moan coming out of him. It drove Misu mad with lust. Right there he decided he was not going to allow anyone come this close to his pet or they would suffer the consequences of his wrath. “You still want to know my name?” Misu nipped at his ear making Shingyouji's knees buckle. “Yes,..please..” Shingyouji could only gasp in response. He felt a bit impatient with the momentary pause from their kiss. He felt like he could drown in the kiss alone. He didn't want to stop. He wanted to keep going. What in the world possessed him to cling onto him so much and so readily at that? A deep sense of wanting to be possessed by Misu was overwhelming him beyond belief. He has never ever felt this way before. Never been kissed this way before. Whatever admiration he must have felt from the moment their eyes met the very first time was now engulfed with emotions much deeper than that. Misu's hand began to snake down Shingyoji's nape making the other boy arch his neck granting him even more access. He could feel butterfly kisses run down his neck and towards his collarbone. His fingers quickly unfastening the top button of his white shirt thus exposing his skin to Misu's mercy. Their breathing were fast and furious. Each one anticipating the other one's move during the entire seductive process. “Oh god..” Shingyouji gasped as he felt Misu suck in deeply into his shoulder. He felt his body shaking from the mesmerizing sensation. He bit his lower lip as he squeezed his eyes shut only to open them again as once again he found himself gazing deeply into Misu's eyes. And there it was Misu's lips began to form the word that he had been dying to know all this time. The one word that has been one of the causes of his sleepless nights. “Arata.” Misu whispered huskily into his ear. To Shingyouji it sounded like an endearment. A secret only the two of them could ever know. Misu gently lifted his chin and outlined Shingyouji's lower lip with his thumb neither of them breaking their gaze upon each other. “Arata-san...” Shingyouji smiled.

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I'm glad you like it Belita and Destiny.Fate Yeah, pretty much 2 days of customization

Key's working hard for us Thank you, i loved it

Your eyes have pierced my very soul Your lips have made me yours. You touch has made me lose control It’s reached into my core Your voice has made me fall again Into a world unknown I know I’m always near you then Yet I still feel alone Your kiss I feel it on my skin Its better than a dream Could this be yet another sin Or more than what it seems. Your hands have found my very heart To reach it has been tough But as I feel the caressing start I cannot get enough. You’re song has reached into my ears The harmony so sweet I wash away my doubts and fears We were destined to meet

It was ssssooooooooooooo good! I almost died??? Hehhe...

OH MY GOOOOOOOODDDDDD!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D Husband is watching me screaming like crazy and probably thinking something really really good might have happend.... And it did......!!!! You guys did.... Oh god, sometimes life sucks so bad you just wanna curse and be angry with everything and everyone... However these little things make it so god damn worth every piece of bad time i might be having..... Guys you managed to put the biggest, happiest smile out there in a very very sour face these days, and all i have to say to you guys is my biggest thank you... Thank you thank you thank you... I loved my birthday present, late or not... it's not even the point Thank you so so so so much for this... Really thank you! I loved it.... From start to finish....loved ALL of it.... (by the way, i'm stealling it, and keeping it among my beloved things) MAN....so HAPPY!!! You guys just...ROCK!!!!! There isn't a name in this world to mesure the HUG and the KISS i'm sending you.... :leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3:

Here are my dedications First of all, for Key and the YO stuff, thank you for creating this great site and maintainig this peaceful community : For Phicheripunky, my best friend here For JYJ+TVXQ=Awesome my friend who like TVXQ like me and shared with me lots of cool backgrounds. For FibiXu, thank you for the card. For Phong Y, one of my first friends here!

Title: Omerta ~Chinmoku no Okite~; オメルタ Omerta ～沈黙の掟～ Release Date: 22 April 2011 Omerta ~Chinmoku no Okite~ オメルタ～沈黙の掟～ is the latest Boys Love game by Karin Entertainment. Plot: Omerta is defined as a code of silence practiced by the Mafia; a refusal to give evidence to the police about criminal activities. Set in future Japan. Film-noir theme. Modern Tokyo is now a dystopian immigrant city ruled by crime syndicates. Stirring passions between hot-blooded men entangled in hatred, love, betrayal and loyalty. They classified it under: Love and Revenge Hard BL Game (PILP) System Requirements: OS： Windows2000/XP/Vista/7 CPU： PentiumIII 600Mhz minimum （PentiumIII 1Ghz recommended） RAM： 256MB min （512MB recommended） HDD： 3．0GB min （4.5GB recommended） DirectX： DirectX 9.0 Download Links:Part 1 contains a .rar file with the patch on it. Join with HJSplit or 7zip Download Omerta ~Chinmoku no Okite~: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 After installing, copy paste the alsignup patch to the game install directory and just click the .exe icon. Note: Extract the files with winrar. Mount the iso with DaemonTools and install the game. Extract the patch (alsignup_100723b.exe) in the folder with the omerta.exe. Then double click on alsignup_100723b.exe *For a picture guide on how to install it, check this post (by ayachan94) *For Omerta's walkthrough (made by sarah3161) click here For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Name: 鈴木ツタ [Suzuki Tsuta] Birthday: Dec 3 Gender: F || Works || Akanai Tobira Gin to Kin dj - Look! Hand Which Honto no Uso Kaiji dj - Can't Take My Eyes Off You Kimi to Date Merry Checker Otona no Manaa Sangen Tonari no Tooi Hito Summer Switch Taikutsu wa Warawanai Tsujimura-san is a Secret Wild and Strawberry Work In

Original name: Himitsu nanda kedo Manga ALT. names: 秘密なんだけど Original run: 2009 Description: - Manga-type: Manga Written by: TAKAOKA Motonari Drawn by: TAKAOKA Motonari Published by: Houbunsha Group(s) Scanlating: Takai Tenshi Scanlations Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: No Genres: Yaoi Categories: Megane Main Characters: - Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Harry Potter dj - Sweet Berry Kiss, Lucky Star (KOOHARA Shiomi) Download Himitsu nanda kedo Manga: •°New link°• MediaFire (thanks to maripuchi) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Download Links: Ze Fanbook - Ch 1 Ze Fanbook - Ch 2 Ze Fanbook - Ch 8 Password for all files: yaoiotaku For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Kono Koi wa Himitsu Author: Ajimine Sakufu Warning: A yaoi master-slave relationship manga Plot: After a fallout with his father, Alvin takes time off to visit India and indulge in his love of exotic places. When he meets Razil, it's love at first sight and the two of them return to England as lovers. But Razil has a dangerous past in India that Alvin knows nothing about. Side Story: Oscar has loved Eugene ever since he was a child, but Eugene only has eyes for Robert, Oscar's elder brother. Can Oscar ever get Eugene to forget about Robert? Groups Scanlating : Dangerous Pleasure Genre : Comedy Drama Historical Romance Yaoi Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Download Kono Koi wa Himitsu Manga https://www.sendspace.com/file/4l9am9 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Mumyoutou _Duo Brand_ Original name: 月刺 Manga ALT. names: Mumyoutou, Unsigned Blade Original run: 2007 Description: Saku, an assassin, believes his life is meant to be lived by the sword. After a night of brutal killing however, he is left wounded and helpless in the hands of Shakou, a mysterious doctor, and the only witness to his crimes. Fate seems to have ordained this encounter as secrets are broken and emotions run wild... Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: Duo Brand Drawn by: Duo Brand Published by: Movic Group(s) Scanlating: Forever More Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama, Historical, Yaoi Categories: Yakuza; Angst; Rape; Doctors; Love at First Sight Main Characters: Saku, Shakou Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Kono Yoru no Subete, Hard Triangle, Last Client, Yellow Read Mumyoutou Online: Mumyoutou Download Mumyoutou Manga: Megaupload // Mediafire For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Matsu Takeshi is a gay mangaka who wites yaoi for other gay men. So the style is a bit (okay a lot) different to the usual yaoi manga. Think muscle men and no plot to think of. I'll post this first, and if anyone likes it, I'll post all of his translated work. Sooo.... (4shared link) Between Delusions and Reality Hard Yaoi.

Title: It Seems to Rain Country: Taiwan Plot: Kuan, a teenage high school boy is struggling to find his identity as homosexual. His girlfriend seems to understand something's wrong and tries to help him... Download It Seems To Rain Movie: Part 1: 4Shared Part 2: 4Shared Part 3: 4Shared Part 4: 4Shared *Download all parts and join them with HJSplit* For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Name: 藤崎こう [Fujisaki Kou] Birthday: May 17 Gender: F || Works || Happy Yarou Wedding Utsukushiki Kemonotachi Virgin Love Toriko ni Natta...Kemono Junai no Seinen Kemono wa Ai de, Iyasareru Playboy Amour Romance no Kaori Oboreru Kemono no Koibito Men's Love Aikata Aishi no Sweet Voice Sexy Cool Voice Dakenai Jikan Junai ni Torawarete King & Prince King & Prince + Kaiser Newaza Ippon Konna Hazu Ja Nakatta no ni

Summary:I never thought of writing anything again, but since i was sick in bed for more days than i thought i could manage, this came out somewhat, naturally... I have to say this, because i wish to be the most honest possible in this kind of situation. The story will be about yakuza, and has a lot(really really really a lot) of faul language and violence. It is not a sweet story. Don't expect(please) the same as Spell... or anything alike. I just wish you like reading it... Well, if you end up really reading it... Well enjoy Status: Dropped[/color] Warning: This fiction is rated +18! It contains strong language and explicit sex scenes. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- How would you describe your life….?! Good? Not bad? Great…? Awesome…? For Shouji, his life is probably, your worse view of life, your worse nightmare… Even so he goes on living, one day after the other like the river that no matter the obstacles, still flows into the sea… His story is like so many other stories of struggle, pain, loss and love… Love… He never really knew how he yearned for it… Does love truly change anything…? Isn’t love just an illusion, a shadow, smoke that floats between your fingers never getting thick enough for you to grab a hold of it? Shouji had a miserable life, indeed… He could however, and against all odds, find the smallest amount of happiness, in what people nowadays, despised, or better, didn’t pay attention to anymore… A 19 year old guy that works for his food, get’s beaten up, as soon as he get’s home… Money snatched away, days starving, sleeping in the streets, bleeding, always bleeding, inside and out… This is one of those daily times when, as soon as he steps inside his broken down home, his somewhat father beats the hell out of him, asking for all the money he battled for during a hard passing day… Money that, every time he try’s to say he doesn’t have, he get’s smashed against the floors and walls, until he gives up… “Shit, that mother fucker got m’a face again…Fuck!” These were his days and his nights… Telling his story doesn’t mean that you have a lesson to learn or that this is meant to show you the inner strength of someone, who all his life had nothing, but each day struggled for survival… The sort of thing he has to go thru, the situations he manages to escape, getting beat and beating the people he despised the most, were his reality. When reasoning wasn’t enough, his fists would work on bringing people to an understanding… “Hi there kid… Wanna win some cash… It’s easy money, wanna come?” “Ya old fart get your stinking hands the hell away f’ram me, ya sick fuck… If ya want someone to suck your dick go to a fucking whore house. Damn bastard…” The pick up lines were always the same, he knew them by heart… It would be so easy to win a warm bed, and some cash to eat the day after… But he never gave in, no mater how hard it was… “What the fuck… Am i that fucking good-looking or something… Shit, bastard, mother fucker… gotta find another place to crash now…” After rejecting a guy’s advances he always had to find somewhere else to sleep… Even if it was the street, the places he could lay his head in peace were not many. He kept looking up to the sky… The emptiness of the large space, made him wonder many times if his heart wasn’t in a similar state… Cold and empty… Usually by now his eye lids would start to become heavy, and he would fall asleep… Today however, something deep in his mind wasn’t allowing him to have the usual peaceful break. He never felt sorry for himself. He tried the best he could, he would battle the hardest his body allowed him to, it just wasn’t easy. The young boy, had strong health but faint feelings… All was sadness and pain. He prayed for the joy to come, at least for a bit, each and every night. If not joy, at least the emptiness… Felling nothing was better than to feel too much. The tears were not from the pain of his bruised and damaged face, no, these tears recalled long ago pleads, pleads he never got an answer or seen fulfilled. This pain was an old one, the times he remembered his mother were always the worse. Remembering the woman who died protecting his life, and left him alone to face the harsh world of guilt and blame surrounding him. He never asked for it, never asked to be saved, however, he was, and is now, living the twisting, painful despair. How many times did his father blame him? How many times did he get hit for that same reason? How much guilt and cruelty can a child bear within his heart…? He heard a car stop… “Shit another fucking lunatic… This one I ain’t gonna forgive, I’m gonna kick his balls so damn hard he’s going to forget about getting laid in no time…” “Hey kid, do you have a light?” “What th’a fuck do ya want you sick freak…?” “Wow wow, calm down boy, I’m just asking for a fucking light.” “You fucks all say the same damn fucking thing…” “Wah… Ahahhah, ya think I’m a pervert, oh damn I didn’t laugh this hard in quite some time… Shit kid, ya really funny.” “Funny my ass you asshole… I’m outta here…” “Hey kid wait, wait… What are ya doing here at this time…? If ya hate those fucking perverts bastards this is not the place f’o ya kid.” “What the hell. Do ya wanna get your face smashed?” “Y’are a feisty one…eheheh… C’mere kid, I ain’t a pervert, just come…” “What th’a fuck do ya want…?” “Talk. Just sit there… Are ya hungry?” “Fuck do ya care?” “Well I don’t, just asking…” “I’m fucking starved, if y’a have some with ya give me… pretend I’m a homeless or something…” “Well, aren’t you fucking homeless…? If not what th’a hell ya doing in a place like this in the middle of the fucking night?” “Ain’t your fucking business…?”

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This was a poem of love that could never been truly be, how sad and tragic yeah? Makes you want to shed a tear for them. Good work.

Copy Paste Copy Paste Copy Paste Copy Paste Copy Paste Copy Paste I'm getting like this--------> :1onion52: Damn *_*

sad =[ chat is not working for me.... and i cant acess twitter or fb ormyspace like some told me to, cause im still at work.. and it doesnt work here... :cuteonion53:

I'm happy. Today was a good day.

|| More Works || Obocchama Goranshin Otome na Yatsura

Miyavi - Senor Senora Senorita

Eating sweet and sour chicken with noodles. Gazinging longingly at the chocolate thats just out of reach...

Favourite part...by far...... *_* So very very good yojichan!!!! Makes it worth everyday the wait Can't wait to read more

wuaaahhh!!!!!!! *im afraid of heights but still enjoying it* lool u brought a fresh site of MisuShin in this one shot...^^ i still cant believe u got this idea last nite...while doing ur DISHES...I LOVE DISH STORY!!!! lool yeah..no wonder Misu became that possessive towards that cutie pie...shingyouji has his guts too... and i love the part when Misu knew itz not shingyouji's first time?? remember the things i told u bout Taiki's school life?? i suddenly thought something bout that...XD well i am so sure my friends will LOVE~LOVE this... they r as crazy as all of us MisuShin fans here... Ame reactions is the best!!!!!! lool well i almost got a heart attack when yojichan PM me too... yojichan is trying to kill us!!! OMG!!! XDXD

Yea! Short sweet and to the point. I can actually see that happening! Makes you wonder what really happened between the backflash and the present scenes in 'Pure'. No worries it was a little short you know what they say 'the best things come in small packages'. Arigatou for putting this up and I patiently look forward to your next installment. Take your time

EFFING FINALLY!!! :) It took DMP TWO YEARS (!) of negotiations to ink the deal with Tokuma Shoten. AI NO KUSABI - NOVEL NEWS: CHRISTMAS IS COMING EARLY THIS SEASON FOR FANS OF AI NO KUSABI! Only four weeks after Pony Canyon relaunched the remake of the beloved Yaoi classic DIGITAL MANGA PUBLISHING INC. has announced its new licenses, which will include not only the final volume of “Only the ring finger knows”, but also the thing we have all been hoping and waiting for… DMP WILL RELEASE THE FINAL TWO BOOKS OF THE AI NO KUSABI NOVEL BY RIEKO YOSHIHARA IN ENGLISH! To clarify: These are the two books of the novel from the Tokuma Shoten edition which have to this day NOT been published in English by DMP. They are also the last books and thus CONCLUDE the novel.

Omg i think I know what those bastards are after and if they get it not only Kenta will be mad but Ryuu will be beyond mad. He'll want to kill; an evil Ryuu now that would be something to see. I'm also curious to find out what the deal is with Hasu. I hope Sora gets to tell him how he feels. I can just see those two together! .

I already post few at skillful hobby post... I do make a lot... This is bag I made out of old jean... This one keep the shape of jean much as I can... This is made for shopping bag... It's simple but big... ^^;;; And jewellery I made... I made last year used glass beads and chan... This was done during this summer... It's fake turquoise(Dyed Howlite stone) heart with rose color aluminum wire... The crystal is Swarovski elements and use silver on this... There are too many... I just can't put all the thing here... --;;;

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One LOTR quote that always makes me go awww - Come on, Mr. Frodo. I can't carry it for you... but I can carry you!

Chapter 08 On this day, Justin accompanied Valeria to Sky Mall to select a gift. When they were at level one, he came across a shop which also sells ‘that’ watch. "Hi sir, would you like to take a look at this watch? You have a very good taste. This is a limited edition watch from the manufacturer. We only brought in two for our store and we just sold one last month. This is the only one left. " "Hey! Which one did you picked? Wow! Looks good! Very beautiful! How much is this?" "It’s USD$2999." "Wow! Justin! That’s too expensive! Do you want to see me to go bankrupt?!" This watch… It’s too expensive. "Excuse me, you mentioned that you have already sold one piece right? Could I ask if the buyer was a guy or a girl?" "Huh? Oh... It’s a guy. In fact, he’s just working upstairs." "Hmmm? Justin, why did you ask?" "Is that person working in [iT Place]?" "Oh, yes sir. So he turned out to be your friend, that’s coincidence!" "What?! Hold on, Justin. Are you saying that YJ bought one as well? This means…" No way! Who is he to me really?! Spending three thousand dollars just for a watch?! Why would anyone get me something like this?! After learning that YJ could be the one who bought the watch for him, Justin decided that he should take the initiative to look for him and have all his doubts cleared once and for all. === === === === === === === === === === === === === === WYJ had wanted to reject the invitation. Never did he think that Justin would invite him out again. Eventually, WYJ still agreed. When he reaches Cloud 9, Justin is already waiting for him. "Sorry, I’m late." "Nope, I reached earlier." "You... What did you need to talk about?" "Us… What is our relationship?" "Wh... What do you mean?" WYJ was taken aback and was unable to response to it. It was totally out of his expectation that such question was posted. "That watch, it’s very expensive. Why did you give it to me?" "Watch? What have you remembered?!" WYJ suddenly become very excited. He remembered? Did he?! "Nothing. I just happened to find out." "Oh... It’s nothing. It was a congratulation gift for your promotion." "But there isn’t a need to give a watch THAT expensive! You better make it clear! Our relationship can’t be so simple!" Justin seemed to have drunk a lot and appears to be a little tipsy. "Everyone is telling me how I should never forget you and everyone starts saying how good our relationship once were! Everyone just keeps on saying that I will definitely regret if I ever loses you! You… Who in the world… Who in the world are you?!" Then, Justin’s head fell to the table. "I'm sorry Justin, I can’t say... I can’t... If I say it, you wouldn’t be able to get the happiness that you deserve." WYJ nod to the bartender as he held Justin up, signaling he would be sending him home and left the bar. When they were out of the bar, WYJ then discovered that he didn’t know much about Justin – didn’t know where he lives. He wanted to look for his identification card but realize he doesn’t have them. He tried calling Valeria but she did not answer the phone. Ran out of choices, WYJ had no choice but to bring him to a hotel. In the hotel, WYJ thought that he could leave him alone. However, he can’t. Never once did he express how he felt towards Justin, not until today, that he finally understand how much he likes him. It was painful, when Justin forgets him. He wants to let go, but could not bear to do it. "Are you someone important in my life... Everyone says so… Are you... Important..." Justin mumbled the words as he slept… "Can I say it? I am someone important to you! I am the most important one to you!" Then, with tears in the eye, WYJ kissed Justin on the lips. That night, WYJ never took a step out of that room. === === === === === === === === === === === === === === "Argh..." The next day morning, Justin woke up because of the unbearable headache. He was shocked at the sight when he woke up. "You... We..." "You were drunk last night; I didn’t know where you stay, so I brought you here." "But why... Why are we..." "Sleeping together? I’m sorry. Last night, I think we were both drunk." "Bang!" Justin’s fist flew over the moment WYJ completes his sentence. "You scumbag! Are you trying to make use of this to threaten me?! What do you want exactly?! Let me tell you this, you can never ever get what you want! Even if the whole world knows that I slept with a guy, I will not let you achieve your objectives! Now get out! Get the hell out of my sight immediately!" WYJ didn’t say anything more, but quietly dressed, and then left the room. This is perhaps the perfect ending. I guess, it’s really over between us. I… It’s time for me to go… The next day, WYJ tendered his resignation to his boss. He did not give the boss a month's notice, so he is willing to have forfeiture of his salary for the month. Resignation has been accepted, and a flight to the Maldives has been booked. He intended to go back to his parents who were having some business there and also to have his life restarted. "Ring Ring----" "Hello?" "YJ! Were you looking for me yesterday?” Valeria called. “What happened, why are you looking for me at that hours?" "Let’s meet up. I have something to say to you." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === "What?! Why? Why are you leaving?!" "We’ve come to a conclusion… Justin and I… We spoke last night..." "…" "We both feel that we are not the right person for each other, so we broke up." "When are you leaving?" "That’s not important. Justin... I’ll pass him on to you now... I gotta go; there are still a lot of things that I need to handle." "YJ! Wait a minute!" WYJ stopped his pace upon hearing. "You... Will you be back?" "... I don’t think so. But if it is your wedding, maybe I’ll be here..." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === Recalling the incident two days ago, things still haunt Justin. He can’t remember a single thing despite something like THAT happened?! Who is that guy to me exactly?! What was our relationship?! "Knock knock---" Someone knocked on Justin’s door. "Come in." "Here’s your phone, Justin. It seems like it wasn’t badly damage so they just did some simple repair on it. All the information should still be intact. Access it to see if you could remember anything from before, but first, you’ll have to remember the passwords to you phone’s security lock." Phone? Switching on the phone, it really prompted for a personal password. And miraculously, Justin enters a bunch of numbers subconsciously. And the lock was dismissed. Justin was stunned when the phone was unlocked. The wallpaper of the phone is a photo of him and WYJ! Browsing through the phone’s folder for photographs, images, and videos, all he has was the memories of the two of them. And bit by bit, everything is coming back. The first encounter between them… The first conversation between the two of them… YJ visiting his work place for the first time … YJ got jealous because of Valeria… The watch YJ gave him… The confession he made in the bar to YJ… The clarification he made with Valeria to clear the misunderstanding of YJ… The movie that they watched together and slept… The wishing fountain… Their Neoprints… In the car crash, Justin realizes that the watch from WYJ was thrown out of the wrist, he struggled to get the watch back, and when he did, he went unconscious. God! What have I done?! I’m sorry YJ, I’m really regretting it! YJ, wait for me, you have to forgive me! Justin couldn’t bear for anymore delays. He held his phone in his hand tightly, ran out of his room, rushing over to YJ’s work place. To be Continued...

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XIV I carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) I am never without it (anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling) i fear No fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want No world (for beautiful you are my world, my true) And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant And whatever a sun will always sing is you Here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud And the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart I carry your heart (i carry it in my heart) E. E. Cummings – American Poet Paul was holding my hands so strong that they started to get purple. I knew that I would get bruises for the following weeks. I tried to persuade him. - Paul, if you release me, I promise we would go back home together. It’s already spring break, so I can go pack a couple of things and we will take the next bus, right? - You think I’m that stupid? You think I don’t know what you are trying? Forget it!- He said biting my lower lip. I reacted to the pain turning my face. I could feel the little drops of blood running down my left side. He grabbed my face and kissed me furiously again. I felt his tongue inside my mouth, trailing every inch with the tip of his tongue. I felt his arousal against my body and how his hand started to unbutton my jeans. Everything happened so fast that the next thing I remember is my head knocking the ground. Paul’s and Thomas’ screams reached my ears as if they were miles away. I could see how they fought and how Paul fell on his back. I could hear Thomas’ hard breath. - Bagger off, bastard. How can you treat him like that ! - Who are you to talk in the first place, you don’t know nothing about us! - I don’t know nothing? The only thing I know is that you has done nothing but hurt him. I know that you have scared him. I know that you made him feel like a scum bag. - Don’t meddle, fucking rich boy, he’s mine! - You have to kill me before I handle him to you! I tried to stand up, I felt dizzy and the taste of blood was filling my mouth, something warm was also running down my face, I realized it was blood when a drop fell on my hand. - Will you stop, please! I screamed – This is a non-sense. I don’t know how we have ended this way, but this must stop now. They looked at me as if they just realized I was there. I saw anger in Paul’s face and horror in Thomas. They were breathing hardly, their clothes dirtied by the dust. Thomas’ hair was disheveled and his shirt was out of his trousers. Paul had a small cut on his lip and a kind of dusty aura was surrounding him. Thomas made his way to me, his eyes full of sorrow and relief. - Paul – I said – go home. I promise we will talk when I’m back but for now I need you to go home. Don’t make this harder than it is right now. If you truly love me, please, go home. For the first time in my life, I saw Paul’s eyes full of sadness. He cleaned the dust of his clothes and looking at me with the saddest smile said - All right- and he left. Thomas reached me, caressed my face and took me his home to heal my wounds. He cleaned the wounds and put some band aids on the forehead. Looking at me, he licked my lower lip where the small cut lied, cleaning the small drops of blood. He kissed me gently, he threw his head back waiting for a negative reaction but I only could look at him. I wanted to get lost in his arms, those arms where I was always welcomed. He kissed me again, this time more passionately and I kissed him back, grabbing his waist and getting him closer to me. He gently took my shirt off, unbuttoning it slowly, kissing every inch of my skin. He trailed each of my aching ribs with his fingers while kissing my neck, my collar bone and my nipples. I felt how slowly I was getting aroused and I wanted him to feel the same. I pulled his shirt off, caressed his face and kissed him. I couldn’t believe he had such a beautiful body. I caressed his shoulders down to his waist. I unfastened his belt & unbuttoned his trousers slipping my hand inside his pants. Before I could breath, he was taking my jeans off and he was licking the inner side of my thighs up to my member. For the first time since we met, we were making love. There were no hurries, we took our time to enjoy each other’s bodies, to caress every inch of our unknown bodies. He filled me with every thrust, following my pace he made me reach the overwhelming pleasure provided by the movement of his waist. He made me cum a couple of times kissing me with a little grin on his face. We lay down embraced for the whole night. His warm breath on my neck, his warm arms surrounding me. I felt how I was drowsing but I still could hear Thomas’ sweet voice. - Thomas, I love you. - I know it. I knew since the very first moment I saw you lost in that aisle. I fell asleep. For the first time in my life, I felt warm, happy and loved and the person who made all that possible was a handsome young man with emerald eyes. "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." Corinthians 13:1-13

His eyes flared up with my last words, the pressure on my chest became harder. He shoved the paper cups on my hands and pined me down. - You wanna make me remind you what it means being touched by me? You belong to me Patrick, no matter how far you run, no matter who you fuck with, you belong to me. - Paul, please, leave, now that nothing has happened, now that we still can be friends. Please. - You’re not listening, Patrick. I’m not gonna leave you, I’m not gonna allow anyone to come near you again. Your mind, your heart and your body are mine, Patrick and that little gentleman of yours isn’t coming to rescue you. How could I forget him! Thomas would be looking for me all over the place, I was late and he was going to start worrying. I needed to go, I didn’t want him to get worried, I wanted to see him. I needed to see his face, feel safe with him. - Paul, release me. I have to go, Thomas is waiting for me. Please, please. At that moment my phone started to ring. I knew it was him. I knew he was at the front yard waiting and I was late. Paul picked the phone up. ( The one in bold is Thomas speaking) - Who is it? - Patrick? Who are you? - That’s what I’m asking, who the hell are you? - I’m looking for Patrick, tell him to pick the phone. - He’s busy with me at the moment, wanna leave a message? - Are you Paul? Tell Patrick to pick the phone, please. I need to talk to him. - Sorry, but you’re not gonna see him again. - Thomas! Thomas! Behind the main build…. – I started to scream but it was too late. Paul had hanged the phone before I could tell Thomas. - Poor you, my little Patrick, you love him that much? He said sarcastically.

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Title: Sarou no Ryoshuu Author: SAKURA Ryou Plot: 1) Prisoner of the Desert Businessman lackey Hibiki thought his one night stand with Prince Zyad in Japan would be the last time he would see the handsome sheik. But when he visits Zyad's country and is falsely imprisoned as a spy, there's only one man he can turn to. 2) Embraced by Guiltiness When there's a press leak at the ministry, everyone falls under suspicion. When ladies man Yura discovers Shirase's lover is a man and a member of the press he decides to use the information to get Shirase into bed. But Shirase still has a much more damaging secret... 3) The Long Night Policeman Kayano is investigating the spy in the ministry. His no. one suspect: ex-college friend and current lover Takashina. Can there be a relationship without trust? What is Takashina hiding? 4) Escort With frequent violent attacks on his person, analyst Asami Shinobu is assigned a 24 hour bodyguard to keep him safe. Unfortunatly his bodyguard is a former one night stand named Saeki Yuuji. With Saeki in his personal space at all times, Asami's feelings are getting more tangled up. 5) Suite Love Hotel attendant Kuga is assigned to serve Japanese-American businessman Touno. But this isn't the first time they've met, they have a past together as college students in America that Touno isn't about to let Kuga forget about. 6) The Morning Scene Each couple is observed at 6 a.m. from Kayano and Takashina in Tokyo, to Kuga and Touno in Los Angeles. Genre: Drama Romance Yaoi Year: 2007 1 Volume (Complete) Read Sarou no Ryoshuu Online: Sarou no Ryoshuu Download Sarou no Ryoshuu Manga: Link removed due to scanlator's request.

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Kentaro took another drag of his cigarette. His other hand poking at the can of iced coffee. His moment of silent contemplation was interrupted when he noticed someone sat beside him on the wooden bench. He took a quick glance at the corner of his eye and recognized who it was. “I still think you're a bastard.” Kentaro took a sip of his iced coffee. “I know. Me too.” Misu replied but not looking at Kentaro. Both men just stared forward at the students that were walking around the university grounds. “I had to go to a fucking dentist to get my tooth saved.” Kentaro tapped the excess ash off his cigarette on the ground. “Yeah.” Misu replied. “How is Shingyouji-kun?” Kentaro put the cigarette back to his lips. “He's good.” Misu smiled thoughtfully. Kentaro nodded. He really liked the guy. Misu would be an idiot to lose someone that special. He'd happily take him if that ever happened. But he also knew it was nothing but a hopeless dream. “This is what happens when you don't open up to your best friend, you jerk.” “You're right about what you said that night.” Misu lowered his eyes sadly. Kentaro finally looked at him. He could see the regret in Misu's eyes and for him that was all he needed to see for himself. He knew he can never have a chance with Shingyouji. Not in this lifetime. Maybe he will have to find someone like him or perhaps someone totally unlike him. His tastes in men and women can be so damn messed up sometimes. He fell for Misu from the moment he saw him and instantly felt the same way with Shingyouji, perhaps a bit more. But he would have to settle for friendship in the end. “It's gonna be tough sometimes. But you have to realize that not everyone is gonna judge your relationship. Some people will always talk and then there will be others who don't give a shit. Just take it easy. And stop fucking hiding from people who actually give a damn especially ME!” Misu chuckled at that. “Then why the hell did you tell Shingyouji your name was Taro Yoshi?” Kentaro looked at him and stammered a response. “Eh...anou....well, you know, it's my thing. Since when did I give people my real name? Besides it's not too far off from my real name anyway. Kentaro Yoshida.” “Because of that, you won't ever hear a fucking apology from me.” Misu's smile was smug. Kentaro frowned at him and they both laughed. Owari?! AUTHOR NOTES: OMG! OMG!! OMG!!! 36 pages in total yo! I was like a person possessed when I started typing. I couldn't stop. The ideas kept flowing through my brain and before I realized it, I've already typed THIS much. I outdid myself. *CRIES* Thank you so much for seeing me through the end. My heart couldn't stop beating so fast. I couldn't sleep well last night because of my heart. I just finally finished this story today. Hot and fresh! Rightful claim goes to the mangaka for Misu and Shingyouji characters. I can only lay rightful claim to my original characters Miyagi-san and Kentaro Yoshida. I hope you like them guys.

But Shingyouji kept walking not bothering to stop or look behind him. Misu walked even faster to reach for his arm. Only then did he get Shingyouji to finally face him. The anger that was in his eyes have faded only to be replaced now by hurt. And to Misu, it made him feel much worse. This was not what he had intended. This was not how it was supposed to be like. All he wanted was to keep this man close to him at all costs. It's not like he wanted to keep their relationship a secret forever. But his possessiveness got the better of him and it was because of it that he struggled the most and he lost it. With just one punch that landed on Kentaro, he lost it all. As he saw a tear fall on Shingyouji's eye, he sighed and pulled the younger man close to his chest. His other arm tightly secured around Shingyouji's waist while the other cradled his head. His eyes squeezed shut. His nose buried between his shoulder and neck. He could smell the faint scent of cologne Shingyouji had on his shirt. “Arata-san...?” Shingyouji could not bring his arms to wrap around Misu in return. He was still too emotionally affected by what transpired at the apartment earlier. “Gods...I'm so sorry.” Misu's voice broken and muffled to Shingyouji's ears. Slowly Shingyouji's arms embraced Misu. “I'm so sorry for yelling at you. I shouldn't have...” Shingyouji muttered but was quickly interrupted by Misu. “No! You didn't do anything wrong. This was all mine. Don't blame yourself. I deserved this. It was bound to happen sooner or later.” Misu released Shingyouji so he could face him. “It really didn't occur to me that he liked me that way. I thought he was just being a nice guy.” “He really is a good friend. I can't believe I couldn't blame him for liking you that way. I just really lost it back there.” “Well, you still should have said something. But you looked so mad. I didn't understand why. I was so worried to reveal to him about our relationship so I tried my best to relax around him.” Misu sighed, “I wasn't mad at you. I was mad at him but mostly mad at myself because none of this would have happened if I just....had been more open about us at least to him. I remembered how happy you were when you told me about your boss being okay about something like this. I wasn't thinking. All I could see was Kentaro's arms around you.” Shingyouji looked at him soulfully, “Arata-san....I do understand your reasons for keeping our relationship discreet. I really do. But like Miyagi-san said, not everyone will judge us. I'm scared too but I'm more scared of losing you because you can't handle it anymore. I really love you.” Tears slowly began to fall on Misu's cheeks. He held Shingyouji's face close to his. “Shingyouji...” And sealed his lips with a deep kiss. The younger man tried to pull away. “Arata-san...people might see us..” “I don't care. I just wanna kiss you right here, right now.” Misu's voice replied huskily. And Misu dived in for another passionate kiss that was sucking the breath out of Shingyouji. He pinned the other man on the brick wall and began to tease Shingyouji's tongue. His hands were snaking underneath his shirt. All Shingyouji could do was put his arms around Misu's neck which only encouraged Misu to go further with his kissing. He could feel Misu sucking the curve of his neck and Shinggyouji felt his knees growing very weak by the second. His eyes were now half closed. His hands on Misu's shoulders getting tighter as he felt Misu's thumb reaching for his nipple while his other hand firm on his waist. It sent shivers all over Shingyouji's body. If this goes on any further, he's gonna take me senseless right here in the street. Oh god...oh god...They were both getting very aroused now. Misu reluctantly pulled away from Shingyouji's lips. Their foreheads still touching. Their breath hot and heavy. “Let's go home.” He whispered in Shingyouji's ear before kissing him again. They started to run. Misu's arm is firmly around Shingyouji's waist possissively. The other man leaning closely to him. His arm also wrapped around Misu's waist.

“You look happy.” Misu looked at Kentaro as he sipped his espresso.. They were having a cup of coffee in their favorite cafe at the university grounds. He had been noticing his friend's seemingly odd behavior for the past few weeks. Though he still was very much himself but lately he had been declining offers of going out for dates on the weekends. He was legendary for never declining invitations whether it was an all-night karaoke, blind dates, bar hopping and the occasional one-night stands. “So do you.” Kentaro smirked and took another sip of his Tiramisu coffee blend. “What do you mean by that?” Misu frowned a bit. “Oh you're practically glowing. Had fun last night?” Kentaro winked at him. “Shut up. None of your business.” Misu resumed typing his notes on his laptop. Well, of course he did have some fun last night with Shingyouji but that was no one else's business other than his own and Shingyouji. “Alright..alright if you say so.” Kentaro LOVED to tease Misu. Anything to get those cheeks to blush would make his day. It was really obvious enough to him that Misu had someone special in his life. He just wished that he'd open up about it. With Misu it was hard to tell whether it was a man or a woman. He's been very open minded whenever he'd talk about his past relationships with both men and women as Kentaro prided himself for being bisexual. Yet Misu would never divulge a single iota of who he was involved with. It felt rather unfair but he respected that privacy. He had hoped that by teasing him would make him slip but so far that attempt has always proven in vain. But that did not stop him from teasing his friend. “Anyway...I met someone. I dunno, man. There was something about him that was just...I dunno how to describe it. He looks so incredibly cute. There's something about him that makes you wanna wrestle him to the floor or just hug him and keep him all to yourself.” Kentaro was gazing thoughtfully at the glass window. “Him? It's a guy this time, huh. Well...good for you. Maybe you found the right person to reign in that playboy life of yours.” Misu continued typing. He did sense a seriousness in Kentaro's voice. He was usually goofy in conversations especially when talking about past and present conquests but not this time. He sounded determined and hopeful. “Yeah, it's a guy. But I don't wanna scare him off or anything by just taking him out on a date all of a sudden. I can make it look casual though. We could hang out. I just...I dunno....I want to see him again. There was something about his smile that just got me. No one has ever smiled like that to me before, you know. I mean...sure he was just doing his job that time...but damn....that smile. I can't get it out of my head.” “Well, for all you know he doesn't have a problem with dating a guy. Get to know him more. The sooner you get together, the sooner you can get your answers. Who knows...things will work out from there.” “You know that's what I love about you, Misu. You are not fazed by any of this. I feel like I can really talk to you about anything. Yeah, you're right. I'm gonna take your advice. I intend to see him again later on my way home. Hmmm...maybe I'll take him to dinner tonight. What do you think?” “Good luck with that.” Misu shrugged and still continued typing his notes. Once Kentaro was on to somebody, there was no stopping him. He was a pro at what he did. He could get anyone's number at a first meeting and he's done it so many times. His success rate go all the way back in middle school and in the university, he had built a stable reputation for himself in the dating world. He glanced to catch Kentaro smiling as dialed his cell phone and excused himself to make his phone call. ---------------------- “Moshi..moshi..?” Shingyouji was having his lunch break. “Hey...it's me.” Kentaro couldn't help but smile at the sound of Shingyouji's voice. He was visualizing that smile in his head again. “Ah, Yoshi-san. Nice of you to call. Is there anything I can help you with?” “Oh no..no...not this time. I called 'cause I was wondering perhaps you would like to hang out with me tonight. I dunno...maybe have a few drinks and some dinner. My treat, of course.” “Eh? I'm surprised, Yoshi-san. I dunno what to say. Just the two of us?” Shingyouji sounded unsure than surprised which made Kentaro chuckle. “Just say yes. I just wanted to hang out with you since you're such a nice guy, that's all. We can meet at the Shiki Bar not far from where you work. I'll see you at 7:30, okay?” “Yeah...I know Shiki Bar. Uhm...sure we can meet there instead.” “Awesome. Alright, I can ask a friend of mine to join us if that's okay with you. It'll be fun.” Kentaro tapped the table to get Misu's attention. Misu looked at him and nodded in agreement. “Alright, that's better. Ja ne!” Shingyouji felt more at ease this time. It was better hanging out with more people than just one person. “Ja ne!” Kentaro pressed the End Call button. “I'm psyched, man. Thanks for coming with me. I owe you one.” Kentaro could not hide the excitement in his voice. “Sure. No problem. I'm also curious who this guy is anyway. You've been super secret squirrel with his identity for weeks.” Misu chuckled. “Hah! You think you're the only one who can keep secrets, hmmmm? I'm sure you're gonna approve of this one. I think he's amazing. I just know it. I'll be able to close this deal tonight. I'm sure of it.” Kentaro was congratulating himself already. His friendly approach towards Shingyouji was paying off. He's finally going to spend time with him that is not within the confines of Sakura Grocery. He made sure to do all his shopping needs at the store at least twice a week. Whether it was a two-week supply of grocery or simply a few snack items. He didn't keep a specific schedule when he dropped by. He tried to appear as casual as possible. He only made sure that in every visit he made, Shingyouji was on duty and he would always strike up a conversation with him. “Yeah..we'll see..” Misu smiled at Kentaro's determined look. An hour later, he felt his phone vibrate in his pocket. He checked to see it was from Shingyouji messaging him that he won't be home for dinner and was going to meet with a couple of friends after work. Misu responded it was fine since he was going out for some drinks with a friend as well.

After the phone call, Shingyouji felt numb with fear and trepidation. He remained quiet while Matsumoto-sensei was talking to him in the conference room. The teacher was very concerned about him and though he appreciated it, he wanted so badly to get out of the room. There was only one person he had in mind that he believed strongly would calm him down. Just one person was all he needed desperately to see. If he saw him, everything would be fine. He'll face anything. He needed to be assured. He wanted so badly to see him. His first instinct was to proceed to Hayama's room and wait for him there. They should have been back by now, he thought. But the sudden vision of Hayama's worried face didn't sit well with him. It wasn't his face that he wanted to see right now. He wanted Misu. He only wanted him alone. And by sheer luck, he sees Misu who was walking along the hallway to the dorm building and all he could do was chase after him before he could enter the door. “Arata-san! Arata-san! Wait up!” Misu pretended not to hear and just kept walking towards the door. He was tired and he was in no mood to entertain the younger man. He felt a strong tug at his arm which irritated him but as he turned to look at the known offender, he was surprised at Shingyouji's flushed face. “Arata-san...we need to talk. Please. I don't know what to do.” Shingyouji was still gasping for air after the sprint he just did. “You could try letting my arm go because I am tired and whatever it is, I'm sure it can wait. I really need some sleep.” “But...” “I said let go, Shingyouji!” But Shingyouji shook his head. All the protests that screamed in his head fell flat in his tongue. No words came out. That's not what he wanted to hear right now from Misu. He wanted him to listen even for awhile. But he sensed Misu's rising irritation in his eyes. He did look weary from travel. Yes, he needed sleep. Whatever it is, I'm sure it can wait. Shingyouji slowly released his hold on Misu's arm. “I'm sorry to bother you. You should go. You're right, this can wait.” Shingyouji bowed his head slightly and sat by the stairs. Misu studied him for a moment but his fatigue was getting the better of him. He'll be fine, he assured himself. I'm no use talking to anyone if I'm tired anyway. But as Misu climbed the stairs and entered his room. Hayama was nowhere in sight. Probably visited Saki's room no doubt, he thought. He realized that perhaps it wasn't too bad if he had stayed for a bit to talk to Shingyouji earlier. He looked like he was very disturbed about something. He was afraid of something. He looked desperate for some reason. But then he quickly dismissed those thoughts and laid on his bed. I'll just talk to him tomorrow at lunch time. Shingyouji remained in the stairs. He was grateful that the sun was about to set in the horizon. He was grateful that there weren't any students around to see him like this. The tears that he was trying to hide the whole time began to run down his cheeks. He felt so weak. Shingyouji buried his face in his hands and wiped the tears. He dreaded what awaits for him when he gets home. But he did miss his grandmother. He suddenly felt an overwhelming need to see her. To comfort her. She had been the only one who stood by his side. The only person he could go to when his parents fought. The only person who didn't mind his tears. The only person who could understand what he's going through. Oh God, I'm so scared. But he had no choice left. He headed to his room and started to pack his things and shoved them in his large backpack. His room mate was not in the room. It was better that way so he didn't arouse any suspicion. Shingyouji was in no mood to explain himself. The one person he wanted to be with right now didn't have the time for him. It was better this way. Leave the school quietly. Matsumoto-sensei has already called a cab for him since it would be too late for Shingyouji to catch a bus. “Matsumoto-sensei...arigatou..” Shingyouji bowed to his teacher who patted him on the shoulder. “Don't worry. This will be only be between me and your family. Your grandmother was very insistent to keep this matter private which I totally understand. I do hope you'll come back to Shidou soon. You take care of yourself, Shingyouji-kun.” As the cab drove past the school, Shingyouji leaned his head by the window and watched the row of lush pine trees that lined the long road. Memories started flooding back to him. His coming to Shidou for the first time. Meeting Misu for the first time. How much his life has changed since then. He vowed he would be stronger. He tried so hard. But in the end, he was all alone after all. I need you, Arata-san. I don't know what's going to happen to me when I go home. Will I ever come back to Shidou? Will I ever see you again? I just want to stay here by your side. Oh God..what am I saying? This is exactly what Arata-san hates. I'm such a crybaby. I'm still a brat. Damn it. So stupid to think I'm someone he could love. Maybe leaving Shidou isn't such a bad idea after all. Maybe he'll be relieved I'm gone. All I do is annoy him. It's all my fault these things are happening to me. He squeezed his eyes shut. He had a deep sense of foreboding of what's to come when he arrives home. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Three weeks have passed and still no word came from Shingyouji. Misu has reverted back to his old habits of skipping meals and overworking himself. Hayama watched his roommate collapse on the bed still wearing his uniform. It has become a typical scenario. He tried to encourage Misu to somehow watch his health at least but Misu only gave him a glare and told him to stay out of his business. It wasn't just Misu's bad habits that bothered Hayama...his attitude was getting worse as well. He was snappy. He was curt. He was cold. He was more distant. It worried him and it also scared him. Hayama had shared such matters with Gii but his lover simply warned him to stay out of it. He might have been lucky last time to get involved in Misu's way at Tanabata Day but he wasn't so confident now. Gii and Misu may not get along that well but Gii also knew that he didn't want that civility they shared would turn to hate just because Hayama was too sensitive of the affair between Misu and Shingyouji. He wished so badly that there was something more he could do. Shingyouji was a good friend of his and he worried for his friend. But they were all left at a standstill when he left. No one knew the true reason for it. So many speculations and rumors proliferated in Shidou, some plausible and some were just downright impossible. Gii and Misu who had very little to zero patience with rumors and wild speculations have tried in their own way to seek the truth but nothing came up with their search. Not even teachers would say anything. The one teacher they had hoped to help them was Matsumoto-sensei but even he could not be pressured to divulge anything. It was bad enough that Shingyouji didn't own a cell phone since his parents did not see the point in giving him one since he would be living in the school anyway. They did manage to acquire Shingyouji's home address but the number they called was already disconnected which made them suspect that the home address is no longer reliable either. Perhaps they have already moved. The possibility only made Misu worse than ever. He had been keeping much to himself and poured most of his time to school work and his duties at the Student Council. When he did have some free time, he was either at the library or sleeping. Consultations with him were now referred to Gii and Shouzo. Shouzo at one point confronted Misu regarding his workaholic state and distant behavior but Misu told him that since his academic standing was in no way suffering then the school had nothing to complain about him and neither should anyone. It was best that they just leave him be. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

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