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By the request of JYJ+TVXQ=Awesome... I decide to do Takumi-kun special... First is Rainbow... ^^ I hope every like what I did... ^^;;; Enjoy!

I only had time to do 3... One from manga Bokura no Oukoku... 1 Bunny look... ^^;;; 1 Takumi-kun series... I have to do clearing... So I will be back after that... ^^ Enjoy!!! ^^

Takumi-kun Pure credits for translation to sayasubs Download Takumi-kun Pure Movie Complete Mirror link: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 NOTE: Download all parts in the same folder, join with HJSplit and play the complete file with VLC Player. Plot: Unlike the three previous films, Pure focuses on the relationship between Misu Arata and Shingyouji Kanemitsu , which begins when Shingyouji takes the test to enter Shidou Gakuen . That's when he meets Misu and falls for him. Then we come back to the present where the sempai who admires Misu appears, bringing Shingyouji problems and jealousy . Watch online: Takumi Kun Pure For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Actually this is not a gay story, but there's a deep and strong relationship between 2 guys ^0^. Title: Bungee Jumping of Their Own Released : 2000 Running time : 99 min Sub : English soft sub Format : avi (HQ) SUMMARY : In the summer of 1983, Tae-hee and In-woo meet and fall in love at first sight. Just as their relationship is blossoming, Tae-hee is tragically killed. Seventeen years later, In-woo has become a high school teacher and married another woman. Meeting his new pupils, In-woo is startled to feel an overwhelming attraction to one of them, Hyun-bin, a 17 year-old boy whose mannerisms begin to increasingly resemble those of Tae-hee’s. In-woo struggles with the concept of falling in love with his student, and they both get bullied by other students at the school for being homosexual. Watch Bungee Jumping of Their Own Online: Bungee Jumping of Their Own Download Bungee Jumping of Their Own Movie: Part 1 Part 2 English subbed For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Prism Spectrum Manga ALT. names:プリズム☆スペクトル Original run: 2009 Description:Oomura Yuu's first kiss was stolen by the beautiful Student Council president, Takamura Mitsuya. He later became his executive secretary and his duty was to do whatever the Takamura wanted. Both loved cats and were slowly drawn towards each other. As much as Yuu wanted to acknowledge his own feelings, he realised that he might not really knew about Takamura at all. In the end, Yuu decided to follow his heart and reach out to Takamura. Manga-type: Manga Written by: KONJIKI Runa Group(s) Scanlating:Attractive Fascinante Status: Complete Genres:Romance, School Life, Yaoi Recommendations: Green Peace, Ikinari Seitoukai, Toumei Shounen, Oresama to Oujisama, Teppen no Himawari Read Prism Spectrum Online Prism Spectrum Download link: Download link removed by scanlator's request

if u don trust me, don tell me. wat for tellin me and blamed me when its leaked out by other... so next time pls just tell the other except me. u are the one that let me lost trust in others ...

@ GPelka Sweet dear... I do not know which manga is this, but i have to tell ya, I REALLY wanna know cause the drawing it self are just delicious, i'm gonna have to read it... *gonna hide in a cornner and wait for someone to find it so that Bela can go read it*

Rinjin Wo Aisou by Okuda Nanao. --

Chapter 2 Bored Kenta I was mad. Not just upset but fucking mad as hell but there wasn't a damn thing I could do about it. Well I could but it was going to cause a huge problem. “I am not fucking spying on Hasu!” I glared up at Sora who sighed and rubbed his forehead. Yeah I was getting a headache too. “If he finds out you guys-” “Kenta! Shut up for a minute and listen!” I took a step back startled as Sora yelled at me. He lowered his voice but the look in his eyes kept me pinned where I was. “I'm not asking you to spy, I'm asking you to keep an eye on him and make sure he's alright. Isao said there have been some weird comments on the forum and on his blog lately but he won't talk about it.” I scratched my head thinking for a minute. “Umm . . . what'sa blog?” Sora shook his head, his shoulders slumping. “Ryuu . . . this isn't going to work.” “Ken-chan,” I turned to face Ryuu ready to tell him off for using the nickname but the look on his face stopped me. He was really worried. “What we need is for you to just keep an eye on him when we can't. You've got more free time than we do.” I groaned. “Guys . . . I get it that you are worried, but Isao and Hayate got each of you your own bodyguards, why do I have to do this?” Sora and Ryuu exchanged looks. Ryuu came over and wrapped an arm around my shoulders and kissed my cheek. “Don't pout, please. His bodyguard can't enter the school grounds. You can.” “Eh? No I can't!” “Kenta, calm down.” Ryuu held me in place. The urge to bolt for the bedroom was squashed as he gripped me. “We've already spoken with the director and the principal and gotten you special access. You'll be going with him to school just until we find out what is going on.” I wiggled out of his grip and turned to face the two of them. “You did all this without even asking what I thought about it. So fuck you, I'm not going to some fancy ass school to get made fun of and- ow!” Sora was giving me that look I really hated. I rubbed the back of my head and looked up at Ryuu who didn't look very happy. “Kenta, we need you to do this-Hasu needs you to do this. What if he's got a stalker? He must be completely freaked out after what happened last month. I wouldn't ask you to do this if it wasn't so important.” Dammit why did he have to make total sense? Hasu was my friend too but going so far as to follow him to school seemed a bit much. I was worried about the kid too, but he had all of us looking out for him. I hadn't had anyone looking out for me at his age. “Ryuu this isn't going to work.” “Actually it wasn't my idea. Isao set it up.” “Fuck!” That was it, that man seriously had it out for me. “Why did he do that?” Sora chuckled, “Ah well, he said something about not allowing you back to work until you'd learned your kanji.” “Fuck him! I've gotten along just fine without . . .” My voice trailed off as I realized Ryuu was giving me that look. The look that said I'd just made a fucking idiot of myself once again. “Dammit . . . you really are going to make me do this aren't you?” “You really have to ask?” *** I was so fucking bored it felt like I’d died and gone to hell. The drone of the teacher’s voice sounded more like a fly buzzing against a window. I’d laid my head down a long time ago. It was starting to cloud up outside and was probably going to be raining by the time school let out. Fucking hell . . . this couldn’t be real. There was no way I was actually sitting in a fucking classroom. “Arakaki-kun, would you like to solve the problem on the board?” Sighing I raised my head. “No and fuck off.” There was a collective gasp and I realized what I’d just said. “I-I mean . . . uhh-“ “Arakaki Kenta we do not speak to our teachers like that!” That was Oda, the class president or whatever. He was glaring at me like he’d like to shove his pen through my eyeball. I glared at him till he looked away, his cheeks turning red. As if some little kid like him could intimidate me. Hah! Got it right that time. I turned back to see the teacher walking down the aisle toward me. Ah fuck, what now? “Arakaki-kun.” He looked down at me, just like every adult had ever looked down at me. “I do not tolerate that kind of talk or behavior in my class. You can either solve the problem and take a zero grade for the day or go see the director.” And people wondered why I thought school was such a fucking waste of time. “What problem? I don’t see a fucking thing on the board.” He set his jaw and I flinched as he pointed for the door. “Out. Now.” I made sure to slam it on my way out, hearing a couple of yelps from the girls. God, what a bunch of- . . . my eyes widened as I realized Ryuu was standing in the hallway looking very, very put out. He just shook his head and crooked a finger at me. Oh fuck. He was silent as we walked toward the main office. We stopped at the door and I fidgeted for a moment trying to figure out what to say. “Listen, Ryuu . . .” “Don't say it Kenta, okay. Just don't. I guess I should have trusted Isao when he said you'd do your best to get out of this by acting out.” He glanced sidelong at me, the gray eyes disapproving. “I really thought you had Hasu's best interests at heart Kenta.” Ouch, that hurt. “Ryuu I do, its just . . . I dropped out of school when I was fourteen, this is just a lot to deal with right now . . . okay. I-I promise I'll try to do better, but I don't get any of this high school stuff.” Turning to me Ryuu put his hands on my shoulders and leaned down slightly so we were eye to eye. “Kenta, don't play dumb. I know exactly how smart you are. You can do this. I know you can. Prove Isao a liar and show him that you can stick with this. Please.” Numb I nodded slowly. “Okay, but can I not have math class?” Ryuu chuckled and kissed my forehead. “Sorry my dearest, but that's part of the standard curriculum. Akira could tutor you, he's really good at math.” “Fine. Whatever. But, I'm only doing this until we figure out what's up with Hasu.” “Sure thing. I already miss having you at the house and we haven't even started getting unpacked!” I snorted. “Its all your shit anyway, you can unpack it.” “Hey now I tried to get you to pick out stuff but all you'd do was just gripe about how there was too much shit to pick from.” “Fuck off.” He giggled and kissed me lightly. “Maybe later. Oh and don't forget your doctor's appointment is tomorrow” “I remember. You probably shouldn't do that where people can see you . . .” I could feel my cheeks heating up as I met the startled look of a teacher behind Ryuu. He straightened up and followed my look. He grinned and waved. “Good morning!” Her face suddenly went bright red and clutching her papers to her chest she darted into the office, all but running into the door in her haste. Ryuu and I both laughed and I leaned up to kiss him again. “I better go. I'm more than ready for this day to be over so I can get back home.” “Awww so cute! You do miss me!” “Shut up and go home, dork.” I couldn't keep the smile off my face. Fuck me but I'm hopeless when it comes to the weirdo. The rest of the day dragged by. By the time I got home I was sick with a pounding headache and the nearly overwhelming urge to break things. Ryuu greeted me at the door, but his smile disappeared almost instantly. “You are in pain! Go sit now.” He barely gave me a chance to get my shoes off before he was pulling me over to the couch. The sudden movement made my head swim and I stumbled against him. “Kenta! Are you alright? What's wrong?” “Justa fucking headache.” I sank down on the couch and laid my head over on the cool pillow. My eyes felt like they were going to explode out of my head with the pounding in my skull. I opened them a few minutes later as a hand was placed on my forehead. “Here, some water and an aspirin.” “Thanks.” “Was today really that bad?” Ryuu sounded worried as I took the pills. “You look beat.” “It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, but it's weird. The teacher would be writing stuff on the board but I couldn't see anything. I finally just gave up after a while when my headache got too bad.” Ryuu was frowning, his eyes unfocused as he seemed to be thinking. “I think we need to talk to your doctor about this tomorrow when we go. You shouldn't be getting headaches like this.” “Yeah, okay. Do I have to go back tomorrow?” “Yes I'm sorry.”

noisy people can bother you even if they aren't living in your home

Title : Tonari ni Iru no ni, Tooi English Translation: You're right by my side, yet so far away. Author : Minase Masara Year: 2008 Status : Ongoing Genre : Romance, Yaoi Plot: Nagisa's good friend, Igarashi Taiga, is the popular guy at their university. After being compared to Taiga as a lover, Nagisa keeps wondering and questions Taiga, who demonstrates his skills with a hot kiss... What will come after that? Read Tonari ni Iru no ni, Tooi Online: Tonari ni Iru no ni, Tooi Download Tonari ni Iru no ni, Tooi: Complete For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Sweet Bitter Candy Manga ALT. names: スイート ビター キャンディ, Amai to Nigai Candy Original run: 2008 Description: 1-3) Sweet Bitter Candy Kawaguchi spent his entire life in high school as the short chubby kid, "Chidebu". His one secret was his admiration of the rebellious, openly gay Kanaya. Five years have passed and now that Kawaguchi has lost the weight (but is still short), does he have a chance of catching Kanaya's attention? 4-5) Wait a Little Longer Student council president Tone is used to being a slave driver, and he's sure being stuck with overly persistent kouhai Ninomiya is just another cross for him to bear. After all, Ninomiya already confessed to him and he's only joining the student council to be close to Tone. But even though Ninomiya turns out to be a great worker, Tone relax around him... 6) Just as God Said Two long-time lovers face a heart-wrenching breakup when one of them decides to get married. 7) Sasoku A mangaka doesn't want his new assistant to fall for his secret lover. Written by: ASOU Mitsuaki Group(s) Scanlating: Dangerous Pleasure READ ONLINE: sweet bitter candy Download Sweet Bitter Candy Manga: Download link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: I Am Not What You Want Country : Hongkong Released : 2001 Running time : 49 min Sub : English, Chinese Format : avi (medium quality) SUMMARY : This movie is about a gay university student Ricky (Chet Lam) and Mark (Nicky Hung). Ricky comes out to his family and friends, but his "fag hag" Olivia (Carol Chan) doesn't seem to be convinced. Being rejected by his parents because of his homosexuality, Ricky moves in with his friend Mark. Mark in his heart is gay too, but he has not yet come out to anyone, including his girlfriend Mabel (Joyee Lam). The movie focuses on the proccess of Mark's trying to face his sexual orientation. DOWNLOAD I Am Not What You Want Movie : LINK . .. ... I''m sorry coz this video's quality isn't really good. I've browsed it but it's difficult to get a better quality. this is an old drama, but I think it has nice story and a sweet song too For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Shiroi Ori Alt. titles: White Cage, White Prison Author: FUUJU Mizuki Artist: FUUJU Mizuki Categories: School Life, Drama, Psychological, Yaoi Plot: 1-6) Heita was secretly in love with his classmate, Komai, and was found out by the infirmary sensei, Tsuge. Tsuge threatened Heita, “If you want me to keep it a secret, you'd have to listen to me.” From then on, Heita lets Tsuge have his way with him. Soon, Heita found that his rationality could no longer restrain his own overwhelming urge and desire. Did he fall in love with Tsuge? 7) Untold Love A moment of kindness in a train station made Miyami Shigo pay attention to shy bespeckled Maki Shuuichi. But when they meet again, Maki doesn't remember Miyami, and is cold towards him. 8) Moonlight Melody Edgar Lockwood is a beautiful young man with light hair and porcelain skin, so he's a favorite object of affection at the all boy's school he attends. Problem is, Edgar is straight, and all this male attention is totally unwanted! He even has to have a bodyguard in the form of childhood friend/servant Dick Clay. When Edgar gets the bright idea to tell everyone they're dating to repel his admirers, it's the perfect solution to his problem... right? 9) A Certain Day in Winter Heita, Komai, Tsuge all end up at Imayasu's place for hotpot. Sure, why not. Year: 2007 Read Shiroi Ori Online: Shiroi Ori Downlad Shiroi Ori Manga: EDIT: Link removed due to scanlator's request.

i'm exhausted! it has been quite busy days. but i'm happy!! =]

Hummmmmmmm tough choice... But what the hell .... Fei Long *__* Strong or weak?

@hama-sama Good...

So, go with her/him So, your friend invites you at his/her place to watch a porn movie together. What do you do? Go and watch Stay at home Stop him/her to watch (this should suppose that you go at their place, but stop him/her to watch)

I'll post again under

Hmmm, a gay movie where no one dies or break up Nena21 made a good rec. Well in most of the Taiwanese films, they have happy endings. Go Go G Boys and Formula 21. I would say Eternal Summer BUT it has a very interpretive ending where you can think its bittersweet or happy. But its still a must watch boy love film. Artsy and beautiful. Korean short boy love films, "Boy meets Boy", "Just Friends?" Have cute endings XD Totally watch.

I am glad you like it... ^^ Well I try to get much as I can from what I have... I wonder how many people will get the hiden meaning of each background... ^^;;;

moody now...

Sounds a bit boring LOL:hamtaro-005 (5):

Franck also posted this epic pic x))

1-How is your internet connection? (good or slow, does the connection get cut often, and how do you react) Up and down up and down - it drives me crazy cuz it's so hard to download stuff! 2-how do you refuse a friend invitation? I usually just tell them I don't want to. 3-how do you fight with a member of your family? I rarely fight with my family and when I do I usually leave until everyone calms down. 4-do you have a trust problem? Not with men but with girlfriends 5-what do you do when someone important to you call when you are going to sleep or sick or Busydo you answer or not? I always answer my phone. 6-did you hope for something but got disappointed Yes very much so 7-what do you do when your pet wanna play with you but your busy with something I always take a minute to play 8-how do you calm yourself when you are worry I usually take a walk or listen to music or both This was fun both to answer and read others answers. Thanks :hamtaro-005 (6):

Indeed... "Umi ni Nemuru Hana"(Sleeping Flower) by Nakamura Shungiku.

more more more more more more ^_^ ^_^ ^_^ kawaii

1-How is your internet connection? (good or slow, does the connection get cut often, and how do you react) Sometimes good, sometimes not so good (it depends) 2-how do you refuse a friend invitation? I'm sorry I don't have time now, maybe the next time? 3-how do you fight with a member of your family? I don't usually fight with my familly's members 4-do you have a trust problem? No, I don't think so. 5-what do you do when someone important to you call when you are going to sleep or sick or Busydo you answer or not? Answer and say I'm busy, I'll call you later? 6-did you hope for something but got disappointed Sometimes yes. 7-what do you do when your pet wanna play with you but your busy with something Spend 5 minutes to play with my pet even I'm busy.. 5 mins can't be a tragedy. ) 8-how do you calm yourself when you are worry Doing something else, not to think there.

Well... my problem is... I am that and more... Even When I looking the blood type... I end up A... but I am O... --;;;; So... I don't really care... --;;;; but, here is my result....

I did link where to get the drama cd in Takumi-kun community... I don't know they will release this book drama cd yet... But, they did all the novel... so I was hoping they will do this... It's voice acters do the voice of characters... Any way you can try... ^^ Oh... there is two can't download but, still o.k.

YFC'z PV for The End of the Day!!! G, why so damn hot? ;__;

we sure will miss u but ill add you so we can keep in touch =)

@ Hama : I agree with others !! You're pretty and this dress is gorgeous... And by seeing what you do here for members, ( avatar, signature and more) .. You're pretty not only by appearance but inside of you, you're so kind... I'm sure, there will people who will be agree with me for that... Be more confident in yourself !!

Chapter 01 Thursday, December 3 Dear Diary, it has been 3 days since the rain stopped. Things still went the same way as before... He was able to rush into the cabin just before the door closed... and sat beside me. It was 3 days ago when I first met him, the weather was pouring, which makes the train cabin looks exceptionally deserted. Feeling all emotional, I looked out towards the pouring sky. Pondering. This is how a day ended. I guess it would be the same tomorrow as well? Then, it happened. He ran into the cabin, all wet. No umbrella huh... I guess. There was this awkward phenomenon generated, so I decided to glance away from the origin. Unexpectedly, I felt a new presence beside me. Turning to face the seat that was once empty, only to find out that he was sitting next to me! I hadn’t thought too much about it, maybe shock? The tiredness from job really proves to make one forget things easier. It was the same run-in-at-the-last-minute thing that happened the next day, and unsurprisingly, sat beside me again. It was empty in the cabin! Literally, empty. So why would he want to crowd up the small little space that we’re having – a 2-seater individual seat – here? I turned towards him and happened to looked into his eye, its green, the beautiful jade green. I was staring at him unknowingly and then I felt strange, so I glanced away for a second time. It was really embarrassing when you think back. But then again, black hair with green eye; he’s a mixed blood, isn’t he? Today as well, he ran in just before the door closed on him. Was he really in a rush? Friday, December 4 Dear Diary, as usual, the Friday crowds are much more than the weekdays, but still, he was seated next to me. The point is, he’s reading the book by XXX! Except for [Daichi] and me, I didn’t expect anyone else to be reading XXX’s books! What a coincidence! Saturday, December 5 [Online] [sora: Hey Daichi! You’ve gotta hear this! Just a few days ago, I met this guy by chance. He’s been riding on the same train as me every day and even sat beside me!] [Daichi: Really? -___- and you know this guy too? ] [sora: Nope I don’t! But that’s not the point! The point is, I saw him carrying XXX’s books today! ] [Daichi: Are you serious? 0.0 ] [sora: I am! I thought it was only the 2 of us who knows how to appreciate XXX’s work! ] [Daichi: Hey, I have a suggestion! Why not, you go be friends with him!] [sora: WHAT?] [Daichi: I mean, go befriend him, and let him chat with us too!] [sora: Your suggestion sounds good…] [Daichi: It is GOOD! Anyway we have the same interest… ] [sora: Hmmm… Ok, I’ll think about it…] [Daichi: You have to act first! Talk to him!] [sora: I’ll think about it… I’ll think about it… ] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] Monday, December 7 Dear Diary, there was something strange about him today. Focus has been kept at his watch and he seems impatient too. He even alight the train one stop earlier then he usually would, ferociously. I wonder what has gotten into him. Glad that I did not speak to him just now or I might be scolded for doing so! Luck was on my side I guess. But… He should be here tomorrow as well, right? I hope ... Tuesday, December 8 Dear Diary, there was something really strange about him. He didn’t sit down beside me today, but instead, he just stood by the panel beside my seat. My heart couldn’t help but felt uneasy. What exactly has happened? To be Continued...

Here's chap 16... There's not much left for it to end... Here's the start of the end On our way to the Ryokan, I remembered Mina that I had to go real fast to the company I was supposed to have a meeting that afternoon, at least to give them an excuse about my disappearing, it was unprofessional on my part, to say the least… We departed for a while, Mina went straight to the Ryokan, and I went to the offices, it was only a small walk from one place to the other… “Mina I won’t be long, please make sure you prepare everything at the inn, I’ll join you in a bit…ok?” “Roger(smile)” That made me smile back… I was anxious, I couldn’t wait to have a relaxed, pleasant time with him, with no more setbacks, just me and him… As soon as I reached the main door at the office I was surprised by a very well known face, so well known it brought me back my sadness i was longing to forget… I just didn’t want to believe I was actually seeing it… “Just what the hell are you doing here…” “I was waiting for you… I called your office… They told me you’re coming here today, for a meeting…” “And just what are you pretending…?” “I’m taking you back Hana.” “Taking me back…?! Are you absolutely out of your mind…? I’m starting to get fed up of your stalking and abusive attitude… I believe I was completely understood the last time we spoke. It’s over! There’s nothing else to talk…Please go your way and let me be, once and for all…” Something wasn’t right… Shu’s eyes were pitch black, like an bottomless pit of twisted sad feelings… It was scaring me… I went straight to the counter where two ladies were staring both me and Shu with frightened eyes… “Ah, good evening, I’m Myaki Hana, I was supposed to meet Mr. Atsuki today, however I had a few problems with the car I came, and i got stuck in the snow until now. Could you please inform him, that I’ll contact him tomorrow to arrange a new meeting?” “Eh, certainly we shall pass him your message…” “Thank you very much!” “Please sir, excuse me for asking this but, do you know that person?” Her eyes turned to Shu’s figure, which was still looking straight at me. I felt my body freeze, just by the way he was looking at me… I turned to the girls again... “Hum…Yes, I do. Did he do something wrong?!” “Well… he didn’t sir but… he’s been here since really early today, and every time we ask him if he needs help he would just glare at us and said he was waiting for someone… Could it be you, the person he was expecting?” “I believe I am (sigh)… However he shouldn’t have come here to trouble you(polite smile), I am so sorry about all this, we will leave immediately, so don’t worry, he won’t bother you anymore.” “Sir, please forgive my boldness, but I’m not concerned about us, I’m concerned about you… I don’t think is a good idea to leave with him…” They have felt it as well… The dark aura around him, it was somewhat terrifying but I had to take him out of there.. And I knew Shu. He wouldn’t do anything. He was just pissed, and mad that things didn’t go his way and was venting his frustrations in everything and everyone surrounding him… “Please do not worry I’ll solve this… Good night!” “Are you sure, sir… I can call security…” “Please don’t, it won’t be necessary. I’ll be leaving with him then…(polite smile)” I left the two girls at the counter and made my way to meet Shu. I had to at least send him away or we would be in trouble… When I look back I saw one of the girls picking up the phone… Couldn’t manage to figure out was if she was answering it or calling someone… Either way I had to go and fast, if one of my colleagues saw me, it would be disastrous… “Let’s go…We’ll talk outside.” “We will leave…now… I want to stay with you for New Year’s like we used to do…” “Shu… Do you really not understand everything I told you so far?! I’m with Mina here… We are staying at the Ironi Ryokan… We’ll be together, and we will be celebrating New Year together… We had our share Shu, but we’re not together anymore… Please do understand this. I don’t really know what to tell you anymore…” “No… You’re mine… I’ll take you home now, and you’ll be with me… Do you understand me!! It’s you who don’t understand, I’ll take you back, and you’ll stay with me…” Briefly I sensed the smell of alcohol… He had been drinking, and he wasn’t himself… Even if he hurt me deeply, even if he made me completely trust him, only to betray me so many times, to leave me alone, when he endlessly promised me he wouldn’t, I couldn’t bring myself, at that time, to hate him… I sincerely pitied him, all his image right then made me feel so sad for him… All that I was once afraid, he was going thru them right now… Would I shed tears for his desperation, for his misfortune…?! My heart went small and ached… It could be me… I could be the one to suffer, to despair… But I had Mina… He saved me…I was blessed… Truly blessed… Not only I wasn’t alone, I was also loved… I understood Shu better than anyone… But why now?! It was late…No salvation was in hand for him… My eyes couldn’t control themselves… Painfully, pitifully… I mirrored Shu’s image in myself and couldn’t help but feel for him… “(cry) I’m sorry…I’m so sorry… (cry)But I’m happy now…Please don’t deny me all the happiness I’m having now…Because (cry) I’ve never been so happy… so truly happy… (cry)” I covered my eyes with my hands… I cleaned the pilling tears and looked back at Shu… Shu’s eyes somehow returned to their usual warmth, when we looked straight into each other eyes… I felt relieve… I felt it was my duty to take him out of that slump he was in… I was also at fault. I flaunted my happiness, and how great I was, right at his face, feeling no regret or sorry for him… I wanted it, I at first wanted him to know because I really wished for him to feel bad for all he did to me. But enough was enough… And it was time, to for him to leave for good… “You weren’t happy with me Hana…? Were you always hurting…?” And my heart squeezed again... “Not always Shu… (small smile) not always…” “Because we had good times too right, we did… I know we did…” “Yes… We did Shu. I won’t deny that, I loved you so very much, but… (Cry)” “I know… I know… (Sigh) I love you Hana…I’ m so sorry (cry) I love you so much… It’s killing me to let you leave… I know it's all my fault but...” “I left already Shu… You’re just not letting go of my ghost… And you have to… You won’t be happy like this…” “(Smile) Always so kind…” He looked at me, tenderly… I haven’t seen that look in so long… I was happy, that he loved me, truly I was, somewhere deep in my heart, the never healing scar he left me, was aching less now… “Can I hold you one last time Hana…?! My farewell?” “Shu…” “Please…Never to bother you again… One last time…” I took a step closer to him... and he reached me. That embrace was special… All our feelings for each other, just for a split second became a vivid image in my mind, all the good... all the bad… This was truly our farewell, our goodbye… I knew then, Shu would go back to his usual confident self, but he would never forget me, as I shall never forget about him… All there was between us…was now only a memory, which I would hold dear, all the good moments, the tenderness, the sweetness… All of it... “Thank you Hana… For everything i'm sorry (pained smile)” I didn’t manage to give him an answer… My throat was completely dry… It was impossible even to swallow… While looking at Shu’s back, I saw myself portrayed… I once looked like that, I once felt rejected and hurt like that… But I’m alive now… So will he be…soon...

I am so sorry about the lateness.... No good ideas and toomuch work that made me loose all the good stuff inside my head...well all went wrong... In hope you like it... Here it is... chapter 15 December 30 (afternoon) I was getting desperate… I was already waiting for him for 3 hours, and no sign of Mina… I was freezing… Thank god he thought about bringing a blanket and food or I would have died already… “Damn bastard…leaving me here… He could just have taken me with him… What if something happened to him?! It’s so cold out there…” I was starting to think the idea of coming after him extremely appetizing… I looked at the back seat, and started looking for something to chew, to forget about the thought of storming after him… “I could miss him, and get lost myself… It isn’t a very good idea…” Searching thru the packed bags, full of food and drinks, I picked up a box of Mikado chocolate sticks and a coke… That would at least distract me a bit… “Does this piece of junk have a radio at least?!” I tried to turn it on…. Something else to take my a head of things a bit… As soon as I turned it, this extremely annoying sound came out from it… “Not even a radio, hein…” Even so, I was in a predisposition to be stubborn, and kept changing the stations till I could find something else rather than noise… My efforts were paid off when this sweet, soft sound started playing, filling my ears… I felt proud and cocky, with a tiny bit of self-satisfaction… “See, I knew you could do it…” I took a bite of the cookie I was holding… And almost like a small revelation, I realized what I’ve been missing until then… The sound coming out of that old radio… the view in front of me…. All breathtaking, to be absolutely perfect all that was missing was this one fellow that left me behind, and been gone for 3 hours already… I was really becoming irritated… I was already scared and missing him too much all at the same time… I got out of the car to clear my head… I left the door open so I could ear the sound of the music but took the blanket with me… I inhaled hard, like I had been breathless for a very long time… The cold air almost froze my lungs but worked very well to wake me up… Staring at the completely white landscape, the song playing on background, I started to play a small game with myself… “If I wish very hard he’ll show up, right?!” I closed my eyes… And thought to myself… “When I open my eyes he’ll be here… he’ll be here with me…” As soon as I opened them all that was in front of me was still the never ending white landscape… “(small laugh) I’m an idiot…”

First Base: Usually just kissing and making out Second Base: Can really be anything from kissing to foreplay Third Base: Actually having intercourse or sex

Sure, after a while when you are friends and you decide to go further, you would go to the 1st base, something like this , then after some time, you go to the 2nd one (touching the upper part of the body) . And then, when you are ready, you'd go to the 3rd base, which is either oral or full intercourse, I don't think I have to use images for that one though

Here's chap 7. Hope you guys enjoy Kiss* Spell… Chapter 7 I remembered everything… The images were popping in my head like a slide show… The warm weather, the sweet smelling breeze that caressed my face and my hair… It was like I was feeling it right then. It was May, two years ago. Me and Shu were together only for a few weeks then, we were so much in love, and I was the happiest person alive. There was nothing in this world that could make me feel bad or sad, nothing could disturb that happiness…nothing could come between us. Shu was invited by one of his friends to a Sakura sighting reunion, people would just show up to eat, drink and watch Sakura trees in bloom. An enormous mansion, the greenery that went till my eyes couldn’t reach, the pink and the green mixture was unbelievable, it was hard to believe such thing existed. I was happy he brought me along. It was just perfect for a walk in the sun. The person, who was holding this gigantic party was introduced to us. The first thing I noticed was this formal appearance and attitude, I was taken aback, I wasn’t expecting this kind of grandness, in a party where we were only watching trees… This old looking person was wearing a kimono, and you could see the different air around him, like royalty. “Shu this is kind of…” “Yeah I know, they’re one of the biggest families in the word of kabuki, ever heard of it?” “I know what kabuki is, but I really don’t like it that much… is...(whisper)well, kind of boring…” “Ahahah, well it is, but it is considered to be one of the greatest forms of art in Japan, and they are the biggest name in this business…” “Well, what’s so good about a bunch of old man dancing dressed as women…? I really don’t get it…” “Well you’ll see what I’m talking about later… My friend told me their youngest son is considered to be the best and the most beautiful person in the kabuki industry. There isn’t a single idol company that doesn’t want to get him…” “Young…How young like 40?(laugh)” “Ahahah, Hana I know the person we just made acquaintance was old but his sons are not old at all. One is 25 and the younger is only 16.” “Oh…ok then. Let’s check out their talent shall we, but watch out, I’ll be jealous if you keep staring at them too much(smile).” “(Whisper)I won’t, but you’ll have to repay me when we’re back home…” He caressed my face, and started playing with my hair. “Shu…don’t, there’s to many people. We can be seen…” “We won’t…after all the main source of attention are these beautiful Sakura trees… There’s nobody watching us.” “Is quite a sight isn’t it, I’m overwhelmed…” “You shouldn’t be…You can beat these Sakura in their most beautiful bloom any day…There’s nothing more beautiful than you in this world Hana…” We hid behind one of the trees and kissed I really don’t know if someone saw us, and right then I didn’t care… It was bliss. “Now let’s go, we’ll finish this at home.(smile)” I was still breathing heavily and blushing so much I was afraid to step out of our hide out. As soon as I turned away, I saw a shadow hiding between two trees not very far from us… “Shu, I think somebody just saw us…” “Never mind that, whatever happens we’ll just say you weren’t feeling ok and just went to rest behind a tree, I was just helping you.” “And what if they saw us kiss, that’s troublesome…” “We’ll just deny it…don’t worry, nothing will happen.” “Ok…if you say so.” It was then…Right then…That I first saw him. Something moved behind the trees and showed himself to us… This kid, was standing right between two Sakura trees staring at us. He had a very white make up on his face, and some sort of scarf in his head , it was hard to see who was he… But the way he looked at me, made me feel nervous even then. Black penetrating gaze that could leave you breathless. He was staring only at me, and I started to blush too much. Did he just saw us, well it was just a kid, I don’t think he would even understand what happened. I stole another glance and he was still looking at me, I felt like I was being kept in that place, my feet were turning so heavy I was hard to move them. I stared back at him, blushing so much…Why couldn’t I avoid my eyes from looking at him…what was happening? And suddenly he smiled. All the colours around me went pale, the Sakura turned grey, the greenery turned black and white. The sky that only a few moments ago was bright blue was pitch black. It scared me. I turned away. It took all my strength to do so, I could no longer look at him… He bothered me, he shook my peace, and all inside of me was burning… I was a second away to ask Shu to leave, I didn’t want to stay there anymore, i felt cold, I was disturbed… That wasn’t natural, how could someone gaze make me feel like this… I tried to remember the face of the culprit, but I could only see was the white plaster, the black in his eyes and that smile, that powerful weapon he was bearing that wreaked my chest. “Shu…I don’t think I feel so good, I think I better go, besides if there’s any trouble, it would be better if you’re alone, right?” “What, wait Hana, I thought we were going to watch the show now…it’s almost starting…We’ll leave after the break, ok so just hang on for a little while longer…please?!” “Ok, only because it’s for you, I’m not going to enjoy a bit of this…” “Hum(smile)thank you, besides it would be disrespectful for the people who invited us right? Let’s go.” We sat far in the back so that when the break starts we would leave. Even so, as soon as the music started, once I looked at the stage, I felt my chest hurt again. He was wearing a wig now, dressed in a long white kimono, he was as surprising as before, only the attitude changed. The other person standing beside him, had the same air as him, but in a most adult posture, it was lovely to see the two interact. It was stunning, I thought kabuki was boring but truly that was such a performance…it was one of the most emotional things I’ve seen in my life. “So let’s go?!” “Ah, yeah sure…” “We have to go greet them, you don’t mind do you, I would like to thank them for their hospitality…” “Sure, I don’t mind.” We went to find Shu’s friend first and thank him for the invitation. Then we followed him so we could greet the family. They were reunited, all four of them sitting on a tatami, like they were meditating. Grandfather, father and the two sons. I felt like we were disturbing, it seemed peaceful there… He immediately looked at me, and I took a step back. Shu went and started to greet each and everyone of them, while I stood there trying not to look at the young boy staring at me. I could catch that their family name was Shirou but couldn’t understand any of their first names… They all stood up and bowed at us, we bowed at them and when I stood up he was staring again, with this bright smile in his face. I couldn’t say if he was that gorgeous or not with that thick make up but you could say that he had something about him, but the smile…That smile was the reason, my chest felt pain right now. That smile put a spell on me. You couldn’t look away, you couldn’t run away, you were his prisoner, you couldn’t be released unless he wanted to, unless he allowed to. He was called and the smile got undone, I turned away the fastest I could. I wanted to leave, I wanted to go home, I wanted to hold Shu, I wanted to kiss Shu. I wanted to take this feeling out of me, rip it out of my chest, to feel free from this pain… I didn’t want it, I didn’t need it. I wanted to let go. As soon as Shu got to my side, I took his hand and rushed him to the car. “Drive…” “Hana what’s wrong…” “Drive please…” He didn’t ask anything anymore, he just started the car and drove off. Halfway I was still felling disturbed, I wanted to feel free from that smile. “Shu stop the car, here…” “What the hell Hana, you ask me to drive, you ask me to stop, what’s going on…” As soon as he stopped the car, I jumped on him I kissed, I hold him with all the strength I had, I started to strip him down, I took away his shirt and listened to his heartbeat, it was a calming sound… But it wasn’t enough. I kissed him all the way to his pants, and I opened them. I took him in my mouth, and tasted him till I felt him come. “Hana…(breath)…please…wait...” “Don’t say anything, please…Just enter me…now.” “But it’ll hurt, Hana, I have to prepare you first…” “NO!!…like this now…Shu please do it…take me, hold me, do it to me like you always do…(whisper)love me…please.” He took me in his arms, holding me close. He started kissing me, caressing my chest, he sat me in his legs, and when he entered me…I felt his love, he didn’t want to hurt me, he was gentle, but I wanted him to ravish me up, to mess me up, to take me to a point of no return… He must have been confused at that time, but still he didn’t question me. After that crazy scene of mine he still, kissed me… I hold on to him… “Aishiteru…Shu” “Wakata…(smile)” I will forget…I will…for you, starting now…I would forget. _____________________________________________________ Hope you guys liked it... BIG kiss fo' you :leaf3:

The lights were out. There was nobody there… “I’m such a fool… What was I expecting. He left the bar about the same time as me, and he was with that guy… He’s probably fooling around somewhere…” I walked to the room, undressed my wet cloths and went straight to shower… I turned the hot water, and it felt good against my cold body. I dressed my other suit, packed all my stuff in a small bag, I sat on the couch and I waited for him to arrive. I turned on the tv, and while i was there I felt cold again. “Shit is this really going to happen…?” As soon as I said it I heard the door open… He walked in and I could see his confused face looking straight at me. “What are you doing standing there?” “I’m waiting for you Shu… We have to talk…” “Talk? About what? And at this hour… Can’t it wait till tomorrow? I’m kind of exhausted right now…” “I know you’re exhausted…And it’s about that exhaustion of yours that I wanted to talk about…” “What the he…” “Where were you Shu? What were you doing until this late hour…?” “Where I was…? Working of course! I had a lot of problems today that I needed to take care of…why the hell are you asking me this now?” “A lot of problems at work uh? I see… Isn’t there anything that you want to tell me Shu?” “What the hell is going on Hana, why are you acting this way? You now I work late sometimes, you never complained, so now it’s no good…? I’m not gonna listen to this bullshit anymore, I’m going to bed…” That was all I could take. “I saw you Shu…” It was like dropping a bomb… My eyes acted all by themselves and I couldn’t stop crying again anymore. “How could you do something like this to me (sob)… You promised me we would always be together, (sob) even if we knew it was something so hard to achieve, we were trying, and the only thing I asked of you (sob)… Don’t hurt me (sob)…wasn’t it…WASN’T IT??” He stared at me blankly, I don’t know if he understood right then what was happening or if he was amazed with my words… “What are you talking about Hana? You saw me? You saw what… What are you saying…” “Stop it Shu…don’t act like there’s nothing behind all of this. You want every word than I’ll tell you straight to you’re face…I saw you with another man in a gay bar. Is it enough or do you still want me to give you the details of what I saw inside the bar?” At that time several possibilities crossed my mind… Was he going to ask for forgiveness, or was he happy I found out so he could dump me faster… The answer came faster than I wished. “Well ok you saw me with a guy I usually go out when I want sex, so what?” I turned pale, and colder than I already was… My heart squeezed so tight there was no room for nothing else but sorrow… “Well…Nothing apparently…Goodbye Shun…” I was already half way to the door when he grabbed my arm… “What the hell you think you’re doing, or where do you think you’re going?” “Away from you that’s where I’m going so let go of my arm Shu…” “I’m not letting go until you understand… Do you think it’s easy for me to be with you everyday, do everything with you and remain the same? It’s not! I tried to have only you but you have to understand that sex is something I need to have, and if I want to be with you forever I have to do this…” “What are you saying that I’m not enough for you, that you still need to have others on the side just in case I’m not in the mood to screw with you?? What the hell is wrong with you? I don’t want this, I don’t want this kind of relationship… I’m leaving.” I pulled out my arm and started walking away… I wasn’t going to listen to this, he was making a fool out of me… “What… You think you’re going to find someone who’ll be able to stick up to that… Yeah go ahead and find the perfect guy… There’s some news for ya honey HE DOESN’T EXIST YA HEAR ME… I bet you’ll come begging in two days…that’ll be enough. 2 days and you’ll be here at this door step, begging me to take you back.” As I walked away I still heard him scream something that I wasn’t able to understand anymore. I kept my back to him and kept walking… “Don’t worry Shun… I won’t come here anymore, even if it killed me… Goodbye.” Truly, I said that to myself more than I said to answer him… Well that's for today...hope you enjoy... :* Next time Hana is going to find Mina again...let's see how Hana reacts to sexy Mina Kisses*

this is quite a good post to read and to write actually lol umm i wouldnt know where to start lol- like a lot of u i used to make out with my cousin(girl) at her place when i was younger and then with a friend(girl) when we were like 11 and another girl when i was prob bout 13. im really shy and push people away alot so the first time i kissed a guy was when i was 19 and i met him in a random chatroom then said 'lets meet' but was only once as i got afraid n ignored him ! .. only been on a couple of dates with a friend since then but nothing came of it, again i pushed him away and only 2 people know this who i talk to online that i self harm, i have fazes where ill do it then nothing for months, depends on moods, i have a small craft knife i keep with me incase but anything works . only got 1 small visable scar to me, but dnt think any1 eles notices it on the top of my wrist. im careful to not make them 2 visable...although its sumtimes hard..n i do quite like pain lol phew that was hard !

Okay... okay.... confessions... hmmm... I once got oober drunk and confessed to my boyfriend that I was lesbian and turned him down during sex. The next morning I woke up next to a woman I hardly knew and her new born baby. I'm currently getting made fun of by my boyfriends siblings for the rest of my life, who claimed I had done the whole crab scene from Harry potter, after he drunk that good luck potion, while I was upside down hanging off the side of his couch. Let's just say I've decided to stay away from green apple smirinoff.

Ok so here goes...shit a married woman saying this...well f....it. I was like 12 or 13(dont really remember)and me and my neighbour(girl)made out in the back of our house....... Dont know why we did it, i never really saw girls in that kind of way but it just happend Felt good thought Not even my husband knows about this....surelly we would be delighted if he knew (i think).....

Well, it's not a secret at all but, like many of you, I'm also bisexual. And, once again not a secret, I'm a sadist to the bone. While I do, undoubtedly, get aroused by hurting others, I do enjoy it much more outside of the sexual context, and my sadistic activities give me even more of a 'happiness' kind of pleasure than pleasure derived from sex. Actually, I'm more of an asexual than anything else. I do get attracted to both genders, my mind is so open I have no doubt there is nothing in the World I would be prejudiced against, and I have tons of fetishes, most of them tabboo. But when it comes to actual sexual intercourse it's really not one my priorities. I does feel nice, its a physical phenomenon so there's nothing a person can do about it, but I don't enjoy it that much. My libido is pretty weak and I don't get excited on a regular basis like a normal healthy person would. When I do, eventually, feel the need to unleash my sexual desires, it is kind of like a bomb exploding after keeping it in for so long. I has to be hard, fast and rough. And then I'm refreshed and am able to go on, once again, for I-don't-know-how-long without any kind of sexual release. I also am not a sensitive person at all, in any aspect, so it takes a lot to make me feel something. I'm really 'seme' like, I'm not vocal and I don't show anything on my expression. I control and dominate the act, be it with a guy or a fellow girl, and I take my time teasing and torturing and inflicting pain on my partner, and that's precisely what helps me finding release. Just the simple sexual act won't do for me. What else... Sex is pure and simply sex, for me. I don't believe in love. I have no interest in a serious relationship. I don't plan on ever getting married. I don't want to ever have children (I hate kids.). This is getting too serious so I'll end this with something amusing: my uncle and I have our porn stash hidden together (hentai, ero guro, yuri, yaoi and his dirty real life magazines, xD). Not that there's any purpose in hiding it in this house of batsh*t crazy people but oh well. (:

I think I'm in love with Baba Ryoma!!! candy sharing scene >.

I'm almost 24 and I've never had a boyfriend or even a serious relationship. I'm too scared to like anyone because of the way my crushes treated me after telling them I liked them.

nitemare - Alright! A guy & girl in one night.....I call that LUCKY! brohne - I always wanted to do that too, just to see what the responses would be if I was thought a male, You rock! Nozumidoll - like it rough huh, I like your style. As long as the bruises don't show or no blood on my victims they don't complain. Yojichan - you wear your badge of love (hickey) I only wish I could be as bold as you. You kick some ass, awesome! I am amazed at chick power I really am. Okay here is my confession I have kept all these years and will share with you all: For some strange reason I always get asked to participate in a threesome 2 guys & myself the guys always are adamant they are *not* bi yet I get asked to be included this has happened a bunch of times, and its not like the discuss is about orgies or kinky sex at first I thought to myself, hey lower the phenomones maybe you're giving off the scent/vibes but it kept happening so I just don't pay it any mind anymore. Hasn't happened in a long time now. Maybe they thought I was play toy...yikes! Crazy!

Secrets? ... lol ... I like kissing, and I'm not gender sensitive. onion2 This doesn't mean that I'm the aggressive-type, no way, I will freeze to death... (another confession) But my mind is... Try seeing what's on my mind and people might might get crazy... XD (another one) XD

Thank you so much I have done so!!!!! so here's the link and I will try to get the rest soon if someone else doesn't get to them first! please enjoy! http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/651-Totally-Captivated-DJ-s?p=6415#post6415 As a side note!!!! It seems that there will be one last DJ made. It will explain the relationship between the Mookyul and the Chairman, and few other things. A sort of wrap up!!! I am not sure when it's coming out, but trust me I will find out!!!!

I was watching Gravitation one time and a relative came by and asked me pointing at Shuichi's image on the screen. Relative: Is that a girl? Me: No. Relative: THAT'S A BOY!? Me: Yes. Relative: That can't be..that looks like a girl. Me: No. He's a boy. Relative: He can't be a boy. Look at that! He has pink hair! Me: Yes, I know. But that's a boy. Not a girl. Relative: Ah! Look he kissed that blonde man. (referring to Yuki) That's a girl alright. Me: No. That's a boy. He kissed another man. That's his boyfriend. Relative: That's not possible. She looks like a girl! Me: =___=