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I found the error that caused us problems yesterday. It was an error in the htaccess, not in the database (thankfully). As I already warned you, the posts, visitor messages, private messages and points from the last 2 days were lost. We haven't finish working on it, but at least now the forum is functional.

Manga titles : Brothers (ブラザーズ) Original run : 2001 Descriptio n: Chris W atanabe is a high school teacher. When his father remarries, he finds himself with an English step-brother named Wataru. Wataru transfers to Chris' school, and just as the four of them are starting their new life together, their parents die in a plane crash. Now Chris and Wataru are living alone together. The elder is cute and the younger cool; what will their new life hold for them!? Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: YAMAMOTO Kotetsuko Drawn by: YAMAMOTO Kotetsuko Published by: Gentousha Group(s) Scanlating: Forgotten Gem Box, Polaris Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Drama, School Life, Shounen Ai, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: Megane, Cross-dressing, Older Uke - Younger Seme, Incest Main Characters: Watanabe, Wataru Read Brothers Online Brothers Download Brothers Manga: Volume 1 (Chapters 1-6 + Extra) Volume 2 (Chapters 7-12 + Extra) Download link for non-members For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

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We are Gorgeous Manga alternative Titles: 華麗なる俺達; Kareinaru Oretachi Year: 2003 Status: Completed Author: Araya Miki Genre: Comedy, Yaoi Summary: We are Gorgeous chapters 1-4 & 6: Although each chapter does have a different plot, they all contain the same basic set up. Melodramatic characters, a ballet that has to do with the theme of the chapter and a lot of humor. We are Gorgeous is about a ballet company called ABC. What's so special about this company? All of their dancers are male. The four chapters each have different story plot having to do with the dancers that are part of ABC. Hold me! My prince chapter 5: One fateful day the school leader Shiro helped out a student, named Azusa, who had twisted his ankle. Leaving before Azusa could get his name it took a long time before he could find him again. Ever since then Azusa has been stuck to Shiro like glue. Although they are going out they have not even kissed yet. Azusa desires to move their relationship forward, but is Shiro willing? Read We are Gorgeous online We are Gorgeous Download We are Gorgeous Manga New Download Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Finally the new server... So... here is moving give... ^^;;; From the game Messiah's artbook(?)... Trinity... ^^ One of lot naked scene use in Yaoi... ^^;;; Game Nessa no Rakue...

@ Chiakaiyuki : You're pretty also ! @ Amander123 : Pretty haircut. Ok.... I Re-post my face HERE.. Ahaha ! This photo was taking during a party 5 years ago. And like my husband said.... It's so rare that we can take a pic of you... So, be lucky ! Thank for all who posted a comment, before !

I don't know exactly what you don't understand and I'm really awful at explaining things to others but I'm giving it a try. I'll try not to spoil anything for later volumes but if something escapes here or there, I'm sorry. For starters, let's divide the characters in three: - Normal Humans (No powers.) - Kotodama (Humans with the 'Power Of Words' -which is also called Kotodama- who can make things they say out loud happen if there is enough intent and strong feelings. They can only make happen curse-like and destructive things and not good things like curing someone's sickness. Using the power requires a compensation, the Kotodama users will suffer injuries proportional to the degree of power utilized.) - Kami (Non-Humans. Paper dolls created by the Doll Maker, Waki. They look like regular Humans on the outside but they can't feel physical pain, don't possess blood, don't need to eat nor go the bathroom. Their sole purpose for existing is to absorb/heal the injuries of their respective Kotodama/Master. The Kami can't 'die', per see. As they are literally made of paper, they will eventually wear up with time - even if it will take a long, long time for they are incredibly resistant. They will then begin to tear up in pieces and disappear, returning to Hakushi -blank/empty paper- consequentely loosing all their memories.) The Kotodama-Kami pairs are always of the same gender, female-female or male-male. There are two methods of healing injuries between the Kotodama and the Kami: the first is the Kotodama saying something along the lines of "Tranfer injuries," using the Power Of Words and it will be done with; the second is by contact of mucuous membranes. Through the manga there are some badly done translations where they say there is only a need to being in contact or swap corporal fluids. While that is not completely wrong, it's also no entirely accurate. It's needed contact with mucuous membranes -like the nose, the tongue or the anus- for the healing/tranfering of injuries to occur. The intensity of the contact during the healing process is proportional to the severity of the injuries, just as the severity of said injuries is proportional to the intensity of Power utilized. For example, Ouka used Kotodama saying "Tighten Raizou's heart for a second," and her compensation was a tiny cut in her finger, and it would only take a lick to heal, if a Kotodama uses the power to kill a person the wounds received will be practically fatal and it will take intense contact, like sexual intercourse, to have a chance to heal. About the Mitou family, they are very important and influential in the Kotodama World. Mitou Shoui and Mitou Konoha are brothers. Mitou Ouka is a cousin (I don't really remeber so I might be wrong). Shoui is the current head of the family, he is a powerful Kotodama who uses his powers a lot and recurringly. His Kami is Asari, who is very old -he is the first Kami created by Waki (if not the first it's not very far from there) a long time ago. he also served as Shoui's grandfather, Mitou Rikiichi's Kami- so, as I said, he has already absorbed a lot of injuries during all this time and is pretty worn out by now, almost reaching the limit of injuries he can heal before disapearing. Asari can still heal Shoui's light and mild wounds but it gets more and more difficult with the most severe ones. This worries Shoui and he starts not using Asari to heal his wounds anymore, saying that he should be the only one to suffer because he's also the one using Kotodama. Asari doesn't agree with this the least, thinking that because he can't be useful as a Kami to Shoui anymore, then he has no right to stay by his side, being burden to him like this. Running away and hidding at Waki's, Asari insists that Waki should get Shoui another Kami and that he will just return to being Hakushi. Shoui ends up coming for Asari to take him back home with him, he wants Asari to stay by him not as a Kami but because he loves him, so he has not need for him to be absorb his injuries and be hurt, all he wants is for them to stay together. After some more lovers spat and heart warming moments Asari stops being stubborn (Yeah, right, as if) and goes back with Shoui. While teasing him and harassing him, like always. About Raizou and Kon, the first is a normal Human and the other a Kami. Before meeting Rai, Kon didn't even think of himself as a person, only existing to complete the jobs that Waki gives him -healing the injuries of random people, customers. Raizou worries about Kon and protects him of things that are supposedly harmful, which causes Kon to snap and be mad at Raizou, yelling at him that he can't feel pain or be hurt at all because he isn't Human to begin with. These two eventually became a Kotodama-Kami pair, even if only in name, because Rai doesn't have powers. After some beautiful words from Rai (He's just too sweet) and, surpringly, from Kon as well, they get together. Kon learns to value his existence because now he wishes to be with Raizou until he dies. -- It was really hard restraining myself to talk only about the first volume. Now I feel like re-reading ZE all over again for XXX time. *runs to do it*

Since it seems my earlier comment disappeared, I wanted to post again and tell everyone how much I appreciate your taking the time to read Savior. It's been so much fun to write and I am thrilled so many of you enjoyed reading it. I am still offering the full novel for download. Just pm me. ^___^

@yojichan Thanks a lot, your support means a lot to us! No, actually I didn't see your replies on Twitter. I checked all the @Mentions and tried to reply to all of them, but there was no mention from you. I accessed your Twitter page, but your tweets are protected. Yes, we are on the new server now and hopefully we got rid once for all of that annoying 500 Internal Server Error. We still have to work a bit in the htaccess, but that shouldn't cause any downtime. I really hope the forum will work better than before and that our work was worth it. Thank you again, we really appreciate your feedback!

@ hama71, Ueda_Angel, Rei Thank you again for all your support and patience! I'm glad the forum works much better now

On present day Earth, the brotherhood of humans and demons (youkai) has been broken. A corrupt and evil demon, Gyokumen Koushou, is performing experiments that combine human science and youkai magic, causing all demons to go crazy. Now, Genjo Sanzo, a trash-talking Buddist monk, is given a mission: Deliver a sacred scroll, the Maten Scripture, to India. For the journey, he is teamed up with Son Goku, a 500-year-old demon, Sha Gojyo, a red-eyed half demon human, and Cho Hakkai, a school teacher turned demon. Together, the four of them must travel to India, but the road ahead will surely be full of speed bumps, and demon attacks. Genre - Action, Adventure, Comedy, Drama, Fantasy, Historical, Shounen, Supernatural

My mom say all the time that I'm the DR. Doolittle for cats .. :| In reality, I'm a biologist.. So, all animals, I like them !! For now, I have 4 female cats ! All of them have had a hard time before I keep them ! 1.Shelby : She was abused by the children of the owner.. She was so little and his mom didn't wanted that she eats. :| 2. Suki : My mom found her in a theater movie parking. She decided to coming and bring her to my house... She had only 5 weeks and had a open fracture at one of his hind legs... I made bandage and I had to put back his bone at the correctly place.. :F Now... she's my "Sprinter" .. 3. Neko : She lost her mom when she had only two weeks... The veterinarian took care of her and searched at the same time a good owner for her.... 4. Cocotte : I found her by a rainy day.... I was outside for something and saw a little thing who eats the seeds that fell from the bird feeder.. :| She was really wild... It took me 3 weeks for taming her... by her teeth she had around only 2 months... It's my little family !

@Amander123, chiakaiyuki, GPelka, cherryyuri You all look so pretty! From what I saw until now in this thread, there are only very good looking people here in YO. (like yojichan, Hama, Belita, Nezumidoll, last_sky, and other who show their picture in this thread) :hamtaro-005 (8):

Ai Wo Choudai by Kaguyama Kazuho. --

everyone here is so beautiful! Amander: love your hair like that I had my waist lengh hair 'removed' last week http://i1178.photobucket.com/albums/x365/0chiakaiyuki0/0o.jpg

Original name: Doushiyoumo Nai Keredo Manga ALT. names: どうしようもないけれど / 无所适从的情衷 / 無所適從的情衷 / Doushiyoumo Nai Karedo Original run: 2007 Description: Hardworking, good-looking, and heir to daddy's company, Shimano thinks his life's just about perfect. Except that he's working from the bottom up in the company, and he can't seem to get along with Kurokawa, his manager. Competent but flippant, Kurokawa always seems to pay extra attention to Shimano, whether it's teasing him to make him work harder or covering up for his mistakes, which of course drives Shimano crazy. So he has Kurokawa firmly blacklisted until he realizes that Kurokawa's private life isn't a bundle of roses and begins to sympathize...and how are you supposed to hate someone you sympathize with, anyway? Manga-type: Manga Written by: Natsume Isaku Drawn by: Natsume Isaku Published by: Dear+ (Shinshokan) Group(s) Scanlating: Vices and Devices Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Drama; Heir Categories: Co-workers; Comedy; Drama Main Characters: Kurokawa, Shimano Adaptation based on available: N/A Recommendations: Doushitemo Furetakunai, Koi wo Shimashou, Hisho no Koi Related Series: Tight Rope (Side Story) Read Doushiyoumo Nai Keredo Online Doushiyoumo Nai Keredo Download Doushiyoumo Nai Keredo Manga DOWNLOAD v01c0104 DOWNLOAD v02c05 vol 2 ch 6 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Arashi No Ato - After A Storm (Prequel) + Double Line (Oneshot Sequel) Author/ artist: Hidaka Shouko Genre: Drama, Slice Of Life, Yaoi Status: 1 Volume + 1 Chapter (Complete) Year: 2008 - 2009 Plot: Sakaki, a president of an import interior company, wouldn’t get serious with anyone. He became afraid when he started to care about Okada, a hetero. Sakaki couldn’t remember anything when he found himself waking up in Okada’s home. With Okada’s unconscious speech and conduct, Sakaki felt bothered. Will the storm calm down? Download Arashi no Ato Manga Link http://viid.me/qWmz94"]Download link for non-members Read Arashi No Ato Online Arashi No Ato The Drama CD can be found here.

Original name: 満開ダーリン Manga ALT. names: Mankai Darling, Blooming Darling, Full Bloom Darling Original run: 2009 Description: Takashi works for the local flower shop. The only problem? He has to put up with the manager's constant sexual harassment. An even bigger problem? The manager, Haruhiko, is actually his boyfriend whom he's been dating for about a week. Takashi wants to develop a deeper relationship but he's afraid of committing... especially since they haven't even done it yet. Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: Yamamoto Kotetsuko Drawn by: Yamamoto Kotetsuko Published by: Taiyou Tosho Group(s) Scanlating: Bliss Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Romance, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: Rape;Age-gap; Co-workers Main Characters: Takashi, Haruhiko Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Akanai Tobira, Mitsuiro Pancake, Yongou x Keibi, Peppermint - Koi no Wasuremono Read Mankai Darling Online Mankai Darling Download Mankai Darling Manga: Complete -- The Drama CD can be found here. For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Enslave Lover Manga ALT. names: 強引な恋人 / Gouin na Koibito Author: Ishimaru Hiroko Original run: 2002 Description: 1-3) Enslave Lover Young newsman in love with his sempai. Will the sempai ever see him as anything but a subordinate? 4-5) My High-Handed Lover Sports reporter Fujisaki is always being teased by famous baseball star Tsutsui. But the flirty star isn't serious, is he? Does Fujisaki want him to be? Oh well, a trip to a hot springs should sort everything out. 6) The Sugar Cake that You Love On an exchange program, a young American falls in love with his host family's son. Will he reciprocate his feelings if he keeps teasing him about his name? 7) The Flower of Understanding Painter Kairi has always been teased because of his mixed heritage. The only person he trusts is his adopted brother Kanade. But the love he feels for Kanade is slowly turning into something dark and obsessive that he can't control... Manga-type: Manga Published by: Biblos Group(s) Scanlating: Biblo Eros , Dangerous Pleasure Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Yaoi Categories: Spots, Age-gap Main Characters: Fujisaki, Tsuitsui Recommendations: Namida mo Tooku - Aonibi no Nemuri, Immoral Kids, Kimi no Naka de Nemurasete Read Enslave Lover Online Enslave Lover Download Enslave Lover Manga Enslave Lover Mediafire (Mirror thanks to lsd) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Rakka Sokudo Manga ALT. names: 浮游高度 爱情加速度 落下速度 Freefall Romance The Speed Which Falls in Love Original run: 2004 Description:Nanase Youichi graduated from Kinsei Academy, which is popular for having a 90% gay student population. However, Nanase is straight as an arrow and managed to graduate with no one topping him, his nickname even used to be "The Iron Wall". But one day, his heterosexual business partner, Tsutsumi Renji told him that Nanase is attractive and can't help himself from wanting to touch him. Nanase allows Renji to touch him for only 3 minutes... Manga-type: Manga Mangaka: NANASE Kai Group(s) Scanlating:Countless Time Status: Complete Genres: Mature, Slice of Life, Yaoi Main Characters: Nanase Youich,Tsutsumi Renji Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations:Yakudate! Seishun. Renai Joshika Kusari wa mou Iranai Working Woman (YUUKI Homura) Ruriiro no Yume Read Rakka Sokudo online: Rakka Sokudo Download Rakka Sokudo Manga: Download For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Dog Style Manga ALT. names: ドッグ スタイル / 狠狠爱 Author: Motoni Modoru Artist: Motoni Modoru Original run: 2005 Description: An entertaining romp from Modoru who has once again veered away from her dark side and visited the side of her humorous stories. Of course it's still rather twisted. A couple of high school delinquents discover that despite being from opposing sides, they have no objection to a bit of a sheet tumble with one another. Doggie-style refers more to how one of them is referred to as a dog by the other. Neither of these guys is an innocent, and it will be interesting to see where it goes. The series was named after the doujinshi "Dog Style" (Slam Dunk) Modoru wrote in 1994. Manga-type: Manga Published by: Biblos (2005) Libre Shuppan (2007) Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Drama, School Life, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: School Life; Rape; Angst Main Characters: Teru Chiaki, Miki Terayama Recommendations: Immoral Kids, Saikyou Oyabun, Read Dog style Online Dog style Download Dog Style Manga New links Volume 1 Volume 2 Volume 3 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: It Seems to Rain Country: Taiwan Plot: Kuan, a teenage high school boy is struggling to find his identity as homosexual. His girlfriend seems to understand something's wrong and tries to help him... Download It Seems To Rain Movie: Part 1: 4Shared Part 2: 4Shared Part 3: 4Shared Part 4: 4Shared *Download all parts and join them with HJSplit* For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: You Used to Smile That Way; 그렇게 웃어주던 니가 Year: 2009 Country: South Korea Director: Park Sun Format: avi Size: 199 Mb Summary: A man is calling someone and looks very serious. He recalls the past with a sad face. He is wondering the reason... 'You used to smile that way... but why...?' Watch You Used to Smile That Way Online: You Used to Smile That Way Download You Used to Smile That Way BL Movie: You Used to Smile That Way (Eng) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Summary: June has led an unhappy life but it will change with the come of his birthday along with a mysterious white haired boy. Status: In Progress Author's note: (Title translation: Heart of Ice) Something I had on my mind for quite some time now. I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I'm enjoying to write it!

Summary: A wonderful story about Ryuu and Kenta, about love and friendship. A delicious story about how love for friends and lover can make us overcome anything. Status: Complete Author Note: This is not fanfiction. If that is not allowed then please delete. Also this is a multi-chapter novel so expect plot. ^^ Chapter 1a Fantasy Ryuu It can be funny how things change. In just a few months my life is completely different from what it was. Looking back I’m amazed that so much happened in such a short amount of time. Stretching my legs out underneath the table I looked at my band mates. Akira was texting someone, probably Reiko. Sora was in the process of trying to get himself hit. “Stop it Sora.” Hasu yanked the handheld out of the bassist’s reach glaring at him. I didn’t bother to hide my amusement, letting a chuckle slip free. “You are going to lose, just let me beat that boss for you.” “No, I can do it if you’d quit pestering me. Damn it Sora! You made me lose again.” I laughed softly and slid out of my seat, swaying with the movement of the bus. Hasu didn’t cuss all that often and when he did- “Ow! Owowowow! Let go! I’m sorry! I won’t do it again.” I glanced back over to see Hasu with a fist full of Sora’s long red hair holding his head against the table. His eyes were firmly fixed on the small screen even as Sora struggled to get loose. Hasu might be almost a foot shorter and four years younger, but it was pretty obvious that Sora had no chance. Our little drummer was strong enough to flip the tall bassist on his head, quite literally. Turning back around, I opened the small fridge and grabbed myself a Coke. The weekend had gone exceptionally well. Both concerts had been huge hits and I’d met my new best friend. Speaking of Tatsuya, I pulled my phone out of my pocket and grinned seeing the text message. Shopping was on for next weekend. If I got bored this week I might invite him out to eat or something. I’d never met anyone quite like him and we’d had so much fun coming up with new outfit ideas. I really couldn’t wait to see him again. Sitting back down, I took a sip of the coke. Speaking of seeing people again . . . it was going to be a couple of days before I got to see Kenta again. I sighed, running my finger along the lip of the can. Maybe Reiko was right. Maybe I was just chasing after a dream. I just couldn’t let it go. Not yet. After all the time I’d spent around him he’d seen me at my best and my worst and he still was just as patient and kind as ever. I know I’m not the easiest person to get along with. I’m too emotional and act before I fully think things through. At least that is what everyone tells me. I took another sip of the Coke, thinking. “What’s wrong, Ryuu?” I looked up to meet Akira’s light brown eyes. “Nothing, was just thinking.” “Did you have fun this weekend?” I nodded, “Yeah. Tatsuya and I are going to get together this week. He’s got some wicked ideas for new concert outfits.” Akira shook his head, a wry smile twisting the full lips. “You two knowing each other scares me.” I couldn’t help but giggle at that, even if there was a hint of pain in it. “He’s so much fun! Oh my god, I can’t wait to see him again.” Something in Akira’s eyes changed slightly and I looked away knowing it had sounded forced. “What are you hiding Ryuu?” Trust Akira to see right through me. I shrugged, unable to keep the smile in place. Truthfully, I wasn’t looking forward to going back to my huge empty apartment. I loved being with everyone, meeting Tatsuya had seemed to underline the fact that without my friends around I was nothing. That old fear from high school from before I’d met Sora always tried to resurface then. What if they only were friends with me because my family was wealthy? What if it was all fake? With Sora I knew it wasn’t. For one, we’d been friends for too long and his family was almost as well off as mine. “Umm, you guys going to come over sometime this week? We’ve got that new material . . .” “Ryuu, if you want us to come over just say so. You don’t have to make up an excuse for us to come over.” Sora’s gentle tone actually made me feel worse. It made me feel like a whiny, needy, self centered jerk. “Oh no, it’s cool. I was just wondering. I know it’s been a really busy weekend and I don’t expect you guys to come over.” I glanced back over at Akira studying him for a moment. He’d changed in the year since he’d met Reiko. He was more confident and happier. A lot happier. I would never have been able to make him as happy as Reiko did. Even now that thought hurt. I loved him, more than he probably realized, but I’d slowly come to realize that it wouldn’t have worked no matter how hard I tried. That led me to think about Kenta. Just thinking about those sultry dark eyes and the deep voice gave me chills. He was the quiet, calm presence that my life had been lacking for so long. “You are thinking about Kenta aren’t you?” I looked up expecting to get the usual sarcasm from Sora, instead he was looking at me concern clearly visible in the light green eyes. I couldn’t hold his gaze. “Was it that obvious?” “Well lately it’s been pretty obvious that . . . “ Sora paused and looked over at Hasu who was once again absorbed in his game. He picked up the headphones and after plugging them in, put them on Hasu getting a look but no argument. Sometimes the big oaf was more protective than he needed to be. “You like him don’t you?” I looked back over at Akira surprised. “I know how affectionate you are Ryuu, but the way you look at him is totally different.” I took another long drink of my Coke wanting to avoid the conversation. “It’s pointless though. Reiko is right.” “You don’t know Ryuu.” I looked at Sora but his eyes were on Hasu, not the game, but Hasu. I almost smirked, but we were both in the same situation. We liked people we couldn’t have and who were oblivious to our feelings. At least the person I liked was my age. “I know he seems distant, but you are his employer after all.” “What you suggesting I fire him so I can date him?” “No, I’m just saying that you shouldn’t give up.” “I agree with Sora.” Akira’s soft look seemed to sharpen the pain in my chest. “Just give it some time. I’ll see if Suke knows anything, they do work together you know.” “Y-yeah, thanks.” Akira's older brother was a gang member as well and I knew that Suke and Kenta worked together all the time. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to know. I’d rather things stay as they were. I could be happy just being by him couldn’t I? I looked over at where Sora was practically laying over on Hasu to see the screen, softly whispering pointers. It would be worth it just to be Kenta’s friend if nothing else. *** “Oh come on Ryuu! You can’t be serious!” I blinked at Akira surprised. “But I thought you’d like it-“ “It’s a skirt Ryuu! A fucking skirt!” “B-but it’s just part of the outfit-“ “I don’t care! You are not making me the girl of the band.” “I wasn’t trying to! I just thought-“ “Yeah, you thought wrong. Like usual.” I gasped softly, shocked at the hostile tone and glare. I was not used to Akira getting so upset and especially not with me. Grabbing the outfit out of his hands, I backed up. I started to say something, but the way he was looking at me seemed to close my throat off. Turning I fled down the hallway, slamming the door to my room shut behind me. Throwing the offending outfit I sat down on the floor, my back to the door. Closing my eyes I brushed away the tears. I couldn’t handle him yelling at me. His outfit had been the most difficult to get right and for him to so obviously hate it hurt. I’d worked two weeks on the design with Tatsuya’s input. Two weeks for nothing. Tatsuya was going to be so disappointed. Not to mention that now I felt like a complete idiot. “Ryuu?” “Just forget it. You’re right. I’m just stupid and can’t do anything right.” I could hear him sigh through the door. “You’re not stupid Ryuu-“ “No you were right, even Reiko says that all my ideas fail. I should just give up. Why do you guys even bother . . .” I couldn’t stop the tears anymore even as much as I hated them. I pulled my knees up to my chest and buried my face in my arms. I could hear Sora talking to Akira in the hallway but didn’t bother trying to make out the words. Why was I so stupid? I knew how Akira felt about looking feminine. It was just the outfit was perfect for him, or at least I thought so. He looked so good in anything I put him in, it almost wasn’t fair. The voices faded and I decided that I probably should go tell Akira I was sorry. I knew how sensitive he was about looking feminine. I’d just gotten caught up in the excitement and hadn’t been thinking. Going over to the pile of fabric, I picked it up and set it on the bed. It would have to be altered, but I could probably make it into something Akira would feel more comfortable wearing. Going to the bathroom I splashed a bit of cold water on my face trying to wash away the tears, but my eyes were still a bit red. Shaking my head, I glared at myself in the mirror. “You are lucky anyone even wants to be friends with you.” I told the reflection. “Stupid emotional idiot.” “I’d rather you didn’t talk about yourself that way, Ryuu.”

@ hama71 I will go rest in a few minutes! Thanks again for your concern and continuous support! It was really appreciated!

Ever since I was small, I’d cry when she tried to hug me, when she looked at me. Her eyes always frightened me. Everything in her transpired an aura of madness, insanity, but her eyes... her eyes were the madness, the living madness. They looked frantically, everywhere, never really focusing, so wide and intense, trembling. I started panicking then, and put my arms in front of me to prepare for the impact. As usual, my mother stopped dead in her tracks, looking at the wall with a sad-like look in her face. This was before it changed into rage. “You are a shame to the family! You don’t even hug your own mother, who suffered to bring you to this world, you ungrateful brat! If only my beloved son was here... he had pride in his great mother! Or my beautiful daughter... she would do anything to please her sweet mother! You are nothing but an ungrateful, despicable and unworthy child!”, she bellowed, clenching her only functional fist. I’d heard this countless times. I ignored her ranting and went up the stairs, straight to my room, quickening my pace as her voice rose higher and higher. After locking my door, I sat near the windowsill, gazing at the sky as the sun set in the horizon. Such events were like a routine, they happened on a daily basis. “Great, sweet... mother”, I sneered, knowing far too well she was neither. “June, my baby boy? Mama is sorry, mama didn’t want to hurt you, baby. Do you forgive mama? Will you come out and give mama a hug now?”, I heard her begging on the other side of the door. Aunt Leila had told me never to go near her. I discovered through the worst way what would happen if I did. The scar on my left arm was proof enough. After a while, I could hear her hitting the door, trying to get through. “Come out, you stupid boy! Come out right this instance! Come out or I’ll rip you apart!” They were true enough threats, but she couldn’t reach me. After long moments, I finally heard her move away, going down the stairway, probably to destroy a few more belongings. I let out a deep sigh, trying to relax myself. As if having a demented mother wasn’t sufficient, now the nightmares robbed me of what little time I had to relax. I looked at my cellphone. I had five messages waiting for me there. One was from Pam, another from my aunt, the rest of them being messages warning that Pam had tried to call me. Since I had no patience to answer any, I laid the phone back on the desk and went to sleep. A much needed sleep.

D: Sadist question.. Ahaha ! Fast Death. Meat... Chicken or beef ?!

I agree with Hama. You do deserve rest and a reward is a good idea too. Hmm what could we do... any suggests guys?

You said it... So when you go resting just forget about this forum until you got all the rest you need!!!!!!!

@hama71 Yes, after I'll finish with all I have to customize, I'll go rest, I promise

"Love & Catastrophes" by Cisco Kataru I have had a little hard time with this one !

Like others say... Thank you for your hard work and Awesome that you resolved the problem.. Hope you rest well, now !

Then i'll blame Matti that YO was down... (did you disconnect all internet so that we wouldn't be able to come to YO as well?! you meanie )

Dearest Key and the YO team, Thank you so much for your incredible efforts in making the forums functional again. I'm sure it was no easy feat but you all pulled through. We're all here to support you and cheer you on. Hope you got to read some of my replies to your twitter updates. Uhm..I am curious though are we on the new server already? Are we to expect any more downtimes in the near future? Thanks so much again. I hope my questions are not much trouble.

No, the latest posts weren't deleted. They were lost in the moving process. As I warned you a few days ago, all the posts and threads made in the last 2 days, while we were moving to another server were lost. I'm sorry for that and thanks for understanding!

@Amander 123 Pretty girl Everything looks good in you no matter what But yes it looks very very good

I've been anxious to get back on here despite me having limited time to do so cause of my job. Glad things are functioning again and Key we owe it all to you. I think I speak for everyone on the forums when we send hugs and luv and all that good stuff to you. Thanks again so much and stay safe!

So Serious, by Matsuo Marta Tsutaete Ii No, by Fujiyama Hyouta Spicy Hot Life, Fuwa Shinri Onna Ni Shika Wakaranai Kegarasu (prequel) and Yume No Awayuki (sequel), by Yamada Yugi Yubisaki No Kiseki, by Duo Brand

So I just got a haircut today and my hair is much shorter than it used to be. So I was wondering what you all think. Is is cute? It's kind of different from what I normally do but I like it I just want a second opinion so I know if I need to change it really fast before school lol

Oh man Bridge... I gotta love Thomas... I don't know what future you'll give the story but i just love him... I loved the chap, once again, i don't know what are you afraid of...it's very good I'm gonna miss ya even though i haven't benn around much either A big kiss f'o y'a :*

The Drama CD can be found here. (:

The story is focused on the main character, Ichimura Tetsunosuke, an energetic, short, and very childlike 15 year old. He and his older brother (Tatsunosuke) are left to fend for themselves after the vicious murder of their parents. While Tetsunosuke wants to get revenge, his pacifist brother is not so inclined. 'Tatsu' joins a special police force dubbed the Shinsengumi, as an accountant to earn a living, the organization 'Tetsu' wishes to join as a soldier to seek his revenge. The story chronicles Tetsu's trials and tribulations as a struggling page craving redemption. He develops relationships with all the legendary members of the Shinsengumi army helping them with their various struggles as he constantly battles his own against himself. At the story's climax, Tetsu discovers himself and the overwhelming responsibility the power he is searching for holds. Genre - Adventure, Drama, Historical ps-i like anythin that involve with 'Shinsengum 新撰組'

Kenta I barely had a chance to get my shoes off before Ryuu was dragging me through the apartment. I didn’t want to admit it but I was fucking nervous like I’d never been before in my life. Even when I’d been waiting to hear my sentence read at court I hadn’t been this nervous. I was shaking, bad enough that I didn’t like it, that weird slightly weak feeling. Before I realized it we were in the bedroom. He hadn’t bothered to turn the lights on and in the dim light from the windows I could make out him stripping. “I’m going to go take a quick shower. You are free to join me if you want.” The shaking was getting worse. Maybe . . . maybe doing just that would be for the best. I could get him off and maybe he would forget what I’d said. Yeah right, what the fuck was I thinking? Once Ryuu got an idea in his head you better just get out of his fucking way. Slowly getting undressed I followed him into the bathroom. Slipping into the shower behind him I noticed the bruise on his side. “Fuck! Ryuu, you got hurt when you fell!” “Oh, yeah it’s a little sore but nothing like when you broke your ribs I’m sure.” “I didn’t break them the guy with the baseball bat broke them.” I shivered as the water hit me. He liked his showers too fucking hot. “You sure you’re alright?” “Yes I’m just fine.” He turned to face me and not for the first time did I wish I was just a little bit taller. At least tall enough that I didn’t have to look up to meet his eyes. “Kenta . . . if you aren’t ready we don’t have to.” I blinked a couple of times and looked down. Shit, wrong thing to do because now I was looking at his cock which wasn’t what I needed to be looking at right now. I swallowed trying to think of what to say and looked back up at him. “I know you want too Ryuu but . . .” “You are scared of hurting me?” Nodding, I almost stepped back as he slowly ran the sponge over my chest leaving a trail of soap bubbles. “That’s an easy fix. I’ll be on top.” “Wha-“ He kissed me. “Don’t say anything. Just trust me, okay.” Seeing the look in his eyes I nodded. I did trust him. More than I’d ever trusted anyone since Ayame. He smiled at me, the soft grey eyes seeming to sparkle. Without saying anything else he slowly started to run the sponge over every inch of me. It was more relaxing than a turn on, but I enjoyed every second of it. I was more than happy to return the favor but he made me get out of the shower. “Dry off and get in bed. I’ll be there in a bit.” I was a little chilled as I slid under the covers, though the pricking sensation had nothing to do with the temperature. My heart seemed to skip slightly as I heard the shower shut off. It was several minutes later when the door to the bathroom opened again and I felt him get into bed. He slid up next to me, his skin still hot from the shower. “Oh, you are nice and cool.” He kissed my shoulder and I could feel him smile. “You smell good too.” I laid there not sure what to do or say and I heard him chuckle. Then he was straddling me, his chest against mine our lips touching. He kissed me lightly before pulling back and I felt his weight shift as he leaned over. The drawer of the night stand rattled open and I heard the unmistakable sound of him opening a condom. “Ryuu . . . “ “Shh . . . you trust me right.” “Yes.” It was barely a whisper, for some reason breathing was kind of difficult. Probably because he was still half laying on me. Yeah that was it. He kissed me again and slid down taking the covers with him. I kind of wanted them back. I bit my lip feeling his fingers wrap around me. He slowly stroked me until I was hard again, which didn’t take long at all. I was a little confused as I felt him slide the condom on me. Hadn’t he said he would be on top? I knew what that meant and it wasn’t this. I didn’t have time to ask as he crawled back up, his knees on either side of my hips. His mouth found mine and thinking became next to impossible as he kissed me, his tongue slipping in deep. I couldn’t help but respond, the taste of him turning me on even more. I’d felt him moving slightly as he kissed me and there was a sudden pressure against the tip of my cock but I didn’t think anything of it since I could feel his fingers too. That was until something very, very tight and hot slid around the head. Ryuu moaned and broke the kiss, his whole body trembling. He grabbed my arms forcing me back down as I went to move. “Just hold still . . . please.” He was a bit breathless. “Ryuu . . . are you sure? Is this okay?” “Shh . . . yes . . . yes this is much more than okay.” He shifted back and we both gasped, my head going back against the pillow as his fingers tightened on my arms. My entire length was inside him. Inside Ryuu. Oh fuck, this was really happening. It was so tight, the heat from his body almost more than I could take. He shifted slightly and it was like I could feel every little muscle move. I was shocked to realize I could feel his heart racing to match my own. “Oh fuck.” I opened my eyes at his soft laugh and looked up at him. He was smiling at me as he slowly started to rock his hips back and forth. I couldn’t stop the moan as the heat seemed to sear through me. He was so fucking tight it almost hurt as he moved and I grabbed his hips stopping him. “Ryuu . . . it’s not . . . you aren’t hurting are you.” He leaned down slightly to kiss me, the movement sending another rush of heat through me. “No, but you are a bit of a stretch.” “Don’t fucking tease!” He giggled and I sucked in a startled breath as muscles clench down even tighter. He slid forward enough that I thought he was going to get off of me, but just when I would have slipped out he was coming back down. Holy fucking shit that felt amazing. If I’d thought his mouth drove me crazy, I was going fucking insane now. I’d never in my life imagined I would find someone who made me feel so wanted, like I mattered more to him than anything else. It was overwhelming to know that he wanted to be with me like this. Just that he wanted me was more than I’d believed possible. Ryuu Gasping softly I kept my movements slow and shallow. It had been a long time since I’d bottomed, even from the top and the burn was making me a bit light headed. In a good way. Hearing the small sounds Kenta was making as I moved made it entirely worth it. His fingers tightened on my hips and suddenly he was meeting me as I came down. I’d been worried that the memories would interfere, but being on top helped. “Oh god.” That was perfect. The angle, the way he filled me so completely, the feel of his fingers, just it being him, all of it amazed me and made me feel like nothing in my life ever had. Not even being on stage gave me this kind of feeling. I was making love to Kenta and that was what it truly felt like, even if it sounded cliché. To be truly connected to him in every way possible made my chest ache with something I’d never felt before. It was like all those stupid love songs finally made sense and I almost had to laugh at myself. He was thrusting deeper each time, the sensation becoming so intense I knew I wasn’t going to last even without touching my erection. He seemed to have read my mind. The next thing I knew his hand was wrapped around me, slow smooth strokes making me whine. For someone who claimed to have never been with a man, he certainly knew what to do. I heard him make a low sound that was between a moan and a whine and suddenly his thrusts became a bit erratic. I was so close to going off myself and I didn’t want it to end this soon. I didn’t want this wonderful euphoria to ever stop. “Oh shit! Ryuu!” I shuddered, the feel of him coming sending a shock through me. Each pulse sent another dizzying spiral of heat through me until I was writhing. I came so hard it actually took my breath away, lights dancing before me. “Kenta . . .” It took me a while to get my breath back and I realized I’d slumped forward, laying on him. His one hand was trapped between us. His other one lightly stroked my back. His breath warm on my skin as he spoke. “You okay?” “Much much better than that.” I turned my head so I could kiss him. He kissed me back, the passion in it like nothing before. I sighed into the kiss, feeling at once light and full of happiness and also so very sensitive, even the slightest movements making me want to gasp. He gently slipped his hand out from between us and taking hold of my hips shifted me forward. I bit my lip a small whimper escaping as he slid free. I shuddered at the sudden empty feeling. Then he was lifting me and laying me next to him. He kissed me softly but with such affection it brought tears to my eyes. “Thank you Kenta.” A low chuckle was his only response. He got out of the bed for a moment, probably to get rid of the condom. I was still tingling from the after affects when he came back and then he was kissing me again, pulling me closer. He wrapped his arms around me and I idly wondered if we should go take a shower first, but it felt too nice where I was. I’d just change the sheets in the morning. I was going to bask in this feeling as long as I could. I fell asleep completely wrapped up in the man I loved.

Ryuu I could barely keep from pouncing Kenta on the ride home. I was dying to know what he had planned but he was his usual quiet, imperturbable self. Though it was cute to see him touch his neck every so often where I’d given him that hickey. I loved being able to break down that stern façade and make him go crazy. Speaking of . . . sliding my hand up his leg I leaned over against him. He twitched slightly and didn’t look at me. I couldn’t help but smile. “What are you thinking about?” Dark eyes flicked toward me then away. “Nuthin.” I didn’t believe that for a second. It irritated me that people just assumed Kenta was stupid because of the way he talked. Shaking off that thought, I reached up to brush his hair back from his face. I loved the way his hair would feather around his face, almost making him look boyish. He looked a lot softer than he really was. It had caught quite a few people off guard. That and his glare could eat through concrete. He must practice or something. Kenta had the ‘I’ll fuck you up so bad you’ll wish I killed you’ look. Which was kind of funny considering the man was pretty enough to put most idols to shame. I couldn’t help staring at him. I still remembered the first time I’d seen him. Really seen him. I’d seen him at Hayate’s bar before then, but I’d been too focused on Akira at the time. Akira had asked me and Sora to come to the hospital to visit a friend who was a fan. I’d jumped at the chance. I loved meeting fans. Though not quite the way I’d done it tonight. Thankfully that girl hadn’t been hurt when I’d fallen on her. She’d seemed more delighted than anything. I hadn’t known that the friend Akira was talking about was Kenta. He’d been assaulted and beaten unconscious by a group of boys with pipes. His injuries had been pretty severe, though I hadn’t been aware of it at the time. I don’t think I could ever forget seeing him sitting up in the bed. He’d been heavily bandaged, but it had still been easy to see that he was exceptionally good looking. His eyes had been the first thing to enthrall me. I’d never met anyone with eyes so deep that they pulled you in and held you captivated. There had been pain there, but also a determination that was unlike anything I’d ever seen. Akira had explained what had happened and I’d been shocked that anyone would go that far to help a friend. He’d been teaching Reiko to defend herself and had run into the very boys who had been harassing her. Six on one is never good odds, even with someone as skilled as Kenta. He didn’t know a formal style like Hasu, but he had years of street experience on his side. He’d been so happy to meet us and I had ended up staying after everyone left. We’d talked for hours. Well, I’d talked as he laid there listening, those inscrutable dark eyes never looking away. Before I’d left I’d asked if it would be alright if I came back the next day. That had been the first time I had ever seen him smile. Looking at him now, knowing him as well as I did, I knew it had to have been meant for us to meet. I needed him. Needed his calming quiet presence just like he needed me to see past the tough exterior to what he really was. I followed him out of the limo, keeping close to him. He had a hand on my elbow which was normal, but for some reason it felt different. The way his fingers curled around the inside of my arm, his grip firm yet gentle, was sending tingles racing over my skin. How could a simple touch do this to me? Naoki had never made me feel this way even when we’d first got together. I’d never had this nearly breathless anticipation, the sensation that I was jumping out of my own skin. I wasn’t going to hold back once we got to the apartment. I wanted him like I’d never wanted anyone in my life. Wanted to lose myself utterly and completely to this man I’d fallen for.

Kenta I woke to the feel of a warm hand sliding up my hip. “Ryuu . . . I’m sleeping.” “Not anymore.” I jerked my head away as he nibbled on my ear. “It’s almost two. I let you sleep in.” “Fuck! Why didn’t you get me up sooner?” “You looked so cute, I didn’t have the heart to wake you. And now I’ve got new wallpaper for my phone.” “Ito!” He squeaked and leapt out of the bed as I went to grab him. “Get back here!” I managed to grab his wrist and yanked him back down on the bed. His laughter made me smile as I pinned him. He was trying to wiggle out from under me, but I wasn’t having that. He looked too damn good to leave alone. His hair was done up in a simple ponytail, strands that had slipped free were laying across his cheek and forehead and even without his usual make-up he looked down right fucking hot. Keeping a tight hold on his wrist I grabbed his other arm so he couldn’t get loose. Leaning down I looked into those stunning grey eyes. “You are in big trouble now.” The eyes widened slightly, but I didn’t miss the way one corner of his mouth twitched. “Oh really?” He shifted slightly under me and I felt his leg wrap around mine. He suddenly pushed up and twisted at the same time. My back hit the bed the next instant. I stared up at him for a moment. “Fuck. When did you learn to do that?” He laughed and kissed me, a soft slightly moist press of lips against mine. “I’ve known how to do that for a couple of years now. Hasu showed me how. ” “Oh.” “You are really cute when you pout.” “Ain’t pouting.” “You are too. You don’t like it that I can pin you.” This seemed to be way too fucking funny to him. “Never said that.” “You don’t have to say it, your eyes give you away.” He laughed softly and slid back so that he was straddling my hips. I had to bite my lip as the sudden friction sent a rush of heat through me. “Oh, you liked that didn’t you.” “F-fuck! Don’t do that Ryuu.” I gasped as he ground his hips against mine. “I need to get up.” “Oh I’ll get you up, don’t worry.” “Ry-shit!” I gasped as he moved just right, my eyes squeezing shut for a moment. He was right about that. He didn’t really have to do anything at all to get me hard was the problem. I tried to get my arms out of his grip, but he was a lot stronger than he looked. He was grinning as he continued to move against me. He leaned down so that our faces were close. “I know this won’t get you off, but we can finish that in the shower.” I wasn’t quite sure what to think and honestly I didn’t care. He suddenly pulled back, pulling me up with him. “Come on lets go.” “Wait . . .right now?” “Well yeah.” “Wait! Wait! Ryuu! Aren’t the guys here?” “Kenta I have soundproofed walls and I locked the door so don’t worry about it.” That grin was going to kill me one of these days. I didn’t have much choice as he dragged me into the bathroom. I never thought anyone could strip so fast. I hadn’t even got my shirt over my head when I felt hands on my hips. I sucked in a startled breath as teeth lightly grazed a nipple. I jerked, my arms getting caught in my shirt. It was like an electric shock had just shot straight to my cock. “Fuck! Ryuu!” His soft laugh was quickly followed by another assault on my exposed nipples. I finished yanking the shirt free and went to grab him. He slid out of my grasp taking my shirt with him. That was when I realized my pants were around my ankles. Well shit. Stepping out of them, I went to grab him again. Sneaky little shit. He didn’t try to avoid me this time. Instead he stepped close, fingers latching on to my hips to pull me flush against him. I had to bite back a groan at the feel of him pressed up against me like this. Warm soft lips found mine and I was rather shocked when a tongue followed. That was new. New and very nice. Very nice. Sliding my hands down his back, I cupped that perfect ass and heard him moan softly. I shuddered as one of his hands slid down between us to slowly start stroking me. “Ryuu, we don’t have time . . . the concert . . .” He pulled back to look at me, perfectly arched eyebrows raised. “You are really going to make me stop?” I glanced toward the shower. I was going to blue ball myself doing this but Ryuu was my first concern. This concert was very important. Wasn’t it just yesterday that he’d been willing to alienate his friends in order to get things perfect? Sometimes I really did not understand what went through the man’s head. “Wait till after the concert. I don’t want you tired.” “Oh . . .” Something in his eyes changed slightly and he looked down. After a moment he looked back up at me through his hair and I seriously questioned if I wasn’t crazy. Who the hell would make him stop? I was fucking nuts! No one should be able to look so innocent and so fucking seductive at the same fucking time. “So . . . you have plans for after the concert?” “Guess you could say that.” Didn’t have a fucking clue what they were at this point, but they involved making one Ito Ryuunosuke scream my name. Fuck. Shouldn’t think about that. “Maybe we’ll actually use those condoms.” His eyes widened as his head jerked up. He stared at me for a long moment before grinning and hugging me close. “Are you sure? You said –“ “Yeah, I’m sure. Just go get ready and let me take my fucking shower.” I leaned against the counter behind me watching as he quickly got dressed and with one last smile at me left the room. I was still hard as a fucking rock. Fuck . . .had I really just promised what I thought I had? Oh fuck. That conversation had been fucking awkward. I’d tried to explain that I wasn’t quite ready to go that far. He’d pouted for a couple days after that. Couldn’t exactly come out and say ‘Sorry Ryuu I’m not ready to fuck you like you want cause I saw what happened to the guys in juvie and it scared the shit out of me.’ Besides that . . . I wasn’t ready for going that far just yet. Ryuu was too . . . he deserved better. As corny as it sounded I wanted it to be special not just a quick fuck. And I’d just screwed myself out of what would have been an amazing blowjob. Such a fucking idiot. But at least Ryuu had something to look forward to.

Holy fucking hell, he had to be kidding. I stood in the aisle at the market staring at the list in my hand. Ryuu hadn’t been joking about sending me shopping last night. My basket was nearly full and I’d gotten to the bottom of the list only to find this. Condoms. He wanted me to buy condoms. And not just the regular latex, no he wanted the expensive ultra thin sheepskin ones. Was he teasing me? Trying not to sigh too loudly I got the ones he wanted and headed to go check out. The clerk didn’t even bat an eye as she rang up my items even though I was sure my face was red. Next time Ryuu could buy his own goddamn condoms. Letting myself into the apartment I could hear music playing. They must be practicing and left the studio door open again. That meant everyone was probably over including Reiko. Going to the kitchen I started putting everything away. Sneaking back to the bedroom I hid the condoms in the drawer of the nightstand. I’d give them to Ryuu later. Going back out to the kitchen I decided to order dinner. I knew Hasu was going to be hungry. I was half asleep on the couch with the TV on when I heard them finally stop for the night. I was too tired to get up. The food would all have to be reheated, but I’d let them get their own. I blinked a few times feeling someone standing over me. I looked up to see Sora looking down at me. He shifted his weight glancing back over his shoulder. “Listen . . . I wanted to apologize for the other day.” “You already did.” “I know but . . . I don’t usually lose my temper like that and I’m really sorry.” “No, I deserved it Sora. Someone needed to knock some fucking sense into me.” I cringed after I said it and glanced around to make sure Ryuu wasn’t close enough to hear me. “Well, I won’t argue with that.” Sora grinned at me. “Thanks for getting dinner for us.” “No problem.” As soon as the door shut behind Sora and Hasu, Ryuu tackled me. “What the fuck! Ryuu!” He was giggling. “Did you get it?” “Yes.” “Where are they?” “Bedroom.” Where else would you need condoms? He jumped up and practically bounced down the hallway. What the fuck was up with him? I laid back down on the couch closing my eyes. I could hear him rummaging around, drawers opening and shutting. “Where are they Kenta?” “Why? Not like you need them.” “Where are they!” “Nightstand.” He came back with the box and a grin that rose the hairs on the back of my neck. He dropped the box in my lap. “Here. They are for you.” I stared up at him. “What?” “They are for you.” I think my brain kind of shut down at that point cause he sure as hell was not making any sense. “Ryuu, you can’t be serious.” He sat on the edge of the couch next to me, looking down at me. “I am serious.” I blinked as he reached down and ran his fingers through my hair. His eyes looked more blue than grey for some reason and seemed to stare right through me. “I want to be with you Kenta.” “B-but Ryuu . . . I’m hurt and-“ He laid a finger across my lips. “I didn’t say it had to be tonight, Kenta. I know that’s asking too much right now. Besides . . . have you ever been with a guy before?” I blinked a couple of times, honestly caught off guard by the question. “Um . . . no.” “I didn’t think so.” He grinned at me and leaned down to kiss me. Those amazing lips making me lose any grip I’d had on reality. Just when I thought I wasn’t going to be able to control myself any longer, broken ribs or not, he pulled away. “Can I ask you a question.” “Um . . . yeah.” My lips were tingling like crazy and I really didn’t want to be talking. There were much better things to do with those perfect lips of his. “Do you want me?” I finally tore my eyes from his lips and looked at him. There was a sadness deep in his eyes that I hadn’t noticed before. “What the fuck kind of question is that?” He flinched and I realized he’d taken it badly. I grabbed his arm before he could get up. “Why would you ask me that?” Ryuu I couldn’t meet his eyes. The feel of his fingers on my arm was both comforting and disturbing. I knew I was pushing things, pushing myself. I just wasn’t sure. I was never sure when it came to Kenta, except how I felt about him. I finally shrugged, not even sure what to say. I let out a small yelp as he suddenly pulled me down kissing me hard. A soft whine slipped free as he slid one hand into my hair the other coming to rest on my hip. The kiss was taking my breath away. All the urgency and need sending my pulse racing. I heard the box of condoms hit the floor as he shifted us and smiled to myself. I’d gambled big time putting those on the list and was shocked he’d bought them. I gasped as his lips found my neck making me writhe, tingling sensations shooting down my spine. “Oh god . . . Kenta.” I was trying not to move too much, afraid of hurting him, but the way his lips and tongue were attacking my neck it was hard to stay still. “You asked . . .” His lips were so warm and soft against my skin and I felt like I was melting, my body dissolving. “I’ve never been with a guy, but that doesn’t mean I don’t know what to do to make you feel good Ryuu.” That statement didn’t make a whole lot of sense to me, but thinking was becoming increasingly difficult. His hands were now under my shirt and I realized with a start that he was undressing me. The shirt was tossed off to the side and he grinned at me. “I’d have though you could tell how much I wanted you.” I blinked at him for a moment before I realized that the hardness pressed into my stomach was his erection. I couldn’t hold back the grin and got an answering one. He was already this hard after just a few minutes of kissing. It made me shiver in anticipation. “Want to move this to the bedroom?” I put every ounce of seductiveness I could manage into my voice and watched as those dark eyes got impossibly darker. I wiggled my hips and got a gasp. Now that was nice. “You got to get off me first, Ryuu.” I laughed and pushed myself up, helping him up as well. Getting into the bedroom proved to be a rather drawn out process as we took our time getting each other undressed, I was giddy with excitement as we finally ended up on the bed. “Fuck! Why are you so hot?” I shivered as Kenta’s hands slid across my skin. They were slightly calloused and the sensation was amazing. I couldn’t get enough of it. “You are making me very hot.” I gasped as his hand dipped between my legs, his fingers wrapping around me. His slow even strokes were nearly infuriating. I wanted so much more. “Kenta! Please . . . “ His soft laugh was all I got. I opened my eyes to see him leaning over me the dark eyes sparkling mischievously. “You really are a handful.” I groaned, “Don’t tease me. Just go faster.” There was another deep chuckle and suddenly there was a very hot mouth surrounding me. I moaned. It was better than any fantasy by about a hundred times over. He hadn’t been kidding when he said he knew how to make me feel good. Kenta-my beautiful Kenta was doing this, giving me this kind of pleasure. That thought alone was enough to send me crashing into oblivion.

Ryuu I would never get tired to looking at Kenta. Especially when he was sleeping. All the hardness was gone replaced by a soft gentle expression I’d never seen when he was awake. Would probably never see, honestly. The man really had no idea how good looking he was. His soft full lips were just barely parted and I was dying to lean in and kiss them, but he needed to sleep. He’d waited too long to take his next dose of pain medication earlier and had barely been able to move without whimpering. It scared me. Even now just thinking about made me nauseous. If he wasn’t doing better by morning I was taking him to a clinic. He’d whined about having to go last time, but I’d rather listen to him whine than make those pained sounds he’d tried so hard not to let me hear. It had taken me forever to convince him to lie in the bed instead of on the couch. Laying there watching him sleep I couldn’t help but think about the last time someone had slept in that spot. Reaching out I rested my fingers in the soft dark hair. Kenta was so completely different than Naoki. Granted Naoki had changed a lot in the time I’d been with him. He’d gone from fun and affectionate to controlling and abusive. The change had been so gradual it had left me doubting myself. Only Reiko and Sora’s intervention had saved me from being hurt any worse than I already had been. Curling up, I turned my face into the pillow. I didn’t want to think about what had happened in this very room, on this bed. I inched as close to Kenta as I dared. Just being able to feel his warmth was enough to comfort me. I knew I could trust Kenta. I’d known that ever since I’d met him. Naoki would never have helped Reiko. People weaker than him were to be used. Nothing else. He’d eventually made it very clear that he considered me weak and inferior. Kenta never made me feel that way at all, but part of me was still scared that he would change too. Would sex change everything like it had with Naoki? Even as much as I loved and wanted to be with Kenta, deep down I knew I wasn’t ready. Even after almost two years I wasn’t ready. Though I really wasn’t sure things were going to go that far anytime soon anyway. I knew Kenta wasn’t going to push anything on me. The exact opposite. Unconsciously, I licked my lips thinking of the way he’d tasted when I’d caught him in the shower. He’d come so fast I’d barely got to enjoy giving him pleasure. I desperately wanted to please him in every way possible. *** “What is this?” “Breakfast in bed.” Deep black eyes regarded me as if I were insane. “Why?” “Because I wanted to do something for you. I wanted to say thank you for helping me the other night when I was so sick.” His eyes immediately dropped his expression hardening and I wondered what I’d said. “Kenta-“ “I fucked up Ryuu.” “No you didn’t! You found me and took me to a clinic-“ “Wouldn’t of had to if I’d done my job in the first place.” I sighed and taking a finger nudged the bowl of miso toward him. “Shut up and eat. I’m tired of you whining about stupid stuff you can’t change.” That got me a surprised look. It wasn’t that often that I got on to him, but I really was tired of it, tired of him only thinking of this, of me, as his job. I just didn’t know how to get him to see me differently. I knew he was attracted to me, that was obvious, but he was too worried about everything else. Maybe I should just lock him in my bedroom for a while. That thought brought a smile to my face and I saw him narrow his eyes at me as he blew on the soup. “What? You’re always planning something crazy when you smile like that.” “Mm, nothing. Just thinking about pretty princes locked in towers.” He grunted, “Whatever. Weirdo.” “Finish your soup, then get ready because we are leaving.” “Eh? Why?” “You are going back to the clinic.” “No.” “Yes you are.” “No I’m fucking not.” I poked him in the side making him jump and start cussing, almost spilling the tray. “See, you are hurt. We are going to the clinic.” “F-fuck . . .” It took him a minute to get his breath back and I felt bad, kind of. “Don’t . . . don’t do that Ryuu.” “I won’t. Unless you say you aren’t going to the clinic again.” “Why are you being so mean to me?” “You are whining.” “I am not.” “Eat your soup.” “Fine.” Getting up off the bed, I couldn’t help but smile at him. His eye was turning purple, but the swelling had gone down overnight. The other bruises were dark and only going to get darker over the next few days. It was his ribs that were worrying me. He hadn’t acted this bad last time he’d hurt them and I was worried he’d hurt himself worse this time. It was just getting the stubborn ass to admit that he was hurt in the first place. Going to the closet I pulled out a pair of pants and a button up shirt. I knew from last time that raising his arms over his head would hurt. Besides, the buttons gave me an excuse to touch him as long as possible. “Ryuu . . . I’ll just go home.” I turned to look at him. “Kenta. You are my bodyguard. If you are injured and unable to perform your job I’ll have to have someone else do it. Besides that, Hayate already called and said he won’t be needing you at the bar for a while. That and if you don’t go willingly Jiro said he’d come get you.” Silence. “Bastard.”

Kenta “No more questions please.” I moved the reporter back, not bothering to be gentle about it. They were supposed to have left him alone after the press conference but everyone wanted to know about Akira. “It’s alright Kenta.” Ryuu’s soft voice was suddenly in my ear. “I’ve got this.” I nodded slowly and stepped back slightly so he could get around me. I kept within arms reach glaring at any of the leeches that got to close. I recognized a few of the regulars, they did me too. I got a few glares back but most were too interested in what Ryuu was saying. “Akira is doing just fine and is resting after filming our new PV. His health has improved and we expect to be able to do another tour in a few months along with the release of the PV.” Ryuu ignored any questions that asked what exactly was wrong with Akira. The official stance was fatigue, but the rumors were flying like they always did. Ryuu handled it all very well and after answering a couple more questions stepped back, my signal that he was done. Waving off the reporters, I led Ryuu back down the hall to the side stairs. I always had at least three routes we could take. His phone was already going off, the sound echoing in the stairwell. “Hey Tatsuya! Yeah. You got it set up? Awesome! I’ll see you then.” Ryuu hummed as I heard the phone snap shut. If Tatsuya was coming over that probably meant I was going to be free for the evening, for some reason that thought didn’t sit too well. I’d actually been looking forward to spending my one night off with him. As if I wasn’t around him enough as it was. Maybe I’m just a glutton for punishment. “Oh, you have to stay for dinner tonight Kenta. Haru and Tatsuya are coming over.” “Huh?” I looked back at him, nearly missing a step. “Tatsuya and I have been planning it for a while now, but with everything it kind of got pushed back.” “Okay . . . well I don’t see why I can’t.” I opened the door for him glancing around to make sure no one was waiting outside. “Cool.” He grinned at me as he slipped by, his fingers running through my hair. “You should let me do your hair.” “Like hell.” “Oh come on, Haru let’s Tatsuya dress him up.” Okay . . . that was not something I needed to know about Haru and since when was Haru hanging out with Tatsuya? Seeing the hopeful, almost pleading looking on Ryuu’s face I sighed. “Fine you can do my hair but that is it! Don’t even ask to do anything else.” “Oh! Thank you Kenta! I’ve been dying to do your hair. I know just how I’m going to do it too.” I don’t know what disturbed me more, the fact that I’d agreed or that Ryuu already had a style in mind. “Well fuck.” Ryuu Tatsuya and Haru stayed for quite a while. Cleaning up the empty beer cans from the living room I smiled seeing Kenta sprawled on the couch. It was kind of unusual to see him so relaxed. He looked entirely too good at the moment and I wondered how he did it. I had to work hours to look that sexy and he did it without even trying. His eyes were half closed but I could tell he was watching me as I walked around the living room. It gave me a rush, my heart suddenly pounding harder, my skin tingling. “Did you have fun?” His voice was a bit slurred by too many beers. “Yeah, did you?” “Yeah, though it’s weird seeing Haru like that.” “He’s happy. How is that weird?” It had been entirely too cute to see Haru and Tatsuya together. It was kind of odd to think that the normally acerbic and sometimes violent Haru was so considerate and gentle with the petite escort. Though the relationship obviously was working for the two of them which made me happy. Tatsuya and I had planned tonight, hoping that Kenta would get the hint. Though it didn’t seem to be working. Maybe I would have to do something to help it along. “No, that’s not what I meant.” Kenta pushed himself up on the couch. “He’s fun at work. He’s always joking with someone, it was just . . . different. He treats Tatsuya like he’s made of glass or something.” I giggled, unable to help it. “No not really. He’s just tender and sweet and affectionate. Tatsuya eats it up.” Kenta laughed. “Haru? Sweet?” “Yes.” I walked over standing in front of him looking down at him. The man was impossibly good looking and it took all my self control not to pounce him right then and there. “Is that so hard to believe?” “Umm . . . yes.” “Really? You know there are a lot of people who would say the same of you. They only see the brusque, harsh bodyguard.” He blinked at me the smile fading just a bit. “I’m not harsh.” “I know you aren’t.” I knelt down, grabbing a beer can that had somehow ended up under the couch. Setting it on the coffee table I let my gaze travel up. His dark eyes met mine and I realized I was dying to know what he was thinking. The way he was looking at me was making my whole body run hot. I shifted forward so that I was between his knees, my eyes still locked on his. “Believe me, I know you aren’t really like that. You are kind, and considerate, compassionate, honest, forgiving, patient, and stunning.” Long lashes lowered almost hiding the dark eyes. He was smiling at me. “You are so full of shit, Ryuu.” I leaned forward, placing my hands on either side of his hips. “Am I? I don’t think so.”

Ryuu The apartment was cold and dark. And empty, very empty. I tried not to think about how things had gone at the studio. Kenta probably thought I was a complete idiot. Everyone else did too. Not that I blamed them. I’d acted just like a spoiled rich brat not getting his way. Throwing a stupid tantrum was not going to help Akira at all. It was just my own self pity and insecurity. Without bothering to turn on any lights I headed straight for my room. Stripping, not even bothering to put my clothes in the hamper, I slid under the covers. I was too tired, physically and emotionally to bother with a shower. Filming was tiring anyway and I’d worn myself out being all emotional and stupid. Clutching at the pillow I buried my face against it. No matter what anyone said it was my fault Akira had quit eating. It had been my insistence that everyone look good for the filming that had started it. I was sure of it. I knew how sensitive he could be when it came to his appearance. Some friend I was. Sighing, I forced myself not to think about it. The filming was over. Akira had already gained a couple of pounds back since leaving the hospital two weeks ago. Reiko would take good care of him. Better than I ever did or could. I woke sometime later. The green glow from the clock on the nightstand barely illuminated the side of the bed. It was just after three in the morning. I sat up looking around wondering what had woke me. I was too tired to bother getting up and snuggled back down into the covers. I’d no sooner closed my eyes than I felt the bed move. Terror surged through me, freezing me in place. “You little slut.” I gasped, hearing the familiar voice, one I’d hoped to never in my life to hear again. I scrambled back, grasping for the sheets. “You thought you could get rid of me didn’t you?” I slammed into the head board and glanced around frantic for a way to get away. The light seemed wrong and I couldn’t breathe. It was suddenly hard to move. “D-don’t touch me!” “Oh, I’m going to do a lot more than touch you.” His voice was like liquid terror pouring over me, seeping into me until all that existed was those dark eyes and grasping hands. I tried to get away, to get out of the bed, but he grabbed my arm yanking me back down. That incredible strength that I had once relied on was now turned against me. The first hit stunned me and I was roughly flipped over and pinned to the bed. “No!” I gasped as my back hit the floor. I blinked a few times staring up at the ceiling. The room was bright with sunlight. Taking a few deep breaths I laid my head back closing my eyes. It was just a nightmare, but it had felt so real. I could still feel those fingers grabbing for me, feel the fist hitting me. I shuddered and slowly sat up feeling sick. Grasping for the bed I pulled myself up. I was shaking, barely able to keep a grip on the sheets. How could a stupid dream scare me that bad? Running a trembling hand through my hair, I forced myself not to think about it, about him. Staggering to my feet I made it into the bathroom, grabbing my phone on the way. Kenta “Who the fuck . . .” I groaned feeling around for my phone. I blinked a few times trying to focus on the display. “Six in the fucking morning. You better have a damn good reason Ryuu . . . Hey whats-“ “Kenta?” I sat up, any tiredness forgotten at the breathless panicked voice. I’d never heard him sound like that before and it sent a chill through me. “Can you come over please?” “Yeah sure. It’ll take me about thirty minutes to get there.” “O-okay, just let yourself in.” “Alright, I’m on my way.” I got there in twenty minutes. The doorman nodded as he let me into the lobby. Taking the elevator to the sixth floor I got out my key. I was nervous for some reason. Ryuu had sounded so upset and . . . scared. That was the only thing I could think. He’d sounded terrified on the phone. Opening the door I let myself in, making sure to take my shoes off. The apartment was almost eerily silent. “Ryuu?” I checked each room as I walked down the hall. He wasn’t in the office or the studio that left the bedroom. Opening the door, I blinked a few times at how bright the room was with the sunlight streaming in. The bed was a mess, the sheets mostly on the floor, but no Ryuu. Where the hell was he? “Kenta?” The soft, almost hesitant voice startled me. Turning I spotted him standing in the bathroom wrapped in a sheet. He’d been crying, that much was obvious from the blood shot eyes. I started toward him, stopping as he looked down, his whole posture changing as he almost seemed to crumple in on himself. “I’m sorry for calling you so early . . . I . . . just had a bad dream is all.” Must have been one hell of a bad dream, I thought to myself, to get him this upset. “Well, it’s over now. I’m here so I might as well make you some breakfast. Why don’t you come in the kitchen with me and you can tell me about this dream.” He nodded slowly still not looking at me. When he made no move to follow me I walked toward him. I reached for his arm thinking it would comfort him; instead he flinched, cowering almost as if he expected me to hit him. I narrowed my eyes. One fucking hell of a nightmare apparently. Slowly I grasped his wrist and pulled him toward me, not meeting any resistance. “Ryuu . . . why don’t you-“ I grunted in surprise as he suddenly grabbed me, his arms wrapped tight around my chest as he buried his face against my neck. He was entirely too warm and I suddenly realized . . . completely naked. Fuck. That shouldn’t matter. Ryuu was upset. Ignoring the feel of the slender, toned frame pressed up against me I patted his head. “Hey, it’s alright. It was just a dream.” “Yeah . . . just a dream.” I shivered feeling his lips move against my neck. What the fuck was wrong with me? “I’m sorry for calling you so early . . .” “Well . . . it’s not really in my job description so I guess I’ll have to charge you extra.” That got a soft laugh and he stepped back. I found myself staring into blue grey eyes and before I’d even thought about it, I reached up to brush the blonde hair out of his face. “You really need to cut your hair.” That got my hand smacked and an offended look. “I can’t cut it! The fans love my hair!” That set off a whole outburst about people not understanding fashion or what it meant to be a visual band. At least I’d got his mind off the dream and whatever else was upsetting him. I chuckled shaking my head as I left him in the bedroom so he could get dressed. Breakfast was going to be simple. I was too fucking tired to make a big fancy breakfast. Going to bed at two in the morning only to get woke up four hours later was not that fun. I set his plate on the table and sat down to wait on him. When he finally came out I was shocked at how different he looked. He looked every bit the rock star he was, though the timid smile kind of shattered the image. He’d spiked his hair and braided some of the longer strands. Dark eyeliner made the light colored eyes stand out even more. He was wearing his black leather pants that the girls always raved about. I’d had to stop more than one grabby fan from trying to touch him when he wore them. The white button up shirt had yet to be buttoned, showing off the flat stomach and toned chest. I’d give Ito one thing, he was good at looking good. I pointed to the plate. “Made yer breakfast.” “Oh, thanks. You didn’t have to do that.” I shrugged and stood up. “Well, for once there was food in the fridge. You goin’ out today.” “Yeah, I’ve got to meet with one of the producers. I actually forgot to tell you, but . . . I kind of need you to go with me. There is going to be a small press conference later too.” “Nakamara already told me.” In fact I had Ryuu’s schedule for the next month. Ryuu wasn’t exactly forgetful, he just got busy. “Today just started a little early is all.” Ryuu’s eyes flicked up for a second as he sat down. “Yeah, sorry about that. Haven’t had one of those nightmares in months.” I didn’t say anything. If he wanted to talk he would. Going to the fridge I found his juice and got him a can out. He was picking at his food as I set the can down next to his plate. “Am I that bad a cook?” “Oh. No! No, it’s just . . . I’m sorry for making you get up so early. I know you worked last night too.” “Do me a favor and quit fucking apologizing and eat. Next time I’ll just tell you to fuck off.” I smiled at him to show I was kidding and he grinned back at me. “Yeah right. You like the money too much.” “Fuck yeah.”