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The lights were out. There was nobody there… “I’m such a fool… What was I expecting. He left the bar about the same time as me, and he was with that guy… He’s probably fooling around somewhere…” I walked to the room, undressed my wet cloths and went straight to shower… I turned the hot water, and it felt good against my cold body. I dressed my other suit, packed all my stuff in a small bag, I sat on the couch and I waited for him to arrive. I turned on the tv, and while i was there I felt cold again. “Shit is this really going to happen…?” As soon as I said it I heard the door open… He walked in and I could see his confused face looking straight at me. “What are you doing standing there?” “I’m waiting for you Shu… We have to talk…” “Talk? About what? And at this hour… Can’t it wait till tomorrow? I’m kind of exhausted right now…” “I know you’re exhausted…And it’s about that exhaustion of yours that I wanted to talk about…” “What the he…” “Where were you Shu? What were you doing until this late hour…?” “Where I was…? Working of course! I had a lot of problems today that I needed to take care of…why the hell are you asking me this now?” “A lot of problems at work uh? I see… Isn’t there anything that you want to tell me Shu?” “What the hell is going on Hana, why are you acting this way? You now I work late sometimes, you never complained, so now it’s no good…? I’m not gonna listen to this bullshit anymore, I’m going to bed…” That was all I could take. “I saw you Shu…” It was like dropping a bomb… My eyes acted all by themselves and I couldn’t stop crying again anymore. “How could you do something like this to me (sob)… You promised me we would always be together, (sob) even if we knew it was something so hard to achieve, we were trying, and the only thing I asked of you (sob)… Don’t hurt me (sob)…wasn’t it…WASN’T IT??” He stared at me blankly, I don’t know if he understood right then what was happening or if he was amazed with my words… “What are you talking about Hana? You saw me? You saw what… What are you saying…” “Stop it Shu…don’t act like there’s nothing behind all of this. You want every word than I’ll tell you straight to you’re face…I saw you with another man in a gay bar. Is it enough or do you still want me to give you the details of what I saw inside the bar?” At that time several possibilities crossed my mind… Was he going to ask for forgiveness, or was he happy I found out so he could dump me faster… The answer came faster than I wished. “Well ok you saw me with a guy I usually go out when I want sex, so what?” I turned pale, and colder than I already was… My heart squeezed so tight there was no room for nothing else but sorrow… “Well…Nothing apparently…Goodbye Shun…” I was already half way to the door when he grabbed my arm… “What the hell you think you’re doing, or where do you think you’re going?” “Away from you that’s where I’m going so let go of my arm Shu…” “I’m not letting go until you understand… Do you think it’s easy for me to be with you everyday, do everything with you and remain the same? It’s not! I tried to have only you but you have to understand that sex is something I need to have, and if I want to be with you forever I have to do this…” “What are you saying that I’m not enough for you, that you still need to have others on the side just in case I’m not in the mood to screw with you?? What the hell is wrong with you? I don’t want this, I don’t want this kind of relationship… I’m leaving.” I pulled out my arm and started walking away… I wasn’t going to listen to this, he was making a fool out of me… “What… You think you’re going to find someone who’ll be able to stick up to that… Yeah go ahead and find the perfect guy… There’s some news for ya honey HE DOESN’T EXIST YA HEAR ME… I bet you’ll come begging in two days…that’ll be enough. 2 days and you’ll be here at this door step, begging me to take you back.” As I walked away I still heard him scream something that I wasn’t able to understand anymore. I kept my back to him and kept walking… “Don’t worry Shun… I won’t come here anymore, even if it killed me… Goodbye.” Truly, I said that to myself more than I said to answer him… Well that's for today...hope you enjoy... :* Next time Hana is going to find Mina again...let's see how Hana reacts to sexy Mina Kisses*

Well here goes nothing Story status : Well Hana found out Shu was betraying him, and still at the bar he's so drunk he needs the help of Mina, a dancer at that same bar... But now Hana is better, and has to face everything that has happend to him... So what will he do? Hope you enjoy. Spell – Chapter 2 While I was standing behind the stage, I watched all his performance… There weren’t words good enough to describe it. How could something so beautiful be made by a person, I wondered… “I have a boyfriend right now…Do I really want to do this? Am I this kind of person? Yes, he is unbelievable, so much that I don’t trust my eyes right now but…did I really mean it? No…. I didn’t, and since I became a bit sober I should apologize for my behavior and go home… I would work things out with Shu.” Or better settle them once and for all. I won’t let this continue, this miserable life, this empty feeling hovering on me every second of every day… Enough was enough and things would end between us tonight. I finally stoop up, and went to find the ”dancing man” (jeez i didn’t even know his name, how embarrassing)… I went to met him, and he was talking to someone. I got a little closer, I was so ashamed with myself that my face felt like was it was being cooked inside out… “Ok…relax, say hello, say sorry for everything and thank you….and then go home. Ok this is a good plan, sigh…” When I almost got by his side I recognized the person he was talking to. Shu was standing there holding the other guy’s hand, talking to the dancer, he seemed to be praising him. Then the other guy also shook the dancer hand and they left after only a few seconds. I stood there watching the all scene, like a movie…unable to do or say anything. It was nerve racking…”Just calm down…one thing at the time.” I took 2 steps forward and he looked back at me with that same dazzling smile of his. “I there…Feeling better now? Do ya need a cab or I could walk ya home if you’re still not ok?!” I thought about it again…Having the possibility of having him seemed almost too good(or not, maybe he wasn’t gay right…I just assumed that due to his work place…I could be wrong). “Stop it, just stop it” I thought to myself, I got have a hold on my feelings and this is not the best way… “Thank you so much for today, you really helped me out…”I smiled shyly…I didn’t want him to see my face, I was probably horrible from all that crying so I kept my head down. “I’m so sorry for causing a commotion here, I was just feeling a little down and I kind of drank too much…so I’m really sorry for that. Hum, you don’t need to bother about me now, I’m fine so I’m heading home while I’m feeling better…” I turned around so I could leave, but he grabbed one of my hands. “So you would just leave without even telling me you’re name cutie?” “Ahah, cutie yeah right...”-I managed to say-“but thanks anyway…” I extended my other hand. “I’m Hana.” Just when I thought he was going to shake mine he pulled my entire arm to himself, holding my waist he took my lips without giving me a chance to back away… “I’m Mina. Nice to meet ya Hana” He licked the top of my mouth once again and gave that killer smile, his voice was soft velvet in my ears, all of my neck hair stood up… The balance I was so strongly trying to keep broke and I almost hit the floor. Knees shaking, head spinning… Was all of this for real?! I broke his embrace and gave some distance between us… There was no way I wouldn’t give in if he so much touched the tip of my finger… It was such an arousing feeling, that all parts of my body were pleading for. “What the hell you think you’re doing mister?” “Well that was my thank you gift…” He joked. “I don’t think I ever gave you permission for such, and I already thanked you for everything, so there was really no need for you to do that…” “I just felt like it…You’re so cute” he teased. “I’m…wha…well goodbye.” That one got me that’s for sure… I turned around the fastest I could, but my feet were still deceiving me. Trying to keep my balance on alcohol and such an excited state was no good to keep my body moving accordingly to the way I wanted it. I rushed thru the door… I was able to feel the cold air outside, and my head became clearer. I heard footsteps behind me. “Hey ya sure you don’t need me to walk ya home… I really don’t mind ya know.” “I’m positive. Good night.” I went my way… I don’t know why but I still glanced behind for a long time, until I could no longer see him. Gosh I hoped he didn’t saw me looking at him like an idiot. Soon, as I was walking the important issue came to my mind. After all that has happened tonight I still have to go home, and have a life changing moment. Tonight was final. Tonight I would let him go. The thought of regret started building inside of me, but I couldn’t realize if I was regretting the situation I was about to face, or the fact that I didn’t do it earlier. Do I really love him? At that point I wasn’t so sure anymore. The sense of freedom became a scary feeling, I didn’t want to spend my life alone… Alone… That thought brought me back to old memories. To the time we swore to never let go of each others hands. To the time we picked our house, to the time I bought him a hideous sweater that he hated but told me he loved it because I gave it to him… “Oh god… I’m breaking breaking inside.” Every step I took towards that door brought me a memory, and every memory brought me even more pain… “What did I do wrong…? Where did I fail you…? I only took time loving you and you go and do something like this to me….You promised (sob)…Ya prom (sob)….” “I HATE YOU…I HATE YOU FROM MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY…” My knees gave away and I fell on the snow covered floor crying… I stood there for what it looked like an eternity. My body was frozen from standing for too long on top of the snow. At least all the things I remembered we’re good, and that gave me strength to lift my head and walk the rest of the way… I was now standing in my front door, hand on the knob… Too scared to open it. But I had to. I took a deep breath and I walked in.

Original name: Affair Manga ALT. names: 「再愛妳一次!」「アフェア」 Original run: 2005 Description: "Affair" is a collection of oneshots involving different plots: 1) Affair Yoshiyuki meets his senior,Okabe, from high school once again. But are things same as before? 2) My Dear Mad Dog Half siblings struggling not only in Yakuza's world to survive,but as well in a relationship involving hate-love. 3) One Lucky Guy What can a game of Mahjong lead to? Is always luck the most important thing? 4) Love Machine Yagi gets help from Tamiya to get a driver's license,but is there another reason why his university fellow is helping him out? 5) Erotic Affair An extra of chapter 1. Manga-type: Oneshots Written by: KANO Shuiko Drawn by: KANO Shuiko Published by: Tokuma Shoten Group(s) Scanlating: Secret Haven; Sweet Lunacy Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama,Yaoi Categories: Yakuza, Incest, Seke, Sport Main Characters: YoshixOkabe(Affair); KyouichixHijiri(My Dear Mad Dog); HirosexTakei(One Luck Guy); TamiyaxYagi(Love Machine) Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Warawanai Ningyo; Trigger; Ten- Tenna Toori no Kaidanji; Foreskin Boys; Hero - Gyakkyou no Touhai Read Affair Online Affair Download Affair Manga Download Download link for non-members For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: 落下恋文 Manga ALT. names: Falling Love Letters Original run: 2010 Description: Isa is sick and tired of confronting his tenant, Hasegawa-san who is an author, to pick up after himself and pay his rent. With the second last of his tenant leaving, Isa’s suddenly stuck with a dilemma on whether or not to continue renting the place out or sell it. But, a visit to a local bookstore maybe change his perspective and bring more excitement to his mundane daily life… Manga-type: OneShot Written by: Minazuki Akira Drawn by: Minazuki Akira Published by: France Shoin Group(s) Scanlating: Echochi Scans Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Yaoi, Romance, Slice of Life Categories: Megane, Drama Main Characters: Isa x Hasegawa Adaptations available: x Recommendations: Milkman; Sugar Code Download Falling Love Letters Manga: Falling Love Letters by Minazuki Akira For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

I am really picky when it comes to shota, both concerning the art and the story in itself. It's not one of my fetishes so I don't read it often but occasionally it doesn't hurt. Saigo No Sangatsu, by Tsukumo Gou One of the rare shota titles I really enjoyed reading, so much that I read it again from time to time. Don't expect cutesy art and big eyed boys who look like girls with an extra here, Tsukumo's (gorgeous)art and plot line takes a more realistic approach than most mangakas and that's what makes it stand out, at least for me. Totally recommended. (: Imadoki No Shishunki, by Monchi Kaori Porn with plot, and good plot, at that. There's yummy rape, too. And I like Kaori. Furimuku Dake De Anata Tsumi Na Otoko, by Kotobuki Tarako This one... I'm not going to lie, I have a feeling the only reason I like this one is because I love Kotobuki like mad and I probably (most likely) wouldn't waste a second on it if it weren't for that. Koibito Wa Suiito Rabi by Miroku Kotoko Cute and surprisingly forceful ukes, yay. (-_-) At first glance it's not my thing at all but I took a liking to the art...

Well....to be honest i don't really have much talent but i wrote a little something... The characters are not known, they'r all from my head...Hope you like it. Summary : Hana is in a very complicated relationship with Shu... Then one day Shu doesnt show up to meet Hana and Hana decides to go drinking...He finds out Shu is being unfaithful and in the middle of this turmoil he meets Mina a stunning stage dancer.... Hope you enjoy(dont expect much though ) Status: Complete Warning: This fiction is rated +18! It contains strong language and explicit sex scenes. Spell…. “23:00 pm…” “What the hell am i waiting for at this hour?” “If he’s not coming then he’s not, and I’m leaving…There’s no way I’ll stay here in this cold waiting for nobody….” “It’s always like this, he’s busy, and he has work but what about me?” “For two years we’ve been in this kind of relationship in which no one gives in…I’m tired already of the empty house or the lonely hours I spend every day…I’m going to have a drink….sigh” And so I went, expecting nothing but a full glass of alcohol that could make me forget everything. All I wanted was an escape from an exhausting relationship, that seemed to last for too long already, it wasn’t working at all, but I still cared for him… But in fact, that night brought more than what I was expecting… I entered the first bar I saw, it wasn’t in a very good place but who cared I wanted to find someone and maybe, who knows be able to chat a little… I asked for a beer, but not even the beer was enough to take away the bitter taste I had in my mouth, so I asked the waiter to bring me a whiskey double(now that was going to work for sure). I kept asking one after the other, still sitting alone with nobody to talk to. I kind of analyzed the mood around me, apparently I entered some shady place, and it was so dark I couldn’t almost see a hand in front of me… I started looking around and was able to recognize something similar to a stage, it wasn’t big or very well equipped to a live performance and I wondered if there was something happening , cause it didn’t seem the kind of place to hold concerts… I looked the other way and saw a few small tables with a couple of chairs, filled with people, it toke me a second to realize they were couples, male one’s…(so I really did come to the right place uh)… if I wanted to find someone tonight not only for chit-chat it would be easy in this kind of place). The thought made me shriver… Yeah I was mad at him but did I really want to betray him, or was I just so mad to make him believe I did it? I didn’t know what to do…but the next few seconds changed everything… Shu walked thru the front door with someone I didn’t recognize…and honestly I was only able to see his face cause of the light outside when he opened the door…. I felt crushed…I couldn’t move an inch and I started shaking and wasn’t being able to stop… I picked up my cell phone just make sure and called him…If he picked it up what would I do? I tried to dial his number, he was always the first name on my phone list…I took the phone to my ear but all I eared was still the voice mail…. Was it really him? Was I seeing things? I stole another look and it was so hard because of the dark but my eyes were adjusting to the dim light and I was sure… Shu was with another man I didn’t knew… It couldn’t possibly be one of his co-workers because they didn’t know he was gay. I didn’t want to believe that he found somebody else and left me in the dark, double crossing me. My heart was about to burst…how could he do something like that to me…he left me out in the cold winter and came here with someone I didn’t know…who was this person, what did he meant to him, for how long was this going on? It was just too much for me to handle at that time…I started to feel dizzy… I just wanted to leave…but my body wasn’t responding. That was when I first saw him… “Are you alright, do you need help getting up?” The drinks started to get to me and I wasn’t able to stood up…I was shaking all over but I wanted to get out of there…I couldn’t stop my tears, and they started to fall…All the tears I’ve wanted to shed for so long began falling endlessly … “Look if you aren’t feeling alright I don’t mind taking you to a cab or something you’d just have to wait a little…” I knew he was talking to me but I wasn’t able to understand clearly what he was saying… He helped me get up and took me to some other place in the bar, with even less light… “Ok c’mon…sit here, I’m gonna bring ya’ glass of water… Boss get me some water” (he yelled at someone)… I wanted to focus on his face…to see who was being so kind to me…to see who was the person who was caring so much for me…nobody ever did…I wanted to thank him, but my voice didn’t come out I was still sobbing like a crazy person, and making a scene in a public place…Oh God what if Shu sees me? And why am I so worried about him, he surely never worried about me… “Hey look, I’m gonna leave ya here so you gotta be a good boy and behave, later I’ll take ya home or something…” He stood there looking at me, and for the first time I was able to see his face… He was perfection itself… The long black silky hair, a black kind of shining kimono and a dazzling smile…I had never seen so much beauty with my eyes… “Aren’t you a cutie…”He said while he watched me and smiled… I was dazzled, lost and confused…I could no longer figure out where I was, what was I doing, who was i… Some music started to play in the background, and the stage lights began to shine so brightly in that dark place that my eyes filled with tears hurt when I wanted to open them… I was standing just beside the stage and the lights would certainly give me away… “Shit I have to get out of here…if Shu sees me here, what am I going to do…what will he do… I don’t want to know”. A drum began to play… It was such a painful beat…It was so similar to my own heartbeat right then, that it was crushing, one after the other the strong thumping was bringing me to some other place and I felt myself being driven away by it… “Hey cutie I’m gonna have to go cause it’s time for me to dance, but don’t go anywhere, I’ll take care of you in a minute, ok?” That dazzling smile again… He went to the stage, and it suddenly dawn on me that the only thing that mattered was watching him…He was going to dance? Really…?He was a dancer…? I wanted to see…I wanted to see him…But why?! My eyes centered themselves on the small stage when a shadow took the place of the light… What I saw next left me breathless… The black figure standing so still in stage now, was till a few seconds ago holding my hand…I felt it warming just thinking about it. He started to slowly move to the drum beat, and I was lost. His face, his body…everything looked like was putting a spell on me, the way his hand moved to me felt like his previous touch was enticing my body to what more, to want his caress to want his kiss…to want his everything… Was it the alcohol, or something else…? I couldn’t help thinking what would he feel like if I touched his bare chest underneath that silky kimono…what his hair would smell like, the touch of his hand in me… His dance was so sensual, I was beginning to wonder if he was real, if he wasn’t something my mind made up to ease my loneliness… I wanted more. I didn’t want to end there, so I started drinking water to make sure my five senses became restored… And I remembered Shu…sitting somewhere in that place, watching his dance as well. I became fire inside, I wanted to scream and beat the hell out of him. But now wasn’t the time. I would ask the beautiful dancing man to take me home, and who knows maybe something will happen, and I’ll be able to get my revenge on Shu for everything he did to me. The thought of revenge made me feel powerful, and I liked that kind of feeling.. I was going to make it last for a little while longer…" Well that's all for now. I'll soon post something else to continue the story What will happen between Hana and Mina? And what about Shu, how will he react finding out Hana saw him? Stay tunned

Another glass is all it takes Leads to more bull To more mistakes The cork comes off So do the gloves You chug it down Can’t get enough I watch the bottle Grow clean and clear All of my feelings Are gone but fear. You turn to me You’re eyes are dead You’re gone again You’ve lost your head I turn away Can’t stand that look But just one word Is all it took You call me bitch You call me whore I cannot stand it I won’t no more You start to swing I’m lucky you missed Just makes you mad In fact you’re pissed. You swing again This time connect. This time the blow Lands in my neck I hit the ground The air’s all gone I should have known This was a mistake all along I move aside Reach for the gun I’m done with this You better run The trigger’s cold I feel the chill I’m scared to pull it But I know I will The bullet hits The blood just spreads My problem’s gone You’re finally dead

Title: Kedamono Nanbiki? [How Many Beast?] Mangaka: HONJOU Rie Genre: Explicit Yaoi, School Life Length: 1 Volume (6 Chapters + Extra) Scanlator: Fantasyshrine Summary: How do you react when your lover gives you a sex manual after your first time together? Try harder, or give up completely? Yuta just moved into an apartment building for singles run by his aunt and uncle. His cousin, Mamoru, used to look so cute but now... Sequel of Kibishiku Aishite. Download link removed upon scanlator's request

OMG!!! Ok...I'm a big fan of Yamato Nase's work and this is the first time I'm reading this. Oh wow... I was a little worried because it had the cheesiest title ever and yes I admit it that it might creep me out. I'm not really a fan of needy clingy ukes and in a shota environment just doesn't jell for me. But THIS I did not expect at all.

I'm not much of a shota fan. Like you I am very picky as well. But going through this list you gave.. I must say Imadoki no Shishunki was incredible! I love the pacing. I like how each of the characters struggled and how they transformed from their past to their present. We also get to see from each of their perspective. The guilt, the confusion, the tension, the release... It was quite an unexpectedly good story. I like that it kept me on the edge bracing myself for a tragedy to happen. Koibito wa Suuito has very, very cute and smooth artwork. I like the right balance of the stories They were fun and cute and almost adorable without the creepy factor which is usually very, very common in most shota manga. I like how cunning the uke characters are and they seem to know what they want. I like the fact they're strong willed. And I now I realize I much, much prefer bunny ears than cat ears.

OGA X FURUICHI IS SO HOT... I LIKE THEIR POSITION HERE THEY ARE SO CUTE

Here it's a list of shotacon manga... A Ai no Aura Ai no Houritsu Aishichattano Anbalance Lover Awakening Puberty B Baby Pink Boku no Goshujinsama Bucchouzura ni Koi wo Shite C Complex Crazy For Daddy D Dear. Gentle Papa E Elle to Takara Etowa F Furimuku Dake de Anata Tsumi na Otoko G Gensou Shounen Koimonogatari H Himitsu no Kemonotachi J Jack in the Box K Kanmitsu Danshi Kimagure Love Cupid Kitsune no Tama Yobai Koibito Shigan Kuroshitsuji dj - Sono Shitsuji, Yokujou L Love Price!? M Magical Travel Boy Mimi to Shippo to Mahoutsukai Minami no Kuni no Oujisama N Naruto dj - Buttai no Kairaku Naruto dj - Cobalt Naruto dj - Tsuki no Ko O Oujisama no Kiss P Puchi D Kemono S Saigo no Sangatsu Samishii Yoru no Himitsu T Tenshi no Heart Rhythm Tonari no Shibafu Toukyou Yaban no Chizu Tsuki ni Ookami W Wana Wana Kiss

Title: Sensei wa Dummy Drama CD Plot: Yunogi have no working experience, but after being tricked into thinking he got a normal job out of luck it turns out it's not so normal after all. Yunogi have to act as the horror writer Kirino Shuusuke's dummy Groups Scanlating : yonezou fans Author : NEKOTA Yonezou Genre : Comedy Doujinshi Yaoi Download Sensei wa Dummy Drama CD: http://www.mediafire.com/?i2h0fihq4kli47a For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Plot: Shiraishi Shoutarou, a novelist, just learnt that his young and honest editor-in-charge, Osanai Masumi, would marry his precious daughter. But his daughter went missing right before the wedding! So now, Shoutarou is living under the same roof with the man who was supposed to be his son-in-law... Altenative name: I'm Sorry!! Masumi-kun, Sorry!! Masumi-kun Author: Itsuki Kaname Read Sumanai Masumi-Kun Online: Sumanai Masumi-Kun Download Sumanai Masumi-Kun Manga: http://www.mediafire.com/?5aqacb1n62c55le PS: This is one of my most favorite manga For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Status: Discontinued Author Note: The promised surprise and possible continuation of the Misu x Shingyouji romance from my previous oneshot fanfic titled ImPure. Thank you to each and everyone who have loved and read my previous fanfics. I am deeply grateful. Lovingly dedicated to all Takumi-kun fans. The inspiration was so strong after watching Pure. I hope you will find it a pleasure to read as I had so much pleasure and excitement writing it. Before we begin to read, let us reflect on this image to set the mood. ------------------------------- rabbit8 PURENESS “Okay..what in the world is that?” Misu frowned as he looked at his young lover strangely as Shingyouji wrestled with his white fluffy costume. “I'm a bunny rabbit. I'm doing this as a favor for my boss. It's his kid's birthday party. Isn't it cute?” Idiot, you're already cute even without it. Misu smirked but he won't say it out loud. “So when do you start your rabbit gig?” Misu sat on the chair and merely observed Shingyouji who was admiring and waving at at his reflection in the mirror. “Tomorrow.” Came the response. Shingyouji proceeded to take off the costume and stuff them in the big bag along with the fluffy bunny ears and pink nose. “Alright.” Misu stood up and went to their kitchen and saw there was curry on the stove. He poured some of it in a bowl and took it to the table while Shingyouji began setting the table. This particular dinner time was special as they didn't share the same schedules. Misu being a hospital intern and Shingyouji balancing his part time job as a convenience store clerk and college taking up Phys Ed. “By the way, I have a surprise for you.” Shingyouji smiled and pulled out two tickets out of his messenger bag. “Where did you get these?” Misu looked at them surprised. “My co-worker sold me those tickets last week since he won't be able to attend it with his girlfriend due to some family matter. I thought it was so timely since the tickets have already sold out even online.” “These premiere movie tickets are for tomorrow night.” Misu stared at them. Premiere tickets to Francisco Nagoya's art film feature. He had been a fan since high school. He was quite impressed that Shingyouji managed to get tickets for this. “Yes. I figured since my rabbit gig will be in the morning and I don't have classes tomorrow. I have already informed my boss that I will take the night off for tomorrow so we could watch the movie and maybe have dinner afterwards. What do you think, Arata-san? Will you come with me?” Shingyouji looked at him with his eyes sparkling with hope. “Well, I don't see why not. It's my day off tomorrow anyway. Yeah, sure. Let's go.” Misu shrugged. “Yatta!” Shingyouji lunged forward and gave an amused Misu a tight hug. “Thank you, Arata-san. I'm so happy.” He whispered to his ear and as their eyes met, Misu gave him a light kiss on the lips but still melted the younger man. ============================== “That was a really good movie.” Misu nodded as he read the movie pamphlet. Shingyouji looked at him proudly. Actually, he didn't quite understood the film being cerebral and a bit too artsy for his taste but spending time with Arata-san was all worth it. How he wished they could spend more time like these but he knew living together was the ultimate dream he had that's come true. He should be more than happy. As they were on their way to the lobby, a familiar voice called out from behind them. “Misu-kun!” “Sagara-senpai!” Misu turned and his eyes lit up. Very pleased to see his old friend and senior. Shingyouji could only look at him in shock. What is he doing here? Why now? “I wasn't expecting I'd see you here. This is a nice surprise.” Sagara-senpai smiled as he patted his kouhai's head. Get your damn hands off him! Shingyouji's jaw was clenched. He was fighting the urge to drag Misu away from the older man but he could only clench his fists inside his coat pockets in silent frustration. “Ah...Shingyouji-kun, yes? I remember you. It's been a long time. It's good to see you.” Sagara-senpai patted him lightly on the shoulder. Shingyouji could only manage a slight bow and a forced smile. “Yes, it's been a long time, Sagara-san.” He couldn't do it. He can't risk embarassing Misu. He loved him too much. “We're going out for drinks. Would you like to join us, senpai?” Misu asked an amused Sagara who easily agreed. Shingyouji wanted to fall apart but kept his cool and nodded in agreement instead. They arrived at a relaxing yet classy bar. There weren't much patrons around and happened to be Misu's favorite as was suggested by his co-interns. A piano player onstage playing jazz music. The atmosphere was sublime. The waiter was courteous and attentive who took their orders. It had a nice air of privacy and comfort. But Shingyouji was finding it difficult to absorb the atmosphere because right before him was his beloved who is now deeply engaged in a conversation with his senior and old friend. Tonight was supposed to be just for the two of them. He could have been the one Misu would be deeply engaged in a conversation with. He could have been the only one Misu would be focusing on right now. He could have been enjoying all that attention right now. This was an evening for only the two of them. He felt oddly out of place now. He knew too well that once these two met, there was no pulling them apart. Shingyouji looked at them sadly and manage a polite smile. He considered just walking out of the bar and not looking back. Make up some lame excuse. Would Arata-san follow me? Would he leave Sagara-san to be with me? He felt his insecurities rising again at rapid speed. He reached for his cell phone and pressed for a ring tone. What the hell am I doing? But I can't stand this...I don't wanna embarrass Arata-san. The longer I stay here...I'll embarrass myself as well. “Oh, I'm sorry..I have to take this call.” Shingyouji waved slightly and stood up and walked to the corner of the bar as Misu watched in passing. The waiter arrived with their drinks and so did Shingyouji with the most apologetic face he could express. “Anou...I'm really sorry. But something's up at work. I need to leave. It was very nice meeting you again, Sagara-san...Arata-san.” Shingyouji bowed and turned to leave quickly. Misu having noticed the change of mood from Shingyouji excused himself to follow him to the door. “Where are you going? You told me that you took the day off. Now they want you to report for work?” Misu held squeezed his arm slightly to make the younger man face him. “Yeah. Well, it's rather unexpected. But it's alright. I'll see you at home, Arata-san.” Shingyouji tried to smile. Misu studied his face for a minute before releasing his hold on Shingyouji's arm. There was an unsteadiness in his tone. The smile that didn't quite reach those eyes yet continued smiling nontheless. He understood Shingyouji's work ethic and dedication to his job but why did it seem so hurried?

Life They all lie behind the smile; It’s like some fairy tale. They all play the part they’re cast And hide behind the veil. A curtain here, a stage door there; That’s how they come and go; The life of all the people That put on such a show. The words they weave with measured tone Which sound just like a script; Copying and repeating Until you declare that’s it They stop and stare right at you ‘How dare you say those things?’ They turn around and leave the stage; Believing they are kings.

It can start with just a handshake Or even just a smile But if you take the right steps You’ll know it’s worth your while. It could be a close companion Or a neighbor that you know But if you feel a bond begin Try not to let it go. You will be faced with obstacles But do not let them faze you If your bond is strong enough They’re sure to stay beside you You know that you will argue You’ll bicker and you’ll fight But if you think that its all-wrong You know you can make it right The bond you have may start to go In many different ways It’s up to you to make the choice To let it go or let it stay So if you look into the eyes Of someone you just met Be sure to give a friendly smile Do something you won’t regret

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This was written some time ago,but here ya go.This poem is about bullying.Hope you like it! The rain stops But the pain is still the same Can you,please,not mock? It's not funny going insane It's a disease It's a hell Please Just drop that bombshell Hair covering eyes Arms covering knees I'm like this,disguised Would you stop the mocking,please? Bruises painted on the skin Things that you made With a big grin On your face I feel like crap I wish I was brave Enough to snap But I'm just your slave I'm your damn slave I'm tired of living a lie Words written on my grave Goodbye

really cant wait for the next chapter...^^ that shun...or shu???..whoever he was.... he's a sick bastard...yosh... and btw...u can call me June or Junnie...whichever u want...^w^ really love ur story...

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i chose this signature b/c when i first read it, it really got to me. now, when ever i'm in in a confusing or messed up situation, i jus say these words in my mind, and i know and what right. although i get scared to do it sometimes, i try my darn-dest. ^_^

I also like the story! My favorite character is Hana. He's so cute and kinda innocent!

I really like this story! The 2nd ch. was even better!

i'll keep that in mind... ohohoho....im still 16 but i watched some adults movie...hehe sometimes even 18sx...lol but i dun really enjoy it....and watch each only for one time.... and nver watch it again...so yeah...im a a girl.. and whenever i watch it i'll alwyd use earphone...ahahah

ahaha...i love it...i wanna read the next chapter... u create all the characters perfectly... I ENJOY IT A LOT!!!....^^

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Gosh Yojichan... it just keeps getting better and better =D Wuuahh i had goosebumps all over... So Kawaiiiiiiiii *_*

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so nice i like it...too..cant wait for other chapter ^^

Very good story Belita! You described so well all his jealousy and anger. I can't wait to read the next part! Hope he'll also get the chance to make Shu jealous :leaf4: PS: I also like the fact that you chose a bigger characters, it's way more easy to read. And I also like that it's written in the first person.

LooL i love Patrick too WELCOME TO THE FORUM Enjoy your day here Yokoso nee :leaf12: psst:just tell me if someone bully u ok .:leaf12:

There's a total bully right here but I'll be nice just for today. *smirk* Welcome to the forum, Yuiri. Hope you'll enjoy our company and have a lot of fun. (:

hi and welcome YUIRI_5.2 , good to have you there there are no bullies there just yaoi otakus Freaks ^_^ have fun

(been working this for 2-3 days (though not the whole time in each day) ) CRESTFALLEN You stood against earth Count to no one but your own This was destined from birth A journey of self-crown Hindrance took the path Wicked roads arise Evils of earth wrath Stealing chances from your dice Steel armor of a knight Sword sharpened from blood Soul of valor haunting at night And a heart collided in flood You walk in unhesitant Into the wilderness of no end Blessed by the holy light You fought the human fate This battle were for seeds Born and planted into the field Great sun rays awaits Undying power must be faith Trust and loyalty empower the sword Great mind commanded your actions Blazing crimson hands were your words You'd unmasked those deceiving lions Battle of hundreds You won and failed Whatever has ended You still in thirst and drained Weak by your knight You spoke words in gray You drown yourself in wine Glory wasn't a pay The seeds of your hope Grew into trees, some bears fruit From the war you cope This is the trophy only suits Dawn is breaking Early morn awakening Your tired soul enlightened But you still was CRESTFALLEN! . .i dedicate this to my mom, this was about her (and i also wanted to share it to everyone ) . .i had a hard time writing this leaf4

i wrote this May 27,2009 (so i was 11) here goes....... Can't get what I truly desire... The look in his eyes... as if longing for nothing, but the touch if his lover it hurts...my chest hurts will I get what I truly desire? I love him can he hear me? My voice is so loud, does he even notice me? Its hard... why can't I ease this pain? But I love him!! will I get what I truly desire? We're together... But it doesn't feel real, I'm happy...I really am But... What if I'm trapped in my own fantasy I AM ... LOST, FORGOTTEN, TRAPPED.

Kentaro took another drag of his cigarette. His other hand poking at the can of iced coffee. His moment of silent contemplation was interrupted when he noticed someone sat beside him on the wooden bench. He took a quick glance at the corner of his eye and recognized who it was. “I still think you're a bastard.” Kentaro took a sip of his iced coffee. “I know. Me too.” Misu replied but not looking at Kentaro. Both men just stared forward at the students that were walking around the university grounds. “I had to go to a fucking dentist to get my tooth saved.” Kentaro tapped the excess ash off his cigarette on the ground. “Yeah.” Misu replied. “How is Shingyouji-kun?” Kentaro put the cigarette back to his lips. “He's good.” Misu smiled thoughtfully. Kentaro nodded. He really liked the guy. Misu would be an idiot to lose someone that special. He'd happily take him if that ever happened. But he also knew it was nothing but a hopeless dream. “This is what happens when you don't open up to your best friend, you jerk.” “You're right about what you said that night.” Misu lowered his eyes sadly. Kentaro finally looked at him. He could see the regret in Misu's eyes and for him that was all he needed to see for himself. He knew he can never have a chance with Shingyouji. Not in this lifetime. Maybe he will have to find someone like him or perhaps someone totally unlike him. His tastes in men and women can be so damn messed up sometimes. He fell for Misu from the moment he saw him and instantly felt the same way with Shingyouji, perhaps a bit more. But he would have to settle for friendship in the end. “It's gonna be tough sometimes. But you have to realize that not everyone is gonna judge your relationship. Some people will always talk and then there will be others who don't give a shit. Just take it easy. And stop fucking hiding from people who actually give a damn especially ME!” Misu chuckled at that. “Then why the hell did you tell Shingyouji your name was Taro Yoshi?” Kentaro looked at him and stammered a response. “Eh...anou....well, you know, it's my thing. Since when did I give people my real name? Besides it's not too far off from my real name anyway. Kentaro Yoshida.” “Because of that, you won't ever hear a fucking apology from me.” Misu's smile was smug. Kentaro frowned at him and they both laughed. Owari?! AUTHOR NOTES: OMG! OMG!! OMG!!! 36 pages in total yo! I was like a person possessed when I started typing. I couldn't stop. The ideas kept flowing through my brain and before I realized it, I've already typed THIS much. I outdid myself. *CRIES* Thank you so much for seeing me through the end. My heart couldn't stop beating so fast. I couldn't sleep well last night because of my heart. I just finally finished this story today. Hot and fresh! Rightful claim goes to the mangaka for Misu and Shingyouji characters. I can only lay rightful claim to my original characters Miyagi-san and Kentaro Yoshida. I hope you like them guys.

Getting to their apartment unit was proving to be quite a strain for both of them as Misu would pull Shingyouji for a kiss and him kissing back in like manner. They kissed hard in the elevator. As soon as Misu unlocked the door to their unit, he pulled Shingyouji's hand and pushed him inside their apartment. They kicked off their shoes and slippers. Shirts flung to to the wall. Pants dropping on the floor and kicked aside. Neither of them releasing from their kissing frenzy. They bumped into one of Misu's books on the floor and he kicked them to the side. Misu laid Shingyouji on their bed. He straddled him. He could see the lust and love burning in Shingyouji's eyes. Oh god, I could have really taken him senseless right there out in the street. All of Shingyouji was his. Only his. He was never going to find another love like this. He knew no one could ever affect him so deeply the way Shingyouji did. No one can ever make him desire a person this badly the way he did. Misu lowered his head to possess those lips again and Shingyouji's legs wrapped around his waist, urging him to go further. Giving him more access to every crevice of his body. Their fingers intertwined. Misu's strong grip on his thigh. So aroused. So deep. So close. The heat was driving them over the edge repeatedly. Shingyouji was gasping at every breath. Every thrust Misu made was sending his body into a convulsion of crazy passion and desperation. He clung to his arms. He was in tears. Pain, happiness, satisfaction, complete surrender, you name it...he was feeling everything all at once. Until finally they reached the pinnacle of their heated intimacy. The release was so great it overpowered their senses. Misu collapsed heavily on Shingouji's chest. His breath ragged and hot. Shingyouji smiled weakly and kissed the curve of Misu's neck. “I love you...Arata-san...” Shingyouji gasped. Misu rolled over to Shingyouji's side and pulled the younger man over his chest. His palms gently raking on Shingyouji's messy hair. Misu's eyes softened at the words of love uttered. He smiled and possessed those soft swollen lips again. “I'm so happy you're mine.” Misu murmured to Shingyouji's lips.

The apartment felt like a tomb. Misu and Shingyouji has not uttered a single word to each other since coming out of Shiki Bar. The air between them was stale with awkwardness, confusion and Misu's coldness. Misu washed off a bit of the blood on his knuckles in the kitchen sink. Shingyouji watched him move from the kitchen to the closet to get a fresh shirt and pajamas, enter the bathroom and coming out changed and laid down on their bed. “Would you mind telling me what the hell was that all about?” Shingyouji did not mask the annoyance in his tone. What started out as a nice evening turned into a fist fight leaving him still confused, a bloody Kentaro and Misu not saying a damn word. Misu sat up on the bed and looked at Shingyouji who was standing before him. What the hell was he going to say? He tried to keep it cool the whole time and one stupid move from Kentaro and he lost it. Damn you, Kentaro! This wasn't supposed to happen. Shit. Now he had to settle damange control with Shingyouji. What the hell. “He is your classmate. Your close friend. You didn't tell me a single thing about how he felt for me. You could have given me some warning. I have to hear it from him. And then you punch him like that out of nowhere?” “Oh great. Now you blame me for punching him like that? You should realize by now why I did all that. He was begging for it. I warned him already that you're not going to his place.” “BUT YOU COULD HAVE WARNED ME!” “HOW THE FUCK COULD I WARN YOU ABOUT HIM? HE DIDN'T TELL ME ABOUT YOU EITHER! HE WAS KEEPING IT A SECRET FROM ME!” Shingyouji looked away. Tears of frustration were threatening to flow but he sucked in his breath sharply. This was far from over. “You think I'm stupid. You always think I'm some kind of idiot who cannot defend himself. You think punching him like that make you so great? All this time, I agree with what YOU like how our relationship should be going. Keep it discreet. Keep it secret. KEEP IT! KEEP IT! FUCKING KEEP IT! I get paranoid already. But I can't. I'm not strong like you are. I can't fucking pretend like you and I have nothing between us when we're outside. My own boss saw right through me and I didn't deny it. I just couldn't. I'd rather risk rearranging my life just so I can be with you always. And now this...damn it!” “THAT FUCKING BASTARD HAD HIS ARMS AROUND YOU! Whispering into your ear the whole time! And you kept laughing and smiling at him! I'm not sorry that I punched him. He fucking deserved it! HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU SAW ANOTHER MAN SO CLOSE TO YOUR LOVER LIKE THAT?” As soon as Misu said it, his eyes went wide in realization. He immediately regretted it. It was like a bucket of cold water splashed onto him. All he could see now was the deep hurt etched in Shingyouji's eyes. “I KNOW EXACTLY HOW THAT FEELS, YOU SELFISH JERK!” Shingyouji very quickly stormed out of the apartment before Misu could stand up to stop him. Fuck! What have I done? ---------------------------------- The only thing Misu grabbed before heading out the door was his keys. He didn't care he was only in his pajamas and house slippers. All he could think was the sooner he got out of the apartment, the higher the likelihood he could catch up with Shingyouji. He didn't want a repeat of last time. He didn't like the idea of having to wait in the apartment without a damn clue where he ran off to. A lot of memoreies were crashing in his head one by one and he didn't like it. Not one bit. A part of him still did not regret punching Kentaro earlier but that did not drown out his regret when he yelled at Shingyouji. He was acting out his frustrations on him. It was not fair. He knew it. But he could not help it. He was supposed to be the cool one, right? He was the one who was supposed to have all the answers. He was the one who was supposed to be in control of the situation. Things could have been handled much differently with Kentaro but right now he managed to screw up the one person he valued the most. Shingyouji, where the hell are you? He was grateful for the stillness of the night. Their apartment bulding was situated in a quiet neighborhood. It was already after midnight. They had spent a great deal of time at the bar together. This was not how he wanted to spend the rest of the time. He still had classes later in the day. But right now he didn't care if he had to skip his classes altogether. He couldn't get Shingyouji out of his mind. Not like this. How could he be so cruel? As he walked into the quiet street, he noticed someone turn right to the first two blocks away from the building. He recognized that shirt. That distinct walk. It was Shingyouji. He was relieved that he didn't get very far yet and he was just walking. He would have gone nuts if he ran. He had always been aware how fast Shingyouji could run like the wind if he had to. Misu walked hurriedly to catch up with Shingyouji. “SHINGYOUJI!”

“You look tense.” Misu was stifling his laughter as he looked at Kentaro who kept his eyes at the Shiki Bar entrance and his hands nervously tapping on their table. “I'm not tense. I'm just excited. Alright, fine! I'm tense! You won't believe how cute this guy is. He said he'll be here in ten minutes. Something just came up at work.” Kentaro grinned. He was obviously distracted and could not focus. He had never been this tense before over meeting someone. He's usually calm and collected but not this time. “Try to relax, will you?” Misu looked at him amused at his friend's behavior. “Ah! There he is!” Kentaro stood up and it took all his self-control not to literally fly towards the entrance of the bar out of sheer excitement. “Where?” When Misu turned towards to where Kentaro was staring at, he suddenly felt his blood run cold. Shingyouji? What the hell is he doing here? Misu began to fidget. What the hell is going on here? How come he didn't tell me that he's been meeting with Kentaro this whole time? Does he even know why they were going to spend the evening in a bar like this? Shit. Shit. Shit. Misu was trying to calm down as much as he could. He was about to explode. So much for keeping our private life private. Shit. “Ah Yoshi-san!” Shingyouji waved. He was now walking towards their table. He didn't notice Misu right away until Kentaro meets him halfway and puts his arm around his shoulder as they approach their table. The look of genuine surprise was all over Shingyouji as soon as he saw Misu. “Arata-san! What are you doing here?” “You two know each other?” Kentaro pointed at Shingyouji while looking at Misu for confirmation. Misu's jaw was clenched in irritation. He looked sideways and nodded his head. Shingyouji still looked surprised. Kentaro laughed. “This is great! This way I don't have to go through the trouble of introducing you both. Have a seat right here beside me, Shingyouji-kun.” Kentaro was oblivious to the rising agitation of his friend. He hailed for the waiter who arrived and handed them a menu. “What would you like to order, Shingyouji-kun?” Kentaro leaned closer towards Shingyouji's seat and placed his arm around it while pointing at one of the food choices. Misu squeezed his eyes shut. Trying his might to keep himself from exploding and grabbing Kentaro by the neck and throttle him senseless. He knew that move. Kentaro was not known to waste any time with someone he fancied. Close body contact was his forte. It came in stages until he would have the person all over him. He's seen it happen so many times before when they would hang out with friends. It was not unusual that they would enter an establishment together as a group only to watch Kentaro leave with some beautiful stranger he just met that time. He knew from personal experience since Kentaro had pursued him from the first time they met. And now he was about to do the same thing to Shingyouji. But what irritated him the most is that his lover didn't seem to mind anything at all. “Hey Misu...have you decided what to order already?” Kentaro looked at his friend who had the menu book now covering his agitated face. “No. I'm not really hungry. I think I'll just have a glass of ice cold water.” He replied icily. “Oh come on, man! Don't be such a spoilsport. Forgive my friend here, Shingyouji-kun. This guy can be so shy sometimes. It's been a pretty hectic time for us. Back to back exams and demos. It's great to just finally be able to relax like this.” Shingyouji nodded in agreement and smiled at Kentaro but he could see that shyness was nowhere to be seen in Misu's face. He swallowed. Misu looked very pissed but was trying to keep a cool countenance. He was avoiding to make any eye contact which confused him even more. Why does he look so angry? What did I do wrong? What is going on here? But he could not confront Misu like that especially with a very jolly Kentaro with them. What was wrong with hanging out with friends anyway? A few minutes later, their drinks arrived. Kentaro and Shingyouji were deeply engaged in conversation. Misu was fuming. He felt his blood rise up a notch at every smile Shingyouji flashed in Kentaro's direction who now looked like he was being bathed by rays of morning sunlight from those smiles. He looked happy. A little too happy than usual. He had earlier considered walking out of the bar but his possessive nature would not allow him to leave the pair behind amongst themselves. He knew exactly what Kentaro was up to and there was no way in hell was he going to allow that to happen to Shingyouji. And why the fuck is Shingyouji keeps on smiling at him like that? Fifteen minutes later, their food arrives. While Shingyouji and Kentaro were eating, Misu was busily poking at his food like he had a personal vendetta with the buttered brocolli on his plate. He barely said a word to the two of them unless he was asked. And even when he did have to say something, he kept it short. Kentaro did not seem the least bit worried since his concentration was primarily fixated on Shingyouji. Shingyouji seemed to be at his social element. He admitted to himself that his sociable nature was one of the things that endeared his lover to him. But it was also a source of irritation for him because Shingyouji had this tendency to trust people too easily just because they happen to be his friends not caring whether those so-called friends had a personal agenda. He was a lot more relaxed now with Kentaro having been introduced as his friend. Kentaro rested his chin over his knuckles as he listened to Shingyouji talk. He couldn't help but feel impressed with how engaging and witty he actually was. He really is such a friendly guy and funny too. He didn't seem to run out of jokes which sent him on a laughing trip. He can imagine himself listening to him anywhere. That smile would be the death of him. He couldn't help comparing Shingyouji as akin to a cute rabbit in his mind. It tickled him even more when Shingyouji told him that he did dress up as a rabbit in a birthday event for his boss' kid's birthday. Now that I would love to see it for myself, Kentaro thought. Maybe I can set up a little party and ask him to show up in that costume for my pleasure. The evening came to a close without any incident despite Misu's ever growing anxiety. He actually was surprised he managed to keep it all in without resorting to dragging Shingyouji out of the bar and punching Kentaro in the gut. That would have been a complete disaster. But he was intent on getting his answers later when they got back to their apartment.

“You look happy.” Misu looked at Kentaro as he sipped his espresso.. They were having a cup of coffee in their favorite cafe at the university grounds. He had been noticing his friend's seemingly odd behavior for the past few weeks. Though he still was very much himself but lately he had been declining offers of going out for dates on the weekends. He was legendary for never declining invitations whether it was an all-night karaoke, blind dates, bar hopping and the occasional one-night stands. “So do you.” Kentaro smirked and took another sip of his Tiramisu coffee blend. “What do you mean by that?” Misu frowned a bit. “Oh you're practically glowing. Had fun last night?” Kentaro winked at him. “Shut up. None of your business.” Misu resumed typing his notes on his laptop. Well, of course he did have some fun last night with Shingyouji but that was no one else's business other than his own and Shingyouji. “Alright..alright if you say so.” Kentaro LOVED to tease Misu. Anything to get those cheeks to blush would make his day. It was really obvious enough to him that Misu had someone special in his life. He just wished that he'd open up about it. With Misu it was hard to tell whether it was a man or a woman. He's been very open minded whenever he'd talk about his past relationships with both men and women as Kentaro prided himself for being bisexual. Yet Misu would never divulge a single iota of who he was involved with. It felt rather unfair but he respected that privacy. He had hoped that by teasing him would make him slip but so far that attempt has always proven in vain. But that did not stop him from teasing his friend. “Anyway...I met someone. I dunno, man. There was something about him that was just...I dunno how to describe it. He looks so incredibly cute. There's something about him that makes you wanna wrestle him to the floor or just hug him and keep him all to yourself.” Kentaro was gazing thoughtfully at the glass window. “Him? It's a guy this time, huh. Well...good for you. Maybe you found the right person to reign in that playboy life of yours.” Misu continued typing. He did sense a seriousness in Kentaro's voice. He was usually goofy in conversations especially when talking about past and present conquests but not this time. He sounded determined and hopeful. “Yeah, it's a guy. But I don't wanna scare him off or anything by just taking him out on a date all of a sudden. I can make it look casual though. We could hang out. I just...I dunno....I want to see him again. There was something about his smile that just got me. No one has ever smiled like that to me before, you know. I mean...sure he was just doing his job that time...but damn....that smile. I can't get it out of my head.” “Well, for all you know he doesn't have a problem with dating a guy. Get to know him more. The sooner you get together, the sooner you can get your answers. Who knows...things will work out from there.” “You know that's what I love about you, Misu. You are not fazed by any of this. I feel like I can really talk to you about anything. Yeah, you're right. I'm gonna take your advice. I intend to see him again later on my way home. Hmmm...maybe I'll take him to dinner tonight. What do you think?” “Good luck with that.” Misu shrugged and still continued typing his notes. Once Kentaro was on to somebody, there was no stopping him. He was a pro at what he did. He could get anyone's number at a first meeting and he's done it so many times. His success rate go all the way back in middle school and in the university, he had built a stable reputation for himself in the dating world. He glanced to catch Kentaro smiling as dialed his cell phone and excused himself to make his phone call. ---------------------- “Moshi..moshi..?” Shingyouji was having his lunch break. “Hey...it's me.” Kentaro couldn't help but smile at the sound of Shingyouji's voice. He was visualizing that smile in his head again. “Ah, Yoshi-san. Nice of you to call. Is there anything I can help you with?” “Oh no..no...not this time. I called 'cause I was wondering perhaps you would like to hang out with me tonight. I dunno...maybe have a few drinks and some dinner. My treat, of course.” “Eh? I'm surprised, Yoshi-san. I dunno what to say. Just the two of us?” Shingyouji sounded unsure than surprised which made Kentaro chuckle. “Just say yes. I just wanted to hang out with you since you're such a nice guy, that's all. We can meet at the Shiki Bar not far from where you work. I'll see you at 7:30, okay?” “Yeah...I know Shiki Bar. Uhm...sure we can meet there instead.” “Awesome. Alright, I can ask a friend of mine to join us if that's okay with you. It'll be fun.” Kentaro tapped the table to get Misu's attention. Misu looked at him and nodded in agreement. “Alright, that's better. Ja ne!” Shingyouji felt more at ease this time. It was better hanging out with more people than just one person. “Ja ne!” Kentaro pressed the End Call button. “I'm psyched, man. Thanks for coming with me. I owe you one.” Kentaro could not hide the excitement in his voice. “Sure. No problem. I'm also curious who this guy is anyway. You've been super secret squirrel with his identity for weeks.” Misu chuckled. “Hah! You think you're the only one who can keep secrets, hmmmm? I'm sure you're gonna approve of this one. I think he's amazing. I just know it. I'll be able to close this deal tonight. I'm sure of it.” Kentaro was congratulating himself already. His friendly approach towards Shingyouji was paying off. He's finally going to spend time with him that is not within the confines of Sakura Grocery. He made sure to do all his shopping needs at the store at least twice a week. Whether it was a two-week supply of grocery or simply a few snack items. He didn't keep a specific schedule when he dropped by. He tried to appear as casual as possible. He only made sure that in every visit he made, Shingyouji was on duty and he would always strike up a conversation with him. “Yeah..we'll see..” Misu smiled at Kentaro's determined look. An hour later, he felt his phone vibrate in his pocket. He checked to see it was from Shingyouji messaging him that he won't be home for dinner and was going to meet with a couple of friends after work. Misu responded it was fine since he was going out for some drinks with a friend as well.

Misu unwrapped another chocolate candy and popped it into his mouth. The sweet chocolatey taste swirling in his tongue gave that immediate satisfaction of a job well done. It was time to go home but he decided to relax for a while by the wooden bench under a shady tree. He had passed all his exams. It felt good. Everything felt right in the world. He can imagine Shingyoujii's delighted face when he tells him about it tonight. He wondered what's for dinner. Shingyouji promised he was going to make a home-cooked meal for the both of them. “Misu-chan!” Shit. Misu knew exactly where that voice came from. He rubbed his forehead irritatedly. Kentarou Yoshida. Classmate, a brilliant guy in his own right, a bit of a social butterfly, well-connected, cool, good-looking enough to attract both genders and takes pride in not being gender-sensitive himself and have made quite a lot of conquests as well. Kentarou befriended him on his first day in the university. “Will you stop calling me that? I hate it. I never gave you permission to call me that, dumb ass!” Misu hated that nickname. “Why are we so cranky today, huh? Look, we both passed the exams. Cheer up! Ooooh, what's that? Is that chocolate? Gimme some!” Kentarou put his arm around Misu's shoulders, his face just inches away from Misu's cheek making the other man frown more but handed him a piece of candy. “Let's celebrate tonight. My treat, of course. Just you and me unless you wanna introduce me to your lover. I've been looking forward to that.” “I don't wanna discuss that. And I think I'll pass.” Misu wanted to share the good news and he's in the mood for home-cooked meals tonight. His mind was tired and he didn't feel like he had the energy to go out. He just wanted to go home to Shingyouji and sleep. Kentarou leaned closer to him, “Oh come on...why you still being so secretive? You've always been like this. Frankly, I would have wanted you for myself when we first met but you seemed to give off this I-have-someone-else aura. But I've never seen you with this someone else either. You know, you're good at hiding things but I'm gonna find out one of these days.” Kentarou winked at him. His naughty smile brimming with self-confidence. Yeah, right. Like that's gonna happen. Misu shook his head and smirked. For two years, he had become somewhat of an expert at dodging questions regarding his private life with anyone despite giving the impression that he could talk just about any topic under the sun. But people are still drawn to him despite all that because of his matter-of-fact way in his approach to things. He is a good confidante. He never engaged in gossip. A diligent student and smart. He is very reliable, dependable and mature. He is also an attractive man to begin with. He had been propositioned many times including a few professors but he declined them all. Misu felt a strong sense of inner pride that his private life poses as an enigma to many. He had however, become a lot friendlier than he used to be in back in Shidou. University life was more diverse indeed. “Alright, fine then I'll ask Yuu-chan to join me...hmmmm...or maybe June-chan instead. Or maybe both. What do you think?” Kentarou nudged Misu on the shoulder. “Your call. I can't join you. I'm going home, man. Thanks anyway. Tell them I said hello.” Misu stood up and tucked his leather bag under his arm and walked away. Kentarou remained on the bench watching Misu. He was hoping very much for the opportunity to get to know another side of Misu. He still liked him. He always had since day one. But he knew better than getting himself involved again with someone who was already deeply involved with someone else. God knows how many mishaps he's had in the past. He valued Misu's friendship and he didn't want to mess that up. Besides friendship was always the safest sure-fire way to stay close to someone you liked.

“Arata-san, tadaima!” Shingyouji wrapped his arms around Misu's neck and kissed the top of his head. Misu's hair was a bit damp from a shower. “Okaeri.” Misu replied and gave a light tap on Shingyouji's arms around his neck. They were both seated on the floor with his books and notes. He was reviewing for his anatomy exam. Shingyouji slowly released his arms and proceeded to sit close to Misu and leaned his head on his shoulder. He had been holding onto the good news the whole time he was at work and still managed to survive his classes afterwards. Now that he was finally home with Misu he could barely contain himself anymore. “Arata-san...I have something really good to share with you.” Shingyouji's eyes were bright. “What is it?” “Well first things first...” Shingyouji pulled Misu's face to his and planted a soft kiss on his lips. “I wanted to say thank you for coming to see me at the store today. I'm really happy when you do that.” He whispered just as their lips parted. Misu shrugged. “I needed a few things so I thought I'd drop by.” Shingyouji grinned and nudged Misu's shoulder with his elbow. “Arata-san!” He knew Misu was still being a little stubborn making it seem like it was not a big deal but he could see that the smirk he was sporting now didn't reach the gentleness of his eyes. This is one of the reasons why I love you so much, Arata-san. “Well, if it was just a simple shopping trip. You can text me and send me a list of items you want. I get employee discount, you know.” Shingyouji pouted. “Hmp! Maybe I should do that then. That way I won't have to walk ten blocks just to get a few things.” Misu frowned. What the hell? I make an effort in dropping by to visit him every week and he spouts nonsense like this. Make a list he says. Damn it. Why I even bother? As Misu was about to stand up, he felt two strong arms around his chest pulling him and Shingyouji's cheek pressed closely to his back. Now what? “Arata-san...gomen ne...I was kidding. Please forgive me. Please don't stop visiting me at work. I'm just being a brat. I'm a little hyper right now and I start randoming stupid things. Please forget what I said. Please come visit me at the store like you do. I'm so sorry, Arata-san...” Shingyouji's voice was small and regretful like a child who had been chastised by an elder. Misu smiled, looked to his side and gripped Shingouji's hand on his chest. The arms around him grew tighter. “So what's the good news you wanted to tell me?” Shingyouji moved from behind him and sat right across him. Misu could see the twinkle in his eyes. The bunny teeth sticking out of those pink lips. “My boss thinks I like you and that I should do something about it.” “SAY WHAT?” Misu's eyes rounded in utter surprise. He did not expect this at all. Shit..was it because he started showing up at the store? Was he that freaking obvious? He tried his best to look as nonchalant as possible. Great...just what he needed. Unnecessary attention drawn to him. This is exactly what he hated so much. Now Shingyouji's boss has noticed something. How the hell was he going to show in that damn store again next time? Shingyouji noticed the way Misu was clenching his jaw. The frown on his forehead. He had been waiting for a happy response from him but all he got was an uncomfortable silence. He realized Misu was not taking the news very well. But it was good news, right? He couldn't have been wrong. Miyagi-san was very clear that he was absolutely okay with it. If he didn't then what was that whole tragic story about his cousin in the first place? Several minutes elapsed and not a word was said between them. It was getting to be more uncomfortable than ever. Misu stood up and walked towards the bed and sat down. Shingyouji followed and sat beside him. “Arata-san...say something. It is good news. Really it is. My boss totally understands. It's okay.” Shingyouji lays his hand over Misu's lap waiting for a reply. He did not expect this sort of reaction from his lover. He thought Misu was going to be ecstatic like he was. No more hiding. No more holding back. He can talk to Misu freely. He didn't have to pretend anymore whenever he visited the store. They can both relax. But by the look at Misu's face, a sense of insecurity was taking over him. He was the only one happy about this news after all. Arata-san did not share his views. Shingyouji retracted his hand from Misu's lap and covered his face instead. “I'm so sorry, Arata-san...I wasn't thinking..” Shingyouji could not talk further. His words muffled by his hands on his face. He suddenly felt embarassed for acting all happy earlier. But it still was good news. It had to be. But what difference did it make if the one you shared it with did not receive it as happily as you did? Misu sighed deeply. He was trying to make sense of what the news meant for the both of them. He wasn't mad at all. He certainly was not mad at Shingyouji. He was still very much in a state of shock. Even during their time in Shidou, they have somehow managed to keep their relationship discreet from everyone. Those who did sense that there was something between him and Shingyouji only knew the surface. No one knew how deep their relationship was. He had wanted to keep it that way for two reasons. One, to keep Shingyouji close to him and two, no one would interefere with their personal affair. It was enough people thought that Shingyouji was just behaving like a devoted pet following him around. People found it amusing and simply dismissed it as a phase Shingyouji would overcome eventually as soon as Misu graduated from high school. But containing the truest nature of their relationship may have been easier in Shidou, it's a whole lot different in the real world as adults. When you're young you can afford to be reckless at some point. But when you get older, it becomes a luxury not many people can afford. Now that Shingyouji's boss has noticed something and seemed understanding, that takes a load off the worries in his mind for now. Misu didn't think he was ready to just behave lovey-dovey in the open just because a few people didn't seem to care. He was fine with their lives now. Living together like this. Spending time together whenever they could. But they still had separate goals to achieve. He had responsibilities towards his family too. He had been groomed to take over a key position in the hospital. He was never against it. He actually liked that certain goals are already prepared for him to strive for. He always loved a good challenge. But to have an open relationship with Shingyouji is proving to be another challenge he's still struggling to deal with. Misu gently pried Shingyouji's fingers off his face to reveal a dejected face. His eyes were reddening from trying to hold back the tears. “Shingyouji...I was just surprised, that's all.” “You're not mad?” “No.” “Then it's okay then? Besides you didn't do anything that made my boss suspect. It was all me. My boss is a very perceptive guy. He read me like a book. He said I was a little too friendly whenever you showed up. I didn't mean to. I really thought I was being myself and discreet but I couldn't help it whenever I see you...I just...” Misu ruffled Shingyouji's hair and smirked. “That's true. You were really being yourself. Brat.” Shingyouji looked at him and pouted. “Meanie! And here I was so worried that you're mad at me.” He playfully smacked Misu's back with a pillow. “I'm not mad. Get over it already.” Misu stood up and walked towards the kitchen to get a glass of cold water. Shingyouji took off his work clothes and threw them in the hamper. He put on a fresh shirt and cargo shorts. He opened his bag and pulled out a plastic bag. “I have another surprise for you, Arata-san.” He smiled. “What is it?” Misu was rinsing the glass he just used. “This one.” Shingyouji took a pack of chocolate candies from the plastic bag he held and laid it on the table. The same brand of chocolate candies Misu liked when they were still in Shidou. Shingyouji thought he would go insane when he found out that Sakura Grocery was stocking the item in the shelves. He knew he just had to get one for Misu at all costs. “Ah.” Misu smiled. “I was thinking we could enjoy them later after supper.” At the word 'supper' Shingyouji suddenly realized he forgot to buy supper from the family restaurant across Sakura Grocery. He had been planning to do that as soon as he left for work but was too excited to get home and announce the good news to Misu and completely forgot about it. “Oh no...I'm so sorry. I was supposed to get our supper tonight. I'll go out and come up with something. Will you be able to wait awhile?” Shingyouji was about to put on his sandals when he felt a strong tug at his shirt. “Eh?” “No need. I already ordered pizza for us. It was supposed to be here 10 minutes ago. I guess it's gonna be free of charge now.” At the word 'pizza' Shingyouji's eyes went glassy. He felt his stomach rumble on cue. He loved pizza. But having Misu naturally ordering it without him expecting it was a wonderful surprise. He can wait. Pizza was coming and he was sharing it with Misu. It's going to be a wonderful evening for both of them. Misu was now sitting on the chair and Shingyouji moved towards him and sat on his lap. “I love pizza.” Shingyouji purred. “I know.” Just as they were about to kiss, the doorbell rang.

I must admit. Gii was at his most gorgeous in Bibou no Detail. I remember after watching Bibou the first time, I started looking for videos of Daisuke and I came up with this. Daisuke taking off his shirt like that and laying on the bed like that...was not good for my mental health. It makes me nosebleed and makes me pull on my hair again. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5A1Slt_64ek

I used to have some signatures. They are often my favourite pics, some quotes, some sentences in the lyric of a song...)) or when I suddenly grab a cute pic on the Internet, it will become my sig pic immediately . I'd like to change it very often, coz the change will wipe out the boredom

鼠ドル has a hot signature that makes me lose focus each time I see it

yeah toshihisa was Takumi's previous roommate (before Gii and Misu) O.O oh my you're tht small????? how old are you may I ask? xDDDD but it's such a cut height!!! makes me want to cuddle you!!! I'm like... 5 feet and 25 inches... I think... oh my, where i'm from the height is in meters and centimeters not feet and inches.. but I think I made the conversion right... and I rly want to cosplay from the series... but rly which one do I look like most? (face ofcoz) and June-chan: I sooooooooo wanted to see u with bunny or kitty ears!!! must be so kawaii!!! :3 I've only ever dressed up in Carnival... x.x like as clown, princess, maid, spanish dancer I think... and idk wht more xD but just silly childish things ._.

“Arata-san...” Shingyouji's eyes wandered nervously and curiously as he felt Misu taking his coat off. His mind began to protest as he watched him begin unbuttoning his blue-checkered shirt. But no words came out of his mouth. Misu looked very focused in the task and he sensed that authoritative silence. It didn't frighten Shingyouji but he knew better than to stop the quiet ministrations from the older man. It was almost a similar feeling he had when they were in the dressing room not so long ago as Misu buttoned his shirt up and that kiss they shared. The memory of that kiss made him feel a little hazy. No way he can stop Misu now. He knew too well that what Misu wants, he gets it and who was he to deny him that when he wanted it so much as well? The younger man could only stare in silent awe to what his lover was doing. First the coat then his shirt and now he felt fingers slowly unfastening his belt buckle. He wondered if Misu could hear how loud his heart was beating now. But even if he did, the older man did not show any signs of stopping with his activity. The belt dropped on the floor with a mild thud. And now his pants has dropped to his feet and he stepped out of it. Shingyouji was only wearing his boxers and his socks. A naughty glint showed in Misu's eyes which made Shingyouji both excited and nervous at the same time. “I'll get you a robe.” Misu left him standing there for awhile and he knew what that meant. He took off his socks and walked into the shower and closed the door behind him and took off his boxers. Shingyouji turned on the cool shower as it sprayed generously on his heated body. He leaned his forehead on the bathroom wall and allowed himself to calm his wildly beating heart. He then adjusted the water temperature to warm when he felt his nerves calming down. All the frustrations and stress he felt last night was slowly draining away as quickly as the water drained on the floor. When he opened the bathroom door, Misu was standing with the bathroom robe ready for him to slide into. He felt Misu's fingers loosely tie his robe around him then motioned for him to follow to the bed. Misu sat on the bed and held the towel he placed on the bed earlier while Shingyouji was in the shower. Shingyouji was feeling his body slowly heat up again as he approached and stood before him patiently waiting for his next instruction. Misu looked up to him and he could see the glassy look Shingyouji was giving him. He surely had no idea what he had in mind and he liked that....very much. “Kneel.” And Shingyouji obeyed and knelt before him while Misu took his sweet time massaging and drying his dripping wet hair. Shingyouji closed his eyes, raking in all the gentleness and control. His hands are now on Misu's thighs. He rubbed his hands slightly on the cottony material of Misu's pajamas. This was a rare occurrence they were having now. He wanted to enjoy every second of it. He never expected how good it felt when you have the person you love do something like this for you. From Misu's perspective, he could feel Shingyouji's muscle relaxing. His hair was nearly dry and as he took off the towel, the younger man still had his eyes closed. He smiled. He held his face with both hands and Shingyouji opened his eyes to look deeply into his lover before him. “Arata-san...” “Shingyouji...” Their foreheads touched. Their noses touched. Shingyouji felt Misu's cheek rub on his face and a light kiss on his forehead. He felt himself being pulled forward. The gentleness in Misu was making him weaker in the knees. If this went on, he was sure he'd fall back on the floor. Misu sensing this guided him to lie on the bed. As he lay down, Misu sat beside him and leaned towards his side. One hand slowly fiddling with the bath robe tie. Shingyouji felt a shiver run from the his nape down to his.... “You know...you should learn to be a little selfish sometimes.” Misu's voice was deeply seductive and resonated to Shingyouji's ears. “Our relationship....has already come to this....there's no turning back and we both know that.” Shingyouji nodded and tried to keep his eyes focused on Misu's. “Now tell me what you really desire...” Shingyouji felt his heart race at those words. Really? What he really desired? And then it dawned to him the reasons why Misu behaved earlier when he took off his clothes. It wasn't the actions of someone who merely cared for him. He was making up for the time they could have spent together last night. It was Misu's way of apologizing and oh, what a truly seductive apology it is. Every bit of uneasiness he may have felt had already disappeared now that they lay so close together on their bed. “I only want you to be mine. Mine alone. I don't want to share you with anyone...not even Sagara-san...you're mine. You're mine first....and always.” Shingyouji's words though seemingly possessive sounded more like he was pleading which made Misu smile. “You know I'm yours. Stop being afraid, Shingyouji.” He slowly lowered his head and as their lips touched, Shingyouji clung to him. He matched his kiss with much fervor and passion. The bathrobe now undone and revealing the dewy and smooth alabaster skin. The scent of his shampooed hair only further ignited the flame inside of Misu as his lips traveled down Shingyouji's neck. His hands tracing every inch of his lover's taut skin. Shingyouji stretched his neck allowing more access. “I love you...Arata-san...” He moaned so sweetly which made Misu's heart swell with even more heightened desire. “Shingyouji...” He breathed into his ear and Shingyouji felt every pore in his body come alive. He smiled in complete satisfaction. The fears and insecurities disappearing fast. No matter what happens in the future, they will always have this moment to reflect and treasure. To each other, they truly belonged. No one can ever come in between them. Owari?! AUTHOR NOTES: I feel my cheeks heating up after posting this last part. My hands feel numb with giddiness. LOL. Aaah...I finally got to write this. Feels so good. I debut this fanfic here in YO before I publish them on my FFNET page. To see the link to my page, check out my Homepage at my Profile. Thank you!

4:30AM Misu stirred as he heard the door click. He rubbed his eyes and adjusted to see Shingyouji trying his best not to make a sound as he carefully laid his bag on the chair. “You're back.” Misu broke the silence as he sat up on the bed. “Eh? Ah....anou...I'm so sorry, Arata-san..I didn't mean to wake you. I just came for a change of clothes. I'll be leaving soon.” A very startled Shingyouji stared at him. Misu stood up and turned on the lights. Shingyouji kept his head low and was obviously trying to avoid his intense scrutiny. He felt Misu's hand slowly cup the side of his face and lifted his chin slowly to finally face him. “Where have you been? I was worried. But I didn't know where to find you. You even left your phone.” Misu tried to keep his tone low and evenly paced. He didn't want to frighten his already-agitated lover. It was painfully obvious that Shingyouji's eyes revealed fatigue and sadness. “I was at work.” Came the nervous reply. “Where is it? I mean....where do you work?” Misu felt like a complete idiot right about now but he didn't care. It felt like the right time to ask such a question. “Sakura Grocery. The convenience store ten blocks from here.” Shingyouji blinked at him. He was rather surprised to be asked since Arata-san didn't seem the least bit interested in his work before. Misu made a mental note of that information and considered visiting him there one of these days. His confidence returning. Relief overswept him to have the younger man before him. Talking to him again. He's safe. He's home. That's all that mattered. They remained standing at the center of their apartment just looking at each other. “I'm sorry about last night.” Misu whispered which elicited a shocked look from the younger man. “Eh? It's no problem. It's okay really. I understand. Besides you and Sagara-san haven't seen each other for a long time. It was rather sudden for him to show up like that but I guess it was a good time for you both to catch up on things. I'm sure you have lots of stuff to talk about. And then there was that call...and I needed to be at work anyway...so yeah...it's fine really. I mean...I wasn't expecting you'd be already home either. I thought you guys would be hopping at bars and stuff. It's a good time to unwind, you know...I remember a friend of mine had this reunion and they...” “Shingyouji! You're rambling!” Misu interrupted him and shook him and right there he saw the tears that the younger man had been forcing to keep at bay began to flow unstoppably. He pulled him into a fierce embrace and tried to soothe him by gently rubbing his back with circular motions. As the tears subsided he felt him slowly relax in his embrace and Misu closed his eyes. So that was it. Shingyouji's insecurities have played up again this time. He's tried to assure him that there was nothing between him and Sagara-senpai but he guessed he can never ease the unrest in his lover whenever his senior appeared. He always seemed at a complete loss. Like he didn't know where to belong. But instead of exercising assertiveness, his lover chose to retreat like he did in the past. Though he loved him in his own way, their relationship in high school cannot be clearly defined despite Shingyouji always keeping close to him as much as possible. He has admitted to himself he actually enjoyed the devoted attention basked upon him by the younger man. But it is only when they moved in together and has been together for a year that finally they have a semblance of a relationship they can actually clearly define now in their terms. Several minutes passed. Misu looked at him with his eyes thoughtful. A slight curve of a smile evident in his lips. Ah, yes..he loves Shingyouji. He knew he can never find another lover as devoted as this. He knew it would be a torture to not have him close like this. But he did admit that there were lots of times that he did find a guilty pleasure of getting his lover flustered around him. Call it possessiveness. Call it whatever you like but by doing so also proved that only he had that much influence to make Shingyouji feel this way. If only....