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Original name: Tsukiyo no Fushigi Manga ALT. names: つきよの不思議, Tsukiyono Fushigi Original run: 2002 Description: Chapters 1+2 - Tsukiyono Miracle: Matsuoka falls in love with his roomate, Oono at first sight. How does Oono feel about Matsuoka? Chapters 3+4 - Melancholy / Pride: What does Natsu want from the twins? How does he intend to cleanse the melancholy from the yonger twin's heart? Chapter 5 - An Appointment only for You: A school idol student, Takamiya has a cavity, but does not want anybody else to know in order to keep his reputation. The dentist, Kiyomura sensei is nice enough to give up his time off from work to help treat the student. What motives are the dentist hiding? Chapter 6 - Extreme + Afterword: The "cuff brothers" got into a little fight and the uke's wrist gets hurt. The seme tries to compensate by feeding the uke, and a lot of other things as well..... Manga-type: Manga Written by: Chitose Piyoko Drawn by: Chitose Piyoko Published by: Biblos Group(s) Scanlating: Attractive Fascinate Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Explicit Yaoi, Comedy, Drama Categories: BDSM, Incest, Sport, Rape, Love Triangle Main Characters: Matsuoka, Oono, Natsu, Takamiya, Kiyomura Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Dekiai Shiiku - Paraphilia Syndrome, Fukujuu no Gakuen, Gingaku Hakase to Marmot Read Tsukiyo no Fushigi Online: Tsukiyo no Fushigi Download: EDIT: Link removed because the scanlation group doesn't allow their projects to be shared of any site

*Uploaded by request* Title: Laughter Land; ラフターランド Released: 2006 Language: Japanese Publisher: Langmaor Genre: Adventure Plot: Dick is a young boy living in a village who is bored with schoolwork and his everyday life. One day, he attends the village fair and meets a mysterious boy dressed like a court jester called Guillered who offers to bring him to a world called Laughter Land where one’s every wish is granted and there is no work, only play and no one ever grows up. Dick agrees and is brought to Laughter Land. Download Laughter Land Yaoi Game: DepositFiles: Laughter Land Part 1 Laughter Land Part 2 Torrent file: Laughter Land Alternative Links: PART 01 [new link 2013/11/04] PART 02 [new link 2013/11/04] Note: Make sure you apply the NoCD patch after completing a full install in order to remove the AlphaRom protection. If the game crashes randomly, try running it in Windows 95 compatibility mode (right click the exe file - Properties - Compatibility - Run this program in compatibility mode for Windows 95) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Love Impact (Yami No Matsuei doujin game) Rating: 16+ Compatibility: Windows Story: In this game, you play Tsuzuki-san and you must spend a day in Hisoka-kun's house. Everything you do and everything you say is important to get the good ending. Download Link: #SendSpace ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Title: Yami no Romance (Yami No Matsuei doujin game) Rating: 16+ Compatibility: Windows Story: In the game the player is Tsuzuki-san. You go to an amusement park with Tatsumi, Watari and Hisoka. Your objective is to get the romantic ending with the character you like, but you must take care of the things you say to them. If you want to get the good ending, you must choose the correct answer each moment. Download link: #SendSpace ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IMPORTANT NOTE: Both games require that you install the RTP (Run Time Package) file first: ||UPDATED|| #SendSpace (Maker 2000) #SendSpace (Maker 2003) (Both these games are really cute and had me smiling the entire time ) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: BF Company: Ritz File Size: 79 MB Format: .rar (extracts to .iso) Download Links: Download BF Yaoi Game(Link thanks to Emeryl) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

I am simply amazed at the amount of incredibly talented writers we have in YO and I'm wondering if it was okay to have their works exhibited for our reading pleasure in a separate forum instead of having to put it under the 18- and 18+ BL fanfiction forums. This way it will not be confusing for the readers who are expecting to read an original fiction but find a fanfiction was posted instead. Thank you so much. I hope my request is not too much trouble. Thank you for all the wonderful and prompt responses and making the forums an engaging interactive experience.

Hidden away underneath it all, they quiver in anticipation Who goes, who stays, who lives, who dies It's not a matter of choice or destiny just a simple whim. Revel in the darkness, abhor the light Surrender all to guilt's desire. It's a deepness, a depth to be cherished Hidden and unheeded until the moment arises When each one is needed. Splinter of the mind, sliver of the soul Lies forgotten and cold Let the breath of life flow, let the eye follow. Open the realm and let it go.

Horror Ryuu Getting out of the limo I stood outside the apartment building for a while. It was cold outside and the sunset was now marred by encroaching clouds. I need time to think and the coldness of the air helped clear my head. Hasu had explained everything on the limo ride from the police station. The sick hollowed out feeling from earlier had been replaced with a vile sense of self loathing. It was partly from the meeting I’d just had with Nakamara, but mostly from knowing just how royally I’d screwed up. I had to do it though. I had to fire him. Though breaking up with him had been sheer impulse driven by anger and frustration. I really could have handled things better, especially knowing what I knew now. Rubbing a hand over my face, I dragged in a deep breath. I didn’t know what to do. It was all too much right now. I need to go home and relax, or at least try to. My apartment didn’t exactly feel like the safest place anymore. Not after what had happened. Shivering, I shoved my hands into my jacket pockets and turned toward the apartment building. I’d done some stupid things before, but never anything that had made me feel so lost and hopeless as I did now. How could I break up with the one person who’d loved me for me? “So fucking stupid.” My phone rang. It was Sora. A very pissed off Sora. I had to hold the phone away from my head as he yelled. “You are the biggest fucking idiot this side of the Pacific! I can’t believe you broke up with him like that! Do you know where I’ve been for the last fucking hour? Watching Kenta sob his heart out! Kenta! The one person who fucking loves you more than anything and even nearly got himself killed for you! What are you thinking or did all that hairspray finally fry your brain? You better beg him to come back when he gets there, you hear me! If you don’t I’ll personally come kick your ass.” Wait . . . Kenta was coming here? “He’s coming here?” “Yes you idiot, he wants to make things right.” Sora’s voice was finally down to a reasonable volume though he still sounded pissed. I was too stunned to even react to his tirade. “He’s absolutely devastated Ryuu. He cried so much he puked. Did Hasu talk to you?” “Yeah.” It came out more as a croak than a word. “Good. Now go fix this please. Kenta should be there any minute.” I hung up. I was shaking, my stomach doing weird flips. Turning away from the street I practically ran into the apartment building. I punched the up button for the elevator several times, anxious to get to my apartment. I’d just stepped inside when I spotted something on the floor. Frowning, I bent down to pick it up and sucked in a startled breath. I knew this knife. This was the one Kenta kept on his belt. He must already be here. But why was his knife on the elevator floor? He was never without them and it couldn’t have just fallen out of its sheath either. A knot of worry tightened my gut. Clutching the blade I waited for the elevator to stop on my floor. The smooth edges of the handle fit my palm perfectly and I could barely feel the weight of the blade itself. Just holding it was both disturbing and exhilarating. When I stepped out of the elevator the hall was quiet. The light over head was out for some reason and I hesitated before walking toward my door. I stood there for a moment staring at it. It was ajar. Kenta was always careful to make sure it was closed. Pushing it open I peered inside. Something seemed off. That was when I spotted the blood on the floor. I froze as something crashed in the other room, a muffled yell just barely reaching me. What the hell was going on? I was gripping the knife so hard it was hurting my fingers. “Get the fu-“ The rest was cut off by a scream of pain, jolting me. I flattened myself against the hallway wall. That voice. Kenta. Oh god Kenta. I forced myself away from the wall and belatedly noticed the bloody hand print smeared on it. I clapped a hand over my mouth as I gagged a wave of dizziness threatening to send me to my knees. Kenta was hurt. Oh fuck. Another voice assaulted my ears and I shuddered. Oh no . . . no . . . no, please-please don’t let it be Rame. The door to the bedroom was ajar, light spilling out into the hallway. Terrified beyond reason, I crept closer. I had to do something, anything to keep him from hurting Kenta. The door swung open with a single nudge and I stood there too shocked to move at first. I couldn’t even see the floor for the clothes littering it, broken furniture jutted out of the mess like tips of icebergs in a sea of debris. My attention snapped to the bed. It was stripped down to the mattress and my beautiful cream silk sheets had been ripped to shreds. Ribbons of silk were tied to the headboard and snaked down to the flailing figure on the bed. Kenta was tied in a vulgar attempt at shibari that looked more painful than artistic. He was visibly struggling to breathe, his arms nearly hyper- extended behind him. What was even more disturbing was the figure kneeling over him. Kenta kicked at him only to get hit, his legs spread and pinned. Before I could move Rame shoved whatever was in his hand into Kenta. The resulting scream from my lover nearly paralyzed me. I had to stop this. One second I was in the doorway, the next I was at the bed thrusting the knife hilt deep into Rame’s back. He grunted, twisting around. Then I was hitting the floor, my head spinning. A foot slammed into my ribs, knocking the air out of my lungs. Searing pain jolted through me as he grabbed me by the hair dragging me up. Hate filled eyes glared at me for a moment before he backhanded me. “You little bitch. I’ll take care of you now.” “No, Rame . . . please, leave him alone . . . please . . .” Kenta was sobbing, the sound completely unnatural to me. Kenta didn’t cry. Not my strong, confident, beautiful Kenta. Rame laughed the look in his eyes sending a darkening spiral of terror through me. “Fine, I’ll leave him alone, but you have to do something in return.” Looking passed Rame I saw Kenta nod. “Okay, just don’t hurt him.” I was tossed to the floor like a dirty rag. How could the man still be moving with a knife in his back? As he turned back to the bed, I could see the blood running down his back. Part of me was horrified that I’d stabbed someone, the other was furious that it had done no good. Rame stumbled. “What the hell?” He turned to look at me. “What did you hit me with . . .” Realizing that it was now or never, I grabbed up the splintered off table leg and charged him. The first hit barely seemed to faze him, but he was slowing down. I ducked avoiding his lunge and stabbed the jagged end into his ribs. It was his turn to scream. The next several minutes were a blur of blood and screaming. I blinked several times staggering as I looked down at the bloody mess at my feet. The hilt of the knife was still there. Reaching down I yanked it out. “Serve you right fucker.” I kicked him in the ribs and promptly fell on the bed. Kenta was staring at me. Dark eyes impossibly wide and fixed. “R-Ryuu . . .” “I think I killed him.” “Yeah . . . fuck that was fucking awesome.”

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Title: Missing Code Year: 2006 Status: Completed Author: Katou Eren Artist: Minase Masara Genre: Drama, Mystery, Yaoi Plot: Russian bodyguard Alexis is given the task of hunting down famous art thief Shiro, but is intrigued by art researcher Kairi. In a world of lies, intrigues, and espionage, love can be a deadly illusion... (BUM) Read Missing Code Manga Online: Missing Code Download Missing Code Manga: Missing Code For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Golden Bomber Movie - Suri Nokoshi Ta Natsu Synopsis : A movie by Japanese visual kei band Golden Bomber. Two boys go to seaside to spend summer, and they meet some guys and problems start to arrive... Country : Japan Download Golden Bomber Movie - Suri Nokoshi Ta Natsu: Mediafire download links: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 English Subtitles *thanks to tiny-tin and distressedcoma for the subs For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

This is Sahara Mizu's manga... She is also did some of yaoi manga to... just us diffient pen name... ^^ Story is about a man name Masamune found out that he has daughter... When he was in high school... he was love with Yuki-san... Who was little older them he... But, she told Masamune-kun that she will go U.S.A. to study... And he didn't hear from her some time... Now he is working... one day a girl come... That girl is Yuki-san's daughter... also, happen to be Masamune-kun's daughter also... I don't want to say any more... If any one like to know more find the book and read... I love the drowing and story line also... If you like genter heart warming story... I say this book for you!!! ^^ Also, this manga was made in J-drama... So any one read this manga? I will love you thought on this manga...

First of all thank you for the suggestion! I made a subforum -Original Fictions-. Is it ok like that? Also, please state the works previously posted that should go in the new subforum. One more thing, the forum is still called Fanfictions. If you think another name would suit better, please let me know.

Hi there, Don't know if it's me, but the links your giving are those of a raw video, there's no subtitle in here. --- If interested, here's the .srt file to do a softsub : http://www.mediafire.com/?tit4x1mqhyaw28k

That's right. It's better for yaoi fan to buy the licensed BL-manga in order to support our BL-mangakas. Some of the mangakas had to discontinue their BL-series due to financial problem. If you really wanna read Viewfinder, just try to look at akadot or ebay or amazon.

Unfortunately it is licensed and we aren't allowed to share it...

TITLE: 15, 15: The Movie COUNTRY: Singapore DIRECTOR: Royston Tan PLOT: The film charts the misadventures of five teenagers on the fringe of Singaporean society. Abandoned by the system, they seek answers to their aimless existence among the misfits and outsiders of Singapore's underclass. Acted by real street kids, it presents a gritty side of modern-day Singapore life that many never knew existed. Links (MF): Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 English Subs

Original name: Sono Yubi no Tadoru Kizu Manga ALT. names: その指のたどる傷, The Wounds Those Fingers Touch Original run: 2003 Description: The volume consists of 4 stories: Chapters 1-3 - The Wounds Those Fingers Touch: A fateful encounter between two ice skaters with drastically opposed styles and personalities leads to unexpected consequences. Alex Tsutsumi can’t seem to forget Yura Haruomi’s so graceful performance on the ring. Chapter 4 - Solitude Chapter 5 - Koi ni Naru Hi Chapter 6 - Enchainement: Kariya has always known that his position as a servant will keep him from being with young master Louis. But Louis isn't about to let it stop him... Manga-type: Collection of One shots Written by: Tsurugi Kai Group(s) Scanlating: Essence of Purity Read Sono Yubi no Tadoru Kizu Online Sono Yubi no Tadoru Kizu Download Sono Yubi no Tadoru Kizu Manga: Volume 1: http://www.mediafire.com/file/i27pid6j2jlj236/Sono_Yubi_no_Tadoru_Kizu.zip For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Dokusenyoku Manga ALT. names: 独占欲 (日向せいりょう) Monopolistic Desire Author: Hyuuga Seiryou Original run: 2008 Description: The story of the new high school teacher, Ichikura, and the younger brother of his ex-lover, Oda. Although an excellent student and member of the student council, Oda threatens Ichikura with the relationship between him and his elder brother. Is this the beginning of debauchery in the name of learning? Manga-type: Manga Published by: Core Magazine Group(s) Scanlating: Blissful Sin Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: School Life, Yaoi Categories: Teacher-Student; Age-gap Main Characters: Ichikura, Oda Recommendations: Dorei Kyoushi!!, Sensei, Kiss Shite Ii desu ka?, Hitomi no Giwaku Read Dokusenyoku Manga Dokusenyoku Download Dokusenyoku Manga Dokusenyoku For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: It Seems to Rain Country: Taiwan Plot: Kuan, a teenage high school boy is struggling to find his identity as homosexual. His girlfriend seems to understand something's wrong and tries to help him... Download It Seems To Rain Movie: Part 1: 4Shared Part 2: 4Shared Part 3: 4Shared Part 4: 4Shared *Download all parts and join them with HJSplit* For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: The Postcard Country: South Korea Director: Josh Kim Synopsis: A short story about a guy who falls in love with a postman and tries to express his feelings through a postcard. However, the 2 women in the post office staff read the guy's postcard and they both think that the postcard was actually for one of them. Watch The Postcard Online: The Postcard Download The Postcard BL Movie: The Postcard For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Alternative Titles: Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu; その唇に夜の露 Year: 2007 Status: Completed Author: Fukai Youki Genre: Drama, Mature, Psychological, Yaoi Summary: Wada Tatsuki seems to be an ordinary bus driver, living a simple and peaceful life. However there is a heavy burden he holds in his heart, a terrible thing that he has done in the past. What if one day the man he hurt appears and wants to take revenge? Read Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu online: Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu Downlaod Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu Manga: Download Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

rabbit2 also post a pic you like about your sign ,write down your luck if you want:leaf13: mine is Sagittarius well, i dont believe in it but i like reading my luck for fun , i also get notebook,Earrings and necklaces with Sagittarius,

Can someone help me please to find viewfinder Manga for download ^^? Thanks...

So i want to share it, and i guess here are the most People who understand me. Me and my Friend will see Gackt live!! Yeah he is coming to Germany, and we have Tickets. I can´t believe it, i will see him in front of me and live, i mean as a real Person. That is a Chance you get maybe once in your Life, so as much as i think about it as much as i get happy and hyper. So sorry that i posted it here but i´m soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy that i want to share it with you!!!!:hamtaro-005 (23)::hamtaro-005 (23)::hamtaro-005 (23)::hamtaro-005 (23)::hamtaro-005 (23)::hamtaro-005 (23): this is Gackt (but i guess the most of you know him ^^) is there anyone how saw him live????

My zodiacal sign is Aries

bossy... maybe

I don't believe in anything related to astrology so I'm just going to leave a pretty image and take off. I'm the same as you, sarah. (: [ATTACH=CONFIG]3721[/ATTACH]

*falls off her seat* That was amazing! You never cease to amaze me lol. Patiently waiting for the next installment

they are cool anime you can add whatever you want too thanks 4 sharing

Ergo Proxy, Mushishi, Final Fantasy, Hellsing & 07-GHOST. (*_*) [ATTACH=CONFIG]3587[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=CONFIG]3590[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=CONFIG]3591[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=CONFIG]3592[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=CONFIG]3593[/ATTACH] ...Okay, I better stop now. :msn_red_fox 14

Baccano!, D.Gray-man, DOGS & Durarara!!. [ATTACH=CONFIG]3574[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=CONFIG]3577[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=CONFIG]3580[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=CONFIG]3583[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=CONFIG]3584[/ATTACH]

The masterpiece, Gintama. Obsession for life. ♥

My most recent animanga crush is Akutabe (♥_♥), from Yondemasuyo, Azazel-san. He's SOOO cool, it's crazy. I couldn't not post him here. My apologies.

Arakawa Under The Bridge. EPIC. foxy3

you can read it on line here

. .from DEVIL MAY CRY and two cool girl picsz [ATTACH=CONFIG]3499[/ATTACH][ATTACH=CONFIG]3500[/ATTACH][ATTACH=CONFIG]3501[/ATTACH][ATTACH=CONFIG]3502[/ATTACH][ATTACH=CONFIG]3503[/ATTACH]

. .me too, it's so COOL! . .here are mine, from AMATSUKI, ichigo of BLEACH, and a yaoi [ATTACH=CONFIG]3494[/ATTACH][ATTACH=CONFIG]3495[/ATTACH][ATTACH=CONFIG]3496[/ATTACH][ATTACH=CONFIG]3497[/ATTACH][ATTACH=CONFIG]3498[/ATTACH]

Well, as to me. I never live under one roof with my parents for 10 years now. They're busy in their work abroad. Well, its not a biggie to me cause i still have my Brothers and sister livng with me. We four live together and i am the "HEAD OF THE FAMILY". HAHAHA. Though my parents still supports us. Im the eldest and so gay. My brother (next to me) is my bestfriend. We even talk about sex (yeah, he's still 15 and he's not a virgin anymore). Were too close that even his freinds thinks im his gay. HAHAHAHAH.

Nah I don't think those two were awkward. I think all these actors are totally open minded and don't care. Actually Daisuke and Mao in the 2nd film and being that it was their first time playing in boy love, now those makings, everything looked super cute and awkward.lol. So yea I think that was the only awkward time. Good thing we have diverse open minded actors that can do awesome super hot kiss scenes and make them as realistic as possible! XDXD

thx sooooo much....^^ have u watched the link....OMFG....itz the kiss scene of misu n shingyouji in the movie.... soooo HOT...dammit i wish i could watch the whole movie...ToT

erm...amazon jp.com already emailed me.They sent me Pure DVD yesterday..so I will give you the RAW ASAP..when it's delivered to me :leaf12:

ATTENTION TO ALL TAKUMI KUN FANS!!!! xSayaPinkyx from hollyhock subs said they can sub the movie BUT THEY NEED THE RAW FILES OF THE MOVIE.... So, if ANYONE knows how to find it or even owns it.... PLEASE INFORM THEM IN YOUTUBE OR FB....because we need them to sub it for us.... Kyaaa...if not, it'll take a longer wait for all of us...and I'm sure all of us are dying to watch it.... and I found a great cut from the movie too..as an encouragement Kiss scene of misu x shingyouji from the movie.. I'm posting it from my phone so if you can't open it, you could just search for it on YT http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3gmMzfq3lY

@nitemare . .woah!, . .was that difficult to have that kind of living??, i mean with two dads?? . .that's really a real life BL relationship, and your father was so brave to made a decision like that

Ryuu I looked up as the bathroom door opened. I was sitting wrapped in a blanket on the couch in Akira’s apartment. Sora and Hasu were on the floor at my feet. Sora had Hasu wrapped in another blanket and was holding him. Hasu had finally calmed down and was dozing. Akira was in the kitchen getting us all something to drink. Reiko came out of the bathroom looking haggard and too old for her eighteen years. She’d been crying. That much was easy to tell from the bloodshot eyes and the way she tried to hide under her bangs as she walked into the living room. "A-Ano, I talked with Nakamara and he's going to take care of things. We have to stay put though. We are safest here." Sitting down she kept her head bowed, the long dark blue striped hair hiding her face. "I'm sorry guys. I really am." "Wh-what is going on Reiko?" I was trying very hard to keep my composure. After everything that had happened yesterday and this morning I was afraid to ask. Before Reiko could answer, my phone rang. Instantly recognizing the tone, I grabbed it up seeing the text message notification. I held it, just looking at the display for a moment. I was frightened to see what he had to say. Part of me didn’t ever want to see him again while the other part was desperate to get him back. I knew he was hurt and had spent the night in the hospital, but I’d been so wrapped up in what had happened at the apartment and dealing with Hasu’s hysterics and my own panic attacks I hadn’t called or even texted him. I slid the phone open and hit the button. I love you and I'm sorry. Shutting the phone I stared at it. A foreign surge of anger rushed through me for a moment I just stood there before throwing the phone across the room. It shattered against the far wall the pieces clattering to the floor. Hasu yelped and I heard Sora cuss but it barely registered. “I’m going to beat him. Who the fuck does he think he’s fooling! This whole time and he never once-not fucking once-says he loves me. Until now. I swear I’m gonna find him and beat him-“ “Ryuu, calm down.” I turned to glare at Reiko, not about ready to calm down. This was too much. “No! He’s cheating on me with some nasty little escort and then he lets Hasu get kidnapped by Naoki who did who knows what to him-” “Ryuu!” “No Sora, I know Naoki, I know what he’s like. For Kenta to let this happen and then you getting hurt too, I’ve had enough. He’s lied and avoid me for long enough. I’m going to go find him.” “Ryuu you can’t! Just think for a minute okay. I know you are upset, we all are, but putting yourself in danger is not going to help anything.” Sora grabbed my arm before I could open the door. “Ryuu! Sit down and think for a minute. “ I didn’t want to think. It was too painful. If I could be angry then I didn’t have to feel the hurt. The feeling that something was clawing away my insides until a hollow bleeding shell was left was replaced by the hot ache of anger. After everything we’d been through together, even before we started dating, how could he betray-not just me-but all of us? If it had just been him screwing around with some escort I would have been upset, but I could have forgiven him. But letting Hasu get kidnapped and possibly molested by my ex-boyfriend and his former cell mate? When he knew and had known for a while that we were being targeted and had kept everything to himself? I couldn’t forgive that. I wouldn’t. After a moment I realized Sora had led me back to the couch and made me sit down. Hasu laid his head over on my knee, his brown eyes somber as he glanced up at me. “Ryuu . . . I’m okay. He didn’t-he didn’t do what you think. Please don’t be mad at Kenta he came to-” “Guys, Kenta got arrested.” Reiko burst into the apartment startling me. I hadn’t realized she’d left. She slammed the door behind her and took a deep breath. “Naoki named him as an accomplice. The cops picked him up at his apartment and he’s in jail now.” “They can’t do that!” I jumped started by Hasu’s outburst. “Sora we have to leave right now. Reiko where is the station. God damn it get up! We have to go now!” I blinked a few times never having seen Hasu in such a state before. He was on his feet, the bruising livid against his pale skin, but his eyes were sharp and dared any of us to disagree with him. Sora and I looked at each other. I shrugged, not sure what else to do. Hasu never demanded anything. Except food. We arrived at the police station about half an hour later. I hung back as the others headed in, Hasu in the lead. Sora was right behind Hasu, but kept looking back at me as if he wasn’t sure who he should stay with. I waved him on. I wasn’t sure if I was ready to face Kenta yet or not. “Ryuu, come on.” Reiko took my arm, gently pulling me forward. “I think you need to hear what Hasu has to say.” In the end none of us got to hear what Hasu told the detectives. They took him to a private room. We sat outside the station on the steps, none of us really talking for the hour he was gone. Sora was the first to see him when he came out. “Hasu! How did it . . . Kenta?” I got up turning to see Kenta standing behind Hasu. A stab of pain shot through me seeing him bandaged and bloody. Though that wasn’t what really caught my attention. He wouldn’t look at us. His eyes focused on the ground. Hasu on the other hand was beaming. “I told them everything that happened. They had to let Kenta go because he didn’t have anything to do with it. In fact Rame tried to-“ Hasu stopped looking back at Kenta who had put a hand on his shoulder. He shook his head slightly and Hasu nodded. “Anyway, we can go home now! Everything is better . . . right?” Hasu was looking at me. I started up the stairs and stopped in front of him and Kenta. Kenta didn’t even look up. It irritated me. He’d gone and been his usual bull headed self and it had gotten all of us hurt. “Kenta.” He finally raised his head, our eyes meeting. The pain in them was raw and it would have been easy to let it sway my decision except that Hasu was right there, bruises and all. No it was too late. “You are fired.”

*** I left the hospital the next morning with a bag of meds and instructions to not lift anything over ten pounds. Ryuu hadn’t come to see me and not a single person had called or texted me. Looking up at the clear blue sky, the cool November breeze seemed to chill me to the bone. People were coming and going, but I might as well have been part of the scenery for all the attention anyone paid. Fuck, what the hell was wrong with me. I needed to just go home. I had a sudden mental image of Reiko and her telling me never to come back. I must have stumbled or something cause someone grabbed my arm and asked if I was alright. I nodded, trying to say thanks, but nothing came out. I really needed to fucking snap out of it. Ryuu’s apartment wasn’t my home, even if had started to feel like it. I took the bus to my old neighborhood. I got off at the usual stop and stood there for a long moment. Turning away from the stree, I looked up the hill. The neighborhood was even more run down than I remembered, that or I’d gotten too used to luxury penthouses. Though even the neighborhood my apartment was in looked better than this. Businesses were boarded up and abandoned. Trudging up the hill, I kicked trash out of my way. Stopping a narrow alley between two buildings I stared down it. This was it. The path I’d used to take home from middle school. It was dirty and dark just like I remembered, just with more graffiti and a stronger shit smell. I felt like I was walking down a tunnel that was slowly dragging me into the past. Stopping at the narrow crumbling steps that led down to the entry to the abandoned building I tried to decide if this was a good idea. My past was ripping my life apart at the moment . . . did really want to visit the place I’d lost everything once before? Fuck it. I hadn’t been back since that day five years ago. Might as well see if anything was still there. Though doubted it. The door was gone, that didn’t surprise me. What did surprise me was that nothing had been touched. The furniture, what little we’d had, was still sitting around the tiny apartment. I stood in the doorway for a while trying to convince myself that I shouldn’t go inside. I did anyway. It was a mistake. They had never cleaned it. Once I got inside the dark stain on the floor was clearly visible and my stomach twisted up into a hard knot. If I closed my eyes I could see her laying there. Face down on the floor, her clothes torn and bloody. She looked even smaller and more fragile dead. “Ayame . . .” The sound of my voice startled me. Turning around I walked back out. I had to fix things with Ryuu. I had to do something. No fucking way I was gonna to let those fuckers get away with hurting Hasu and going after Ryuu. This time I wasn’t going to fail. I’d die first. My phone rang, making me jump. I glared at the name on the screen. What did that bitch want? To cuss me out more for fucking up and getting my ass beat? “What is it Kurosaki?” There was a soft sigh from the other end, “Kenta . . . I-I’m sorry. I shouldn't have assumed you were cheating on Ryuu but you got to look at it how it looked like, especially to us. You lied about where you were and who you were with and to top it off you made Ryuu cry. That's- That's not why I called though." Taking a breath, she let it out, her voice quivering slightly as she spoke, "Rame got away. He-he's basically on the loose now. The boys are going to Akira's where Jiro is and Hayate and Isao are going there to keep an eye on them till he’s caught. Kenta- I- . . . You need to explain yourself to Ryuu. He loves you, he really does and me being protective won't stop him so make up with him, fix this. . . please." I didn't say anything, thinking about what she'd said. Rame was one unforgiving bastard. He’d never stop harassing me as long as both of us were still alive. I sighed, rubbing a hand across my forehead. If I'd just told Reiko what was going on I would have had the whole picture right off. I’d just been so scared that Ryuu would panic knowing that someone was stalking the band. I should have just risked Ryuu's hysterics and told them. It wasn't worth all this pain. Hearing Reiko say my name I looked down, clearing my throat so I could speak. "I'll see what I can do." Shutting the phone I glanced back at the apartment building. If Rame was out there, I would find him. No one hurt the people I loved and lived to regret it.

. .well, this thread was appropriate for me to answer, hihihihi, :leaf5: . .since im a paramore fan, i never get bored of whatever songs i played from them rabbit16 . .i could played it as long as i live in this world, LOL :msn_red_fox 2 . .though there were alot of songs i also hooked into, but PARAMORE was my first ever choice

@yojichan The interview was so funny! I like so much any interview with these 2! Hamao is so shy! And Dai is trying to be so cool! I like it a lot! :5yoyo34:

I don't think a movie like this could exist : It was too perfect to be true ♥♥♥, the actors ♥

I love Kakashi *w* he is definetly someone I would drool (actually nosebleed) for

My love for Asian music came when I first started watching anime and originally I only really listened to anime opening and ending themes and didn't really know who they were done by.