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Title: BF Company: Ritz File Size: 79 MB Format: .rar (extracts to .iso) Download Links: Download BF Yaoi Game(Link thanks to Emeryl) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Directors: M2M 3: Versus Directors: José Dela Rosa Release Year: 2008 Country: Philippines Language: Filipino Genre: Drama Runtime: 48 min Summary: Versus is a tale of two male hunks undergoing the different stages of realization and of falling in and out of love. Their story reels off in their minds and is carried out in a rather sensual and provocative manner. Note: for mature audience Download M2M 3: Versus Movie: M2M3: Versus What actually goes on...? And what are the complexities in the process of carrying out, staying in and moving on from this kind of relationship? Masterfully crafted as the previous M2M features- this video shows the intricacies and dynamics of male to male relationship. For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Prologue Alex Patterson dropped his fork. The silver utensil clattered on his plate completely forgotten. He had to have heard wrong. Maybe he was asleep and this was just a dream. Subconsciously the brunette boy reached down and pinched his right forearm. Yelping in response when the saw the red spot forming on his arm Alex looked over at his dad. “Let me get this straight dad. You lost your job and plan on having us move out so you can avoid the embarrassment of being evicted.” Tony Patterson took a drink from his glass and looked at his son with a very solemn expression on his face. “Yes that covers it.” He had spent most of the afternoon trying to figure out how to break the bad news to his son and wound up just being blunt about it. “Well I just want to know two things. When the hell were you going to tell me about this and where the hell are we going to go?” Alex asked picking up his fork and finishing his nearly forgotten salad. Tony had had a feeling Alex was going to ask those questions and he only smiled. “Alex calm down did you honestly think I wouldn’t think everything through? What would be the point of moving us out of the apartment even when I still have enough to cover next month’s rent? Our lease will be up this month so I figured since everything is happening all at once we might as well move while we have the chance.” Alex looked up at his dad as he gathered the dishes. “Again I ask where are we moving?” Tony chuckled. “You’ll find out when the time comes. When you’re finished I want you in bed early. I know you were up late last night studying.” Sighing Alex knew he couldn’t argue. “Okay, okay but could I at least squeeze in one chapter of Paranoia? I’ll be halfway if I can.” Tony couldn’t help but smile. “You and that book. I still can’t believe you were into that type of literature. But I guess as long as you’re in bed in twenty minutes.” “Give me some credit Dad.” Alex requested. “I read faster than you do. I’d be able to get at least three chapters read in twenty minutes.” Tony closed the door to the dishwasher and turned to his son. “Fair enough. Well I’m off to bed myself.” He said punctuating the statement with a loud yawn. “I have a lot to do tomorrow.” “Kay Dad Good night.” Alex picked up his backpack from the couch and headed into his room. Changing out of his day’s outfit and into his sleep clothes the brunette picked up a large tome and located his marked place in the story. “I’m going to enjoy this.” * * * * “Criss are you finished with your homework?” Max Perkins tapped on his son’s bedroom door. Surprisingly he wasn’t fazed when he didn’t receive an answer. Checking the knob he was shocked to find the door unlocked. Opening the door he peeked in to see his son lying on his bed, his hearing being blocked by music that even he could hear on the other side of the room. “CRISTOPHER PERKINS GET THOSE HEADPHONES OFF RIGHT NOW!” Criss Perkins removed his headphones ironically at the end of the last song on the cd and looked at his alarm clock then his dad. “What is it dad? It’s nearly 11:30 don’t you have to get up for work?” “And you have to get up for school.” Max answered pointing to the clock. “If your homework isn’t done-“ Criss turned off his cd player and set it on his bedside table. “Chill Dad I took care of it already. I did it during my study period.” “Why would you do it then? Homework is supposed to be brought home hence the word ‘home’ in ‘homework’.” Criss leaned back against his pillow in frustration. “Because it was either that or bugging the teacher again and getting detention. Besides I knew if I did bring it home you’d start chewing my ass off for not being an overachiever or an A student. I’m passing with decent grades I’d think you’d be grateful.” Max was taken aback a first by his son’s outburst but he recovered quickly. “Well, either way you need to get to bed. I won’t tolerate this anymore.” He pointed to the clock on the table. “You requested your curfew for 10:00 and if you want to keep it at that time you will follow it or I’m resetting it for 8:00 get it?” Criss only rolled over onto his side so his back was facing his father muttering, “Whatever.” Max winced at the tone in his son’s voice and sat down on the corner of the bed. “Criss please don’t be like that. I don’t mean to be like this it’s just.” Criss looked over his shoulder at his father and nodded aware of where this was going but not wanting to tag-along the way. “Don’t worry about it dad. It was hard on me too.” “Okay Pal, get some sleep.” Max said speaking this time with a small smile. He walked out of the room whispering, “Good night.” Criss waited until his dad has closed the door before changing into his black silk pajama pants. He reached over and flipped off the lamp on his bedside table and plugged his ear buds back into his cd player and turning it to his newest obsession ‘No Pressure”. He needed music to lure him to sleep whether his dad liked it or not.

Gojyo & Sanzo, from Gensoumaden Saiyuki. Colored version.

The news, it came so suddenly You took it rather well. Your time on earth is limited You almost wouldn't tell You spend your last days at my side Enjoying what we could I never wanted it to end It's cruel that it should But then one day you looked at me You told me this was it Although your time was over now You asked me not to quit. The tears I felt were not enough To show you how I cared You seemed so calm and ready But I was unprepared I couldn't watch you when you left I knew this was the end. How I could I ever live on when I'd lost my love, my friend. Looking back on yesterday Remembering what was Knowing it won't be the same And I am not the cause The memories that we have shared Are etched into my heart And even though you're not with me We're never truly apart.

Bloodstained hands, Tear filled eyes Hidden truth Revealing disguise Wandering stranger Lost his way On his own Yet another day Answers forgotten Shadows near Fate’s new puppet Dances in fear Beaten walkway Untraveled road Secrets shared That shouldn’t have been told Mysterious watcher Always aware Do not look back He’s no longer there Confusion begins Memories gone Just another dream Never real all along

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Would it be too much to ask To hear the way you feel To know that when you say the words Each one of them is real Would it be too much to ask To be held in your arms. To know that if I need it You’ll keep me safe from harm Would it be too much to ask To feel your tender kiss To know that when your lips touch mine It’s ecstasy it’s bliss Would it be too much to ask To feel your silk smooth skin To make it feel so good It has to be a sin Would it be too much to ask To make forever real To promise me no matter what It’s how you’ll always feel.

Title: Yume Musubi Koi Musubi Manga ALT. names: 夢結び恋結び Bond of Dreams, Bond of Love Yume Musubi, Koi Musubi Original run: 2008 Description: High school student Ao decides he’s in love with Ryoumei-san, a priest at the local shrine and Ao’s childhood friend. Not one to beat around the bush, Ao immediately tells Ryoumei he wants to do perverted things together, but it will take more than a little persuading to get the shocked Ryoumei into bed. Between bad advice, romantic rivals, and Ryoumei’s scruples, there are many obstacles in the path of true love. Note: Shunpei from Koi Cha no Osahou appears in this story as the main character's best friend. Manga-type: Manga Written by: Sakuragi Yaya Drawn by: Sakuragi Yaya Published by: Kadokawa Shoten Group(s) Scanlating: Anime-tion Scanlation Corrupted Fetishes Dangerous Pleasure Greed and Gluttony Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: Age-Gap, Hidden Feelings Main Characters: Ao, Ryoumei Adaptation based on available: N/A Recommendations: [bónd(z)], Ijiwaru na Kuchibiru Read Yume Musubi Koi Musubi Online: Yume Musubi Koi Musubi Download link: Vol 01 ~ Vol 02 ~ Vol 03 ~ Vol 04 c14-18 Or Vol 04 ch14 ~ Vol 04 ch15 Vol 04 ch16 // Vol 04 ch16 [Anime-tion] Vol 04 ch17 ~ Vol 04 ch18 More manga series by Sakuragi Yaya Please support the author by buying the book (Free Worldwide Delivery): For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Pair of Love Type: BL Movie Country: Taiwan Synopsys: Li Jeng-je and Hue Wei Luen are best friend. Before they realize, they fall in love with each other and change their relationship from best friends to lovers. But Je is a basketball player who is afraid that his sexual orientation might be found by his homophobic friend, so he decides to break up with Lun. He tried to have a straight relationship with Ying, who is actually a lesbian. But eventually, he realizes that it doesn't feel right... Watch Pair of Love Movie Online: Pair of Love Download Pair of Love Movie: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Join the parts with HJSplit For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

This is some sort of game...anti-boredom game. You just have to complete below with what you are doing right now. Mood: Status: Location: Y!M/Skype status: Talking on Y!M/Skype with: Eating: Drinking: Dressed in: Listening: Watching: Reading: Thinking: Dating: Love: Annoyed: Hate: Missing: Wanting: Can't wait to: I'll start: Mood: calm and relaxed Status: So hot outside Location: my room...on a chair Y!M/Skype status: none...I'm not online yet Talking on Y!M/Skype with: - Eating: fish *yum* Drinking: Fanta madness Dressed in: a shirt and pants Listening: Lady Gaga-Judas Watching: The video O_O Reading: nothing...I finished "The right hand of evil"...I must look in my bookcase for another book Thinking: That this weather is horrible for going to school...or better said for coming back from it(frigging hot) Dating: haha...dating is not my priority right now Love: my cat and her two little babies Annoyed: at the weather Hate: no one...for the moment Missing: my holiday Wanting: an ice-cream Can't wait to: be in holiday *sigh* So this is how it goes If you're not using Y!M or skype you can complete with what program you are using

Your eyes have pierced my very soul Your lips have made me yours. You touch has made me lose control It’s reached into my core Your voice has made me fall again Into a world unknown I know I’m always near you then Yet I still feel alone Your kiss I feel it on my skin Its better than a dream Could this be yet another sin Or more than what it seems. Your hands have found my very heart To reach it has been tough But as I feel the caressing start I cannot get enough. You’re song has reached into my ears The harmony so sweet I wash away my doubts and fears We were destined to meet

The man addressed as Mr. V accepted the extended hand pulling himself to his feet and smiled in return. “It was my pleasure. Unlike most humans I have no fear of your kind. I know there are two different categories, those who work with or for humans and those who work against. If I can help add to the list of those who work for us I’ll do whatever I can.” “Well as you know we loathe being seen as bloodsucking monsters so your help is highly appreciated.” Kaisuke spoke up as he stepped forward. “Oh by the way you’re wife I just checked up on her she should be fine within a few hours.” Mr. V turned towards the woman propped up against the wall. “I see thank you. I guess in all the acting I got a little too into my character.” Haiake chuckled as he crossed his arms in front of his chest. “You should think of taking up on acting. You were very convincing to me.” “Well try to remember that when you’re out on the field there won’t be actors. You’ll be dealing with the real thing. “ Miakatsu stated hotly. Haiake turned to glare at the other vampire. “Try telling me something I don’t already know.” “Well considering how low you’re intelligence is it would take too long to list everything so I’m not even going to waste my breath.” Miakatsu responded turning his back to the others. “You know it’s very rude to compare yourself to others.” Haiake retorted, “Mia.” Miakatsu stepped forward eyes glowing fangs bared “You just signed your own death warrant.” Before he could get any closer he was blocked. “Do you two want to punished again?” Tozouku asked looking back and forth between the two arguing vampires.” “He started it.” Was the answer from both of them. Mr. V glanced over at Kaisuke. “I’m guessing this happens often.” Kaisuke chuckled. “When it comes to those two it’s a daily ritual. I’m still trying to figure out how Tozouku has managed to pacify them.” “Because neither of them wishes to feel my wrath.” Tozouku stated, his voice low and menacing. “Now apologize. NOW!” Miakatsu’s eyes returned to normal and his fangs retracted. “I suppose my comments were uncalled for. I hope I would not be too bold in asking for forgiveness.” Haiake bit his lip. “It would only be fair of me to ask for forgiveness of you in return.” Tozouku expression did a complete one-eighty and smiled warmly. “Come on you three it’s time to head back to the manor. You all have school in the morning and I expect all of you to be there on time.” Kaisuke yawned, “You know I didn’t even do any work tonight and I’m downright exhausted. What about you two?” Miakatsu shrugged. “I guess so.” “Same here. I think it’s best if we head back now.” Haiake added throwing in a yawn of his own. “In fact I feel quite woozy to be honest.” Tozouku turned around in time to catch Haiake as his legs gave out. “Haiake when was the last time you fed?” “Um ten days ago.” Haiake answered his voice quiet. “Careless as usual.” Miakatsu muttered. He shut his mouth when he noticed the look Tozouku was shooting him. “Let’s just get home.” “Way ahead of you.” Kaisuke stated already a fair distance away. “Tozouku are you going to make breakfast again?” Tozouku was busy hoisting Haiake onto his back. “I planned to yes. Is there anything particular you wish to have?” Miakatsu picked up his pace as he followed the others back. “I’m not picky you guys already know that.” “That’s got to be a first.” Haiake muttered weakly. “You’re lucky you’re in your current state or I-“ Miakatsu began. Tozouku turned allowing is emerald eyes to glow. “Or you’ll what?” Recoiling Miakatsu stepped back. “Nothing.” “That’s what I thought.” Tozouku answered picking up his pace. “Now come on. We’ve had a long day. Rest is required for all of us.” Kaisuke stretched his arms up and yawned again “I just wish it was Friday.” Miakatsu scoffed. “I don’t.” Kaisuke nearly stopped in his tracks. “Why is that?” Miakatsu looked at the slightly taller vampire. “Have you forgotten?” “The Chief has an important case for us this weekend. Remember?” Haiake stated as he felt himself drifting off to sleep. Tozouku lightly shook the vampire on his back. “Hush now. A job well done deserves a reward. Rest now. You’ll feed tomorrow.” Haiake had no reason to argue and no strength so he closed his eyes and allowed himself to fall into a blissful slumber. Kaisuke watched as the newest addition to the team did indeed fall asleep and looked at Miakatsu. “Hey think you can go on ahead? I want to talk to Tozouku alone.” Normally one would be insulted to be excluded from a conversation but Miakatsu was different. “That’s fine I’ll see you guys back at the manor.” Not waiting for response Miakatsu picked up his speed leaving the other two alone. Kaisuke made sure Haiake was asleep before turning his attention to Tozouku. “I wasn’t kidding when I asked if you think he’s ready. I saw him from afar. He looked really shaken up.” Tozouku sighed. “Kaisuke you were the same way on your first mission so you have no room to talk. But you have been with me the longest that’s why I want you to keep an eye on him like you did Miakatsu when he joined us.” Kaisuke only nodded. “I can do that. But Tozouku why do you think those two can’t get along? They’re both vampires they’re both white-eyed and they both have an ego bigger than the hungriest vampire’s appetite.” “Exactly. They can’t get alone because they have too much in common. They say opposites attract. Obviously these two aren’t opposites so the result is obvious.” Tozouku started. “Well I just hope for both their sakes they find some neutral ground. One of these days I fear they may do something the will both regret.” Kaisuke muttered. Tozouku said nothing to that knowing no words need be spoken. He knew Kaisuke was right. If Miakatsu and Haiake didn’t learn to get along the results could indeed be dangerous for all of their kind.

“Criss dinner’s ready.” Criss pulled the ear buds out and placed his pencil on his desk. “Be right there.” Right before he had left for school that morning his dad had said he needed to talk to him about something and said he would do so over dinner. Curiosity was starting to get the better of Criss and he had been find it difficult to concentrate on his homework. After washing the ink off his hands he headed down the stairs to the kitchen. Max dished out the tuna casserole onto the plates and sat down at the table. Seeing the anxious expression on his son’s face made him laugh. “Patience Criss; eat first then I’ll tell you the news.” Criss sat down and looked at his dad. “Well tell me one thing; is it good news or bad news?” His curiosity had just won the battle. Max swallowed a mouthful of the casserole. “Well it depends on how you look at it. I guess you could say it’s both.” “Well that helps.” Criss muttered sarcastically as he dug into his own meal. Max only shrugged in return. “You asked a question I answered honestly.” Criss said nothing in return as he continued to eat his food. He figured the sooner he ate the sooner he would get some answers. Once the two of them were done eating and the dishes were taken care of Criss and Max walked out to the living room. “Okay Dad what is it?” “Well do you remember my friend from Oregon, Tony Patterson?” Max asked. Criss thought for a moment trying to place the name with a face from his memory. The name did sound familiar but no face came to mind. “I think so. What about him?” “Well it turns out he and his son have wound up in a bad situation. Now I owe Tony a lot from favors over the past several years, all the way from high school and I have been trying to figure out away to pay him back. “ Max explained. “And I’m guessing you came up with something, but why tell me? That’s something between you and him isn’t it?” Criss responded. “It has nothing to do with me.” Max sighed as he looked at his shoes. “Actually Criss it does. Remember how I said you would think what I was going to tell you as both good news and bad news?” Criss nodded. “Well Tony told me that he has lost his job thanks to the company going bankrupt and he and his son have to move from their apartment by the end of this month; less than weeks from now. They have no place to go.” Max began. “Why do I get the feeling I’m not liking where this is going?” Criss asked. “I have offered Tony and his son the chance to move in with us until they can get back on their own feet again.” Max answered. “So the good news is you’re going to get a chance to get a new friend. The bad news is you’ll have to give up having a room to yourself, but that will be temporary. I plan on fixing up the old office room and making it into a bedroom.” Criss stood up and looked down at his father. “I’m guessing I have no say in this.” Turning around he headed upstairs. “Don’t ask Dad. I’m going to finish my homework the going to bed.” Once he was in his room he locked the door and sat down at his desk. “Damien and Raven are going to love this.” Putting his ear buds back in he looked down. “Now where the hell was I?” ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ “Alex when you’re finished with your homework, come to my room I need to talk to you.” Tony spoke through his son’s bedroom door. Alex looked up from his book. “I am finished with it dad. I’ll be right there, just want to finish this chapter.” He turned his attention back to his book when he heard his dad’s retreating footsteps. Once he reached the next chapter he set the book down and walked into his dad’s room. “What is it?” Tony sat down on the edge of his bed and motioned for Alex to take a seat anywhere he felt comfortable. Once his son was seated he looked at him. “Do you remember our discussion a few days ago about moving?” Alex visibly cringed, “Yes but to be perfectly honest I’ve been trying to forget about it.” “Why is that?” Tony asked. “ I figured you would be excited.” Alex leaned back against his chair in a huff, “Dad why would I be excited to be leaving everything I know and am familiar with?” Tony chuckled. “Touché. But Alex listen to me, we aren’t moving that far from here. It’s in another state yes but Oregon will still be right next-door. Or should I say right above us.” “Above us? Wait, are you saying we’re moving to California?” Alex asked. “Why in the world are we moving there?” Sighing Tony reached for his wallet from the table and pulled out a picture. “Because my old college friend Max owes me a huge favor and he and his son live in a house that’s too big for just the two of them.” He turned the picture around showing it to his son. Alex looked at the picture recognizing it from seeing it before. “What about his wife.” Tony placed the picture back in his wallet and shook his head, “Don’t ask about that. It’s a subject best not mentioned.” Setting the wallet back on the table he looked back over at Alex. “Now while you’ve been at school I’ve been packing a few things every day. I figured you could pack your own stuff.” Alex looked around noticing that his dad’s room did look different. “So that’s why the place seems emptier. But dad are you sure it’s okay? I mean can we really just move are stuff in and make ourselves at home?” “Alex trust me, Max has owed me many favors so I decided to have him combine all the favors into one huge one. Him allowing us to live with him and his son until we can get back on our own feet again is his way of returning the favor.” Tony reassured him. Alex sighed deeply as he tapped fingers on the arm of the chair. “When do we leave?” “At the end of the month.” Alex leapt out of his seat, “End of the month!? But that’s one week! What about school what about-“ Tony held his hands up. “I already informed your school and if till help at all you can have your friends over as often as you want this last week.” Alex leaned back again. “I guess that’s fair. Oh speaking of school did my Principal call you? I talked to him a few days ago but-“ “Yes, yes he did just the other day.” Tony answered. “I must say you have made me proud. It seems Mr. Peters is sad to see you leave the school. He said you were one of the top students in your class.” In hopes to change the subject and hide his faint blush Alex covered his mouth and yawned. “Well it’s getting late. I had better get to bed.” Tony only chuckled as he noticed the embarrassed look on his son’s face. “Okay good night buddy.” ~*~*~*~*~ “Are you serious?” Criss adjusted the phone in the crook of his neck as he finished up his homework. “Yeah and according to my dad they’ll be here in a week.” “Does that mean you’ll have to give up your room?” Raven asked through the receiver. “No, well I mean the guy will be sleeping on the airbed till we finish renovating that old room.” Criss explained. “Dad’s friend is going to be moving into the guest room.” “So why is your dad doing this anyway?” Damien asked. “Something about owing is friend for saving his ass in the past or something.” Criss answered. “I never asked. I just hope this kid isn’t an idiotic freak.” Raven chuckled. “What are you going to do if he’s like us?” “Trust me I already know he isn’t. Dad told me about him and his dad.” Criss scoffed. “So I would know what to look forward to he said.” “Criss get off the phone and get your ass into bed. It’s 9:57.” Max’s voice echoed on the other side of the bedroom door. Criss glanced at his clock and winced. “Shit guys I have to go, it’s almost my curfew.” Raven sighed, “Okay Criss, night see you tomorrow. Damien Damien? Hey dork face?” When they heard no response Criss muttered. “He fell asleep again. Hold on a second.” Clearing his throat he yelled straight into the receiver. “Hey dork face!” Criss nearly fell over laughing when he heard the reaction on Damien’s side. “Who what the-“ Both Criss and Raven hung up at the same time. “Night.”

Bronze End of Chapter by Takehide Bronze -Saishuushou Achingly, I waited alone in a corner of the room I remembered the color of your skin (like) snow, falling from a violet sky, that suddenly disappears when embraced. Despair The day we first met is so close yet so far The person I was searching is innocently laughing I, dazzled (by you), without being able to see the answer, lose yesterday, today, and tomorrow That insanity, that violence That scar that I kiss Or that seemingly broken memory Or that pain to the point of sleeplessness Are they things that someone can take away from me? Stay by my side, don't go! Gaze only at me My heart burns with the love I have for you By embracing one another, we won't be separated. Nobody can break us apart. Even if I defy any god, even if I lose my life just as long as I have only you. If I could pull out this heart of mine, I would want to show you this love right now If the night of animalistic love-making could continue, the fleeting dreams would disappear That pain, that oppression That eternal prayer Or that numbed sigh Or that momentary tranquility Are they things that someone can take away from me? If you would be here for me, I won't make you cry again I love you! This is my pledge to you Connected, entangled cold fingertips Even if I defy any god, even with this sin, just as long as I have only you.

Some of my favorite lyrics, HIM - Right Here in My Arms

Title : Hatsu-koi, First Love Year: 2007 Country : Japan Language : Japanese Subtitle(s) : English Genre : Drama | Romance | Crime | Gay Themed Plot/Synopsis: Tadashi has fallen in love with his classmate, Kota, and doesn't dare to tell anyone. This destroys all hope he ever had of getting together with Kota. Thoroughly depressed, Tadashi meets a gay couple on the train. Hiroki and Shinji are fascinating... In Hatsu-Koi, director Imaizumi Koichi tells a story about coming of age, coming out and a gay marriage that is sprinkled with both love and comedy, at the centre of which is a teenager who doesn't yet know what he wants. Watch Hatsu-koi BL Movie Online: Hatsu-koi BL Movie Download Hatsu-koi BL Movie: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Join the files with HJSplit For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Golden Bomber Movie - Suri Nokoshi Ta Natsu Synopsis : A movie by Japanese visual kei band Golden Bomber. Two boys go to seaside to spend summer, and they meet some guys and problems start to arrive... Country : Japan Download Golden Bomber Movie - Suri Nokoshi Ta Natsu: Mediafire download links: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 English Subtitles *thanks to tiny-tin and distressedcoma for the subs For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

I don't know if all you guys have the same "disease" like me, but i USUALLY get obssession with a anime/manga/drama after seeing it (as long as they are good things like "JJ romantica, toigaru no chi, viewfinder, maiden rose...." ... It's so shameful that i was totally shocked at the first time watching yaoi...~and i yelled like crazy when seeing the "rape or bed scenes" : "What the hell are they doing...OMG~ STOP DOING SUCH TERRIFYING THINGS!! TWO BAD GUYS, STOP!!"... after that...i was obsessed by them for at least one week...!! The same situation happened again to me whenever i watch a new manga or drama! Yahhh ahhhh! It often took me a long time to get things out of my mind! ~ hmm ....but...easy to remember, easy to forget =))...after that i wouldn't remember anything but character's names. =)))... What's bout u? XD

Chapter 1 It was only his first mission and a mock one at that but he would show the others he was capable of joining them out on the field. The set up they had put together made it feel real considering he had already observed a live mission from afar. It had been an easy one too something he could have handled with his hands tied behind his back. Okay maybe just one hand. Pushing the thought from his mind Haiake stood very still and filled his nostrils with the surrounding scents hoping to locate even the faintest trace of blood. After several moments he hit his mark and started running in the direction of the scent all the while staying within the safety of the shadows. “Haiake what’s your location?” Haiake nearly jumped in surprise by the voice coming from his earpiece. He reached up by his collar to speak into an installed mic to respond. “I’m over on 11th street. I’ve picked up the trail. He’s pretty close.” “Good you know what to do when you reach him Miakatsu will join you soon.” Haiake inwardly groaned. “Why did you send that idiot Tozouku? I told you I could handle this myself.” “No arguments unless you want to pulled from this mission.” Tozouku responded harshly, “Is that clear?” Haiake snapped his mouth shut for a second. He knew better than to make Tozouku angry. Seeing Tozouku angry was like borrowing a hammer and nailing your own coffin shut. “Clear Haiake out.” When he no longer heard Tozouku’s voice he picked up his pace and jumped onto a small walkway of an abandon building. Scanning the area he soon pinpointed his target; a man with a knife and a girl in a red evening dress. “There you are.” “No please let me go please!” the girl cried “You really like using that mouth don’t you. The man responded. “But I think I may have a better use for it.” Haiake’s eyes widened. If this was only a mock mission he was almost afraid to find out what he would face out in the field. Shaking his head he jumped down from the walkway ledge. “Hey you.” The man turned around throwing the girl to the side. “Well, well look what we have here. Are you up for a round as well? I don’t know if she’s any good though but I’m willing to share.” Haiake quickly glanced at the woman to see she had been knocked unconscious or so it appeared. He then looked at the man dead in the eye. “Unlike you I’m not interested in spending my nights making a fool of myself. But I’ll easily be able to proof it’s your main priority.” The men scoffed. He reached into his back pocket, and flicked open a switchblade. “I hope you’re hungry bud cause I’m about to make you eat those words.” Haiake had a hard time from rolling his eyes. “As a matter of fact I am hungry but I’m not about to dine on the bullshit that you’re spewing. So I suggest you do the whole world a favor and shut that unwanted annoying hole in the middle of your face.” The man’s face grew red with anger as he held out the switchblade and lunged towards Haiake. Almost seeing the movement before it happened he stepped to the side watching as the man stumbled nearly losing his balance. “Stay still you son-of-a.” Quickly glancing in the direction of the unconscious woman he smirked cutting the man off. “You know it’s very rude to use such fowl language in the presence of a lady; unconscious or not.” Turning his attention back to the man he held out his hand. “Care to dance?” The man lunged forward again this time aiming for Haiake’s head with his free hand tightened into a fist. Swing and a miss. He turned around and repeated the action missing again. “Okay you’re really starting to piss me off.” Haiake inhaled through his nostrils and seconds later he wrinkled up his face. “I could say something in return but I’ll just bite my lip.” “What’s stopping you?” Haiake tensed up when he heard that familiar voice. “Miakatsu.” Seconds later a silhouette appeared next to him. “You’re late.” Miakatsu turned to look at Haiake and faintly hissed. “Shut up, you were supposed to stay hidden until I showed up. You disobeyed your orders.” Haiake opened his mouth to say something in return but shut it again immediately knowing the other was right. “Well I-“ he knew there was nothing he could say to safe himself. “Just forget it. I’m sure if you ask Tozouku nicely he’ll let it slide this time.” Miakatsu muttered as he focused his attention on their target. “This looks easy, too easy. I can’t believe they gave you such an easy mission. And yet you still screwed it up.” “If you think it’s too easy then why are you here?” Haiake asked feeling his anger reaching a point it shouldn’t. “Don’t blame me, Tozouku wanted me to join in on the fun.” Miakatsu argued. “By the way you take care of the victim. I’m going to do some hunting.” Haiake felt a sudden urge to smack the man beside him. “Like hell you are. I’ve done most of the work already so I get to hunt. You take care of the victim.” “Hey are you two jackasses done?” Both turned to look at the man before allowing their eyes to glow a piercing white and their fangs to slide out of their gums. “He’s mine.” Before Haiake could say anything Miakatsu had moved forward and had the man in his arms his fangs ready to pierce the tempting exposed flesh of his neck. Standing up in hopes to start protesting Haiake was stopped when he felt a hand on his shoulder. Turning around he was greeted with a warm smile. “Tozouku?” “Well done Haiake. Except for one order you did very well. You may be able to start on simple missions now.” Tozouku said smiling. “In fact I believe Kaisuke has one tonight. It’s nothing big, just some recon. I’m sure he’ll be fine with you going along, right Kaisuke?” “Just think that was just a mock mission.” Kaisuke spoke up approaching the others having checked over the woman. “You sure he’s ready for the big leagues Tozo?” Tozouku glared at the unwanted nickname. “I hardly consider recon part of the big leagues.” “Just as long as I don’t have to work with him-.” Haiake responded pointing his thumb towards Miakatsu. “-I am not complaining in the least.” Miakatsu pushed himself away from the alley wall. “That has to be the only thing you and I can freely agree on without argument.” He turned his attention to the man sitting on the ground next to him. “You okay?” “Fine he did put up a good fight though.” Tozouku walked forward extending his hand. “You have been most helpful. We really appreciate your efforts. Mr. V.”

Ummm, i notice that we now have arcade game! thank you so much! it's gotta be fun here! Once again, :hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8):THANK YOU!!:hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8): *unfortunately i might be offline for a long time, since my damn uncle made his decision; to not let me access the internet in order to let me stay focus on my study... duh he love to control everyone in family. :leaf7::leaf7::leaf7::leaf7:

What did you first think of yaoi when you discovered it for the first time? Did you like it? Where you somewhat taken back or perhaps you didn't like at first. Tell all, tell all. Hehe. Here I'll go first. I grew up in a Christian household and my parents were against gay rights and gay marriage. At first I was too, but then I discovered that I was attracted to girls and everything changed. I, as you know write, so before discovering my sexuality I wrote straight romance (porno....in middle school...hehe long story). Anyways I began getting into boyxboy love stories but I really hadn't read any yaoi. I was just looking at them in bookstores when my parents weren't around. Then a few years later in the tail end while I was writing the VERY first boy on boy love story I got my mom to buy a yaoi manga for me. I fell in love that day. Now I can't get enough of it. The end.

Summary: A wonderful story about Ryuu and Kenta, about love and friendship. A delicious story about how love for friends and lover can make us overcome anything. Status: Complete Author Note: This is not fanfiction. If that is not allowed then please delete. Also this is a multi-chapter novel so expect plot. ^^ Chapter 1a Fantasy Ryuu It can be funny how things change. In just a few months my life is completely different from what it was. Looking back I’m amazed that so much happened in such a short amount of time. Stretching my legs out underneath the table I looked at my band mates. Akira was texting someone, probably Reiko. Sora was in the process of trying to get himself hit. “Stop it Sora.” Hasu yanked the handheld out of the bassist’s reach glaring at him. I didn’t bother to hide my amusement, letting a chuckle slip free. “You are going to lose, just let me beat that boss for you.” “No, I can do it if you’d quit pestering me. Damn it Sora! You made me lose again.” I laughed softly and slid out of my seat, swaying with the movement of the bus. Hasu didn’t cuss all that often and when he did- “Ow! Owowowow! Let go! I’m sorry! I won’t do it again.” I glanced back over to see Hasu with a fist full of Sora’s long red hair holding his head against the table. His eyes were firmly fixed on the small screen even as Sora struggled to get loose. Hasu might be almost a foot shorter and four years younger, but it was pretty obvious that Sora had no chance. Our little drummer was strong enough to flip the tall bassist on his head, quite literally. Turning back around, I opened the small fridge and grabbed myself a Coke. The weekend had gone exceptionally well. Both concerts had been huge hits and I’d met my new best friend. Speaking of Tatsuya, I pulled my phone out of my pocket and grinned seeing the text message. Shopping was on for next weekend. If I got bored this week I might invite him out to eat or something. I’d never met anyone quite like him and we’d had so much fun coming up with new outfit ideas. I really couldn’t wait to see him again. Sitting back down, I took a sip of the coke. Speaking of seeing people again . . . it was going to be a couple of days before I got to see Kenta again. I sighed, running my finger along the lip of the can. Maybe Reiko was right. Maybe I was just chasing after a dream. I just couldn’t let it go. Not yet. After all the time I’d spent around him he’d seen me at my best and my worst and he still was just as patient and kind as ever. I know I’m not the easiest person to get along with. I’m too emotional and act before I fully think things through. At least that is what everyone tells me. I took another sip of the Coke, thinking. “What’s wrong, Ryuu?” I looked up to meet Akira’s light brown eyes. “Nothing, was just thinking.” “Did you have fun this weekend?” I nodded, “Yeah. Tatsuya and I are going to get together this week. He’s got some wicked ideas for new concert outfits.” Akira shook his head, a wry smile twisting the full lips. “You two knowing each other scares me.” I couldn’t help but giggle at that, even if there was a hint of pain in it. “He’s so much fun! Oh my god, I can’t wait to see him again.” Something in Akira’s eyes changed slightly and I looked away knowing it had sounded forced. “What are you hiding Ryuu?” Trust Akira to see right through me. I shrugged, unable to keep the smile in place. Truthfully, I wasn’t looking forward to going back to my huge empty apartment. I loved being with everyone, meeting Tatsuya had seemed to underline the fact that without my friends around I was nothing. That old fear from high school from before I’d met Sora always tried to resurface then. What if they only were friends with me because my family was wealthy? What if it was all fake? With Sora I knew it wasn’t. For one, we’d been friends for too long and his family was almost as well off as mine. “Umm, you guys going to come over sometime this week? We’ve got that new material . . .” “Ryuu, if you want us to come over just say so. You don’t have to make up an excuse for us to come over.” Sora’s gentle tone actually made me feel worse. It made me feel like a whiny, needy, self centered jerk. “Oh no, it’s cool. I was just wondering. I know it’s been a really busy weekend and I don’t expect you guys to come over.” I glanced back over at Akira studying him for a moment. He’d changed in the year since he’d met Reiko. He was more confident and happier. A lot happier. I would never have been able to make him as happy as Reiko did. Even now that thought hurt. I loved him, more than he probably realized, but I’d slowly come to realize that it wouldn’t have worked no matter how hard I tried. That led me to think about Kenta. Just thinking about those sultry dark eyes and the deep voice gave me chills. He was the quiet, calm presence that my life had been lacking for so long. “You are thinking about Kenta aren’t you?” I looked up expecting to get the usual sarcasm from Sora, instead he was looking at me concern clearly visible in the light green eyes. I couldn’t hold his gaze. “Was it that obvious?” “Well lately it’s been pretty obvious that . . . “ Sora paused and looked over at Hasu who was once again absorbed in his game. He picked up the headphones and after plugging them in, put them on Hasu getting a look but no argument. Sometimes the big oaf was more protective than he needed to be. “You like him don’t you?” I looked back over at Akira surprised. “I know how affectionate you are Ryuu, but the way you look at him is totally different.” I took another long drink of my Coke wanting to avoid the conversation. “It’s pointless though. Reiko is right.” “You don’t know Ryuu.” I looked at Sora but his eyes were on Hasu, not the game, but Hasu. I almost smirked, but we were both in the same situation. We liked people we couldn’t have and who were oblivious to our feelings. At least the person I liked was my age. “I know he seems distant, but you are his employer after all.” “What you suggesting I fire him so I can date him?” “No, I’m just saying that you shouldn’t give up.” “I agree with Sora.” Akira’s soft look seemed to sharpen the pain in my chest. “Just give it some time. I’ll see if Suke knows anything, they do work together you know.” “Y-yeah, thanks.” Akira's older brother was a gang member as well and I knew that Suke and Kenta worked together all the time. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to know. I’d rather things stay as they were. I could be happy just being by him couldn’t I? I looked over at where Sora was practically laying over on Hasu to see the screen, softly whispering pointers. It would be worth it just to be Kenta’s friend if nothing else. *** “Oh come on Ryuu! You can’t be serious!” I blinked at Akira surprised. “But I thought you’d like it-“ “It’s a skirt Ryuu! A fucking skirt!” “B-but it’s just part of the outfit-“ “I don’t care! You are not making me the girl of the band.” “I wasn’t trying to! I just thought-“ “Yeah, you thought wrong. Like usual.” I gasped softly, shocked at the hostile tone and glare. I was not used to Akira getting so upset and especially not with me. Grabbing the outfit out of his hands, I backed up. I started to say something, but the way he was looking at me seemed to close my throat off. Turning I fled down the hallway, slamming the door to my room shut behind me. Throwing the offending outfit I sat down on the floor, my back to the door. Closing my eyes I brushed away the tears. I couldn’t handle him yelling at me. His outfit had been the most difficult to get right and for him to so obviously hate it hurt. I’d worked two weeks on the design with Tatsuya’s input. Two weeks for nothing. Tatsuya was going to be so disappointed. Not to mention that now I felt like a complete idiot. “Ryuu?” “Just forget it. You’re right. I’m just stupid and can’t do anything right.” I could hear him sigh through the door. “You’re not stupid Ryuu-“ “No you were right, even Reiko says that all my ideas fail. I should just give up. Why do you guys even bother . . .” I couldn’t stop the tears anymore even as much as I hated them. I pulled my knees up to my chest and buried my face in my arms. I could hear Sora talking to Akira in the hallway but didn’t bother trying to make out the words. Why was I so stupid? I knew how Akira felt about looking feminine. It was just the outfit was perfect for him, or at least I thought so. He looked so good in anything I put him in, it almost wasn’t fair. The voices faded and I decided that I probably should go tell Akira I was sorry. I knew how sensitive he was about looking feminine. I’d just gotten caught up in the excitement and hadn’t been thinking. Going over to the pile of fabric, I picked it up and set it on the bed. It would have to be altered, but I could probably make it into something Akira would feel more comfortable wearing. Going to the bathroom I splashed a bit of cold water on my face trying to wash away the tears, but my eyes were still a bit red. Shaking my head, I glared at myself in the mirror. “You are lucky anyone even wants to be friends with you.” I told the reflection. “Stupid emotional idiot.” “I’d rather you didn’t talk about yourself that way, Ryuu.”

that was really really good as well as all your poetry. I in fact thinky you're work surpasses mine by a long shot thank you for that!

For Viewfinder Series' fans, I got this from Libre Publishing UTube. It shows how Ayano-sensei drawing Takaba.:hamtaro-005 (9)::hamtaro-005 (9):

The sparrow outside the window Has a big mouth on the wire pole You said this sentence Has very much the feeling of summer The pencil in my hand Moves back and forth on the paper I use a few lines of words to describe who you are to me The taste of sanma The cat and you both want to understand The fragrance of first love is retrieved by us just like this That warm sunshine Is like the just picked bright strawberry You say you are not willing to eat this kind of feeling Rain falls for the whole night My love overflows like the rain Leaves fall in the courtyard With my thoughts one thick pile A few words of gossip There is no way it can cool off my passion You appear in every page of my poem Rain falls for the whole night My love overflows like the rain The butterfly on the windowsill Is like the beautiful chapters fluttering about in the poem I then write I write I always love you into the end of the poem You are the only understanding I want That which is full of ears of the rice plant Blessed this season And your cheek is like the thoroughly ripe tomato in the field You suddenly say to me The name of the Common Jasmin Orange is very beautiful Yet this moment I only wanted to kiss your stubborn lips Rain falls for the whole night My love overflows like the rain Leaves fall in the courtyard With my thoughts one thick pile A few words of gossip There is no way it can cool off my passion You appear in every page of my poem Rain falls for the whole night My love overflows like the rain Leaves fall in the courtyard With my thoughts one thick pile A few words of gossip There is no way it can cool off my passion You appear in every page of my poem Rain falls for the whole night My love overflows like the rain The butterfly on the windowsill Is like the beautiful chapters fluttering about in the poem I then write I write I always love you into the end of the poem You are the only understanding I want.

THE 1st PART IS OUT!!!....the movies...but no subs... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dmocx0mlWKo&feature=feedu

I'm a seme and here I thought I was a uke XD

Haha oh gosh, here we go... I like this pic cause it shows the bit crazy side of me, I'm holding a cofee cup(as always) and yeah, I think it captured me lol... And then I like this one as well, cause I look kinda.. normal hahaha xD a bit more refined, I guess. I just like it :3

let me catch my breath first... OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna kiss someone right here, right now. I was like GO BABA-CHAN!! TAIKI!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!! Can I say for two actors who have just been paired together for the first time and can kiss like THAT is actually like layers of awesomeness compared to Dai-chan and Mao when they first appeared together in Takumi-kun 2? I'm trying to be objective. Don't get me wrong I adore Dai-chan and Mao as Takumi and Gii and I think because of them they really helped the franchise become so popular to us fans. But THAT kiss...OMG! They're really good. Omg, that was sooooooooooooooooooooo good. I love how Baba-chan takes control and Taiki just knows how to match up to that. And this is the result... I'm gonna watch again. kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! *dances* And most importantly...this is ONLY a 34-second clip. 34 SECONDS and we're already convinced. Wow. Suki desu. Arata-san. Shingyouji. OMG!!! The kiss is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo HOT!!! My friends and I are watching this clip on loop. hahahahahhahaha!! We can't get enough of it.

First attempts and experiments at coloring. It's a trial. Seriously frustrating... And so much fun! (*_*) For Aoi. foxy3

You are an absolute uke. You are the very embodyment of ukeness. You are cute and sweet. You are egar to please your seme and cry easily. Your parner is the center of your universe and you want to allways be with them that was fun

The Arcade system is ready now! (: Sorry for the lost scores, I was still working on the system. (:

Yeah, I never thought of it before either, until I read a fanfic called "To love a rockstar", it's really good!

I'm really happy with the Arcade, too. It's going to be even more now. Thank you for creating it, Key I'm having some glitches with the controls, though... :8yoyo31:

I don't have favorites, but these are on the top of my list: Leche Flan Oreo Ice Cream Cake rabbit8

Since i cannot eat Lobster so i eat this LOL

Kenta I slammed the man to the ground and stepped on his chest. Leaning down I flipped out my knife and laid it against his neck. “What did you say, fucker?” “Nuthin! Nuthin! I’m sorry. We won’t come on your territory again!” Standing back up I tried not to wince as I let him up. I kicked him again just because I was irritated that I’d had to deal with this shit when I hurt all over. He yelped and scrambled away on all fours before bolting for the bay door of the warehouse. The other men were either unconscious or writhing on the ground their soft moans annoying me. “I’m going home if we are done here.” “We are. Get some rest.” Hayate was dragging the unconscious men out of the middle of the floor while Isao was going around and kicking silent the others. I shuddered slightly and turned away at the sound of bone crunching under his boot. He might look like a pansy ass pencil pusher but he was a wicked mean fighter and nearly as ruthless as Daisuike. I’d just got on my bike when my phone rang. I dug it out of my pocket wondering who would be calling me at three in the morning. It wasn’t Ryuu. Just thinking of him sent a little shiver down my spine. “What is it?” “Arakaki?” “Yeah.” “Hey, it’s Ishimura. You still doing that bodyguard thing for that band?” I had to think for a bit as to who this was. He was one of the police officers that sometimes gave Jiro information. Why was he calling me and not Jiro? “Yeah, what’s going on?” “Listen, about what happened at that concert last night. I finished interrogating that girl and apparently someone gave her the water and the pills and paid her to try to get it to Ito.” “What?” I suddenly felt breathless. This wasn’t just a case of a fan being stupid. Something else was going on. “Yeah, she couldn’t give me a description of the guy though she was sure it was a guy. He paid her cash and had the water and pills in a public locker. Anyway I thought you might need to know.” “Yeah . . . thanks.” I hung up feeling numb. Someone was targeting Ryuu? Whoever they were they were as good as dead. No one fucked with my band.

I wasn’t, not by any stretch of the imagination, but if I didn’t do this now I never would. “I am.” He smiled and leaning down kissed me slow and deep as his weight settled over me. Hands grasped my hips pulling them up slightly and I resisted the urge to shove him away as I felt his cock slide between my cheeks. The pressure against my hole increased and kept increasing. I heard him murmur something about it being too tight but the pressure didn’t let up. He wasn’t going to hurt me. He wasn’t. He wasn’t. He was. Oh shit! Fuck! I was just getting ready to shove him off me when I felt the head suddenly slip inside the pain flaring then settled into a slight burning sensation. “Ryuu!” Had that high pitched squeak just come out of me? “Shhh, it’s alright. You are just so tight. I thought I had prepped you better than that. I’m sorry. It’ll get better.” I was breathing in short little gasps trying to stay in control. I tensed, unable to stop myself as he started to move forward again. Was it supposed to feel like this? He’d said if it hurt he was doing something wrong and right now it fucking hurt. “Kenta, you’ve got to relax or this will hurt.” He kissed my temple his hand rubbing along my side. “I am going as slow and gentle as I can.” “I-I know.” I did know, but it didn’t stop me from tensing up as he pushed forward. The pain was intensifying again and then suddenly it was like something had been breached and he slid all the way in without any further resistance. The burning sensation was still there but now I also felt oddly filled. “Shhh, shhh Kenta it’s okay, the worst is over. I’m sorry that hurt.” I blinked at him realizing that I’d been whining the whole time. Some fucking baby I was, he’d done this no problem and here I was crying and moaning like a bitch. I could not even begin to imagine how it would have felt to have been forced to do this. Even doing it willingly was difficult. I gasped grabbing his arms as he pulled back. That did not feel right. Instead of sliding out it was a pulling sensation. He came back forward and the pressure eased but as soon as he started to move back it was there and worse. It felt like he was going to pull all my insides out. “Ry-Ryuu.” I managed to open my eyes. He had his closed and this look of pure bliss on his face. I was torn between telling him I wanted to stop and letting him continue. Hopefully he got off soon because this was fucking uncomfortable. After just a few shallow thrusts he started to move a bit faster and started hitting deeper. I was gasping with each thrust and had to let go of his arms to grab the sheets. My whole body was shaking. I’d never felt anything like this before. I’d been literally nearly beat to death and somehow this hurt worse, a different kind of pain. That pain I could handle, this was making me frantic, but I didn’t want to upset Ryuu by asking him to stop. I could endure it. I would endure it. He grabbed my hips tilting them up more and I couldn’t stop the yell as he thrust even deeper, my legs flailing on either side of him. He took one of them and put it over his shoulder. The next thrust something changed, instead of just the pain, a sharp spike of pleasure shot through me making me gasp. “Oh fuck . . .” “That angle better?” Ryuu He nodded, not opening his eyes. I couldn’t believe he was still so tight after being prepped. I’d had a couple of virgin lovers in the past and neither of them had been this tight. I kept my thrusts slow letting him adjust more. He’d stopped that odd whimpering that had me wondering if I should stop. I couldn’t tell if it was in pain or pleasure and he wasn’t saying anything. If I was hurting him that bad surely he would tell me. No . . . no he wouldn’t. I stilled and looked down at him. He was sweating, his lips trembling, chest heaving as he clutched the sheets in a death grip. It was not worth it. I was not going to hurt him anymore. I knew entirely too well what it felt like to have a lover who only cared for their own satisfaction. I suddenly felt sick to my stomach. I should never have asked him to do this. He slowly opened his eyes and I was startled to see tears in them, my heart leaping into my throat. “Why’d you stop? It was just starting to feel good.” “Are you sure . . . you seemed like you were in pain.” “Fuck yeah, but its better now.” “Kenta! Why didn’t you say something sooner?” He glanced away and mumbled something I didn’t quite catch. “What?” I leaned down and he gasped tensing. “I-I said I didn’t want to ruin it. Fuck! Is it supposed to feel like that?” “Like what? Is it hurting?” I searched his face, concerned that he was in pain. “That one spot, when you hit it-“ He shivered, his muscles clenching down on me, painfully tight. It was worse than a cock ring. None I had got that tight. Spot? Oh, crap I’d totally forgotten to explain about that. I couldn’t help laughing softly and saw his lashes flutter as he opened his eyes again. I eased out and then back in hoping to hit just right for him. I must have because he gasped then moaned. “Fuck. Do that again.” So I did, repeatedly, until he was moaning and writhing under me. I’d never seen him like this, not even when he’d been on top had he been like this. I’d wondered if he’d been holding back and now I knew he had been. He’d wrapped those lithe legs around my waist and I could feel him tremble with each thrust. I had never been so turned on in my life. It wasn’t even the incredibly tight warmth surrounding my length, it was the knowledge that I was finally making Kenta lose control. “Ahh-ahh, Ry-Ryuu.” He was clawing at the sheets almost like he was trying to get away and I knew he had to be close. I slowed down my thrusts and stopped stroking him, wanting to draw out his pleasure, and mine, as long as physically possible. It kind of helped that he was so tight. It was making the pressure build and build but I could tell that it wasn’t going to release soon. He was whimpering softly and I wondered if I could get him to yell like he had at first. He was always so quiet during our love making. The whining pants got louder with each slow thrust, his back arching. I’d never in my life seen anything so gorgeous. From the way dark hair splayed out around his head to the parted lips and flushed skin, his muscles were taunt, each line perfectly defined. Leaning down I captured those delectable lips, his moan vibrating through me. I couldn’t go slowly anymore. My own need was becoming too insistent. My body seemed to act on its own, my thrusts getting harder and speeding up. I had to break the kiss to breathe, Kenta’s panting breaths hot on my neck. He started whining again, such a strange sound to hear from him. The soft cries got steadily louder with each thrust and I suddenly realized he was calling my name. His fingers were wrapped tight around my arms as his head tossed against the pillow. I couldn’t stop yet, I was so close. Reaching down I grabbed his erection giving it several quick strokes and he cried out his whole body convulsing. His legs tightened around me and I felt his muscles clench down just before he came with another loud yell. I gasped and with my own cry followed him over. Even through the blissful haze I could hear him whimpering, his body shuddering. He gave one last little whimper and was suddenly still his body going slack. Breathing hard I looked down at him. I could still feel the slight flutter of his muscles around my softening erection. His eyes were closed and he looked completely relaxed. Leaning down I kissed him, but there was no response. Startled I pulled back. Was he upset with me? I touched his face, but his eyes stayed closed and I realized his breathing was deep and even. Apparently he’d passed out. Laying my head against his I smiled feeling a bit overwhelmed. Now that was unexpected. I never would have imagined I’d have that much of an effect on him. In fact I didn’t remember any of my lovers ever getting to that point. I hadn’t myself either and I hoped he was alright. Easing off of him, I shuddered as I finally slipped free of that tight warmth. I was surprised when I looked down. He’d come so much. It was all over his chest and stomach and some on the sheets too. Smiling to myself I got up to go get a cloth to clean him up. He didn’t stir the whole time and I couldn’t help kissing him. Once we were both clean I slid into the bed next to him and pulled him close. “I love you Arakaki Kenta.”

Kenta Once again I found myself standing around like a fucking idiot while everyone else rushed around panicked. Why was it that when it came to Ryuu I seemed to fucking fail more often than not? I turned in time to see them loading him up into the ambulance. I grabbed my head as someone smacked me from behind. “Oi! I’ll fucking-oh . . . Sora . . .” “What the hell are you doing Arakaki? Shouldn’t you be with him?” I glanced up at Sora and looking back down shook my head. “I have to stay here and help.” “Fuck that, we’ve got it. Get going before I smack you again.” He did anyway. I would have kicked him but he was already too far away. Damn him and his fucking long legs, he moved too fast and I wasn’t in the mood to start a fight. Yeah I know, me not want to fight, fucking weird. This whole thing had rattled me a lot more than I wanted to admit. It didn’t help getting fucking ripped to shreds by Nakamara too. He’d wanted to hit me. I could see it in the way he looked at me, the tension in his shoulders. Heading for my bike I wondered why Ryuu had taken the water. I knew he sometimes didn’t think before he did things, but this really was stupid. Straddling the bike, I thumbed the switch and after checking traffic headed for the nearest hospital. I couldn’t stop thinking about what had happened. It would have been better to hurt a fan’s feelings than to let himself get drugged. What if it had been poison? I jerked the bike back into my lane as a horn blared, my heart suddenly pounding making me feel a bit light headed. I really shouldn’t be thinking about this right now. Traffic was too heavy for me to be distracted. That’s what Ryuu was, one giant fucking distraction. They kept him until the report came back on what was in the water. At least the girl hadn’t lied about what she’d put in it. I hoped the police were giving her hell right now. I’d been a lot less nice than what they probably would have. Like I fucking cared if she’d shit her pants she was so scared. Stupid bitch deserved to be beat. And here was the other person who needed beat for their sheer stupidity. I shook my head seeing Ryuu coming down the hall. He looked pale, the gray eyes washed out. It sent a pang of . . . something through me and all my irritation evaporated like water on a hot griddle. He was wearing normal street clothes for once, just a t-shirt and jeans. His hair was loose and floating around his head and shoulders as he walked. Holy fuck he looked hot. “Ryuu-“ “Oh Kenta, I’m so sorry.” Next thing I knew I had a silly blond singer crying into my shoulder. I glanced around but didn’t see anyone else. Where was the rest of the band, Reiko, Isao any of them? “Hush Ryuu, it’s alright. You didn’t know. Where is everyone?” He shrugged and finally lifted his head. “I told them I didn’t want visitors.” “Ryuu . . . everyone was so fuc-“ He kissed me and I jerked back startled. “Ryuu! Not here!” I hissed at him and cringed seeing the expression on his face. Grabbing his arm I turned. “Come on.” Thankfully, I’d thought to bring my guest helmet. Ryuu needed some space, to get away from everyone and everything for a bit or he was going to end up too depressed over the whole situation. Sliding onto the bike I tossed him the other helmet. I put mine on and tightened the chin strap. He was still standing there looking down at the helmet in his hands. “What are you waiting for? Put the helmet on and get on. You can ride behind me.” “Are . . . are you sure? I can just call-“ “Get the fuck on Ito.” He nodded and put the helmet on. I sat the bike up and kicked back the stand and looked over at him. He looked nervous, his eyes peering at me from within the helmet. He didn’t say anything and got on behind me. It gave me a little rush to feel him put his hands on my hips. The bike started easily and settled into a low purr. “Hang on to me.” His fingers tightened as we took off and I think I heard him call my name, but the wind ripped away any sounds. I knew where I wanted to go. It was a bit of a drive, but it would be worth it and I had plenty of gas. After a while I felt him relax and lean against me more, his arms around my waist. His helmet would bump mine every so often as the wind buffeted us. The soft heat from his body was soothing and I felt my own anxiety from earlier finally ebbing away. We finally reached the beach and I slowed the bike, pulling off the road. We both sat back and I took my helmet off. The roar of the surf was much louder than the bike had been, but had the same type of calming affect too it. “Why are we here?” Ryuu’s voice was soft in my ear. “You needed some space.” I shifted slightly on the seat so I could turn to look at him. “Ryuu . . . why did you take the bottle from her?” The pale eyes lowered. “I . . . I’m not sure. I was just caught up in the moment and wasn’t thinking. I’m sorry Kenta. Nakamara shouldn’t have yelled at you like that.” “Wait . . . you heard that?” He nodded, his hair tickling my neck as he leaned forward, his arms wrapping around my chest. “It was horrible, Kenta. I could hear and see everything, but I couldn’t move or speak. I haven’t been that terrified in . . . a long time.” I could hear the fear in his voice and it tore at me. “It’s over now. Just please, please be more careful Ryuu. You have no idea how badly you scared everyone.” Soft lips grazed my neck, then my jaw making me shiver. “I know. I’m sorry.” “I am too Ryuu. I . . . should have spotted her sooner and this would never have happened.” I felt his lips pull up into a grin. “There is that . . . maybe I should make you make it up to me.” “Ryuu . . . don’t push it.” “No, no you are right. I wouldn’t have taken it from her if she hadn’t got past the barrier. I thought she was supposed to be there.” “What?” I turned to look at him. He nodded, his eyes somber. I frowned not sure if I should believe him or not. “You know how sometimes when we run out of water Hayate or you will send someone along the front of the stage with more. I thought she was one of those people.” “Oh shit . . . I’m sorry Ryuu.” If that was the case we were going to have to be a lot more careful. “Tell you what . . . I’ll make it up to you tonight. I’ll make you dinner.” He grinned and I suddenly realized I’d been tricked into something. “I have a better idea.”

Ryuu “God damn it Ryuu! Why didn’t you watch where you were?” “I’m sorry.” I winced putting a hand to my head. I still felt dizzy, my head pounding. Kenta’s arms tightened around me and I could feel him shaking slightly with the strain of carrying me. “Put me down, I can walk.” “No.” It was a low growl. I struggled weakly in his grip. “Put me down! I have to finish the concert.” “No, Nakamara already announced it was over. You were on the encore anyway.” “Ryuu! Kenta! Is he alright?” “I’m fine.” “Are you sure?” I looked up to see Sora peering down at us. His spikes were starting to wilt from the humidity and he looked flushed. I could hear Hasu and Akira but couldn’t see them. “I’m sure. Kenta is just being overprotective.” I yelped as fingers pinched my arm. “Kenta! That hurt!” “You are not fine. You collapsed on stage.” “I just got dizzy all the sudden. That’s all.” “Ryuu, you were passed out cold when I picked you up.” I looked at Kenta, meeting the dark eyes for a moment. “Really?” He rolled his eyes. “You think I’d be carrying your ass around otherwise?” I was surprised to see Hiro’s giant bulk towering outside the dressing room door. He winked at me as he opened the door. “Ito-sama. Kenta.” “Thanks Hiro.” Kenta edged through the door and finally let me down. He glared up at me for a moment before turning back to the door. He moved to the side as Sora, Hasu and Akira walked in. Everyone looked sweaty and tired. Hasu came up to me and put a hand on my arm, his large dark eyes peering up at me. “Ryuu . . . are you sure you’re alright.” “I feel better now, the dizziness seems to be fading but my head hurts.” “Well . . . you probably hit it when you fell.” “I . . . yeah I guess.” There were suddenly hands in my hair and I winced as fingers found the knot. “Ow! Stop it!” I swatted the hand away and looked up to see Kenta glaring down at me. “Why did you get dizzy in the first place?” I looked at him for a long moment but finally had to break the intense gaze. “I-I’m not sure. I felt fine earlier.” “Ryuu . . . you need to tell him.” I didn’t look up at Hasu. “Ryuu it could be important.” “Tell me what.” My chin was suddenly grabbed and I found myself staring into deep pools of obsidian. I blinked a couple of times but the fingers tightened when I tried to pull away. “What did you do Ryuu?” “I . . . I . . . took a water bottle from one of the fans.” “What!” I fell back against the couch as Kenta shoved me. “What the fuck were you thinking Ryuu? Are you that fucking stupid?” The sudden stabbing pain in my chest rendered me speechless. I looked down at the matted beige carpet. I knew it was stupid, but I’d been caught up in the excitement. I’d only taken one quick drink of it before leaving it on the stage. I couldn’t remember now if it had already been opened or not. Leaning forward I ran a trembling hand over my face. “Kenta I-“ “Shut the fuck up.” Kenta snapped making me flinch, a soft gasp escaping. “I’ll be back later.” The sound of the door slamming made me jump. It seemed to break whatever control I’d had. Slumping over on the couch I buried my face in the cushions. *** “He still hasn’t moved.” “Do you think he passed out again?” “No.” I could hear everyone’s hushed voices. It was annoying. I had no idea how long I’d been laying there trying to avoid thinking about anything. Why was I so stupid? Even Reiko had came in and yelled at me. “They found it. One of the stage hands had it. He set it to the side since it was different from the usual bottles. Reiko is taking to have it tested now.” I raised my head slightly hearing Isao’s voice. They’d called him too? Fuck. I went to push myself up off the couch and realized I couldn’t. What was going on? There was a rush of dizziness and suddenly I was on my back looking up at the ceiling. “Ryuu! Are you alright?” I blinked a few times trying to get things to focus. Sora and Hasu were hovering over me and I heard someone yelling for Kenta. “Call an ambulance! He’s not responding.” What were they talking about? I could hear and see them just fine. I reached up to touch Hasu who had tears in his eyes. Nothing happened. My arm didn’t move. In fact nothing was moving. I knew I was still breathing and I could feel my heart racing, but other than that it was like I was asleep and dreaming. Kenta suddenly appeared behind Hasu, his face completely blank. Just once couldn’t he pretend to be concerned, just let the mask slip a little. “Hiro is calling the ambulance. What happened? He was fine when I left.” “I don’t know.” Hasu looked at me, tears streaming down his cheeks. “He was just laying there. I thought he was mad and just not talking. Oh Ryuu! I’m sorry.” He was sorry? What was he sorry for? “Kenta! I found the girl! The one who gave him the drink.” Kenta got up and I had a fleeting glimpse of that toned rear before he was gone. I wanted to smash my head into something solid. Why had I been so stupid? Now everyone was upset and worried. Hasu was crying softly beside me while Sora stroked his hair. It was only a few moments later when Kenta reappeared. “Stupid bitch. It was ruffies. I already called security. The police are going to pick her up. Are you sure he only drank a little of it. Where is the bottle? Call Reiko now!” There was a slight commotion and I heard someone exclaim. “I just got a hold of her. Half the bottle is gone.” No, there was no way I drank that much of it. Was there? “Half the fucking bottle? Shit! Ryuu.” Kenta was looking down at me now and I could see the mask starting to slip, it didn’t give me any satisfaction to see the worry in his eyes. I wanted so badly to pull him against me and hold him, to make this odd chilled sensation go away. I blinked and it seemed like everyone disappeared only to be replaced by medics. I was placed on a gurney and strapped down, the panic seemed to subside a bit, replaced by nausea. As we headed into the hallway I could hear raised voices. “If you’d been doing your fucking job, this wouldn’t have happened! Didn’t you see him get handed the bottle? How did she get close enough to do that anyway?” I would recognize Nakamara’s voice anywhere, but who was he yelling at? As our manager I’d heard him yell a lot but usually not at the staff. “I was standing where I always do. I didn’t see anyone get close enough . . .“ Kenta! He was yelling at Kenta? I’d never heard Kenta sound like that. He sounded so . . . distressed, a slight tremor to his voice that sent a stab of pain through me. “You’re too fucking short. Next time Hayate and Hiro will take the stage, you just stay backstage and out of the fucking way. You aren’t good for anything but keeping the idiot happy.”

Ryuu I closed my phone for what felt like the hundredth time. I’d already taken a nice hot bath and gotten dressed for the concert and still they weren’t back. What was Yoshiru up to, taking off with Kenta like that. Looking at the food I’d ordered well over an hour ago, I blew out a frustrated breath. I was too nervous to eat. I jumped up out of the chair hearing the front door open. “We’re back.” Yoshiru grinned widely at me as I tried to peer around him to where Kenta was. Kenta looked positively dejected, not even looking up from the floor, the normally square shoulders slumped. What had happened while they were gone? “Ryuunosuke, can I talk to you in the office for a moment?” I nodded shocked to hear him speak in English. I shut the door behind us and turned to face him. “What is going on?” “English please.” “Why? What does it matter?” “Because I want to keep this conversation private.” I sighed, rolling my eyes. Sora and I did this all the time when we didn’t want people to know what we were talking about. “Fine. What is going on?” “Kenta is malnourished.” “What!” I couldn’t help the gasp. “I just had him at a private clinic to make sure he is clean and free of any STDs and while they were checking that I had them run a few other tests as well. He is low on almost everything.” “Wait . . . you had him checked for sexually transmitted diseases?” I was aghast that my father would go so far. “Of course. You two are intimate and I don’t want you contracting something.” “Yoshiru you can’t just take my boyfriend and make him take those kinds of tests.” No wonder Kenta had looked so depressed. “Think of it as a condition of his employment. He is perfectly clean and physically sound. My only concern is the malnutrition. The doctor said he was surprised that Kenta wasn’t sick more often. He needs more fruit and vegetables in his diet. I expect you to make sure he’s getting them.” Staring at my father I slowly shook my head. “You realize that he already was tested for stds, right?” Yoshiru raised an eyebrow at me. “When you had him in for the broken ribs? They only tested for the most common. I had him tested for everything.” “E-everything?” “Yes and now that that little issue is cleared up I can confidently tell your mother that gay sex is not going to kill you.” I suddenly felt light headed. “Though she is rather disappointed that she won’t be getting any grandchildren.” “I-I better go check on Kenta. He hates doctors.” “Mm yes. I could hear him cussing the doctor all the way out in the waiting room. It was quite amusing.” I didn’t even know what to say to that. Heading out of the office I spotted Kenta in the kitchen. He was leaning against the counter his chin resting on his chest, his arms folded. It was a common posture to find him in when he was upset and thinking about something. I stood there for a moment wondering if he would notice me. Finally I walked up to him, lightly touching his shoulder. He didn’t move. “Hey . . . dad says the tests all came back clean-“ “Don’t give a shit. Ain’t been with nobody in four fucking years, could have told him if he’d fucking asked.” It was kind of cute to see him pouting and I couldn’t help but gather him up into my arms. It was still a shock when he didn’t push me away. He must be pretty upset, it made me feel bad. “Hey it wasn’t that bad was it? At least now you know for sure right?” “They stuck a fucking swab up my cock, you how fucking bad that hurts?” “Yes I’ve had it done, Kenta. It is uncomfortable but necessary.” “Fuck that. You’re the only guy I’ve ever been with and we used a condom both times.” He was getting more upset, his hands coming up to try and push me away. “Shh, it’s fine, it’s over now. I know I’m clean so as long as we are faithful to each other we won’t have to do that again. Right?” That seemed to calm him down, he quit trying to push me away and I heard him sigh, the muscled chest rising and falling slowly against me. I ran my fingers through the loose hair at the base of his neck then tugged the pony tail gently. “Dad is right, this is a good look for you.” “Don’t fucking tease.” There was a soft laugh from behind me and I felt Kenta jerk, but didn’t let him go. “I’ll see you two later. Kenta, take good care of my son.” There was a soft ‘fuck you’ breathed into my shirt and I yanked his pony tail. “Ryuunosuke, don’t forget to call your mother.” “Hai! I won’t! Bye Dad.”

Kenta I barely had a chance to get my shoes off before Ryuu was dragging me through the apartment. I didn’t want to admit it but I was fucking nervous like I’d never been before in my life. Even when I’d been waiting to hear my sentence read at court I hadn’t been this nervous. I was shaking, bad enough that I didn’t like it, that weird slightly weak feeling. Before I realized it we were in the bedroom. He hadn’t bothered to turn the lights on and in the dim light from the windows I could make out him stripping. “I’m going to go take a quick shower. You are free to join me if you want.” The shaking was getting worse. Maybe . . . maybe doing just that would be for the best. I could get him off and maybe he would forget what I’d said. Yeah right, what the fuck was I thinking? Once Ryuu got an idea in his head you better just get out of his fucking way. Slowly getting undressed I followed him into the bathroom. Slipping into the shower behind him I noticed the bruise on his side. “Fuck! Ryuu, you got hurt when you fell!” “Oh, yeah it’s a little sore but nothing like when you broke your ribs I’m sure.” “I didn’t break them the guy with the baseball bat broke them.” I shivered as the water hit me. He liked his showers too fucking hot. “You sure you’re alright?” “Yes I’m just fine.” He turned to face me and not for the first time did I wish I was just a little bit taller. At least tall enough that I didn’t have to look up to meet his eyes. “Kenta . . . if you aren’t ready we don’t have to.” I blinked a couple of times and looked down. Shit, wrong thing to do because now I was looking at his cock which wasn’t what I needed to be looking at right now. I swallowed trying to think of what to say and looked back up at him. “I know you want too Ryuu but . . .” “You are scared of hurting me?” Nodding, I almost stepped back as he slowly ran the sponge over my chest leaving a trail of soap bubbles. “That’s an easy fix. I’ll be on top.” “Wha-“ He kissed me. “Don’t say anything. Just trust me, okay.” Seeing the look in his eyes I nodded. I did trust him. More than I’d ever trusted anyone since Ayame. He smiled at me, the soft grey eyes seeming to sparkle. Without saying anything else he slowly started to run the sponge over every inch of me. It was more relaxing than a turn on, but I enjoyed every second of it. I was more than happy to return the favor but he made me get out of the shower. “Dry off and get in bed. I’ll be there in a bit.” I was a little chilled as I slid under the covers, though the pricking sensation had nothing to do with the temperature. My heart seemed to skip slightly as I heard the shower shut off. It was several minutes later when the door to the bathroom opened again and I felt him get into bed. He slid up next to me, his skin still hot from the shower. “Oh, you are nice and cool.” He kissed my shoulder and I could feel him smile. “You smell good too.” I laid there not sure what to do or say and I heard him chuckle. Then he was straddling me, his chest against mine our lips touching. He kissed me lightly before pulling back and I felt his weight shift as he leaned over. The drawer of the night stand rattled open and I heard the unmistakable sound of him opening a condom. “Ryuu . . . “ “Shh . . . you trust me right.” “Yes.” It was barely a whisper, for some reason breathing was kind of difficult. Probably because he was still half laying on me. Yeah that was it. He kissed me again and slid down taking the covers with him. I kind of wanted them back. I bit my lip feeling his fingers wrap around me. He slowly stroked me until I was hard again, which didn’t take long at all. I was a little confused as I felt him slide the condom on me. Hadn’t he said he would be on top? I knew what that meant and it wasn’t this. I didn’t have time to ask as he crawled back up, his knees on either side of my hips. His mouth found mine and thinking became next to impossible as he kissed me, his tongue slipping in deep. I couldn’t help but respond, the taste of him turning me on even more. I’d felt him moving slightly as he kissed me and there was a sudden pressure against the tip of my cock but I didn’t think anything of it since I could feel his fingers too. That was until something very, very tight and hot slid around the head. Ryuu moaned and broke the kiss, his whole body trembling. He grabbed my arms forcing me back down as I went to move. “Just hold still . . . please.” He was a bit breathless. “Ryuu . . . are you sure? Is this okay?” “Shh . . . yes . . . yes this is much more than okay.” He shifted back and we both gasped, my head going back against the pillow as his fingers tightened on my arms. My entire length was inside him. Inside Ryuu. Oh fuck, this was really happening. It was so tight, the heat from his body almost more than I could take. He shifted slightly and it was like I could feel every little muscle move. I was shocked to realize I could feel his heart racing to match my own. “Oh fuck.” I opened my eyes at his soft laugh and looked up at him. He was smiling at me as he slowly started to rock his hips back and forth. I couldn’t stop the moan as the heat seemed to sear through me. He was so fucking tight it almost hurt as he moved and I grabbed his hips stopping him. “Ryuu . . . it’s not . . . you aren’t hurting are you.” He leaned down slightly to kiss me, the movement sending another rush of heat through me. “No, but you are a bit of a stretch.” “Don’t fucking tease!” He giggled and I sucked in a startled breath as muscles clench down even tighter. He slid forward enough that I thought he was going to get off of me, but just when I would have slipped out he was coming back down. Holy fucking shit that felt amazing. If I’d thought his mouth drove me crazy, I was going fucking insane now. I’d never in my life imagined I would find someone who made me feel so wanted, like I mattered more to him than anything else. It was overwhelming to know that he wanted to be with me like this. Just that he wanted me was more than I’d believed possible. Ryuu Gasping softly I kept my movements slow and shallow. It had been a long time since I’d bottomed, even from the top and the burn was making me a bit light headed. In a good way. Hearing the small sounds Kenta was making as I moved made it entirely worth it. His fingers tightened on my hips and suddenly he was meeting me as I came down. I’d been worried that the memories would interfere, but being on top helped. “Oh god.” That was perfect. The angle, the way he filled me so completely, the feel of his fingers, just it being him, all of it amazed me and made me feel like nothing in my life ever had. Not even being on stage gave me this kind of feeling. I was making love to Kenta and that was what it truly felt like, even if it sounded cliché. To be truly connected to him in every way possible made my chest ache with something I’d never felt before. It was like all those stupid love songs finally made sense and I almost had to laugh at myself. He was thrusting deeper each time, the sensation becoming so intense I knew I wasn’t going to last even without touching my erection. He seemed to have read my mind. The next thing I knew his hand was wrapped around me, slow smooth strokes making me whine. For someone who claimed to have never been with a man, he certainly knew what to do. I heard him make a low sound that was between a moan and a whine and suddenly his thrusts became a bit erratic. I was so close to going off myself and I didn’t want it to end this soon. I didn’t want this wonderful euphoria to ever stop. “Oh shit! Ryuu!” I shuddered, the feel of him coming sending a shock through me. Each pulse sent another dizzying spiral of heat through me until I was writhing. I came so hard it actually took my breath away, lights dancing before me. “Kenta . . .” It took me a while to get my breath back and I realized I’d slumped forward, laying on him. His one hand was trapped between us. His other one lightly stroked my back. His breath warm on my skin as he spoke. “You okay?” “Much much better than that.” I turned my head so I could kiss him. He kissed me back, the passion in it like nothing before. I sighed into the kiss, feeling at once light and full of happiness and also so very sensitive, even the slightest movements making me want to gasp. He gently slipped his hand out from between us and taking hold of my hips shifted me forward. I bit my lip a small whimper escaping as he slid free. I shuddered at the sudden empty feeling. Then he was lifting me and laying me next to him. He kissed me softly but with such affection it brought tears to my eyes. “Thank you Kenta.” A low chuckle was his only response. He got out of the bed for a moment, probably to get rid of the condom. I was still tingling from the after affects when he came back and then he was kissing me again, pulling me closer. He wrapped his arms around me and I idly wondered if we should go take a shower first, but it felt too nice where I was. I’d just change the sheets in the morning. I was going to bask in this feeling as long as I could. I fell asleep completely wrapped up in the man I loved.

Ryuu I could barely keep from pouncing Kenta on the ride home. I was dying to know what he had planned but he was his usual quiet, imperturbable self. Though it was cute to see him touch his neck every so often where I’d given him that hickey. I loved being able to break down that stern façade and make him go crazy. Speaking of . . . sliding my hand up his leg I leaned over against him. He twitched slightly and didn’t look at me. I couldn’t help but smile. “What are you thinking about?” Dark eyes flicked toward me then away. “Nuthin.” I didn’t believe that for a second. It irritated me that people just assumed Kenta was stupid because of the way he talked. Shaking off that thought, I reached up to brush his hair back from his face. I loved the way his hair would feather around his face, almost making him look boyish. He looked a lot softer than he really was. It had caught quite a few people off guard. That and his glare could eat through concrete. He must practice or something. Kenta had the ‘I’ll fuck you up so bad you’ll wish I killed you’ look. Which was kind of funny considering the man was pretty enough to put most idols to shame. I couldn’t help staring at him. I still remembered the first time I’d seen him. Really seen him. I’d seen him at Hayate’s bar before then, but I’d been too focused on Akira at the time. Akira had asked me and Sora to come to the hospital to visit a friend who was a fan. I’d jumped at the chance. I loved meeting fans. Though not quite the way I’d done it tonight. Thankfully that girl hadn’t been hurt when I’d fallen on her. She’d seemed more delighted than anything. I hadn’t known that the friend Akira was talking about was Kenta. He’d been assaulted and beaten unconscious by a group of boys with pipes. His injuries had been pretty severe, though I hadn’t been aware of it at the time. I don’t think I could ever forget seeing him sitting up in the bed. He’d been heavily bandaged, but it had still been easy to see that he was exceptionally good looking. His eyes had been the first thing to enthrall me. I’d never met anyone with eyes so deep that they pulled you in and held you captivated. There had been pain there, but also a determination that was unlike anything I’d ever seen. Akira had explained what had happened and I’d been shocked that anyone would go that far to help a friend. He’d been teaching Reiko to defend herself and had run into the very boys who had been harassing her. Six on one is never good odds, even with someone as skilled as Kenta. He didn’t know a formal style like Hasu, but he had years of street experience on his side. He’d been so happy to meet us and I had ended up staying after everyone left. We’d talked for hours. Well, I’d talked as he laid there listening, those inscrutable dark eyes never looking away. Before I’d left I’d asked if it would be alright if I came back the next day. That had been the first time I had ever seen him smile. Looking at him now, knowing him as well as I did, I knew it had to have been meant for us to meet. I needed him. Needed his calming quiet presence just like he needed me to see past the tough exterior to what he really was. I followed him out of the limo, keeping close to him. He had a hand on my elbow which was normal, but for some reason it felt different. The way his fingers curled around the inside of my arm, his grip firm yet gentle, was sending tingles racing over my skin. How could a simple touch do this to me? Naoki had never made me feel this way even when we’d first got together. I’d never had this nearly breathless anticipation, the sensation that I was jumping out of my own skin. I wasn’t going to hold back once we got to the apartment. I wanted him like I’d never wanted anyone in my life. Wanted to lose myself utterly and completely to this man I’d fallen for.

Holy fucking hell, he had to be kidding. I stood in the aisle at the market staring at the list in my hand. Ryuu hadn’t been joking about sending me shopping last night. My basket was nearly full and I’d gotten to the bottom of the list only to find this. Condoms. He wanted me to buy condoms. And not just the regular latex, no he wanted the expensive ultra thin sheepskin ones. Was he teasing me? Trying not to sigh too loudly I got the ones he wanted and headed to go check out. The clerk didn’t even bat an eye as she rang up my items even though I was sure my face was red. Next time Ryuu could buy his own goddamn condoms. Letting myself into the apartment I could hear music playing. They must be practicing and left the studio door open again. That meant everyone was probably over including Reiko. Going to the kitchen I started putting everything away. Sneaking back to the bedroom I hid the condoms in the drawer of the nightstand. I’d give them to Ryuu later. Going back out to the kitchen I decided to order dinner. I knew Hasu was going to be hungry. I was half asleep on the couch with the TV on when I heard them finally stop for the night. I was too tired to get up. The food would all have to be reheated, but I’d let them get their own. I blinked a few times feeling someone standing over me. I looked up to see Sora looking down at me. He shifted his weight glancing back over his shoulder. “Listen . . . I wanted to apologize for the other day.” “You already did.” “I know but . . . I don’t usually lose my temper like that and I’m really sorry.” “No, I deserved it Sora. Someone needed to knock some fucking sense into me.” I cringed after I said it and glanced around to make sure Ryuu wasn’t close enough to hear me. “Well, I won’t argue with that.” Sora grinned at me. “Thanks for getting dinner for us.” “No problem.” As soon as the door shut behind Sora and Hasu, Ryuu tackled me. “What the fuck! Ryuu!” He was giggling. “Did you get it?” “Yes.” “Where are they?” “Bedroom.” Where else would you need condoms? He jumped up and practically bounced down the hallway. What the fuck was up with him? I laid back down on the couch closing my eyes. I could hear him rummaging around, drawers opening and shutting. “Where are they Kenta?” “Why? Not like you need them.” “Where are they!” “Nightstand.” He came back with the box and a grin that rose the hairs on the back of my neck. He dropped the box in my lap. “Here. They are for you.” I stared up at him. “What?” “They are for you.” I think my brain kind of shut down at that point cause he sure as hell was not making any sense. “Ryuu, you can’t be serious.” He sat on the edge of the couch next to me, looking down at me. “I am serious.” I blinked as he reached down and ran his fingers through my hair. His eyes looked more blue than grey for some reason and seemed to stare right through me. “I want to be with you Kenta.” “B-but Ryuu . . . I’m hurt and-“ He laid a finger across my lips. “I didn’t say it had to be tonight, Kenta. I know that’s asking too much right now. Besides . . . have you ever been with a guy before?” I blinked a couple of times, honestly caught off guard by the question. “Um . . . no.” “I didn’t think so.” He grinned at me and leaned down to kiss me. Those amazing lips making me lose any grip I’d had on reality. Just when I thought I wasn’t going to be able to control myself any longer, broken ribs or not, he pulled away. “Can I ask you a question.” “Um . . . yeah.” My lips were tingling like crazy and I really didn’t want to be talking. There were much better things to do with those perfect lips of his. “Do you want me?” I finally tore my eyes from his lips and looked at him. There was a sadness deep in his eyes that I hadn’t noticed before. “What the fuck kind of question is that?” He flinched and I realized he’d taken it badly. I grabbed his arm before he could get up. “Why would you ask me that?” Ryuu I couldn’t meet his eyes. The feel of his fingers on my arm was both comforting and disturbing. I knew I was pushing things, pushing myself. I just wasn’t sure. I was never sure when it came to Kenta, except how I felt about him. I finally shrugged, not even sure what to say. I let out a small yelp as he suddenly pulled me down kissing me hard. A soft whine slipped free as he slid one hand into my hair the other coming to rest on my hip. The kiss was taking my breath away. All the urgency and need sending my pulse racing. I heard the box of condoms hit the floor as he shifted us and smiled to myself. I’d gambled big time putting those on the list and was shocked he’d bought them. I gasped as his lips found my neck making me writhe, tingling sensations shooting down my spine. “Oh god . . . Kenta.” I was trying not to move too much, afraid of hurting him, but the way his lips and tongue were attacking my neck it was hard to stay still. “You asked . . .” His lips were so warm and soft against my skin and I felt like I was melting, my body dissolving. “I’ve never been with a guy, but that doesn’t mean I don’t know what to do to make you feel good Ryuu.” That statement didn’t make a whole lot of sense to me, but thinking was becoming increasingly difficult. His hands were now under my shirt and I realized with a start that he was undressing me. The shirt was tossed off to the side and he grinned at me. “I’d have though you could tell how much I wanted you.” I blinked at him for a moment before I realized that the hardness pressed into my stomach was his erection. I couldn’t hold back the grin and got an answering one. He was already this hard after just a few minutes of kissing. It made me shiver in anticipation. “Want to move this to the bedroom?” I put every ounce of seductiveness I could manage into my voice and watched as those dark eyes got impossibly darker. I wiggled my hips and got a gasp. Now that was nice. “You got to get off me first, Ryuu.” I laughed and pushed myself up, helping him up as well. Getting into the bedroom proved to be a rather drawn out process as we took our time getting each other undressed, I was giddy with excitement as we finally ended up on the bed. “Fuck! Why are you so hot?” I shivered as Kenta’s hands slid across my skin. They were slightly calloused and the sensation was amazing. I couldn’t get enough of it. “You are making me very hot.” I gasped as his hand dipped between my legs, his fingers wrapping around me. His slow even strokes were nearly infuriating. I wanted so much more. “Kenta! Please . . . “ His soft laugh was all I got. I opened my eyes to see him leaning over me the dark eyes sparkling mischievously. “You really are a handful.” I groaned, “Don’t tease me. Just go faster.” There was another deep chuckle and suddenly there was a very hot mouth surrounding me. I moaned. It was better than any fantasy by about a hundred times over. He hadn’t been kidding when he said he knew how to make me feel good. Kenta-my beautiful Kenta was doing this, giving me this kind of pleasure. That thought alone was enough to send me crashing into oblivion.

Kenta “Get up. “ The deep rumble startled me awake but it was the fist in my hair that had me on my feet. Oh fuck! Fuck! When had Jiro got here? I had a quick glance at Ryuu asleep on the bed before I was hauled out of the room. I stumbled trying to keep my feet, my hair getting yanked in the process. “Fuck! Let go Jiro!” He didn’t say anything and didn’t let go either. Shit. My stomach suddenly felt like it was trying to crawl out my throat. A pissed off Jiro was the last thing I needed right now. There was a sharp stabbing pain in my side to match the searing pain in my head. He threw me down in the living room and I narrowly missed bashing my head into the coffee table. Scrambling around I got to my feet only to have him backhand me hard enough to send me right back to the floor. I stayed there. There was no rage in his eyes, just a dead calm. I was in some seriously deep shit if that was the case. I looked over realizing Hayate was standing by the front door. He had a busted lip and was trying to stop his nose from bleeding. He glanced at me then looked away. My attention snapped back to Jiro as he spoke. “I am very disappointed in the two of you. Nakamara wants you fired Kenta. Fired and demoted.” I flinched. It was the least I deserved. “I should. I should demote you back down to the most junior rank and let you work your way back up. I really thought better of you Kenta. I didn’t think you would shirk your responsibilities like this. What would have happened if someone had recognized Ryuu? He could have been kidnapped . . . or killed. His parents pay us the protection money for a reason. He’s not just some ditzy singer; he’s the son of Ito Yoshiru and Kaori. The Ito name alone is worth billions of yen. He’s a target for extortionists and paparazzi. What happened last night would have made national news if he’d been recognized. You just better thank whatever god happened to be watching out for him last night that didn’t happen.” I shrank down as he came to stand over me. I knew all this, why was he telling me again? I knew who Ryuu was. Though it was easy to forget when I was with him all the time. “Jiro I-“ “Did I give you permission to speak?” I yelped as the fist slammed into the side of my head knocking me flat. Shit but he hit hard. My ears were ringing. I couldn’t remember Jiro ever being this mad at me. He’d never hit me before. I knew it happened occasionally when the other guys fucked up, but I’d never planned on being one of them. It was getting harder to breathe, the pain radiating around from my side. I’d probably fucked up my ribs again carrying Ryuu last night. Getting hit didn’t help either. “Hayate go get the car, we are leaving. I’ve already got Teito headed over to keep an eye on Ryuu.” The pain was forgotten as I looked up at Jiro. I struggled to get up, using the coffee table as support. “No, I’ll stay. He . . . he needs me.” “He needed you yesterday. No, it’s too late Kenta. You lost your chance. Get up, we are leaving.” He didn’t give me a choice, roughly hauling me to my feet. I swayed for a second, dizzy. The side of my face was numb and throbbing, my ribs aching, but it was the sick hollow feeling eating away at me that was causing the most pain. Jiro was right. I’d lost my chance. Ryuu had been the best thing to ever happen to me and I’d treated him like shit. I’d lied to myself, to him, thinking that it would be best for both of us. Why was I so fucking stupid? Then it hit me. I was scared. Fucking scared shitless. Why would someone like Ryuu want anything to do with someone like me? But even more than that, I was scared of what would happen if it was found out. The media would rip him to shreds for dating an ex con yakuza member, never mind another guy. I couldn’t let that happen. He meant too much to me. “No. I am staying here.” “I don’t want you here.” I turned to see Sora standing in the hall. “I want you to leave. You’ve done enough damage.” I shook my head, wincing. “No, I am staying. I’ll find a way to-“ “I said no.” It only took Sora two long strides to reach me and the next thing I knew I was on the floor by the couch. Holy fuck! I did not need this right now. “Wait! Sora stop!” Hayate was trying to stop him as I used the couch to try and get back up. Maybe I should just stay on the floor. “You don’t understand.” Hayate almost landed on me as Sora shoved him out of the way. “I understand perfectly fine. He’s happy to use Ryuu to get what he wants, just like all those posers and fakes who only want to be his friend because of who he is. I told you if you hurt him, I’d make you regret it.” I was too slow to get out of the way as Sora reached down and yanked me up. He didn’t understand. I already regretted it. “No that’s not-fuck!” I tried to block him but I was in too much pain. He hit as hard as or harder than Jiro and he wasn’t stopping. Hayate finally managed to pry him off me. I ended up half laying on the couch. The only thing I could think was that Ryuu was going to be upset that I was getting blood on the pretty white fabric. I didn’t blame Sora for being mad at me. I was mad at myself, but there wasn’t anything I could do about it now. With a shaking hand I wiped the blood off my chin. I went to push myself up and felt something in my chest give. My vision went dark for a moment as agony ripped through me. I wasn’t sure if I could get up. “Fuck! Kenta are you alright? Sora! You didn’t have to go that far!” Hayate was yelling. “He’s the one that went too far! Making Ryuu think he was interested in him. Leading him on-“ “Enough.” Jiro voice cut through the yelling and I felt a firm hand on my upper arm. It took all myself control not to sob with pain as he pulled me up. “I think your point has been made Sora. You won’t have to worry about Kenta. He won’t be back.” “No, Jiro, no you can’t have someone else watch him.” I tried to shake off Jiro’s hand. I was almost sick with pain, but I couldn’t let them. No one knew Ryuu like I did. Could handle his tantrums, could calm him down when he’d get upset. “Teito doesn’t understand him.” “Oh and you do?” I looked over at Sora and realized my right eye must be swelling shut. I couldn’t really see him. “Yes. I do. I know I fucked up, but just give me another chance.” I tilted my head so I could look up at Jiro. “Please. Please let me stay.” *** Sora glared at me every time he walked into the room. Ryuu had been sleeping for the last couple of hours and it was nearing nine in the evening. Sora was still upset with me. He’d barely let me help when Ryuu had woke earlier to eat and use the bathroom. Not that I was a whole lot of help. I’d wrapped my ribs back up and taken some pain meds, but the dull ache was still there. “Why did you even bother staying?” I didn’t lift my head from where it was resting on my arm. What was I supposed to fucking say? Keeping my eyes on the sleeping man only a few inches from me I knew why I’d stayed. I’d sit here all night watching him again if I had to. “Sora . . . haven’t you considered what would happen if-if the media found out. About me, I mean. If we . . . were together I know it would always have to be a secret. Not just because we are both guys, but . . . I have a criminal record and not just something silly like shoplifting. I went to juvie for assault and battery when I was fourteen. I’m yakuza now. How would that look to the media. I want him to be happy, Sora and I just don’t think he would really be happy with me.”

Kenta “No more questions please.” I moved the reporter back, not bothering to be gentle about it. They were supposed to have left him alone after the press conference but everyone wanted to know about Akira. “It’s alright Kenta.” Ryuu’s soft voice was suddenly in my ear. “I’ve got this.” I nodded slowly and stepped back slightly so he could get around me. I kept within arms reach glaring at any of the leeches that got to close. I recognized a few of the regulars, they did me too. I got a few glares back but most were too interested in what Ryuu was saying. “Akira is doing just fine and is resting after filming our new PV. His health has improved and we expect to be able to do another tour in a few months along with the release of the PV.” Ryuu ignored any questions that asked what exactly was wrong with Akira. The official stance was fatigue, but the rumors were flying like they always did. Ryuu handled it all very well and after answering a couple more questions stepped back, my signal that he was done. Waving off the reporters, I led Ryuu back down the hall to the side stairs. I always had at least three routes we could take. His phone was already going off, the sound echoing in the stairwell. “Hey Tatsuya! Yeah. You got it set up? Awesome! I’ll see you then.” Ryuu hummed as I heard the phone snap shut. If Tatsuya was coming over that probably meant I was going to be free for the evening, for some reason that thought didn’t sit too well. I’d actually been looking forward to spending my one night off with him. As if I wasn’t around him enough as it was. Maybe I’m just a glutton for punishment. “Oh, you have to stay for dinner tonight Kenta. Haru and Tatsuya are coming over.” “Huh?” I looked back at him, nearly missing a step. “Tatsuya and I have been planning it for a while now, but with everything it kind of got pushed back.” “Okay . . . well I don’t see why I can’t.” I opened the door for him glancing around to make sure no one was waiting outside. “Cool.” He grinned at me as he slipped by, his fingers running through my hair. “You should let me do your hair.” “Like hell.” “Oh come on, Haru let’s Tatsuya dress him up.” Okay . . . that was not something I needed to know about Haru and since when was Haru hanging out with Tatsuya? Seeing the hopeful, almost pleading looking on Ryuu’s face I sighed. “Fine you can do my hair but that is it! Don’t even ask to do anything else.” “Oh! Thank you Kenta! I’ve been dying to do your hair. I know just how I’m going to do it too.” I don’t know what disturbed me more, the fact that I’d agreed or that Ryuu already had a style in mind. “Well fuck.” Ryuu Tatsuya and Haru stayed for quite a while. Cleaning up the empty beer cans from the living room I smiled seeing Kenta sprawled on the couch. It was kind of unusual to see him so relaxed. He looked entirely too good at the moment and I wondered how he did it. I had to work hours to look that sexy and he did it without even trying. His eyes were half closed but I could tell he was watching me as I walked around the living room. It gave me a rush, my heart suddenly pounding harder, my skin tingling. “Did you have fun?” His voice was a bit slurred by too many beers. “Yeah, did you?” “Yeah, though it’s weird seeing Haru like that.” “He’s happy. How is that weird?” It had been entirely too cute to see Haru and Tatsuya together. It was kind of odd to think that the normally acerbic and sometimes violent Haru was so considerate and gentle with the petite escort. Though the relationship obviously was working for the two of them which made me happy. Tatsuya and I had planned tonight, hoping that Kenta would get the hint. Though it didn’t seem to be working. Maybe I would have to do something to help it along. “No, that’s not what I meant.” Kenta pushed himself up on the couch. “He’s fun at work. He’s always joking with someone, it was just . . . different. He treats Tatsuya like he’s made of glass or something.” I giggled, unable to help it. “No not really. He’s just tender and sweet and affectionate. Tatsuya eats it up.” Kenta laughed. “Haru? Sweet?” “Yes.” I walked over standing in front of him looking down at him. The man was impossibly good looking and it took all my self control not to pounce him right then and there. “Is that so hard to believe?” “Umm . . . yes.” “Really? You know there are a lot of people who would say the same of you. They only see the brusque, harsh bodyguard.” He blinked at me the smile fading just a bit. “I’m not harsh.” “I know you aren’t.” I knelt down, grabbing a beer can that had somehow ended up under the couch. Setting it on the coffee table I let my gaze travel up. His dark eyes met mine and I realized I was dying to know what he was thinking. The way he was looking at me was making my whole body run hot. I shifted forward so that I was between his knees, my eyes still locked on his. “Believe me, I know you aren’t really like that. You are kind, and considerate, compassionate, honest, forgiving, patient, and stunning.” Long lashes lowered almost hiding the dark eyes. He was smiling at me. “You are so full of shit, Ryuu.” I leaned forward, placing my hands on either side of his hips. “Am I? I don’t think so.”

Yup. I always wish that some of the story situations actually can happen to me, and when i think about this, i usually blush and giggle for no reason. I love this yaoi disease, i hope that it never stops.