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Original name: Royal Fiancé Manga ALT. names: ロイヤル・フィアンセ, Royal Fiance, The Royal Fiancé Original run: 2009 Description: Honami Kairi's fate changes when he accepted an offer from an old man to work for a rich family as a housekeeper. The low-level job suddenly transforms into a wedding workout with his schoolmate, the foreign Royal Prince Shou...! It's a fairytale with a twist... Manga-type: Manga Written by: ASUMA Risai Drawn by: ASUMA Risai Published by: Libre Shuppan Group(s) Scanlating: Black Lilac Scans, Shinmakoku Scanlations Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama, Romance, Yaoi Categories: Jealous Lover, Rape, Heir (Prince) Main Characters: Honami Kairi, Royal Prince Shou Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Private Prince, Ousama Game Read Royal Fiance Online: Royal Fiance Download Royal Fiance Manga: Royal Fiance Thanks to Rio Hanamachi For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I11uQkrRKXY http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ByIKsPNU0-I&NR=1 (im adopted by two fathers I'm not homosexual LOL I'm bisexual ) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jydx568sSvU&feature=related OMG Lmao ( you can go to subway or burger king LOOOOOOL)

Riku (25) 180cm singer character own by aoi

Kenta I stared at Ryuu. “What?” He raised his eyebrows at me his voice hard. “You heard me.” He turned to walk back down the stairs and I rushed to stop him, grabbing his arm. “Ryuu, why-“ I rocked back a step, the side of my face on fire. Ryuu jerked away from me, his glare hurting almost as bad as my face. He’d just fucking slapped me. I blinked several times as his face blurred. I’d been punched, kicked, beaten with a baseball bat, tazered, cut, and stabbed, so why did this pain hurt so much worse? No beating I’d ever endured had prepared me for this kind of agony. It wasn’t that the slap didn’t hurt. It fucking did. What hurt worse was the fact that he’d actually fucking hit me. He’d never once, ever been mad enough at me to hit me. Knowing he was that upset with me was fucking painful in way I wasn’t ready for. “Don’t touch me. You think I’d forgive you so easily for pulling this kind of shit Arakaki?” “Ryuu please! Don’t be mad at Kenta.” “Shut up Hasu. This has nothing to do with you.” I wanted to say something, anything, but no words came. They couldn’t get passed the horrible pain that was making breathing next to impossible. Ryuu was still talking but I couldn’t really tell what he was saying over the pounding in my ears. I didn’t understand. Why would he fire me? Why was he so upset? I’d said I was sorry. I’d tried so hard to keep them all safe. I know I hadn’t been able to protect them like I should have, but fuck . . . “ . . . Are you even listening to me?” I looked up, Ryuu’s grey eyes harder than granite. He crossed his arms over his chest. “I asked you a question.” “Oh . . .” He sighed. “Never mind. I don’t care anymore. Nakamara will send you your last paycheck.” Was this really fucking happening? “Wait, Ryuu-I don’t understand . . .” “Of course you don’t.” I flinched at Ryuu’s biting tone, the ache in my chest getting sharper, threatening to break through the thin wall I was just barely keeping up. “You are such an idiot. I don’t know why you thought trying to do all this yourself was a good idea. Why do you have to be so fucking bull headed and stubborn? If you’d just admitted you needed help-fuck it. I’m done with you. I’m done with wondering when or if you’ll come home. I’m not going to be cheated on by some fucking illiterate thug who can’t even do the one fucking job he’s got. Give me your phone.” I was shaking, but I couldn’t stop it. Why was he doing this to me in front of everyone? It was humiliating. I’d never thought he could be so cruel. Pulling my phone out of my pocket I held it out not looking up. He snatched it out of my hand. He messed with it for a minute then handed it back. “Alright guys, let’s go. We’ve got better things to do.” Numb I stared down at my phone. He’d deleted his numbers, both his cell and his house number. This was it. He was breaking up with me. “R-Ryuu . . .” I gulped not sure what to do when my voice cracked. “I’m done talking to you Arakaki.” “Please Ryuu-“ I couldn’t talk anymore. My throat wouldn’t let the words out. “Shit Ryuu! This is too much!” Sora’s voice washed over me, but I was too drained to do anything but stand there. It was like I was back in the apartment the day I lost Ayame, I was losing everything all over again. I’d tried so hard but it was useless. I was useless. I’d failed Ryuu, failed Hasu, failed Ayame. I was nothing but a fucking failure. “Fuck Ryuu . . . do you have to be so mean.” I slowly realized I was alone standing on the sidewalk in front of the police station. My whole body shaking and I felt like puking. I glanced up as a shadow fell over me. Sora’s smile was pained as he looked at me. “Kenta . . . Kenta come on. I’ll talk to Ryuu, please stop crying.” “-m n-not crying.” “Sure, okay.” Taking my arm, Sora led me to a small café and had me sit down at a table in the very back. Everything felt completely unreal. I looked over at Sora, finally feeling the wetness on my face. Wiping it away I tried to get a handle on myself. “He broke up with me.” “Yeah he did.” “Why?” Sora shook his head and reaching over brushed some hair back from my face. “He’s just really upset and hurt right now Kenta. He still thinks you were cheating on him, all the stuff with Naoki aside.” “No! Not fucking ever.” “You don’t have to yell at me Kenta, I know. Hasu told me what happened. How you tried to help him. Now just try to calm down and breathe. Things will be okay I promise.” I nodded feeling light headed, yet also too heavy to move. I had to fix this. I couldn’t leave it like this, with Ryuu thinking I’d cheated on him. I loved him. I loved him and I didn’t ever want to be without him. I covered my face with my hands as another round of sobs overtook me. I’d lost so much in my life and I wasn’t about to lose Ryuu. I’d kill someone first. I hadn’t cried once since the day I’d found my sister dead. It seemed I was making up for lost time cause I cried till I puked then I cried some more. Sora was there through it all talking to me, trying to calm me down and getting me water when I needed it. I was really glad he’d taken me somewhere half way private so I wasn’t making a total ass of myself. I finally ended up sitting curled up in the chair clutching the water bottle Sora had given me. I was so fucking furious with myself it wasn’t even funny. “I gotta fix it Sora.” “Kenta . . . honestly I’ve never seen Ryuu this upset. He’s hurt and angry and feels betrayed. He’s not going to listen to reason until he calms down.” I nodded, my head feeling like someone had stuffed it full of spiked lead balls. My stomach hurt and just thinking of Ryuu made the pressure in my chest swell until it threatened to choke me. I gasped softly as I was suddenly being hugged by the big redhead. “Kenta . . . I am so sorry things turned out this way. I can’t stand to see you this upset.” Sora’s voice was soft. “I’m sorry Ryuu was so hateful about everything. You are the best thing that has ever happened to him and he knows it. Once he calms down and listens to Hasu, he’ll apologize. I know he will.” “I need to go talk to him. I have to tell him what really happened.” Sora let me go and sat back. He took a breath and slowly blew it out. “If you think so Kenta. Don’t expect him to listen at first though.” “I know.” *** I rode the bus over to Ryuu’s apartment. The setting sun was reflected in the windows of the different apartments as I got off the bus. I wondered if I should even bother going up. Ryuu's apartment felt more like home now than anywhere I'd ever lived and the thought of never going back there sent a sick hollow feeling through me. I headed inside trying to think of ways I could make things up to Ryuu. It was not going to be easy. Everyone distrusted me now and I knew that was going to take a long time to fix. I was staring at the floor as I got into the elevator and didn't look up as someone joined me. A soft snicker make me look up and I nearly gasped in shock, my hand instantly going to the knife on my belt. Rame never gave me a chance to pull it. Grabbing me around the neck he slammed me into the back wall of the elevator. "I was looking for you." I tried to fight him, but it was like I had no strength left. I found himself marched out of the elevator and to the door of Ryuu's apartment. "Open it." Rame’s breath was hot on my ear and I jerked my head to the side. "You have to let go of me." I managed from between clenched teeth. The grip on my wrists lessened and I winced as I was able to bring my arms down from where they had been twisted up behind my back. I was already trying to formulate a plan. If only I still had my knife but it was on the floor of the elevator. My fingers trembled slightly as I unlocked the door. Rame didn't give me a chance to open it, grabbing my arm and shoving the door open himself. I stumbled into the apartment, trying to right myself. I shifted getting into a fighting stance only to have Rame laugh at me. "You really think you can fight me in your condition? Pathetic. What does that idiot singer see in you anyway?" I blocked the punch to my face and deflected the one aimed at my ribs, but I was already worn down and exhausted. Rame wasn’t. I yelped as the next punch sent me sprawling, cracking my head on the tile. I struggled to get my eyes to focus as Rame leaned down over me. "You've got a lot of payback coming your way, bitch." Rame’s chuckle made the hair on the back of my neck stand up and I flailed trying to get loose. "Struggle all you want Kenta. It turns me on."

First attempts and experiments at coloring. It's a trial. Seriously frustrating... And so much fun! (*_*) For Aoi. foxy3

Sometimes I let people think I'm a boy cause it amuses me. Plus I think they believe a girl can't write good gay romance. Romance is romance, ne? Just the parts are different. lol

G & C i love strawberry shortcake:msn_red_fox 2

i wanna complain about my english teacher. She gives me detention for existing. I wish i could give her a 59 years detention once. Also i want to complain about laptops that crashes down all the time . And i want to complain about good books that's made into bad movies.

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Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Title: Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Altenative titles : Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi, Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi - Onodera Ritsu no Baai, Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi - Yoshino Chiaki no Baai, Sekaiichi Hatsukoi - Kisa Shouta no Baai, The World's Greatest Love, World's Greatest First Love Type : Manga Author(s): NAKAMURA Shungiku Artist(s): NAKAMURA Shungiku Status in Home Country : Ongoing (5 Volumes) Scanslation Status : Ongoing Other Title(s) : Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi, Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi - Onodera Ritsu no Baai, Sekai Ichi Hatsukoi - Yoshino Chiaki no Baai, Sekaiichi Hatsukoi - Kisa Shouta no Baai Genre(s) : Yaoi Summary : Onodera Ritsu has just transferred from his father's publishing company to Marukawa Shoten. Assigned to the shoujo manga division, he crosses path with the person he'd least expected to meet. Takano Masamune is the editor-in-chief of the division Ritsu's been assigned to, and the two seem get off on the wrong foot right from the very start when Takano unexpectedly kisses him. However, there is more to than what meets the eye: Takano is actually Saga, Ritsu's senpai and high school love-- whom Ritsu had thought to have played him for a fool by taking his affections for granted when he confessed and summarily dumped him. Read Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Online: Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Download Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Manga: Vol 1 Vol 2 Vol 3 Vol 4 Vol 5 Vol 6 Vol 7 Vol 8 Yokozawa Takafumi no Baii 3 For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Seven Days Manga ALT. names: セブンデイズ FRIDAY - SUNDAY, Seven Days - Friday to Sunday, Seven Days - Monday to Thursday Original run: 2007 Description: Bright and early one Monday morning, Shino Yuzuru asks Seryou Touji out on a lark when they run into each other at the school gate. Seryou, who's immensely popular, has the odd habit of going out with anyone who asks him out first at the beginning of the week, then promptly dumping them at the end of it. "Anyone" apparently includes male upperclassmen like Shino, and as a boyfriend, Seryou is perfect--unfailingly thoughtful and kind. Shino, obviously, has no intention of being in a serious relationship with Seryou. It's not like it's actually love or anything like that. ...Right? (source: Vices and Devices) Written by: TACHIBANA Venio Group(s) Scanlating: Aarinfantasy, Vices and Devices, omgbl, Vampirecat Genres: Drama, School Life, Shounen Ai Download Seven Days Manga: (links thanks to sayuk) @click (Completed) or @click (Volume 01) @click (Volume 02) For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Alternative Titles: Sora to Hara; 空と原; Sora & Hara Author: Nakamura Asumiko Genre: Comedy, School Life, Yaoi Year: 2008 Status: Ongoing Summary: Harasen, a single, lonely 37 years old highschool teacher is unable to cope the departure of a student, who is also his subject of unrequited love. Faced with a love sickness, he returns to the clubbing scene to start a fresh where he tangles up with a very troublesome guy... Download (Megaupload): Sora to Hara Ch 01 Sora to Hara Ch 02 Sora to Hara Ch 03 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title : Tonari ni Iru no ni, Tooi English Translation: You're right by my side, yet so far away. Author : Minase Masara Year: 2008 Status : Ongoing Genre : Romance, Yaoi Plot: Nagisa's good friend, Igarashi Taiga, is the popular guy at their university. After being compared to Taiga as a lover, Nagisa keeps wondering and questions Taiga, who demonstrates his skills with a hot kiss... What will come after that? Read Tonari ni Iru no ni, Tooi Online: Tonari ni Iru no ni, Tooi Download Tonari ni Iru no ni, Tooi: Complete For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai - Become My Lover Author/artist: Isaka Juugorou Genre: Comedy, School life,Yaoi Groups scanlating: Bliss Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Year: 2009 Read Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai Online: Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai Download Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai New Download Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Missing Code Year: 2006 Status: Completed Author: Katou Eren Artist: Minase Masara Genre: Drama, Mystery, Yaoi Plot: Russian bodyguard Alexis is given the task of hunting down famous art thief Shiro, but is intrigued by art researcher Kairi. In a world of lies, intrigues, and espionage, love can be a deadly illusion... (BUM) Read Missing Code Manga Online: Missing Code Download Missing Code Manga: Missing Code For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Ever done something that you want to confess about? Something you regret or something thats weighing on your conscious? Confess it here lol My confession: I made out with a guy and a girl at the same night once Lol and i liked it , i feel bad. Also i got so drunk once and i felt so sick i vomited into my neighbors mailbox LOOL ^^ What the fuck did you do? Confess

Title: Café Relish ni Oide [Welcome to Cafe Relish] Mangaka: TAKATSUKI Noboru Genre: Yaoi, Comedy Length: 1 Volume (5 Chapters + Extra) Scanlators: Biblo Eros / Dangerous Pleasure / X-Posed Scanlations Summary: Inui Takeshi is the owner of a restaurant in trouble! He and his cute younger brother Yasutomo are trying to make a living, but business is just too slow. When regular customer and ex-host Ookami Kyousuke suggests an all-male version of a maid cafe, the brothers reluctantly agree to the idea. Ookami and fellow host Sannoumaru Miyabi move in with the Inui's and begin the adventures of Cafe Relish! Read Cara Cafe Relish Online Cara Cafe Relish Download Cafe Relish Manga Volume 1: http://www.mediafire.com/file/1iwvg9686t5ywmh/Caf%E9_Relish_ni_Oide.zip Download link for non-members For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: It Seems to Rain Country: Taiwan Plot: Kuan, a teenage high school boy is struggling to find his identity as homosexual. His girlfriend seems to understand something's wrong and tries to help him... Download It Seems To Rain Movie: Part 1: 4Shared Part 2: 4Shared Part 3: 4Shared Part 4: 4Shared *Download all parts and join them with HJSplit* For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/1010844/are-you-a-seme-or-are-you-an-uke i got: :leaf12:

Year: 2007 Format: wma Bitrate: 128 kbps Size: 4 Mb Download Link (2Shared): Renai Shindan OST (Cassis - Stand up)

Ummm, i notice that we now have arcade game! thank you so much! it's gotta be fun here! Once again, :hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8):THANK YOU!!:hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (8): *unfortunately i might be offline for a long time, since my damn uncle made his decision; to not let me access the internet in order to let me stay focus on my study... duh he love to control everyone in family. :leaf7::leaf7::leaf7::leaf7:

I'll post my poems in here . My Heart Breaks . My heart breaks again today , Why did you have to go away , They say it gets easier with time , But you keep flooding my mind , I wish we could go back to yesterday , There is so much I long to say, I want to see you smile on more time , And watch you shine , My heart breaks again today, The tears just wont go away , It is always this way, Till April leaves for May, They say it gets easier with time , But your always on my mind , There is so much I long to say, I should have told you everyday , Just how much you meant to me , My heart breaks again today , I wish you never had to go away, The say it gets easier with time , But you are a very dear friend of mine, I wish we could go back to yesterday, So I'd have no regrets today, I want to see you one more time , And watch you shine , I miss you , My dear friend of mine . My heart breaks again today, There's just so much left to say. _____________________________________________ Here comes this feeling again. Here comes this feeling again, Bringing me down, Dragging me under, Taking me away further, I try to stop but I cant, Try to hold out , But its hard, I'm going down, I'm going under, Suffocating, Going down down down , Going under , Here comes this feeling again, Bringing me down , Dragging me under , Is there any hope for me , Maybe I'm just not as strong as I used to be , Is there a island in this sea , Can anyone save me , I'm going down, I'm going under, Suffercating, Going down down down , Going under , Here comes this feeling again, Bringing me down , Dragging me under , The sun slips away , And the night is here to stay , Im going down , Im going under , Slipping into a forever slumber , I'm going down, I'm going under, Suffocating, Going down down down , Going under , Here comes this feeling again, Down and down I fall , I'm suffocating , I'm drowning, Can you be the one to set me free , Because Im not the strong person I used to be , Not sure if I can make it , How long must I take it , Living while drowing , Please just let me breathe , I'm suffocating , I'm drowning, I reach out one last time . _________________________________ Poison. You are poison , You enter my mind , Making me lose feeling and time , You slip away for awhile , Just enough till I can finally smile, You make me anxious , You make me restless , You make me helpless , I try to fight you , But I can't , Your always in the background, My heart is a battleground , You are poison, You steal my happiness , And make it worthless , Lifetime of memories , Up for the remaking , Don't cry , Be strong , I tell myself , Days sometimes go by , And I say I have won this time , But how long can it last , Your die is cast , You are poison, You slip into my mind , Making me lose feeling and time , You make me anxious, You make me restless, You make me helpless , You are poison , My mind is poison , But the sun will rise tomorrow , And I live on to fight another day, You are poison , But I will overcome you one day. ______________________________________ As time passes by. As time passes by, I feel myself slipping away, I try to hold on to my last string of strength , But its just to far out of reach , The days are getting slower , And I feel myself getting colder , A shadow of myself passes by , Taking with it all my dreams , As time passes by , I feel myself slipping away , Where is my strength , Why is it out reach , If I kick and scream , Will anyone hear me , A shadow of myself passes by, And all I can do is cry , As time passes by , I feel myself slipping away , I try to hold on to my last string of strength , But its just to far out of reach, And thats when you found me , You smile and offer your strength , I hold on and reach , And find a reason to breathe , A shadow of myself passes by , But you tell me not to cry , Together we will find the new me , As time passes by , Sometimes I want to slip away , But you tell me it will be ok , When I lose my strength , I know you will be in reach, When the days get slower , And I find myself colder , You lend a shoulder , A shadow of myself passes by , I miss her I won't deny , But I don't mind since your by my side, Thank you, For giving me a reason to breathe, With you once again I can dream.

You're very welcome. Enjoy! I hope more will post their recommendations here 'cause I wanna check them out too.

My native tongue is Dutch. It goes like this: "Hallo allemaal! Mijn naam is Paul en ik woon in Amsterdam. Ik houd erg veel van Yaoi en van dit Forum." Translation: "Hello everybody! My name is Paul and I live in Amsterdam. I like Yaoi and this Forum very much". For pronunciation guide look at this site: http://www.pronunciationguide.info/Dutch.html

Lol...so fun ) okay. Here's mine. "Xin chào..Tên tôi là... Tôi 19 tuổi tới từ Việt Nam. Tôi rất yêu quí diễn đàn này. Ở đây có một người bạn đồng hương của tôi tên Phong Y" =))))) lool it seems like the introduction of myself. Here's the translation. "Hello, my name is....I'm 19 from Vietnam. I love this forum so much. There's one fellow of mine here, she is Phong Y"

i dreamed that i slaughtered my sister , i remember the knife and the sound of the blood leaking and the head fall off , >_ i assure you that me and my sister are more than 100% good, maybe i dreamed of that because few days ago i was watching my uncle slaughtering the lamb and the blood was splashing on my sister feet with strange sound

For me, the best english song that describes me is Born This Way. I dunno. I thank GAGA for making this song cause somehow its so me. As a gay, there are many criticism for me but since im BORN THIS WAY. I DONT CARE. HAHAHAHA

girl: dad i'm pregnant dad: who to? girl: well its either: simon, muneer, indy, andrew, ben, john, kane, leon, liam, oliver, tom, george, adam, william, lachie, rick, eli, richard, steve, harry, james, justin, nick or patrick. dad: well it couldn't possibly have been justin... isn't funny when monday starts with "M" and tuesday starts with "T" and the rest of the week says "WTF" lol. when the doctor told me i was schizophrenic ... i was beside myself Tip for losing weight: Turn your head left, then turn right. Repeat every time you are asked if you would like to eat. i love how in scary movies, the person yells out "hello?". As if the bad guy is going to be like " Hey im in the kitchen.... want a sandwhich?" I love hearing rumors because they tell me things about myself I didn't know before. I wanted to kill the most handsome boy in the universe...but i din't......bcoz suicide is a crime..!! (LOOOL now whose got a big ego ) Ey dont open the spoiler

Miro has already asked a similar question http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/173-Your-favorite-BL-drama-of-all-time But it's good you posted this thread that way we won't hold back anymore and just list every BL drama recommendation. hahahahahah!!! So here's mine - Takumi-kun 2 - Takumi-kun 3 - Ai no Kotodama 1 - The Postcard - The Crimson Mark - Antique Bakery (korean) - Ren Ai Shindan Unmei no Kodou - Formula 17 - Farewell My Concubine - M Butterfly - Lan Yu - Eternal Summer - Gohatto - Iron Ladies 1 - Just Friends - Sukitomo - Boy Meets Boy (korean ~ absolutely adorable EXCEPT that blonde girl thingy, ugh! go away!)

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Some more . The Nights Are Long. The nights are long when your away , The days drag on endlessly , My heart waits on pause , Ready to jump when you walk in , Can't you see how I race to you , How my eyes light up when your around, Can you hear how loudly my heart pounds , How my breath gets shallow , I wait on pins and needles , Till I can see you again , You overflow me , Taking my mind away from me , But giving me something worth so much more , So I can't help but to feel a little sore , When you have to go out the door , Even though I know you will return soon , The nights are long when your away , The days drag on endlessly, Its hard to eat , Its hard to sleep , Its hard to think , When your away , And I hope that sometimes I enter your mind , For you dominate mine , The nights are so long when your away , I truly wish you could always stay, But its ok , For my love seems to grow when your gone, It makes every moment spent with you , Even more special , But baby please don't stay gone long , I don't think my heart could take it , I don't think I'll make it , For the nights are long when your away , The days drags on endlessly, My heart is on pause , Please come give it just cause. ____________________________ Just Can't Contain This Love . There's a fire starting in my heart , And whose fault do you think it is, You came in burning like a hurricane , Don't ask me what's on my mind , Because I can't contain it this time, They say I am crazy , But its already to late , There's a fire burning in my heart , Should have known from the start , Every moment with you , Is a moment of pure bliss , Every moment apart , Is a moment to long , There's a fire raging in my heart, Rushing in like a hurricane , And whose fault do you think it is , Don't ask me whats on my mind , Because baby this could be the last time , I hold on breathless , I hold on helpless , I hold on aimless, There's a fire burning in my heart , You came in burning like a hurricane , You ask what is on my mind , Its too late , Baby I just can't contain this love, I shout to the world , I sing out to the deepest sea , I scream out on the highest mountain, Just how much you mean to me , There's a fire burning in my heart, Rushing in like a hurricane , You ask what do you want of me , I laugh , Why can't you see , What you already gave me, Loving you , Knowing you , Is all I need, Baby call 911 , Its to late for me for , Theres a fire raging in my heart , Rushing in like a hurricane , And whose fault do you think it is , They say I'm crazy , I say they are hazy, Just don't ask me whats on my mind , For I can't hold it in this time, I hold on breathless, I hold on helpless, I hold on aimless, Why can't you see what you do to me, Your love is burning in my heart , You came in rushing like a hurricane, So please don't ask me whats on my mind , For I can no longer contain this love. _________________________________________ The grass isn't greener .. The grass isn't greener on the other side , I wish you could see this as you look in my eyes , You say your in pain , Well I am vivid player in that game , My tomorrow is set , While you have possiblitys , But all you want to do is talk about yesterday, It should have been you , It should have been us , I grit my teeth , Just what are you remembering , I gave you my all , And you let it fall and fall , I begged for you to see me , But you looked the other way, Now tell me does this sound ok , The grass isn't greener on the other side , I'm longing for a place to hide , You say your in pain , Well darling so am I , My tomorrow is gone , But you have many battles to be won , Your stuck in the past , The shadows have been cast, You say it should have been me , It should have been us, I hold my breath , Then why didn't you try , I gave you my all , You let it fall and fall , I loved you , Did you really love me , I think its time to say goodbye , The grass isn't greener on the other side , Can't you see the hurt in my eyes , You say your in pain , Well I'm a vivid player in that game , My tomorrow is set , You have possiblities , Stop talking about yesterday , It should have been you , It should have been us , But darling you never tried , So go on and live your life , You have to pay to play the game , The one you long for is no longer the same , Your stuck in the past , The shadows are cast , I begged for you once to see me , And now you seek the ghost of me , Oh how you cry , But years pass and you never try , The grass isn't greener on the other side , Can you see the fear in my eyes , You say your in pain , Well so am I , Stop talking about yesterday , Saying it should have been me , It should have been us , Stop chasing shadows , You no longer need to see me , You see the grass isn't greener on the other side, So Darling please go and live your life .

For those of you interested in the whole band here is a drawing of the four of them. Ryuu is standing behind the chair, Sora is seated, Hasu is sitting on the arm of the chair and Akira is seated on the floor.

Thank you I mostly write what I feel. I have made some songs as well but when I always sing the poems in my head to remember them ^^ I wish I could write music like the notes but I only can do lyrics ^^. Here's some old poems/songs . Dancing In Silence Dancing in silence, She try's to forget the pain , Take a step back , Try to remember where you are at , Circles ,Circles ,Circles , The world is spinning , But she doesn't care , Because you stole her heart , Dancing in silence , She try's to push you out of her mind , As the world crushes down on her , Take a step forward , Its not the end of the world , Circles , Circles ,Circles , The world is sinking , And your love is so fleeting , Can't you see your tearing her apart , She screams out your name , But it will never be the same , Dancing in silence , She try's to forget the pain , Take a step back , Remember where you are at , Her world is spinning , But you don't even care , Circles , Circles ,Circles , Dancing in silence , She pushes you out of her mind , You can't save her this time , She outstretches her arms , As the world crushes down on her . ______________________________ And now a couple songs . Take your time to listen Verse 1 Take your time to listen, While her ivory eyes glisten, They are going to get me, So I hope you can set me free, And I know we said this many times, But could you look through my eyes? Cause here inside myself, Lives a dream I forgotten, Pieces of me slowly fade away, And you asked if I’m ok, But it can never be the same. Chorus ~~~~~ The tears are falling down Falling down Without a sound Without a reason This is my prison You’re my treason Set me free Set me free… Can you set me free? Verse 2 Take you time to listen, I am on a mission, They are going to get me, So I’m waiting for you to set me free, And I know we said this many times, But could you look through my eyes? Cause here inside myself, Lives a person I forgotten, Pieces of me slowly fade away, And you asked if I’m ok, But you can never know my pain. (Back to Chorus ) Please will you listen, As her ivory eyes glisten, They are going to get me, So will you set me free, And I know we said this many times, But could you look through my eyes ? My tears are falling down , Falling down , Without a sound , Without a reason, This is my prison, You’re my treason , Set me free, Set me free , Can you set me free ? I know we said this many times , But could you look through my eyes ? ___________________________________ Glory is your name Look in my eyes It should be no surprise Who I am to you Who you are to me These tears will slip away But the pain will always stay Glory is your name Glory is your name Encased my heart in glass I hope this love will last , all it takes is a tip , for it to lose its grip grip grip grip You always know the right words to say , You get better at it every day , But how much is you , And how much is true, These tears will slip away But the pain will always stay Glory is your name Glory is your name Look in my eyes, And stop telling me lies, Who am I to you Who are you to me Encased my heart in glass I hope this love will last , all it takes is a tip , for it to lose its grip Saw the letter on the door, Scatterd pieces fall to the floor, These tears will slip away , But the pain will always stay , Glory is your name , Yes Glory is your name . Wrote this last one when I was mad . Glory is meant to be said in a bad way . Can't explain but all the emotion is there .

*** The sound of voices woke me. Of course they did, the walls in my apartment were thinner than paper. Wait . . . this wasn’t my apartment. Why was I in the hospital? Sitting up took a lot of effort and not a little pain. Fuck. That fucking piece of fucking shit had really enjoyed himself. Hopefully Daisuike hadn’t sliced him up yet. I wanted to be the one to do it. I looked over as the door opened surprised to see Isao and Reiko. Neither of them looked happy, in fact they looked like they had been arguing. Isao glanced over at Rei who was glaring at me. My heart did an odd little skip-hop that kinda hurt. “You really are scum you know that Kenta? Playing hero, pretending you’ve spent the last month ‘investigating’. You obviously weren't doing shit but fucking around with another guy so don't pretend." She stalked over to the bed. I flinched away from her as she leaned down, too startled by what she was saying to respond. "I don't want you to ever show your face around my boys ever again. I don't want you going near Ryuu. You hurt him beyond anything you probably ever can repair you piece of shit. You failed all of them not only as a bodyguard, but as a friend. We trusted you and all you did was stab us in the back." "You don't know shit." I finally managed around the lump that was stuck in my throat. "I spent a month chasing leads and working to find out who the shit head was. You and your contacts didn't even know that there was a stalker! I did everything I could-" "By lying and cheating. Great way to protect us Kenta. By destroying our trust in you, by stabbing us in the back? If you hadn't tried to play the hero, none of this would've happened. If you had told someone that there was a stalker the problem would have never gotten this far. Hasu wouldn't be afraid of anyone touching him and Ryuu wouldn’t need to be sedated most of the day! You know, surprisingly I'm not as upset as I would've thought I might have been about the whole Naoki thing. What I'm most upset about is you cheating on Ryuu, hurting Ryuu, lying to Ryuu. He loved you. He still fucking does probably. When I left he was clutching a picture of you with another guy, crying and blaming himself for all of this. You have no idea what you have done to him. You hurt him worse than Naoki ever did.” Fucking hell . . . that was not fair at all. Where the hell was she getting the idea that I’d been cheating on Ryuu? From some pictures someone took of me? But when and where? I’d only been at that fucking gay bar to get information, not screw around with some stupid escort. Anger was quickly replacing the hurt. "What the fuck? I never cheated on him. You base your whole assumption that I cheated on a few photos some guy you've probably never met took? What the fuck Reiko! So I had to do some things I didn't really want to do to find the info I needed. Yeah, I fucked up. I could have done things differently, but so could you. We both fucked up when it came to protecting them. I'm not fucking perfect, not like you always pretend you are, ordering everyone around." I was starting to shake I was so upset. Cheating on Ryuu had never once even entered my mind. I loved the idiot. For Reiko to believe that I would cheat on Ryuu was another blow. I thought she and I were friends, maybe not close friends but hell, I’d saved her life. Wasn’t that worth something? "If you didn't act like a fucking whore then maybe my contact would've have taken pictures that let us assume you have! What else are we suppose to assume when you're seen at a fucking gay bar with an escort!" Stepping back she turned walking off. “Don’t show your face around here again Arakaki."

Kenta Clouds were floating overhead. Bright, puffy balls of . . . puffiness. That one looked like a squid. And that one looked like Isao’s face. No that was Isao’s face. I blinked several times. “Yeah, he’s got a concussion and he’s not very coherent.” “Where did you find him?” “At that bar Ichimura mentioned. Someone beat the living shit out of him and . . . well . . . he was naked when we found him.” “Seriously?” Who were they talking about? Whoever it was I felt sorry for them. A hand was placed on my head. I wanted to shake it off, but didn’t have the energy. “You probably better take him to a clinic.” “Yeah, how are the other boys? You got those two fuckers taken care of?” Isao sounded very worried. “Hasu won’t quit crying and keeps saying it’s his fault. Ryuu’s not much better. Sora has his hands full, poor guy. We got the one fucker, Ryuu’s ex. Sora just about killed him. He had glass imbedded in his skull.” “What about the other guy?” “He got away. I have no idea how, but he took down Jiro.” Why did that news give me such a horrible stomach ache? I turned my head slightly so I could see who was talking and a sudden massive wave of dizziness had me wondering which was up and down. “Whoa! Easy there Kenta, you shouldn’t be trying to move.” I whimpered as fingers gripped me propping me back upright. Hayate was peering down at me. I tried to smile but quickly decided that my face wasn’t up to it. “Fucking hell.” At least that’s what I tried to say, came out more like ‘fffklll.’ “Yeah, don’t move okay. I’m going to take you to a clinic.” Not another fucking clinic. ***

LOVE IT, LOVE IT, LOVE IT. LOVE IT. LOVE IT! :Red_fox: BAD?! You're crazy... (-_-) I already said in the chat and I'll tell you again. This is, undoubtedly, my favorite chapter to the date. More than the emotional ones and more than the ones that had love scenes. This chapter made me excited at the end of every paragraph and desperate to read the next. So f*cking damned good: bloody Hasu in chains and mega pissed off Kenta cursing is sexy ass off *.* It's building up to the climax. Anxiously waiting for the next one. Top quality writing, as expect (:

The Arcade system is ready now! (: Sorry for the lost scores, I was still working on the system. (:

Kenta I flipped open my phone, trying to juggle it and the box of paperwork Isao had given me to archive. Crazy ass pencil pusher needed to get an assistant and quit asking me to do this shit. “Hey-“ “Kenta? It’s Sora. Have you heard from Ryuu?” Letting the box down I straightened, frowning. “No, not for a few days. Why?” “He’s not answering his phone and I just tried to go check on him and he wasn’t at the apartment.” “When did you see him last?” “Yesterday afternoon. The doorman said he left sometime last night . . . Kenta he never came home.” I nearly dropped the phone. “Wh-what? Ryuu doesn’t just go out, not like that. Fuck.” “Yeah I know. It’s got me really worried. He was acting strange yesterday and honestly I think he was getting sick.” “Ryuu is never sick.” “Yeah I know, so he probably didn’t even realize it. Kenta, you need to find him.” “Yeah.” I felt like someone had taken my guts and twisted them inside out. “Yeah, I’ll uh . . . I’ll call you.” “Thanks Kenta.” I hung up and leaned against the wall behind me. Shaking myself, I took a breath. Where would Ryuu go if he wasn’t feeling good? Shoving off the wall I headed to the front of the office. Isao was at the computer tapping away at that infernal keyboard. “Iesada, I got a problem.” He looked at me over the rim of his glasses. “You are a problem Arakaki. What’s wrong this time?” “Ryuu is missing.” “Oh shit, that is a problem. Aren’t you supposed to be his bodyguard?” “Don’t fucking rub it in! You’ve had me here doing shit for the past two weeks.” “You could have said something.” “Like you’d fucking listen.” He sighed. “You are right. I try my level best to ignore your idiocy at all times. You need help finding him?” “Yeah.” I felt like punching the mouthy shithead but Hayate would kill me. “Give me thirty minutes.” “Okay.” It took fifteen. “One of the guys spotted him about three hours ago at a net café over on the lower south side. He’s not come out yet. Here is the address.” “Awesome!” I snatched up the paper, thanking him on my way out. He might be a mouthy son of a bitch, but he got stuff done. *** The net café was a nice one. All the cubicles looked full. Going to the little food bar I asked the girl making drinks if she’d seen Ryuu. “Oh, how could I forget a hottie like that? Yeah. He’s in A3, but you aren’t supposed to bother-“ I turned and walked off. I had the information I needed. The door was shut, but there was no sound coming from the other side. I went to knock on it and paused suddenly feeling nervous. I hadn’t talked to him in days and hadn’t seen him for even longer. Things had been fucking awkward ever since the day at Jiro’s. He hadn’t even been calling as often as he normally did. I just figured he was pissed at me. Who wouldn’t be? I fucking thrown him across a room then turned him down when he’d asked me out. So now, I wasn’t really sure what to expect. Sliding the door open I scrambled to catch him as he fell backward. “Fuck! Ryuu!” Kneeling down I tried to prop him up. He was sweating like crazy, his shirt soaked and he felt entirely too hot to the touch. Glazed eyes slowly focused on me as he struggled weakly to get up. “Oh hi.” “Ryuu . . . fuck. You are sick. Why the hell aren’t you at home?” “It’s lonely.” It couldn’t possibly have hurt worse if he’d taken a dull knife and stabbed it right through me. If I’d been doing what I was supposed to, doing my fucking job, he wouldn’t be here like this, wouldn’t have been wandering around sick all night. I’d put him in danger by not being there. I was a fucking failure. Not anymore. Not fucking again. Shifting around, I scooped him up. He was lighter. Why the fuck was he lighter? “Excuse me sir?” I looked up to see the lady from earlier looking worried. “Is there something I can help you with.” “Yeah, call me a cab.” She nodded, her eyes never leaving Ryuu. “Right away sir.” I held him against me, feeling him shake every so often. Fuck. I had to get him to a clinic. Nakamara was going to have my balls. Worse than that, he was going to fire me. Setting Ryuu down, I took my jacket off and wrapped it around him before picking him up again. I gasped as there was a sudden sharp pain in my side. Shaking it off, I walked toward the front keeping a tight hold on Ryuu. The cab was just pulling up. I nodded to the girl as she held the door open for me. Ryuu was saying something, but with his face buried against my neck I couldn’t make out what it was. I was starting to sweat just from carrying him he was so hot to the touch. It was scaring me. If his fever was too high it could get dangerous. The ride to the clinic was tense. I played with my phone, dialing Nakamara then shutting it. I finally decided to call Sora. Someone needed to know I’d found him. Sora picked up on the second ring and I could hear a video game going in the background. “Kenta? Turn that down will you, Hasu? Did you find him? Is he alright? Where was he?” “Um. He was at a net café. We are on our way to a clinic. He’s um-he’s really sick.” “Which clinic?” I told him wondering how soon I’d know if I’d lost my job or not. I hadn’t told Nakamara about having Hayate do my job. I’d just thought that giving Ryuu some space would be better. I was lying to myself. I knew I was. Fucking lying. I just couldn’t handle being around him every day. When I was around him all I could think about was . . . things I shouldn’t be thinking about. His safety was my priority. Nothing else. Reaching over I smoothed the sweat soaked hair back from his face. “I’m sorry Ryuu.” Ryuu Light woke me. It was too bright to sleep any longer. I slowly opened my eyes almost dreading what I would see. I had heard voices several times when I’d wake just enough to have someone give me some water. After the second time that had happened, I’d realized I was very sick. It was scary. My body wouldn’t move and for a while I’d nearly panicked trying to get up. Nothing had made sense at that point. The only thing that came through clearly was Kenta’s voice. Knowing that he was there meant I didn’t have to worry. I’d actually slept after that. I wondered if it was morning. The clock said it was two, must be afternoon. Turning my head the other way I blinked seeing Kenta half laying on the bed, one arm stretched out toward me. My heart sped up. How long had he been there? Why was he here? I slowly reached over, running my fingers through the dark strands. Now that I was awake I could remember hearing his voice the whole time since he’d first found me at the net café. I wasn’t really sure how I’d gotten there, that part was kind of a blur. I’d just known that something didn’t feel right. I’d thought that maybe going out would help. Apparently not. He stirred slightly under my fingers and I froze. Would he be mad at me for touching him? I just didn’t know what to do anymore. He was so confusing. Taking my hand out of his hair I laid my head back turning to look out the window again. I should just give up. I wasn’t willing to lose his friendship over this. I could deal with not being closer. I would deal with it. Closing my eyes, I bit down on the urge to cry. I wasn’t going to. He’d just get on to me for it anyway. I nearly jumped feeling warm fingers suddenly surrounding mine. I turned my head, only to smile weakly seeing Sora standing next to the bed. Kenta was still sound asleep. “Hey.” “Hey.” “You look like shit.” “You look like a walking mop, a dirty one.” Sora just chuckled and shook his head, keeping his voice down. “You gave us quite a scare yesterday, Ito.” “Sorry. I knew something didn’t feel right and thought going out would help.” “Why didn’t you call me?” “Because I always call you. It’s not fair to you Sora.” “Bullshit. You could have called this idiot.” Sora glanced down at Kenta. I shook my head. “No, he . . . just no.” “He stayed up all night with you last night. He must have passed out just a few minutes ago. I was just in here thirty minutes ago and he was still awake.” I shifted around to sit up, leaning against the headboard. “Well, it’s his job isn’t it?” Even I heard the bite in my voice and I suddenly felt bad. “Yeah . . . about that. I think Nakamara is going to fire him.” I jerked around to face Sora. “What! No! No, he can’t! I won’t allow it! I-it was my fault. I . . . was too pushy.” A dry laugh escaped me and I dropped my head, plucking at the covers. “If anything he could sue me for sexual harassment.” “I don’t think he would do that Ryuu.” At Sora’s gentle tone I looked up. “He really does like you Ryuu. We . . . talked for a bit last night at the clinic. He’s terrified of getting fired, but he’s more scared of messing things up for you.” I stared at Sora trying to process that information. Kenta and scared didn’t go in the same sentence. I looked back down at the dark head. It was just like Kenta to think of someone else before himself. I just wished he would let me back in. I’d been shoved back outside that barrier and it seemed higher than ever. “I don’t know Sora.” “Just . . . don’t give up Ryuu. If you can’t win, where will I be?” “Jacking off to those photos you sneak when he’s not looking.” Sora’s eyes narrowed dangerously. “If you weren’t sick I’d . . . sometimes I don’t even know why I bother.” “Cause you love me!” I grinned at him as I shifted back down under the covers and rolled over onto my side. I was feeling sleepy again. I curled up around Kenta laying a hand on his. “Besides, it’s what I do. So I know you’d do it too.” “Oh my god, Ryuu . . . you are just . . . never mind. Go back to sleep for a bit. I’ll bring you something to eat here after while.” “Sora.” I waited till he’d turned back around. “Thanks and . . . I will keep trying.”

Kenta “What is wrong with you?” Sora hissed at me. The sound of Ryuu running down the stairs was too loud. I could still hear that choked back sob. Wrapping an arm around my ribs, I dared to glance over at Jiro. Shit. He was pissed at me. That look was fucking scary. “You better go get him.” Isao got up and walked over, placing a hand on Sora’s arm, probably to keep him from hitting me. Hasu was watching all of us, his eyes huge. “Yes I think you better.” I shivered at Jiro’s tone. “I’m sorry. He just-it fucking hurt!” “How was he supposed to know you’ve got busted ribs Kenta?” Isao’s eyes bored into me. “He was happy to see you, quite obviously, and you just treated him like complete shit.” It was like a blow to the gut. I suddenly felt sick. Fuck. I’d just reacted when he’d grabbed me instead of thinking. I was still in fight mode after this morning and had probably hurt Ryuu in more than one way. I could still see the shocked look on his face, the fear in his eyes. Fuck. Taking a shallow breath I managed to stand up straight. Sora looked ready to spit in my face. “I don’t care if you are fucking dying you don’t ever, ever treat him like that. You don’t know . . . you don’t know what you’ve done.” Sora shook off Isao’s hand and grabbed the front of my shirt, yanking me forward. “I might not be yakuza, but I can and I will make you regret ever even thinking about touching him.” I nodded slowly shocked. As long as I’d known Sora I’d never seen the big guy get this angry. He always just seemed like nothing bothered him. It wasn’t like I’d intended to toss Ryuu on his ass. The combination of the pain and still being on a bit of a high from the fight had made me act before I’d even realized it was Ryuu. “It was an accident.” I mumbled. “You fucking threw him on the floor. How is that a fucking accident? He’s too sensitive for you to act like that.” Sora shook me, making me gasp as pain shot through me. “I get it. I get it. I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to. I’ll go talk to him.” Sora shoved me back letting go. His eyes were like jade daggers. “No you won’t. I will go talk to him. I don’t think I want you around him. Fuck! Now I’m going to have to call Nakamara and cancel the radio show. Thanks a fucking lot Arakaki.” I stood there like a fucking idiot as he left. No one was talking but I could feel their eyes on me, making my skin crawl. I wanted to yell at them, to do something to get rid of this horrible pressure in my chest that had nothing to do with the busted ribs. What the fuck had I done? “Kenta, why don’t you go sit in my room for a bit. I’ll be in to talk to you.” I glanced toward Jiro, not daring to meet his eyes. This was bad. No one ever wanted a talk from Jiro. Ever. I nodded slowly, keeping my eyes on the floorboards at my feet. The only sound as I walked down the short hall was my own footsteps. It felt like a death march. I was sore, tired and now . . . depressed. Fuck it all to hell. I closed the door and leaned against it for a moment. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to laugh or cry and wondered if I was delirious from pain and lack of sleep. Walking over to the bed I sat down wincing at the sudden sharp pain in my side. It was a good distraction from thinking about the look on Ryuu’s face. I really had not meant to hurt him. That didn’t change anything though. I had. End of story. I rubbed a hand over my face startled to realize I was trembling. Ryuu was not going to want to get anywhere near me now. That thought had me feeling lost and panicky. Shit, but I’m a fucking idiot. Ryuu I slowly followed Sora back up the stairs. I’d cried for a good thirty minutes but I didn’t feel better. I felt sick and hollow, an ache in my chest that seemed to be sapping all my strength. Sora kept looking back at me but I didn’t bother trying to pretend to smile for him. After he’d explained everything to me, I felt even worse. Kenta was hurt. No wonder he’d reacted like that. It must have been agonizingly painful when I’d grabbed him. It was no wonder he’d thrown me off like that. I shuddered, a rush of apprehension washing over me as Sora let us back into the apartment. I honestly wasn’t sure I could face him. Never once in the whole time he’d been working for me had he ever yelled at me like that. It hurt worse than hitting the floor had. “There you are.” Daisuike’s gentle voice made me look up. His smile was a lot like Akira’s, soft and engaging. He walked over and handed me a Coke which I gratefully took. I glanced up at him as he spoke again. “Ryuu, Kenta is in Jiro’s room. We had . . . some issues at one of the bars last night and he got hurt during the fight. They only just got back about thirty minutes before you guys showed up. I know it’s not an excuse for what he did, but it is a reason.” I nodded, not really trusting my voice at the moment. I took a drink of the Coke, the rush of familiar flavors calming me somewhat. I took a deep slow breath. “I should go apologize for hurting him.” Daisuike chuckled and patted my shoulder. “It’s alright. He’s a tough guy but, maybe not all that tough where you are concerned.” I looked up to see Daisuike watching me a thoughtful look on his face. He patted my shoulder once more and stepped back gesturing for me to follow him. Hesitantly, I followed Daisuike to Jiro’s room. He didn’t even bother knocking on the door, opening it for me. I almost hoped he was going to come in with me, but he shut the door behind me. Kenta was sitting on the bed his head bowed an arm around his ribs. I stood there for several minutes, not even sure what to say. I was appalled that I’d hurt him worse than he’d already been, but he’d also scared the shit out of me. I didn’t care what else happened, if we got things worked out or not, but he was going to a clinic if I had to drag him kicking and screaming. First things first. “Kenta I-“ “Don’t say it Ryuu.” Kenta’s voice was soft, the hurt clear in it. “I don’t deserve to have someone like you in my life. I just such a total fuck up. You need to forget that I am anything but a fucking bodyguard.” It was like having ice cold water dumped over me. I was suddenly numb and shaking. Walking over to him I knelt in front of him, looking up so I could see his eyes. “You’ve never been just a bodyguard to me, Kenta. I am sorry I hurt you.” He finally looked up at me and I was startled to see the raw hurt in his eyes. “What the fuck are you apologizing for? You didn’t do anything wrong. You were just being . . . you. No matter how much pain I was in, I should never have done that to you. Can you forgive me?” I shook my head watching his eyes change slightly, the pain seeming to deepen. He started to open his mouth and I leaned forward kissing him lightly. “I already did. But there is something you can do to make it up to me.” He raised his eyebrows at me. “What?” “Be my boyfriend.”

Kenta “You are in a weirdly good mood tonight.” Hayate raised an eyebrow at me as he took the tub full of dirty dishes out of my hands. “So.” “So, what’s going on?” I realized I was grinning and shook my head. “You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.” His eyebrows almost disappeared under his hair. “Really? That good huh? Must have had a good day off then.” I shrugged and untied my apron. “Yeah. I guess so. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Heading out to the alley I leaned against my bike were it was parked next to the building. Taking out my phone I looked at it. Three text messages. All from Ryuu. Why did I have the feeling that I’d started something that might be more than I could handle? I had to smile seeing them, a soft warmth filling me. Hope you are having a good night at work! I’m at Sora’s so I might still be up when you get off work. Don’t forget to call me! Hitting the speed dial I waited. On the third ring I heard someone pick up. “Hey, it’s me. Just letting you know I’m off work and headed home.” “Oh hey Kenta, its Sora. Ryuu fell asleep about thirty minutes ago.” I was surprised at how disappointed I was. Had I really wanted to talk to him that badly? “Oh, um . . . well let him know I called, will ya.” “Sure thing, and Kenta . . . thanks.” “Huh? Fer what?” “I haven’t seen Ryuu this happy in years.” “Oh. That. Yeah.” “Just . . . don’t hurt him Kenta. I will personally kill you if you do.” From the tone in Sora’s voice I knew the big guy was dead serious. Hurting Ryuu was the furthest thing from my mind. “I’m not that stupid.” A soft chuckle vibrated in my ear. “Be careful going home. I’ll tell him you called.” “Thanks.” I shoved the phone in my pocket and zipped up my jacket. Late summer was giving way to fall pretty quickly and the nights could be chilly. Especially driving a motorcycle. Slipping my helmet on I sighed thinking about what Sora had said. It was my job to protect Ryuu. It was something I’d taken very seriously from the first night I’d started as his personal bodyguard. I’d seen how crazy things could get at a concert. It was no wonder poor Hiro had almost quit after their first tour after Hasu had joined. I couldn’t imagine trying to watch all four of them at once. Heading home I took the route that drove along the sea. It was a beautiful night. It was just a bit on the cool side with no traffic other than delivery trucks and a few idiots racing. I pulled into my neighborhood, it was quiet and someone had busted out the street lights again leaving the run down buildings in darkness. I was going to have to find the fucker who was doing it. They’d regret it once I got hold of them. Parking my bike under the stairs of the apartment building I headed up to the room they actually fucking called an apartment. Ryuu’s closet was bigger. No joke. It didn’t even have a window; they’d taken it out to put in a door. Fucking slum lords. At least the bathroom was free at this hour. Standing under the barely warm water in the tiny bathroom it finally started to sink in. I was fucked. Once Nakamara found out I’d messed around with Ryuu he’d fire me. Leaning forward I rested my head on the tile. What the fuck was I going to do? It wasn’t like I could stop being around Ryuu. It was my fucking job to be around him. But I couldn’t just pretend it hadn’t happened either. Honestly, I would find any excuse I could to be around him. Even if this morning hadn’t happened, I would do anything to be there, to protect him, just watching him if I had to. “Fuck.” I slammed my fist into the wall and after a moment shut the water off. It was cold anyway and was reminding me too much of the shower earlier. God I missed the crazy weirdo. I got dressed quickly, shivering. I had to keep my mind off Ryuu or I wasn’t going to get any sleep and I had to be up again in five hours. You’d think working two jobs I’d be able to make ends meet. Guess it didn’t help that I tended to give my money away to the homeless kids I was always finding in the area. I’d managed to help a few get decent jobs and a couple of them were now working for Jiro. Not that I wanted this kind of life for them. Collapsing on my futon I covered my head with the pillow ordering myself to go to sleep. The sooner I fell asleep the sooner I got to see Ryuu. *** The phone woke me. It was Hayate. “We’ve got a problem.” He sounded like he was barely awake and I could hear his partner, Isao, griping in the background. “What’s going on?” “Fight at the bar.” “Fuck. What time is it?” “Four.” “Fucking hell. I’m gonna kill somebody.” Ryuu I stayed at Sora’s for breakfast, which was fun. He’d told me that Kenta had called around three to say he was going home. I nodded and finished eating the tamago Hasu had made. I didn’t usually like the egg concoction, but something about the way Hasu made it was better than anyone else’s. “He’s supposed to go with me today. I think.” I leaned my head over on my hand, thinking. Was that today? “Yeah, you and I have that radio show today.” “Oh! That’s right! I knew there was something going on today.” I grinned at Sora. “Thanks for letting me crash here last night.” “It’s fine. You haven’t stayed over in a while.” “Well someone needs to chaperon you around Hasu.” Sora reached across the table and smacked me on the forehead making me drop my bite of tamago. “Ouch! What the hell was that for?” “Don’t be a jerk.” I looked at him and realized my comment had been rather insensitive. He would never do anything to hurt Hasu, ever. “Sorry.” “Just cause you are getting some doesn’t mean you need to rub it in my face.” “I said I was sorry, besides . . .” I looked down at my plate shifting around in my chair. “Haven’t quite got that far yet.” “Then you really don’t have room to talk. Oh, thanks Hasu. You get enough to eat?” Sora looked up as Hasu came in with the last tray of food. Hasu nodded. “Yeah, for now.” “We need to get going Ryuu. Hasu we can drop you off at home on our way if you want.” “Actually . . . I’d like to go to Akira’s. I texted him earlier about it and he said it was fine.” “Yeah sure, that works.” After breakfast we headed across town to where Akira lived with his brothers. I spotted a familiar motorcycle as we pulled up. “Ah! Kenta is here!” I was surprised. He should have been at home asleep. Why was he at Jiro’s? I jumped out of the limo ignoring Sora telling me we didn’t have time. There was always time. Hasu was right behind me and I could hear Sora cussing me as he followed us. Grinning I opened the door to the apartment. It was full, granted there were only four people, but four people in their tiny apartment meant it was full. Kenta was perched on the arm of the couch while Hayate and Isao were sitting at the kitchen table. Jiro was standing by the window talking to them. “Hi guys!” I flicked my shoes off and went to tackle Kenta since his back was to me. It was my favorite thing to do ever since I’d met him. “Ryuu! Don’t!” Jiro’s exclamation was too late. I suddenly found myself on the floor in front of the couch, the breath knocked out of me. “Goddamn fucking hell you crazy son of a bitch!” Kenta yelled. “Calm down Kenta!” Jiro snapped as I tried to breathe. I was afraid to move, one leg still up on the cushion as I stared up at one very pissed off Kenta. What had I done? “What the fuck, Kenta!” Sora yelled as he shoved past him, reaching down to help me up. I’d finally caught my breath, but my chest was aching so fiercely it didn’t matter. Only Sora’s grip on my arm kept me from collapsing into a heap on the floor I was shaking so badly. I turned slightly into Sora trying to get a handle on the rush of emotions, feeling sick. For a moment there I had been terrified that Kenta was going to hit me. He’d never reacted like that before. Ever. “Why the fucking hell does he always pull shit like that!” Kenta’s voice tore through me. I covered my mouth with my hand, trying desperately to keep the sob in. It wasn’t going to work. Ripping away from Sora, I bolted out of the apartment, tripping down the stairs my eyes blurred with tears. What had I done? Why was he so mad at me? Stumbling out of the building I made it to the limo. Curling up in the backseat I let the sobs overtake me.

Ryuu I woke up to the sound of running water and the realization that it had to be Kenta sent my pulse racing. I hadn’t expected him to stay. Not really. I’d been a lot more buzzed last night than I’d realized and hoped he wasn’t upset with me. Only one way to find out, I grinned to myself as I slid out of the bed. He hadn’t totally pushed me away last night and he’d seemed less drunk than I was. Opening the door to the bathroom I shivered thinking about the feel of his lips and the way he’d tasted. I would have done anything to have kept him from leaving last night, and waking up knowing he was there gave me a secure content feeling I hadn’t had in a very long time. I wanted to show my appreciation and more importantly I wanted to get my hands on him again. The surprised look on his face was entirely worth it and I grinned at him. His hair looked even darker when it was wet and I would have given anything to have a picture of his face right then. The dark eyes were wide, generous lips parted in surprise as he stared at me. He blinked a couple of times as if not sure of what he was seeing. It was amusing to see him confused and unsure when he was usually so hard to read. “What the hell are you doing Ryuu?” He growled turning back around. It was nearly impossible to resist the urge to lean down and kiss his neck and shoulder. Whipcord muscle under pale smooth skin didn’t hide the sharp angles and lines of his shoulder and hips. Without his clothes he seemed smaller, less imposing but even more beautiful than I’d imagined. “Taking a shower.” He mumbled something I couldn’t hear as I reached for the soap and a bath sponge. I really wanted to run my fingers along the broad shoulders and down the muscular back. Stepping forward I ran the sponge down his spine watching the trail the soap bubbles made. “Ryuu.” There was a slight warning tone to his voice and I paused suddenly unsure. “What?” I tried to sound innocent and unconcerned. “Go out.” I sighed. I’d expected him to say that. “It’s my shower.” I could practically hear him roll his eyes. “You really are a fucking handful you know that.” I smirked and stepping closer slid my arms around his waist letting my fingers slip over the water slicked skin of his stomach. “Well, I know you probably are a handful too.” I gasped suddenly finding myself pinned to the side of the shower, Kenta’s hands tight around my wrists as he held them to either side of my head. I struggled to catch my breath, my heart feeling like it was going to explode out of my chest. Dark, unreadable eyes bored into me so intently I finally had to look away. Was he mad? Maybe I was being too forward. “Don’t be such a fucking tease, Ryuu.” I raised my head to look at him. All I could see was dripping wet strands of ebony hair. His voice was soft, his fingers tightening for just a moment. “Just don’t.” “Kenta . . .” When he wouldn’t look at me, finally letting me go, I reached forward taking his face in my hands. Forcing him to look at me I smiled. “I’m not teasing.” Leaning forward I kissed him, letting my fingers slide up into the dark locks. He went rigid for a moment and I thought he was going to shove me back. He wasn’t really responding to the kiss, just standing there, but it was more than I’d hoped for. He hadn’t really kissed me back last night either. I slowly pulled back after a moment and looked down into those gorgeous dark eyes. It bothered me to see the almost pained look in them. Was he bothered that much by my kissing him? True not everyone liked it when I kissed them. Akira tended to hit me. But for him to look hurt that I’d done it made me pause, I knew I could sometimes be too forward. “I’m not teasing you Kenta. I wasn’t last night and I’m not now either. I like you a lot more than you seem to think.” I let him go as he pulled back. Frustration and hurt welled up in me as he turned away. Reiko must be right. Now I’d probably alienated him. He obviously didn’t like me kissing or even touching him. Why did I have to be so stupid? Why couldn’t I be happy just being friends with him? “I . . . I’m sorry. I’ll let you finish your shower.” I started to get out and looked back, feeling those strong fingers grasp my wrist. “You really are a fucking tease you know that.” His voice was a low growl that sent a shiver down my spine. I was bewildered and a little nervous as he suddenly grabbed me around the waist, pulling me back into the shower. Was he going to hit me? I gasped as he shoved me against the wall of the shower, his lips suddenly attacking mine. I couldn’t form a coherent thought. Nothing was making sense. I’d thought he was upset with me, but the way he was kissing me was simply, utterly amazing. He was aggressive yet hesitant, almost as if he was unsure of what he was doing. It was making my whole body feel like it was on fire, the water suddenly seeming cold where it was hitting me. I couldn’t stop the moan building in my chest. It had been so long since anyone had kissed me, really kissed me with a fervor that I could feel all the way to my toes. Running my hands down the muscular stomach to his hips, I pulled him closer so that he was pressed against me, shuddering as soft skin caressed mine. There was a hot ache in my chest, completely separate from the other heat that was spreading. Did he really want me? Did I dare hope . . . “Kenta-“ I couldn’t keep the emotion out of my voice as he finally pulled back so we could both catch our breath. He gave me one of those heartbreaking beautiful smiles that seemed to melt my insides quicker than anything. I blinked, and let my head drop feeling tears already on my cheeks. “I thought-“ “Shh.” Warm slightly rough fingers wiped at the tears as he tilted my head back up. “Am I that bad a kisser?” I choked out a laugh. “No! No that’s not it all. I just . . . thought you were mad at me.” He shook his head the smile still there, “You are one silly idiot. I wasn’t ever mad. Just confused as hell.” “Oh . . . why?” He sighed and pulled me into a hug kissing my neck and shoulder. “You have no idea do you? Not a fucking clue.” “Umm . . . no.” I would do anything I could to stay like this as long as possible. To feel his arms wrapped around me, his pulse against my skin, that silken voice in my ear. He chuckled, the sound vibrating through me and I couldn’t stop the small whine as he started sucking on my neck. I was shaking, but I couldn’t help it, the rush of sensations overwhelming. “Fuck.” The expletive was softly breathed against my neck. “You drive me fucking crazy, Ryuu. Why do you have to be so goddamn fucking sexy?” “Umm . . . sorry?” I stumbled as he shoved me back. “This is all fucked up.” “No! Wait! Kenta, please. What’s wrong?” I looked at him desperate for an explanation. He couldn’t kiss me like that and say those things only to shove me away the next moment.

Kenta “No more questions please.” I moved the reporter back, not bothering to be gentle about it. They were supposed to have left him alone after the press conference but everyone wanted to know about Akira. “It’s alright Kenta.” Ryuu’s soft voice was suddenly in my ear. “I’ve got this.” I nodded slowly and stepped back slightly so he could get around me. I kept within arms reach glaring at any of the leeches that got to close. I recognized a few of the regulars, they did me too. I got a few glares back but most were too interested in what Ryuu was saying. “Akira is doing just fine and is resting after filming our new PV. His health has improved and we expect to be able to do another tour in a few months along with the release of the PV.” Ryuu ignored any questions that asked what exactly was wrong with Akira. The official stance was fatigue, but the rumors were flying like they always did. Ryuu handled it all very well and after answering a couple more questions stepped back, my signal that he was done. Waving off the reporters, I led Ryuu back down the hall to the side stairs. I always had at least three routes we could take. His phone was already going off, the sound echoing in the stairwell. “Hey Tatsuya! Yeah. You got it set up? Awesome! I’ll see you then.” Ryuu hummed as I heard the phone snap shut. If Tatsuya was coming over that probably meant I was going to be free for the evening, for some reason that thought didn’t sit too well. I’d actually been looking forward to spending my one night off with him. As if I wasn’t around him enough as it was. Maybe I’m just a glutton for punishment. “Oh, you have to stay for dinner tonight Kenta. Haru and Tatsuya are coming over.” “Huh?” I looked back at him, nearly missing a step. “Tatsuya and I have been planning it for a while now, but with everything it kind of got pushed back.” “Okay . . . well I don’t see why I can’t.” I opened the door for him glancing around to make sure no one was waiting outside. “Cool.” He grinned at me as he slipped by, his fingers running through my hair. “You should let me do your hair.” “Like hell.” “Oh come on, Haru let’s Tatsuya dress him up.” Okay . . . that was not something I needed to know about Haru and since when was Haru hanging out with Tatsuya? Seeing the hopeful, almost pleading looking on Ryuu’s face I sighed. “Fine you can do my hair but that is it! Don’t even ask to do anything else.” “Oh! Thank you Kenta! I’ve been dying to do your hair. I know just how I’m going to do it too.” I don’t know what disturbed me more, the fact that I’d agreed or that Ryuu already had a style in mind. “Well fuck.” Ryuu Tatsuya and Haru stayed for quite a while. Cleaning up the empty beer cans from the living room I smiled seeing Kenta sprawled on the couch. It was kind of unusual to see him so relaxed. He looked entirely too good at the moment and I wondered how he did it. I had to work hours to look that sexy and he did it without even trying. His eyes were half closed but I could tell he was watching me as I walked around the living room. It gave me a rush, my heart suddenly pounding harder, my skin tingling. “Did you have fun?” His voice was a bit slurred by too many beers. “Yeah, did you?” “Yeah, though it’s weird seeing Haru like that.” “He’s happy. How is that weird?” It had been entirely too cute to see Haru and Tatsuya together. It was kind of odd to think that the normally acerbic and sometimes violent Haru was so considerate and gentle with the petite escort. Though the relationship obviously was working for the two of them which made me happy. Tatsuya and I had planned tonight, hoping that Kenta would get the hint. Though it didn’t seem to be working. Maybe I would have to do something to help it along. “No, that’s not what I meant.” Kenta pushed himself up on the couch. “He’s fun at work. He’s always joking with someone, it was just . . . different. He treats Tatsuya like he’s made of glass or something.” I giggled, unable to help it. “No not really. He’s just tender and sweet and affectionate. Tatsuya eats it up.” Kenta laughed. “Haru? Sweet?” “Yes.” I walked over standing in front of him looking down at him. The man was impossibly good looking and it took all my self control not to pounce him right then and there. “Is that so hard to believe?” “Umm . . . yes.” “Really? You know there are a lot of people who would say the same of you. They only see the brusque, harsh bodyguard.” He blinked at me the smile fading just a bit. “I’m not harsh.” “I know you aren’t.” I knelt down, grabbing a beer can that had somehow ended up under the couch. Setting it on the coffee table I let my gaze travel up. His dark eyes met mine and I realized I was dying to know what he was thinking. The way he was looking at me was making my whole body run hot. I shifted forward so that I was between his knees, my eyes still locked on his. “Believe me, I know you aren’t really like that. You are kind, and considerate, compassionate, honest, forgiving, patient, and stunning.” Long lashes lowered almost hiding the dark eyes. He was smiling at me. “You are so full of shit, Ryuu.” I leaned forward, placing my hands on either side of his hips. “Am I? I don’t think so.”

I'd also like to change the kissing scenes in most bl dramas.... many actors cheat and only get a bit close to each other, without actually kissing and sometimes without even touching each other's lips.... :Red_fox5: I would make all the kissing scenes hot hot hot and I keep cutting the scene and make them do it again till they would show a real hot yummy kiss! :banhbao8:

OMG! I would so wanna direct a whole lot of Japanese BL drama flicks. The wooden acting. The cheating on the kissing scenes. The awkward intimate scenes. We will also have to work on the script especially the dialogs. And I will work closely with the mangaka. I would gather my boys in a workshop to work on those areas. Remind them that looking good does not save you from being a bad actor. If you're bad, you're just bad regardless how incredibly cute or hot you are. I will remind them that because you're in a BL film, doesn't mean you become or will become gay. If you're gay to begin with then that has nothing to do with the film. I think that's the problem with some of the actors, they're so nervous! ARGH! If you're a good actor, you're good regardless how so-so your looks may be. You become very attractive to the viewers.

hmm ... i've just seen some ... ^^" Takumi kun 3 .. maybe i like it the most .. it's cute Boys love 2 XD

Yeah, Takumi-kun, Boys Love and Itsuka no Kimi e are all great movies... Boys Love is a bit too sad, but still a great movie!

I have watched Itsuka no Kimi he... ) it's also cute ) I love it.... I also love Boys Love 2 and Takumi kun 2...^^

It's hard to decide, but I think my favorites are Takumi-kun, Boys Love and The Klown and The King, which is a light bl, but it's so cute and the chemistry between the 2 clowns is so strong

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