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Here is a preview of the game [video=youtube;oM76jE-KNK0] TITLE: Kichiku Megane DEVELOPER: SPRAY ARTIST: Fuhri Misasagi (みささぎ楓李) PUBLISHED: 2007 FILE TYPE: .ccd SIZE: Disc 1 - 475mb; Disc 2 - 580mb GENRE: Yaoi, Visual Novel, Full Voice LANGUAGE: Japanese Only Compatible for Windows STORYLINE: No matter what he does it always backfires-- the failure salaryman Saeki Katsuya. When the downsizing of his department was close at hand, a mysterious person appeared before him just when he was about to give up. "As soon as you put this on, your life will drastically change."--the mysterious person said as he handed the glasses to Katsuya. As he wore it, his life went through a 180 degrees change... When he was wearing them, he was capable and reliable as if he was a totally different person. With this, "I" am able to throw away the hopeless self in the past, and change "my" life! However, the fragmentary memory of "my" actions that were recalled -- is that really me? What was I doing?! That's right. Those glasses has the ability to transform the one who wears it into .... a true, brutal monster. The life of the main character changes as YOU decide to wear the glasses (the brutal SEME) or not (the timid UKE) NOTE: The game runs off of Disk 2. So always mount Disk 2 when wanting to play!!! NOTE 2: You will need DAEMON Tools to run this game Download it here: http://www.disc-tools.com/download/daemon NOTE 3: This is in Japanese and therefore you need to enable Japanese text For Windows XP: 1. Go into the Windows XP's Control Panel. 2. Open the [Regional and Language Options]. 3. Click on the [Advanced] tab. 4. Select [Japanese] from the pull-down menu at the [Language for non-Unicode Programs] section. 5. Japanese will display for all non-Unicode programs then (Windows restart required). For Windows Vista: 1. Open/ push Start, then go to Control Panel. 2. Open the [Regional and Language Options]. 3. Select the [Administrative] tab. 4. Push "Change Regional Settings" 5. Choose Japanese and Push Ok. For Windows 7: Step 1: Region and Language Options In the Control Panel click on the "Change keyboards or other input methods" option. Step 2: Changing Keyboards There are 4 tabs on the top of the "Region and Language" window. Click on the one labeled "Keyboards Languages". Then click the "Change keyboards" button. Step 3: Adding a Japanese Keyboard After clicking the "Change keyboard" button, click the "Add" button to add Japanese input capability to your Windows 7 system. Step 4: Adding Japanese Microsoft IME After clicking the "Add" button, scroll down to Japanese. In the Keyboard section section choose "Microsoft IME" and then click "OK". NOTE: "IME" stands for Input Method Editor. IME is what gives your computer the ability to type Japanese. Step 5: Running Japanese Programs on Vista and Windows 7 After completing step 4 you will still be in the "Regional and Language" window. From here click the 4th tab on the top labeled "Administrative". This tab is the MOST IMPORTANT tab if you would like 100% Japanese support in all programs installed and or wish to install Japanese programs on your computer. Click on the "Change system locale..." button. NOTE: Using this setting can sometimes be frustrating because many software companies look at this setting and try to install the Japanese language version. If you can't read Japanese this might hinder your productivity a bit. You can always change this setting back to English, the install the software again. After installing you can change this back to Japanese so your other programs that require Japanese locale still work. If anyone is having trouble installing the game I have created an installation guide here: http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/1109-Installation-Guide-for-Kichiku-Megane?p=14332&posted=1#post14332 Download Kichiku Megane Yaoi Game: Disc 01 Disc 02 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title:Koisuru Cupid Alternative Titles: 恋するCUPID; Koisuru Cupid; Koi suru Cupid Author: Akira Norikazu Status: Complete Year: 2008 Genre: Romance, Supernatural, Yaoi Summary: 1-3) Koisuru Cupid Tomoki's friend, Mishima Natsume, dies in a bike accident, but he can't rest in peace. He regrets not being able to confess his love to Yabuuchi Kengo, so instead of going to Heaven he returns as a ghost and uses Tomoki to confess his feelings. But what happens when Tomoki starts to feel something when he sees Kengo? 4) Muki Chouai (Affection for Life) Lawyer Shinohara used to work for Igarashi until one night when they went out drinking. Shinohara resigned, but Igarashi can't remember anything from that night. They meet six months later and Igarashi realizes his feelings for Shinohara, but can Shinohara forgive him for whatever he did that fateful night..?! 5-6) Kagami ha Iranai (I don't need a mirror!) Cousins Aruto and Michiru were raised like brothers and their faces look very similar. "It's impossible to fall in love with a person that looks just like you"...right? Read Koisuru Cupid Online Koisuru Cupid Download Koisuru Cupid Manga New Dowload Link More manga series by Akira Norikazu For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Ryuu Sora and I sat on the couch in the living room watching the news. Akira and Reiko had left to go look for Hasu while we had decided to stay at my apartment in case he showed up. Sora kept picking up his phone and looking at it. I didn’t say anything. What could I say? Hasu was important and special to all of us but especially to Sora. Sora sat up on the couch as he heard the front door open. Familiar blond streaked black hair appeared around the door. "Oh my god! Hasu! We've been so worried!" Sora was already on his feet and heading for the door when he stopped. I took one look at Hasu's face and knew things were horribly wrong. I'd never once seen Hasu look that terrified. "S-Sora . . ." Sora could have been a statue as the door opened wider. I clapped a hand over my mouth to stifle the sudden urge to scream. "Hello Miyaki, it's been a while." Naoki. Naoki was standing in the hall behind Hasu. Sora stumbled back as Naoki lashed out with what looked like a metal rod. It caught him on the side of the head sending him to the floor. I jumped up. My shout mingling with Hasu’s "Sora-" Hasu's yell ended in a yelp and anger surged through me as the younger boy was knocked to the floor. No one, especially not some fucking psycho like Naoki, touched Hasu. I started forward but Sora was already on his feet again. Blood was trickling down the side of his face, but his eyes were dark and murderous. "Stay where you are Sora, or your drummer will be lucky to be able to hold chopsticks." Naoki's foot pressed down on the back of Hasu's neck, holding him down. "Now, I'm going to let you up. Remember what I told you. You do what I say or I'll make good on that promise." I watched Hasu slowly get up as Naoki moved back. He moved like he was hurting, his normally cat-footed grace gone. He didn't look up as Naoki shoved him in the direction of the living room. What had Naoki done to him to make him too terrified to even fight back? There was no time to think about it. There was a crackle of electricity and a thud. I gasped seeing Sora on the ground Naoki with the baton raised over his head. “Sora!” I don’t know what possessed me, but the next thing I knew I had a hold of Naoki’s arm and was trying to keep him from hitting Sora again. “Let me go you dumb fuck.” He shook me off and I suddenly found myself grabbed and forced to the ground. “So this is the famous Ito Ryuunosuke.” A low ominous voice drawled above me. “Don’t hurt him! Please don’t hurt him!” Hasu was sobbing. “R-Ryuu I’m so-sorry . . . Kenta-“ “Shut up boy!” The man above me snapped. Hasu didn’t say anything else but I could still hear him crying softly. “You got the other one Naoki?” “Yeah he’s out.” My arms were yanked behind my back and I was hauled up. I felt like the floor had dropped out away from me and I was on a continuous free fall into hell. I had a glimpse of Sora sprawled on the floor and gasped in shock. There was so much blood. Why was there so much blood? “Sora! You fucker! What did you do to-“ I yelped as he backhanded me. This felt so familiar and tremors of fear ran through me. My brain was doing crazy tumbles and leaps trying to comprehend everything that was going on. It was all happening so fast, I felt dizzy and pathetically useless. “You forget already how to talk to me, Ryuu?” Naoki snarled. “You should be happy I didn’t hurt him worse.” He shoved me down into a chair one of them had pulled out from the dining room table. “Rame, you got that rope?” Rame? This giant of a man was Rame? He was easily Sora’s height, but didn’t have Sora’s lean graceful figure. He was too bulky. This was the man even Kenta feared. Oh god . . . Kenta. I glanced over at Hasu trying not to yelp as I was roughly tied to the chair. Hasu had started to say something about Kenta. Hasu was huddled in the arm chair that Sora usually sat in, his arms wrapped around his knees, his face almost invisible behind his hair. He looked so tiny. “Tie up the other ones too. We might get some money for them too.” Money? That’s what this was about? Of course it was. Naoki was one of the greediest people I’d ever met, he loved to possess things. The next couple of hours seemed to literally crawl. Naoki and Rame went through every room and I could hear them going through my things. Sora came to about the time they came back and started going through the kitchen looking for something to eat. I glanced down hearing the soft groan. Slightly glazed green eyes peered up at me through blood matted hair. I shook my head hoping he’d get the hint to stay down. I saw his eyes widen in understanding and he settled back down with a small hiss of pain. Hasu had long since passed out in the living room where they’d left him. The poor kid looked terrible and I had to keep myself from thinking about the things they might have done to him. I knew what Naoki was like. How cruel he could be and how much he liked to inflict pain. Just thinking of Hasu being at his mercy was enough to start silent tears running down my cheeks again. The only thing I was thankful for was that Akira and Reiko weren’t there. I jolted, Naoki’s voice catching me off guard. “What the fuck is taking so long? Why haven’t they called back?” “Be patient, they’ve gotta get the money together don’t they?” There was a grunt. “I don’t like being here.” “Don’t worry. No one is going to come up. That kid took care of that.” “Yeah and you said no one knew about the bar either but then he showed up and almost ruined everything.” “Are you questioning me?” Whatever Naoki had been going to answer was interrupted by the phone ringing. Rame’s grin said everything. “Took you long enough. You have it? . . . Good.” I listened to him give them instructions on what to do with the money. My poor mother was probably having a complete melt down. Didn’t they understand that my parents paid money to prevent this very kind of thing? Jiro and his gang were probably already in the area and getting ready to solve this. Naoki and Rame were dead. Quite literally. Jiro would show no mercy. I knew him well enough for that. I looked over at Naoki where he lounged in the kitchen eating my food. “You guys are dead. You realize that. My parents won’t pay you.” He snorted at me. “They already are. Rame’s talking to them now.” “He might be, but my bodyguard is Yakuza and they have sworn to protect me and my family.” He laughed. “Who do you think gave us the access codes to get in here? Rame knows Kenta, they go way back. He was in on this whole little caper the whole time. You really are stupid, you can’t even tell when someone is cheating on you.” Not even being beat by Naoki hurt as bad as that statement. Kenta had been cheating on me? Why? With who? I couldn’t believe him. Yet . . . it made sense. The way Kenta had been pulling away, spending less and less time with me. I let my head drop not even realizing I was crying until tear drops appeared on my lap. “Why would anyone want to stay with a dumb fuck like you, all the needy whining and clinginess. It’s enough to drive any sane person away.” A sob startled me, but then I couldn’t hold them back. It was exactly what Kenta had said to me that morning. I was too needy. “Fuck, this is exactly what I was talking about.” “Shut him up Naoki.” Rame snarled. Grabbing my hair Naoki jerked my head back. The look in his eyes sent a lance of fear through me. “I’ll take care of him, don’t worry.” Keeping a tight grip on my hair he reached around me and I felt the ropes loosen. Then he was pulling me to my feet. “Wait . . . what are you doing?” Hasu was on his feet, staring at me. Naoki didn’t reply and started to drag me toward the hallway. We both stumbled as something slammed into me. “Leave Ryuu alone!” Hasu was clinging to me, bodily trying to keep Naoki from taking me with him. “Get off you little shit! Rame, come get him.” Hasu started yelling and I felt the thud vibrate through us both as he was hit. “Let go Hasu, let go.” Something shattered and I heard Naoki grunt, the grip in my hair leaving. Hasu and I both collapsed to the floor. I grabbed him realizing he was unconscious. I looked up, shocked and relieved to see Sora up, a broken wine bottle in his hand. Naoki was slumped against the wall, blood, wine and glass shards all over him. Rame didn’t look a whole lot better as he got to his feet. “You are dead you-“ The door to the apartment slammed open, yakuza pouring in. I caught a glimpse of Jiro followed by Daisuike and several others, then things seemed to go gray, noises fading.

took me few days to work this one out but finished it in the end lol let me know what you think guys.... I can see the crimson horizon between the ocean and the sky The lights are fading, day is closing and stars are looking high. I lie back on the sand and place my hands above my head The world is changing before my eyes, everything is turning red. I start to dream about a world where war is good and truth is bad The roads are long and harsh, the worst experience I've had. I run to the edge of the earth waiting for it all to break I fall deeper into the dream, which path do I have to take. I breathe and keep believing that it will all be over soon I’m waiting to hear those waves being moved forward by the moon. I slowly open my eyes to see the shining silver rays I smile as you are next to me to see your love that pays.

there is 2 test for this , my brother told me about it , i found it interesting:hamtaro-005 (6): the first test i got:D the second test i got:D Have fun:hamtaro-005 (23):

(been working this for 2-3 days (though not the whole time in each day) ) CRESTFALLEN You stood against earth Count to no one but your own This was destined from birth A journey of self-crown Hindrance took the path Wicked roads arise Evils of earth wrath Stealing chances from your dice Steel armor of a knight Sword sharpened from blood Soul of valor haunting at night And a heart collided in flood You walk in unhesitant Into the wilderness of no end Blessed by the holy light You fought the human fate This battle were for seeds Born and planted into the field Great sun rays awaits Undying power must be faith Trust and loyalty empower the sword Great mind commanded your actions Blazing crimson hands were your words You'd unmasked those deceiving lions Battle of hundreds You won and failed Whatever has ended You still in thirst and drained Weak by your knight You spoke words in gray You drown yourself in wine Glory wasn't a pay The seeds of your hope Grew into trees, some bears fruit From the war you cope This is the trophy only suits Dawn is breaking Early morn awakening Your tired soul enlightened But you still was CRESTFALLEN! . .i dedicate this to my mom, this was about her (and i also wanted to share it to everyone ) . .i had a hard time writing this leaf4

8.)Allow disk 2 installation. And then after, click on the buttons I have highlighted (Japanese turned on ) 9.)The game should run now 10.)If this appears just click "OK" 11.) ENJOY!!!!

In this thread you can post your favorite lyrics, the lyrics of the song you are listening...any kind of lyrics I always found these lyrics touching and meaningful for me...They really mean something to me Adam Lambert-Sleepwalker I saw a picture of you Hanging in an empty hallway I heard a voice that I knew And I couldn't walk away It took me back to the end Of everything I tasted all I tasted all the tears again Outside the rain's fallin' down There's not a drop that hits me Scream at the sky but no sound Is leavin' my lips It's like I can't even feel After the way you touched me I'm not asleep but I'm not awake After the way you loved me I can't turn this around I keep running into walls that I can't break down I said I just wander around With my eyes wide shut because of you I'm a sleepwalker walker walker I'm a sleepwalker walker walker Let me out of this dream Everywhere that I go I see another memory And all the places we used to know They're always there to haunt me I walk around and I feel so lost and lonely You're everything that I want But you don't want me I can't turn this around I keep running into walls that I can't break down I said I just wander around With my eyes wide shut because of you I'm a sleepwalker walker walker I'm a sleepwalker walker walker Let me out of this dream, dream Let me out of this dream I can't turn this around I keep running into walls that I can't break down I said I just wander around With my eyes wide shut because of you I'm a sleepwalker walker walker I'm a sleepwalker walker walker I'm a sleepwalker walker walker I'm a sleepwalker walker walker Let me out of this dream

A quick sketch that evolved a bit. Might do a bigger better version later.

More kisses

Favorite part of Au Revoir by Malice Mizer: もっと あなたを抱きしめ眠りたい 優しい記憶に変わった今でさえも この腕で抱きしめ眠りたい 出会った頃の二人のように 窓辺にもたれてざわめく並木に そっとつぶやく同じ言葉をもう一度… あの時の姿が見えなくなっても せめて夢の中だけは Transl: Even more I want to sleep holding you Although things have even changed in pleasant memories I want to sleep holding you in my arms Like when the two of us met Leaning by the window in the rustling trees I softly mutter the same words again... Even if I’m able to see the figure from that time At best it's only in a dream My favorite part of Another world by GACKT: まちなみは　Mossgreen　傷ついた魂 くだけちる　Taxi　あなたは美しい 言葉をかわして “泣かないで Darling・・・” 愛しい痛みにやさしくだかれて ゆけるなら何処までも遠くへ やさしい顔として あなたは泣かないで 笑った顔を見せて “you don't need another words” たとえどんなに傷ついても 貴方がそばにいたから 誰よりも遠くへ 夢ならさめないで この空の向こうへ “私を抱きしめて・・・” Transl: The cityscape is moss green a battered soul Crumbling taxi you are beautiful Exchanging words don't cry darling... Softly embraced by dearly pain We'll go as far as we can Looking kindly please don't cry Show me your smile you don't need another words No matter how much pain i feel, because you were always there Farther than anyone, if it's a dream don't wake up Across the sky hold me tight... A Quiet Mind by Blue October: A slow strangle with your feet on the floor I've got 14 angels and we're sleeping alone In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go To feel normal I call baby up. Leave me alone. I'm in pain but I won't let you band-aid my wound I am mad at a stage where I can't seem to handle my own Can't even handle my- You give me a quiet mind and I... I love you You give me a quiet mind and I... I love you Until the end Until the end Give me strength to be kind... To combine All the good things in life that were so hard to find But I have and I won't let them go like I do with my friends My friends Still hearing voices... From front... From behind They're the reasons I choose... When to live... How to die When to cast... When to reel When to buy... When to steal When to fiend for the friends that taught you Being inappropriate will Give me a quiet mind and I... I love you You give me a quiet mind and I... I love you You give me a quiet mind and I... and I love you You give me, you give me a quiet mind and I... I love you Until the end Until the end...

evil angel by Breaking Benjamin Hold it together. Birds of a feather. Nothing but lies and crooked wings. I have the answer. Spreading the cancer. You are the faith inside me. No, Don't, leave me to die here. Help me survive here, alone. Don't Remember! Remember! Put me to sleep, Evil Angel. Open your wings, Evil Angel. (Ahhh) I'm a believer. Nothing could be worse. All these imaginary friends. Hiding betrayal. Driving the nail. Hoping to find a saviour. No, don't, leave me to die here. Help me survive here, alone. Don't Surrender! Surrender! Put me to sleep, Evil Angel. Open your wings, Evil Angel. (oohh) Fly over me, Evil Angel. Why can't I breathe, Evil Angel? Put me to sleep, Evil Angel. Open your wings, Evil Angel. (oohh) Fly over me, Evil Angel. Why can't I breathe, Evil Angel? goodbye birthday massacre lyrics First place on a classroom wall. Every turn of the face can help to break the fall from a domestic disgrace. Every rumor displaced is lost and found. A lack of discipline. One hand to cut the other. So unprofeissional, You're not a friend, You're just a lover. Nothing exceptional. This is correctional. Mirror on the wall. Frame the picture. Reflect this kiss to wish us all goodnight. First day in a victim's chair. Every surface replaced can help to keep you fair for a corrected gaze. Every feature displayed will match your crowd. A loss of innocence. One hand to wash the other. Be a perfectionist. You're nothing if You're just another. Something material. This isn't personal. Mirror on the wall. Frame the picture. Reflect this kiss to wish us all goodnight. We're all dancing to the same sad song. And we're not sleeping, but it won't take long. Illicit conviction. Confessions incomplete. Correction. Submissive restriction. Instructions will repeat. Direction. Mirror on the wall. Frame the picture. Reflect this kiss to wish us all goodnight unfamiliar birthday massacre lyrics Lately, Nothing passes lightly. A heavy hand is holding me down - A breeze is just an unfamiliar sound, to me. Just close the door, It's all coming back to me. Be still my heart, 'Cause it's all coming back. Just close the door, It's all coming back to me. Be still my heart, 'Cause it's all coming back. Lately, Nothing passes by me. And every hand is pulling me down - And praise is just an unfamiliar sound, to me. Just close the door, It's all coming back to me. Be still my heart, 'Cause it's all coming back. Just close the door, It's all coming back to me. Be still my heart, 'Cause it's all coming back. Ooo, Just close the door - It's all coming back. Ooo, Just close the door - 'Cause it's all coming back. All this meaning. This, direction feel like it, Pulls me away. It's hard to just forget, what they say - To me. Just close the door, It's all coming back to me. Be still my heart, 'Cause it's all coming back. Just close the door, It's all coming back. Be still my heart, 'Cause it's all coming back Music is my life :D:D

right now these are my favourites the last night by SKILLET You come to me with scars on your wrist You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this I just came to say goodbye I didn't want you to see me cry, I'm fine But I know it's a lie. [Chorus:] This is the last night you'll spend alone Look me in the eyes so I know you know I'm everywhere you want me to be. The last night you'll spend alone, I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go, I'm everything you need me to be. Your parents say everything is your fault But they don't know you like I know you they don't know you at all I'm so sick of when they say It's just a phase, you'll be o.k. you're fine But I know it's a lie. [Chorus] The last night away from me [bridge:] The night is so long when everything's wrong If you give me your hand I will help you hold on Tonight, Tonight. [Chorus] I won't let you say goodbye, I'll be your reason why. The last night away from me, Away from me What Have You Done by Within Temptation Would you mind if I hurt you? Understand that I need to Wish I had other choices Than to hurt the one I love What have you done now? I know I'd better stop trying You know that there's no denying I won't show mercy on you now I know I should stop believing I know that there's no retrieving It's over now What have you done? What have you done now? I, I've been waiting for someone like you But now you are slipping away... oh What have you done now? Why? Why does Fate make us suffer? There's a curse between us Between me and you What have you done (x4) What have you done now What have you done (x4) What have you done now Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to cause you have Turned into my worst enemy You carry hate that I don't feel It's over now What have you done? What have you done now? I, I've been waiting for someone like you But now you are slipping away... oh What have you done now? Why? Why does Fate make us suffer? There's a curse between us Between me and you What have you done (x4) What have you done now What have you done (x4) What have you done now I will not fall Won't let it go We will be free When it ends I, I've been waiting for someone like you But now you are slipping away... oh What have you done now? Why? Why does Fate make us suffer? There's a curse between us Between me and you (x2)

I love this one: Kaze to Oka no Ballad by Real Paradis ft. Nodame Orchestra Kanji Romaji Translation

I love this song so much because I can relate to it so well John Rzeznik (Singer from Goo Goo Dolls) "I'm Still Here" I am a question to the world, Not an answer to be heard. All a moment that's held in your arms. And what do you think you'd ever say? I won't listen anyway… You don't know me, And I’ll never be what you want me to be. And what do you think you'd understand? I'm a boy, no, I'm a man.. You can take me and throw me away. And how can you learn what's never shown? Yeah, you stand here on your own. They don't know me 'cause I'm not here. And I want a moment to be real, Wanna touch things I don't feel, Wanna hold on and feel I belong. And how can the world want me to change, They’re the ones that stay the same. The don’t know me, 'Cause I’m not here. And you see the things they never see All you wanted, I could be Now you know me, and I'm not afraid And I wanna tell you who I am Can you help me be a man? They can't break me As long as I know who I am And I want a moment to be real, Wanna touch things I don't feel, Wanna hold on and feel I belong. And how can the world want me to change, They’re the ones that stay the same. They can’t see me, But I’m still here. They can’t tell me who to be, ‘Cause I’m not what they see. And the world is still sleepin’, While I keep on dreamin’ for me. And their words are just whispers And lies that I’ll never believe. And I want a moment to be real, Wanna touch things I don't feel, Wanna hold on and feel I belong. And how can they say I never change They’re the ones that stay the same. I’m the one now, ‘Cause I’m still here. I’m the one, ‘Cause I’m still here. I’m still here. I’m still here. I’m still here.

This is my favorite song.. it's Korea song... translate it to English..^^ Hey, stay, love is all over, try to back it out Still can't believe that you're gone and this is MBLAQ I didn't think it'd turn out be like this, you left me Thought I believed that it's a eternal thing (No, no, no) thought I believe that I risked everything, I threw everything away for you idiotically, I'm not able to push you aside (no) how can you give me soreness? Oh baby stay with me, stay by my side You were all I had-a-a, a-a-a, a-a-a Stay in my heart Oh baby stay together, I'm just I'm just looking at you in this way-i-i, i-i-i, i-i-i Stay in my heart Sometimes you told me we should break up I thought you were just saying it this time again one or two days (Time goes by) I wait everyday for you to come back What are you talking about all of a sudden Whatever the reason is, I'll never end it Stay with, my heart that can't sen you out Is down on it's knees (Try to tell me) Why do you leave me I lost everything, how should I erase you? like an idiot, I can't forget you (no) how can you give me wounds? Oh baby stay with me, stay by my side you were all I had-a-a, a-a-a, a-a-a stay in my heart Oh baby stay together, I'm just I'm just looking at you in this way-i-i, i-i-i, i-i-i stay in my heart I'm still staying now as you know I still remember It's unforgettable, I can't erase you, not even for an instan I... A blind person who was blind by the love that has gone now I'm just guest that comes and leaves to you I'm confined the maze of the unkind you I went crazy in you changeable love The gap between us is so wide Sometimes I remember such a thing and cry Lips that whispered love, eyes that looked at time Were all nothing? I can't believe it Oh baby stay with me, stay by my side You were all I had-a-a, a-a-a, a-a-a Stay in my heart Oh baby stay together, I'm just I'm just looking at you this way-i-i, i-i-i, i-i-i Stay in my heart.

ive just found this song and its really nice and a fav of mine atm, the spill canvas-lullaby It's the way that you blush when you're nervous. It's your ability to make me earn this. I know that you're tired, just let me sing you to sleep. It's about how you laugh out of pity, 'Cause lets be honest I'm not really that funny. I know that you're shy, just let me sing you to sleep. If you need anything, just the say the word. I mean anything. Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in, Plant my lips where your necklaces close. It's those pills that you don't need to take, medicating perfection, now that's a mistake. I know that you're spent, just let me sing you to sleep. It's your finger and how I'm wrapped around it. It's your grace and how it keeps me grounded. I know that you're weak, just let me sing you to sleep. If you need anything, just the say the word. I mean anything. Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in, Plant my lips where your necklaces close. While you were sleeping I figured out everything, I was constructed for you, and you were molded for me. Now I feel your name, coursing through my veins. You shine so bright it's insane, you put the sun to shame. (Oh) If you need anything, just the say the word. I mean anything. (I really do) Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in, Plant my lips where your necklaces... If you need anything, just the say the word. I mean anything. Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in, Plant my lips where your necklaces close.

What was it that I did To make you change your mind? What is it that I do not have That you can’t seem to find? We’ve been together for so long I gave you all my trust Did you really mean your love Or was it all just lust? I have not done a single thing To make you feel my pain But now you claim you are done There’s nothing more to gain I gave you everything I had And still it’s not enough But now it seems you want nothing more And you think your so tough I do not know what I should do But I will ignore the past. If I can make him feel my pain I’ll make sure it will last.

Take a deep look in my eyes And tell me what you see You will never see the world The way that it sees me Take a deep look at my face And tell me who I am It changes every passing second It’s never the same again Take a deep look at my body And tell me what you feel An empty shell that hides itself From everything that’s real. Take a deep look in my life And please find something right Take a way the tears I cry When I’m alone at night Take a deep look in my soul And tell me that it’s real That it’s not only pain and hurt That I am forced to feel. Take a deep look at the one Who stands before your eyes And tell me if it’s really me Or just one more disguise

so I decided to draw my version of Ryuu and Kenta ^^ hope you like it. I'll post the finished version tomorrow. Hopefully.

Shadows dance along the wall Drawing in my eyes Images that pull me in And drown my silent cries Voices echo all round And speak in to my ear But if I turn to answer Not a single soul is near. Dreams all start to come alive No matter what I say But even though I’m not asleep I see them any way. Images I can’t explain Will dance within my mind But as I take a closer look I end up left behind. Another nightmare comes to claim A dream that I hold dear But never waking up again Has been my greatest fear.

Look beyond the meadows Beyond the hills and trees. Gaze over the mountains And all the shining seas. Walk into the sunset To a place that’s filled with dreams. Where everything’s a surprise. And nothing’s at all as it seems. It is called the land of the Mystics. Where mystical creatures are found. Some dragons live up in the sky, While other’s inhabit the ground. The valley is covered in flowers, The forest’s as green as can be. All creatures have made it their home. But hide so they cannot be seen. Each one has their own kind of power. The limit of strength, there is none. Their magic combined is incredible. It dims the light of the sun. Of all the creatures that live there, Only one has power above all. The mighty magnificent unicorn. With its horn he stands proud and tall. The unicorn’s presences is noticed From the minute he appears on the hill. If you look at the stars on a warm clear night. You’ll see that’s he’s standing there still.

A very realistic reflection on the world happenings, in general. Short and simple, full of insight and truth. Yours word deliver a melancholic bittersweetness that goes very well with the idea being transmitted. My favorite part is: It gives a sense of closure. And yet again it does not. Hinting of the end and the rebirth of a cycle. Beautiful. (:

Ok i got it. So here are some of my collection: 1) Is it only Me 2) J'ai tue ma mere 3) Latter days 4) Just une question d'amour 5) No night is too long 6) were the world mine 7) whirlwind 8) strapped 9) testosterone 10) holding trevor 11) trick 12) Prayers for bobby (Highly recommend to homophobes) it is based on real life story. My personal taste: i prefer Latter days, no night is too long, were the world mine, trick, prayers for bobby, just une question d'amour

i've just seen 3 non-Asian BL movies ... Starcrossed - short film ( 15 mins) it's about brother-brother love ....two brothers realize that the feelings they have for each other are not just those of brothers. They are happy together until their mother discovers their relationship ...... i quite like this film .. even though the ending is a bit negative the second film is From Beginning To End (Do Começo ao Fim) ... ... *brother-brother relationship again, lol * to this film, i only like the part when two main characters were little ... it's cuter than when they grow up the third is Queer as Folk ))) ... haven't finished watching yet but this film is the hottest BL film that i've ever seen )))) ... the dialogue is quite naughty but maybe it's not my mother tounge ... so i don't feel it as naughty as its real meaning

I love western BL just as much as I love oriental BL. I've seen lots and lots of eastern BL movies but I've only watched a drama or two, so far. Concerning about the western ones, I've seen as many movies as Asian ones, but I've watched a larger number of dramas. Take into consideration that some are focused purely on homosexuality, while others are about various pairings - both hetero and homosexual, and others are only faintly gay themed. I'll leave a list of the movies and another of the western dramas I enjoyed the most and totally recommend. (: Dramas: -Six Feet Under -Torchwood -Oz -Verbotene Liebe -El Cor De La Ciutat -One Life To Live -As The World Turns -Queer As Folk -Brothers & Sisters -- Movies: -Brokeback Mountain -Mysterious Skin -Eyes Wide Open -No Night Is Too Long -Total Eclipse -J'ai Tué Ma Mère -Sun Kissed -Gipsy 83

H: HIM

I have a brother 2 years my junior. But a lot of people keep mistaking me for an only child or the younger sibling. it's not like i ever hid that fact but people keep assuming that's the case. LOL

The fave part of the song I'm listening too now; あきれるほど君を想うよ それだけで僕は?たされる 泣かないで、いつだって?えるよ 瞳を閉じれば… It is the final verse in オレンジの太陽

Title: D.Nd : Poisoned ('Death Note' doujin game) Made by: Akane Story: Wammy's House is an orphanage ubicated at south of England. Brilliant orphans from around the world are gathered and trained to fulfill a purpose: Become copies of L, the greatest detective of the world.Living in a battlefield called everyday and trapped by his obsessive mind and his great intelligence, 14 years old boy whose allias is Mello struggles day after day to become number 1, always being surpassed by a boy who uses the name of Near.Mello's sick obsession to surpass his rival and become the best candidate to succeed L, aggravated by his troubled and addictive personality, have made Near become the center of his world. Though he sees this feeling as pure hatred and anger, the pale boy might mean more for Mello than he'd want to admit.When Roger decides to assign them both a project they must work in together, they might be able to discover the greatest mystery of their lives: Each other.However the chemical reaction as result of their relationship might not be the desired result Roger was looking for... Minimum System Requirements: MicrosoftR WindowsR 98/98SE/Me/XP/2000 PC with 800MHz IntelR PentiumR III equivalent or higher processor At least 128 MB of system RAM 1024x768 or better video resolution in High Color mode DirectSound-compatible sound card Download: Mediafire For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Seven Days Manga ALT. names: セブンデイズ FRIDAY - SUNDAY, Seven Days - Friday to Sunday, Seven Days - Monday to Thursday Original run: 2007 Description: Bright and early one Monday morning, Shino Yuzuru asks Seryou Touji out on a lark when they run into each other at the school gate. Seryou, who's immensely popular, has the odd habit of going out with anyone who asks him out first at the beginning of the week, then promptly dumping them at the end of it. "Anyone" apparently includes male upperclassmen like Shino, and as a boyfriend, Seryou is perfect--unfailingly thoughtful and kind. Shino, obviously, has no intention of being in a serious relationship with Seryou. It's not like it's actually love or anything like that. ...Right? (source: Vices and Devices) Written by: TACHIBANA Venio Group(s) Scanlating: Aarinfantasy, Vices and Devices, omgbl, Vampirecat Genres: Drama, School Life, Shounen Ai Download Seven Days Manga: (links thanks to sayuk) @click (Completed) or @click (Volume 01) @click (Volume 02) For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Kenta and Ryuu's first perverted scene, yay! And... YES! Kenta's hair lenght is just right like this *.* I like the way Ryuu's hair falls down his back smoothly and also the position you folded his legs and feet into. (:

me too...I also have been rescued from this bad disease....... Hope I won't never meet it again...Bye Bye forever, "cold and flu"... true. I have logged out Y!M... next is going to bed

Just got rid of one...hope I won't get another =false Next one is using yahoo messenger to keep in touch with friends

Amanda has a new attractive profile picture

my first test result second test result thanks for the game but my result are a bit weird :msn_red_fox 14

My result to the first quiz: My results to the 2nd one: Hmm... the both results sound sinister . But maybe still the first one sounded better....:cuteonion45:

. .i got also the same answer from the first quiz http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/11090263/7047186/ . .and same with the second one, LOL XD http://quizilla.teennick.com/quizzes/result/9412629/6780511/ . .there's alot of related quest, anyway

Welcome to the forum! I'm very pleased to meet you! I hope you will have a great time around! :hamtaro-005 (8):

Welcome to the forum Choukoish!!!! I'm sure you will really enjoy yourself here!

. .warm welcome hugz choukoish foxy3 . .don't worry, everyone is friendly, just be yourself here and be comfy

It doesn't really have a title yet because I just wrote it not too long ago. Let me know what you think EDIT: misakixusagi gave me a title idea ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "First Chance" He looked at me closely With his dirty little grin Creeping closer and closer To finding his way in He grabbed me roughly And threw me on the bed I was screaming for help Because I'd rather be dead He covered my mouth As he ripped off my pants He smiled at me sweetly And said give him a chance I tried to relax While he played his game But then a sudden thrust Put me into pain I let out a scream While he pulled on my hair This pain was too much For my body to bare But soon after that My screams became moans And pleasure took over From deep in my bones Gasping for breath And yelling for more I was about to explode But someone opened the door...

Kenta I parked my bike in an alley not too far from the bar where I’d been told Rame and this other guy Naoki were seen pretty often. My heart was beating too fast and I really wished it would fucking calm down. I could handle this. I wasn’t a scrawny, terrified fifteen year old anymore. Out of habit, I checked my knives. One in my belt sheath, one in my wrist sheath and one in my boot. Should be fine. Trying not to think too fucking much I headed inside the bar. It was dead. Not a single person sat at the bar or any of the tables and the stale, musty air felt like it was choking me. Had I been lied to? “We aren’t open yet, happy hour doesn’t start for another thirty minutes.” A gruff voice from the direction of the bar informed me. “I’m waiting for some people. Supposed to be here.” “Oh . . . you with the guys in the back? Go on in then. He said he was waiting for his buddy.” I almost said it wasn’t me but suddenly thought better of it. “What room?” “Last one on the left down the hall past the bathrooms.” “Right.” The hall was cluttered with empty liquor crates and other shit. A couple of stacks threatened to fall on me as I walked past them. I jerked to a stop hearing a muffled yelp. What was going on? My knife was already in my hand as I edged forward. As I got closer to the end of the hall I could hear voices. “Tell me the address.” “No!” There was a smack and a yelp. “Tell me or the next hit I’ll aim lower. You are really just making this harder on yourself you know.” My heart suddenly seemed to be trying to leap out of my throat. Someone was being interrogated. “Not going to talk? Fine. Maybe we’ll try something new.” “Stop! Stop! What are you-“ The sentence was broken by a scream of pain. I clutched my knife and rushed the door. I knew that voice! The scene made me want to puke and I’ve killed people. But to see a friend like this . . . he was hanging from the ceiling by chains that had already bloodied up his arms. Blood was running down his chest and stomach from dozens of cuts and there were already bruises forming in places. “Hasu . . .” “K-Kenta!” Hasu gasped through bleeding lips. “Kenta . . . help.” Things faded until all that mattered was the man holding the cattle prod. I didn’t recognize him, but that didn’t matter. I’d figure it out after he was dead. My blade hit metal as he blocked me. I followed up with my other fist and landed a solid punch to his jaw. He staggered back trying to keep his feet. I didn’t give him a chance to recover. Batting the prod away, I landed several more punches, the last one finally knocking him off his feet. I kicked him in the ribs grinning at the loud groan of pain. I grabbed out my larger knife and was going to finish him off when Hasu called for me. “Kenta, please . . . the other one will be back soon. Please get me down.” It took me a few minutes to figure out how to undo the chains. I kept one eye on the fucker on the floor. He was holding his ribs and breathing hard. “Stay down unless you wanna die right now fucker.” I growled at him. I nearly dropped Hasu as his weight sagged against me. He was slick with blood and sweat and difficult to hold on to. “I gotcha, Hasu. Lets go.” “You aren’t going anywhere, Arakaki.” I froze. Hasu whimpered softly and I let him go so I could turn to face the new voice. If anything he looked even more intimidating than the last time I’d seen him. “Rame.” “You’ve filled out nice, Arakaki.” He sneered at me, flicking ash off the end of his cigar. “Shut the fuck up you damn fucking son of a fucking bitch.” “Ah, that pretty mouth is still the same too I see.” I shoved Hasu behind me, my knife ready as he took a step toward us. He glanced down at the other guy and shook his head. “You let this little bitch get the drop on you Naoki?” “He just charged in here, what was I supposed to do?” So that was Naoki, shoulda stabbed him when I had the chance. Fuck. I could feel Hasu shaking as he clung to me. I had to get him out of here and fast. “Get out of my fucking way or this time I really will kill you Rame.” Rame cocked his head, grinning at me. “Really? We never did get to finish what we started did we? You really think you can take me now, Kenta? Maybe I’ll take you instead? Just like I was going to last time.” My mouth was suddenly dry, my throat tight as I tried to breath normally. “Yeah, that didn’t work out so well then did it?” The smile faded replaced with a grim hostile look. “You aren’t leaving this room. Either of you. I’d been hoping to find you after I helped Naoki with his little problem, but it seems you were more involved than I thought. Get this Naoki, Kenta here is fucking that piece of shit singer.” I almost threw my knife at him, but I’m not as good a mark as Daisuke and I didn’t want to lose a weapon. “I’m gonna gut you and let you watch me pull out all your insides Rame.” He laughed. The next thing I knew he was coming at me. He was a lot faster than I remembered, but he also wasn’t a fat sixteen year old either. The fat was gone, only muscle remained. He punched clean through my block. Hasu yelped as I fell into him. I was seeing stars and shook my head to clear them. Maybe trying to fight him was a bad idea, but there wasn’t any other way to get Hasu out of here. There was an odd crackling sound and a sudden searing pain flared in my side. I blinked. Fucking hell! Why was I on the ground? “Kenta!” Hasu was trying to help me up only to get kicked away as Rame came to stand over me. I was still trying to figure out what had happened. My side felt like it was on fire and moving was fucking difficult. I flinched as that crackling noise started again. Rame chuckled. I nearly bit through my tongue as agony surged through me. It was like someone had set me on fire. When it finally stopped, I gagged. I couldn’t even fight back as I was lifted and shoved against a wall. I had to blink several times before Rame’s sneering face became clear. “I like that look on you.” I grabbed for his arms as his hands wrapped around my throat. His grin seemed to get larger as he leaned down, his voice soft. My heart was pounding so fucking fast it was going to make me sick. “I’m going to enjoy this.” “Stop.” I barely managed to get it out. “What do you want?” He laughed, the pressure on my throat letting up slightly. “What do I want? I want what I’ve always wanted. But that’s not something you need to know about.” “Come on Rame! We don’t have time to play around. We need the key codes.” “Well . . . we’ve got two people right here who know them, don’t we.” Rame’s shit brown eyes turned back to me. “You wanna be a good little bitch and tell us the code to get into the apartment.” “Go get fucked, Obuchi.” “Didn’t really expect anything from you honestly, now your pretty little friend over there-“ There was a crash and I shoved against Rame as Hasu yelped. “Let me go! I’m not telling you!” There was that dammed crackling sound and Hasu started screaming. “Stop! Stop it!” I kicked at Rame. “Leave him alone, he’s just a kid!” “Hold up Naoki.” Rame’s smirk sent a rush of fury through me. I was going to kill him and take a nice long time doing it too. “Are you going to tell me what I want to know?” I took several shallow breaths trying to force down the horrible helpless feeling that was clawing its way through me. “What . . . what do you want with Ryuu?” Rame chuckled and slammed my head back into the wall. “What do you think you fucking idiot? His parents are insanely wealthy. He’s an only child and I’m sure they would pay anything to keep him safe. Or to get him back.” I couldn’t breathe. Rame was laughing, Naoki joining in with him. That’s what they wanted. To kidnap Ryuu? No. I couldn’t let this happen. I might be a failure at a lot of things, but I wasn’t going to let them hurt Ryuu. I had to do something and now. Rame had loosened his grip slightly and while he was talking to Naoki, I reached into my pocket and pulled out my knife. The click of it opening caught his attention. He wasn’t fast enough to avoid getting cut. I grinned seeing the gash in his arm. “You goddamn mother fucker!” He yelled, but avoided getting to close. He knew what I’d done to him last time. I wasn’t going to stop this time. They’d hurt Hasu and were planning on hurting Ryuu. No fucking way I was letting that happen. “Oh come on, Obuchi, you didn’t think I would come unprepared did you?” “Unprepared? Kind of a big word for you isn’t it?” I glared. “Shut the fuck up. Let Hasu go. Now.” Naoki let go of Hasu who scrambled to his feet. “Hasu get out of here!” “I’m not leaving.” “Fucking hell, get out of here!” Hasu looked startled, I’d never yelled at him like that but he had to understand, these guys would kill him. I yelped as my arm was grabbed and twisted. I knew better than to let myself get distracted around Rame. Too late now. The knife thudded to the floor and I followed it about two seconds later. Rame wasn’t taking chances this time. Blocking him was useless. The last thing I remember seeing was Hasu being dragged out of the room screaming for me. “Kenta! Kenta!”

Kenta I opened my eyes, blinking slowly. Something didn’t look right. It was too dark, light streaming in from one small window set up high in the wall. “Get up Arakaki.” I immediately sat up. Rame? Why was Rame here? Fuck. I ran a hand over my eyes and looked around. Rame was sitting up on his futon glaring at me. This was . . . why was I here? “Rame? What-“ “Shut the fuck up bitch.” I nodded and shifting around sat on my knees facing him. Something must have happened for him to be in this bad of a mood. “Go get me my smokes.” “Hai.” Getting to my feet I went to the shelf where we were allowed to keep a few small personal items. I had none. The shelf was mostly Rame’s books and porn magazines. The cigarettes were hidden behind one of the books. I moved the book and had just reached for the half empty pack when I felt a large hand on my neck and I was suddenly shoved against the shelf. Oh fuck! Rame’s breath was hot on my cheek as he leaned down. “I heard you were doing favors for Takemago.” He pressed me harder against the shelf, the edge cutting into my stomach as he leaned against me. “You are mine. I catch you doing any favors for anyone else and I’ll let Arita and his gang have that tight little ass of yours.” “I wasn’t! I-I didn’t! I fucking swear Rame!” The weight lifted and I could breathe a little easier, until the fingers tightened around my throat. Next thing I knew I was on my back on the floor. Rame glared down at me, the dark eyes narrowed dangerously. “You think you can get away with lying to me.” I shook my head scrambling back as he walked toward me. “Come here.” I swallowed hard and fought down the sick feeling as I edged toward him. You didn’t fuck around when Rame gave an order. He ruled the whole cell block. No one wanted to mess with him. It was common knowledge that he’d murdered several people, compared to him what I’d done looked like a misdemeanor. Getting put in the same cell as him was both blessing and a curse. A blessing because for some reason he seemed to tolerate me which meant most everyone else left me alone and a curse because it meant I had to humor his every whim unless I wanted to end up like the kid before me. “On your knees.” I closed my eyes for a moment before complying. It wasn’t often he made me do this and apparently I was the only one he made do it. I’d heard some of the other guys talking and it seemed Rame considered me his personal property. Was the only reason I hadn’t been used like a lot of the other new guys. Sure enough, the giant dick appeared out of his pants and he gave me an expectant look. I stifled the sigh and let my mind go blank until it was over. At least he only seemed interested in blow jobs and nothing else. Except this time he shoved me off before he’d finished. I looked up at him confused and a little scared. Had I done something wrong? I wasn’t sure how to read the look on his face. It seemed to be a mixture of disgust and arousal. I yelped as he grabbed me by the hair. He leaned down until our faces were only inches apart. “Toshiaki is right. You are too fucking pretty for a guy.” I blinked a few times, confused. Toshiaki was Rame’s second in command and between the two of them they basically ran the cell block. I didn’t quite understand where this was going, but got the hint very quickly as I was forced down on the futon. “R-Rame what are you doing?” I tried to push myself back up, turning to look at him over my shoulder. There was a cold prickling sensation running through me. “Just shut up.” He shoved me back down and I felt a hand on the waistband of my pants. Holy shit, no fucking way! He’d never gone this far before. No fucking way I was letting this happen. I didn’t give a fuck how big he was. Twisting out of his grip I whipped around aiming a kick at his chin. It knocked him back. “You ain’t fucking touching me.” I was on my feet now, shifting to get into a stance that would allow me to move quickly if I needed to. He got back to his feet growling at me. “I’m going to fucking rip you apart Arakaki. No one refuses me.” “I just fucking did asshole. If you fucking expect me to just spread my legs like some bitch you better fucking think again. Ain’t no one doin that to me. I’ll fucking rip your dick off.” He chuckled as he got up, wiping the blood from his chin. “You ain’t got a chance in hell against me Arakaki. You coulda made this easy on yourself. You give the best blowjobs of anyone here, so why wouldn’t I want to get a bit more.” I edged back as he moved toward me. “Don’t fuck with me, Rame.” “I’m going to do a lot more than fuck with you Kenta.” I dodged out of the way as he lunged for me. There wasn’t much room to maneuver in the small space and I knew if he got a hold of me again it would be over. I needed to end this as quickly and permanently as possible. I didn’t get a chance. My back was to the door and I turned as it opened, startled. A massive hand closed around my neck even as I realized it was Toshiaki in the doorway. Desperate I pried at Rame’s fingers, but they just squeezed tighter. “Starting without me Rame?” “He decided he’s too good for me.” I could barely see for the spots floating in my vision. I lashed out with everything I had feeling another set of hands on me. I was going to fucking kill them. “Just hold still Arakaki. You fight too hard and it’s going to be a lot worse for you.” Somewhere in my head I was trying to figure a way out of this. If I was honest with myself things didn’t look good. I shuddered at the sudden cold feeling as my pants were stripped off. Hot fingers grasped my hips and Rame let go of my neck long enough to shove me to my hands and knees. Looking down I realized I was on my futon. My shank was almost within reach. Rame didn’t know I had one. No one knew I had one. If only I could reach it without them realizing what I was doing. I gasped, the air rasping in my sore throat, as I felt wet fingers slide along my crack, probing before pushing against me. “Get the fuck off me.” I tried to move my hips, anything to get those fingers away. I was shaking, a sick weak feeling suddenly hitting me. I managed to inch forward, my blade was still just out of reach. “Stop fighting.” Rame grabbed me by the hair and shoved my face down into the blankets. Someone’s arm was around my waist keeping my ass in the air. I yelled into the blankets as a finger was roughly shoved into me, the burning pain searing through me. I thrashed not caring what I had to do, but I was not going to let this continue. “Fuck, that’s tight. Barely got my finger in.” I gasped as the finger curled raking my insides. Fuck. Oh fuck that hurt like a fucking bitch. The finger was suddenly yanked out and Rame let go of my hair. I couldn’t move, I was in too much shock. “Let me see.” Oh fuck no. I clutched at the blankets trying to move away as one of his huge fingers found me. He pressed the tip against me, my muscles clenched on their own refusing to allow him in. “Fuck I can’t even get the tip of my finger in.” “Gonna have to prep him good or he’ll bleed everywhere.” The arm around my waist tightening and I heard Rame snort. “Let him bleed. Serve the fucker right. Hold him still.” I felt Rame get up, the arm around my waist suddenly gone. Now was my chance, except Toshiaki had grabbed my balls and had them in a tight grip. “Yeah you ain’t going nowhere.” He yanked making me yelp. My blade was just beyond my fingertips. I had to get to it before Rame got back. Too late. “You got him?” “Yeah.” I was pulled up and shoved onto my back. They both smirked down at me, but it was my turn to smirk at them. I had my knife . . . I blinked slowly, a dull insistent ache had settled behind my eyes. What had happened? Light was streaming down around me and I could hear laughter in the other room. I went to turn over and realized I couldn’t. Ryuu was laying curled up against my back. I let out a slow breath, some of the tension leaving me. If I closed my eyes I could still see Rame. An unwelcome shudder ran through me and I sat up. The clock had to be fucking lying. I needed to get going. There was too much to do and way too little fucking time to do it in. “Shit it’s late.”

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Kenta He just laid there for a while not moving, not saying anything. I was getting fucking irritated and was about ready to smack him when he finally sighed and turned to face me. “Why do you stay?” I frowned and brushing the hair out of his face leaned forward until our noses were touching. “Could ask you the same. What’s wrong Ryuu?” His eyes dropped down, the dark lashes hiding the gray. When he didn’t say anything I finally pulled his head up. “Ryuu . . . if I did somethin’ wrong I want you to tell me.” He pulled back and shook his head. “No . . . it’s not you. I . . . sometimes the-my thoughts get the better of me.” I scowled. I knew I’d sensed something was wrong with him from the first time we’d met. “He beat you didn’t he? That fucker you used to date.” Ryuu flinched and tried to move away. I grabbed him holding him tighter so he couldn’t get up. “No, he did more than just beat you. He abused you. He -” “Stop it! Just stop. You don’t know . . . “ His voice dropped down to a whisper. “You don’t know.” “How can I when you won’t fucking tell me.” Letting him go I got up and started to get dressed. I had better things to do that sit around watching him mope about something he couldn’t change. “Where are you going?” “To work. Since you don’t seem to want me here.” “Wait! Kenta wait. Please. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean . . . I don’t want you to leave. Please stay.” I paused and looked at him. There was a sadness in his eyes that tore at me. I couldn’t leave him, not when he was hurting like this. I didn’t really want to go to work. I still had the rest of the week off and had been planning on spending most of it with Ryuu. “Okay. Stayin’ but you gotta tell me what’s wrong.” He nodded slowly. “Fine, but I’m going to need a drink to get through this.” Once he had his glass of wine and was settled down I sat next to him on the bed. “This is kind of a long story, but I think you need to know what happened with Sora and I.” Him and Sora? I thought this was about his ex. “You said you and Sora never-“ “Kenta . . . if I’m going to tell you, you need to just shut up and listen alright.” I glared for a moment but couldn’t put any real heat behind it. He looked too fucking miserable. “A’right.” “Sora and I met in high school and became friends instantly. He was shorter than me then, if you can believe that. By our second year he’d grown quite a bit and had a reputation for being a flirt. Not as much as me, but yeah.” Ryuu shrugged his lips twitching in a slight smile. “Well, once we decided we wanted to form a band we started going to clubs to try and find anyone who would be willing to help us. I wish now I would have just asked my Mother for help, but I wanted to show them that I could do something for myself. “After a couple of months we were starting to get known at a few of the clubs we would go to. Most people were really nice. Some of them got a bit nasty cause Sora and I obviously are not fully Japanese, but we usually just laughed it off and went on. One night we went to one of our regular clubs. There was a group of guys from the University there but we didn’t think anything of it. I remember now that they were from the soccer team. Anyway, Sora and I were at the bar talking with the manager when one of them comes up to me. He seemed to think I was a girl. I played along for a little bit, even though Sora told me not to. I should have listened to him. I would do anything to go back and change what happened. “Anyway . . . I went to go use the bathroom while Sora made some phone calls. That was when the guy cornered me as I came out. He was taller and heavier than me and well . . . you know how well I do when it comes to fighting. He was pissed off that I’d lead him on. I apologized and told him I would make it up to him. I offered to pay for the whole tab for the rest of the evening, anything they wanted. At first I thought he was going to accept, but then a couple of his friends came back and made fun of him. That was when he hit me. I told him I was sorry and begged him to stop, but it only seemed to make him angrier. It didn’t take long for his friends to join in. They dragged me into a back room and started to strip me. That was when I remember hearing Sora yelling.” He paused and took a long drink of the wine. Shuddering he set the glass back down. Reaching over I lightly touched his arm. “It’s alright Ryuu you don’t have to tell me anymore.” “No, I need to tell someone. Sora and I have kept it from everyone for so long. Only our parents know. I think you need to know.” He looked at me, the soft gray eyes blurred by tears. “There were five of them by that time. Three of them took on Sora while the other two continued beating me. I was almost unconscious by this time. I could hear Sora fighting them and trying to get to me. I couldn’t move anymore and was laying on the floor. The two who’d been beating me left to go help their friends since Sora wasn’t giving up. I was almost unconscious when I heard Sora start screaming. I’ve never again heard him like that. I hope I never do. Kenta . . .” Ryuu took a shuddering breath and looked up at me. Tears were rolling down his cheeks and it was so fucking obvious how much pain he was in that I didn’t want him to go on. “Kenta . . . they raped him. The five of them beat and raped him and I couldn’t do a fucking thing to help him. They were going to rape me too, but someone outside seemed to finally realize that the screaming was not normal. Sora was in the hospital for several weeks and had to have two surgeries. They almost killed him. I couldn’t do anything to help him either. I was completely useless when he needed me the most. So fucking useless. Not my money or my status could save him. Nothing I had could help him. I was fucking worthless . . . still am.” I felt numb and sick. Never in my wildest fucking dreams had I imagined something like that had happened to either of them. Not knowing what to say, I pulled Ryuu against me. He was crying softly, the tears dripping on my shoulder. Sora was always so laid back I would never have thought . . . I paused, suddenly several things he’d said made a whole fucking lot more sense. “Fuck.” We laid there for awhile, any thought of sex gone. I couldn’t get my head around what Ryuu had told me. It was no wonder Sora was so sensitive about certain things, especially when it came to Hasu or Ryuu. How could he be so calm and relaxed all the time? It had taken me months to quit looking over my shoulder all the time after I got out of juvie and I had escaped the worst of what could have happened. Five guys. Holy shit. I had to find who was fucking with the band and now. I was not going to let any fucking thing ever fucking happen to any of them ever fucking again. I’d kill someone first.

Ryuu I couldn’t stop pacing. I could feel Sora’s eyes on me as he sat on the couch. Hayate and Isao had left about thirty minutes ago and Kenta was in my bed resting. “Ryuu . . . he’s okay. He’s just a little banged up.” “I know!” I flung my arms up in frustration. “He has a concussion though. He just goes out for a drink and five guys jump him? What the fucking hell?” Sora shrugged, his voice soft. “It’s part of his job Ryuu. From what Iesada said it was a rival gang and he was on contested territory.” “Its fucking stupid and you know it.” “I’m not arguing with you about it Ryuu. You knew when you hired him that he hadn’t given up being yakuza.” I flopped down on the couch next to him and crossed my arms over my chest. “It’s just so frustrating. I hate seeing him hurt and . . . something else is wrong. He’s even quieter than usual.” “He did say his jaw hurt.” I shot a look at Sora and he held up a hand. “Hey, I’m just saying. Maybe it hurts to talk.” I slumped down, knowing I was pouting and not caring in the least. “We have a concert this weekend. What if he can’t work?” “That’s not all you are worried about.” I laid my head over on Sora’s shoulder, sighing. “No. I’ll go talk to him in a bit.” I never got the chance. He didn’t wake up by the time I was ready for bed, so I just curled up next to him. When I woke up the next morning he was gone. There was a text on my phone telling me breakfast was on the table and that he’d be back in time for dinner. I figured he was trying to get his bike fixed. It was his only means of getting around. He hated taking public transportation. So did I for that matter. Buses are filthy. I sent him a quick text. I’ll make dinner tonight. One came back just as fast. Don’t you fucking dare. I laughed and typed out my response. My kitchen, means I can do what I want in it. It took him a little bit longer to respond but I laughed out loud. God how I loved that man. Jack off instead. That actually sounded like a good idea. Maybe later. I had stuff to get done before I headed out with Sora to go get his birthday present. It was kind of hard to believe that he was going to be turning twenty-one in a few days. I was going to be twenty one next March. That made me wonder when Kenta’s birthday was. Had I already missed it? I would feel horrible if that was the case. I wondered if he was going to be nineteen or twenty. I honestly wasn’t sure. I’d have to go check his paper work. Some boyfriend I am. Can’t even remember his birthday. It took me thirty minutes to find his stuff. I really did not get Reiko’s filing system. June. Wow and he was going to be twenty. So he was younger. He sure as hell didn’t act it. My eyes dropped down the paper and I realized he had no emergency contact. None. No family. Nothing. It caused a soft pain in my chest. The only contact listed was a woman. A Takemitsu Shiori. The number was for a local parole office. His parole officer? That was his only contact? Why hadn’t he at least put Hayate or Isao was an emergency contact? Or even Daisuike? Or me . . . wait that wouldn’t work. If he was with me and there was an emergency that wouldn’t work. Still yet it got me to wondering, not for the first time, just why Kenta had went to juvenile corrections. From what Akira had told me, no one knew for certain. Not even Hayate and Daisuike. He flat out refused to talk about it. Taking a deep breath, I blew it out softly and put the file back. It wasn’t like there weren’t things I didn’t keep from him. It just worried me. Who was this Rame person and why would he have been dreaming about him? From his reaction it had to be something bad. I gasped and clapped a hand over my mouth as a sudden thought hit me. I didn’t get to dwell on it as I heard the front door open. “Hey Ryuu! You decent?” I scrambled to my feet and trotted out to the hallway. “No, but you don’t care.” I grinned at Sora as he just shook his head. “Go put clothes on Ito, you damn exhibitionist.” “Meh, you’re just jealous you don’t look this good naked.” “Short and hairy?” “Oi! I’m not hairy!” I stomped my foot glaring at Sora, though I couldn’t help glancing down. I did have more hair than Kenta, but he didn’t seem to care at all. Though he didn’t like stubble, which I found rather cute. “And everyone is shorter than you. Giant strawberry colored freak.” “Well if you are going to call names I guess I won’t share the food Gramps sent over.” “Ah! Oh! Kenta left me breakfast!” I’d gotten totally sidetracked. Over breakfast Sora and I discussed the upcoming concert and the set list. As always he was concerned about not overtaxing Hasu. The little guy put his heart and soul into drumming and sometimes his blood. Though after he’d passed out onstage during our tour we were a lot more careful about making sure he got breaks and didn’t play until he was too exhausted to move. Reiko got very -very pissed at me if I did more than two encores. Though, obviously the whole band had to agree to do them. Three was our absolute limit. Usually by the third time, we’d just come out and throw free stuff at the fans. Three is pushing it even for me. You put on an hour to two hour show and three encores can make it last another hour more, easy. That’s a fucking long night, as Kenta would put it. Thinking of Kenta reminded me of something else. “Hey Sora . . . you know Kenta went to juvie, right?” “Yeah I heard him and Akira talking about it. Apparently they went to the same one but just missed seeing each other, different cell blocks. Neither of them talk about it much.” “Yeah, he um . . . kind of let a name slip the other day.” Sora raised his eyebrows at me, the deep green eyes inquisitive. “Really? Good slip or bad slip, you seem kind of . . . upset about it.” “Well . . . that was partly my fault. Sora . . . I-I’m afraid he got raped in juvie.” I went on in a rush seeing the shocked expression on his face. “He did say that something had happened, that someone had tried and he’d beat them up but . . . sometimes just the way he acts reminds me of-“ “Us.” I nodded seeing the pain simmering just behind Sora’s eyes. “I’m sorry to bring it up Sora.” He shook his head, the red hair whipping back and forth. “No, we both went through it. If he did too . . . then you know how to help, right? Or did you want me to talk to him.” “I . . . I was kind of hoping you would. From . . . from what he’s said it was a gang . . . “ “Oh . . .” Sora looked down his voice soft. “I see.” “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have brought it up. I’m sorry Sora.” I jumped up rushing around the table to grab him in a hug. He let me hug him for a moment before gently pushing me away. “It’s okay Ryuu. It’s been a long time since I’ve thought about it honestly.” I sat back down, watching him intently. “Are you sure you’re alright?” “Yeah.” He nodded his eyes on his empty plate. “Just, if he was gang raped, there are a lot of other things involved. It’s not like what happened with you and Naoki.” “I-I know . . . I was there, remember.” His smile was so sad it broke my heart, tears stinging my eyes. “That had to have been so hard for you Ryuu.” I shook my head quickly, wanting to banish those images. “It was horrible. Utterly and completely devastating, Sora. I couldn’t do anything to help you.” He reached across the table and wiped the tear off my cheek. “You tried and that is all that matters, Ryuu. You are the best friend I’ve ever had. You’ve always been there for me. If you want me to approach Kenta about it I will. Therapy has done wonders for me and maybe he’ll benefit from it too. You know how much you improved after you went. Even after the stuff with Naoki. I promise it will help him if he goes.” “I hope so. Sometimes he just seems so . . . lost and alone even when he’s right next to me.” We spent the rest of the morning talking about less tragic subjects, which I was happy about. Sometimes those things needed to be discussed. I’d had a few people over the years ask why Sora and I had never got together, considering how close we are. It’s simple. I could never, ever do anything sexual with him. Not after what happened to him . . . to us. I love Sora, but he is more of my brother than anything. I wouldn’t have it any different. He was playing a video game when Akira, Reiko and Hasu got in from school. Then it was time to practice. Honestly this was my favorite time of day, other than spending time with Kenta. To get to be with my friends and make music together, there is nothing better. Except being with Kenta. Nothing came close to that.

Kenta It was a week before I was able to follow up on any of the contacts Isao had given me. Only one turned out to have anything. It was not what I wanted to hear. “Your girl . . . she was paid by a runner. The guy behind it is keeping pretty much to the shadows, but don’t think Ito will be the only one targeted.” The voice over the phone sounded like sheet metal over gravel. Too much booze and cigarettes was my guess. The hacking cough every few sentences kinda gave it away too. “Any fucking idea on why?” “Don’t know and don’t give a shit. Who gives a flying fuck about some dumb ass band anyway? Stupid cock suckers are probably high half the time anyway.” That’s when I decided I didn’t fucking like this shit head, informant or not. The next name on the list found me standing outside a gay bar. I’d never been in one. Wasn’t real fucking thrilled about going into one either. I’m not gay. Er . . . okay so I fucking am. But only with Ryuu. Fucking hell this was stupid. I decided it wasn’t worth it and got back on my bike. “Hey cutie! Aren’t you coming in?” I jerked, tightening my chinstrap too tight and pinching myself. “Fuck.” “Oooh sexy bike for a sexy man.” I turned to see a . . . person walking toward me, hips swaying as long eyelashes batted at me in a way that was a completely fucking disgusting. It took me several long moments to realize I was looking at an escort. A male escort. He smiled at me in a way he probably thought was sexy. Ryuu had him beat hands down and without any of the obvious effort. “Why don’t you come inside with me? I’ll show you a good time.” “If by good time you mean I get to beat the shit out of you for the sheer fucking hell of it, then fine.” His eyes widened and he paled, the lipstick smeared lips trembling slightly. He backed away so fast I thought he was going to fall on that barely covered ass. Teach him to solicit minors. I shook my head and revving the bike took off. I’d look somewhere else for the info I needed. I had other contacts. They might know something. They didn’t but said they’d keep their ears and eyes open. I sighed and closing my phone leaned back against my bike as I looked out at the ships slowly chugging their way toward the docks. I wasn’t getting anywhere and the boys were in danger. Serious danger from the sound of it. Who would target them and why? Maybe I should go back and talk with Isao. He seemed to have the best contacts. I shifted to get more comfortable, the heat from the engine searing through my jeans. As much as I needed the help, I wanted to do this on my own. I wanted to protect Ryuu and the boys. I was their body guard. It was my responsibility. I’d already let Ryuu down so many times. I wanted to get this right. I looked down as my phone started ringing. I raised my eyebrows seeing the number. Why was she calling me? “What?” “You’ve got a problem.” “Like I fucking need another one. What’s going on?” “Obuchi made parole.” I blinked a couple of times. “What?” “You heard me. Keep an eye out. I might be your parole officer but I’d rather not see you get killed. He still talked about you. His parole officer said to warn you after what happened. I don’t know that he’ll do anything, but . . . just be careful Kenta.” I suddenly felt cold, the breeze off the ocean chilling me even with the heat from the bike behind me. “Hai . . . thanks.” “Yeah no prob. Take care of yourself kiddo.” Hanging up I shoved the phone into my pocket and looked out over the water. I couldn’t shake this unsettled feeling like I was falling while still standing still. There was too much going on. I needed time to sit down and think. I just needed some fucking time. Why did he have to get out now? Like I didn’t already have enough going on. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Rame was out of prison.

Kenta I was going to kill him. What the fuck was he doing? Having sex with me while I was sleeping? What the hell? I wanted to move, but I felt pinned, my ass throbbing. Fuck. “Ryuu . . . get off me.” He didn’t say anything and didn’t move either. I raised my head again looking at him over my shoulder. He had his head down, his hair covering his face. “I . . . I’m sorry. I thought . . . I just . . .” Fuck it all to hell. He was crying. “Ryuu . . . you need to wake me up if you want to do this.” “I-I know, I’m sorry. I’ll get off of you now.” I gasped tensing as he started to move and heard him gasp. “Ke-Kenta don’t do that. I can’t move.” “Can’t move? Why?” I managed through gritted teeth. It felt entirely too large to have actually fit in the first place and right now I wanted it out. The stinging was intense as was the pressure. “You . . . you’re tensing up too much . . . you’re hurting me.” “Wha . . .” I was hurting him? “How am I hurting you?” He leaned down and sliding his hand under my hip grabbed my cock and squeezed hard enough it made me yelp. “Like that.” Since when was Ryuu so cruel? He sounded almost irritated. I shuddered trying to get myself to relax except he hadn’t taken his hand off me but was instead slowly stroking me. The pleasure felt more intense after the pain for some reason. “Do you really not like this? Not like being with me like this?” “Tha-that’s not it.” “Then what is it?” I couldn’t really think straight at the moment and it wasn’t very fair of him to be asking me all these questions like we were having a normal conversation. How was I supposed to react, getting woke up like this? He was lucky I hadn’t punched him after the dream I’d been having. “I . . .” How was I supposed to tell him that letting him do this made me feel emotions I’d never in my life felt before. Emotions that I’d always scoffed at in others. He shifted and I bit my lip feeling the pull. Fuck, that felt weird, I could feel the pressure against my tail bone and it was kind of freaking me out. Just how far in was he? “It’s not that I don’t like it . . . I’m just not sure how I feel about it yet.” He murmured something I didn’t catch and I gasped as he slid back. Was he getting off me? No, no he wasn’t. Oh holy shit. “Oh shi-it. Ry-Ryuu.” He let go of my cock and I felt him lean down, his chest against my back. His breath was warm on my cheek. “Kenta . . . do you really want me to stop? Remember how good it was yesterday? Don’t you want that again? I can make it even better.” My skin felt like it was crawling. Better? How could it be better? I gasped my head coming up as he came back down. “God you are so tight.” Hands grabbed my hips and suddenly he was moving faster. At least this time it was sliding in and out easier, there was no pain at all. Just this incredible pleasure that would spike each time he thrust into me. Okay, yeah this was better. I realized I was moaning with each movement of his hips, but I couldn’t stop myself. It was impossible, it simply felt too good. Before I even realized it I was coming all over the place shouting his name. I heard him moaning and then there was suddenly extra warmth all through me. Holy fuck. He’d just come inside me. He slumped down against me. I could feel him trembling and soft lips brushed my ear then my neck. “I’m sorry for not waking you first, but after yesterday I was afraid you’d never let me top again. I just wanted to show you that it could be good.” I sighed. “I enjoyed yesterday. Even if my ass was so sore it was hard to sit.” I sucked in a breath as he pulled out. I felt rather sticky now, that slickness dripping down the insides of my thighs. My skin was tingling, my muscles still twitching. My heart was pounding like fucking mad and there was an odd pressure in my chest. I blinked a few times not sure what to do about the stinging behind my eyes. What the fuck was wrong with me? So my boyfriend fucked me, wasn’t that how it was supposed to work? I shivered as he pulled me over onto my side, hugging me to him. I met his eyes for just a moment, the grey seeming unreal. The pressure in my chest suddenly exploded into full blown pain. Why did he want to be with me? I was nothing but a fucking thug. I didn’t even realize I’d said anything till he frowned. “Why what?” I fumbled for words. Nothing new there. “Why me?” “Kenta . . .” He suddenly looked pained, his brow furrowing. “I love you, like I’ve never loved anyone in my life. I would do anything for you. I just want to make you happy and see you smile. Making love to you is just one way of showing you just how much I love you and want to be with you.” Making love. “Kenta . . . are you upset with me.” I looked up at him realizing I’d not said anything for a while, too lost in my own thoughts. I shook my head. “No . . . not upset . . . just confused.” “About us? Or about sex?” “Umm . . . both?” He pulled me tighter against him. His warmth made the pain fade into a softer heat that wasn’t as unbearable. “It’s okay to be confused Kenta, but if that is the case, please talk to me. I don’t like not knowing what you are thinking. You scared me yesterday. I thought you were upset and had left because of what we’d done.” I wanted to smack him. “If you thought I was mad about it why the hell did you jump me this morning?” He nuzzled his face into my hair. “You naked in my bed is just begging to be jumped.” “And if I’d reacted badly?” “I would have cried for a while and never done it again.” That sobered me up a bit. I never wanted Ryuu to think that this relationship only went one way. “Kenta . . . who is Rame?”

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