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Anybody want to share their yaoi motivational posters? I have a couple I found on the internet not too long ago I absolutely love these lol Anybody else have any?

ive been using windows paint lately,gettin really good,i do draw BL but i cant upload it here XD at least not the really bad stuffs,i do furry art too i have a ichisoXulquiorra on my fb,and a manga that is probably the worst(in a good way)yaoi mangas i have ever done

~Vincent~ ~Sorrow from Sorrow's Fall~ ~Dante~ ~Zack~ My chibis ^^;;

lol jus found this

These were some of my favorites. ^^

Here are some more^^

@ Ichii_kun just search on Google images for Yaoi Motivational Posters Here is my favorite:

Title : Hatsu-koi, First Love Year: 2007 Country : Japan Language : Japanese Subtitle(s) : English Genre : Drama | Romance | Crime | Gay Themed Plot/Synopsis: Tadashi has fallen in love with his classmate, Kota, and doesn't dare to tell anyone. This destroys all hope he ever had of getting together with Kota. Thoroughly depressed, Tadashi meets a gay couple on the train. Hiroki and Shinji are fascinating... In Hatsu-Koi, director Imaizumi Koichi tells a story about coming of age, coming out and a gay marriage that is sprinkled with both love and comedy, at the centre of which is a teenager who doesn't yet know what he wants. Watch Hatsu-koi BL Movie Online: Hatsu-koi BL Movie Download Hatsu-koi BL Movie: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Join the files with HJSplit For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Sekai-ichii Hatsukoi Anime Season 1 The first season of Sekai Ichii Hatsukoi Anime with engsub by Horrible Subs and Crunchyroll *thanks them a lot* Alt. Titles: 世界一初恋; Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi; Sekaiichi Hatsukoi ~Onodera Ritsu no Baai~ Genre: Comedy, Romance, Shounen Ai, Yaoi Plot: Ritsu Onodera, a young editor has just transferred from his father's publishing company to Marukawa Shoten. Although he has no experience or interest in it, he is assigned to the shoujo manga department. Even more, he has an awful impression of his editor in chief, Masamune Takano. However, soon he realizes that Masamune Takano is actually Saga, his senpai and high school love... Watch Sekai-ichii Hatsukoi Season 1 Online (HD Quality): Sekai-ichii Hatsukoi Season 1 Online Watch Sekai-ichii Hatsukoi Season 2 Online (HD Quality): Sekai-ichii Hatsukoi Season 2 Online Download Sekai-ichii Hatsukoi Anime: Season 1: Ep.01 Ep.02 Ep.03 Ep.04 Ep.05 Ep.06 Ep.07 Ep.08 Ep.09 Ep.10 Ep.11 Ep.12 Season 2: Ep.01 Ep.02 Ep.03 Ep.04 Ep.05 Ep.06 Ep.07 Ep.08 Ep.09 Ep.10 Ep.11 Ep.12 OVA's: OVA.01 OVA.02 Season 1 Mirror: Episode 1 Episode 2 Episode 3 Episode 4 Episode 5 Episode 6 Episode 7 Episode 8 Episode 9 Episode 10 Episode 11 Episode 12 OVA 1 OVA 2 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO StaffWatch Sekai-ichii Hatsukoi Season 1 Online (HD Quality): Sekai-ichii Hatsukoi Season 1 Online

Title: Yamane Ayano Illustrations - Aya Author/artist: Yamane Ayano Scan source: Beautiful Soup Year: 2004 Download link -- Title: AYANO's Rough Illustrations Author/artist: Yamane Ayano Scan source: (?) Year: 2007 Download link -- Title: Trading Cards + Post Card Artbook + Viewfinder's Special Collector's Box Author/artist: Yamane Ayano Scan source: sunflower1343; Yasca Post Card Artbook + Special Download link Trading Cards Download link Manga series by Yamane Ayano For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Raspberry Crisis Manga ALT. names:ラズベリークライシス White Breath Original run: 2003 Description: 1-3) Raspberry Crisis Ibuki is adorable and cute, but he wants to be a manly man like suave Ichinose sensei, or cool rock star Towa, his childhood friend. Unfortunately Ibuki's uncontrollable cuteness is too much for even the strongest manly man to resist... 4-5) White Breath Shunsuke's parents were killed in a fire, so he was taken in by his dad's collegue. Their son (Chihiro) is is his best friend, but after several years have passed Shunsuke keeps giving Chihiro the cold shoulder. Just why has Shunsuke's attitude towards Chihiro changed, and why does he slave away at Chihiro's house? Manga-type: Manga Mangaka: HIGASHIZATO Kirico Group(s) Scanlating: Game Over or Continue / Loveless Status: Complete Genres: Yaoi, Drama Categories: Drama, Student-Teacher, Unrequited Love, Love Triangle Main Characters: - Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations:Zurui Otoko Atsui Karada Koisuru Karada Pink no Idenshi Love Terrorist Viva Love You Read online Raspberry crisis Download Raspberry Crisis: Raspberry Crisis by Higashizato Kiriko For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Love Seeker Author/artist: Tatsukawa Kazuto Alt. Title: Rabu Shiikaa Genre: Romance, Smut, Yaoi Warnings: Rape Groups scanlating: Obsession Status: 2 Volumes (Ongoing) Year: 2004 Plot: Love Seeker is a series of two stories and one extra. While the two stories have little to do with each other there are characters who are a part of each of the stories. Story 1 (chapter 1-2) Tomura is an office geek; small, shy, and someone easily picked on/forced to finish other people's work. He has decided to finally confess his love to his female co-worker Shinoyama. Mistakenly though, he ends up confessing his love to Miura Keijirou because he took off his glasses. Keijirou is Tomura's opposite; handsome, tall and the girls love him. After going out for a meal Keijirou offers to help Tomura by being his "love messenger". Will Keijirou really be of help, or will he be more of a hindrance to Tomura? Story 2 (chapter 3-4) Nanjo is asked by his friend Kenji to be a replacement gigolo for him. After giving Nanjo the information Kenji bolts so Nanjo can't refuse the job. It turns out that Kyousuke, the client, buys gigolos just to talk to. Because of his position where he works it's hard for him to find someone he can just talk to. With Nanjo's egotistical and blunt way of speaking will this one night job last as long as it should, or is this the start of a wonderful friendship? Extra story (chapter 5) Misaki is an average business man. One night trying to get away from someone he runs into a fast food place and ends up crying in front of Fujita, an employee. Ever since then Misaki goes there after work ordering the same thing. Seeing how the girls swarm to Fujita, Misaki becomes annoyed that the girls cannot see the true Fujita...or is he not realizing what his real feelings for Fujita are? Read Love Seeker Online Love Seeker Download Love Seeker Manga Volume 1 | Volume 2 -- The Drama CD can be found here. For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

(IN YOUR DREAMS) (what urge me into this???, lol) :hamtaro-005 (44): If you could write tomorrow's newscast so that three wonderful bits of international news would happen, what would they be? (you could write supah impossible things to happen, (no political nor religion issues), or things you really wanted to happen related to you that you want the whole world to know) . .cast your dreams/thoughts, be in the HEADLINE, and report to the world :leaf12:

Title: Man Of 1 Yen - 1 En No Otoko Author/artist: Monden Akiko Genre: Comedy, Drama, Yaoi Groups scanlating: Nakama Scanlation status: 3 Chapters (Ongoing) Status In Country Of Origin: 1 Volume (Complete) Year: 2010 Read Man Of 1 Yen Online: Man Of 1 Yen Download Man Of 1 Yen Manga Complete For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

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Awww I love them everyone!!! I found some more

@ brohne The Stein x Spirit one is the best~ :5yoyo34: (Star, Soul and Death are fanboying over them ♥)

ooh found these ^_^ sorry the pics dnt come up lol not sure wot happened there lol

Sharing the ones I like the most *smirk*

Kenta Once again I found myself standing around like a fucking idiot while everyone else rushed around panicked. Why was it that when it came to Ryuu I seemed to fucking fail more often than not? I turned in time to see them loading him up into the ambulance. I grabbed my head as someone smacked me from behind. “Oi! I’ll fucking-oh . . . Sora . . .” “What the hell are you doing Arakaki? Shouldn’t you be with him?” I glanced up at Sora and looking back down shook my head. “I have to stay here and help.” “Fuck that, we’ve got it. Get going before I smack you again.” He did anyway. I would have kicked him but he was already too far away. Damn him and his fucking long legs, he moved too fast and I wasn’t in the mood to start a fight. Yeah I know, me not want to fight, fucking weird. This whole thing had rattled me a lot more than I wanted to admit. It didn’t help getting fucking ripped to shreds by Nakamara too. He’d wanted to hit me. I could see it in the way he looked at me, the tension in his shoulders. Heading for my bike I wondered why Ryuu had taken the water. I knew he sometimes didn’t think before he did things, but this really was stupid. Straddling the bike, I thumbed the switch and after checking traffic headed for the nearest hospital. I couldn’t stop thinking about what had happened. It would have been better to hurt a fan’s feelings than to let himself get drugged. What if it had been poison? I jerked the bike back into my lane as a horn blared, my heart suddenly pounding making me feel a bit light headed. I really shouldn’t be thinking about this right now. Traffic was too heavy for me to be distracted. That’s what Ryuu was, one giant fucking distraction. They kept him until the report came back on what was in the water. At least the girl hadn’t lied about what she’d put in it. I hoped the police were giving her hell right now. I’d been a lot less nice than what they probably would have. Like I fucking cared if she’d shit her pants she was so scared. Stupid bitch deserved to be beat. And here was the other person who needed beat for their sheer stupidity. I shook my head seeing Ryuu coming down the hall. He looked pale, the gray eyes washed out. It sent a pang of . . . something through me and all my irritation evaporated like water on a hot griddle. He was wearing normal street clothes for once, just a t-shirt and jeans. His hair was loose and floating around his head and shoulders as he walked. Holy fuck he looked hot. “Ryuu-“ “Oh Kenta, I’m so sorry.” Next thing I knew I had a silly blond singer crying into my shoulder. I glanced around but didn’t see anyone else. Where was the rest of the band, Reiko, Isao any of them? “Hush Ryuu, it’s alright. You didn’t know. Where is everyone?” He shrugged and finally lifted his head. “I told them I didn’t want visitors.” “Ryuu . . . everyone was so fuc-“ He kissed me and I jerked back startled. “Ryuu! Not here!” I hissed at him and cringed seeing the expression on his face. Grabbing his arm I turned. “Come on.” Thankfully, I’d thought to bring my guest helmet. Ryuu needed some space, to get away from everyone and everything for a bit or he was going to end up too depressed over the whole situation. Sliding onto the bike I tossed him the other helmet. I put mine on and tightened the chin strap. He was still standing there looking down at the helmet in his hands. “What are you waiting for? Put the helmet on and get on. You can ride behind me.” “Are . . . are you sure? I can just call-“ “Get the fuck on Ito.” He nodded and put the helmet on. I sat the bike up and kicked back the stand and looked over at him. He looked nervous, his eyes peering at me from within the helmet. He didn’t say anything and got on behind me. It gave me a little rush to feel him put his hands on my hips. The bike started easily and settled into a low purr. “Hang on to me.” His fingers tightened as we took off and I think I heard him call my name, but the wind ripped away any sounds. I knew where I wanted to go. It was a bit of a drive, but it would be worth it and I had plenty of gas. After a while I felt him relax and lean against me more, his arms around my waist. His helmet would bump mine every so often as the wind buffeted us. The soft heat from his body was soothing and I felt my own anxiety from earlier finally ebbing away. We finally reached the beach and I slowed the bike, pulling off the road. We both sat back and I took my helmet off. The roar of the surf was much louder than the bike had been, but had the same type of calming affect too it. “Why are we here?” Ryuu’s voice was soft in my ear. “You needed some space.” I shifted slightly on the seat so I could turn to look at him. “Ryuu . . . why did you take the bottle from her?” The pale eyes lowered. “I . . . I’m not sure. I was just caught up in the moment and wasn’t thinking. I’m sorry Kenta. Nakamara shouldn’t have yelled at you like that.” “Wait . . . you heard that?” He nodded, his hair tickling my neck as he leaned forward, his arms wrapping around my chest. “It was horrible, Kenta. I could hear and see everything, but I couldn’t move or speak. I haven’t been that terrified in . . . a long time.” I could hear the fear in his voice and it tore at me. “It’s over now. Just please, please be more careful Ryuu. You have no idea how badly you scared everyone.” Soft lips grazed my neck, then my jaw making me shiver. “I know. I’m sorry.” “I am too Ryuu. I . . . should have spotted her sooner and this would never have happened.” I felt his lips pull up into a grin. “There is that . . . maybe I should make you make it up to me.” “Ryuu . . . don’t push it.” “No, no you are right. I wouldn’t have taken it from her if she hadn’t got past the barrier. I thought she was supposed to be there.” “What?” I turned to look at him. He nodded, his eyes somber. I frowned not sure if I should believe him or not. “You know how sometimes when we run out of water Hayate or you will send someone along the front of the stage with more. I thought she was one of those people.” “Oh shit . . . I’m sorry Ryuu.” If that was the case we were going to have to be a lot more careful. “Tell you what . . . I’ll make it up to you tonight. I’ll make you dinner.” He grinned and I suddenly realized I’d been tricked into something. “I have a better idea.”

Ryuu “God damn it Ryuu! Why didn’t you watch where you were?” “I’m sorry.” I winced putting a hand to my head. I still felt dizzy, my head pounding. Kenta’s arms tightened around me and I could feel him shaking slightly with the strain of carrying me. “Put me down, I can walk.” “No.” It was a low growl. I struggled weakly in his grip. “Put me down! I have to finish the concert.” “No, Nakamara already announced it was over. You were on the encore anyway.” “Ryuu! Kenta! Is he alright?” “I’m fine.” “Are you sure?” I looked up to see Sora peering down at us. His spikes were starting to wilt from the humidity and he looked flushed. I could hear Hasu and Akira but couldn’t see them. “I’m sure. Kenta is just being overprotective.” I yelped as fingers pinched my arm. “Kenta! That hurt!” “You are not fine. You collapsed on stage.” “I just got dizzy all the sudden. That’s all.” “Ryuu, you were passed out cold when I picked you up.” I looked at Kenta, meeting the dark eyes for a moment. “Really?” He rolled his eyes. “You think I’d be carrying your ass around otherwise?” I was surprised to see Hiro’s giant bulk towering outside the dressing room door. He winked at me as he opened the door. “Ito-sama. Kenta.” “Thanks Hiro.” Kenta edged through the door and finally let me down. He glared up at me for a moment before turning back to the door. He moved to the side as Sora, Hasu and Akira walked in. Everyone looked sweaty and tired. Hasu came up to me and put a hand on my arm, his large dark eyes peering up at me. “Ryuu . . . are you sure you’re alright.” “I feel better now, the dizziness seems to be fading but my head hurts.” “Well . . . you probably hit it when you fell.” “I . . . yeah I guess.” There were suddenly hands in my hair and I winced as fingers found the knot. “Ow! Stop it!” I swatted the hand away and looked up to see Kenta glaring down at me. “Why did you get dizzy in the first place?” I looked at him for a long moment but finally had to break the intense gaze. “I-I’m not sure. I felt fine earlier.” “Ryuu . . . you need to tell him.” I didn’t look up at Hasu. “Ryuu it could be important.” “Tell me what.” My chin was suddenly grabbed and I found myself staring into deep pools of obsidian. I blinked a couple of times but the fingers tightened when I tried to pull away. “What did you do Ryuu?” “I . . . I . . . took a water bottle from one of the fans.” “What!” I fell back against the couch as Kenta shoved me. “What the fuck were you thinking Ryuu? Are you that fucking stupid?” The sudden stabbing pain in my chest rendered me speechless. I looked down at the matted beige carpet. I knew it was stupid, but I’d been caught up in the excitement. I’d only taken one quick drink of it before leaving it on the stage. I couldn’t remember now if it had already been opened or not. Leaning forward I ran a trembling hand over my face. “Kenta I-“ “Shut the fuck up.” Kenta snapped making me flinch, a soft gasp escaping. “I’ll be back later.” The sound of the door slamming made me jump. It seemed to break whatever control I’d had. Slumping over on the couch I buried my face in the cushions. *** “He still hasn’t moved.” “Do you think he passed out again?” “No.” I could hear everyone’s hushed voices. It was annoying. I had no idea how long I’d been laying there trying to avoid thinking about anything. Why was I so stupid? Even Reiko had came in and yelled at me. “They found it. One of the stage hands had it. He set it to the side since it was different from the usual bottles. Reiko is taking to have it tested now.” I raised my head slightly hearing Isao’s voice. They’d called him too? Fuck. I went to push myself up off the couch and realized I couldn’t. What was going on? There was a rush of dizziness and suddenly I was on my back looking up at the ceiling. “Ryuu! Are you alright?” I blinked a few times trying to get things to focus. Sora and Hasu were hovering over me and I heard someone yelling for Kenta. “Call an ambulance! He’s not responding.” What were they talking about? I could hear and see them just fine. I reached up to touch Hasu who had tears in his eyes. Nothing happened. My arm didn’t move. In fact nothing was moving. I knew I was still breathing and I could feel my heart racing, but other than that it was like I was asleep and dreaming. Kenta suddenly appeared behind Hasu, his face completely blank. Just once couldn’t he pretend to be concerned, just let the mask slip a little. “Hiro is calling the ambulance. What happened? He was fine when I left.” “I don’t know.” Hasu looked at me, tears streaming down his cheeks. “He was just laying there. I thought he was mad and just not talking. Oh Ryuu! I’m sorry.” He was sorry? What was he sorry for? “Kenta! I found the girl! The one who gave him the drink.” Kenta got up and I had a fleeting glimpse of that toned rear before he was gone. I wanted to smash my head into something solid. Why had I been so stupid? Now everyone was upset and worried. Hasu was crying softly beside me while Sora stroked his hair. It was only a few moments later when Kenta reappeared. “Stupid bitch. It was ruffies. I already called security. The police are going to pick her up. Are you sure he only drank a little of it. Where is the bottle? Call Reiko now!” There was a slight commotion and I heard someone exclaim. “I just got a hold of her. Half the bottle is gone.” No, there was no way I drank that much of it. Was there? “Half the fucking bottle? Shit! Ryuu.” Kenta was looking down at me now and I could see the mask starting to slip, it didn’t give me any satisfaction to see the worry in his eyes. I wanted so badly to pull him against me and hold him, to make this odd chilled sensation go away. I blinked and it seemed like everyone disappeared only to be replaced by medics. I was placed on a gurney and strapped down, the panic seemed to subside a bit, replaced by nausea. As we headed into the hallway I could hear raised voices. “If you’d been doing your fucking job, this wouldn’t have happened! Didn’t you see him get handed the bottle? How did she get close enough to do that anyway?” I would recognize Nakamara’s voice anywhere, but who was he yelling at? As our manager I’d heard him yell a lot but usually not at the staff. “I was standing where I always do. I didn’t see anyone get close enough . . .“ Kenta! He was yelling at Kenta? I’d never heard Kenta sound like that. He sounded so . . . distressed, a slight tremor to his voice that sent a stab of pain through me. “You’re too fucking short. Next time Hayate and Hiro will take the stage, you just stay backstage and out of the fucking way. You aren’t good for anything but keeping the idiot happy.”

A book with pictures Now here it's mine (honestly, I don't even know for sure myself what it is )

Okane ga Nai / No money OVAs Title: No Money / Okane ga Nai Genre: yaoi Year Published: 2007 Type: OVA No. of Episodes: 4 Duration: 25 min / ep Plot: Yukiya Ayase is a university student. His cousin Tetsuo Ishii betrays and sells him in an auction to settle his heavy debts. Ayase is bought by Somuku Kanou for 120 million yen. Kanou does this because he remembers Ayase from four years ago, when Ayase, a stranger, helped him. Now Kanou wants to keep Ayase close to himself, and uses the debt of 120 million yen to force Ayase to live with him. As Ayase is still a student and does not have a job, he is forced to sell his body to Kanou for 500,000 yen each time they have sex. FORMAT: RMVB Watch Okane Ga Nai OVAs 1-4 + Extras 1-4 Online (HD Quality): Okane Ga Nai OVAs 1-4 + Extras 1-4 Online Download Okane ga Nai OVAs: OVA 1 OVA 2 OVA 3 OVA 4 Mirror link: OVA 2 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai - Become My Lover Author/artist: Isaka Juugorou Genre: Comedy, School life,Yaoi Groups scanlating: Bliss Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Year: 2009 Read Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai Online: Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai Download Uchi No Ko Ni Narinasai New Download Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Usotsuki na Kimi no Toriko; Manga Associated Names: The Lies a Liar Likes to Tell; 嘘つきなキミの虜 Genre: Yaoi Author: MINASE Masara Year: 2008 Plot: When his sempai breaks a leg, Serizawa agrees to sub for him at the design firm. He doesn't expect to see Ikuta, a face from his past. Though Ikuta seems as gentle and kind as ever, he doesn't remember Serizawa. But outside of work Ikuta's personality is strikingly different. Is it really the same person, or did Serizawa never know the real Ikuta? Read Usotsuki na Kimi no Toriko Online: Usotsuki na Kimi no Toriko Download (Uploading.com links): Volume 1 Volume 2 Mirror link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

'L's Difficult Successors' is a short Death Note doujin mini game made by Akane Warnings: R-15 / Shota Pairings: Mello x Near (main). Bits of LMN. Plot: The player controls L. The goal is to convince Mello and Near to be intimate with each other before Watari comes back to the room. Their level of intimacy will be displayed in the shape of empty hearts (initially), that will be eventually filled as their attraction for each other raises. The more you manage to make Mello and Near attracted to each other, the further they will accept to go. Download: Mediafire Mirror Link: ShareUrban For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Fujimi Block No 2 Symphony Orchestra OVA Title: Fujimi Block No 2 Symphony Orchestra; Fujimi Nichome Kokyo Gakudan; 富士見二丁目交響楽団 Genre: Drama, Romance, Slice of Life, Yaoi Year: 1992 Type: OVA Language: English Plot: High school music teacher, Morimura Yuuki, is the concert master and first violinist of the amateur orchestra, Fujimi Orchestra. Surprisingly, a young conductor named Tonoin Kei (known as a musical genius) joins this small orchestra to conduct. Even though Tonoin is a strict conductor, all the members adore him for the notable improvements in their performances and soon Yuuki feels his efforts for the orchestra have been fruitless. Yuuki soon comes to the conclusion that his crush of 3 years likes Tonoin, and he decides to give up on her and leave the orchestra. Tonoin refuses to let him quit, confessing that he loves Yuuki, which reveals that he's gay. Tonoin's love confession confuses Yuuki and it leads to a very horrible misunderstanding. Watch Fujimi Block No 2 Symphony Orchestra OVA Online (HD Quality): Fujimi Block No 2 Symphony Orchestra OVA Online Download Fujimi Block No 2 Symphony Orchestra OVA: (Filesend) Fujimi Block No 2 Symphony Orchestra Note: you need to unzip it Mirror Link (Mediafire): Fujimi Block No 2 Symphony Orchestra For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

(cloudy's super duper simple non-bl poem) :msn_red_fox 2 FOOD LOVE You're like sugar Crystal grains So sweet Partner to my cup of bitter You're like coffee Black grains So strong Wakens me, like morphine You're like creamer White powder So fluffy Makes my burden, lighter You're like milk Thick and creamy Uhmmm, so yummy! Makes me feel like kiddie You're like dark chocolate Solid bar Tastes li'l bitter yet sweet Such mystery underneath You're like sponge cake Soft and foamy So craving Yet gives me a slice of cozy You're like soup Woooh!, so hot! In my cold days Embraced me of warmth You're like main course That everybody's waiting for Craving savory taste I'm lucky to be in first place But above all these Is a food that everybody needs That you must treasure and keep ME!, your RICE, indeed (hahahaha, i don't know how i came up with this, i wanted to wrote something simple but joyful LOVE poem, i was not able to reach that goal, that's why it results to this, (LOL ) (but i think this for about 2 days, lol) :leaf5:

a.w.s.o.m.e ^____^

this story is a bit long,but its good my ex was doing the actions for the other three characters,and i did the puppet girl as well

Summary: Apparently Loki and Haku are foes, competting against each other in constructing robots. Unexpectedly, when Loki gets intro troubles, the one helping out is Haku. Why? Status: Discontinued okay technically i didnt do tis story alone a friend of mines actually came up with the story line i played a part in it too,this is all we got 4 now, she plays loki,and i play the bully with a heart,haku,lol Loki couldn't believe it. He was being forced to work on the most important robot of his life with Him of all people! Loki growled under his breath, retreating to the work station and beginning the robot. He wouldn't raise to the bait...he wouldn't!.''concocting another failure i see?''haku grinned leaning up against the wall next to loki,''what will this robot be of use as?,a paper weight for me''he chuckled with a snarky smile.Loki twitched, glaring at the robot as if it was to blame. "Lemme alone." He picked up the number six wrench, putting a screw into place. He was determined not to raise to the bait this time.haku shook his head''you'll never be on my level,im pretty close to making androids with siliocone skin,''he laughed ,Loki twitched. He didn't answer though, continuing to work on the robot. He wouldn't answer, he wouldn't be tempted... haku shruged and slowly walked away,saying to loki''know your place''he grined."That's it." Loki mumbled to himself before spinning, chucking the wrench in Haku's general direction with a great deal of force. He hoped it hit him. the wrench almost nearly hit him,zooming past his face,he looked back at loki with a scowl''stick to your day job runt''. "Go to hell." Loki glared at him. He hoped he had a horrible, painful death. The teacher sighed, wondering if it had been a good idea to put the two together after all. Haku sighed"what a loser"he said under his breath,though he wasnt exactly phased by loki;s hate towarad his douchebagery,he couldnt help it,he took out a robot arm to wire hopefully to take his mind off the rage between them....for now Loki returned to working on the robot's frame, grumbling under his breath in irritation. Why did Haku always pick on him? It wasn't fair. ''effing wires''haku sighed,then looked to loki feeling bad about his constant teasing,he had a rep,for being a bully only for acceptance,he couldnt possibly apologize without getting his ass kicked he thought''hey..loki''he said with a slight scowl. "What?!" Loki spun, waving a wrench at him. "Lemme alone already!" hakus scowl faded into a guilty look''i..i..um..i l-"he stammered till a friend of his eged closer ,Loki raised an eyebrow, irritation switching to curiousity. Was something wrong with Haku, he wondered, haku's friends looked to the side to see wat degrading comment he had to say to loki,instead haku looked down,avoiding the best he could not to be totaled with a wrench he thought,"damn they are in the way",haku said "i like how the frame matches your small ego.."turning around. Loki froze. A few seconds passed before he tossed another wrench with deadly accuracy. Loki would make a good athlete or assassin, if he was interested in any of that. But he wasn't. He turned back to the robot, angrily working on the robot. the wrench nailed hakus head''grrrrrr''he mumbled looking at him''HEY I WAS GONNA SAY SORRY YOU FREAK!"he yelled "You? Say sorry to me? Cha right. Not in this lifetime." Loki rolled his eyes. The teacher grumbled something before telling Loki, "the wrenches are not throwing projectiles Loki. Please keep them where they are." Loki rolled his eyes again. "im so stupid..."haku sighed under his breath,it was very hard to even to even look at loki the way he wanted when he hid in his tough facade"i really am sorry....." Loki observed him wearily for a minute, not really trusting him. After a minute, he muttered a, "Yeah, alright," and turned back to the robot. It was as close to accepting the apology as he would get.haku finished the limb and moved to another,feeling a bit more guilty every second,he stoped then just walked up and away . Loki finished the frame of the robot before stretching and heading to the cafeteria. He hadn't had breakfast and his stomach was complaining about it.haku went to the bathroom,all of a sudden he really had to go,before he left out he took one good look at himself in the mirror, and straighted hisself up.Loki grabbed a slice of pizza and some fruit before going to the corner table he always ate at. He sat down, greeting his friends. They were the 'punk' kids, the 'emo' ones, and the 'scene' and 'rave' kids.haku left to the cafeteria to score some eats,he always sat at center table with the ''cool'' people,though inside he hated it,they wouldnt understand his eccentric lifestyle so he hides it not to get casted out, "Loki! Check it out! Glow stick coupon!" Loki laughed at his friend as she waved the coupon about. The girl had glowsticks attatched to the Tripp pants she was wearing...and a vest with glowsticks. "Nice Tris.".haku's buddy alex high-fived him at the table''ha that was sweet what you said to that loser back there,even if you almost lost your skull!"Haku grined and put his facade back up''yeah,yeah you know how it is,you gotta put those wierdos in thier place''he turned his head away looking to loki's table and sighs. "Loki...good aim bud!" Loki blinked as he was glomped by another friend. "What?" He asked, not knowing what his friend meant. "You nearly took off the twit's head." Loki blinked. ''why didnt you fight back?''a female friend asked.''meh''haku replied''just not really in the mood''.alex stood up next to him''you should go back thier and show him whos boss!''.''no,..no i really shouldnt, not in the mood''.haku was still a little down,even though he was lying hard he just felt like if he did it he'd hurt again''i think its mean haku''a smaller girl said out''we should all be friendly!"all the kids at the table laughed,all but haku''...'' "Say, Loki, how're things going? At home I mean?" Loki shrugged. "Not too well honestly. The rent's skyrocketing and I don't know if I can pay it this month." He sighed. He really needed this scholarship...the robot had to be perfect. she was right,he thought,but he couldnt stop it,he would lose his title and his followers,the girl walked up to him''if you lie to yourself it hurts haku,my parents said we are all equals.''the other kids scoffed,haku's eyes widened for a few seconds,then he stood up''pfft,you got some nerve saying that,dont ever put me on a sideshow level,''he said felling a little more guilty,two random guys grinded before walking pass to loki's table''they need a good ass whoopin,haha,that haku''they smiled. "Loki....they're comming over here." Loki looked up. "Ignore them." He looked down at his food, eating it. "But..." "Just ignore them." 'heh heh,if it isnt the real cirque du freak,''one said puting his foot on the table,haku was unaware at those kids plans until everyone pointed it out''i guess youre the main freak''the other grinned pointing to loki Loki looked up. "Oh? I would've thought that was you." He resumed eating, perfectly calm. His friends watched him curiously. ''youre a funny little man ''the bigger guy said grabbing loki's shirt . "Too bad I can't say the same for you." Loki shrugged, hand forming a loose fist. Loki could handle himself in a fight...and he was starting to get annoyed with this guy. ''hey''haku called out as he walked torward the boys''the hell is going on here'',''jus havin' alittle fun with this here smart ass''the smaller one said''no''haku replied''you're not gona eff up that guy'',''but''the big one said before haku cut him off''I SAID NO YOU BASTARD,PUT HIM DOWN''haku yelled.Loki watched the interaction with a raised eyebrow. His friends watched in confusion. the big guy growled angrily letting loki go,the smaller guy chuckled''you okay haku?,am i deaf or are you taking up for that loser'',''tch''haku replied,''what?you gona beat me up now''haku scowled at them and balled his fist''i woulnt go there'',.the guys quickly left,haku was very serious.Loki raised an eyebrow. "Well thanks." He turned to Haku.haku slightly blushed,he was unused to helping loki out,but it felt good''tch,yeah''he replied

New one-shot up called Sexy Beast. A KazukixGackt-fic. http://nezumidoll.livejournal.com/9361.html

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I love this! Such a great idea with love and food!

How sweeet it is!!!!! ^___^ You are so admirable cloudy....!! I like every word cause it brings me a very different and new taste of love (love with flavour of food lol) I really like it...So cute you are...

Ryuu I could barely keep from pouncing Kenta on the ride home. I was dying to know what he had planned but he was his usual quiet, imperturbable self. Though it was cute to see him touch his neck every so often where I’d given him that hickey. I loved being able to break down that stern façade and make him go crazy. Speaking of . . . sliding my hand up his leg I leaned over against him. He twitched slightly and didn’t look at me. I couldn’t help but smile. “What are you thinking about?” Dark eyes flicked toward me then away. “Nuthin.” I didn’t believe that for a second. It irritated me that people just assumed Kenta was stupid because of the way he talked. Shaking off that thought, I reached up to brush his hair back from his face. I loved the way his hair would feather around his face, almost making him look boyish. He looked a lot softer than he really was. It had caught quite a few people off guard. That and his glare could eat through concrete. He must practice or something. Kenta had the ‘I’ll fuck you up so bad you’ll wish I killed you’ look. Which was kind of funny considering the man was pretty enough to put most idols to shame. I couldn’t help staring at him. I still remembered the first time I’d seen him. Really seen him. I’d seen him at Hayate’s bar before then, but I’d been too focused on Akira at the time. Akira had asked me and Sora to come to the hospital to visit a friend who was a fan. I’d jumped at the chance. I loved meeting fans. Though not quite the way I’d done it tonight. Thankfully that girl hadn’t been hurt when I’d fallen on her. She’d seemed more delighted than anything. I hadn’t known that the friend Akira was talking about was Kenta. He’d been assaulted and beaten unconscious by a group of boys with pipes. His injuries had been pretty severe, though I hadn’t been aware of it at the time. I don’t think I could ever forget seeing him sitting up in the bed. He’d been heavily bandaged, but it had still been easy to see that he was exceptionally good looking. His eyes had been the first thing to enthrall me. I’d never met anyone with eyes so deep that they pulled you in and held you captivated. There had been pain there, but also a determination that was unlike anything I’d ever seen. Akira had explained what had happened and I’d been shocked that anyone would go that far to help a friend. He’d been teaching Reiko to defend herself and had run into the very boys who had been harassing her. Six on one is never good odds, even with someone as skilled as Kenta. He didn’t know a formal style like Hasu, but he had years of street experience on his side. He’d been so happy to meet us and I had ended up staying after everyone left. We’d talked for hours. Well, I’d talked as he laid there listening, those inscrutable dark eyes never looking away. Before I’d left I’d asked if it would be alright if I came back the next day. That had been the first time I had ever seen him smile. Looking at him now, knowing him as well as I did, I knew it had to have been meant for us to meet. I needed him. Needed his calming quiet presence just like he needed me to see past the tough exterior to what he really was. I followed him out of the limo, keeping close to him. He had a hand on my elbow which was normal, but for some reason it felt different. The way his fingers curled around the inside of my arm, his grip firm yet gentle, was sending tingles racing over my skin. How could a simple touch do this to me? Naoki had never made me feel this way even when we’d first got together. I’d never had this nearly breathless anticipation, the sensation that I was jumping out of my own skin. I wasn’t going to hold back once we got to the apartment. I wanted him like I’d never wanted anyone in my life. Wanted to lose myself utterly and completely to this man I’d fallen for.

Ryuu I could barely sit still backstage. I knew my excitement had little to do with the upcoming concert. I’d resigned myself to waiting until Kenta was ready. He’d been really sweet about it, but very firm. I wasn’t about to push something on him that he didn’t want to do. I’d made it this far with him and I wasn’t going to ruin it by going too fast. “You are getting as bad as Hasu. What’s wrong with you?” Sora chuckled softly as he tuned his guitar. “Oh um . . . just excited.” “Well you might want to calm down and do your warm up.” “Oh yeah.” I was letting this get too me way too much. I needed to calm down or the concert was going to suffer. Kenta would be there after the concert. Oh god . . . I needed to calm down. “You need an icepack or something for that?” Sora raised an eyebrow at me and I glared shifting away from him. Now that was just embarrassing and I was glad Hasu and Akira were still getting the drums set up. “Actually . . . that might not be a bad idea.” “That bad huh?” “He finally said yes.” “No fucking way. No wonder you are-“ “Just shut up. I’ll be right back.” His laughter followed me out. I needed to get cooled down and there was no way I could take care of my problem right now. For one thing I was not unlacing these pants again. They took entirely too long to get back on. Okay, walking was starting to hurt. I needed to think of something besides Kenta, like how upset the fans would be if I couldn’t sing tonight. It took about ten minutes but I finally was able to come back and get warmed up. I just had to keep my mind focused on the concert and singing. By the time we were ready to go onstage I had everything under control. The heat from the lights and the sound from the crowd seem to hit me with physical force and I grinned. This was what I loved, to be able to entertain and enjoy the reaction of the crowd. It was like a live thing, the way the sound would wrap around me. By the first intermission I was completely into it. While the other guys went backstage to grab drinks, I stayed on stage and talked to the crowd. This was one of my favorite things to do. It was so much fun to watch them. The girls up front were screaming and yelling things at me, but when I’d talk they would calm down to listen. It was so cute. So I told them so and the noise got nearly deafening. I was grinning as I walked back toward the center of the stage. Akira had just come back and was smiling at me. I went to grab my own water as Hasu took his seat and rattled off a quick little set that had the girls screaming again. This was the only time he’d talk to the crowd and they went nuts for him. I had to admit, he was absolutely adorable. Soon it was time to start up again and I walked back to center stage. After announcing the next couple of songs I turned to Hasu smiling. I knew Cry was hard for him with the constantly changing tempo, but he could do it. He nodded and after the guitar intro went right into playing. I grinned as he hit the timing perfectly and nodding my head to the beat walked closer to the edge. This song was a little different than the others and I like to get close and personal with the fans when I sang it. There was a short catwalk, only about four feet long by that wide in the front center of the stage which was perfect for this. It didn’t have the barrier around it like the rest of the stage. I’d just finished the refrain and was getting ready to turn to grab a drink during the guitar solo when I felt something catch my ankle. I went to step back to regain my footing only to realize too late that I’d stepped off the side of the catwalk. Kenta I was already sprinting down the narrow divider between the fans and the stage. I still couldn’t see Ryuu and Akira had quit playing and was at the edge of the stage. I could see Hayate and Hiro and another security guard headed for the spot Ryuu had disappeared. Fuck it all to hell. A blond head suddenly popped back up and then he was climbing back onto the stage, waving at the crowd and laughing. Holy fucking shit. I thought I was going to be sick my heart was beating so fast. Slowing down I met Hayate in front of the stage. I was not moving from this spot the rest of the night. Hell I’d probably stand here for every concert from now on. Seeing him fall had rattled me like nothing else. He could have so easily broken something or been knocked unconscious. Thankfully the rest of the concert went by without any further incidents except Ryuu’s normal antics. Though my ears were ringing and I could barely hear. Ear plugs next time. Backstage the boys were doing their usual routine. Akira was stretched out on the couch his feet up on the arm rest. Sora was helping Hasu open the gift baskets we regularly got at the concerts now. Ryuu was . . . not here. “Where’s Ito?” “He went to go change, he said his pants were bothering him.” “Really . . . “ He loved those pants but I wouldn’t let him wear them in public. It was bad enough that he wore them on stage in front of thousands of screaming girls. Before I could go look for him he was back in jeans and a t-shirt and looking sexier than ever. He’d taken his hair down and washed most of the make-up off. He couldn’t possibly have looked any more gorgeous. I stumbled slightly as someone shoved me and turned to see Sora grinning down at me. “You might want to close your mouth, you are drooling.” I glared up at him and as soon as he turned away wiped a hand across my mouth just to be sure. Ryuu was already walking over and I was a little startled when he grabbed my arm and dragged me out of them room. Sora’s laughter following us out the door. “Ryuu . . . Ryuu where are we going?” He’d led us down a couple of hallways and we were now at one of the back stairwells that lead outside. “Here this is good. I just need a few minutes.” “Wha-“ Anything else I was going to say was swallowed up by his lips on mine. My back hit the wall behind me and I wondered if he was going to let me fucking breathe. If I’d thought his kisses were amazing before this seemed to be on a whole new level. Did concerts making him fucking horny or what? He’d never been this aggressive before. Whatever it was I didn’t care but I couldn’t let him undress me here like it seemed like he was trying to do, his hands sliding up under my shirt. I somehow managed to grab his arms, pulling his hands out from under my shirt. “Ry-Ryuu . . . wa-wait . . . “ I could barely get a word out between kisses and was getting light headed from lack of air. He finally pulled back and I found myself gasping for air. Holy fucking hell. The look in his eyes should have been fucking illegal or something. Soft fingers slid down my cheek and I wondered when I’d let go of him. “Thank you.” “Huh?” “Thank you for being there and trying to protect me. I saw you in front of the stage.” “Oh.” That? That was what this was about? I started to say I was just doing my fucking job, but the look in his eyes stopped me. Shit. Why did he have to be so pretty? Pretty, talented and all around amazing if you didn’t mind dealing with a few temper tantrums and the occasional crying. I didn’t mind it in the least. “Yer welcome.” I barely got it out before he was kissing me again.

Kenta I woke to the feel of a warm hand sliding up my hip. “Ryuu . . . I’m sleeping.” “Not anymore.” I jerked my head away as he nibbled on my ear. “It’s almost two. I let you sleep in.” “Fuck! Why didn’t you get me up sooner?” “You looked so cute, I didn’t have the heart to wake you. And now I’ve got new wallpaper for my phone.” “Ito!” He squeaked and leapt out of the bed as I went to grab him. “Get back here!” I managed to grab his wrist and yanked him back down on the bed. His laughter made me smile as I pinned him. He was trying to wiggle out from under me, but I wasn’t having that. He looked too damn good to leave alone. His hair was done up in a simple ponytail, strands that had slipped free were laying across his cheek and forehead and even without his usual make-up he looked down right fucking hot. Keeping a tight hold on his wrist I grabbed his other arm so he couldn’t get loose. Leaning down I looked into those stunning grey eyes. “You are in big trouble now.” The eyes widened slightly, but I didn’t miss the way one corner of his mouth twitched. “Oh really?” He shifted slightly under me and I felt his leg wrap around mine. He suddenly pushed up and twisted at the same time. My back hit the bed the next instant. I stared up at him for a moment. “Fuck. When did you learn to do that?” He laughed and kissed me, a soft slightly moist press of lips against mine. “I’ve known how to do that for a couple of years now. Hasu showed me how. ” “Oh.” “You are really cute when you pout.” “Ain’t pouting.” “You are too. You don’t like it that I can pin you.” This seemed to be way too fucking funny to him. “Never said that.” “You don’t have to say it, your eyes give you away.” He laughed softly and slid back so that he was straddling my hips. I had to bite my lip as the sudden friction sent a rush of heat through me. “Oh, you liked that didn’t you.” “F-fuck! Don’t do that Ryuu.” I gasped as he ground his hips against mine. “I need to get up.” “Oh I’ll get you up, don’t worry.” “Ry-shit!” I gasped as he moved just right, my eyes squeezing shut for a moment. He was right about that. He didn’t really have to do anything at all to get me hard was the problem. I tried to get my arms out of his grip, but he was a lot stronger than he looked. He was grinning as he continued to move against me. He leaned down so that our faces were close. “I know this won’t get you off, but we can finish that in the shower.” I wasn’t quite sure what to think and honestly I didn’t care. He suddenly pulled back, pulling me up with him. “Come on lets go.” “Wait . . .right now?” “Well yeah.” “Wait! Wait! Ryuu! Aren’t the guys here?” “Kenta I have soundproofed walls and I locked the door so don’t worry about it.” That grin was going to kill me one of these days. I didn’t have much choice as he dragged me into the bathroom. I never thought anyone could strip so fast. I hadn’t even got my shirt over my head when I felt hands on my hips. I sucked in a startled breath as teeth lightly grazed a nipple. I jerked, my arms getting caught in my shirt. It was like an electric shock had just shot straight to my cock. “Fuck! Ryuu!” His soft laugh was quickly followed by another assault on my exposed nipples. I finished yanking the shirt free and went to grab him. He slid out of my grasp taking my shirt with him. That was when I realized my pants were around my ankles. Well shit. Stepping out of them, I went to grab him again. Sneaky little shit. He didn’t try to avoid me this time. Instead he stepped close, fingers latching on to my hips to pull me flush against him. I had to bite back a groan at the feel of him pressed up against me like this. Warm soft lips found mine and I was rather shocked when a tongue followed. That was new. New and very nice. Very nice. Sliding my hands down his back, I cupped that perfect ass and heard him moan softly. I shuddered as one of his hands slid down between us to slowly start stroking me. “Ryuu, we don’t have time . . . the concert . . .” He pulled back to look at me, perfectly arched eyebrows raised. “You are really going to make me stop?” I glanced toward the shower. I was going to blue ball myself doing this but Ryuu was my first concern. This concert was very important. Wasn’t it just yesterday that he’d been willing to alienate his friends in order to get things perfect? Sometimes I really did not understand what went through the man’s head. “Wait till after the concert. I don’t want you tired.” “Oh . . .” Something in his eyes changed slightly and he looked down. After a moment he looked back up at me through his hair and I seriously questioned if I wasn’t crazy. Who the hell would make him stop? I was fucking nuts! No one should be able to look so innocent and so fucking seductive at the same fucking time. “So . . . you have plans for after the concert?” “Guess you could say that.” Didn’t have a fucking clue what they were at this point, but they involved making one Ito Ryuunosuke scream my name. Fuck. Shouldn’t think about that. “Maybe we’ll actually use those condoms.” His eyes widened as his head jerked up. He stared at me for a long moment before grinning and hugging me close. “Are you sure? You said –“ “Yeah, I’m sure. Just go get ready and let me take my fucking shower.” I leaned against the counter behind me watching as he quickly got dressed and with one last smile at me left the room. I was still hard as a fucking rock. Fuck . . .had I really just promised what I thought I had? Oh fuck. That conversation had been fucking awkward. I’d tried to explain that I wasn’t quite ready to go that far. He’d pouted for a couple days after that. Couldn’t exactly come out and say ‘Sorry Ryuu I’m not ready to fuck you like you want cause I saw what happened to the guys in juvie and it scared the shit out of me.’ Besides that . . . I wasn’t ready for going that far just yet. Ryuu was too . . . he deserved better. As corny as it sounded I wanted it to be special not just a quick fuck. And I’d just screwed myself out of what would have been an amazing blowjob. Such a fucking idiot. But at least Ryuu had something to look forward to.

(A/N) This chapter is rated M for violence and noncon. Ryuu “I said I was sorry.” I didn’t know what else to do. Naoki had me backed against the bedroom wall. I flinched yelping, as his hand slammed into the wall next to my head. He’d already hit me twice and I was terrified he was going to continue to hit me unless I got him calmed down. “You are sorry? That’s all you can say! Sorry! You are such a fucking waste of my time.” A whimper escaped as he grabbed me by the hair dragging me over to the bed. “You wouldn’t even have a band if it wasn’t for me. You can’t sing, you can barely play guitar and you think you deserve to be the center of attention just because of who you are. Don’t fucking kid yourself. If your family didn’t have money you would be nothing but a cheap slut. You are a cheap slut and I’m going to fuck you like the slut you are.” I landed on my back and was instantly hit, the blow leaving me reeling. I struggled to move, to stop him, but he just hit me repeatedly until I quit fighting him. I could taste blood and feel it running down the back of my throat, gagging me. He was ripping my clothes off and I couldn’t do anything but lay there sobbing. “Na-Naoki pl-please stop.” “Shut up!” I cried out as he wrenched my arm forcing me to turn over. I tried to push myself up off the bed, to get away from him. A hand between my shoulder blades forced me back down and held me there even as I thrashed. He was too heavy for me to move him. The large hand moved from my back to my hair, his grip tight enough to bring new tears to my eyes. I felt him lean down over me, his breath hot on my cheek. He pulled my hips back until I was bent over the side of the bed, my legs pinned. “I want to hear just how sorry you are.” I screamed as he shoved forward, completely penetrating me with one violent jerk, the abrupt stabbing pain almost too much for me to take. Why was he doing this? Cruel fingers tightened in my hair dragging my head up. “Say it, say how sorry you are.” “I-I’m so-sorry.” I could barely breathe for the sobs. I couldn’t stop the scream as he pulled back only to slam forward again. Kenta I bolted up in the bed, the scream still echoing around me. My heart was hammering so hard it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. Ryuu was flailing beside me, the soft cries scaring the shit out of me. A nightmare? Tossing back the covers I flipped on the light and grabbed him, almost getting hit in the face. He was crying, tears streaming down his face, but his eyes were still closed. “Ryuu! Ryuu! Wake up!” I shook him slightly feeling him stiffen his eyelids fluttering. There was no recognition in them as he stared at me and for a moment I was afraid he was going to completely freak out on me. I’d never seen that kind of raw fear in his eyes and it made me feel completely helpless. “Ito!” He blinked at me and suddenly started sobbing. Fuck! What was wrong with him? I pulled him close trying my best to comfort him. “Hey, hey I’m here. It’s alright. You are okay.” He was shaking, the sobs making his whole body shudder. It took several minutes but I finally got him calmed down. He wouldn’t look at me as I gently wiped the tears off his face. “Ryuu . . . what’s wrong?” He just shook his head and buried himself against me, his arms wrapped around my waist. I ran my fingers through the messy hair trying to calm him as much as myself. I held him like that until I realized he’d fallen back asleep. Carefully laying him back down I watched him sleep. What the hell kind of dream had he been having? Whatever it was it had scared the shit out of him. Reaching over I shut off the light and lay back down. I’d call Sora in the morning and see if he knew anything. *** “I’m sorry Kenta, but if he hasn’t said anything I really don’t feel comfortable being the one to tell you.” Sora and I were in the kitchen. He had come over after I’d called him that morning and was helping me make Ryuu breakfast. Ryuu was still in bed where I’d left him a bit ago. “He’s had nightmares like this for a while now. He usually calls me and I come over and make him breakfast. It seems to calm him down. Just don’t expect him to be his usual self today. When they are this bad he can get really depressed.” I nodded as I set the food out on the plate. “He scared the shit out of me. But he wouldn’t tell me anything.” “Just give it some time. Um . . .” He turned to look at me. “Honestly Kenta, you are the first relationship he’s had in a while. His crush on Akira was just that and he knew it.” “Yeah.” “Don’t let it get to you Kenta. Ryuu knew Akira was never going to return his feelings. He felt safe liking Akira and Akira let him be himself.” “How do you know all this?” “I’ve known Ryuu since high school and . . . we’ve been through a lot together. A whole lot.” Sora’s voice dropped and I looked over hearing him sigh. “Just . . . treat him good Kenta. He’s had people in his past that didn’t treat him like they should have.” I nodded. I didn’t understand how anyone could want to hurt him. Sure I smacked him from time to time, but that was different. I never did it to hurt him. Sometimes he just needed to calm down and it was the best way to get his attention. Kind of like a kid. But I’d never hit him out of anger or to hurt him and I never would. Picking up the tray, I headed into the bedroom, Sora’s soft footsteps just behind me. Ryuu was still curled up in the bed, his eyes red and glassy. Fuck. How could he look sexy even like that? Shit, what the hell was I thinking? Ryuu needed comfort not a horny idiot. “Hey, Sora and I made you breakfast.” I kept my voice low and soft and was rewarded with a ghost of a smile. “Thanks.” His voice was a bit rough and I wondered if I should call Akira and Hasu and cancel practice. I glanced back at Sora but he was looking at Ryuu. “Ryuu, maybe we should cancel practice for today.” “No! No . . . I need-I need to . . . it helps.” Setting the tray down on the nightstand I sat on the bed. “Why don’t you eat breakfast and get ready to go. I’ll take you to Sannomiya so you can go shopping.” He looked up at me and I had no idea how to read the expression on his face. It was like looking at one of those homeless kids when I’d show up with food and money, they expected it to get snatched right back. “Are . . . are you sure? You hate shopping.” “Yeah I’m fucking sure. I’ll even go get Tatsuya for you.” His smile wasn’t quite as bright as normal but it was getting there. He nodded and started eating. I got up and went to go find him some clothes. I didn’t want him wearing anything too flashy, though that might be a challenge looking at his clothes. He dressed like he was going to a photo shoot every day. Even his pajama pants were name brand. By the time I found something suitable that I thought he would actually wear he was done with breakfast and in the shower. Sora smiled at me as he gathered up the tray. “Good thinking Kenta. I’ll call you later this afternoon. If you can, keep him out as long as possible. We can skip practice for today.”

Kenta I flipped open my phone, trying to juggle it and the box of paperwork Isao had given me to archive. Crazy ass pencil pusher needed to get an assistant and quit asking me to do this shit. “Hey-“ “Kenta? It’s Sora. Have you heard from Ryuu?” Letting the box down I straightened, frowning. “No, not for a few days. Why?” “He’s not answering his phone and I just tried to go check on him and he wasn’t at the apartment.” “When did you see him last?” “Yesterday afternoon. The doorman said he left sometime last night . . . Kenta he never came home.” I nearly dropped the phone. “Wh-what? Ryuu doesn’t just go out, not like that. Fuck.” “Yeah I know. It’s got me really worried. He was acting strange yesterday and honestly I think he was getting sick.” “Ryuu is never sick.” “Yeah I know, so he probably didn’t even realize it. Kenta, you need to find him.” “Yeah.” I felt like someone had taken my guts and twisted them inside out. “Yeah, I’ll uh . . . I’ll call you.” “Thanks Kenta.” I hung up and leaned against the wall behind me. Shaking myself, I took a breath. Where would Ryuu go if he wasn’t feeling good? Shoving off the wall I headed to the front of the office. Isao was at the computer tapping away at that infernal keyboard. “Iesada, I got a problem.” He looked at me over the rim of his glasses. “You are a problem Arakaki. What’s wrong this time?” “Ryuu is missing.” “Oh shit, that is a problem. Aren’t you supposed to be his bodyguard?” “Don’t fucking rub it in! You’ve had me here doing shit for the past two weeks.” “You could have said something.” “Like you’d fucking listen.” He sighed. “You are right. I try my level best to ignore your idiocy at all times. You need help finding him?” “Yeah.” I felt like punching the mouthy shithead but Hayate would kill me. “Give me thirty minutes.” “Okay.” It took fifteen. “One of the guys spotted him about three hours ago at a net café over on the lower south side. He’s not come out yet. Here is the address.” “Awesome!” I snatched up the paper, thanking him on my way out. He might be a mouthy son of a bitch, but he got stuff done. *** The net café was a nice one. All the cubicles looked full. Going to the little food bar I asked the girl making drinks if she’d seen Ryuu. “Oh, how could I forget a hottie like that? Yeah. He’s in A3, but you aren’t supposed to bother-“ I turned and walked off. I had the information I needed. The door was shut, but there was no sound coming from the other side. I went to knock on it and paused suddenly feeling nervous. I hadn’t talked to him in days and hadn’t seen him for even longer. Things had been fucking awkward ever since the day at Jiro’s. He hadn’t even been calling as often as he normally did. I just figured he was pissed at me. Who wouldn’t be? I fucking thrown him across a room then turned him down when he’d asked me out. So now, I wasn’t really sure what to expect. Sliding the door open I scrambled to catch him as he fell backward. “Fuck! Ryuu!” Kneeling down I tried to prop him up. He was sweating like crazy, his shirt soaked and he felt entirely too hot to the touch. Glazed eyes slowly focused on me as he struggled weakly to get up. “Oh hi.” “Ryuu . . . fuck. You are sick. Why the hell aren’t you at home?” “It’s lonely.” It couldn’t possibly have hurt worse if he’d taken a dull knife and stabbed it right through me. If I’d been doing what I was supposed to, doing my fucking job, he wouldn’t be here like this, wouldn’t have been wandering around sick all night. I’d put him in danger by not being there. I was a fucking failure. Not anymore. Not fucking again. Shifting around, I scooped him up. He was lighter. Why the fuck was he lighter? “Excuse me sir?” I looked up to see the lady from earlier looking worried. “Is there something I can help you with.” “Yeah, call me a cab.” She nodded, her eyes never leaving Ryuu. “Right away sir.” I held him against me, feeling him shake every so often. Fuck. I had to get him to a clinic. Nakamara was going to have my balls. Worse than that, he was going to fire me. Setting Ryuu down, I took my jacket off and wrapped it around him before picking him up again. I gasped as there was a sudden sharp pain in my side. Shaking it off, I walked toward the front keeping a tight hold on Ryuu. The cab was just pulling up. I nodded to the girl as she held the door open for me. Ryuu was saying something, but with his face buried against my neck I couldn’t make out what it was. I was starting to sweat just from carrying him he was so hot to the touch. It was scaring me. If his fever was too high it could get dangerous. The ride to the clinic was tense. I played with my phone, dialing Nakamara then shutting it. I finally decided to call Sora. Someone needed to know I’d found him. Sora picked up on the second ring and I could hear a video game going in the background. “Kenta? Turn that down will you, Hasu? Did you find him? Is he alright? Where was he?” “Um. He was at a net café. We are on our way to a clinic. He’s um-he’s really sick.” “Which clinic?” I told him wondering how soon I’d know if I’d lost my job or not. I hadn’t told Nakamara about having Hayate do my job. I’d just thought that giving Ryuu some space would be better. I was lying to myself. I knew I was. Fucking lying. I just couldn’t handle being around him every day. When I was around him all I could think about was . . . things I shouldn’t be thinking about. His safety was my priority. Nothing else. Reaching over I smoothed the sweat soaked hair back from his face. “I’m sorry Ryuu.” Ryuu Light woke me. It was too bright to sleep any longer. I slowly opened my eyes almost dreading what I would see. I had heard voices several times when I’d wake just enough to have someone give me some water. After the second time that had happened, I’d realized I was very sick. It was scary. My body wouldn’t move and for a while I’d nearly panicked trying to get up. Nothing had made sense at that point. The only thing that came through clearly was Kenta’s voice. Knowing that he was there meant I didn’t have to worry. I’d actually slept after that. I wondered if it was morning. The clock said it was two, must be afternoon. Turning my head the other way I blinked seeing Kenta half laying on the bed, one arm stretched out toward me. My heart sped up. How long had he been there? Why was he here? I slowly reached over, running my fingers through the dark strands. Now that I was awake I could remember hearing his voice the whole time since he’d first found me at the net café. I wasn’t really sure how I’d gotten there, that part was kind of a blur. I’d just known that something didn’t feel right. I’d thought that maybe going out would help. Apparently not. He stirred slightly under my fingers and I froze. Would he be mad at me for touching him? I just didn’t know what to do anymore. He was so confusing. Taking my hand out of his hair I laid my head back turning to look out the window again. I should just give up. I wasn’t willing to lose his friendship over this. I could deal with not being closer. I would deal with it. Closing my eyes, I bit down on the urge to cry. I wasn’t going to. He’d just get on to me for it anyway. I nearly jumped feeling warm fingers suddenly surrounding mine. I turned my head, only to smile weakly seeing Sora standing next to the bed. Kenta was still sound asleep. “Hey.” “Hey.” “You look like shit.” “You look like a walking mop, a dirty one.” Sora just chuckled and shook his head, keeping his voice down. “You gave us quite a scare yesterday, Ito.” “Sorry. I knew something didn’t feel right and thought going out would help.” “Why didn’t you call me?” “Because I always call you. It’s not fair to you Sora.” “Bullshit. You could have called this idiot.” Sora glanced down at Kenta. I shook my head. “No, he . . . just no.” “He stayed up all night with you last night. He must have passed out just a few minutes ago. I was just in here thirty minutes ago and he was still awake.” I shifted around to sit up, leaning against the headboard. “Well, it’s his job isn’t it?” Even I heard the bite in my voice and I suddenly felt bad. “Yeah . . . about that. I think Nakamara is going to fire him.” I jerked around to face Sora. “What! No! No, he can’t! I won’t allow it! I-it was my fault. I . . . was too pushy.” A dry laugh escaped me and I dropped my head, plucking at the covers. “If anything he could sue me for sexual harassment.” “I don’t think he would do that Ryuu.” At Sora’s gentle tone I looked up. “He really does like you Ryuu. We . . . talked for a bit last night at the clinic. He’s terrified of getting fired, but he’s more scared of messing things up for you.” I stared at Sora trying to process that information. Kenta and scared didn’t go in the same sentence. I looked back down at the dark head. It was just like Kenta to think of someone else before himself. I just wished he would let me back in. I’d been shoved back outside that barrier and it seemed higher than ever. “I don’t know Sora.” “Just . . . don’t give up Ryuu. If you can’t win, where will I be?” “Jacking off to those photos you sneak when he’s not looking.” Sora’s eyes narrowed dangerously. “If you weren’t sick I’d . . . sometimes I don’t even know why I bother.” “Cause you love me!” I grinned at him as I shifted back down under the covers and rolled over onto my side. I was feeling sleepy again. I curled up around Kenta laying a hand on his. “Besides, it’s what I do. So I know you’d do it too.” “Oh my god, Ryuu . . . you are just . . . never mind. Go back to sleep for a bit. I’ll bring you something to eat here after while.” “Sora.” I waited till he’d turned back around. “Thanks and . . . I will keep trying.”

Kenta “Wh-what? Ryuu you can’t . . . you can’t be serious.” Why the fucking hell would he want me after what I’d done? I’d promised myself years ago that if I was ever lucky enough to find someone I would never treat them the way I’d seen my family treated. Yet, Ryuu and I were only hours into . . . whatever this was and I’d already hurt him. “I am serious. Very serious.” His eyes were shimmering as he looked at me. How could anyone look that good after crying? His cheeks were flushed, his hair a mess, his eyes holding too much emotion in them. I was losing myself. Totally and completely. “Ryuu, I-“ He kissed me again and I was shocked at the need in it. I could taste his tears, the slight saltiness mixing with the almost sweet flavor of him. How could something so simple make me feel like I was falling? A lost breathless sensation, it reminded me of when I rode my motorcycle hard and fast, leaving me high and shivering. This was so much better. So fucking much better. Before I knew it I had reached out, one hand in his hair, the other on his hip. I could care less that my ribs were screaming at me. I didn’t want to let him go. He pulled back just enough so that we could breathe, our lips still touching. The feather light touch making my lips tingle even more. Holy hell he was a good kisser. I slid my hand through his hair, my eyes locked on his wishing desperately I knew what to do. “Is that really what you want? You want me . . .” “I’ve wanted you since the first moment I saw you.” His low husky voice sent a chill down my spine. I let out a slow breath, not sure what to say. I’d never dated anyone. I’d messed around with a few girls, but Ryuu was so-so different from any relationship I’d ever had. The thought of being able to call him my boyfriend, my lover, was something that caused a weird fluttering sensation in my stomach. I played with a stand of the silky hair, not quite able to meet his eyes. This was going to kill me. “Really? Cause I seem to remember being laid up in the hospital the first time I met you. Had to look like shit.” “It wasn’t your looks that made me want you Kenta, though you were incredibly hot in that hospital gown. But that’s not the point. You’d risked your life for Reiko. All I saw was someone who was brave and willing to do anything for their friends. I saw the person who was willing to help someone even if they got hurt in the process, someone who was trustworthy and kind.” I nearly snorted at that, but looking at him I could see he believed every word of it. It made me feel sick to know I was going to prove him wrong. “I just helped her cause I was scared she’d hurt herself otherwise.” He smiled at me. “See. You are exactly like I said.” I tugged on the piece of hair. “Shut it. Are you trying to embarrass me or something?” He giggled at that and reaching up took my hand out of his hair. Holding it he brought it to his lips and kissed each of my bruised knuckles, the soft touches sending tingles racing up my arm. Why was he like this with me? It was confusing as hell. He should be fucking pissed as hell at me and yelling at me, not treating me like I mattered. “Ryuu . . .” “I never get tired of hearing you say my name.” He leaned back up until our lips were almost touching his breath warm. “I just love listening to you talk.” I leaned back giving him a look that I hope let him know how fucking confused I was. “You really are weird. That doesn’t say a fucking lot about me though.” He busted out laughing and sat back patting my leg. “I guess not. Come on. We are taking you to a clinic. You can give me your answer later.” “Um, no you aren’t. All they are going to do is tell me to wrap up, take some meds and not move around a lot. Besides I already know my answer.” The look in his eyes nearly broke me right there. Fuck. “Ryuu I can’t.” Ryuu Even as much as I’d tried to prepare myself for it, it still hurt like hell. I’d asked on a whim, but it was too much too soon. I could tell. Taking a deep breath I swallowed, forcing down the searing pain in my chest. I smiled and got to my feet. “Can’t go to the clinic? Don’t be silly. I’ll pay for it.” “Ryuu, that isn’t what I meant.” I looked down into those deep unfathomable eyes and slowly nodded feeling the smile failing. “I understand. Got to keep work and . . . pleasure separate.” I nodded turning away before he could say anything. “You are still going to the clinic, don’t make me get Jiro.” “You wouldn’t.” “Don’t push me.” I glanced back at him and could see the hesitancy in his eyes. I wondered if it was about going to the clinic or something else. Opening the door I headed back down the hall. I felt heavy and listless, but did my best to put on a happy, cheerful face. At least he wasn’t mad at me. Yet. He’d probably be mad once we got to the clinic. “Jiro-” “I’m fucking coming!” I smiled at that even though it felt strained. I could see Sora out of the corner of my eye, watching me. “We are going to the clinic.” Slipping my shoes on, I didn’t look up. I would probably just go home after making sure Kenta was alright. I didn’t really want to be around anyone right now. My back was starting to hurt from getting tossed on the floor earlier and a soak in the tub sounded nice. Would have been even nicer if Kenta would join me, but I’d ruined that by being to needy. Ruined everything. *** “Ryuu, you are in the wrong key.” Akira’s voice snapped me out of the daze I’d been in. I looked down at the sheet music and realized he was right. “Oh, sorry. Um . . . care if we take a break?” “No, we haven’t had one in a while.” I sat on my stool staring at the music, the subtle sounds of everyone leaving the studio not even really registering. Two weeks. It had been two weeks already. It felt like years. I’d seen Kenta three times since that day at Akira’s apartment. Apparently he was busy with work. Hayate had come with me on a couple of press conferences and a signing giving some excuse for Kenta each time. It felt like he was avoiding me. I felt lost without his quiet somber presence around, his gruff no nonsense demeanor. Was I really that used to having him around? “Are you getting sick Ryuu?” Sora was standing over me. I hadn’t even noticed him. “Oh. No. I’m fine.” “You don’t look good. You’ve got dark circles under your eyes and you are a lot paler than usual.” “Gee thanks.” “I’m serious Ryuu, even your singing is off. We haven’t been able to lay a decent track in days. Maybe you should go to the doctor.” I shook my head. “No, I think I’m just tired. I’ve not been sleeping well.” “Nightmares again? You know you can always call me or even just come over.” “No, that’s not it. I just . . . I don’t know.” I shrugged. “Alright, just take care of yourself Ryuu. If you need anything you just call me. I think we need to stop for today anyway.” They all left not too long after that. I wandered around the empty apartment. There wasn’t anything I wanted to watch on TV and trying to compose right now would be useless. I finally ended up lying on my bed staring out at the slowly darkening sky.

Kenta “What is wrong with you?” Sora hissed at me. The sound of Ryuu running down the stairs was too loud. I could still hear that choked back sob. Wrapping an arm around my ribs, I dared to glance over at Jiro. Shit. He was pissed at me. That look was fucking scary. “You better go get him.” Isao got up and walked over, placing a hand on Sora’s arm, probably to keep him from hitting me. Hasu was watching all of us, his eyes huge. “Yes I think you better.” I shivered at Jiro’s tone. “I’m sorry. He just-it fucking hurt!” “How was he supposed to know you’ve got busted ribs Kenta?” Isao’s eyes bored into me. “He was happy to see you, quite obviously, and you just treated him like complete shit.” It was like a blow to the gut. I suddenly felt sick. Fuck. I’d just reacted when he’d grabbed me instead of thinking. I was still in fight mode after this morning and had probably hurt Ryuu in more than one way. I could still see the shocked look on his face, the fear in his eyes. Fuck. Taking a shallow breath I managed to stand up straight. Sora looked ready to spit in my face. “I don’t care if you are fucking dying you don’t ever, ever treat him like that. You don’t know . . . you don’t know what you’ve done.” Sora shook off Isao’s hand and grabbed the front of my shirt, yanking me forward. “I might not be yakuza, but I can and I will make you regret ever even thinking about touching him.” I nodded slowly shocked. As long as I’d known Sora I’d never seen the big guy get this angry. He always just seemed like nothing bothered him. It wasn’t like I’d intended to toss Ryuu on his ass. The combination of the pain and still being on a bit of a high from the fight had made me act before I’d even realized it was Ryuu. “It was an accident.” I mumbled. “You fucking threw him on the floor. How is that a fucking accident? He’s too sensitive for you to act like that.” Sora shook me, making me gasp as pain shot through me. “I get it. I get it. I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to. I’ll go talk to him.” Sora shoved me back letting go. His eyes were like jade daggers. “No you won’t. I will go talk to him. I don’t think I want you around him. Fuck! Now I’m going to have to call Nakamara and cancel the radio show. Thanks a fucking lot Arakaki.” I stood there like a fucking idiot as he left. No one was talking but I could feel their eyes on me, making my skin crawl. I wanted to yell at them, to do something to get rid of this horrible pressure in my chest that had nothing to do with the busted ribs. What the fuck had I done? “Kenta, why don’t you go sit in my room for a bit. I’ll be in to talk to you.” I glanced toward Jiro, not daring to meet his eyes. This was bad. No one ever wanted a talk from Jiro. Ever. I nodded slowly, keeping my eyes on the floorboards at my feet. The only sound as I walked down the short hall was my own footsteps. It felt like a death march. I was sore, tired and now . . . depressed. Fuck it all to hell. I closed the door and leaned against it for a moment. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to laugh or cry and wondered if I was delirious from pain and lack of sleep. Walking over to the bed I sat down wincing at the sudden sharp pain in my side. It was a good distraction from thinking about the look on Ryuu’s face. I really had not meant to hurt him. That didn’t change anything though. I had. End of story. I rubbed a hand over my face startled to realize I was trembling. Ryuu was not going to want to get anywhere near me now. That thought had me feeling lost and panicky. Shit, but I’m a fucking idiot. Ryuu I slowly followed Sora back up the stairs. I’d cried for a good thirty minutes but I didn’t feel better. I felt sick and hollow, an ache in my chest that seemed to be sapping all my strength. Sora kept looking back at me but I didn’t bother trying to pretend to smile for him. After he’d explained everything to me, I felt even worse. Kenta was hurt. No wonder he’d reacted like that. It must have been agonizingly painful when I’d grabbed him. It was no wonder he’d thrown me off like that. I shuddered, a rush of apprehension washing over me as Sora let us back into the apartment. I honestly wasn’t sure I could face him. Never once in the whole time he’d been working for me had he ever yelled at me like that. It hurt worse than hitting the floor had. “There you are.” Daisuike’s gentle voice made me look up. His smile was a lot like Akira’s, soft and engaging. He walked over and handed me a Coke which I gratefully took. I glanced up at him as he spoke again. “Ryuu, Kenta is in Jiro’s room. We had . . . some issues at one of the bars last night and he got hurt during the fight. They only just got back about thirty minutes before you guys showed up. I know it’s not an excuse for what he did, but it is a reason.” I nodded, not really trusting my voice at the moment. I took a drink of the Coke, the rush of familiar flavors calming me somewhat. I took a deep slow breath. “I should go apologize for hurting him.” Daisuike chuckled and patted my shoulder. “It’s alright. He’s a tough guy but, maybe not all that tough where you are concerned.” I looked up to see Daisuike watching me a thoughtful look on his face. He patted my shoulder once more and stepped back gesturing for me to follow him. Hesitantly, I followed Daisuike to Jiro’s room. He didn’t even bother knocking on the door, opening it for me. I almost hoped he was going to come in with me, but he shut the door behind me. Kenta was sitting on the bed his head bowed an arm around his ribs. I stood there for several minutes, not even sure what to say. I was appalled that I’d hurt him worse than he’d already been, but he’d also scared the shit out of me. I didn’t care what else happened, if we got things worked out or not, but he was going to a clinic if I had to drag him kicking and screaming. First things first. “Kenta I-“ “Don’t say it Ryuu.” Kenta’s voice was soft, the hurt clear in it. “I don’t deserve to have someone like you in my life. I just such a total fuck up. You need to forget that I am anything but a fucking bodyguard.” It was like having ice cold water dumped over me. I was suddenly numb and shaking. Walking over to him I knelt in front of him, looking up so I could see his eyes. “You’ve never been just a bodyguard to me, Kenta. I am sorry I hurt you.” He finally looked up at me and I was startled to see the raw hurt in his eyes. “What the fuck are you apologizing for? You didn’t do anything wrong. You were just being . . . you. No matter how much pain I was in, I should never have done that to you. Can you forgive me?” I shook my head watching his eyes change slightly, the pain seeming to deepen. He started to open his mouth and I leaned forward kissing him lightly. “I already did. But there is something you can do to make it up to me.” He raised his eyebrows at me. “What?” “Be my boyfriend.”

Kenta “You are in a weirdly good mood tonight.” Hayate raised an eyebrow at me as he took the tub full of dirty dishes out of my hands. “So.” “So, what’s going on?” I realized I was grinning and shook my head. “You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.” His eyebrows almost disappeared under his hair. “Really? That good huh? Must have had a good day off then.” I shrugged and untied my apron. “Yeah. I guess so. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Heading out to the alley I leaned against my bike were it was parked next to the building. Taking out my phone I looked at it. Three text messages. All from Ryuu. Why did I have the feeling that I’d started something that might be more than I could handle? I had to smile seeing them, a soft warmth filling me. Hope you are having a good night at work! I’m at Sora’s so I might still be up when you get off work. Don’t forget to call me! Hitting the speed dial I waited. On the third ring I heard someone pick up. “Hey, it’s me. Just letting you know I’m off work and headed home.” “Oh hey Kenta, its Sora. Ryuu fell asleep about thirty minutes ago.” I was surprised at how disappointed I was. Had I really wanted to talk to him that badly? “Oh, um . . . well let him know I called, will ya.” “Sure thing, and Kenta . . . thanks.” “Huh? Fer what?” “I haven’t seen Ryuu this happy in years.” “Oh. That. Yeah.” “Just . . . don’t hurt him Kenta. I will personally kill you if you do.” From the tone in Sora’s voice I knew the big guy was dead serious. Hurting Ryuu was the furthest thing from my mind. “I’m not that stupid.” A soft chuckle vibrated in my ear. “Be careful going home. I’ll tell him you called.” “Thanks.” I shoved the phone in my pocket and zipped up my jacket. Late summer was giving way to fall pretty quickly and the nights could be chilly. Especially driving a motorcycle. Slipping my helmet on I sighed thinking about what Sora had said. It was my job to protect Ryuu. It was something I’d taken very seriously from the first night I’d started as his personal bodyguard. I’d seen how crazy things could get at a concert. It was no wonder poor Hiro had almost quit after their first tour after Hasu had joined. I couldn’t imagine trying to watch all four of them at once. Heading home I took the route that drove along the sea. It was a beautiful night. It was just a bit on the cool side with no traffic other than delivery trucks and a few idiots racing. I pulled into my neighborhood, it was quiet and someone had busted out the street lights again leaving the run down buildings in darkness. I was going to have to find the fucker who was doing it. They’d regret it once I got hold of them. Parking my bike under the stairs of the apartment building I headed up to the room they actually fucking called an apartment. Ryuu’s closet was bigger. No joke. It didn’t even have a window; they’d taken it out to put in a door. Fucking slum lords. At least the bathroom was free at this hour. Standing under the barely warm water in the tiny bathroom it finally started to sink in. I was fucked. Once Nakamara found out I’d messed around with Ryuu he’d fire me. Leaning forward I rested my head on the tile. What the fuck was I going to do? It wasn’t like I could stop being around Ryuu. It was my fucking job to be around him. But I couldn’t just pretend it hadn’t happened either. Honestly, I would find any excuse I could to be around him. Even if this morning hadn’t happened, I would do anything to be there, to protect him, just watching him if I had to. “Fuck.” I slammed my fist into the wall and after a moment shut the water off. It was cold anyway and was reminding me too much of the shower earlier. God I missed the crazy weirdo. I got dressed quickly, shivering. I had to keep my mind off Ryuu or I wasn’t going to get any sleep and I had to be up again in five hours. You’d think working two jobs I’d be able to make ends meet. Guess it didn’t help that I tended to give my money away to the homeless kids I was always finding in the area. I’d managed to help a few get decent jobs and a couple of them were now working for Jiro. Not that I wanted this kind of life for them. Collapsing on my futon I covered my head with the pillow ordering myself to go to sleep. The sooner I fell asleep the sooner I got to see Ryuu. *** The phone woke me. It was Hayate. “We’ve got a problem.” He sounded like he was barely awake and I could hear his partner, Isao, griping in the background. “What’s going on?” “Fight at the bar.” “Fuck. What time is it?” “Four.” “Fucking hell. I’m gonna kill somebody.” Ryuu I stayed at Sora’s for breakfast, which was fun. He’d told me that Kenta had called around three to say he was going home. I nodded and finished eating the tamago Hasu had made. I didn’t usually like the egg concoction, but something about the way Hasu made it was better than anyone else’s. “He’s supposed to go with me today. I think.” I leaned my head over on my hand, thinking. Was that today? “Yeah, you and I have that radio show today.” “Oh! That’s right! I knew there was something going on today.” I grinned at Sora. “Thanks for letting me crash here last night.” “It’s fine. You haven’t stayed over in a while.” “Well someone needs to chaperon you around Hasu.” Sora reached across the table and smacked me on the forehead making me drop my bite of tamago. “Ouch! What the hell was that for?” “Don’t be a jerk.” I looked at him and realized my comment had been rather insensitive. He would never do anything to hurt Hasu, ever. “Sorry.” “Just cause you are getting some doesn’t mean you need to rub it in my face.” “I said I was sorry, besides . . .” I looked down at my plate shifting around in my chair. “Haven’t quite got that far yet.” “Then you really don’t have room to talk. Oh, thanks Hasu. You get enough to eat?” Sora looked up as Hasu came in with the last tray of food. Hasu nodded. “Yeah, for now.” “We need to get going Ryuu. Hasu we can drop you off at home on our way if you want.” “Actually . . . I’d like to go to Akira’s. I texted him earlier about it and he said it was fine.” “Yeah sure, that works.” After breakfast we headed across town to where Akira lived with his brothers. I spotted a familiar motorcycle as we pulled up. “Ah! Kenta is here!” I was surprised. He should have been at home asleep. Why was he at Jiro’s? I jumped out of the limo ignoring Sora telling me we didn’t have time. There was always time. Hasu was right behind me and I could hear Sora cussing me as he followed us. Grinning I opened the door to the apartment. It was full, granted there were only four people, but four people in their tiny apartment meant it was full. Kenta was perched on the arm of the couch while Hayate and Isao were sitting at the kitchen table. Jiro was standing by the window talking to them. “Hi guys!” I flicked my shoes off and went to tackle Kenta since his back was to me. It was my favorite thing to do ever since I’d met him. “Ryuu! Don’t!” Jiro’s exclamation was too late. I suddenly found myself on the floor in front of the couch, the breath knocked out of me. “Goddamn fucking hell you crazy son of a bitch!” Kenta yelled. “Calm down Kenta!” Jiro snapped as I tried to breathe. I was afraid to move, one leg still up on the cushion as I stared up at one very pissed off Kenta. What had I done? “What the fuck, Kenta!” Sora yelled as he shoved past him, reaching down to help me up. I’d finally caught my breath, but my chest was aching so fiercely it didn’t matter. Only Sora’s grip on my arm kept me from collapsing into a heap on the floor I was shaking so badly. I turned slightly into Sora trying to get a handle on the rush of emotions, feeling sick. For a moment there I had been terrified that Kenta was going to hit me. He’d never reacted like that before. Ever. “Why the fucking hell does he always pull shit like that!” Kenta’s voice tore through me. I covered my mouth with my hand, trying desperately to keep the sob in. It wasn’t going to work. Ripping away from Sora, I bolted out of the apartment, tripping down the stairs my eyes blurred with tears. What had I done? Why was he so mad at me? Stumbling out of the building I made it to the limo. Curling up in the backseat I let the sobs overtake me.

There is 26 total i believe. So since each one is only 11 minutes, if you combine 2 episodes to make it normal length then it's really only 13 episodes

I've seen a few episodes and I really like the series The number of episodes is weird because each episode counts as half an episode (they are only about 11 minutes long). Here are the episodes out so far if anyone wants them. Up to episode 17

From the ones already mentioned I like Hikaru - Kaoru and Ciel - Sebastian. And another pair that I like is Kakashi - Iruka

Oh my, I certainly have a couple of favorites and cannot really choose between them. (May contain spoilers for the characters' respective series) As soon as I started reading Kuroshitsuji I fell for the 12-year-old broken young master and his perfect and loyal demon. Sebastian x Ciel is shota and even involves bestiality, if you will, as Sebastian is definitely not human. With just that little information you already know it's wrong in every sense of the word. Dark and sexy. I love it. Next comes Zoro & Sanji, from One Piece. I guess it is safe to say that these two were my first non-canon-yaoi pair that I, literally, worshiped, and still do, like crazy. They are comrades, fighting side by side, having hilarious arguments, forming an amazing yet non-cooperative team that somehow works out, have a not-so-self-aknowledged strong friendship and would die for the other on the spot. What is there not to love? Gintoki & Hijikata, from Gintama. Even the anime brings it up. /grins Well, these two idiots are in pretty much the same conditions as the couple above mentioned: rivals at first sight; stubborn about hating the other yet being drawn together, most of the time; and having similar personalities, therefore clashing all the time. Also, thinking so alike, are often trown into hilarious misadventures together, which can only make you adore them even more. (Particularly when they end up almost naked in a bath house. Together. And there is closeness. And touching. Not that kind of touching, but still...) Shizuo & Izaya, from Durarara!! Once again two guys who cannot stand each other, absolutely. These two take the love-hate definition to the extreme, as they jump at each others necks every change they get. With killing intent. Since their first meeting, each time ends in blood bath: between flying vending machines, a knife slashing through skin, broken bones and a nearly trashed to the ground town, they stand gazing at the other. One of them --the sadist and masochist one-- claims to love all humanity; except "Shizu-chan~". The other --the strongest man in Ikebukuro-- claims to hate violence; except against "the annoying flea". Go figure: it's love. As one can see, I have a thing (aka obsession) for love/hate relationships. Their dynamic and interactions in canon are priceless. And, the first pairing aside (although exceptions can be arranged), the other three are reversible. Oh yeah~ My apologies for loosing myself and rambling so much. I hope to have conveyed the reason why I like them so, so much. ♥