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Warning: this poem is for 18+ I hope you enjoy

He's supposed to be working out but... I'm sorry, Katou! Please, -somehow!-, forgive me! :5yoyo21: I'm making up for the failure with these ones. Or not. Rei, it's all your fault :cuteonion48:

Today it's Kuroshitsuji time. For Macys and brohne (:

Attempt at Morinaga, for Rei (:

Star As I stare up to the sky I see The most beautiful star there will ever be. I wonder when it will be mine Of such splendour and divine. Its light twinkles to and fro Hoping that I’ll never go. From underneath my window pane I’ll always see the light so tame. Now the time has come for me To go and see what I can be. See if I can travel far And be just like the little star. I close the window and turn away This star has just another day. Its little light has ceased to be As I no longer stare and see.

Alternative Titles: Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu; その唇に夜の露 Year: 2007 Status: Completed Author: Fukai Youki Genre: Drama, Mature, Psychological, Yaoi Summary: Wada Tatsuki seems to be an ordinary bus driver, living a simple and peaceful life. However there is a heavy burden he holds in his heart, a terrible thing that he has done in the past. What if one day the man he hurt appears and wants to take revenge? Read Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu online: Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu Downlaod Sono Kuchibiru ni Yoru no Tsuyu Manga: Download Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Escapism You don't see the tears when you pour your heart to me You don't feel the pain as I listen to your anxiety You are not here to hold me tightly You can't reach me and comfort me softly I listen to your woes as I battle with demons on my own I absorb your fears as I watch mine and how they've grown You are troubled by your life, your love, your hate You have no idea I have more of those to date I care for you but you never see It has always been like this for me You don't know how I wish it were to be Someone I could show my misery the way you do to me Your confidence I value beyond measure Sometimes they can be such a pleasure Your love I truly treasure And then times I feel like having a seizure You don't know my crippling fears Or why I have uncontrollable tears And why I sometimes feel my end is near That I would lose everything I hold dear Am I a mere escape to you Do I even matter when you are not feeling blue You take it all out on me as I take it all in I fight the notion that this is how it's always been. AUTHOR NOTES: I wrote this years ago when I thought love was a destiny only for others to enjoy. I also thought it was fitting to post here since most BL stories usually have the unrequited love factor.

hapter 3: Danger and Decisions Takumi looked at his phone confused. What had Gii just asked him? Something about America. A couple of students had walked behind him chatting up a storm so he couldn't hear what his boyfri-no fiance had said. It would take a while to adjust to addressing Gii like that. But he liked the sound of it. After waiting for the area to quiet down again Takumi turned his attention back to his phone. "Gomen Gii could you say that again? I didn't catch it." "Hayama you need to come to the picnic area as soon as you can." Akaike answered instead. Takumi bit his lip unsure of what to make of his friend's tone but thought better not to ask about it. "Okay I'll be there in a few minutes. I'm outside the concert hall. See you soon." He ended the call and placed the phone in his pocket before jogging in the direction of the picnic area. I took him longer than he guessed it would thanks to the fact he couldn't help but feel someone was watching him. Forcing himself to ignore the thought he picked up his pace and held back a sigh of relief when he saw the picnic area and both Akaike and Gii waiting for him. As he took a step closer he noticed one of the same guys earlier walking towards him. "You really don't know how to listen do you Hayama-senpai?" Takumi froze on the spot as he recognized the guy to be the same one who had shoved him against the wall earlier that day. He could feel fear creeping up on him but did his best not to portray it physically. He was older than him so he had to find some way to work up the courage and act like it. "Leave me alone." his voice was still quivering but he did the best he could do thanks to his state of mind. "I really hate repeating myself. But since you're my senpai I'll be a good little first year." Takumi had never been introduced to the underclassman since he often kept to himself when at all possible. But he could recall hearing this one's name a few times around the campus. Something like Mitsarou but he wasn't sure. "We told you to stay away from Gii-senpai. But I guess you want us to inflict the memory personally so you won't forget." Takumi looked at Mistarou for a moment before averting his gaze back towards Gii and Akaike who had their backs to them. He didnt' want to have to deal with this now. But it seemed the other boy wasn't giving him a choice. "Look. I never agreed to anything. So would you leave me alone? As your senpai I'm ordering you to." He had to stand up for himself some how. Mitsarou reached back and seconds later his fist collided with Takumi's eye. "You're ordering us huh?" Takumi fell to the ground wincing as he released a faint cry of pain. "Why are you doing this?" Mistarou leaned down and grabbed a fist full of Takumi's hair. "Oh shut up before I do some real damage." Real damage? That didn't sound good at all. Unsure of what to do Takumi hoisted himself up only to be knocked back down. He remembered the warning Akaike had told him that first day and he wished he had believed it or at least prepared himself for it. Takumi knew he had to get away from this guy now or regret it later. He hoisted himself on to his feet after scrambling a few feet away. He had to put distance between himself and Mitsarou now. Not worrying the fact his dress pants were now dirty he made a run for the stairs. "Gii!" Mitsarou ran after him knocking him to the ground. "Did we say you could leave?" He asked sneering. "Senpai?" Takumi cried out again as he felt a jolt of pain shoot up his leg from his ankle. He could tell he had twisted at least and damn if it didn't hurt like crazy. "Leave me alone." he said this time through a tone filled with pain. "Shut up." Mitsarou hissed kicking Takumi in the stomach hard and landing a few more blows earning a cry of pain from his victim each time. The others each got a hit in but Mitsarou did a majority of the damage. One of the other guys noticed they had company not to far off and began to panic. "Mitsarou-kun he's had enough lets go." Mitsarou glared at his friend. "You wimps. If you guys want to go I'm not stopping you. I'm not done with him." He kicked Takumi again this time in the head earning another cry. "Let's go we're not gonna get in trouble with Gii-senpai." with that they took off. Akaike had thought he had heard Takumi's voice but had brushed it off as his imagination since the concert hall was clear on the other side of the campus. Unless he ran as fast as he could Takumi wouldn't have made it there already. But when he heard the noise again he couldn't help but cure his curiosity by turning around. What he saw made his blood boil but he knew if Gii saw this there would be hell to pay. "Gii..." Just by hearing Akaike say his name in that tone, Gii knew something was wrong. He followed his best friend's gaze and in seconds saw nothing but red. He ran down the stairs shoving the 1st year off his boyfriend and gathered a now beating and bruised Takumi into his arms. "Who the hell do you think you are?" Mitsarou's eye widened. "Gii-senpai I it's not what it looks like." Akaike approached the first year and treated him to a hard glare. "Enlighten us what is it then?" Takumi looked out through his swelling eye and groaned. Akaike's glare grew colder. "I'm waiting." He hated violence and most of all hated being angered like this but he wasn't about to let this pathetic first year think he was getting away with what he obviously wasn't denying. "Why did you do this to Hayama?" Mitsarou looked away. "I don't believe Hayama-senpai deserves to even be close to Gii-senpai. He's not one of us. He's a commoner compared to us." He made no attempt to hide his disgust. Akaike held back the urge to scoff. He knew something like this would happen this year but never knew someone would go as far as to inflict physical damage to get their point across. "I'll be reporting you to Kenosho-sensei. Follow me please. Mitsarou said nothing as he followed his senpai into the dorm. He did however shoot Takumi the deadliest glare he could muster. "This isn't over Hayama-senpai.' he mouthed so Gii wouldn't hear. Gii pulled Takumi closer. "Takumi are you okay? Where does it hurt?" Takumi couldn't move. If he did he'd feel a jolt of pain almost immediately. "Gomen Gii." he managed to gasp out before passing out from the pain. Gii lifted Takumi into his arms and carried him to the infirmary. No surprise the school nurse one of the few woman on the campus shooed him out the door. Gii took a seat on the bench just outside the infirmary and rested his head in his hands. "How could I have been so stupid?" "Gii-senpai?" Gii glanced up to see Shingyoshi and Misu standing there. "Oh hi." "Saki have you seen Hayama?" Misu asked noticing his rival was not in a good state of mind. Gii turned towards the infirmary. "He's in there." Shingyoushi's jaw slammed to the ground. "Huh? In the infirmary? But what for why? Gii tightened his hands into fists before explaining all he knew. "Apparently he doesn't believe Takumi deserves to be near me." Misu could tell Gii was angry but had never seen hims this upset before. "Saki do you know who the student was?" Gii shook his head but turned to look at the others. "No but when I find out I'll make regret even allowing the thought of hurting Takumi to cross his mind."

Shingakkou -Noli me tangere- is the latest PIL/SLASH game and the title means "Seminary - Don't touch me" The action of the game is set in an boarding-school style seminary in the mountains of England after WWII. System Requirements: 　OS: WindowsXP/Vista/7 　CPU: 1GHz minimum, 2GH recommended) 　RAM (for XP): 256MB minimum, (512MB recommended) 　RAM (Vista/7): 512MB minimum, 1GB recommended) 　DirectX: 7.o+ Note: The size of the game is huge... 6GBs Download Shingakkou ~Noli me tangere~ Yaoi Game: Part 01 Part 02 Part 03 Part 04 Part 05 Part 06 Part 07 Part 08 Part 09 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13 Part 14 Part 15 Part 16 Part 17 Part 18 Part 19 Part 20 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

ENTHRALL ME Deep turquoise eyes Shines so bright Seduced me so high Enthrall me, I not lie Rosy little lips So sexy, It gives me heat Enthrall me, I not miss Chest not so bulky I like it!, It doesn't tease me Enthrall me, I not flee Oh!, large hands I fear, So please be gentle Enthrall me, I not idle Those legs, between, a private I tremble, Heaven over pain Enthrall me, I not complain In comfy sheet Lie me, This mine, you seek Enthrall me, I'm ready cloudy's notes: . .this was the first time i wrote a nasty (for me) bl poem, lol :Red_fox3: . .it still doesn't sink in to me . .while i was writing this i'm grinning, lol . .and i can't even write this permanently in my notebook, still in scratch . .they might accidentally read it ( i think i should hide my notebook now, lol) :cuteonion46: (sorry if the image was too big, and yeah!, i wrote like that, hihi)

Oh there was a lot us there last night till early morning. We really have fun with the meow, whip and slap sounds. Hopefully there will be more like kiss and clap sounds, perhaps? I like the simplicity of its usage. Thanks to Key for putting it up for all of us.

@ EmiZea -- Just finished this one. It's for Reita

Title: Hanagumi Ninkyouden, Yakuza In Love, 花組仁侠伝 Original run: 1996 Description: Volume 1: 1-4) Yakuza In Love With his gambler grandfather dead, Ichimura Aoi decides to join the yakuza with the letter of recommendation left behind by his grandfather. After saving the Don's life, Ichimura gets on the fast track of success. Now he has been given a very important job to fulfil, to be the apprentice of the infamous under-boss Sakiya Yuji. Will he survive his posting even though he has managed to get by with just his intimidating looks till now? 5) Flower Gang Party Short extra. Mostly character profiles. 6) Hanagumi Memories Authour discusses Takarazuka Troupe, the famous all women musical group in Japan. Volume 2: 1-2) Yakuza In Love Ichimura learns that his grandfather was quite the tattooist in his day from the gang's doctor. Sakiya doubts the loyalty of Ichimura after finding out that the Don has been sending expensive gifts to the latter. 3) Liar Ozawa Junki is recuperating in Karasuma Chihiro's place after being stabbed by his lover's wife. 4) Saved Kohei is worried about Misaki his object of desire. She seems lonely and lost despite acting out and fraternising with various older partners. Volume 3: 1-2) Yakuza In Love Karasuma is desperate to get Ozawa back after learning that he has been captured by Azuma and the Don's gang. 3) Boys Game Alternate ending of the scene where Karasuma saves Ozawa. 4) The Animal's Banquet Short extra that took place just before Iwaki Issei's visit to Sakiya's place. 5) Let's Go Get A Blood Test Karasuma and Ozawa decide to get a blood test before his release from the hospital. 6) Pride Ichimura finally gets his own tattoo, yakuza style. Sakiya is against it but Ichimura's insistence to show his love and loyalty won him over. (This was also published as chapter 4 of volume 3 of Deki no Ii Kiss, Warui Kiss) 7) Merry Christmas Ozawa gets his little Christmas gift and realises something important. Manga-type: Manga Written by: Kano Shiuko Drawn by: Kano Shiuko Published by: Deux Press Group(s) Scanlating: - Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama Yaoi Categories: Drama, Yakuza, Rape Main Characters: Ichimura Aoi , Sakiya Yuji Adaptation based on available: N/A Recommendations: Haito Diamond, Kizuna Download Yakuza In Love Manga: Volume 1 Volume 2 Volume 3 For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Thanks! YO Staff

Manga title: Shitsuji wa Oose no Mama ni, 執事は仰せのままに Devoted Butler Obou-chama no Yarutoori Young Master's Upbringing Original run: 2009 Plot: One day, Tokoha, the son of the wealthy Katsuragi family was ordered by his father to undergo some arranged-marriage plans. Hoping to able to escape from his father’s continuous proposals, Tokoha told his father that he likes men, and thus his father should give up on planning an arranged marriage for him. To convince his father, he asked the butler Asou to pretend to be his lover. At first Tokoha slept with Asou only to deceive his father. But as time passed, he felt pleasure from their relationship. How will the fake love between the cool butler and the young master continue? Manga-type: Manga Mangaka: FUJIKAWA Ruri Group(s) Scanlating: Fantasyshrine Status: Completed Genres: Yaoi, Comedy Categories: Vampires, Teacher - Student, Incest, Doubutsu-gata Main Characters: Tohoka x Asou x Katsuragi Adaptations available: x Recommendations: Boku no Goshujinsama; Zurui Otoko Read Shitsuji wa Oose no Mama Ni Online: Shitsuji wa Oose no Mama Ni Download Shitsuji wa Oose no Mama Ni Manga Download link removed upon scanlator's request

Saint Beast Anime Title: Saint Beast Season 1; Saint Beast - Seijuu Kourin Hen Genre: Fantasy, Angels Themes: bishounen, shounen-ai, yaoi Source:ANN and Anime-planet Size: 160 - 175 MB/Ep Year: 2003 Duration: 25 Minutes Episodes: 6 Summary:In the ancient past, the Highest level of angels, the Six Saintly Beasts reigned supreme as the beast kings. Two of the Saint Beasts disobeyed Gods order and was sealed away in a Hellish place. Now after thousands of days and nights, the barrier has weakend and they escape. So the remaining four must go to Earth and stop them from causing trouble. Download Saint Beast Season 1: Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3 Ep 4 Ep 5 Ep 6 Title: Saint Beast OVAs; Saint Beast: Ikusen no Hiru to Yoru Hen Genre: Action, adventure, angels, fantasy, romance Themes: Bishounen, shounen-ai, yaoi Source: ANN and Anime-planet Size: 377.5 MB Year: 2005 Duration: 56 Minutes Episodes: 2 OVA Summary: Long ago there was a war in Heaven which resulted in Judas and Luca – two of the six specially-chosen, talented and strong Saint Beasts – being cast out and imprisoned in Hell for leading the rebellion. But before that Heaven had been a peaceful place where the angels happily lived their lives. In this time, Judas, Luca, Goh, Shin, Rey and Gai are adolescent angels in Heaven who, on the day of Benediction, are made into adults by the supreme god Zeus. With each of the six having their own special abilities and new adult bodies to get used to, opportunities to meet each other arise and new friendships are formed. Download Saint Beast OVAs 1 & 2: OVA 1 OVA 2 Title: Saint Beast Season 2; Saint Beast: Kouin Jojishi Tenshitan Genre: Angels, fantasy Themes: bishounen, shounen-ai, yaoi Source: ANN and Anime-Planet Size: 170-180 MB/Ep Year: 2007 Duration: 25 minutes/ Ep Episodes: 13 Summary: Six Angels are chosen by Zeus to be the Saint Beasts who travel to earth and stop disasters on earth. But the disasters may not be the result of demons and animals but from someone else. At the same time the once peaceful heaven starts to change with only a few noticing the evil lurking in the shadows. Download Saint Beast Season 2: Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3 Ep 4 Ep 5 Ep 6 Ep 7 Ep 8 Ep 9 Ep 10 Ep 11 Ep 12 Ep 13 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Junjo Romantica, Junjo Romantica: Pure Romance, 純情ロマンチカ, Junjō Romanchika, Pure-Hearted Romantica Genres: comedy, drama, romance, yaoi Running time: 30 min/ episode Number of episodes: 12 ep/season; 2 seasons Plot Summary: Misaki is suddenly having some unexpected and odd problems. What started as a need for some college entrance exam tutoring has somehow led him to being romanced by a suave older man who also happens to be his big brother’s best friend. Confused by all of his brand new emotions, Misaki struggles to deal with his suddenly very odd life. And if that wasn’t enough, his suitor, Usami, has plenty of issues of his own. A man-child who decorates his room in giant teddy bears and toys, Usami is a famous novelist who also writes steamy boys’ love novels on the side. When Misaki cracks open one of these books and reads sentences like “Misaki licks every inch of Usami’s hot body”…well, let’s just say that all hell breaks loose. Download: For Season 1 subbed in English, go here: Junjou Romantica (Eng Subs) Watch Junjou Romantica Season 1 Online (HD Quality): Junjou Romantica Season 1 Online Season 2 (watch it in BSPlayer or VLC Player) EP 01 EP 02 EP 03 EP 04 EP 05 EP 06 EP 07 EP 08 EP 09 EP 10 EP 11 EP 12 DVD Special Junjou Romantica Watch Junjou Romantica Season 2 Online (HD Quality): Junjou Romantica Season 2 Online Junjou Romantica, Egoist and Terrorist anime were licensed long time ago. Since the Company announced they'd report and sue all the online site providing links, YO isn't and won't be updating links to download Junjou. Sorry for the inconveniences.

Dash! OVA Title: DASH!; ダッシュ! Original Creator: Natsume Isaku Genre: comedy, romance, school life, yaoi Number of Eisodes: 1 Format: avi Size: 312 MB Summary: Akimoto has just started his high school career at Miya High and is burning with enthusiasm. Not because he's in the springtime of his youth, or because he has his eyes set on some beautiful upperclassmen; rather, Akimoto is overjoyed to finally be able to meet his long time Judo idol Saitou! Akimoto has watched Saitou ever since his middle school days, but the real Saitou isn't matching up to the Saitou of Akimito's dreams. Foul mouthed, with a bad attitude and superiority complex, Saitou decided to use Akimoto's admiration against him and turn him into his slave. But Saitou has a deep, dark secret that he is hiding from his kouhai (junior). Will Akimoto still look up to Saitou when it is revealed? Join Akimoto, Saitou and the rest of the Miya Judo team in this charming tale of high school love between sempai (senior) and kouhai. Note: Actually this is not really an anime, but a manga animation. Download Dash! OVA: Sendspace link Gigasize link Watch Dash! OVA Online (HD Quality): Dash! OVA Online For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: It Seems to Rain Country: Taiwan Plot: Kuan, a teenage high school boy is struggling to find his identity as homosexual. His girlfriend seems to understand something's wrong and tries to help him... Download It Seems To Rain Movie: Part 1: 4Shared Part 2: 4Shared Part 3: 4Shared Part 4: 4Shared *Download all parts and join them with HJSplit* For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Summary: Shun (Fukuda Saki), who has tattoos and piercings all over her body, is the third generation descendant of a Japanese orphan left behind in China during World War II. Takeru (Matsushita Yuya) is a lonely and reckless hooligan whose family was murdered when he was a child. Shun, Takeru and Kasumi (Watanabe Natsuna) with an equally troubled past and background, become collaborators after being hired by Kuchinawa (Kamikawa Tamaya) in police undercover operations in the city of 'Midori', a neighbourhood for illegal residents. They infiltrate a criminal gang to investigate, and find illicit human drug experiments and slave treatment staring them in the face. They grow to trust one another and mature through this experience. Genre : Action Cast: Fukuda Saki,Kamikawa Tamaya,Matsushima Yuya,Watanabe Natsuna I watch this drama omgee so sugoi..awesome..i recommended you should watch this too!

ayama Takumi glanced at his watch for the 20th time within the time span of 5 minutes. The 3rd year student was anxiously waiting for the arrival of his boyfriend Saki Giichi aka Gii. The two of them had been dating for two years now. That day was their anniversary, that day Gii had told Takumi to wait at the spot they had shared their first kiss. But that day it was raining hard and Gii was nearly an hour late. Takumi didn't have an umbrella. Feeling a sneeze tickle his nose Takumi headed back to the campus desperate for a hot shower. Once he collected a dry change of clothes he headed to the shower room. The hot water was able to wash away the chill from his bones but not the tears from his eyes. On his way back to the campus Takumi could have sworn he saw Gii laughing up a storm with one of their classmates Takahiro. After finishing his shower Takumi changed into his dry clothes and wiped all evidence of tears from his face as he made his way back to the dorm. He didn't want to have to answer any questions. Once the third year had reached Gii's room he held himself back from slamming the door shut before throwing himself on Gii's bed. The tears came freely this time with no rain or shower water to wash them away or hide them. Eventually the 3rd year cried himself to sleep, tear drops still evident on his slightly flickering eyelids. Meanwhile "Arigatou." Gii nodded his head in thanks when the man across the counter handed him the black satin box. Inside was something he had wanted to give to Takumi ever since he first saw him. As the thought of Takumi crossed his mind he glanced at his watched and his eyes went wide. "Damn it." He pocketed the small box and muttered an apology to the shopkeeper before racing out of the shop. Gii immediately began his search at the location he and Takumi were supposed to meet. No Takumi. Allowing no hesitation to enter his mind Gii ran back towards the campus were he asked a frew other students if they had seen the other boy. When the all told him no he felt a sharp pain in his chest. Gii ran through the entire school ignoring the protests of the teachers and other students. He checked every class room every hallway, the library, still no Takumi. Feeling defeated Gii headed to his room. When he opened the door he stopped dead in his tracks. Lying on his bed was no other than Takumi. Gii walked over to the sleeping form of his boyfriend and slowly sat down on the edge of the bed. His hair was damp which triggered a pang of concern. Had Takumi been waiting for him out in the rain? Not being able to stand not holding his lover in his arms Gii bend down to kiss the other boy but stopped. Tear tracks. Tear tracks all over his precious Takumi's face. Gii never wanted to see Takumi cry. The result would be the feeling of his heart breaking because he was unable to keep his lover happy. In pure means of comfort Gii gently pressed his lips to the still sleeping Takumi's. He had no idea if this would pull the other boy from his slumber. All he knew was he wanted to hold Takumi tightly in his arms and not let go. "Gomen Takumi Ashiteru." Takumi had woken up when Gii had returned. Not in the mood to face the other man the 3rd year stayed quiet. When he felt the kiss he didn't respond but he didn't reject the other boy either. But when he heard Gii say 'Aishiteru' his eyes opened, "Don't lie to me Gii." Gii nearly fell back when Takumi's eyes opened. Unable to hide his relief he tried to pull the other boy in his arms. When Takumi pushed him away his eyes went wide. "Doushite?" Takumi sat up and turned so his back was facing his boyfriends. "Don't give me that. You were supposed to meet me at our spot. I waited a whole hour a whole damn out in the rain for you. When I couldnt' take the cold anymore I came back to campus where I saw you talking to Takahiro." Takumi brought his knees up to his chest. "You like him don't you? You're sick of being with me and now you want to go out with Takahiro. I'm right aren't I?" When Takumi didn't recieve an answer he turned around and chocked back a gasp. Gii was crying. Gii had tears in his eyes, "Gii?" Gii sat back down on the bed but surprisingly made no attempt to pull Takumi close to him. "Takumi please listen to what I have to say. Gomen, I never meant for you to wait that long. In fact I never intended for you to wait at all." he said not being able to find the strength to look the other boy in the eye. "I love you so much. Which is why I have a very important question to ask you. " Gii reached into his pocket and pulled out the black satin box. "Takumi, you mean everything in the world to me. I know we're a little too young but I don't care. I've been wanting to do this for months." He opened the box, and inside was a silver band with a clear gem embedded in is. "Hayama Takumi, will you marry me?" Takumi's eyes went wide at the sight of the ring. At first his words didn't seem to want to cooperate but finally he said, "Marry you? But Gii what about Takahiro?" Gii had been hoping for a 'yes' but he was grateful Takumi's answer hadnt' been a 'no'. "I was asking Takahiro if he had seen you around. I spend time this him because he's my partner for a project." He cupped the other boy's face in his hands. "I have told you time and time again you mean the world to me." Takumi removed Gii's hands from his face and threw his arms around the larger man's broad shoulders. "I love you Gii and my answer is yes I will marry you." Gii pulled Takumi out of the embrace long enough to slip the ring on his finger and capture the other boys lips with his own. "Ashiteru Takumi." He kissed the other boy again gently pressing him down on the bed. As they made love a small thought couldn't help but sneak in both of their minds. Thank Kami-sama there no classes that day.

The Beach The wind I feel across my face Gives me such a sense of space. The ocean that’s so vast and wide Has such a very youthful tide. The sand that goes between my toes Feels so soft and always flows Towards the sea, the sun, the air The beach is where I stop and stare.

nooooo, i want jonjo! why are they frickin' closing? i want jonjou! jonjou! ... i'm so gonna miss it :'(

This story is great, just like the majority of Fukai's mature and dramatic plots. I had read it years ago and just the other day I read it again, this time while listening to the BLCD. Even better. Morikawa-sama, once again, melted me with his voice~

pls support them ^^

I agree with Macys. Your feelings are completely understandable and you are correct in many ways but, indeed, here we all adore yaoi, so it's not really the best place to complain because you are obviously directing you speech to people who don't respect yaoi when you say "PLEASE I BEGGING YOU UNCARING STRAIGHTS". It's true that the yaoi community is the minority and the amount of heterosexual hentai is enormous and BL still has very, very few and there is a lot of discrimination and prejudice, the only think we can do is hope people become more accepting and open minded and let the yaoi industry expand itself. We can only rely on time and change. We'll continue worshiping our beloved and available yaoi until then. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us (:

Check this out, this one is really funny, If ya already know Emi_10Rankai well then it's just an one

Who is the most memorable character for you? Any medium or genre and why? For me it is Boba Fett from the Empire Strikes Back. He was so cold and aloof and just awesome and even Vader seemed to respect him. o.o

:6onion72: cloudy's in a cage locked, but open Felt this lil rage And was about to ruin . .i'm kinda pissed off, . .i'm complaining about this and that, this and that, this and that!, PHEW! (and now at the moment, i can't even make a poem, because of this) :Red_fox10:

Kenta Slowly opening my eyes, I blinked a few times. It was bright in the room and I wondered what time it was. I had no idea what time I’d finally went to sleep. Laying awake next to Ryuu the full weight of what we’d done had finally hit me. Even this morning it gave me a jolt to realize it. Rolling over on to my side, I looked at the face that had become so familiar to me. Just looking at him caused this soft ache in my chest that I’d never felt before. Holy fuck, I was screwed in every sense of the word. I’d never thought that I’d end up falling for him as hard as I had. Last night had just proved that when it came to Ryuu I still had a shit load to learn. I raised my head hearing his phone ring. That was the house phone, not his cell which meant it was either his mother or a business call. Slipping out of the bed, being careful not to wake him I trotted down the hall to the office and grabbed it up on the last ring. “Ito residence Arakaki speaking.” I smirked, it had taken me two months to remember how to properly answer the phone. Ryuu had not liked my normal way of answering it. “Kenta. You are there very early are you not?” I blinked a couple of times the smirk fading. Kaori sounded pissed which was highly unusual. Actually, I’d never heard her upset before. “Uh . . . I stayed the night . . .” That now had a totally new meaning. “Oh did you?” Fuck . . . did she know something? That tone was biting. “Do me a favor, boy and go turn the television on.” I felt a soft pain go through me at her suddenly formal manner. What the fuck was going on? “Oh-okay any certain-“ “Just turn it on.” Confused and oddly hurt I walked into the living room and finding the remote turned it to the first news station that came to mind. “Just wait a few minutes. It’ll be on again.” I almost asked what but thought better of it as I watched a report on some political candidate who was running for office again. The scene changed back to the news anchors and they went into the next news item. “Ito Ryuunosuke, heir to CEO Ito Shiori’s UniCom wealth was spotted last night giving a rather personal thank you to his bodyguard backstage at club-“ “Oh fuck.” “Quite right.” I flinched at her sharp tone and watched as several pictures of the two of us were displayed on the screen. It looked . . . bad. Like career ending bad. “I –I better call Nakamara.” The manager probably already knew and would be calling. I glanced around wondering what had happened to my phone last night. It was probably back in the bedroom. Oh fuck. I gulped. “I-Ito-san, Ryuu doesn’t know . . . he’s still asleep.” “He’ll have to get up and deal with this. This is a huge scandal. A huge scandal. His father is furious. I can’t believe you would seduce my son.” I realized with a start that she was crying now. Though I was pretty sure I was the one that got seduced, but no point arguing that. “I trusted you. How could you do this to him Kenta? Don’t you know what this is going to do to his reputation?” “I . . . I’ll go get him up.” “That would be good. Then I want you out of my apartment.” My throat seemed to close up and I had to swallow several times before I could speak. “Hai, of course.” I hung up. This couldn’t be happening. I looked back toward the bedroom. Ryuu was going to completely freak out and if I couldn’t be here . . . fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Ryuu I woke to find Kenta gently shaking me. I blinked a few times looking up at him and stretched wincing slightly. Was going to be a bit sore today. Not that I minded in the least. Smiling up at him I went to pull him down toward me only to have him jerk back. “Ryuu . . . you really need to get out of bed.” Brushing the hair out of my eyes I sat up. Something was completely off with him. He was already dressed. Why was he dressed? We didn’t have anywhere to go today. Why couldn’t he have stayed in bed and cuddled with me? My eyes traveled up the slender toned frame and I stopped startled as I met his eyes. There was a kind of pain there I’d never seen before. Pain and . . . desperation. “Ryuu , there is a huge-huge fucking problem.” I was scrambling out of the bed grabbing up clothes. Anything that could make Kenta panic was definitely cause for panic. “What’s wrong? What happened?” He’d stepped back and was staring down at the floor. I could see the tension in his body, the way his fists were clenched at his side and it scared me. He was upset. Was it about last night? Oh no, no, no. I’d wanted it to be different with him. I didn’t want him to change like Naoki had. “Kenta?” “Your . . . mother called. There are pictures Ryuu . . . fucking pictures of you and me.” “There are all kinds of pictures of me and you. You are in almost every candid shot of me.” He shook his head, a violent movement. “No, from last night in the stairwell.” I suddenly felt like the floor had dropped out from under me. Sinking down I sat on the edge of the bed. If he was this upset that only meant one thing. The press had got hold of the pictures. “Wait, Mother called?” He nodded once. “She told me to turn the TV on. It’s all over the fucking news. I have to leave Ryuu. She doesn’t want me here.” “No.” It came out instantly and much sharper than I’d intended. “You will not leave. This might be their apartment, but they haven’t lived here for years. I live here and if I want you here that is where you will be.” Some of the tension left his shoulders, his hands slowly uncurling. He didn’t want to leave. He’d been upset at the thought of leaving. That knowledge made me giddy. This whole little fracas I could deal with. Him leaving? No. Getting up I walked over to him and gently took his face in my hands, pulling his head up. “Besides how would it look if you were seen leaving my apartment very first thing in the morning?” From the flicker of uncertainty across his eyes, I could tell he hadn’t thought of that. I laughed softly and kissed him. “This is nothing compared to some of the incidents I pulled in high school with Sora. No, this will be forgotten by tomorrow. Though . . . Kenta, I might have to say some things in an interview that will hurt you.” He shook his head, his fingers coming up to grasp my wrists. “You can’t let anyone know about us . . . so lie your fucking ass off, I don’t care.” I leaned forward kissing him again. “Thank you Kenta. For everything. For just being you.” He blinked at me and something dark and unreadable simmered in his eyes for a long moment and then he was stepping back. “You better go get ready.” I raised an eyebrow at him. “I am a rock star. I feel like keeping rock star hours.” With that having been established I tackled him onto the bed. The world could wait. I had one reluctant bodyguard to drive crazy.

Kenta I barely had a chance to get my shoes off before Ryuu was dragging me through the apartment. I didn’t want to admit it but I was fucking nervous like I’d never been before in my life. Even when I’d been waiting to hear my sentence read at court I hadn’t been this nervous. I was shaking, bad enough that I didn’t like it, that weird slightly weak feeling. Before I realized it we were in the bedroom. He hadn’t bothered to turn the lights on and in the dim light from the windows I could make out him stripping. “I’m going to go take a quick shower. You are free to join me if you want.” The shaking was getting worse. Maybe . . . maybe doing just that would be for the best. I could get him off and maybe he would forget what I’d said. Yeah right, what the fuck was I thinking? Once Ryuu got an idea in his head you better just get out of his fucking way. Slowly getting undressed I followed him into the bathroom. Slipping into the shower behind him I noticed the bruise on his side. “Fuck! Ryuu, you got hurt when you fell!” “Oh, yeah it’s a little sore but nothing like when you broke your ribs I’m sure.” “I didn’t break them the guy with the baseball bat broke them.” I shivered as the water hit me. He liked his showers too fucking hot. “You sure you’re alright?” “Yes I’m just fine.” He turned to face me and not for the first time did I wish I was just a little bit taller. At least tall enough that I didn’t have to look up to meet his eyes. “Kenta . . . if you aren’t ready we don’t have to.” I blinked a couple of times and looked down. Shit, wrong thing to do because now I was looking at his cock which wasn’t what I needed to be looking at right now. I swallowed trying to think of what to say and looked back up at him. “I know you want too Ryuu but . . .” “You are scared of hurting me?” Nodding, I almost stepped back as he slowly ran the sponge over my chest leaving a trail of soap bubbles. “That’s an easy fix. I’ll be on top.” “Wha-“ He kissed me. “Don’t say anything. Just trust me, okay.” Seeing the look in his eyes I nodded. I did trust him. More than I’d ever trusted anyone since Ayame. He smiled at me, the soft grey eyes seeming to sparkle. Without saying anything else he slowly started to run the sponge over every inch of me. It was more relaxing than a turn on, but I enjoyed every second of it. I was more than happy to return the favor but he made me get out of the shower. “Dry off and get in bed. I’ll be there in a bit.” I was a little chilled as I slid under the covers, though the pricking sensation had nothing to do with the temperature. My heart seemed to skip slightly as I heard the shower shut off. It was several minutes later when the door to the bathroom opened again and I felt him get into bed. He slid up next to me, his skin still hot from the shower. “Oh, you are nice and cool.” He kissed my shoulder and I could feel him smile. “You smell good too.” I laid there not sure what to do or say and I heard him chuckle. Then he was straddling me, his chest against mine our lips touching. He kissed me lightly before pulling back and I felt his weight shift as he leaned over. The drawer of the night stand rattled open and I heard the unmistakable sound of him opening a condom. “Ryuu . . . “ “Shh . . . you trust me right.” “Yes.” It was barely a whisper, for some reason breathing was kind of difficult. Probably because he was still half laying on me. Yeah that was it. He kissed me again and slid down taking the covers with him. I kind of wanted them back. I bit my lip feeling his fingers wrap around me. He slowly stroked me until I was hard again, which didn’t take long at all. I was a little confused as I felt him slide the condom on me. Hadn’t he said he would be on top? I knew what that meant and it wasn’t this. I didn’t have time to ask as he crawled back up, his knees on either side of my hips. His mouth found mine and thinking became next to impossible as he kissed me, his tongue slipping in deep. I couldn’t help but respond, the taste of him turning me on even more. I’d felt him moving slightly as he kissed me and there was a sudden pressure against the tip of my cock but I didn’t think anything of it since I could feel his fingers too. That was until something very, very tight and hot slid around the head. Ryuu moaned and broke the kiss, his whole body trembling. He grabbed my arms forcing me back down as I went to move. “Just hold still . . . please.” He was a bit breathless. “Ryuu . . . are you sure? Is this okay?” “Shh . . . yes . . . yes this is much more than okay.” He shifted back and we both gasped, my head going back against the pillow as his fingers tightened on my arms. My entire length was inside him. Inside Ryuu. Oh fuck, this was really happening. It was so tight, the heat from his body almost more than I could take. He shifted slightly and it was like I could feel every little muscle move. I was shocked to realize I could feel his heart racing to match my own. “Oh fuck.” I opened my eyes at his soft laugh and looked up at him. He was smiling at me as he slowly started to rock his hips back and forth. I couldn’t stop the moan as the heat seemed to sear through me. He was so fucking tight it almost hurt as he moved and I grabbed his hips stopping him. “Ryuu . . . it’s not . . . you aren’t hurting are you.” He leaned down slightly to kiss me, the movement sending another rush of heat through me. “No, but you are a bit of a stretch.” “Don’t fucking tease!” He giggled and I sucked in a startled breath as muscles clench down even tighter. He slid forward enough that I thought he was going to get off of me, but just when I would have slipped out he was coming back down. Holy fucking shit that felt amazing. If I’d thought his mouth drove me crazy, I was going fucking insane now. I’d never in my life imagined I would find someone who made me feel so wanted, like I mattered more to him than anything else. It was overwhelming to know that he wanted to be with me like this. Just that he wanted me was more than I’d believed possible. Ryuu Gasping softly I kept my movements slow and shallow. It had been a long time since I’d bottomed, even from the top and the burn was making me a bit light headed. In a good way. Hearing the small sounds Kenta was making as I moved made it entirely worth it. His fingers tightened on my hips and suddenly he was meeting me as I came down. I’d been worried that the memories would interfere, but being on top helped. “Oh god.” That was perfect. The angle, the way he filled me so completely, the feel of his fingers, just it being him, all of it amazed me and made me feel like nothing in my life ever had. Not even being on stage gave me this kind of feeling. I was making love to Kenta and that was what it truly felt like, even if it sounded cliché. To be truly connected to him in every way possible made my chest ache with something I’d never felt before. It was like all those stupid love songs finally made sense and I almost had to laugh at myself. He was thrusting deeper each time, the sensation becoming so intense I knew I wasn’t going to last even without touching my erection. He seemed to have read my mind. The next thing I knew his hand was wrapped around me, slow smooth strokes making me whine. For someone who claimed to have never been with a man, he certainly knew what to do. I heard him make a low sound that was between a moan and a whine and suddenly his thrusts became a bit erratic. I was so close to going off myself and I didn’t want it to end this soon. I didn’t want this wonderful euphoria to ever stop. “Oh shit! Ryuu!” I shuddered, the feel of him coming sending a shock through me. Each pulse sent another dizzying spiral of heat through me until I was writhing. I came so hard it actually took my breath away, lights dancing before me. “Kenta . . .” It took me a while to get my breath back and I realized I’d slumped forward, laying on him. His one hand was trapped between us. His other one lightly stroked my back. His breath warm on my skin as he spoke. “You okay?” “Much much better than that.” I turned my head so I could kiss him. He kissed me back, the passion in it like nothing before. I sighed into the kiss, feeling at once light and full of happiness and also so very sensitive, even the slightest movements making me want to gasp. He gently slipped his hand out from between us and taking hold of my hips shifted me forward. I bit my lip a small whimper escaping as he slid free. I shuddered at the sudden empty feeling. Then he was lifting me and laying me next to him. He kissed me softly but with such affection it brought tears to my eyes. “Thank you Kenta.” A low chuckle was his only response. He got out of the bed for a moment, probably to get rid of the condom. I was still tingling from the after affects when he came back and then he was kissing me again, pulling me closer. He wrapped his arms around me and I idly wondered if we should go take a shower first, but it felt too nice where I was. I’d just change the sheets in the morning. I was going to bask in this feeling as long as I could. I fell asleep completely wrapped up in the man I loved.

Ryuu I could barely keep from pouncing Kenta on the ride home. I was dying to know what he had planned but he was his usual quiet, imperturbable self. Though it was cute to see him touch his neck every so often where I’d given him that hickey. I loved being able to break down that stern façade and make him go crazy. Speaking of . . . sliding my hand up his leg I leaned over against him. He twitched slightly and didn’t look at me. I couldn’t help but smile. “What are you thinking about?” Dark eyes flicked toward me then away. “Nuthin.” I didn’t believe that for a second. It irritated me that people just assumed Kenta was stupid because of the way he talked. Shaking off that thought, I reached up to brush his hair back from his face. I loved the way his hair would feather around his face, almost making him look boyish. He looked a lot softer than he really was. It had caught quite a few people off guard. That and his glare could eat through concrete. He must practice or something. Kenta had the ‘I’ll fuck you up so bad you’ll wish I killed you’ look. Which was kind of funny considering the man was pretty enough to put most idols to shame. I couldn’t help staring at him. I still remembered the first time I’d seen him. Really seen him. I’d seen him at Hayate’s bar before then, but I’d been too focused on Akira at the time. Akira had asked me and Sora to come to the hospital to visit a friend who was a fan. I’d jumped at the chance. I loved meeting fans. Though not quite the way I’d done it tonight. Thankfully that girl hadn’t been hurt when I’d fallen on her. She’d seemed more delighted than anything. I hadn’t known that the friend Akira was talking about was Kenta. He’d been assaulted and beaten unconscious by a group of boys with pipes. His injuries had been pretty severe, though I hadn’t been aware of it at the time. I don’t think I could ever forget seeing him sitting up in the bed. He’d been heavily bandaged, but it had still been easy to see that he was exceptionally good looking. His eyes had been the first thing to enthrall me. I’d never met anyone with eyes so deep that they pulled you in and held you captivated. There had been pain there, but also a determination that was unlike anything I’d ever seen. Akira had explained what had happened and I’d been shocked that anyone would go that far to help a friend. He’d been teaching Reiko to defend herself and had run into the very boys who had been harassing her. Six on one is never good odds, even with someone as skilled as Kenta. He didn’t know a formal style like Hasu, but he had years of street experience on his side. He’d been so happy to meet us and I had ended up staying after everyone left. We’d talked for hours. Well, I’d talked as he laid there listening, those inscrutable dark eyes never looking away. Before I’d left I’d asked if it would be alright if I came back the next day. That had been the first time I had ever seen him smile. Looking at him now, knowing him as well as I did, I knew it had to have been meant for us to meet. I needed him. Needed his calming quiet presence just like he needed me to see past the tough exterior to what he really was. I followed him out of the limo, keeping close to him. He had a hand on my elbow which was normal, but for some reason it felt different. The way his fingers curled around the inside of my arm, his grip firm yet gentle, was sending tingles racing over my skin. How could a simple touch do this to me? Naoki had never made me feel this way even when we’d first got together. I’d never had this nearly breathless anticipation, the sensation that I was jumping out of my own skin. I wasn’t going to hold back once we got to the apartment. I wanted him like I’d never wanted anyone in my life. Wanted to lose myself utterly and completely to this man I’d fallen for.

Ryuu I could barely sit still backstage. I knew my excitement had little to do with the upcoming concert. I’d resigned myself to waiting until Kenta was ready. He’d been really sweet about it, but very firm. I wasn’t about to push something on him that he didn’t want to do. I’d made it this far with him and I wasn’t going to ruin it by going too fast. “You are getting as bad as Hasu. What’s wrong with you?” Sora chuckled softly as he tuned his guitar. “Oh um . . . just excited.” “Well you might want to calm down and do your warm up.” “Oh yeah.” I was letting this get too me way too much. I needed to calm down or the concert was going to suffer. Kenta would be there after the concert. Oh god . . . I needed to calm down. “You need an icepack or something for that?” Sora raised an eyebrow at me and I glared shifting away from him. Now that was just embarrassing and I was glad Hasu and Akira were still getting the drums set up. “Actually . . . that might not be a bad idea.” “That bad huh?” “He finally said yes.” “No fucking way. No wonder you are-“ “Just shut up. I’ll be right back.” His laughter followed me out. I needed to get cooled down and there was no way I could take care of my problem right now. For one thing I was not unlacing these pants again. They took entirely too long to get back on. Okay, walking was starting to hurt. I needed to think of something besides Kenta, like how upset the fans would be if I couldn’t sing tonight. It took about ten minutes but I finally was able to come back and get warmed up. I just had to keep my mind focused on the concert and singing. By the time we were ready to go onstage I had everything under control. The heat from the lights and the sound from the crowd seem to hit me with physical force and I grinned. This was what I loved, to be able to entertain and enjoy the reaction of the crowd. It was like a live thing, the way the sound would wrap around me. By the first intermission I was completely into it. While the other guys went backstage to grab drinks, I stayed on stage and talked to the crowd. This was one of my favorite things to do. It was so much fun to watch them. The girls up front were screaming and yelling things at me, but when I’d talk they would calm down to listen. It was so cute. So I told them so and the noise got nearly deafening. I was grinning as I walked back toward the center of the stage. Akira had just come back and was smiling at me. I went to grab my own water as Hasu took his seat and rattled off a quick little set that had the girls screaming again. This was the only time he’d talk to the crowd and they went nuts for him. I had to admit, he was absolutely adorable. Soon it was time to start up again and I walked back to center stage. After announcing the next couple of songs I turned to Hasu smiling. I knew Cry was hard for him with the constantly changing tempo, but he could do it. He nodded and after the guitar intro went right into playing. I grinned as he hit the timing perfectly and nodding my head to the beat walked closer to the edge. This song was a little different than the others and I like to get close and personal with the fans when I sang it. There was a short catwalk, only about four feet long by that wide in the front center of the stage which was perfect for this. It didn’t have the barrier around it like the rest of the stage. I’d just finished the refrain and was getting ready to turn to grab a drink during the guitar solo when I felt something catch my ankle. I went to step back to regain my footing only to realize too late that I’d stepped off the side of the catwalk. Kenta I was already sprinting down the narrow divider between the fans and the stage. I still couldn’t see Ryuu and Akira had quit playing and was at the edge of the stage. I could see Hayate and Hiro and another security guard headed for the spot Ryuu had disappeared. Fuck it all to hell. A blond head suddenly popped back up and then he was climbing back onto the stage, waving at the crowd and laughing. Holy fucking shit. I thought I was going to be sick my heart was beating so fast. Slowing down I met Hayate in front of the stage. I was not moving from this spot the rest of the night. Hell I’d probably stand here for every concert from now on. Seeing him fall had rattled me like nothing else. He could have so easily broken something or been knocked unconscious. Thankfully the rest of the concert went by without any further incidents except Ryuu’s normal antics. Though my ears were ringing and I could barely hear. Ear plugs next time. Backstage the boys were doing their usual routine. Akira was stretched out on the couch his feet up on the arm rest. Sora was helping Hasu open the gift baskets we regularly got at the concerts now. Ryuu was . . . not here. “Where’s Ito?” “He went to go change, he said his pants were bothering him.” “Really . . . “ He loved those pants but I wouldn’t let him wear them in public. It was bad enough that he wore them on stage in front of thousands of screaming girls. Before I could go look for him he was back in jeans and a t-shirt and looking sexier than ever. He’d taken his hair down and washed most of the make-up off. He couldn’t possibly have looked any more gorgeous. I stumbled slightly as someone shoved me and turned to see Sora grinning down at me. “You might want to close your mouth, you are drooling.” I glared up at him and as soon as he turned away wiped a hand across my mouth just to be sure. Ryuu was already walking over and I was a little startled when he grabbed my arm and dragged me out of them room. Sora’s laughter following us out the door. “Ryuu . . . Ryuu where are we going?” He’d led us down a couple of hallways and we were now at one of the back stairwells that lead outside. “Here this is good. I just need a few minutes.” “Wha-“ Anything else I was going to say was swallowed up by his lips on mine. My back hit the wall behind me and I wondered if he was going to let me fucking breathe. If I’d thought his kisses were amazing before this seemed to be on a whole new level. Did concerts making him fucking horny or what? He’d never been this aggressive before. Whatever it was I didn’t care but I couldn’t let him undress me here like it seemed like he was trying to do, his hands sliding up under my shirt. I somehow managed to grab his arms, pulling his hands out from under my shirt. “Ry-Ryuu . . . wa-wait . . . “ I could barely get a word out between kisses and was getting light headed from lack of air. He finally pulled back and I found myself gasping for air. Holy fucking hell. The look in his eyes should have been fucking illegal or something. Soft fingers slid down my cheek and I wondered when I’d let go of him. “Thank you.” “Huh?” “Thank you for being there and trying to protect me. I saw you in front of the stage.” “Oh.” That? That was what this was about? I started to say I was just doing my fucking job, but the look in his eyes stopped me. Shit. Why did he have to be so pretty? Pretty, talented and all around amazing if you didn’t mind dealing with a few temper tantrums and the occasional crying. I didn’t mind it in the least. “Yer welcome.” I barely got it out before he was kissing me again.

Kenta I woke to the feel of a warm hand sliding up my hip. “Ryuu . . . I’m sleeping.” “Not anymore.” I jerked my head away as he nibbled on my ear. “It’s almost two. I let you sleep in.” “Fuck! Why didn’t you get me up sooner?” “You looked so cute, I didn’t have the heart to wake you. And now I’ve got new wallpaper for my phone.” “Ito!” He squeaked and leapt out of the bed as I went to grab him. “Get back here!” I managed to grab his wrist and yanked him back down on the bed. His laughter made me smile as I pinned him. He was trying to wiggle out from under me, but I wasn’t having that. He looked too damn good to leave alone. His hair was done up in a simple ponytail, strands that had slipped free were laying across his cheek and forehead and even without his usual make-up he looked down right fucking hot. Keeping a tight hold on his wrist I grabbed his other arm so he couldn’t get loose. Leaning down I looked into those stunning grey eyes. “You are in big trouble now.” The eyes widened slightly, but I didn’t miss the way one corner of his mouth twitched. “Oh really?” He shifted slightly under me and I felt his leg wrap around mine. He suddenly pushed up and twisted at the same time. My back hit the bed the next instant. I stared up at him for a moment. “Fuck. When did you learn to do that?” He laughed and kissed me, a soft slightly moist press of lips against mine. “I’ve known how to do that for a couple of years now. Hasu showed me how. ” “Oh.” “You are really cute when you pout.” “Ain’t pouting.” “You are too. You don’t like it that I can pin you.” This seemed to be way too fucking funny to him. “Never said that.” “You don’t have to say it, your eyes give you away.” He laughed softly and slid back so that he was straddling my hips. I had to bite my lip as the sudden friction sent a rush of heat through me. “Oh, you liked that didn’t you.” “F-fuck! Don’t do that Ryuu.” I gasped as he ground his hips against mine. “I need to get up.” “Oh I’ll get you up, don’t worry.” “Ry-shit!” I gasped as he moved just right, my eyes squeezing shut for a moment. He was right about that. He didn’t really have to do anything at all to get me hard was the problem. I tried to get my arms out of his grip, but he was a lot stronger than he looked. He was grinning as he continued to move against me. He leaned down so that our faces were close. “I know this won’t get you off, but we can finish that in the shower.” I wasn’t quite sure what to think and honestly I didn’t care. He suddenly pulled back, pulling me up with him. “Come on lets go.” “Wait . . .right now?” “Well yeah.” “Wait! Wait! Ryuu! Aren’t the guys here?” “Kenta I have soundproofed walls and I locked the door so don’t worry about it.” That grin was going to kill me one of these days. I didn’t have much choice as he dragged me into the bathroom. I never thought anyone could strip so fast. I hadn’t even got my shirt over my head when I felt hands on my hips. I sucked in a startled breath as teeth lightly grazed a nipple. I jerked, my arms getting caught in my shirt. It was like an electric shock had just shot straight to my cock. “Fuck! Ryuu!” His soft laugh was quickly followed by another assault on my exposed nipples. I finished yanking the shirt free and went to grab him. He slid out of my grasp taking my shirt with him. That was when I realized my pants were around my ankles. Well shit. Stepping out of them, I went to grab him again. Sneaky little shit. He didn’t try to avoid me this time. Instead he stepped close, fingers latching on to my hips to pull me flush against him. I had to bite back a groan at the feel of him pressed up against me like this. Warm soft lips found mine and I was rather shocked when a tongue followed. That was new. New and very nice. Very nice. Sliding my hands down his back, I cupped that perfect ass and heard him moan softly. I shuddered as one of his hands slid down between us to slowly start stroking me. “Ryuu, we don’t have time . . . the concert . . .” He pulled back to look at me, perfectly arched eyebrows raised. “You are really going to make me stop?” I glanced toward the shower. I was going to blue ball myself doing this but Ryuu was my first concern. This concert was very important. Wasn’t it just yesterday that he’d been willing to alienate his friends in order to get things perfect? Sometimes I really did not understand what went through the man’s head. “Wait till after the concert. I don’t want you tired.” “Oh . . .” Something in his eyes changed slightly and he looked down. After a moment he looked back up at me through his hair and I seriously questioned if I wasn’t crazy. Who the hell would make him stop? I was fucking nuts! No one should be able to look so innocent and so fucking seductive at the same fucking time. “So . . . you have plans for after the concert?” “Guess you could say that.” Didn’t have a fucking clue what they were at this point, but they involved making one Ito Ryuunosuke scream my name. Fuck. Shouldn’t think about that. “Maybe we’ll actually use those condoms.” His eyes widened as his head jerked up. He stared at me for a long moment before grinning and hugging me close. “Are you sure? You said –“ “Yeah, I’m sure. Just go get ready and let me take my fucking shower.” I leaned against the counter behind me watching as he quickly got dressed and with one last smile at me left the room. I was still hard as a fucking rock. Fuck . . .had I really just promised what I thought I had? Oh fuck. That conversation had been fucking awkward. I’d tried to explain that I wasn’t quite ready to go that far. He’d pouted for a couple days after that. Couldn’t exactly come out and say ‘Sorry Ryuu I’m not ready to fuck you like you want cause I saw what happened to the guys in juvie and it scared the shit out of me.’ Besides that . . . I wasn’t ready for going that far just yet. Ryuu was too . . . he deserved better. As corny as it sounded I wanted it to be special not just a quick fuck. And I’d just screwed myself out of what would have been an amazing blowjob. Such a fucking idiot. But at least Ryuu had something to look forward to.

heyy everyone! :hamtaro-005 (4): no, no, i did'nt bring the next part .. yeah i'll .. bring it later .. anyways, i'm posting this coz i wanted to tell you guys some stuff ... :hamtaro-005 (21): 1.i know, rock lee and naruto .. not that good .. but that's the hole point! that they just don't fit together and in the following parts you'll see that that one event in naruto's love life would help him to sort some stuff in the future, i mean hooking up with someone he does'ent love and all, and of course the story does'ent go just about just these 3 guys, other charachters will appear in the subsequent chapters :hamtaro-005 (6): 2. i want you guys to tell me what's you'r favourite part of blue crush 'til now, that one part that made you squeal, so which part? it's okay if it's just a sentence or something like that, i just realy wanna know what you like to add some of it in the following parts 3.blue crush is a REALY long novel, it might have like ... 11 chapters or so, but i'm gonna make it pretty intresting so you don't get bored :hamtaro-005 (22): 4.i'm sure that when you guys read the story you imagine whats happening in you'r mind, and here's the thing ummm soon enough i'll be drawing how the charachters look, i know you know how they look already but, not all naruto's are the same .. you know what i mean .. :Red_fox6: anyways what i realy wanted to tell you is that .. i wanna know you'r opinion, honestly, coz i'm already writing other fics and stuff, and ughh, whataya think of me as a writer? :2yoyo4: so .. yeah. see ya next time :msn_red_fox 3

Thank you so much for the responses, it's really pleasant to read your opinions and reactions! :Red_fox7: I've put the previous ones with a little more quality and I'm going to post some hugging, stripping and smexing now. Hope you like it~ -- Should I post more? :cuteonion46:

Part B Rock lee placed his hands each on a side from Narutos shoulders, he stamped a soft kiss on the blonde's lips his eyes closed as he started French kissing him, he placed his legs each on a side of naruto's body and his hand's started tracing naruto's collar bones, tickling Naruto's sensitive skin, the stronger man's hands traced narutos chest, stroking every sensitive part of it, when his lungs gave out, their lips parted as rock lee's lips lowered to Naruto's neck, he sucked it, licked it and nibbled on it, unconsciously Naruto released a soft moan, his eyes closed, and his lips parted, rock lee left Naruto's neck leaving bite marks on his neck and collar bones, he moved to right nipple he licked it and bit it softly, a tear fell from naruto's eye's thinking:"what have i done to deserve this, Sasuke..?" Rock lee's right hand moved to naruto's dick, he stroked the tip, then he continued stroking the rest of it until he got hard, he thought "why isn't he making any noises, doesn't it feel good? He asked him:"how does it feel?" naruto thought:"heart breaking, painful ... feels like the end of the world, rock lee" while he said:"good ..." rock lee smiled and lifted naruto's legs and started sucking his hole, rock lee pushed his tongue in gently and naruto felt a little pain so Naruto:"ah, be gentle there" he said before he covered his forehead with his right arm rock lee:"I will, just tell me when I hit your spot, ok?" Naruto thought:"hit my … spot?" Rock lee climbed up naruto thinking:"don't scream naruto ..." then he licked his fingers as a replacement for lube… Naruto:"why are you ... licking your fingers?" Rock lee:"for this ..." he said while he lifted naruto's legs more and rubbed his hole for seconds and pushed his finger into naruto's hole, it was a Surprise for Naruto, he never thought it would be THIS painful so he moaned so loud, it was more like a scream! ... He thought:"I'm sure it wouldn't hurt this much if it was sasuke doing it! Fuck you rock lee!" Naruto:"ahhhhh, i told you to be gentle!" Rock lee:"sorry babe, you'll get used to it "he said as he kept moving his fingers in and out 'til naruto got familiar to it. Only a few seconds passed before rock lee found naruto's sweet spot Naruto:"ahhhhh, th-there" naruto moan's got louder and louder… Rock lee:"here?" Naruto:"y-yes ah ... ahh" Rock lee kept moving his fingers in and out of Naruto's hole. Rock lee:"sorry Naruto, i can't .. Ah, wait .. it any longer" he said as he lifted naruto's legs more and entered him with his dick … rock lee closed his eyes and opened them to view how sexy Naruto looks in that situation. Naruto:"no, wai... Ahhhhh...i-it hurts" Rock lee:"I'm gonna move ..." he said as he started moving his dick in and out faster in a rhythm hitting Naruto's sweet spot over and over again, rock lee has never tasted such pleasure, thought he was pretty experienced. Rock lee:"i-I'm Cumming, Naruto" with that said Naruto felt his climax getting close too. Naruto:"m-me too, pull it out, s-stop "naruto thought:"gotta save my ass for Sasuke" Rock lee got his dick outta the blonde's entrance as he came seconds before Naruto followed him and came. Rock lee kissed naruto a soft kiss on the lips and whispered in his ears :"i love you, naruto" Naruto thought:" i wish i never lied to Sasuke about liking you, you horny bastard ... fuck you, and fuck Sasuke too!" but said:"me too" as they both got their normal breathing back rock lee lied beside Naruto and hugged him closer, resting his head on the blonde's chest. Rock lee looked up at Naruto's flushed face and said:"so how was it?" Naruto thought:"fucking bad, my ass hurt's and i hate you ..." but he said:"good" Rock lee smiled, and left Naruto's side as he stood up to get his cigarettes from his clothes. Naruto was pretty devastated and he just could'nt say a thing ... he thought:"fuck, I want Sasuke" When rock lee came to the bed Naruto "gimme one" he said as he got up and sat down next to rock lee. Rock lee:"you smoke?" he said as he gave him a cigarette and naruto grabbed it. Naruto:"lighter" rock lee gave sasuke the lighter and lighted his cigarette as rock lee thought:"i didn't know he smokes, that's so sexy!" Naruto:"do you love me rock lee?" Rock lee took a sip from his cigarette, looked at naruto for a second before saying:"madly" Naruto:"then why were you screwing with Sasuke this morning?" Rock lee:"huh? No reason" Naruto took a sip from his cigarette thinking:"it's like liar is written on your forehead" and said "if you really loved me, you wouldn't do that would you?" Rock lee:"well it's a long story" Naruto:"and I got all the time in the world to listen to it" Rock lee:"i told sasuke that if he made you fall for me, and hook me up with you i'd give him anything he wants, and guess what he wanted" Naruto:"what?" Rock lee:"he pinned me to the wall and said he wanted to sleep with me, he got some muscle on these arms" Naruto:"wow, guess he got stronger than before.." he said as he stood up heading to a cupboard beside the window. Rock lee:"where?" Naruto:" ramen" Rock lee:"oh" Naruto walked to the cupboard beside the window that was facing him ... he thought:"hmm chicken .. Or seafood?" Rock lee's mouth watered as he looked at naruto who was'nt covering his body with any piece of clothing, he thought:"am I really not dreaming? I can't believe I have you all for me Naruto, that sexy chest, and your muscular arms, and specially that fat ass you got, and your long neck that smells like vanilla, that soft bronze skin, all these curves, who could resist?" he walked to naruto and wrapped his arms around naruto's waist, whispered in his ears saying:"how about another go?" naruto thought:"what a horny guy" And said: "what about ramen?" Rock lee:"screw ramen?" Naruto:"and if i said no?" Rock lee:"that wasn't a question" Rock lee smelled the strong smell of vanilla on Naruto's neck, then he pulled the blonde's hand as he headed to the bed. How did it go this way!? Naruto should'nt be with rock lee, he should be with sasuke! ... Naruto and rock lee don't even look good together! Til when is it gonna be this way? Wait, is is it ever gonna change?! Will these confusions ever vanish? Are naruto and sasuke ever gonna be together? Well i hope you can wait for the answers in the following chapters! See ya then ^_~

:hamtaro-005 (4):heyy again wanna know what i got with me? wanna know? ya realy, realy, realy wanna know? great! :hamtaro-005 (5): i've got the 3rd chapter of blue crush, everyone! :cuteonion48: enjoy :banhbao29: chapter 3 Part A Naruto: "you're paying for that" Sasuke: "that's all you wanna say, I just busted your door while you were screwing a girl and that's all you wanna say?!" he said in a really loud voice Naruto: "I also wanna say .... Get the fuck outta my house, you bastard!" Sasuke: "and that's a wish of yours, so sakura, what I'm doing is a favor for a friend Too but I'm not PRETENDING it, it's so fucking real!, get out, now! Naruto has HIV!! Do you Wanna get HIV, sakura?" Sakura:"what?! Why didn't you tell me about this, naruto?!" Naruto:" I do?.. Oh,i mean, I … forgot! Yes, I.Forgot!" Sakura:"what kind of lame excuse is that?! You know what? I don't even wanna why, I'm SO outta here" in a hurry she said as she picked up her clothes and wore them then got out of the house ... naruto sat down placing his hands on the bed beside his waist and said:"thnx .. I guess" Sasuke: "shut up, wear your fucking clothes, and just ... shut up! " the blond took his short, got up and wore them while Sasuke stared at his butt thinking "I wonder what it would feel like to own that butt" Naruto:"alright, why did you just break my door?" Sasuke: " I'm the one asking the fucking questions here, I ask, you answer, why were you about to sleep with her?" Naruto: "Long story" Sasuke: "why the fuck were you about to sleep with her?!" he screamed. Sasuke was so mad that he grabbed naruto from his shoulders and showed him a really Mad face and said: "tell me or I'll break the half of your bones, and I mean it, you ass" "Okay, I didn't expect that and why are you so mad? You got a crush on her or something?" Sasuke left him and placed his elbows on his knees ... and looked naruto in the face Sasuke: "do I have to ask again?" Naruto: "here's the thing, sakura was about to rape me this morning but I stopped her and I told her I liked someone else, so she got out and then you came here I pretended like I didn't know but I couldn't stand it .. I knew you were screwing with Someone out there So I went out, i knew that sakura liked me which would make her do anything for me, I told her I would sleep with her if she goes and pretends she's your Lover and make rock lee go away, so she did it, guess what?! I had to sleep with her" Sasuke:"I knew that friend was you! , so who do you like? Or is that a lie" Naruto thought:"nooo, I'm not ready to tell him, too too embarrassing … wait, why does he care anyway?" he blushed and Said:" ughhhh it was a lie, and why do you care again?" Sasuke:"I don't, and why did you send sakura again? And what is it that you couldn't stand" Naruto thought:"BU…USTE...ED!" and said:"ughhhh it's that, ummm it's that I didn't want rock lee to screw with you ...yeah! I didn't want rock lee to screw with you" Sasuke:"and why is that?" Naruto thought:"think, think, think" and then he said:"coz I got a .. Crush on him? No wait my FRIEND has a crush on him" Sasuke:"you're crushing on rock lee!!" Naruto:"no my friend is she's a boy, I mean girl" Sasuke thought:"rock lee? ... Could it be that I'm the only one who's having feelings for him? That night? Has it even meant anything for him?" Sasuke:"well if that's true, then why did you reject sakura?" Naruto thought:"coz I'm crushing on you, stupid Sasuke!" and said:"okay, okay I AM Crushing on rock lee" he said as he rubbed his neck and looked around trying to avoid Sasuke. Sasuke:"I knew it! So naruto you wouldn't mind hooking up with him now, or have sex with him and say romantic naughty dirty things while doing all that?" The blond thought:"what have I got myself into?" "Huh?... of course I won't, i have a crush on him! You idiot!" he said as he showed a troubled face unconsciously. Sasuke screamed:"ok rock lee, you can come in now!" he thought: "why did I agree to do this favor? He's gonna do all the hot stuff I wanted to do with naruto, me not rock lee, me! I'm the STUPIDEST guy in the world, I'm stupider than that wall, and all of this is my fault .. Boys don't cry, boys don't cry, boys don't cry …" Rock lee came in from the door :"thnx Sasuke" Naruto:"you weren't lying when you said it was a favor for a friend ... uha" Sasuke:"welcome guys, aren't I great?! I just got you two together, my jobs done, bye, don't miss me, bye again, yeah.. I'm out …" Rock lee:"Sasuke…" Sasuke:"alright I'm really ... Outta here" he said as he slowly got out, so slow that it might've taken 2 minutes! Naruto:" Hi " he said with an uneasy face ... thinking:"I KNOW that I'm the stupidest guy In the world now…" Rock lee:"and is that all you got to say?" Naruto:"I don't … know … what else to say" naruto felt butterflies in his stomach, he was SO troubled, uneasy, and if there's any word that's really describes how bothered he is, I would've said it... he was VERY disturbed, in fact .. I don't even know a word to describe it more than that .. It's just too much to be described … Rock lee took his steps to the bed and sat to naruto's left side , held his chin got his face closer to narutos face, too close to narutos face … too close …*me: too close .. TOO close, too too close" Rock lee:"then tell me you love me, babe…" Naruto:"I-I love you" in a low voice... he thought:"I seriously don't blame Sasuke for calling me usuratonkachi" Rock lee blushed as he said:"naruto gimme a kiss" rock lee said as he held narutos neck and pulled it closer Getting their lips closer to each other but before he kissed him … Naruto:"wait!" Rock lee:"what is it? I've been craving this for a year now" Naruto:"i-i'm ... not ready yet" Rock lee:"be cool it's just a kiss" he said and kissed naruto a one heck of a kiss… Wonder where Sasuke has gone? He was leaning on the wall beside naruto's house door! A tear fell from sasuke's eyes while he thought:"and why should that night mean anything to him anyways? It's just a stupid touch from the one he hates the MOST, I can't believe I actually thought he loved me... Such a stupid naive thought …" Sasuke wiped his tears and walked away from naruto's house, oh has it gone BEYOND kissing in there? Well … Rock lee French kissed naruto 'til his lungs gave out ... naruto's tear fell He thought:"he ... that stupid Sasuke doesn't love me, does he? ... Too bad I love him ... how could he do this to me? And of course that night didn't mean anything to him, it wasn't even a fucking kiss" Rock lee:" what's wrong babe? You okay?" Naruto thought:"what if .. What if i told him now? No, even if I tell him, even if Sasuke knew, he still won't love me back, and that's only gonna break my heart more, and if rock lee's not doing me today, then it's tomorrow, if not tomorrow, it's after tomorrow, it's gonna happen someday, I'll just .. Try to enjoy it, I hope he's so good that it's gonna make enjoy it... And that idea's like shit ..." Naruto:"nothing ... just do it .." he said in a low voice that showed that he was about to cry ... he laid on his bed, wishing that he never loved Sasuke ... he wanted to enjoy his first time ... but for the first time his heart disobeyed him ... what about all these dreams? All these fantasies ? Today they're to be as if they never happened, Fading in the shadow of misunderstanding .. The shadow of unconfirmed love, as time passes by ... they're just … fading... Rock lee:"really?! You're ready?" Naruto:"yeah, take 'em off" Rock lee obeyed naruto and took his shirt off, time was passing so slow to naruto he just wished for god to take his soul and return it to him when rock lee is over, if Sasuke wasn't his first it'd be impossible for him to enjoy his first time, Naruto's world shattered to pieces as rock lee took naruto's pants off, seconds later the blond thought that making his already decided fate a little late won't hurt. "I'll go .. take a bath" he said joyfully as he got up and headed to the bathroom with a 20 inches smile stretching on his face, but rock lee couldn't really wait 20 minutes until Naruto's done bathing, so he said:"no need" as he pulled Naruto's hand and threw him on the bed brutally, Naruto thought:"fuck, I didn't know he was this tough, you delay set fate, can you?" Naruto:"wait, wait" Rock lee:"I waited long enough"

Title: Yachin Hanbun no Ibasho desu Manga ALT. names: 家賃半分の居場所です。 A Place for Half a Rent Romantic Roomate (French) Original run: 2009 Description: 1-3) A Place for Half a Rent Siraishi, a hardworking college student who smiles even when he's upset, is openly gay. His family and coworkers have a hard time accepting him, with the exception of his part-time job manager, Kanzaki, who doesn't smile even when he's happy. When Shiraishi can no longer force himself to keep living with his friendly but unfaithful boyfriend, Kanzaki makes him an offer: “Want to come to my place?” Shiraishi accepts the friendly offer, which may have been made with some more-than-friendly intentions. 4-5) I'm Serious in My Own Way Yukito Shibata is in a pickle. He has 1... no, 2 problems! His ex-boyfriend, Yoshioka Seiji, wants them to come back together, but it was Yoshioka who betrayed him in the first place. So he's having second thoughts. Now his step-nephew, Utsui Keigo, confesses his love for him! Keigo is 7 years younger, but he's very persistent. Which one should he accept? The whole story is told from two points of view. The first part is from Yoshioka's point of view, and the second part from Yukito's point of view. A sweet story about letting go of an old love and finding a new one. 6) Don't Be So Strict Is it so easy to have an affair? Megumu wonders in pain, when he finds Keiichi has cheated on him for the fifth time in three years. Being poor, with no money and only a part time job, it's already hard enough for him to keep living, and taking care of Keiichi's needs. But he runs away from it all... just to learn - the hard way - of how an affair can blossom, and what consequences it might bring! Will the experience keep their relationship alive, or will it separate them in the end? A romantic story about how a love can endure even the greatest ordeal in life. Manga-type: Manga Written by: Asou Kai Drawn by: Asou Kai Published by: Houbunsha Group(s) Scanlating: Shinmakoku Scanlations Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama, Romance, Yaoi Categories: Older Uke-Younger Seme, Hidden Feelings, Co-workers, Jealous Lover, Unrequited Love Main Characters: Siraishi, Kanzaki Adaptation based on available: N/A Related Series: Sorenari ni Shinken nandesu. (Spin-Off) Recommendations: Kimi Note, 24 Jikan Eigyouchuu Read Yachin Hanbun no Ibasho desu Online: Yachin Hanbun no Ibasho desu Download Yachin Hanun no Ibasho Manga: Mirror Link - Urban Gen More manga series by Asou Kai For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: 私に似た誰か, Who Do I Resemble?, Watashi ni Nita Dareka Author: Minase Masara Year: 2006 Genre: One Shot, Yaoi Summary : When Yoshihiko becomes Host Yoshi his whole personality changes. Nakane likes Yoshi but can he love Yoshihiko? Download Watashi ni Nita Dareka Manga: Watashi ni Nita Dareka For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Greetings, it is a pleasure to meet everyone. A lil about myself, humm I enjoy yaoi anime and manga alike. I live in the USA. Hobbies are many starting from writing and composing music, writing poetry, Performing in live theater plays, to historical renactments at ren fairs across the mid US. I look forward to reading and chatting through the many posts on here. Suzue:hamtaro-005 (23):

I'm a new member. Nice to meet you all. I love Yaoi

I really like it!!! :leaf4:

I can understand how you feel,but maybe you should post this on a forum with hentai or other kinds of manga, where there are ppl who wouldn't understand it and complain there and have even arguments with them if it's the case... but here we are all yaoi and bl lovers, so...

Your fanfic is so cool! :hamtaro-005 (8): I laughed so much when reading

. .amander-sama, your poem was just right to be rated 18+, hahaha, lol . .it's so revealing, i guess there's nothing much to say, it already expresses the feelings from the formation of words, itself . .you did another great work, amander-sama :leaf12:

*hugs* Don't be stressed! We all love you :leaf3:

@Jenova: Haha aye I know all about habits when drawing, so I understand what you mean I would be really glad, if you would do the next one on white paper, I will look forward to see it

Ryuu I’d almost turned my head to look at them, but Kenta’s statement shocked me. Was that why? Was that the real reason he’d turned me down, because he was worried how it would make me look in the media if our relationship was discovered? Didn’t he realize the media already painted me as nothing more than a silly playboy frittering his parent’s wealth away. No one was really shocked by anything I did. He’d never mentioned to me anything about a criminal record and it didn’t really surprise me. That was when it hit me. That was the most I’d ever heard Kenta talk without a single cuss word coming out of his mouth. Actually, that was probably the most I’d ever heard him talk all at once ever. “Are you really that stupid? Maybe Isao is right about you.” I heard Sora sigh. “He’s happiest when you are around Kenta. Even if he knew about all of that, I’m sure he wouldn’t care. He’s not that shallow Kenta.” “I know he’s not. He’s also a whole fucking lot smarter than people give him credit for.” I almost smiled at that. I was going to have to get up. I was beginning to need the bathroom rather urgently. That and for the first time in three days I was starving. I shifted around trying to get the covers off and heard both of them exclaim. “Ryuu!” “You’re awake?” There was a note of panic in Kenta’s voice and I knew he probably wouldn’t have divulged that much if he’d known I was awake. I was glad I had been. It made so much more sense now, why he’d been trying to keep me at bay. It wasn’t that he wasn’t interested; he just didn’t want me hurt. It made me want to pull him close and kiss him till he shoved me away. I grinned at them and sat up, glad when Sora reached down to help me. “Yeah. “ I turned to look at Kenta and gasped. “Kenta! What happened! Your face!” He shifted back out of my reach and I could tell the movement hurt him. I looked to Sora, but he wouldn’t meet my eyes. I glared at each of them. “Someone is going to tell me what happened.” Sora glanced down at Kenta who shook his head. “That would be my fault Ryuu.” Kenta jerked his head up to glare at Sora, but Sora ignored him. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach as I watched them. The two of them had got into a fight? Sora looked fine . . . Kenta looked horrible and I knew he was an excellent fighter. That meant . . . “Your fault how, Sora?” I was afraid of the answer. The look on Sora’s face was the only answer I needed. “Fuck you Sora! Why the hell-forget it I don’t care what reason you thought you had.” Flinging back the covers, I started to get up only to have both of them stop me. “Let go! You want me to piss all over myself?” Sora was the one who helped me up. I shook him off. I wasn’t as dizzy today. The fever was gone and I felt better than I had in weeks. Physically and emotionally. It hurt that Sora and Kenta had fought and that Kenta had been the one to get hurt, but I now knew things I wished I’d known two weeks ago. “Sora will you get me a change of clothes, please. I’m going to take a bath.” Sora nodded and headed for my closet. I laid my hand on Kenta’s shoulder. “I want you to join me. No, hush. It will help.” I lightly touched the side of his face. He was going to have a black eye. “The tub is plenty big enough for the both of us, and besides it’s not like I haven’t seen you naked before.” I thought he was going to come unglued then, his face turning bright red as he sputtered. I just laughed and walked into the bathroom to get the tub started. I really wanted the chance to talk to him, really talk about why he was so scared of this . . . of us. I was already in the tub and was beginning to wonder if he’d blown me off when the door slowly opened. He looked so hesitant and shy. It was almost comical. I’d never seen that look on his face and decided I would love to see it more often. He came and stood beside the tub, not looking at me. Reaching out I brushed my fingers across his. “What are you waiting for? Get in.” He nodded slowly and started getting undressed. I laid my head on the side of the tub watching him. The way the smooth lean muscles flexed as he moved never ceased to amaze me. He was so beautifully built. I sighed as the shirt finally came off, then blinked. Too many bruises. It made my heart hurt to see them. I wondered if his ribs were bothering him again the way he was moving so slowly. It was almost torture watching him. I was already rock hard and he hadn’t even taken his pants off yet. Even bruised and beaten to hell I couldn’t help but want to touch him. Knowing now why he’d said no actually made me want him even more. I wanted to claim this amazing man as mine. Even if I couldn’t do it publically, I wanted to know I could come home and know he was there. Finally! The pants were coming off. Well shit, did he have bruises literally every where? I couldn’t play around like I wanted to with him in such obvious pain. He tried to act like there was nothing wrong, but I could tell he was really hurting from the tightening around his eyes and the way his lips firmed as he eased himself into the tub. I was going to have to have a talk with Sora. It had been a long time since Sora had lost his temper bad enough to hit someone. I wasn’t going to think about the last time. Sora did not hit without good reason and he must have thought he had a good reason to hit Kenta. It still upset me though. Slowly, I moved over to Kenta. He had his head back on the side of the tub, his eyes closed. I glanced up as Sora walked in; he had a bundle of clothes in one hand and an ice pack in the other. He handed me the ice pack and set the clothes on the counter. I shifted closer to Kenta, the water lapping around our chests. I was so happy my parents had bought the huge tub. Lightly touching Kenta’s arm to get his attention I carefully laid the icepack on his eye. I heard him sigh. “Thanks Ryuu.” “Does it still hurt?” “Fuck yeah.” “I want you to stay here tonight.” There was a short silence. “Okay.”

Kenta I flipped open my phone, trying to juggle it and the box of paperwork Isao had given me to archive. Crazy ass pencil pusher needed to get an assistant and quit asking me to do this shit. “Hey-“ “Kenta? It’s Sora. Have you heard from Ryuu?” Letting the box down I straightened, frowning. “No, not for a few days. Why?” “He’s not answering his phone and I just tried to go check on him and he wasn’t at the apartment.” “When did you see him last?” “Yesterday afternoon. The doorman said he left sometime last night . . . Kenta he never came home.” I nearly dropped the phone. “Wh-what? Ryuu doesn’t just go out, not like that. Fuck.” “Yeah I know. It’s got me really worried. He was acting strange yesterday and honestly I think he was getting sick.” “Ryuu is never sick.” “Yeah I know, so he probably didn’t even realize it. Kenta, you need to find him.” “Yeah.” I felt like someone had taken my guts and twisted them inside out. “Yeah, I’ll uh . . . I’ll call you.” “Thanks Kenta.” I hung up and leaned against the wall behind me. Shaking myself, I took a breath. Where would Ryuu go if he wasn’t feeling good? Shoving off the wall I headed to the front of the office. Isao was at the computer tapping away at that infernal keyboard. “Iesada, I got a problem.” He looked at me over the rim of his glasses. “You are a problem Arakaki. What’s wrong this time?” “Ryuu is missing.” “Oh shit, that is a problem. Aren’t you supposed to be his bodyguard?” “Don’t fucking rub it in! You’ve had me here doing shit for the past two weeks.” “You could have said something.” “Like you’d fucking listen.” He sighed. “You are right. I try my level best to ignore your idiocy at all times. You need help finding him?” “Yeah.” I felt like punching the mouthy shithead but Hayate would kill me. “Give me thirty minutes.” “Okay.” It took fifteen. “One of the guys spotted him about three hours ago at a net café over on the lower south side. He’s not come out yet. Here is the address.” “Awesome!” I snatched up the paper, thanking him on my way out. He might be a mouthy son of a bitch, but he got stuff done. *** The net café was a nice one. All the cubicles looked full. Going to the little food bar I asked the girl making drinks if she’d seen Ryuu. “Oh, how could I forget a hottie like that? Yeah. He’s in A3, but you aren’t supposed to bother-“ I turned and walked off. I had the information I needed. The door was shut, but there was no sound coming from the other side. I went to knock on it and paused suddenly feeling nervous. I hadn’t talked to him in days and hadn’t seen him for even longer. Things had been fucking awkward ever since the day at Jiro’s. He hadn’t even been calling as often as he normally did. I just figured he was pissed at me. Who wouldn’t be? I fucking thrown him across a room then turned him down when he’d asked me out. So now, I wasn’t really sure what to expect. Sliding the door open I scrambled to catch him as he fell backward. “Fuck! Ryuu!” Kneeling down I tried to prop him up. He was sweating like crazy, his shirt soaked and he felt entirely too hot to the touch. Glazed eyes slowly focused on me as he struggled weakly to get up. “Oh hi.” “Ryuu . . . fuck. You are sick. Why the hell aren’t you at home?” “It’s lonely.” It couldn’t possibly have hurt worse if he’d taken a dull knife and stabbed it right through me. If I’d been doing what I was supposed to, doing my fucking job, he wouldn’t be here like this, wouldn’t have been wandering around sick all night. I’d put him in danger by not being there. I was a fucking failure. Not anymore. Not fucking again. Shifting around, I scooped him up. He was lighter. Why the fuck was he lighter? “Excuse me sir?” I looked up to see the lady from earlier looking worried. “Is there something I can help you with.” “Yeah, call me a cab.” She nodded, her eyes never leaving Ryuu. “Right away sir.” I held him against me, feeling him shake every so often. Fuck. I had to get him to a clinic. Nakamara was going to have my balls. Worse than that, he was going to fire me. Setting Ryuu down, I took my jacket off and wrapped it around him before picking him up again. I gasped as there was a sudden sharp pain in my side. Shaking it off, I walked toward the front keeping a tight hold on Ryuu. The cab was just pulling up. I nodded to the girl as she held the door open for me. Ryuu was saying something, but with his face buried against my neck I couldn’t make out what it was. I was starting to sweat just from carrying him he was so hot to the touch. It was scaring me. If his fever was too high it could get dangerous. The ride to the clinic was tense. I played with my phone, dialing Nakamara then shutting it. I finally decided to call Sora. Someone needed to know I’d found him. Sora picked up on the second ring and I could hear a video game going in the background. “Kenta? Turn that down will you, Hasu? Did you find him? Is he alright? Where was he?” “Um. He was at a net café. We are on our way to a clinic. He’s um-he’s really sick.” “Which clinic?” I told him wondering how soon I’d know if I’d lost my job or not. I hadn’t told Nakamara about having Hayate do my job. I’d just thought that giving Ryuu some space would be better. I was lying to myself. I knew I was. Fucking lying. I just couldn’t handle being around him every day. When I was around him all I could think about was . . . things I shouldn’t be thinking about. His safety was my priority. Nothing else. Reaching over I smoothed the sweat soaked hair back from his face. “I’m sorry Ryuu.” Ryuu Light woke me. It was too bright to sleep any longer. I slowly opened my eyes almost dreading what I would see. I had heard voices several times when I’d wake just enough to have someone give me some water. After the second time that had happened, I’d realized I was very sick. It was scary. My body wouldn’t move and for a while I’d nearly panicked trying to get up. Nothing had made sense at that point. The only thing that came through clearly was Kenta’s voice. Knowing that he was there meant I didn’t have to worry. I’d actually slept after that. I wondered if it was morning. The clock said it was two, must be afternoon. Turning my head the other way I blinked seeing Kenta half laying on the bed, one arm stretched out toward me. My heart sped up. How long had he been there? Why was he here? I slowly reached over, running my fingers through the dark strands. Now that I was awake I could remember hearing his voice the whole time since he’d first found me at the net café. I wasn’t really sure how I’d gotten there, that part was kind of a blur. I’d just known that something didn’t feel right. I’d thought that maybe going out would help. Apparently not. He stirred slightly under my fingers and I froze. Would he be mad at me for touching him? I just didn’t know what to do anymore. He was so confusing. Taking my hand out of his hair I laid my head back turning to look out the window again. I should just give up. I wasn’t willing to lose his friendship over this. I could deal with not being closer. I would deal with it. Closing my eyes, I bit down on the urge to cry. I wasn’t going to. He’d just get on to me for it anyway. I nearly jumped feeling warm fingers suddenly surrounding mine. I turned my head, only to smile weakly seeing Sora standing next to the bed. Kenta was still sound asleep. “Hey.” “Hey.” “You look like shit.” “You look like a walking mop, a dirty one.” Sora just chuckled and shook his head, keeping his voice down. “You gave us quite a scare yesterday, Ito.” “Sorry. I knew something didn’t feel right and thought going out would help.” “Why didn’t you call me?” “Because I always call you. It’s not fair to you Sora.” “Bullshit. You could have called this idiot.” Sora glanced down at Kenta. I shook my head. “No, he . . . just no.” “He stayed up all night with you last night. He must have passed out just a few minutes ago. I was just in here thirty minutes ago and he was still awake.” I shifted around to sit up, leaning against the headboard. “Well, it’s his job isn’t it?” Even I heard the bite in my voice and I suddenly felt bad. “Yeah . . . about that. I think Nakamara is going to fire him.” I jerked around to face Sora. “What! No! No, he can’t! I won’t allow it! I-it was my fault. I . . . was too pushy.” A dry laugh escaped me and I dropped my head, plucking at the covers. “If anything he could sue me for sexual harassment.” “I don’t think he would do that Ryuu.” At Sora’s gentle tone I looked up. “He really does like you Ryuu. We . . . talked for a bit last night at the clinic. He’s terrified of getting fired, but he’s more scared of messing things up for you.” I stared at Sora trying to process that information. Kenta and scared didn’t go in the same sentence. I looked back down at the dark head. It was just like Kenta to think of someone else before himself. I just wished he would let me back in. I’d been shoved back outside that barrier and it seemed higher than ever. “I don’t know Sora.” “Just . . . don’t give up Ryuu. If you can’t win, where will I be?” “Jacking off to those photos you sneak when he’s not looking.” Sora’s eyes narrowed dangerously. “If you weren’t sick I’d . . . sometimes I don’t even know why I bother.” “Cause you love me!” I grinned at him as I shifted back down under the covers and rolled over onto my side. I was feeling sleepy again. I curled up around Kenta laying a hand on his. “Besides, it’s what I do. So I know you’d do it too.” “Oh my god, Ryuu . . . you are just . . . never mind. Go back to sleep for a bit. I’ll bring you something to eat here after while.” “Sora.” I waited till he’d turned back around. “Thanks and . . . I will keep trying.”

Kenta Today was going to shit. It had already gone to hell, and things were getting impossibly worse. Ryuu had locked himself in his dressing room and wasn’t letting anyone in. It was our second day on set shooting the band’s new promotional video and it seemed that anything and everything that could possibly go wrong was. I stood outside, leaning against the wall next to the door waiting for the latest tantrum to run its course. I’d never seen Ryuu this moody and even Sora was confused. It was almost like Ryuu was inventing reasons to stay in his dressing room. “Fuck this.” Taking out my key I opened the door to the room. I blinked a few times surprised that it was completely dark. “Ryuu?” There was no answer and a little rush of apprehension had my skin crawling. “Damn it Ryuu, what the hell is wrong with you? Everyone is waiting on you so we can wrap up shooting.” “I don’t care.” I couldn’t pin point exactly where his voice had come from and reaching over I flipped the light switch. Nothing. “Fuck. What the hell did you do to the light?” “Just go out.” I scowled hearing the tremor in his voice. “Are you crying?” “No.” “Liar.” “Just go out!” I jumped surprised to hear him scream at me like that. It wasn’t like Ryuu at all. Something was really wrong and I wasn’t leaving until I figured out what it was. “Shut the fuck up.” I slammed to door behind me, giving myself a moment until my eyes adjusted to the dim light. I could hear a soft sound that I instantly recognized as Ryuu crying. Fuck it all to hell. I was going to beat him. Why the fucking hell was he crying anyway? He’d been the one who’d thrown the hissy fit when the stylist had accidentally burned him with the iron. I spotted him huddled up on the small love seat that occupied one wall. Walking over to the dressing table I flipped the light on and turned to face him. He wouldn’t look at me. Tears were streaming down his face. His make-up was ruined and it looked like he’d ripped the hairpiece out too. “Ryuu . . .” I kept my voice low, trying to get him calmed down. It hurt me more than I felt it should to see him like this. Standing in front of him I reached down to touch his arm and got my hand batted away. “Don’t touch me! Just don’t fucking touch me.” He was sobbing now, the sound piercing me. Fuck. It should not hurt this much to see him upset. It should not make me want to pull him close and do whatever I could to see that brilliant smile again. “Why are you here? Why don’t you just leave?” “It’s my job to take care of you Ryuu.” That seemed to be the wrong thing to say. Ryuu was suddenly on his feet, his face inches from mine. “I am not just a fucking job!” I caught his wrist as he went to leave and shoved him back down on the sofa. I could feel his pulse racing under my fingertips as I stared down at him. “You are going to fucking calm down and tell me what the fuck is wrong or so help me you will not be finishing this PV. I’ll send everyone home and cancel the shoot.” “N-no don’t . . . I . . . I’m sorry.” His voice sounded so small and hollow, so unlike the Ryuu I knew. Letting go of his wrist I sat down next to him. I didn’t say anything, just waiting. It took several minutes but I finally heard him take a deep breath. “I . . . it’s my fault. I can’t even look at him without thinking that it was my fault. I should have just kept my stupid mouth shut. He must hate me. Reiko is upset with me anyway. She yelled at me at the hospital and hasn’t really talked to me since. I didn’t mean-“ “Ryuu . . . it’s not your fault.” I sighed and leaned forward resting my arms on my knees, hanging my head. This again? “Akira has other issues too, we all know that. None of us realized he wasn’t eating.” I felt him shift next to me, his voice barely audible. “He told me he wanted to look good for the shoot. Everyone must think I’m an egomaniacal insensitive jerk. Even the fans are going to hate me now.” I wasn’t sure what egomaniacal meant, but it didn’t sound good. “The fans don’t hate you Ryuu. And no one thinks you are like that. We all failed Akira.” Soft hair brushed my cheek as Ryuu laid his head over on my shoulder. The subtle scent of hairspray and his expensive cologne surrounded me. “I hate it. He’s always been so small anyway, and now he’s just skin and bones. Every time I look at him I get this sick feeling. He could have died Kenta and it would have been my fault. I know he’s doing better now but . . . he’s lost so much weight. His outfit doesn’t even fit anymore. Why do I have to be so stupid?” “Ryuu,” I was careful to keep any trace of anger out of my voice. He was still blaming himself for Akira’s anorexia? I’d thought we’d discussed this while Akira was in the hospital, though it seemed Ryuu was still feeling like it was his fault. “It was his choice. It’s not like you were taking food away from him.” There was a loud sigh and the warmth was suddenly gone. “I know, but it doesn’t change the fact that he acted on something I said.” There was a long silence. “Kenta, I’m sorry. Um . . . can you please tell everyone I’ll be out in a few minutes to finish the filming.” “Sure Ryuu.” I got to my feet and headed for the door. Opening it I turned back to him, but he was already at the mirror trying to fix his hair. I sighed and shut the door behind me. It was just like him to blame himself for something like this. Silly twit. I tracked down the director and had a few words with him. Ryuu had to be handled delicately when he was in this kind of a mood. His self esteem was so fragile it was almost pathetic and it made me wonder why that was the case. The guy had everything. Wealth, fame, looks, girls (and guys) literally throwing themselves at him so why was his self esteem shit? It didn’t make any sense to me. I sat off to the side as they finished wrapping up shooting. Ryuu was his usual smiling, happy, confident self. Watching and listening to him sing always gave me chills. There was just something about his voice, the emotion he could put into it that got to me every time. I’d been a fan of their music before I’d ever met them in person. Knowing Ryuu and the other boys hadn’t changed that, if anything I was even more of a fan now because I knew just how fucking hard they worked. “You guys looked great.” I handed Hasu a bottle of water and a towel, I had a Coke waiting for the other three. I got three smiles and a grimace. Ryuu wasn’t happy. Go figure. I followed them out to the van after they’d changed. Reiko was waiting. Akira immediately went to her and I heard Ryuu sigh. I frowned looking over at him. That had been happening a lot lately. Was he jealous or something? Reiko was pretty hot. A bit too aggressive for my tastes, but that didn’t seem to faze Akira. I bumped his arm with my elbow to get his attention. “What’s wrong?” He shrugged, not looking up at me. “Just tired I guess. Sorry about earlier.” “Don’t worry about it.” I opened the van door for him and waited until the other two had climbed in before getting in myself. Akira was headed out with Reiko. If anyone could whip that boy into shape it would be her. She wouldn’t be above force feeding him if she had to. We dropped Sora and Hasu off at their places and drove back across town to the gated apartment complex that Ryuu called home. He hesitated before getting out. Soft grey eyes regarded me for a moment. “You want to come up?” “Nah, I gotta get home and change. It’s my night to work at the restaurant.” “Yeah, of course. Sorry. See you later then.” I watched him leave wondering why I had the odd sensation that my heart was dropping through my gut.