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(though this is still not a bl drawing) (i apologize, for it's kinda dirty, it's because of the charcoal, can't help it, lol)

Some GazettE fan art I've been working on. I hope you enjoy it. Ruki of the GazettE by ~brohne on deviantART

Title: Crimson Spell Drama CD Summary: In order to protect his people from attacking demons, Prince Val uses a demonic sword and curses himself in the process. He leaves his kingdom to find a cure, and his search leads him to Hallwil, the person rumored to be the only one who knows how to break the curse. Hall wil agrees to help Val. .. for a price. Download Crimson Spell Drama CD: Click Here To download For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

. .i made 2 new poems couple of hours ago, one is bl and the other is not (i don't know if you could guys see this as a bl poem, but still here it is) BARENAKED In this midst, I walk So dark, I'm soak Yet, I need to move On this nowhere road Don't know the goal Why and what for? Guess, must find a piece From these scattered debris If i find, I shout If i didn't, out of sorts Still carry this vigor To route for more Then it rains Body now in stains Colorless but spur Inside me roars Cold and freezing Chilly and shaking I can't take it But need to bear it As I look, I see Those ravish eyes, I fear Wish I vanish And rush to my dear Wall starts to break Dangerous hands, rake Stripping this cover Can't stand this anymore "Where are you? Please help me, I need you!" I cried and moan "Please stop it! I beg you, It's my dear's own" But within, it reaches It's too late, I guess This last breath, must make BARENAKED feeling, to you, I confess

wah i love ur tatoo....and you so cute.. and this is mine..i like that winter cloth hehehe

I hate bitches that talk about crap all the time! So freaking annoying. They need to just jump off a cliff and die. The world will be better off without them. Especially since there are so many in the world... ugh. One day they will all get what's coming to them... :cuteonion43:

I wanna complain about the weather 'cause it was so hot and my lips were cracking from the inside of my mouth! I wanna complain about my toothache which bothered me so much. I'm okay now after brushing my teeth twice, gargling and taking a pain reliever. I also wanna complain about someone who caused me some mental stench yesterday or was it the other day? gosh, the ignorance is appalling!

BexBoy GOLD 2010/02 Mangaka: Homerun Ken, Oyamada Ami, Ike Reibun, Haruka Minami, Tamaquis Wren, Shinobu Aion, Kuku Hayate, Sakuragi Ayan, Chitose Piyoko, Haruko Moto, Nanase Kai, Mitsuaki Asou & Narise Konohara, Kanbe Akira, Modoru Motoni, CJ Michalski. Download BexBoy GOLD 2010/02 Here

you know, that manga you almost or did cry when you finished reading it :msn_red_fox 2 mine was a manga called girl friends, by morinaga milk, it's not yaoi, it's yuri, and i just LOVE IT! :7yoyo10: when i got to the half of it i got kinda bored and statred reading other stuff but oneday when i was looking up my old mangas i noticed the folder and thought:"hey, i miss that manga" and i then when i got to the last chapter i felt like reading more, so i opened mangafox and watched it to the end. and then i cried so bad :leaf7: and i searched for mangas by morinaga milk, but nothing realy compared that manga, it was just .. great ! it contains 35 chapters! and there was realy a lot of misunderstanding and stuff, and the hot stuff came REALY late, but if it came early, i would'nt have watched it 'til the end, so thnx moringaga-sensei .. or milk-sensei or whatever .. anyways, thnx for making the best manga EVER ! :Red_fox7: oh i kinda missed it ..*reads it again* so the question is: "what's that manga that REALY affected you? and by who was it?"

Ok, guys, just drool over it... The art is called Holyland (by ecchi-mia)

Ok straight to the point: i wanna have Usami and Sebastian and of course Asami as one of my inventory collection badly. But i currently have 2000+ points only at time. In order to get point i noticed that posting/starting a thread will give us point. But how long/ how many post should i post till i'll reach 100,000 points to get Sebastian/Usami/ in my inventory. So dont you think that we should have a weekly allowance? or can we get an interest while we save money in bank??

Hi everybody ♥ :hamtaro-005 (4): My name is Clémentine, I'm seventeen. I live in France (in the north), so, sorry for the mistakes, because english isn't my mother tongue I'm a fan of manga, and yaoi especially ^^

Oh my! There were a lot of mangas that affected me! The sad ones made me cry, and made me depressed for so much time sometimes... and the very hot and good ones, made me obsessed

Oh I need money. I already got the boy covered. I also got a girl. Heheh!

. .eheeeem :leaf5: . .besides form my family (obviously) . .i just want to share to everyone that there were people i totally admire in this forum, it's because of their works and personalities . .yojichan (i treat yojichan as a senpai ) and amander123(amander-sama) . .they were my inspiration on my literary works :cuteonion57: ( i also want to thank them for inspiring me alot) :leaf12: :leaf3:

. and here's the other not bl one EMPTY From dust to clay Molded and lay From his looks Oh, it's cooked! Bright stones were embedded In a circle, oh, it's head Stick with two holes Air to passes Dug a hole Words to install Red thing so licky Oh, for tasty But deaf is still Sounds must steal Dug another hole Left and right for more Lighted the coals Burn to colors Anyway it goes It still has roles Red stone embedded In clay must knitted Inside this case Is a life to amaze Then, laid on floor Opened the door Magic words, blew It livens, oh, it's true Delivers to earth Actions must oath A world to own Precious thing to owe Suddenly, it felt A missing piece left "What is this? Tell me, please!" 'Cause in this case Where red stone lays So cold and steady Is a feeling of EMPTY

A cute cow Now mine... made after the same tutorial

Here's Chapter 2 for all who enjoyed this fic! Chapter 2: Threats and Bad News "So it's true then?" Takumi jumped when he heard someone come up from behind him. He had been twirling his engagement ring completely unaware of his audience. "Oh Takabayashi-kun." It had been a week since Gii had proposed to him and during that time the two had spent Golden week with their parents before returning to school. Takumi hadn't seen Gii since the proposal so he was highly missing his fiance. Takabayashi smiled. "Gii popped the question didn't he?" he sat next to the black-haired teen eager for all the details. Takumi only nodded as he continued to look at his ring. How could something so small and simple seem so important to him? He didn't know but he would treasure it no matter what. "It's a little overwhelming I admit and I know we're a little young to be even thinking of marriage but." Takabayashi chuckled. "Well think of it this way Hayama; with that ring your relationship with Gii is secured and no one will be able to steal him from you." He leaned back against his seat. Michio and I haven't gotten that far yet and I don't know if we even will. But I do know I can easily say I'm happy for you." Takumi nodded his head in thanks before returning his attention to his ring. "A lot of people have been giving me dirty looks ever since we came back from break. I know a lot of people aren't too thrilled about my relationship with Gii but I'm still afraid I'm giving him a bad name." Takabayashi gave the other a look. "After everything you went through how can you keep doubting yourself. Gii loves you and he always will. I don't ever want to hear you say otherwise. And if someone starts anything you let me or Akaike know okay? okay?" Takumi only nodded as he stood up. "Well I better get going I promised Gii I would meet him after class. he said he had a surprise for me." Takabayashi smiled. "Okay I'll see you soon." Takumi watched as Takabayashi walked away. He looked at his watch to see he still had an hour before he was to meet with Gii. To pass the time Takumi headed towards the music room. It would only be a couple of days before it was torn down and he wanted to spend as much time as he could there. Before he reached the building he was stopped by one of the other students. "You think you're all high and mighty don't you Hayama-senpai? Just because you're dating Gii-senpai." a brown haired 2nd year entered Takumi's personal space. Seconds later another student came up from behind him. "You know I think he's just using Gii-senpai. Hayama-senpai doesn't belong with the rest of us." Takumi stepped back. "It's no business of yours." he kept his hand shoved in his pocket not wanting them to see his ring. These guys were built bigger than he was and didn't know what they were capable of. "It is too our business whether you like it or not. You can't hog Gii-senpai all to yourself you know. We don't care if you think you're dating him. Gii-senpai is ours and you better stay away from him." responded the third.. He shoved Takumi against the wall and got right into his face. "Or I'll make you regret even enrolling in Shidou." with a quick shove he and the others walked off. Takumi stood there frozen for several moments. All though they were underclassmen compared to him they were bigger and tougher looking. He hated to admit it but they had scared him. As he wrapped his arms around himself he held back a wince as he touched his shoulder. It was tender no doubt a bruise in the making. Deciding to keep it himself Takumi entered the music room now in hopes to avoid anymore unwanted encounters. "You asked him didn't you?" Gii turned to look at his best friend with the goofiest grin he has ever worn. "Hai." Akaike leaned against the door frame of the empty classroom. "And judging by the look on your face he said yes." He folded his arms in front of his chest. "I wonder what your parents are going to say about all this." The smile on Gii's face faded and he turned to face Akaike. "What do you mean by that exactly?" Akaike looked down at Gii. "You're expected to run your father's company in a few years. Won't your parents expect you to marry someone with a background more like your own?" Gii stood up and walked up to Akaike. "Are you saying Takumi's not good enough to marry me?" Before he could get an answer from his friend Gii's cell vibrated in his pocket playing an unfamiliar ringtone. He flipped it open 'Moshi moshi? Uh Oto-sama Hai?" "Saki I have already spoken with your school. You are to leave a week from tomorrow to return home." Gii looked at his phone confused. "Gomen Oto-sama but may I ask the reason behind the need for my return to America?" "Why to meet your fiance of course." Gii dropped the phone only to have Akaike catch it. Akaike placed the phone next to his ear. "Gomen Saki-sama. Gii seems to be in shock right now." "He shouldn't be. We already discussed this over his break for Golden week. He mentioned thoughts of marriage. His mother and I have taken this into consideration. We believe Saki should wait until he's out of high school but we figured he would like to get to know her better before the wedding." Akaike looked at the phone confused. "'Her' you mean you have already chosen Gii's bride?" Gii's head shot up at the question. "Put the phone on speaker Akaike". Once the two of them could hear him Gii spoke, "Oto-sama I mentioned marriage because I already have someone in mind." "I'm sorry Giichi but that's not possible. You're mother and I were planning to wait until you finished high school to tell you but I suppose now is a good time as any. The arrangements for your marriage to Keisu Yuko have already been made." "Yuko-chan?" Akaike looked at Gii, "You know her?" "Yuko was my childhood friend in America. We used to joke around about getting married but we never agreed on actually going through with it." Gii explained. "This is a fine match Giichi. You are to wed after the two of you finish high school on your grandfather's birthday." "But Oto-sama what does Yuko -chan have to say about this?" Gii asked wondering if she even knew about the arrangement. "Yuko does not. She and you will meet for dinner when you return here. We will inform her then." Gii still didn't want to accept it. "But Oto-sama-" "We are finished Giichi. I will see you in a week. Take care of him for now Akaike-san." "I will Saki-sama sayonara." Akaike ended the call and caught Gii before he lost all feeling in his legs. "You didn't know about this at all did you?" Gii was speechless. He didn't know what to do now. "How could this happen? What am I going to tell Takumi?" Akaike was at a lost for words himself. Gii's phone did the talking for them as Takumi's ringtone filled the empty classroom. Knowing Gii was too shaken up to answer Akaike answered. "Moshi moshi Hayama. Gomen Gii's indisposed right now." "Oh I was just wondering if he still he wanted to meet me at the music room. He said he had a surprise for me or something." Takumi answered. He was still shaken up from the earlier encounter but he tried his best to keep it out of his tone. Gii took the phone. "Takumi I need you to do me a favor." "What is it Gii?" Takumi asked highly worried at the tone in his fiance's voice. "I need you to come with me back to America in a week."

Title: Gashuu Illustrations Artist: Nekota Yonezou Size: 43.47 MB Download Gashuu Artbook: click (link thanks to liznoir) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: D.Nd : Poisoned ('Death Note' doujin game) Made by: Akane Story: Wammy's House is an orphanage ubicated at south of England. Brilliant orphans from around the world are gathered and trained to fulfill a purpose: Become copies of L, the greatest detective of the world.Living in a battlefield called everyday and trapped by his obsessive mind and his great intelligence, 14 years old boy whose allias is Mello struggles day after day to become number 1, always being surpassed by a boy who uses the name of Near.Mello's sick obsession to surpass his rival and become the best candidate to succeed L, aggravated by his troubled and addictive personality, have made Near become the center of his world. Though he sees this feeling as pure hatred and anger, the pale boy might mean more for Mello than he'd want to admit.When Roger decides to assign them both a project they must work in together, they might be able to discover the greatest mystery of their lives: Each other.However the chemical reaction as result of their relationship might not be the desired result Roger was looking for... Minimum System Requirements: MicrosoftR WindowsR 98/98SE/Me/XP/2000 PC with 800MHz IntelR PentiumR III equivalent or higher processor At least 128 MB of system RAM 1024x768 or better video resolution in High Color mode DirectSound-compatible sound card Download: Mediafire For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Okane ga Nai / No money OVAs Title: No Money / Okane ga Nai Genre: yaoi Year Published: 2007 Type: OVA No. of Episodes: 4 Duration: 25 min / ep Plot: Yukiya Ayase is a university student. His cousin Tetsuo Ishii betrays and sells him in an auction to settle his heavy debts. Ayase is bought by Somuku Kanou for 120 million yen. Kanou does this because he remembers Ayase from four years ago, when Ayase, a stranger, helped him. Now Kanou wants to keep Ayase close to himself, and uses the debt of 120 million yen to force Ayase to live with him. As Ayase is still a student and does not have a job, he is forced to sell his body to Kanou for 500,000 yen each time they have sex. FORMAT: RMVB Watch Okane Ga Nai OVAs 1-4 + Extras 1-4 Online (HD Quality): Okane Ga Nai OVAs 1-4 + Extras 1-4 Online Download Okane ga Nai OVAs: OVA 1 OVA 2 OVA 3 OVA 4 Mirror link: OVA 2 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Gakuen Heaven Anime Alternative title: Gakuen Heaven: Boy's Love Scramble Heaven Academy Райская школа (Russian) 学園ヘヴン (Japanese) Genres: comedy, romance, slice of life Themes: bishounen, high school, male harem, shounen-ai Running time: half hour per episode Number of episodes: 13 Opening Theme: "school boys" by YAMOTO Ending Theme: "Panorama" by Masaaki Fujioka Type: TV Series Format: AVI File Size: 171-179 MB Plot Summary: It all started when Keita Ito received a letter sealed with the initial BL Academy. The most sophisticated all boys, on campus, Academy in the country. Now that Keita Ito is accepted in the school with an average GBA, as well as average skills in sports and writing, he doesn’t think that he belong in there. But with the help from the other students, will he be able to make it in BLA. Watch Gakuen Heaven Anime Online (HD Quality): Gakuen Heaven Anime Online Download Gakuen Heaven Anime: Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3 Ep4 Ep 5 Ep 6 Ep 7 Ep 8 Ep 9 Ep 10 Ep 11 Ep 12 Ep 13 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Ciel ~ Blue Eyes Artist: Lily Hoshino Size: 17.86 MB SS: Ciel ~Blue Eyes [updated 26/08/2013] For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Sekaiichi Hatsukoi OVA Title: Sekaiichi Hatsukoi Genre: Yaoi Year Published: 2011 Type: OVA No. of Episodes: ?1? Duration: 21 min / ep Plot: This Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi OVA is bundled with limited editions of the 5th volume from Shungiku Nakamura' boys-love manga series. The story follows the tension between a newly recruited manga editor and his tyrannical editor-in-chief - who happen to share a common past. Nakamura also inserted some characters from Junjo Romantica (one of her previous yaoi manga) into Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi. (based on ANN synopsis) FORMAT: AVI Download Sekaiichi Hatsukoi OVA: Ova 1 (Eng Subs) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

i think about this and i want to share with you who is ur best admiring person in this world?.. For me is my mum.because she is great,selfish-less,committed. so What about you?:Red_fox3::Red_fox3:

In Absolute Obedience, you control Louise and Kia through a set of six missions each, with a possible grade of "A" through "C" or "D" in each. "A" and "B" are successful grades; "C" and "D" are failures. To activate the two secret missions at the end of the game, you must score an "A" rating on all twelve missions in one saved game. In order to collect all the CGs, events, and ranks in the game, you will need to have multiple saved games, as you will have to play each mission a minimum of three times in order to get each rating. Following each possible dialogue path will get you everything, but you will still need to start the game over multiple times. Several missions expire upon completion of a certain number of other missions or specific other missions, and Kia's second mission, "The Selfish Prince's Holiday," won't be available until two other missions have been completed. Therefore, in order to complete all missions and unlock the secret missions for Louise and Kia, you have to do the missions in a certain order. One order in which it is possible to complete the game successfully is: L4, K6, K2, K3, K5, L5, K1, L6, K4, L1, L3, L2 However, "D" results are not achievable with this order; you will have to start new games in order to get them. Be careful not to save over your "A" game. Also be careful to save after you receive the secret missions so that you can go back to them later if you want to without replaying. Generally, to get the "D" ending for a particular case, you will need to play it first; start a new game especially for it. However, to make the "D" ending for K2 available, you must start a new game, then get the "D" endings for K1 and L1. Louise's Missions L1: The Betrayer's Retribution Louise vs. Lawless Streich To activate "D" ending, L1 must be one of the first missions played If the D ending is not possible, the storyline will default to "C" Follow his line of sight>[i want to learn]>"D" ending Follow his line of sight>[Jump his bones]>"C" ending Call out to Lawless>Jump his bones>Go to my father>"C" ending Call out to Lawless>Jump his bones>Go to my mother>"C" ending Call out to Lawless>I want to learn>Go to my mother's>Ask someone> "C" ending Call out to Lawless>I want to learn>Go to my mother's>Go look>"C" ending Call out to Lawless>I want to learn>Go to my father's>Check the boarding house> Am I useless to you>"C" ending Call out to Lawless>I want to learn>Go to my father's>Check the boarding house>Are you going to Michard>"B" ending Call out to Lawless>I want to learn>Go to my father's>Investigate>Am I useless to you>"C" ending Call out to Lawless>I want to learn>Go to my father's>Investigate>Are you going to Michard>"A" ending L2: For My Beloved Spy Louise vs. Zhores Barsoukova To activate "D" ending, L2 must be one of the first missions played If the D ending is not possible, the storyline will default to "C" Feign ignorance>[Call Reiner secretly]> "C" ending Feign ignorance>[Call Reiner openly]> "D" ending Make him think you know his true identity>Have fun together>take a taxi> "C" ending Make him think you know his true identity>Have fun together>take my own car> "C" ending Make him think you know his true identity>Call Reiner>take my own car>take a shower first>"C" ending Make him think you know his true identity>Call Reiner>take my own car>take him now>"C" ending Make him think you know his true identity>Call Reiner>take a taxi>kiss him>go to the staff room>"C" ending Make him think you know his true identity>Call Reiner>take a taxi>kiss him>go to Zhores' apartment> "B" ending Make him think you know his true identity>Call Reiner>take a taxi>rip off his clothes>go to the staff room>"C" ending Make him think you know his true identity>Call Reiner>take a taxi>rip off his clothes>go to Zhores' apartment>"A" ending L3: The High Class Prostitute's Prank Louise vs. Werner Herzog To activate "D" ending, L3 must be one of the first missions played If the D ending is not possible, the storyline will default to "A" Ambush him>Sigh meaningfully>"C" ending Ambush him>Smile knowingly> "C" ending Use invitation>Take his hand>Exchange looks> "C" ending Use invitation>Take his hand>Force your way in>"C" ending Use invitation>Look at him>have the employee announce>one night stand>"C" ending Use invitation>Look at him>have the employee announce>get drunk>"C" ending Use invitation>Look at him>Just go in>Head into town>"B" ending Use invitation>Look at him>Just go in>Follow your mother>[kiss him]"D" ending Use invitation>Look at him>Just go in>Follow your mother>[invite him to a hotel]"A" ending L4: The Man Driven Mad By an Angel Louise vs. Anel Metzelder Approach as a friend>Make him wait>"C" ending Approach as a friend>Let him come>"C" ending Approach as private tutor>Make Anel come>Forgive>"B" ending Approach as private tutor>Make Anel come>Berate>"B" ending Approach as private tutor>Go all the way>Forgive>"B" ending Approach as private tutor>Go all the way>Berate>"A" ending L5: The Maiden's Wish Louise vs. Ferdinand Marienfield Meet him by accident>Go somewhere new>"C" ending Meet him by accident>Let Fate decide>"C" ending Visit his mansion officially>Turn right>Take a bath together>"B" ending Visit his mansion officially>Turn right>Go to Ferdinand's room>"B" ending Visit his mansion officially>Follow Ferdinand>Take a bath together>"B" ending Visit his mansion officially>Follow Ferdinand>Go to Ferdinand's room>"A" ending L6: Take Down the Rival! Louise vs. Hagen Haller Eat with the nurses>You're drunk> "C" ending Eat with the nurses>have to go back>"C" ending Eat in the garden>you're drunk>leave it to berti>"B" ending Eat in the garden>you're drunk>try to do it> "B" ending Eat in the garden>have to go back>leave it to Berti>"B" ending Eat in the garden>have to go back>try to do it>"A" ending

Summary: A wonderful story about Ryuu and Kenta, about love and friendship. A delicious story about how love for friends and lover can make us overcome anything. Status: Complete Author Note: This is not fanfiction. If that is not allowed then please delete. Also this is a multi-chapter novel so expect plot. ^^ Chapter 1a Fantasy Ryuu It can be funny how things change. In just a few months my life is completely different from what it was. Looking back I’m amazed that so much happened in such a short amount of time. Stretching my legs out underneath the table I looked at my band mates. Akira was texting someone, probably Reiko. Sora was in the process of trying to get himself hit. “Stop it Sora.” Hasu yanked the handheld out of the bassist’s reach glaring at him. I didn’t bother to hide my amusement, letting a chuckle slip free. “You are going to lose, just let me beat that boss for you.” “No, I can do it if you’d quit pestering me. Damn it Sora! You made me lose again.” I laughed softly and slid out of my seat, swaying with the movement of the bus. Hasu didn’t cuss all that often and when he did- “Ow! Owowowow! Let go! I’m sorry! I won’t do it again.” I glanced back over to see Hasu with a fist full of Sora’s long red hair holding his head against the table. His eyes were firmly fixed on the small screen even as Sora struggled to get loose. Hasu might be almost a foot shorter and four years younger, but it was pretty obvious that Sora had no chance. Our little drummer was strong enough to flip the tall bassist on his head, quite literally. Turning back around, I opened the small fridge and grabbed myself a Coke. The weekend had gone exceptionally well. Both concerts had been huge hits and I’d met my new best friend. Speaking of Tatsuya, I pulled my phone out of my pocket and grinned seeing the text message. Shopping was on for next weekend. If I got bored this week I might invite him out to eat or something. I’d never met anyone quite like him and we’d had so much fun coming up with new outfit ideas. I really couldn’t wait to see him again. Sitting back down, I took a sip of the coke. Speaking of seeing people again . . . it was going to be a couple of days before I got to see Kenta again. I sighed, running my finger along the lip of the can. Maybe Reiko was right. Maybe I was just chasing after a dream. I just couldn’t let it go. Not yet. After all the time I’d spent around him he’d seen me at my best and my worst and he still was just as patient and kind as ever. I know I’m not the easiest person to get along with. I’m too emotional and act before I fully think things through. At least that is what everyone tells me. I took another sip of the Coke, thinking. “What’s wrong, Ryuu?” I looked up to meet Akira’s light brown eyes. “Nothing, was just thinking.” “Did you have fun this weekend?” I nodded, “Yeah. Tatsuya and I are going to get together this week. He’s got some wicked ideas for new concert outfits.” Akira shook his head, a wry smile twisting the full lips. “You two knowing each other scares me.” I couldn’t help but giggle at that, even if there was a hint of pain in it. “He’s so much fun! Oh my god, I can’t wait to see him again.” Something in Akira’s eyes changed slightly and I looked away knowing it had sounded forced. “What are you hiding Ryuu?” Trust Akira to see right through me. I shrugged, unable to keep the smile in place. Truthfully, I wasn’t looking forward to going back to my huge empty apartment. I loved being with everyone, meeting Tatsuya had seemed to underline the fact that without my friends around I was nothing. That old fear from high school from before I’d met Sora always tried to resurface then. What if they only were friends with me because my family was wealthy? What if it was all fake? With Sora I knew it wasn’t. For one, we’d been friends for too long and his family was almost as well off as mine. “Umm, you guys going to come over sometime this week? We’ve got that new material . . .” “Ryuu, if you want us to come over just say so. You don’t have to make up an excuse for us to come over.” Sora’s gentle tone actually made me feel worse. It made me feel like a whiny, needy, self centered jerk. “Oh no, it’s cool. I was just wondering. I know it’s been a really busy weekend and I don’t expect you guys to come over.” I glanced back over at Akira studying him for a moment. He’d changed in the year since he’d met Reiko. He was more confident and happier. A lot happier. I would never have been able to make him as happy as Reiko did. Even now that thought hurt. I loved him, more than he probably realized, but I’d slowly come to realize that it wouldn’t have worked no matter how hard I tried. That led me to think about Kenta. Just thinking about those sultry dark eyes and the deep voice gave me chills. He was the quiet, calm presence that my life had been lacking for so long. “You are thinking about Kenta aren’t you?” I looked up expecting to get the usual sarcasm from Sora, instead he was looking at me concern clearly visible in the light green eyes. I couldn’t hold his gaze. “Was it that obvious?” “Well lately it’s been pretty obvious that . . . “ Sora paused and looked over at Hasu who was once again absorbed in his game. He picked up the headphones and after plugging them in, put them on Hasu getting a look but no argument. Sometimes the big oaf was more protective than he needed to be. “You like him don’t you?” I looked back over at Akira surprised. “I know how affectionate you are Ryuu, but the way you look at him is totally different.” I took another long drink of my Coke wanting to avoid the conversation. “It’s pointless though. Reiko is right.” “You don’t know Ryuu.” I looked at Sora but his eyes were on Hasu, not the game, but Hasu. I almost smirked, but we were both in the same situation. We liked people we couldn’t have and who were oblivious to our feelings. At least the person I liked was my age. “I know he seems distant, but you are his employer after all.” “What you suggesting I fire him so I can date him?” “No, I’m just saying that you shouldn’t give up.” “I agree with Sora.” Akira’s soft look seemed to sharpen the pain in my chest. “Just give it some time. I’ll see if Suke knows anything, they do work together you know.” “Y-yeah, thanks.” Akira's older brother was a gang member as well and I knew that Suke and Kenta worked together all the time. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to know. I’d rather things stay as they were. I could be happy just being by him couldn’t I? I looked over at where Sora was practically laying over on Hasu to see the screen, softly whispering pointers. It would be worth it just to be Kenta’s friend if nothing else. *** “Oh come on Ryuu! You can’t be serious!” I blinked at Akira surprised. “But I thought you’d like it-“ “It’s a skirt Ryuu! A fucking skirt!” “B-but it’s just part of the outfit-“ “I don’t care! You are not making me the girl of the band.” “I wasn’t trying to! I just thought-“ “Yeah, you thought wrong. Like usual.” I gasped softly, shocked at the hostile tone and glare. I was not used to Akira getting so upset and especially not with me. Grabbing the outfit out of his hands, I backed up. I started to say something, but the way he was looking at me seemed to close my throat off. Turning I fled down the hallway, slamming the door to my room shut behind me. Throwing the offending outfit I sat down on the floor, my back to the door. Closing my eyes I brushed away the tears. I couldn’t handle him yelling at me. His outfit had been the most difficult to get right and for him to so obviously hate it hurt. I’d worked two weeks on the design with Tatsuya’s input. Two weeks for nothing. Tatsuya was going to be so disappointed. Not to mention that now I felt like a complete idiot. “Ryuu?” “Just forget it. You’re right. I’m just stupid and can’t do anything right.” I could hear him sigh through the door. “You’re not stupid Ryuu-“ “No you were right, even Reiko says that all my ideas fail. I should just give up. Why do you guys even bother . . .” I couldn’t stop the tears anymore even as much as I hated them. I pulled my knees up to my chest and buried my face in my arms. I could hear Sora talking to Akira in the hallway but didn’t bother trying to make out the words. Why was I so stupid? I knew how Akira felt about looking feminine. It was just the outfit was perfect for him, or at least I thought so. He looked so good in anything I put him in, it almost wasn’t fair. The voices faded and I decided that I probably should go tell Akira I was sorry. I knew how sensitive he was about looking feminine. I’d just gotten caught up in the excitement and hadn’t been thinking. Going over to the pile of fabric, I picked it up and set it on the bed. It would have to be altered, but I could probably make it into something Akira would feel more comfortable wearing. Going to the bathroom I splashed a bit of cold water on my face trying to wash away the tears, but my eyes were still a bit red. Shaking my head, I glared at myself in the mirror. “You are lucky anyone even wants to be friends with you.” I told the reflection. “Stupid emotional idiot.” “I’d rather you didn’t talk about yourself that way, Ryuu.”

ok so basically while i was reading brohne's story savior(which i was totally swept away with) i though that i would write a poem about it,as i quite like to do that. so this poem reflects on the first 7 chapters of savior from Ryuu's point of view (http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/823-Savior-Chapter-1-Fantasy) and took me all evening to write and get right lol so hope u enjoy n give me your honest opinions thanks guys I wanna hold you, kiss you, touch you! I wanna hear you, love you, be near you! Music is my life and life is my music..... I need you and you need me..... We glance at each other as we pass by and I just wonder if you’re really shy. You are there for me to help me through this nightmare of a life we knew. I take a chance to kiss you full; you look concerned but follow through. My heads a blur and I hear you say “let's get you to bed, your too drunk today” The morning comes and light filters in, I smile, take a breath then walk right in. I feel your heat beneath the water as it pours, down our bodies as we yearn for more. A kiss here and a touch there, feelings I always wanted to share. I feel so happy and you are too, our friends notice how much and it’s because of you. I start to miss you but know it won’t be long before I can see your face and hear your voice ‘Oh what a song’ I smile, run and jump to you “NO DON’T” but it’s too late I end up grounded and shocked! What is this...HATE?! The tears they won’t stop flowing and I’m not even sure why, I don’t understand this feeling how can you make me cry! As time slowly passed and I realise what went wrong, “I’m sorry! I’m sorry!” I didn’t mean to cause pain this long. It seems ages since I saw you and I don’t know where to start, my voice really took a beating along with my heart. I started slipping away bit by bit and day by day, until I heard your voice again I knew I just had to pray. I opened my eyes and you were sleeping beside me, the warmth I felt inside my heart was nearly too much too see. Next time was different your face and your sound, something had happened while I wasn’t around! Confusion took over.... I didn’t understand!! Why are you hurt?!...why is he mad?!

LOVELESS I had a dream that was endless, You were standing there breathless and staring as I was friendless and afraid, We looked at each other as we realised we were nameless but didn’t know why, I tried to cry but I was tearless, You cried while skinless and wished that life was painless, We both knew that we were becoming bondless and slowly we were trust less, It was at that point when we became loveless while slightly being memory less, I started to think the world was warless, but woke startled, I was now sleepless and it was then I knew what zero was.

Very very cute drawing brohne! Thanks for posting! :5yoyo34:

My dear... there are just too many! Once there was a manga Complex by Manda Ringo that made me really cry D:

Ryuu To say I was shocked would have been a gross understatement. Not only had Kenta suggested we go shopping, he hadn’t complained once so far. If having nightmares meant I got pampered like this, it was a bit easier to take. I’d still just rather not have them. I’d been disappointed that Tatsuya couldn’t make it, but we’d made plans to go out later that week. It was going to be a double date. I got excited just thinking about being on an actual date with Kenta. “So, do you like the jeans?” “Yeah.” I sighed, he said yes to everything. Well almost everything. He’d said no to going into the adult novelty store and to trying on anything I wanted to get for him and no to joining me in the changing room. I’d still bought stuff for him though. We were close enough in size that I could get him the same size without having to worry whether or not it would fit. I’d found him a couple of shirts and a pair of jeans I was dying to see him in. I set my bags down in the seat next to me. We’d found a little café to have lunch in and he’d gotten us a table off to the side. He looked down at me and I was struck all over again by how gorgeous he was, the dark eyes soft as they looked into mine. “What do you want? I’ll go order for us.” I told him and watched him walk to the counter. After last night and this morning I had an all new kind of respect and appreciation for him. His reaction proved that I’d found someone who actually cared for me. He’d not once told me I was stupid or that I shouldn’t be so freaked out by a silly nightmare. I looked around the café. It was a small one, with cute décor. Tatsuya would have liked it. I noticed a couple of girls pointing at Kenta and giggling. I couldn’t help but smile. They were just shit out of luck. The man was mine and I would fight to keep it that way too. I couldn’t help but smirk as they watched him walk back to our table. “Thanks Arakaki-san.” I winked at him and got a glare in return. “Just eat and quit looking at those girls.” I raised an eyebrow at him. So he’d noticed. “What? They are cute, fawning all over you. The one was pointing at your butt. I have to agree with her, you have a very nice ass.” “Shut up Ryuu.” I grinned at him and took a bite of my sandwich. “Ryuu.” I looked up at him. “Are you going to tell me what happened last night?” I suddenly wasn’t hungry anymore. Blinking a couple of times I set my sandwich down. “I had a nightmare.” “Yeah . . . kind of fucking got that part. That was no normal nightmare.” “No . . . no it wasn’t.” Mostly because it had actually happened. “Ryuu . . .” I finally looked up at him trying my hardest not to let my emotions overwhelm me. “Ryuu, you can tell me.” I shook my head and looked back down. I could barely speak for the lump in my throat. “No . . . I can’t.” I bolted for the bathroom feeling like I was going to be sick. Almost two years and it still felt like yesterday. I still remembered everything he’d said to me, the way he’d beat me until I was nearly unconscious, how terrified I’d been afterward when I wouldn’t stop bleeding. I gagged, leaning over the sink. I knew what had triggered the nightmare and it frustrated me. I wanted to be with Kenta but even now it felt like Naoki was trying to control me. Maybe I needed to start taking my pills again. Just so I could sleep through the night. I jumped whipping around as I felt a hand on my shoulder. “Easy Ryuu, it’s just me.” The look of concern on Kenta’s face sent a stab of pain through me. I was worrying him, but there was no way I could tell him, not yet. A soft sob worked its way up and I pulled him close burying my face against his shirt. “I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” Kenta Wrapping my arms around him I backed us up slightly so I could block the door to the bathroom. I didn’t want anyone coming in and seeing Ryuu like this. He wasn’t sobbing like he had been that morning, but it still hurt me to hear him crying. “Easy, Ryuu. Nothing to apologize for.” I ran my hand down his back feeling the tremble. “Maybe we should go home. We can have everyone come over and we’ll gang up on Sora on that one video game.” That got a soft laugh and he nuzzled closer to me his arms slipping around my waist. “Why are you so nice to me Kenta?” I frowned at that question. Using my free hand I grabbed his chin and pulled his head up. I stared into those bottomless grey eyes. Things were starting to click into place. “Why wouldn’t I be Ryuu? Why don’t you clean up and I’m going to go make sure no one walked off with our stuff.” “Okay.” He was out sooner than I thought he would be, the bright confident smile firmly in place. It hurt me to think that it hid so much pain. Maybe soon he would feel comfortable enough to tell me what the nightmares were about. Until then I would be there to do whatever I could to help him. *** “Kenta?” “Hmm” “Will you stay tonight?” I looked over at him. We’d just finished cleaning up after everyone had left. Even with three of them ganging up on Sora they hadn’t managed to beat him. I didn’t even try. Video games were like school, pointless and a waste of time. “You want me to?” He nodded. After last night I didn’t really want to leave him by himself and I knew how much it bothered him to be alone. “Yeah sure, I’ll stay.” He came over and gave me a hug and a soft lingering kiss. “Thank you.” I smiled at him and wrapped my arms around him, pulling him against me so that I could feel every inch of that amazing body against mine. I kissed his neck, smiling at the soft gasp. His neck was so sensitive and I loved the way I could make him go crazy. “Let’s go to bed.” “No argument there.” He was giggling as I helped him get undressed. I couldn’t help but want to touch him all over. I desperately wanted him to forget what ever had made him so upset this morning. “Just a little anxious aren’t you, Kenta-kun?” He pulled me down on the bed with him. I grunted as there was a twinge in my ribs. I was going to have to be careful what I did, they still weren’t fully healed. I pushed myself up so that I wasn’t laying directly on him. “Oh you think so?” “I can feel you through your pants.” “Really?” His hand slid down my chest and with a flick of his wrist he’d unbuttoned my pants. I hissed softly as he pulled my hardening cock out of my boxers. “Mm this is better.” He grinned up at me, then suddenly the grin faded. “You are in pain. We should stop.” “No. No. I’m fine.” I wanted to whine as he let go of me and shifted back so he could sit up. He smacked my shoulder giving me a hard look. “You are not, I can tell. Don’t be stupid. It’s not worth it if you get hurt.” “Come on Ryuu.” “No, now lay down while I go get your medicine.” “Fuck. Why are you teasing me?” “I’m not teasing and you owe me.” Keeping my mouth shut I finished undressing and crawled into bed. I hated that he was right. I was in more pain than I wanted to admit. Damn him. I’d been looking forward to a bit of fun before bed. I knew that look though. There was no arguing with him now. Either way it was nice just to be near him and I wasn’t going to complain. I’d get a chance in the morning and there was all day tomorrow too. I grinned just thinking about it and settled deeper into the bed. It gave me a very content feeling to be here with Ryuu. One I hadn’t felt in years. I looked up as he came back in a water bottle in one hand and my pills in the other. I took both from him and watched him as he climbed into the bed next to me. Part of me was still shocked that I was here, sharing a bed with him. I didn’t deserve him, but hell if I was going to let him go. Setting the water bottle to the side I shut the light off and tackled him to the bed kissing him. He could be mad at me later.

Yojichan is a very good fanfiction writer

Oh Jenova, thanks a lot for sharing!!! The yaoi pics are pure hotness! :leaf15: Very very beautiful, and the censored sticky note was cool! :hamtaro-005 (5):

Me and my boyfriend just got into a fight just now and I wrote this poem about 5 minutes ago... :msn_red_fox 18 "Untitled" A stab through my heart And a bullet through my brain You're acting so different And things just aren't the same... Why must you hurt me Whenever you get the chance I think we need to end This torturous love dance... I'm crying every night And tears run down my face I want this hate to end Because I know this is my place... I'm torn between emotions I don't know what to do You walk away in silence Although I still love you... My thoughts are being ravaged By visions of black and red Please come back to me baby Before I end up dead...

. .although it's from your emotions, i still must say, as i expected from your works amander-sama those deep and sad feeling of yours, will fade in time, healing can't be forced, rather wait and everything will be in close

(first of all, i would like to thank amander-sama for inspiring me to work with poetry again) . .i don't know if this is good, but i still wanted to post this, 'cause it's my first try (it's been a long time since i write stuff like this) :cuteonion53: . .okay here it goes BULLETS Three shots strickens Neither resist Nor to hold it As it dug deeply These eyes, still glare On a shadow standing there Neither even a blink Can't even share First bullet, in the chest Hard to breathe Reaches the life source Still pumps at its best Second bullet, in the head Freeze, but blazes Numb, but senses Aches, but painless Third bullet, in the lips Thirsty and dry Now, why? It even still smile Thus, it moves to his Can't control it It wanders and bliss Reaches and fits Warmth and tender Tasteless but sweet Fragile and rare This place, I swear I LOVE YOU bullets I'll kept within These keen pieces Deeply and for eternity (I wrote this for almost an hour, i can't focus that much because of some situation here, phew!) . .any suggestions, comments and criticisms are important (yojichan, i'll be glad reading your opinions, if you may) . .thanks everyone

Ryuu I would never get tired to looking at Kenta. Especially when he was sleeping. All the hardness was gone replaced by a soft gentle expression I’d never seen when he was awake. Would probably never see, honestly. The man really had no idea how good looking he was. His soft full lips were just barely parted and I was dying to lean in and kiss them, but he needed to sleep. He’d waited too long to take his next dose of pain medication earlier and had barely been able to move without whimpering. It scared me. Even now just thinking about made me nauseous. If he wasn’t doing better by morning I was taking him to a clinic. He’d whined about having to go last time, but I’d rather listen to him whine than make those pained sounds he’d tried so hard not to let me hear. It had taken me forever to convince him to lie in the bed instead of on the couch. Laying there watching him sleep I couldn’t help but think about the last time someone had slept in that spot. Reaching out I rested my fingers in the soft dark hair. Kenta was so completely different than Naoki. Granted Naoki had changed a lot in the time I’d been with him. He’d gone from fun and affectionate to controlling and abusive. The change had been so gradual it had left me doubting myself. Only Reiko and Sora’s intervention had saved me from being hurt any worse than I already had been. Curling up, I turned my face into the pillow. I didn’t want to think about what had happened in this very room, on this bed. I inched as close to Kenta as I dared. Just being able to feel his warmth was enough to comfort me. I knew I could trust Kenta. I’d known that ever since I’d met him. Naoki would never have helped Reiko. People weaker than him were to be used. Nothing else. He’d eventually made it very clear that he considered me weak and inferior. Kenta never made me feel that way at all, but part of me was still scared that he would change too. Would sex change everything like it had with Naoki? Even as much as I loved and wanted to be with Kenta, deep down I knew I wasn’t ready. Even after almost two years I wasn’t ready. Though I really wasn’t sure things were going to go that far anytime soon anyway. I knew Kenta wasn’t going to push anything on me. The exact opposite. Unconsciously, I licked my lips thinking of the way he’d tasted when I’d caught him in the shower. He’d come so fast I’d barely got to enjoy giving him pleasure. I desperately wanted to please him in every way possible. *** “What is this?” “Breakfast in bed.” Deep black eyes regarded me as if I were insane. “Why?” “Because I wanted to do something for you. I wanted to say thank you for helping me the other night when I was so sick.” His eyes immediately dropped his expression hardening and I wondered what I’d said. “Kenta-“ “I fucked up Ryuu.” “No you didn’t! You found me and took me to a clinic-“ “Wouldn’t of had to if I’d done my job in the first place.” I sighed and taking a finger nudged the bowl of miso toward him. “Shut up and eat. I’m tired of you whining about stupid stuff you can’t change.” That got me a surprised look. It wasn’t that often that I got on to him, but I really was tired of it, tired of him only thinking of this, of me, as his job. I just didn’t know how to get him to see me differently. I knew he was attracted to me, that was obvious, but he was too worried about everything else. Maybe I should just lock him in my bedroom for a while. That thought brought a smile to my face and I saw him narrow his eyes at me as he blew on the soup. “What? You’re always planning something crazy when you smile like that.” “Mm, nothing. Just thinking about pretty princes locked in towers.” He grunted, “Whatever. Weirdo.” “Finish your soup, then get ready because we are leaving.” “Eh? Why?” “You are going back to the clinic.” “No.” “Yes you are.” “No I’m fucking not.” I poked him in the side making him jump and start cussing, almost spilling the tray. “See, you are hurt. We are going to the clinic.” “F-fuck . . .” It took him a minute to get his breath back and I felt bad, kind of. “Don’t . . . don’t do that Ryuu.” “I won’t. Unless you say you aren’t going to the clinic again.” “Why are you being so mean to me?” “You are whining.” “I am not.” “Eat your soup.” “Fine.” Getting up off the bed, I couldn’t help but smile at him. His eye was turning purple, but the swelling had gone down overnight. The other bruises were dark and only going to get darker over the next few days. It was his ribs that were worrying me. He hadn’t acted this bad last time he’d hurt them and I was worried he’d hurt himself worse this time. It was just getting the stubborn ass to admit that he was hurt in the first place. Going to the closet I pulled out a pair of pants and a button up shirt. I knew from last time that raising his arms over his head would hurt. Besides, the buttons gave me an excuse to touch him as long as possible. “Ryuu . . . I’ll just go home.” I turned to look at him. “Kenta. You are my bodyguard. If you are injured and unable to perform your job I’ll have to have someone else do it. Besides that, Hayate already called and said he won’t be needing you at the bar for a while. That and if you don’t go willingly Jiro said he’d come get you.” Silence. “Bastard.”

Thank you so much for the responses, it's really pleasant to read your opinions and reactions! :Red_fox7: I've put the previous ones with a little more quality and I'm going to post some hugging, stripping and smexing now. Hope you like it~ -- Should I post more? :cuteonion46:

It's lyrical. It's good. I'm curious as to what triggered this poem to come about? What is the significance of the bullets? Some people will tell you that there's the right way and the wrong way to compose poetry but i'm telling you, don't listen to them. break the rules. follow your heart and be true to what you wanna express. keep on writing. be inspired.

Kenta “Get up. “ The deep rumble startled me awake but it was the fist in my hair that had me on my feet. Oh fuck! Fuck! When had Jiro got here? I had a quick glance at Ryuu asleep on the bed before I was hauled out of the room. I stumbled trying to keep my feet, my hair getting yanked in the process. “Fuck! Let go Jiro!” He didn’t say anything and didn’t let go either. Shit. My stomach suddenly felt like it was trying to crawl out my throat. A pissed off Jiro was the last thing I needed right now. There was a sharp stabbing pain in my side to match the searing pain in my head. He threw me down in the living room and I narrowly missed bashing my head into the coffee table. Scrambling around I got to my feet only to have him backhand me hard enough to send me right back to the floor. I stayed there. There was no rage in his eyes, just a dead calm. I was in some seriously deep shit if that was the case. I looked over realizing Hayate was standing by the front door. He had a busted lip and was trying to stop his nose from bleeding. He glanced at me then looked away. My attention snapped back to Jiro as he spoke. “I am very disappointed in the two of you. Nakamara wants you fired Kenta. Fired and demoted.” I flinched. It was the least I deserved. “I should. I should demote you back down to the most junior rank and let you work your way back up. I really thought better of you Kenta. I didn’t think you would shirk your responsibilities like this. What would have happened if someone had recognized Ryuu? He could have been kidnapped . . . or killed. His parents pay us the protection money for a reason. He’s not just some ditzy singer; he’s the son of Ito Yoshiru and Kaori. The Ito name alone is worth billions of yen. He’s a target for extortionists and paparazzi. What happened last night would have made national news if he’d been recognized. You just better thank whatever god happened to be watching out for him last night that didn’t happen.” I shrank down as he came to stand over me. I knew all this, why was he telling me again? I knew who Ryuu was. Though it was easy to forget when I was with him all the time. “Jiro I-“ “Did I give you permission to speak?” I yelped as the fist slammed into the side of my head knocking me flat. Shit but he hit hard. My ears were ringing. I couldn’t remember Jiro ever being this mad at me. He’d never hit me before. I knew it happened occasionally when the other guys fucked up, but I’d never planned on being one of them. It was getting harder to breathe, the pain radiating around from my side. I’d probably fucked up my ribs again carrying Ryuu last night. Getting hit didn’t help either. “Hayate go get the car, we are leaving. I’ve already got Teito headed over to keep an eye on Ryuu.” The pain was forgotten as I looked up at Jiro. I struggled to get up, using the coffee table as support. “No, I’ll stay. He . . . he needs me.” “He needed you yesterday. No, it’s too late Kenta. You lost your chance. Get up, we are leaving.” He didn’t give me a choice, roughly hauling me to my feet. I swayed for a second, dizzy. The side of my face was numb and throbbing, my ribs aching, but it was the sick hollow feeling eating away at me that was causing the most pain. Jiro was right. I’d lost my chance. Ryuu had been the best thing to ever happen to me and I’d treated him like shit. I’d lied to myself, to him, thinking that it would be best for both of us. Why was I so fucking stupid? Then it hit me. I was scared. Fucking scared shitless. Why would someone like Ryuu want anything to do with someone like me? But even more than that, I was scared of what would happen if it was found out. The media would rip him to shreds for dating an ex con yakuza member, never mind another guy. I couldn’t let that happen. He meant too much to me. “No. I am staying here.” “I don’t want you here.” I turned to see Sora standing in the hall. “I want you to leave. You’ve done enough damage.” I shook my head, wincing. “No, I am staying. I’ll find a way to-“ “I said no.” It only took Sora two long strides to reach me and the next thing I knew I was on the floor by the couch. Holy fuck! I did not need this right now. “Wait! Sora stop!” Hayate was trying to stop him as I used the couch to try and get back up. Maybe I should just stay on the floor. “You don’t understand.” Hayate almost landed on me as Sora shoved him out of the way. “I understand perfectly fine. He’s happy to use Ryuu to get what he wants, just like all those posers and fakes who only want to be his friend because of who he is. I told you if you hurt him, I’d make you regret it.” I was too slow to get out of the way as Sora reached down and yanked me up. He didn’t understand. I already regretted it. “No that’s not-fuck!” I tried to block him but I was in too much pain. He hit as hard as or harder than Jiro and he wasn’t stopping. Hayate finally managed to pry him off me. I ended up half laying on the couch. The only thing I could think was that Ryuu was going to be upset that I was getting blood on the pretty white fabric. I didn’t blame Sora for being mad at me. I was mad at myself, but there wasn’t anything I could do about it now. With a shaking hand I wiped the blood off my chin. I went to push myself up and felt something in my chest give. My vision went dark for a moment as agony ripped through me. I wasn’t sure if I could get up. “Fuck! Kenta are you alright? Sora! You didn’t have to go that far!” Hayate was yelling. “He’s the one that went too far! Making Ryuu think he was interested in him. Leading him on-“ “Enough.” Jiro voice cut through the yelling and I felt a firm hand on my upper arm. It took all myself control not to sob with pain as he pulled me up. “I think your point has been made Sora. You won’t have to worry about Kenta. He won’t be back.” “No, Jiro, no you can’t have someone else watch him.” I tried to shake off Jiro’s hand. I was almost sick with pain, but I couldn’t let them. No one knew Ryuu like I did. Could handle his tantrums, could calm him down when he’d get upset. “Teito doesn’t understand him.” “Oh and you do?” I looked over at Sora and realized my right eye must be swelling shut. I couldn’t really see him. “Yes. I do. I know I fucked up, but just give me another chance.” I tilted my head so I could look up at Jiro. “Please. Please let me stay.” *** Sora glared at me every time he walked into the room. Ryuu had been sleeping for the last couple of hours and it was nearing nine in the evening. Sora was still upset with me. He’d barely let me help when Ryuu had woke earlier to eat and use the bathroom. Not that I was a whole lot of help. I’d wrapped my ribs back up and taken some pain meds, but the dull ache was still there. “Why did you even bother staying?” I didn’t lift my head from where it was resting on my arm. What was I supposed to fucking say? Keeping my eyes on the sleeping man only a few inches from me I knew why I’d stayed. I’d sit here all night watching him again if I had to. “Sora . . . haven’t you considered what would happen if-if the media found out. About me, I mean. If we . . . were together I know it would always have to be a secret. Not just because we are both guys, but . . . I have a criminal record and not just something silly like shoplifting. I went to juvie for assault and battery when I was fourteen. I’m yakuza now. How would that look to the media. I want him to be happy, Sora and I just don’t think he would really be happy with me.”

Kenta I flipped open my phone, trying to juggle it and the box of paperwork Isao had given me to archive. Crazy ass pencil pusher needed to get an assistant and quit asking me to do this shit. “Hey-“ “Kenta? It’s Sora. Have you heard from Ryuu?” Letting the box down I straightened, frowning. “No, not for a few days. Why?” “He’s not answering his phone and I just tried to go check on him and he wasn’t at the apartment.” “When did you see him last?” “Yesterday afternoon. The doorman said he left sometime last night . . . Kenta he never came home.” I nearly dropped the phone. “Wh-what? Ryuu doesn’t just go out, not like that. Fuck.” “Yeah I know. It’s got me really worried. He was acting strange yesterday and honestly I think he was getting sick.” “Ryuu is never sick.” “Yeah I know, so he probably didn’t even realize it. Kenta, you need to find him.” “Yeah.” I felt like someone had taken my guts and twisted them inside out. “Yeah, I’ll uh . . . I’ll call you.” “Thanks Kenta.” I hung up and leaned against the wall behind me. Shaking myself, I took a breath. Where would Ryuu go if he wasn’t feeling good? Shoving off the wall I headed to the front of the office. Isao was at the computer tapping away at that infernal keyboard. “Iesada, I got a problem.” He looked at me over the rim of his glasses. “You are a problem Arakaki. What’s wrong this time?” “Ryuu is missing.” “Oh shit, that is a problem. Aren’t you supposed to be his bodyguard?” “Don’t fucking rub it in! You’ve had me here doing shit for the past two weeks.” “You could have said something.” “Like you’d fucking listen.” He sighed. “You are right. I try my level best to ignore your idiocy at all times. You need help finding him?” “Yeah.” I felt like punching the mouthy shithead but Hayate would kill me. “Give me thirty minutes.” “Okay.” It took fifteen. “One of the guys spotted him about three hours ago at a net café over on the lower south side. He’s not come out yet. Here is the address.” “Awesome!” I snatched up the paper, thanking him on my way out. He might be a mouthy son of a bitch, but he got stuff done. *** The net café was a nice one. All the cubicles looked full. Going to the little food bar I asked the girl making drinks if she’d seen Ryuu. “Oh, how could I forget a hottie like that? Yeah. He’s in A3, but you aren’t supposed to bother-“ I turned and walked off. I had the information I needed. The door was shut, but there was no sound coming from the other side. I went to knock on it and paused suddenly feeling nervous. I hadn’t talked to him in days and hadn’t seen him for even longer. Things had been fucking awkward ever since the day at Jiro’s. He hadn’t even been calling as often as he normally did. I just figured he was pissed at me. Who wouldn’t be? I fucking thrown him across a room then turned him down when he’d asked me out. So now, I wasn’t really sure what to expect. Sliding the door open I scrambled to catch him as he fell backward. “Fuck! Ryuu!” Kneeling down I tried to prop him up. He was sweating like crazy, his shirt soaked and he felt entirely too hot to the touch. Glazed eyes slowly focused on me as he struggled weakly to get up. “Oh hi.” “Ryuu . . . fuck. You are sick. Why the hell aren’t you at home?” “It’s lonely.” It couldn’t possibly have hurt worse if he’d taken a dull knife and stabbed it right through me. If I’d been doing what I was supposed to, doing my fucking job, he wouldn’t be here like this, wouldn’t have been wandering around sick all night. I’d put him in danger by not being there. I was a fucking failure. Not anymore. Not fucking again. Shifting around, I scooped him up. He was lighter. Why the fuck was he lighter? “Excuse me sir?” I looked up to see the lady from earlier looking worried. “Is there something I can help you with.” “Yeah, call me a cab.” She nodded, her eyes never leaving Ryuu. “Right away sir.” I held him against me, feeling him shake every so often. Fuck. I had to get him to a clinic. Nakamara was going to have my balls. Worse than that, he was going to fire me. Setting Ryuu down, I took my jacket off and wrapped it around him before picking him up again. I gasped as there was a sudden sharp pain in my side. Shaking it off, I walked toward the front keeping a tight hold on Ryuu. The cab was just pulling up. I nodded to the girl as she held the door open for me. Ryuu was saying something, but with his face buried against my neck I couldn’t make out what it was. I was starting to sweat just from carrying him he was so hot to the touch. It was scaring me. If his fever was too high it could get dangerous. The ride to the clinic was tense. I played with my phone, dialing Nakamara then shutting it. I finally decided to call Sora. Someone needed to know I’d found him. Sora picked up on the second ring and I could hear a video game going in the background. “Kenta? Turn that down will you, Hasu? Did you find him? Is he alright? Where was he?” “Um. He was at a net café. We are on our way to a clinic. He’s um-he’s really sick.” “Which clinic?” I told him wondering how soon I’d know if I’d lost my job or not. I hadn’t told Nakamara about having Hayate do my job. I’d just thought that giving Ryuu some space would be better. I was lying to myself. I knew I was. Fucking lying. I just couldn’t handle being around him every day. When I was around him all I could think about was . . . things I shouldn’t be thinking about. His safety was my priority. Nothing else. Reaching over I smoothed the sweat soaked hair back from his face. “I’m sorry Ryuu.” Ryuu Light woke me. It was too bright to sleep any longer. I slowly opened my eyes almost dreading what I would see. I had heard voices several times when I’d wake just enough to have someone give me some water. After the second time that had happened, I’d realized I was very sick. It was scary. My body wouldn’t move and for a while I’d nearly panicked trying to get up. Nothing had made sense at that point. The only thing that came through clearly was Kenta’s voice. Knowing that he was there meant I didn’t have to worry. I’d actually slept after that. I wondered if it was morning. The clock said it was two, must be afternoon. Turning my head the other way I blinked seeing Kenta half laying on the bed, one arm stretched out toward me. My heart sped up. How long had he been there? Why was he here? I slowly reached over, running my fingers through the dark strands. Now that I was awake I could remember hearing his voice the whole time since he’d first found me at the net café. I wasn’t really sure how I’d gotten there, that part was kind of a blur. I’d just known that something didn’t feel right. I’d thought that maybe going out would help. Apparently not. He stirred slightly under my fingers and I froze. Would he be mad at me for touching him? I just didn’t know what to do anymore. He was so confusing. Taking my hand out of his hair I laid my head back turning to look out the window again. I should just give up. I wasn’t willing to lose his friendship over this. I could deal with not being closer. I would deal with it. Closing my eyes, I bit down on the urge to cry. I wasn’t going to. He’d just get on to me for it anyway. I nearly jumped feeling warm fingers suddenly surrounding mine. I turned my head, only to smile weakly seeing Sora standing next to the bed. Kenta was still sound asleep. “Hey.” “Hey.” “You look like shit.” “You look like a walking mop, a dirty one.” Sora just chuckled and shook his head, keeping his voice down. “You gave us quite a scare yesterday, Ito.” “Sorry. I knew something didn’t feel right and thought going out would help.” “Why didn’t you call me?” “Because I always call you. It’s not fair to you Sora.” “Bullshit. You could have called this idiot.” Sora glanced down at Kenta. I shook my head. “No, he . . . just no.” “He stayed up all night with you last night. He must have passed out just a few minutes ago. I was just in here thirty minutes ago and he was still awake.” I shifted around to sit up, leaning against the headboard. “Well, it’s his job isn’t it?” Even I heard the bite in my voice and I suddenly felt bad. “Yeah . . . about that. I think Nakamara is going to fire him.” I jerked around to face Sora. “What! No! No, he can’t! I won’t allow it! I-it was my fault. I . . . was too pushy.” A dry laugh escaped me and I dropped my head, plucking at the covers. “If anything he could sue me for sexual harassment.” “I don’t think he would do that Ryuu.” At Sora’s gentle tone I looked up. “He really does like you Ryuu. We . . . talked for a bit last night at the clinic. He’s terrified of getting fired, but he’s more scared of messing things up for you.” I stared at Sora trying to process that information. Kenta and scared didn’t go in the same sentence. I looked back down at the dark head. It was just like Kenta to think of someone else before himself. I just wished he would let me back in. I’d been shoved back outside that barrier and it seemed higher than ever. “I don’t know Sora.” “Just . . . don’t give up Ryuu. If you can’t win, where will I be?” “Jacking off to those photos you sneak when he’s not looking.” Sora’s eyes narrowed dangerously. “If you weren’t sick I’d . . . sometimes I don’t even know why I bother.” “Cause you love me!” I grinned at him as I shifted back down under the covers and rolled over onto my side. I was feeling sleepy again. I curled up around Kenta laying a hand on his. “Besides, it’s what I do. So I know you’d do it too.” “Oh my god, Ryuu . . . you are just . . . never mind. Go back to sleep for a bit. I’ll bring you something to eat here after while.” “Sora.” I waited till he’d turned back around. “Thanks and . . . I will keep trying.”

WTH? How bad are your neighbors! I luckily have really good and polite neighbors, except sometimes we have small conflict, but it would eventually be dealed. I wanna complain about my ability to remember things! I am absent minded one .... this morning i hide my key in somewhere and now i can't find it :leaf9: I always feel afraid of learning sth by heart ...for the exam. It sucks cause I will totally forget everything when I am in front of teacher :leaf9:

heyy everyone :hamtaro-005 (4): guess what? i'm posting chapter 2 .. yayy hope you'r hungry for some blue crush, haha .. :hamtaro-005 (22): enjoy, yaoi lovers :leaf3: chapter 2 Sasuke looked at naruto with sharp eyes while the blond gazed him, the shock overcame him, he couldn't even speak a work, he just gazed the raven man's intense eyes, if looks could kill, naruto would be in his grave now but does Sasuke have that sharp look on his face? What's he so mad about? Naruto thought "I wanna run so fast 'til I get to the top of that hill and .... Say hi? ... No that's not what I want, I want to... Kiss him with all I got, hug him, touch that delicious chest, and lick it, and, wait! I'm not gay!! ..... No…oo not for that shit head... no fucking way Naruto didn't wanna follow his desire if he does his pride is so over... he pretended like he didn't even see him, he looked to his left seconds before Looking on his right he drank some expired milk that was already in his hand milk and got into his house of course it's all pretending that he wanted to know what the heck is wrong with people and where they were looking at, but then he just pretends that he doesn't care what is it ... it's all just.. Pretending. But his real feelings were so…oo the total total total opposite of what he pretended he said "Oh fuck! Why did you come back Sasuke, go back! Go back to the hell that you came From Sasuke, ughhh, you shitty fuck head you made me gay!! And who knows maybe I was gay from the start... I mean I've always liked to peep rock lee bathing and gara changing why can't I just accept it like Sasuke and his friggin' brother did?" A moment's of silence has passed before naruto screams: "fuck you Sasuke….ee" 40 minutes passed and naruto hasn't moved a muscle!! And finally he gets up and Says: "okay, I can't take this ... he's like 10 meters away probably screwing around with I don't know who, and I'm right here complaining about it, I gotta do something, why Am I talking to myself? Great I'm gay AND crazy!" He said as he took his orange jacket with 2 stripes on the same side as his short's which Is right, Okay so he buckled his belt and went out ... guess what he saw Sasuke hitting on rock lee! Sasuke was pinning rock lee's right hand to the wall behind Him, playing with his hair.... And they were talking...Naruto heart was on fire just like A wife seeing her husband screw around someone ... well he knew that it would mean that he's jealous and his pride will be history ... but he had to do something he thought: "hmmmm, I could go and kick rock lee's ass ... or .. No I love him too much to kick his ass, I could... Yes that's the thing" Naruto saw Sakura staring at him from a distance, he winked at her, what!? Naruto Winking at sakura! What the...?! Has he lost hope in Sasuke?! After all the stupid long days in the stupid 5 years?! Well sakura Came closer in steps that show how shy she is ... and when she was right in front of him .. Sakura: "i see you changed your mind" she said in a low, yet heard voice... Naruto: "do you want me sakura" Sakura: " eh?! Yes!" Naruto: "ok pretend that you love Sasuke, not me, and you're together, now look there Whataya see? "He said in a low voice Sakura: " what?! Sasuke's gay?! "She says in a loud voice Naruto: "shhhh lower your voice, he's screwing with rock lee behind your Back, what will you do now? Maybe he doesn't love you anymore. Sakura: "listen, naruto, this is so no t a proper conversation topic" Naruto: "ok let's get to the bottom of this, if you go there and pretend you're sasuke's Lover from the 3 past years, and you're really mad about what's going on, I'll.... I'll sleep with you sakura!" Sakura: " eh?! I thought you liked me?! And why do I have to do this?! It's really shitty y'know?" Naruto: " sakura, do you wanna sleep with me or not?" Sakura: "i wanna ... Sleep with you" Naruto: "then go there and do your best acting ever" Sakura: "will I be on top?" Naruto: "yes, now go!" Sakura: "okay, okay" she said as she took a loud big sigh and walked to Sasuke and Rock lee with a mad, EXTREMELY mad face and said to Sasuke with a loud Voice: " you're screwing guys now?!" Sasuke: "what?" Sakura: "after all that hot romance with you, all these nights and you are screwing guy's now And out of all guys, what guy did ya pick? Rock lee?" Sasuke: " wait, what are you saying?! That I was with you?! Is this some kinda prank?" Sakura: "oh and now you deny it?! You're such a BASTARD" Rock lee: "I thought you said you're single" Sakura: "no! He is not fucking single!" sakura screamed in their faces Rock lee: "ok I'm done here" he said as he raised his hands to his shoulder's height and Walked away... Naruto was looking at them from a distance, happy, proud, with what he had done, it Was unusually smart from him, and he didn't even involve himself in all that shit, wow, what a scene, I didn't know naruto was so smart. Sakura: "ughhh thank god I did it GOOD, maybe I should try acting school instead Of ninja!" Sasuke: "what the fuck?!" Sakura: "oh sorry Sasuke that was a favor for a friend" she said as she walked back to Naruto held his hand and walked back with him to his place. Sasuke: "naruto? ..." he said in a low voice, remembering that night, those Feelings ... those feelings from that day, those feelings haunting him everyday, Every time he was with another man.... That one memory that filled his days... He thought: "have I lost him? Have I lost him ... forever? He sent sakura to get rock lee Away from me, that means he's jealous, or just ... that he wants to ruin my life? Or that he's not jealous over me, but over rock lee, I just wanna know, what make's Sakura better than me? Is it boobs? "He watched naruto til they both got in the house, oh gosh! What's going on in that house?! Some hot smexy sex maybe? Well... Sakura: "ughhh well"... Naruto: "whataya want me to do…?" Sakura: "duh, undress me..." Naruto sighed in boredom got closer to her, and unzipped her dress, naruto didn't really Feel like doing that ... he ... loves Sasuke, not sakura, but, what could he do? He has to Do it... So..... Sakura: "you're too slow naruto" she said as she removed narutos hands from her shirt and unzipped it herself, then She took it off and took her bra off too, if naruto wasn't gay I'm sure that he will be now on bed screwing sakura as Hard as he could while sakura's moaning as loud as she could, but oh well too GOOD he is .. Sakura unzipped narutos jacket and took it off, unbuckled his belt and took it off too, she unzipped his shorts, and it appears that he wasn't wearing underwear! So she kept stroking his dick for seconds before she lowered to his waist started licking it, naruto thought: "only if it was Sasuke licking me ... I'd have a boner!" Naruto: "why are you doing this?" Sakura stopped licking for a moment and said: "to get you hard" Naruto: "no I mean I said I liked someone else so why are doing this even if I don't like you?" Sakura: "you'll like me later" she said and continued licking naruto for seconds before She pushed him to the bed behind, and said: "enjoy" Naruto thought: "oh shit I thought that Sasuke would be my first! And I kept fantasizing about it for 5 years!! I'm just gonna ... close my eyes and imagine its Sasuke ..." Naruto closed his eyes as sakura sat on his waist putting her legs each on a side of narutos body and her Hand's on his chest, she rubbed her pussy against narutos dick moaning softly, naruto Was actually pretty hard, ya know, no man can resist a woman with such a face and Body!! He started breathing heavily; a smirk was drawn on sakura's face, not that shy Cute girl anymore, as they say Screw innocence, do you they say that? Whatever... When her hands were about to reach his dick so it would enter her ... Sasuke busted the door with a kick! He looked so sexy when he was doing that, at least naruto thought so … Sasuke?! Where did this guy come from? And why is he here? No, the answer's too obvious... To Stop sakura of course, what's gonna happen next? Is there love to be finally fulfilled?! Find out the next chapter everyone!

. .supah like this :leaf12: . .so pretty

Yeah this reads like a good idea for most of us here. I'm all for it if this gets to be launched. I'm sure a lot of people would enjoy this and would be a great venue for a lot of people to get closer and know each other better. However, some strict ground rules needs to be implemented and followed by the members that way to avoid conflicts and unnecessary troubles in the chat room. Because it's all fun and games until someone gets hurt pretty bad. No bashing of personal favorites. Avoid sensitive topics like religion and politics. No character assassinations. No hurtful name calling/cussing of members. No cyber bullying. Anyone who breaks these rules are given warnings and penalties should be enforced.

I like this pic of me because I'm wearing my favorite skirt

Thank you Angel0fS!n XD I don't think I'm very good though lol. kaorukun, here are a few more Shading in with just pencil is my favorite. I love shading things in XD Here are some more And this one is actually my first attempt at a BL picture lol XD Its kinda sloppy because it was just sketched out fast

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